#continuous reading i've been doing

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

on my quest to find more books to read this year, there's been something kind of heartwarming to see that of the books on hold at my local library, or on the weekly bestseller's list at my local bookstores, there's always at least one book up there that's about Palestine. It's at least nice to see that some people in my area want to learn about the historical context of what's happening now, and learn far more than what a few posts on their feed can tell them. It makes me hope that public perception will continue to change for the better - and that the kind of support I've seen in my area won't die down immediately after a ceasefire is called

#storyrambles #palestine #i'm always hesitant to make any posts about palestine given my lack of personal connection or deep knowledge beyond the #continuous reading i've been doing #but idk. i wondered if this might be nice to see for people who do have a connection and feel discouraged. #and well. i don't think there needs to be a personal connection for one to feel happiness in this sort of situation #it needs to be so much better than it is currently. but i'll be honest #i really thought these protests were going to peter out very quickly after they started. that people would say 'it's a shame' #but not act. i've seen the same thing from previous outrage. #and i think that's because outrage doesn't carry as long or as strong as knowledge does. #eh i'm rambling again. i guess it's just nice to see people caring. even when the people who should speak for us civilians do not. #it's a mixed bag of emotions. #all my love to everyone affected by this. i wish you didn't have to be as strong as you are. #but for as long as you have to. i'd like to stand strong with you. and i hope that's enough to see real change. #ceasefire now

[crocodilenjoyer]

he's our little brother. take care of him.

anne carson - antigone / alec benjamin - if we have each other / dan pearce - single dad laughing: the best of year one / kodaline - brother

#dean winchester voice we're gonna fix you up. that's my job right? to look after my pain in the ass little brother. #[guy who's not over marineford voice] yeah i'm sooo over marineford #tried to read the manga for reference. got sad about ace and luffy again. thus the cycle continues #asl brothers #ace #luffy #sabo #riko.txt #one piece #op spoilers #kinda???? it's been out for over a decade. everyone talks about it #btw you have NO IDEA how much it took for me to not include the spn gif i made for this. or the shinazugawa bros scene. you know the one. #anyway. hahaha. heehee. hohohoho. i'm an older brother. i have a younger sister. and. i get it. #she was having a bad time a few months back and i remember telling her i'd do anything for her. i don't think i've ever meant anything more #so. yeah. i get it.

[pa-pa-plasma]

#polls #tumblr polls #fanfiction #fanfic #archive of our own #ao3 #believe it or not this isn't actually for like. me needing to know about hiatuses #this is just a sneaky way of finding out. something else #Danny Phantom #;) #on an unrelated note how do you feel about waiting somewhere between 2-9 months for a fic to continue on its original course? #it's probably closer to 2 if i actually do it #i mean the fic would still be updating but it would be. uh. spoiler alert cant say it'd just be 2~ months til the main storyline continues #i've been given the go ahead from someone who knows about it all but i need to know how people feel about rereading #it wouldnt be rereading but there would be an element of things repeating. it would seem to be repeating at first but isnt #oh my.... wait no.... i think i just realized where i got this idea from & it's killing me how i failed to see this sooner #literally listening to the soundtrack & watching all versions of it bro. i'm an ADHD stereotype #anyway the reason i want to know this is that. this part of the fic can be skipped. you dont NEED to read it #but you would need to wait for the rest of the fic to continue if you choose not to read it #it IS kinda important. it's just. A Lot #okay saying it's skippable but also important seems weird but trust me it's all in the name of beating this kid to the ground #''character development'' no. character deterioration #how can i make him better if he isn't super fucked up #he can't have a mental breakdown if he's happy. & i need him to have a mental breakdown #yeah im going the psychological torture route #also this isnt about timeloops btw. it might sound like it but it's not

[writeouswriter]

Bro, bro, there is no second Pacific Rim movie, bro, it was just a bad dream, go back to sleep

#i didn't even know it existed before 2022 #pacific rim uprising dni #pacific rim #the thought of it genuinely just makes me sad especially for this one lovely writer i've spoken to who was able to perfectly pinpoint why #anyway it's one of the few things i genuinely don't accept as canon i reject your reality and replace it with my own or whatever #the real pacific rim sequel is actually these two lovely series of fics i've been slowly continuously reading since 2022 #i don't even care that much for pacific rim but i care for aspects of what they created that i feel the sequel f*cking spits and steps on #and i care for the characters which they do so dirty :/

[diaruchann]

I think for most people it went:

Percy Jackson -> Greek Mythology -> Epic: The Musical

But somehow for me it was:

Epic: The Musical -> Percy Jackson -> Greek Mythology

#I've read the first book years ago but didn't have the motivation to continue #and now I have a new hyperfixation #and I mean a HYPERFIXATION #I can't stop thinking about pjo it's a problem #do you ever want to do something but you're too excited to do the said thing that by the time you actually get to do it #it is physically painful and you can't stop stimming and your heart beat goes crazy and you SHAKE WITH EXCITEMENT #that's me with reading pjo #I also recently listened ONLY epic the musical for 8 hours straight everyday for four days straight so #do you guys know that one 3.5 hour video about the whole greek mythology on youtube #that has been really useful #anyway real tags now #epic the troy saga #epic the cyclops saga #epic the ocean saga #epic the musical #epic the circe saga #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #peter johnson #rick riordan #pjo

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Books of 2024: THE GREAT CITIES DUOLOGY by N. K. Jemisin.

#books #books of 2024 #the great cities duology #the city we became #the world we make #nk jemisin #book photography #my photography #i SO MUCH LOVE jemisin and i'm SO EXCITED to read these!! #fifth season was world changing for me (especially on the POV front) #i own everything she's written but unfortunately i started collecting them in paperback #and now i am Trapped In Paperback lol #so i had to wait a while for book 2 to come out in paperback #and i KNOW i annihilate her series so i wanted to have them all in hand when i started the first one #but yeah i preordered the first one and it's been sitting on my shelf ever since XD #the springboard here is kaiju preservation society started and ended in NYC and had eldritch sized monster creachers #this is ALSO NYC and eldritchy monsters lmao #*I've Connected The Dots* #i do like threading my TBR for some flow/continuity #(also as a weird aside: i need to read these soon because they have to fit on This Shelf of ~Read This Year~) #(because they're too tall to fit on the next shelf down of ~Read This Year~) #space is a little tight rn lmaooo

[fisheito]

Bottom yakumo fics i rotate thru bc the tag is playing games with me

EIDEN:

(locked) https://archiveofourown.org/works/48090496

(Sequel) https://archiveofourown.org/works/49270402

(locked) https://archiveofourown.org/works/37453975

KUYA (some dubcon+yaku whump):

ASTER:

QUINCY:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/54831790

NOT EXPLICITLY BOTTOM, BUT FITS THE SUBBY ~FEELING~

https://archiveofourown.org/works/37413112

(locked) https://archiveofourown.org/works/49106176

https://archiveofourown.org/works/50601046/chapters/128881948#workskin

#is it ok to link locked fic like this? do they not wanna be perceived? if it's not ok i'll just uhh... disappear them from the list #eehehehehe sometimes i just get into moods where bottom yakumo is where it's at #like. specifically bottom yakumo. EXCEPTIONALLY subby yakumo. #no twisting the game to overpowering his partner at the end. that's the bott-to-top yakumo pipeline that fits a DIFFERENT specific mood! :} #eventually i'll exit the bottom mood and dive into topyaku fic and we continue the cycle anew #because... ultimately..... switch yaku is my everything (my agenda and preferences are visible from outer space) #anyway yeah this stuff is all on the hornier side. there are bottom yaku fics that i like that are more plot and char-heavy #but this is the list for when i wanna see him whimpering and begging and crying etc etc you know the post i'm talking about #i started compiling this list because i tried filtering for bottom yakumo and got like. 8 fics #i whispered... i've been living off 8 fics ? Only? i mean that's a lot given how small the fandom is but i feel like i'm missing some #anyway there ended up being more than 8 (that i would reread) so i was quite content with my findings #maybe i'll update it if i see more. hmm. i hope i'll see more #bottom yakumo reading list #i am reading words and acting in ways

[active-mind-15]

So I wanted to talk about Akashi and compartmentalizing for a quick sec...

Just so we're all on the same page, to compartmentalize is "to separate something into parts and not allow those parts to mix together" (source: Cambridge Dictionary). And the concept of compartmentalizing is so prevalent in Akashi's character.

The first level of this is obviously his dual personality. Akashi has split his identity into two distinct parts. The first one is his original self. His original self is kind, mild-mannered, and considerate. It's everything he was raised to be by his mother since Fujimaki said in an interview that Akashi was more like her (I'm assuming both in looks and in personality). His other self is a manifestation of what Akashi thought he had to be in order to maintain control of the basketball team. Cold, intimidating, and emotionless. Perhaps he was trying to emulate what his father expected of him, or maybe trying to emulate his father's actual personality, but it's clear that after Shiori passed away, Akashi has always categorized himself as two people.

But then there's a layer under this. I don't think the anime covered it the way the manga did, but in the manga, it was stated that Akashi was so dangerous as a basketball player because of the fact that he had not one ability, but two. The first ability is his 'court vision' that allows him to be extremely observant of his surroundings and create opportunities for perfect passes. The second ability is the 'Emperor Eye', which is him using his accurate predictions of players' movements to intercept their passes as well as ankle-break them at will. But throughout the series, we've come to realize that neither personality could do both at the same time. The reason? Akashi didn't just compartmentalize his identity, he compartmentalized his own abilities, too.

Because, again, no matter how much Akashi's other self feels like a different person, it's still all him. So, theoretically, he should be able to use both his exceptional court vision and his Emperor Eye no matter which personality is in control. But because his other self was created to do things Akashi felt his original self wasn't able to do, that's why his other self can also use abilities that Akashi did not think his original self was capable of doing. However, the downside to this is that he tricked himself into believing his original self did not have the potential to be greater, and that in order to grow and improve his basketball skills, the only way was to let his other self take control and abandon who he originally was.

To Akashi, his original self was weak and timid, and that's why his original self couldn't control the team when it was falling apart in his 3rd year of Teiko. But his other self was supposed to step up and fix all of that. It was only in Extra Game that Akashi realized that the only reason his abilities were so hindered was because of these handicaps he was placing on himself because he truly believed deep down that, as his original self, he was physically incapable of being the skilled reliable captain that his team needed.

This is why it was so important for him to get out of the mentality of compartmentalizing, because as his original self, he is capable of everything his other self could do, but it took so long for him to understand that due to his own distorted view of what makes someone powerful and deserving of a position of leadership. And really I'll just chalk that up to his father's shitty parenting and Teiko's equally shitty principles related to victory, but it's just so interesting (and heartbreaking) it is to see just how much compartmentalizing played a role in his downfall.

#i've been thinking about this for weeks tbh i just never got around to typing it up #but yeah if anyone wants to continue this convo please do #i always love reading other people's perspectives about akashi #kuroko no basket #knb analysis #akashi seijuro

[meownotgood]

how do you write so well ? can you give us any tips for anyone who wants to start writing fics ? :)

-anon from France (･ิω･ิ)

of course!!! I'm not gonna lie.... I wing a lot of stuff when I'm writing so I may not be the best at giving very solid advice 😭 but, I will share some tips that helped me, and maybe they can help you too!

practice! def the most obvious one, the more you write the more you'll be able to improve. but practice isn't just writing, you can improve so much more by reading as well. or even watching a show or playing a game, indulging in a story you really love, you can learn much from that story to improve your own writings as well

write like shit! I heard the phrase, "write drunk, edit sober" a little while ago, and it's so perfect to how I feel about the writing process. just write whatever ideas you have, don't stress about your first draft not being good, or not what you'd like. no one can write perfectly on the first try, that's where editing comes in, to smooth out wrinkles and make everything nice. it is perfectly okay if you can only write a simple outline right now because you can come back and make it beautiful. write "lol I don't know what to put here" and come back while editing, put "insert romantic scene here" and continue. and seriously, don't be afraid to write something that's "bad" or "cringe" because nobody will read your first draft but you! just speak from your heart and your head will take it from there! and if you write something you really don't like, you're under no obligation to let anyone see it. writing a bunch of crap is a part of the process. you can never improve if you put yourself down, and don't allow yourself someplace to start

find your own flow! everyone writes different, some environments might work better for you and some might not. some people write while listening to music because it helps, I cannot because my brain would turn pickled. some can write thousands of words per day, some can only write 100. do what is best for you, try different things to learn where your best flow state is. don't push yourself to write when you don't want to or more than you can, your best work will come when you are most comfortable.

write what you want! write the story you want to read. writing is hard, it's often frustrating, but the story you want to tell is something only you can do, that's why no one has told it yet. enjoy the process as much as you can, the bad and the good!

#also this is a more specific tip #but the way I write is like #I warm up first with something small or by reading #to get my brain in a good mode #and then I edit first and then continue writing #editing gives my brain some building blocks to work off of #and I feel better about what I'm putting down #when I can see what I've already made and how far I've come #truly just practicing and never giving up is the best tip I can give you #even when your brain isn't working and you feel like you hate what you're making #don't give up or say you can't do it #I've been writing my entire life #and when I was young I used to hate that tip. 'just practice' #it's very frustrating to face at times #it's okay to be frustrated #but one day you will see how far you've come and be glad you never gave up #not sure if this will help but.... this is what I've got lol #love you anon!!! I'm rooting for you! #ask mags

[sysig]

Lost my mind thinking about the Vyer Estate (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #So while I'm not usually one to draw backgrounds I am actually Really into architecture and a little into decor and room design haha #Do I know much more than the basics? Nope! But I'm still fascinated by it :) #Some of these rooms have a very strong image in my head and some are fuzzier - it's been a bit since I reread #And I also haven't read with the layout in mind I don't think so there's that as well haha #I'll also freely admit to being very influenced by The Sims 2's build limitations when working these lol - spacing and density of items #Trying to map all these pieces of scenes into a continuous singular building is difficult! There are windows that butt up into other rooms! #It's a fun exercise tho :3 #Update: I have now reread with the layout in mind lol #My mental ears pricked every time there was a mention of furniture or layout lol #Like Max's couch! And a carpet in the foyer >:3c #And Dex's room also being upstairs :0 To think I almost made my first floorplan a single-story! #Silly me #I'm pretty sure this is the first time I've doodled Max's mom also :0 From memory - again - oops lol #I have always imagined that final scene with her as having this large-room/small in the frame kind of energy to it #All natural lighting and kind of dim and hazy - coming down from the high vibes #Actually pinning down a back wall is a whole other thing lol - sometimes the stairs are right there and sometimes they're in an alcove #It's always those tricky windows! And then actually populating a mansion with rooms that are useful lol #Dexter mentions that Max could've asked the cook but Max says he's asleep - how many people live on-site I wonder! #I'm also deeply enamoured with Max padding around in the middle of the night - a house he grew up in and feels safe wandering around in <3 #In his element ♥ Comfortable ♪♫

[gxlden-angels]

I need Americans that were never Christian™️ to realize that the average conservative cult christian's thoughts are basically that one episode of Spongebob where he gets elected Hall Monitor and gives a speech with "Crime and Punishment. Punishment and Crime"

#christians see themselves as the hall monitors of the earth essentially #and everyone needs to be punished and have their good noodle stars taken else they'll commit arson #they genuinely believe that as soon as you stop policing people they'll delve into their deepest darkest fantasies and start committing sins #that even Jesus Christ himself didn't think of #they come from the idea that they are the only group capable of keeping things steady until Sky Papa can make his way down and fuck shit up #So when you do something bad it's because you fell into the pull of destruction #But when they do it's the equivalent of stepping on your dog's foot because they almost tripped you #I still think it's funny a bunch of christians are creationist tho lmao skill issue #My grandparents are but my dad isn't #he believes evolution essentially occurred over the same time the earth was being created #and the story of adam being made from dust was a metaphor and literal #he was made from dust made from decomposing animals and plants which he used to create us as a more perfect being #so now we continue to evolve because we're connected to the dust and can continue to try to improve #so my dad believes in evolution and went to college for biology and chemistry at the biggest HBCU in the US #That evolution/creationist tangent was completely unrelated but all twitter is for me rn is ppl freaking out about our rights being taken #I avoid twitter most of the time but like to look at my friends' and fav artists' tweets #and recently I think little joel made a video about the evolution video that was trending so yea #n e ways have a nice day y'all <3 #I've been wanting to make more hehe hahas but everything in my brain rn is Undergraduate Thesis level shit #so I haven't really been reading or writing things I can talk about on Tumblr.Com ya know? #most of it is sociological textbooks memoirs and similar stuff that Id feel talking about on my casual blog #maybe Ill make a blog. like Blog blog for my essays one day #ex christian #religious trauma

[softpine]

whoever the anon is that constantly finds a way to hate on elaine, please stop 😭 you’re entitled to dislike whoever you want, but it’s getting tiring to hear. i don’t want to block you because the other things you say are perfectly reasonable and i would be happy to answer them, but it’s clear at this point that nothing elaine does will satisfy you so i see no point in hashing it out

#i've been getting some messages that make me uncomfortable lately (not all from the same person i don't think) #and i feel really bad putting my foot down because i never want to alienate someone who's taking the time to read my story #so i just want to repeat again that everyone is entitled to their own opinion #and i love hearing all varieties of opinions but please please keep it respectful!! #this isn't a tv show forum where you can rant and rave without the creator ever seeing it #unfortunately i see it all 😅 #and i try not to take it to heart but i do put a lot of myself and my loved ones into these characters #so it's hard to hear such strong hatred for a personality trait that i have or my best friend has. etc #PLEASE continue to discuss each character's flaws and decisions though!! all i ask is that you keep it respectful #and remember that while these characters are not real.. many real people might relate to them #okay sorry for this ramble i feel like i repeated myself 10 times here lmao

[helpimstuckinafandom]

Endeavor really had his kid die and his reason to not change and continue on his bullshit was “well, I’ve come too far to quit now!” LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME FUCK

#fuck the redemption arc #fuck this stupid man's guilt #you were an adult doing this shit for years #you saw and knew what you were doing and saw THE biggest consequence and said that sign can't stop me cause I can't read #literally if he had stopped his stupid training and obsession touya would've come back #cause he would have come home and seen that things HAD changed #but no #(and yeah I know he couldn't have known touya had survived but also ''continue to abuse my family and in fact get more obsessive'' was - #- still not the answer) #anti-endeavor #fuck endeavor #touya's death was not enough for you to change but shoto's success was #fuck you #he's been on his redemption bullshit for the less than a year in canon time too #like just try to picture that #FUCK MAN PICTURE BEING DABI AND HEARING THAT THIS FUCKER IS TRYING TO CHANGE N O W #sorry not sorry if endeavor is your favorite/if you like him #but i've said this before and i'll say it again: if you don't hate endeavor my blog is not for you #like fundamentally i do not think i could get along with an endeavor stan #that's beyond a character opinion to me that tells me shit about you personally

[ronkeyroo]

I know it can be hard to see ourselves and our work through the eyes of another, but if you could, you would be able to see how much we cherish your presence and everything you do. Your value goes of course beyond just what work you put out in the world, but who you are and the energy you share with us. I wish you could see yourself the way we see you. You breath so much life into the work you create and it makes me so happy to see when you're thriving and my heart goes out to see when you struggle. Please always follow your passions and do what makes you the happiest, that will be gift enough for rest of us <3

P.S sending 1000 "<3"s for our favourite wolfy bois, you make me fall in love with them all over again everything your art pops up on my dash ^.^

#Anon...I've been coming back to re-read your message so many times throughout the past week and I just... #I cannot describe how much life and joy reading from you and feeling your love has been poured back onto me #You made me feel so loved and seen...I wish i wish i could hold your hand and show you how dearly this all means to me #because god how ridiculously speechless i've become under such tenderness... #Thank you for being here #for seeing my passions #for loving my work #for seeing me the way you do - For encouraging me to look at myself from an outside view of someone who just...loves me #regardless and outside of any struggle I may have with myself #thank you thank you thank you #ive had such a tough week...But all of this love is so so deeply and dearly empowering and Ill cherish that forever #Ill continue following my passions and making my art - no matter what #especially that of our beloved wolf bois!!!!!!!! #hugs you tightly// #Tender Vibes #Ronkey replies #anon asks #ask memes

[fancymuffinparty]

😐🥲

#i... #i went back and read some of the comments on 'One More Tomorrow' #ya know the long multi chapter pokkopiku fic i wrote back in 2018/2019 #and there's surprisingly a good amount of readers who... want me to continue it.. 🥲🫨🤕 #i really want to continue it!!!!! #but its been sooooo long!!!! 😭 #would there be enough readership for it now?? #idk like I'm conflicted 😭😭😭 #i mean... i guess if enough people really reallly reallyyy want me to finish it... #like if enough peeps rally behind me continuing it... 😭😭 #then... i suppose i oughtta 🫨 #I've finished multi chapter fics before... so i know i have it in me!!! #took me like 3 years to finish my valeveira fic lmao but the readers were supportive and patient 🥲 #i just need time!! im SORRY!!!! #believe me i wanna give porco closure and give pieck all the orgasms lmaoooo 😭😭😭 #well porco gives her the sex #ya know what i mean :/ #should i make a poll? take a vote??? #are we doing this old school like signing a petition?? #idk sometimes i go back and forth with it lol #is OMT even any good??😭😭 #idk i gotta lotta pkpk feels with snk ending soon #and my love for the ship and the characters and the fic has never wavered!!!! #its late lol too many thoughts abt this 🤕