#combined what the hell is that man on

[ruairy]

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#sometimes i feel like. yeah man barely exist most ppl don't notice or care about me and it's fine #yesterday a new manager came for me for some inconceivable reason bc man had said lile one word to me and then declared me lazy #started talking to other ppl about how i dont do.anything and Quote stand behind till bank looking at one otem for two hours unquote which #i don't even need to begin saying what bullshit that is #found out he said as such bc abother co-worker im buddies with overheard and told me bc he felt violated on my behalf #we both proceeded to tell like half the floors worth of staff bc of the out rage #i may have said many swear words very loud and scared a customer before coworker cartwd me.to the staff only area to calm down #but like. every other staff that found put either came to me to ask Wtf or said to me bro u do more work than almost eveyone on this floor #combined what the hell is that man on #anyway. the coup has begun #we've already collectively chased out two shit managers and man doesnt know we'll do it again lol #feels nice hearing ppl say he has to gtfo bc he disrespected me specifically lmao

[canisalbus]

My aunt is very sensitive to strong scents (buys my deodorant so that we know it won't harm her, because other than a couple brands, they give her migraines, we don't have scented candles, and I have a couple of perfumes, but I never wear them), so we're super careful there, but we also can't go into some stores because the perfume counter is Right There. When we go shopping, she knows to look for me in the candle aisle because I'll stand there sniffing each candle and giving a review to whoever is with me at the time

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#sounds like we'd probably have good time sniffing candles together #answered #anonymous #yeah the perfume counter is a hell of it's own #I live in a relatively small city so I can only think of one single shop that has a dedicated perfume section #so at least those are easy for me to avoid personally #I used to hate perfumes because the only ones I ever had experiences with were the fruity floral candy smells marketed for women #and the obnoxious overbearing alpha man perfumes for men #there's a lot of variation and interesting combinations if you venture outside the highest selling most strongly gendered mainstream ones #I stubbornly kept testing various ones until I figured out what notes and types of scents I like #and I feel like I have established a pretty reliable pattern #but I understand it's not for everyone and I genuinely try my best to avoid offending people's noses #my favorite thing is to put some on in the evening after I've taken a shower but before I go to bed #just for myself to enjoy for a couple hours

[headless-horsepossum]

one time in third year when i was 14 and living in scotland a popular girl asked if she could copy my homework and i looked at her with 100% sincere surprise and disapproval and said "but then how will you learn the material?" and they still didnt screen me for autism until i was twenty four years old 😑

#i imagine this is due to the combined effects of being afab and moving every year but come on guys #about the possum #man. in retrospect. genuine respect for 14yo beau in particular for being probably the version of me that was. #putting the least amount of effort into Seeming Normal #do sort of with that didn't mean Being The Biggest Square These Scottish Teenagers Have Ever Seen. But. you cant win em all ig #potentially gave an. interesting impression of What Americans Are Like. hey waid academy students in 2009 thats not an american thing #the shit i had going on that year was 60% autism and 40% transgenderism. give or take like 2% cultural whiplash #anyway. sort of wish i could talk to any of those kids now and find out who they are outside the prism of 'why am i here and 14 im in hell' #......but not enough to get back on facebook obviously. lmao

[fleshdyke]

hchkvgjvfj

#csa warning for tags #goddd being raped at 6ish and brutally bullied is a hell of a combination #i was the one kid in not only my grade but multiple above and below me as well that the boys would dare each other to 'ask out' #absolutely CONSTANTLY. like jesus #by the time i was raped i'd already been bullied pretty badly for a while. including being constantly told i was ugly by all the boys #which is like. a huge reason i was raped in the first place. i still dont know who it was but i can only assume he took advantage of me #being constantly bullied to abuse me. as child rapists so often do #but like i was always the one that would be 'asked out' as a dare bc why would any of them want to talk to me #it was so inconceivable that any of them could want to be near me let alone 'go out' with me. they didn't even bother trying to hide the way #they laughed. like they didn't try to hide it bc they knew no one would do anything #and this happening to me fucking constantly for years on end throughout my ENTIRE childhood. that fucks with you man #like i dont think its even possible for anyone to like being around me at all. let alone find me attractive #there's still never been a single person who's had a crush on me or whatever #like all my friends have stories about annoying boys having crushes on them when they were younger. and what does it say about me that im #the complete opposite. and like it's so stupid because who fucking cares what 10 year old boys thought in 2016 but it really really fucks #you up bad man. like if anyone ever does come to be attracted to me for whatever reason i dont think im ever going to be able to believe it #i'm always going to be waiting for the joke to end and them to start laughing. i'll always be waiting for the other shoe to drop #and the worst part of it all is that i fucking want to be raped again #being raped as a little kid is the only time anyone has ever wanted me. it's the only time i've ever been desired. and i dont even like sex #but it's just the only time anyone has ever loved me in a non parental way #like i have one crush story to all my friends'. and it was a grown man that raped me when i was little #and i want to be raped again so fucking badly not because i would enjoy it but because it would prove that someone actually fucking wants me #i want to be sexually harassed and not in the way i usually am. i want to be catcalled and have to be scared walking around alone #i want men to grope me and say disgusting things and rape me because then i would finally be fucking wanted #it would prove that i'm actually likeable in some capacity. that i still am #im so scared that now that im grown im just a lost cause. because i was only desirable when i was little. now im just nothing #and i know i shouldnt even care but its so fucking hard to shake. i just want someone to love me #and i love my mom so much but i want them to love me because they want to and not because they have to #rambles #vent

[enypneon]

just a reminder that murtagh compares the way he should approach a child to the way he'd approach horses.

... as an alternative to dragon rider, he considers being a mercenary and/or surgeon for paid employment (maybe this can be used for crossovers where dragon riders won't make much sense).

... never had someone teach him the ways of magic (properly) sure galbatorix showed him this and that but ha ☝️ you'd be a fool to believe he taught him more than was the absolute and bare minimum. sometimes he still needs to get creative for 'basic' use of magic.

#i don't particularly like when murtagh is compared to eragon or any proper magic wielder bc you CAN'T you can't compare them #it doesn't make sense and they weren't trained under the same conditions #of course murtagh is weaker by default he didn't have sane experienced riders at his disposal who were mentoring him with good intentions #and in profound detail - no - he got the abusive ones with the combined energy of mad dragon souls ! #on top of that ... perhaps he had like what? half a year max? to practice etc. to go from 0 to 100 #and only had limited and restricted access to all things concerning magic while 'occasionally' being mentally and physically tortured #the energy the dragon souls provided was too much for him and yet he was forced to use it #even though the soreness would leave him paralysed sometimes?? imagine that feeling #while being a captive of the man who makes your life a living hell? please.....🖐️🖐️🖐️ #yes he's usually physically weak(er) as well BECAUSE GUESS WHAT?? points to the above #doesn't mean he can't ever be stronger ─ in the future ─ with time ─ and experience ─ he is a mental fortress though #and you can't change my mind but that's another essay #stories:murtagh. #° › OOC ‹ 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐄 * out of character ╲ MUN .

[claire-starsword]

and now here it is if you're curious

#the writer of this novel is a shrimp to me. what the hell is all this #the scans also decided to fuck me by not getting a dakuten and making me look up 'hisuku' for far too long #and the kanji combination he used was also not in any dictionary so i think it's not usual #what the hell man it keeps happening

[vamptastic]

it's just like. okay. when i say i like men in a gay way and women in a lesbian way i don't mean that i think straight attraction is icky or my attraction is somehow more enlightened and progressive. i mean that I've spent the formative years of my sexuality in a place with my gender presentation where people are equally as likely to see me as a man or a woman and often seem to think of me as both, and i cannot separate both my attraction to men or to women from that. ive always felt drawn to butchness because its this concept that your love for the same gender shapes your gender presentation and vice versa, but it's specific to womanhood and attraction to women as a woman in a way i can't entirely relate to. like, in many ways i am both a man and a woman, and i am attracted to both men and woman in a way both shaped by and reflected by that fact.

#there's not really a clear label for that is there #i suppose i don't need one it's just to have that cos you can find similar people #i suppose bisexual as a gender is the closest i can get #like both sexes and also attracted to both sexes and those two things each are linked to and affected by the other #i don't know. i expect my feelings on this will change as i transition and people start to really see me as a man #and not the in-between ive been in since puberty (thank you pcos combined with massive badonkahonkawonkadonks) #it's just sort of frustrating to feel like nobody gets it #like lesbians are into me cos they think im butch #a specific type of man-autistic nerds (affectionate)-seem to just see me as a regular ol woman #and when confronted with the reality that i am not seem to not really care either way about my gender #other trans people are into me and they do generally get it but not always #and gay guys are into me sometimes but i don't really pass consistently enough for it to happen often #like im not actively seeking a partner n i don't both passing day to day cos everyone knows im trans already #n binding is a living hell when you're fat with a fucking. idk the size like E or F probably. cup size. #so mostly ppl approach me thinking im butch but occasionally ppl think im a guy in photos i post and such or #strangers will ask my friends abt me thinking im a guy #but like generally speaking no matter what i don't get to just be A Man. and i don't know if i really want to be! i like being trans #and it sucks because ive missed out entirely on dating in middle/high school like when you find out who you like #simply for being trans. ik most queer ppl end up doing it all in college its just frustrating yk. cos all my cis friends get to do it #realistically speaking im p much just t4t i really only have actually tried to date trans people + trans people are hotter + they get it #which im fine with. i love trans people . just sucks to be excluded sometimes even when u don't want in

[dany36]

finally youtube recommends me something truly worthwhile

#xenoblade #xenoblade chronicles x #xcx #i was like #huh the noctilum day theme doesn't last for more than 3 minutes #and both day and night themes combined last around 5 minutes i wonder what other song they used--OH HELL YES #MAN i remember stumbling upon that area of noctilum for the first time i was in AWE #i am a noctilum hoe tru and thru #junk #Youtube

[quietwingsinthesky]

there’s actual good fights you could point out where Dean does put his foot down and it’s completely justified, even if only from his point of view. why would you bring up the amy thing instead of literally anything else.

#idk man if you’re gonna make that argument go with something in s4 #Dean telling Sam to stop demon blood. one of those times. #not only are those fights p much like totally him in the right. he even thinks he’s in the right. #(compared to Amy where even dean knows he did something wrong. that’s WHY he lies about it.) #but also. outside of just Dean’s pov. he is right. Sam IS hurting himself. Sam is making a terrible choice #seeking a vengeance for his brother who isn’t even dead anymore and wants Sam to stop. #like Sam’s still doing his best to do the right thing. he’s after Lilith which is also Dean’s ultimate goal. #but he’s hurting himself to do it. he’s hurting their relationship to kill her. #and then heaven is also there meddling making everything worse. #actually the real lesson here is everyone go rewatch s4 god it’s so good #and it’s one of the times in the show where objectively? both of them have a point. both of them are right to get angry and fight each other #the show kind of falters with that a lot of the rest of the time #early seasons sam & dean fights my beloveds #HELL YOU COULD REACH BACK TO S1 #DEAN GOING NO. WE ARE GOING TO SAVE PEOPLE. WE CANNOT CHASE DAD ALL THE TIME. #(combined a little with ‘that’s what he’s telling us to do so we’ll do it.’ of course my tramautized good son <3) #but that’s!!! Dean’s right!!! hey Sam!! hey Sam!! maybe don’t just try to ditch hunts right in the middle of them!!! #(and Sam is also right. they need to find their dad. what if they don’t get to him in time. god early seasons sam & dean dynamic GETS IT) #spn #dean winchester

[yrlocalghost]

i don’t care that it has been almost 5 years since i played hollow knight, the “father?” cut dream nail dialogue makes me feel like i am being eviscerated

#just. the fact as well that it was the only one. the rest are all the radiance. and that’s their #only conscious thought that breaks through. combined with the path of pain cutscene i just. augh. ough. oough #man. what the hell :( #i love this creature. the parental problems

[dutybcrne]

Smth smth, Khaenriahns having similar thing to the Ackermans in AoT

#//The whole 'power that can be Awakened in times of duress' #//Exhibiting increased physical abilities; gaining the combined power of Khaenri'ahns before them via some connection to them #//I like it v much #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Also v much like the Ackerman Protectiveness™ being PART of it. It wasn't inherently in the og; I know; but IMAGINE #//In addition to getting that Awakened Power; it also lets Khaenri'ahns form a sorta Warrior's Bond w the one fighting w them in the moment #//So the trigger for it would not only be survival; but also a sense of Protectiveness over sb. Not necessarily romantic or anything #//Just a strong feeling of attachment & fealty to the one would TRUST with your very life; reflexively as breathing. Who'd do so in return #//Which would make me both laugh and cry if you consider Diluc & Kaeya #//Just #//Lil bby Kae activating the bloodline instinct during an outing gone South; & having a Crisis bc Luc's not Khaenri'ahn #//Does it even MEAN anything? Will HIS instincts go haywire bc Luc's not Khaenri'ahn? Are the gods gonna PUNISH him for it? #//For imprinting on a Teyvat-born; gods-blessed mortal? Or worse; in doing so; would Luc be damned in the process too? #//Meanwhile bby Luc the INSTANT of their oath to be sworn brothers was just. Already Like That. No Khaenri'ahn bloodline influence #//Heck; mans dramatic ass was prolly Ride or Die; from the START; then with that he had MORE incentive. The perfect fit to complement it #//Close to mutual enough until The Confrontation; then Kae's left reeling. There was nothing to sever on Luc's part; but it still Hurt Kae #//It's in his BLOOD to care abt & protect him. Prolly drive Kae mad when Luc went off to Snezhnaya & went through Hell; knowing he Caused i #//STILL resolved to help & support Luc; as per the inherent purpose of the bond; even if Luc won't want him to. What else can he do? #//The pain of Luc keeping him at arms length & aftermath of the betrayal is Nothing compared to what Kae'll feel if Luc dies; he figures #//And in Different Case; imagine Dain & Halfdan. A bond formed in the most Dire of times for Khaenri'ahns; them already having been close #//Maybe love already having budded b/w them. Only for an extreme life or death to spark it further; as their bond was Sealed #//Imagine if the mutual bond also let them sense each other's emotions; perhaps not ENTIRELY; but Just Enough to tell if they need help #//So if the other needs them; they can Tell right away. To be spurred to action and rush to their side in times of need #//With that; them Immediately sensing the difference as of That Day. The JOY in realizing the very mutual feelings they had in additon #//Feeling each other's love seeping through their bond; fond little bursts & flares felt whenever they think of each other; when they smile #//Warm feelings shared; even when they were apart. ESP then. Them hurrying to the other's side when they sense a dip or cold feeling #//Imagine how it would feel when Dan died; Dain's reeling from his own anguish & Dan's pain; Dan's grief in leaving him like this #//& the Emptiness Dain would feel; as bond b/w them would Shatter as Dan draws his final breath. A part of his heart & soul carved out #//Lmao; this all happened bc I was like 'Ey what if Khaenri'ahns were just Built Different' #//I do like this concept; gonna file it away for later

[lecliss]

I miss when Sasuke's primary color was blue. I've never been a fan of the color purple for him.

#not counting charasuke he really did peak on the first try huh. i just tie the purple too much to orochimaru #and i know sauce was with oro for a few years so it makes thematic sense but i kinda wish bort era sauce switched back to blue #to like. thematic put that time behind him perhaps #but also combined with susanoo and the rinnegan sticking with purple. again. makes sense #but chidori and all the lightning shit he does is at least blue tinted #i mean. i guess depending on who you ask his bort era outfit is too desaturated to REALLY claim to be specifically purple or blue leaning #or both. im looking at it right now and yeah you could argue for that #so that could be like. a mixing of his blue and purple and the combination of like. themes and shit. you know what im saying #but like. does it need to be so gray??? #even his old purple popped more than that. #i also missed how his hair isnt tinted with blue anymore either. its just flat black #i miss blue sauce :( #it also complimented nart's orange. hell even young nart had blue on his jacket for that reason #and obito was blue with orange as a parallel but then wore purple during the war. uchihas and purple man.... #even under the red armor madara wears purple. STOP WITH ALL THE FUCKING PURPLE!!!! MADARA'S SUSANOO WAS THE PRETTIEST BLUE #AND MADARA ISNT BLUE AT ALL EXCEPT /SOMETIMES/ WITH A BLUE TINT IN HIS HAIR #uchihas should be blue coded #except sarada of course #personal

[crazyw3irdo]

what is your opinion on gnomeo and juliet (2011)

they got rid of mercutio 0/10

#fr like every other major character is in it cmon where’s my boy!!! #(​actually i don’t think the prince is in it either) #they combined benvolio and mercutio into a single character that sucks man they have so much banter :( #he doesn’t even die :( #benvolio is the more reasonable one and mercutio is the more silly one and they made him into a single guy named benny. what the fuck #cowards. let children learn how to pronounce benvolio and mercutio #also weird point to get stuck on but why are they british. i know this is. an au to say the least. but them being british confuses me #also also why is the cast so fucking famous like holy shit #i was double checking about mercutio but. i saw the voice actors. what the hell #do like the elton john music tho i’ll give them that much #crazwaz posted #audience participation #romeo and juliet #shakespeare

[adammilligan]

COULD adam overpower michael like sam did to lucifer? in theory yes i think he could the problem is adam doesn't really have the willpower for it anymore. i mean the end of 15x08 kind of established him as a bit of a wreck with the whole "since when do we get what we deserve" thing because yknow. he was in a cage for a thousand years and he's tired in a hopeless sort of way. if it happens it happens. not to mention michael's his friend! so his willpower would be weakened by that as well. but at the same time i can't see any sort of scenario popping up where adam WOULD have to suppress michael because there is no situation in which michael would be fighting tooth and nail to be in complete control like lucifer was. he respects adam too much to do that and is extraordinarily gentle with him to boot. so in theory yes he could but in practice? michael just hands him control the second adam wants it

#i'm thinking about this one time that jabel said that adam's reached the point where he'd just sort of sit back and let shit happen to him #and i've always sort of thought along the same lines in a way? that the way michael brought up lucifer being freed while adam sat in hell #specifically was like. a breaking point for him. and that's when that sort of bleak state of mind started to set in #and it isn't like adam is incapable of being hopeful anymore! he was hopeful for the future in the diner! #but there is just a bone-deep weariness about him at the end of the episode. which could be explained by the fact that they just got #the god bomb dropped on them. but also it was in response to him being called a good man and being told that he didn't deserve what #happened to him. so yes it's about the cage and yes it's about the silent sense of hopelessness he sits in #i think if something like that ever came up in conversation. maybe in the cage or something #if they're talking about control and how sam did it. or whatever. and adam's just like what does it matter. if you wanted control #i couldn't stop you anyway. and you just know michael would disagree with him about it and say that adam more than has the mental #capacity to suppress him if needed. but adam's not really listening because he's just so resigned to the idea of it happening #like there really is such a power imbalance between them and when building a relationship like theirs that's not something they can really. #ignore. and i think a lot of it at first would be adam resigning himself to the fact that if michael wanted the body he'd have the body #and he couldn't do anything about it. and it doesn't even matter anyway. and then michael's on the other side like #no it DOES matter. i DO respect you. i DON'T want to put you in that sort of position ever. i need you to believe me #like yes michael has issues the size of ten galaxies combined. but honestly so does adam #and even though adam has a tendency to brush talk of his feelings off like they're nothing in 15x08 #michael does reach out! more than once! so there's no reason to assume he wouldn't about this as well #kate rambles #we came to an agreement #michael #adam milligan #midam

[daisies-on-a-cup]

i kind of want to give will catholic guilt/make him grow up catholic but poor people catholic

#psh what naw im not projecting my own lived experiences onto a grown ass man psh what nooo #i just think it would be really interesting to explore though bc then we can get into the good good catholic guilt #combined with hannibal's love of god but not necessarily any one kind of god/catholic god #another reason to will's list of why he Can Not do certain things/interact with ppl bc he is scared of sinning #or making them sin/being unclean #idk need more time to think about this than my gut reaction but i think exploring will's relationship with religion would be interesting #the fear mongering aspect of it too would add another flavor into his conversations with hannibal about god and god's will and what not #like just looking at the basic prayers said in a catholic mass is enough to send anyone into a spiral of self loathing and i am the worst e #ever like just READ the penitential act and tell me will wouldn't immediately condemn himself to hell forever #will graham

[ilovesmosh55]

Sketch of Larry and Craig <3 and some infodumping on my cringe oc x canon old man yaoi and their history

- Childhood friends who attended the academy together. They meet when they’re about 9 or 10 years old and in the same class.

- Both are 2nd generation immigrants to Paldea, with Larry’s family being from Sinnoh and Craig’s family being from Hoenn.

- Larry has always been pretty stoic and struggled with expressing himself, while Craig has always been outgoing, expressive, and talkative. They play off each other well, with Craig getting Larry to come out of his shell and Larry getting Craig to calm down and use his indoor voice.

- They’re inseparable throughout their childhood/teenage years, but end up going down different paths in adulthood and growing apart a bit. They still talk just not as frequently.

- they’re teammates on the school’s baseball team as teenagers before Larry unceremoniously quits.

- Larry quits not only so he can start working after school instead of attending practice to pay off family debt, but also because he struggles to be anything more than average (if not a little slow) at baseball. Craig is the stronger athlete in their younger years and comparing himself to Craig makes Larry doubt himself even more.

-Similarly, after failing the gym challenge yearly since he started attempting it, and losing countless battles to Larry, teenaged Craig eventually abandons his dream of becoming a champion and throws himself into his studies.

- they end up reconnecting as adults when Larry is inducted into the elite 4 (in my hc this happens about 3 years before the canon game starts). Craig shows up to his induction party and they end up talking all night, with Craig consoling Larry about his work stress and disappointment with his life path and both of them promising to talk/meet up more regularly.

- They stick to their promise and start hanging out again and even though they’ve both aged they still get along just as well as when they were kids.

- Craig started crushing on Larry when they were teenagers, but never said anything out of fear of ruining their friendship. His feelings kinda numbed as they grew apart and remained distant through their late 20s-30s but once they reconnect it all comes back to him and so much stronger

- Larry is kind of oblivious to his own feelings but he finally realizes he likes Craig as more than just a close friend shortly after they reconnect at the elite 4 induction party. Truly hits him how much he missed having Craig around and how happy he is to have him back.

- It still takes a while for them to officially get together, since Craig is scared of ruining a good friendship by making things awkward and Larry is. Larry.

- once they DO start dating though. Craig gets Larry to put a little more life into that work life balance. Nobody thought it was possible

#old man yaoi <3 #oc x canon #larry pkmn #craig callahan #my hc last name for Larry is Aoki but I’ve just been tagging him as larry pokemon #so. whatev #idk what the hell to name their ship #I don’t like how Pokémon fans name ships like doodoofartshipping it’s confusing #but also there’s no good way to combine their names #anyway #infodump #nonsense #oc nonsense #rambling #ocs #floretverse