#damn im exhausted

[softmintpurejoy]

Just finished reading the last Olympian

I just...

I don't have words

#percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson the last olympian #damn im exhausted #but in a good way #i love it

[bbnibini]

I am personally a supporter of the Solomon being "a tease but also a blushing mess" agenda. I love the idea of him being relentlessly, purposefully obnoxious and downright annoying to the person he loves(please notice him :'( ) but the moment you reciprocate. The moment you respond in affection. In praise. In a kind word, this man SHUTS DOWN. Solomon.exe has stopped. His face is red. Because what is love? What is kindness? What is this foreign emotion he isn't used to? And why does it feel like his face is burning?

Alas, he only loses his guard for a moment. Stares at you in wonder, but the wisdom he was "blessed" with trained his expressions enough to make those heart-stopping moments last only a few seconds in your eyes(almost as if you had only imagined it), and he's back to his exasperating, teasing and light-hearted self again.

#i need this to cope #300k points for that damn memory card in the event #just make me retire im exhausted i hate this game #but i love this man #more than i can ever express #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me solomon #i lied this is another queue

[wingsofhcpe]

thinking about the garrison getting the news of the Savoy massacre.

thinking about Treville reading the missive and feeling the earth dissolve into air under his feet, realising that by giving away the location he doomed his men to the slaughter.

thinking about him having to tell Athos and Porthos.

thinking about Athos going into shock because God, no, not again, he can't have lost his little brother again like he lost Thomas.

thinking about Porthos going into absolute rage- and grief-filled denial and insisting that they leave right now because Aramis is okay, he has to be, he can't have abandoned them, he can't have left them not like Porthos' mother did.

thinking about Athos trying to cope by slipping into professional soldier mode, detached, emotionless and trying to prepare Porthos for what they'll find.

thinking about them seeing the bodies and knowing their brother, their Aramis, is lying dead among the other corpses. And then they find him, and Porthos yells that he's alive and suddenly Athos is crumpling because Aramis is safe he's safe he didn't lose another brother. Treville scoops up Aramis in his arms and holds him tight for a moment, just one, because Aramis is his salvation too, his survivor, the only of his men who came back alive and thus not all is lost, and Treville vows never to let Aramis suffer again as he did that day.

thinking about Athos and Porthos holding Aramis between them, wrapping him and themselves in blankets to share their body heat and warm him. Aramis waking up and asking for Marsac but then realising Athos and Porthos are here and he breaks, crying and sobbing and begging them not to leave him in the cold all alone with the dead, too. And that is when the three of them vow, All for one and one for all, that it's either all three of them together or not at all. Nobody gets left behind.

thinking about Savoy and brotherhood and the boys just clinging to each other no matter what, because even when all seems lost, they're still the Inseparables, and that will always mean something.

#bbc musketeers #the musketeers #athos #porthos #aramis #captain treville #i want to write the damn fic but im exhausted and i have to wake up super early tomorrow so um here goes i guess #you can measure how much my mental health is deteriorating by how much my hyperfixation intensifies and um. yeah #(we're a week and a half into the semester and I'm already This close to snapping this cant be good) #(but at least i have those three idiots for emotional comfort during strife!!!) #(if aramis can go through savoy and come out smiling i can go through my uni classes. and he'd be proud of me for it.)

[satans-knitwear]

*Lures myself into doing tasks with the promise of pretty lingerie*

My links

#Got to hang out with the bestie today but damn im exhausted now. Being human wares me out #Satans knitwear #Alt pinup #Pretty lingerie #Lingerie set #Strappy lingerie set #Yellow lingerie #bi girl #cheeky #My gif to you #wlw

[consult-sherlockholmes]

You're welcome, sweetie. I saw you working (i guess) and I didn't want to bother you (I can't concentrate knowing that you're only wearing a sheet Christ God)

And err... I left my phone number in one of the bags, you know... in case you need m-... in case you need to bring you more groceries, yes.

Get better soon! 💋

At least someone brought me food while John was replacing me eating food with someone else while I was suffering all on my own abandoned. How dare this Steven seduce him and steal him away from me this vulture snake, carrion eater. So this is a rare occurrence, I don't say this often, but thank you. Just take this that my brain is already influenced by it all. And the sheet is a necessity my temperature has been increasing since hours and I won't put my suits through that abuse of disease ridden body fluids. Easier to wash and handle as well, and I started freezing inbetween so I can wrap myself in a blanket interchangeably. I have to try to work as much as I can before I am completely incapacitated, it feels as if it's getting worse every hour.

#tiping at the laptop starts to feel exhausting #if i start making more mistakes know its because im bed bound and on my phone and getting worse #roleplay #rp #sherlock roleplay #sherlock rp #tw covid #sherlock covid crossover #this is all stevens fault i bet #he probably poisoned and infected me somehow to get john to himself #god damn steven #i will get my revenge steven #i know it i deduce its all his fault i will show him whose John is #i feel so tired but at the same time i cant sleep

[akeminy]

Can he for one damn second stop being like that????!!! AAAGGGHHH I CAN'T ANYMORE

#You can assume that I won't make it to that damn CK photo shoot alive #im exhausted #mingyu #svt #seventeen #kim mingyu

[m0e-ru]

P4G Anime Adachi’s car - Lexus/Altezza IS200

P4 Dojima’s car - Land Rover (idk the exact model really it's a standard japanese right hand drive with a left side tailgate tire apparently)

P4G Anime Marie's guitar - G&L Telecaster Blueburst

P4 Visualive Attendant's shoes - Bapesta Nigo era Orange-Black Halloween limited edition 👍

#p4 #persona 4 #p4v #ゲッー #tohru adachi #ryotaro dojima #marie persona #⛽️🌫 #moel gas station attendant #// 'what kind of miscellaneous trivia is this' stuff that rotate in my mind for seven hours a day #// why would you need this you ask. um . if you want a really specific way to describe how adachis car crashes or something idk #// spent another hour trying to look for dojimas exact land rover model i straight up just gave up #// me when im modeling for a ps2 game and nobody'll care anyway lol #// no i didnt find all of this on my own just ask a resident geek about cars and guitars but found the SHOES on my own #// like damn this looks like a knockoff nike /looks up knockoff jp nike brand/OH MY GOD #// i think it's silly i showed them the guitar and they straight up just glanced at the headstock and said 'g&l telecaster' oakay #// i love you guitar freaks and your headstocks i will never know what a lespaul is though sorry #// straight up. exhausting my post count i did this to stop myself from posting OH WELL

[littlestardescendants]

Oh wow it's Green look at that-

Is this because I reached Lvl 6? How is it I got like 7-9 L Cards but never got to this point! (ಥ ͜ʖಥ)

#what in hell is bad #whb #what in hell is bad screenshot #whb angel #what in hell is bad angel #what in hell is bad raphael #whb raphael #Damn im sorry pleasuring you hoes is exhausting I JUST got off work-

[lottieurl]

i'm well aware there are single parents out there working full time but i think working full time and living alone with my dog is about to put me in a psychward

#why cant i handle what other people seem to handle effortlessly lmao #im so fucking exhausted and burnt-out i need demonic possession to save me or smth #like please @ random demon you will do a better job for sure #idk its like. my dog is now spending so much time alone when im at home that i feel really guilty #if i wanna go out or do anything that doesnt involve her #i have no damn time and energy #i might spend half a free day cleaning but its all a mess anyway #and then i will come back home like today just exhausted after 5 days of work in a row #and i just wanna take her for a walk and get myself smth to eat and chill a little #and i find! is poop all over the damn floor i finally managed to wash like a day ago #and it stinks so fucking bad i nearly throw up cleaning up #and then have a breakdown in the bathroom. as you do. #HOW DO PEOPLE LIVE LIKE THIS I AM SO FUCKING EXHAUSTED #its also not fair to my dog idk this sucks so much #i doubt anyone read all this bht if you did hi and sorry #needed to vent unfortunately #wah im TIRED

[mariatesstruther]

Just seen someone call Maria selfish for leaving Tommy in TLOU2 when he needed her the most and I’m like???? Did you see him in the farmhouse, that’s a man who is obsessed with revenge and she’s probably given him ample chance to get over it but 18 months later he’s still obsessing over Abby. Maria (and Dina) were both more than justified in cutting ties with Tommy/Ellie for their own sakes. If Tommy and Ellie are too far gone and won’t allow themselves to be helped, their partners are more than justified in eventually making the decision to focus on their own mental health because I can guarantee the post-Seattle Tommy was not easy to live with.

Having said that, hope both couples make up so TLOU3 can just be the remaining members of the extended Miller family all living happily.

But seriously, why is it in any form of fiction or real-life, the woman is ‘selfish’ for actually putting her own well-being above someone who doesn’t want to be helped.

Sorry, little rant but jeez people don’t give the woman a break sometimes (also just a strange character to have beef with given she’s like the only ‘good’ character and she’s got such a minor role)

me just now realizing with this ask that show maria and dina are both gonna go through the same angsty bullshit (getting left with a child by their grief-consumed partners):

also dont EVER be sorry for ranting in defense of maria in my inbox. i love it. i need it. it feeds me. it also balances out all the weird ass bitter and shady messages about maria i get from people with nothing better to do. go off

(and also ALSO. tlou3??? is that officially a thing???)

#also ur so real with counting the MONTHS #BECAUSE 18 MONTHS AFTER AND UR STILL ON THIS BITCH???? #NO SIRRRR #NOT MEEEEE #yall rlly think maria just #patted tommy on the back and went ‘damn joel died. sucks.’ #she very likely grieved with him and alongside him #she likely exhausted every resource and moment she could trying to help him grieve properly #imagine doing all that for someone you love and then they not only push you away #but they LEAVE #i wouldnt have even let him back in town if i were her like you have me FUCKED UP #and at that point her and joel we’re definitely friends like she loved joel too?????? #like im just so sad for her #watching rutina wesley go through all that is goingn to destroy me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #asked and answered #thank you friend i love you! MARIA STANS UNITE

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

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#tw suicide #no seriously heed the tw this is probably upsetting i just. i need to say it somewhere and i will not say it to my family. #puddleglum hours #personal #its just i was thinking. #tother day the doctor asked: do you regret it? about the suicide attempt tuesday night. #and i said something that i still feel: if i regret anything about it it's that i didn't succeed. #they're talking of discharging me tomorrow or something and im just. #what do i need to do to be kept in for longer?! damn it all i *know* how i could kill myself in here. #but i don't want to. i need them to save me #because i can't save myself! if they discharge me tomorrow i think it very likely ill be dead before the end of the week! or at least in #hospital from another attempt! this new med has made me more numb but the thoughts haven't gone away just muted. and then. #at times like this im perfectly wild about it! i cannot keep myself alive i need them to do it for me! #but when ive seen the doctor each time its been when im exhausted and numb and i don't care but that is not the case always. #i don't know. i don't see a good outcome any which way. #hopefully tomorrow the doctor sees me at a time when im feeling like this i think. #because i think i need to tell them. but i don't know how or even if it matters #and sometimes i just want to die. #im so tired of living guys. why #editing to add i am still on hiatus and if you want to contact me and know my discord contact me there #so i will not be responding to anything here for this moment at least

[thegraveyardsh1ft]

From the earth I rise, and to the earth I one day will return. What's up mother-shuckers, my name is Colonel Cornelius Cornwall. And I'm here today to introduce you to... corn. Corn is a North American cereal plant that yields large kernels on a cob. Its also called maze, because its easy to get lost in its incredible flavor. Side effects of corn may include choking... I guess. Come down today, and try some corn, or we will sacrifice your new born.

Day 6: The Vendors Are Weird

#the graveyard shift #the graveyard shift au #batim henry #batim #bendy and the ink machine #henry stein #willy’s wonderland janitor #willy’s wonderland #the janitor #inktober 2022 #day 6 #damn it missed it by 10 min #not my best work but im exhaust from today #honestly kinda dealing with a distant relative funeral its a miracle i even got this close to midnight #slimecicle reference

[sugercherri]

Some doodles I did yesterday🤸‍♀️💥‼

I've been so unmotivated💀😭

HIIIIAAA

#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt #rise leo #rise donnie #rise mikey #rise raph #doodle #drawing #digital art #sketch #how yall doin #my art #i need art friends to bond with #school is exhausting #going crazy #hiii :3 #ive been gone for almost a week damn #i actually really like these doodles #pls talk to me #im so lonely #WASSUP EVERYBODY #im back hehehe

[echo-s-land]

It's insane how most of the time I don't get how ppl interact and I also Don't Fucking Care

#vent ig #i wish i could #but unfortunately i havent had the occasion of sharing one of my interest with you in the past three months and when i did it didnt go as i #wanted and now we're supposed to talk through smalltalks except i dont know how to do those so im awkward as hell and unconsciously cut the #short and now im being hated (?) even tho that wasnt my intent #but i guess no matter how trustful i am i just look like a liar #and i cant even bring myself to care bc how am i supposed to explain myself when youre convinced what i say is a lie #we werent even supposed to be this close so sorry if im stiff. i tried to get along but i just cant #the never ending circle between 'i want to have ppl to interact with being alone to experience this world is exhausting and dreadful' and #'im not even remotely interested by any of you' #its different on tumblr bc i can curate my own experience & nobody comes @ me when i dont interact with them for days or weeks (BC IVE GOT #NOTHING TO SAY) and its okay and its normal and we dont have to do the 'hi how are you wyd' script every single time (sure we can check up #on each other once in a while but it doesnt become a script. it feels genuine.) #anyway. im so normal. i can def care about ppl that have never been as insane as me about something we both love(d at some point) #am pretty sure i developed 'i perceived you saying/thinking One(1) bad thing about me and now i dont care at all about your existence' as #a child as a coping mechanism but goddammit i feel like an asshole everytime it happened #i hate feeling apathetic #and i hate lying too so i cant just say shit to reassure them when i dont mean them #cant tell them im sorry about how my behavior is perceived when im so damn tired and would rather they disappear of my life

[tepli-mravenci]

you think you're finally normal and indifferent about a character/piece of media and then you read an amazing fanfic and you're like FUCK and you're crying banging your fist into the table about it again

#so im reading ad astra by hellenite and im like SO NOT OKAY and SO OKAY at the same time #i missed reading about bee duo SO MUCH?!?!? #i didn't even know how much #i have so many feelings #i still haven't finished it cause its almost midnight and i jsit got bsck home from vacation and im exhausted #but DAMN #my fucking heart #dsmp #osmp #ad astra by hellenite #bee duo #osmp tubbo #osmp ranboo

[silenthillbunni]

._.

#no to be mean but sometimes i just dont have the energy to make myself like reply to ppl nd try to interact #continiously ppl block me bc i dont reply fast enough or etc etc #nd it's just like damn i tried just to get blocked???? 🥴🥴🥴 #also funny thing in my experience it's mostly girl mutuals who lose patience nd block me #hmmm inchresting 🧐 #anyway im wording this clumsily but like im just so exhausted nd my heart's tired #im tired of building some sort of light online attachment to someone #just to feel crushed when i notice they've blocked me nd i dont even know why??? #also wanna be clear that im referring to ppl i've talked to. not just interactions. sksks 🥴 #i know not everyone will block me nd i know there r nice ppl here but like i dont have the energy to sort thru it all #or take chances bc im tired 😭😭 #i feel bad bc there r ofc very kind ppl who reach out to me nd stuff but in my bones im dejected #like what if i actually do start talking nd i start feeling affinity to u nd slight healthy attachment nd then boom one day u block me??? #i feel mean nd oversensitive complaining abt this but idk 😣 #i liked this mutual nd talking to them but they blocked me nd idk whyyyy what did i do i always do smth y'all gotta fill out a form telling #maybe if i had irl friends i wouldnt care tho im aware im a loser