#dni im just venting

[our-inspire-verse]

I always feel so out of place even in system communities. Does anyone else relate at all??

Like, idk some system memes are cool and relatable bc obviously not everything is gonna line up, but so much of it doesn't click with us.

We've almost never been put off by the voices, we all wanna communicate, we don't think less of each other or think 1 deserves more front time than anyone else, etc. Idk, there's so many memes about denial and eating each other's food and all this distress. Which is i know, a major part of many system's lives. Part of what makes a meme is the repeatability and a lot of systemhood IS struggles in that area.

But what about systems who do everything right (in the sense that we have healthy coping and such)? What about systems who unconditionally love each other and dissociative barriers are something we work around instead of fighting? What about the systems who love the voices?

#this comes off as abilistic i know im gonna get some bs from this #but listen. listen to me. ur allowed to struggle and this post isnt about/for u if ur gonna get mad or defensive #im talking systems well on their path through purposeful recovery #systems years into studying themselves and having full comfort and understanding within. full love. full acceptance. #i want memes and content that isnt medicalized and saying the same stuff over and over and over and over #all this misery. where is the system content where we're just being plural and silly. im so tired #dont even start on syscourse like its so bad in here #smells like stinky #system babbles #osdd #actually osdd #minor vent? #system posting #memes #did #actually did #actually traumatized #actually traumagenic #endo safe #syscourse dni #positivity

[melanogster]

and some vent art coz why not

kinda how my body feels right now lol

relatable hurt vox moments ill see myself out the brainrot is getting stronger

#my art #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin fans dni #vox #vent art #ish #idk does it count if im thr only one who knows #fucking so much pain right now im just drawing to try and get rid of it #im just gonna go smoke a fat one and go to bed u-u

[skiploomz]

how can someone be both anti inclusion AND anti exclusion?

#u realise policing the right way to be queer and excluding ppl for their identity IS exclusionism u get that yes u understand it right #somehow both dni male lesbians and female gays AND transmeds and anti xenogender ppl???? am i going insane. #how can u b pro xenogender yet not understand that sometimes multigender ppl will be lesbians and men at the same time #or that someone can transition to be a woman but still feel comfortable with identifying as a gay man #like these are very simple concepts. how can u be anti transmed and pro telling trans ppl how theyre allowed to identify? ur a transmed. #vent #complaining #discourse #SORRY im not trying to start drama this just perplexes and infuriates me

[wompwomf]

kids these days will want anything to be a trauma story for them

"my dad groomed me" and "im a ramcoa survivor"

and then when you ask them about it they end up describing their dad being a normal loving parent and they just left a church because the pastor was mean once (he was probably pointing out bad behavior in sunday school)

and as a survivor of grooming, i can't say anything on the ramcoa bit, its fucking disgusting how many kids will call me a groomer for wanting to be friends, or for calling them a nickname, you can be friends with people of other ages and not be romantic

and im sorry if this part specifically offends you, but 2-3 year age gap IS NOT GROOMING, grooming is 5 or more years apart when one or both is under the age of 18!! and 17 year olds, stop trying to make every adult out to be a groomer for trying to help you

ive met people who are actual groomers, and people who have been groomed, if an adult inconveniences you YOU ARE NOT BEING GROOMED, being groomed is when the intent is specifically and clearly romantic and or sexual INITIATIVE FROM SOMEONE OLDER, if you are making advances on an adult, youve been groomed or your fucked up, but that is on the adult to stop or block you!!! YOU making advances and them stopping you IS NOT GROOMING and im tired of people acting like it is!!!

stop pretending to have actual trauma from something non traumatic, when you ACTUALLY get groomed i will listen and console you, if you say your groomed i will believe you UNTIL i hear your story, if your story is just a normal encounter with someone 2 years or older and YOU interpreted it as romantic or sexual, im leaving you and your trauma at the door because I couldn't care less

here are the definitions if grooming and pedophilia, YOU ARE NOT BEING GROOMED!! if your experience does in fact fit into these definitions, i recommend getting help from a friend or a professional to get out of this problem, whether you are a pedophile, or are being victimized by one, and i sincerely hope everything gets better, my prayers are being sent to you and to a safe recovery 💜

#tw vent #vent post #vent #tw grooming #tw ramcoa #small mention #fake trauma #trauma #this is mostly directed at minors in the plural community #putting endo tags because they are also responsible for doing this #my ex LoreandCo (name dropping yeah) was convinced someone was a groomer when in reality it was just a power dynamic #a power dynamic is not grooming #its just abuse #stop adding more onto something that doesn't need it #endogenic #traumagenic #plural #system #faking #its getting to the point im ashamed to be a system #minors are getting closer and closer to my DNI #rant post #personal rant #rant into the void #ranting #rant #venting #vent incoming #anti endo #stop watering down the words “pedophile” and “groomer” THEY HOLD MEANING FOR A REASON dont ruin it to validate your system

[kettle-bird]

I see a lot of people liking/reblogging my TMNT stuff again, and while I appreciate the support, it does make me feel like I need to make a new pinned post that's more reflective of the kind of stuff I typically do/have done throughout my time here

I am an adult, and I am/have been a horror/monster artist first and foremost throughout my time as an artist, and while I don't really have the energy to go policing who does/doesn't interacts with my stuff (there's way too many people to succeed in that anyhow) I don't want people to like my fanart and get like. Immediately wigged out by my normal faire, especially since I haven't done much TMNT lately

Idk. I know this is a bit of a ramble and I'll probably delete this later but it's been weighing on my mind

#not art #kettlebird rambles #vent post #its weighing on my mind since im currently working on a horrpr comic #sensibly i know i could simply go “minors dni” and or make my stuff more private #but that would mean sorting through my entire follower list #which i do not have nearly enough spoons to do #so im kinda just. stuck and anxious #idk #delete later

[onyx-got-clowned]

if i had a nickel for every time a Mormon girl physically grabbed me to drag me to class, I’d have two nickels- which isn’t a lot but it’s fucked up it happened twice.

#Just happened #im upset #and i don’t want people touching me #Let alone dragging me #Jade kept acting like it’s her buisness #Like stfu it doesn’t matter if I’m not in class #Shut the fuck up #onyx vents⭐️ #Antimormon #exmo #exmormon #religious trauma #mormon vent #Mormons dni

[the-unicorn-system]

reminder that proshippers are fucking DISGUSTING. if you support or are "neutral" on them i want you to get the FUCK. AWAY. FROM US. im sick and FUCKING TIRED OF BEING FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE WHO REVEAL TO US "OH! YOUR DNI? YOUR DISCOMFORTS THAT YOU STATE STRAIGHT UP? WELL I IGNORED THAT, IM ONE OF THESE SHITFUCKS."

I HAVE FUCKING ALTERS OF THE TMNT AND IT MAKES US FEEL PHYSICALLY SICK WHEN THEY SEE ART OR FICS BEING SHARED OF THEMSELVES HAVING ROMANTIC OR SEXUAL RELATIONS WITH THEIR FAMILY MEMBERS. I KNOW YOU FUCKS DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT SYSTEMS AND DONT CARE IF THEY EXIST OR NOT BUT HOLY FUCK. WE ARE THE WALKING DISPROOF OF YOUR "FICTION ISNT REAL!11!!" BULLSHIT.

AND IF YOU DONT WANT TO LISTEN TO A SYSTEM TELLING YOU THAT, THERE IS SCIENTIFIC PROOF THAT FICTION AFFECTS REAL LIFE, AND REAL LIFE AFFECTS FICTION.

SO, AGAIN. IF YOU ARE A PROSHIPPER THAT IS HIDING AWAY IN THE CORNER PRETENDING TO BE OUR FRIEND, OR FOLLOWING OUR ACCOUNT;

YOU ARE NOT WELCOME. GET THE FUCK BACK OVER TO THE CORNER OF THE INTERNET THAT LIKES YOU AND GET AWAY FROM THE ONES WHO WANT YOU OFF OF THIS TOXIC HELL HOLE.

#no this is NOT a callout TO ANYONE #this to say do not harass ANYONE who is a proshipper or a neutral. just block them and move on with your life #harassment is fucking shitty and i hate it with a burning passion #this is just a rant and im pissed off at this im exhausted and im physically and mentally stressed #i hate a certain person theyre who ive been ranting about but i will not out them #they already admitted to it publicly and nobody gives a fuck so #im not going to start fucking drama and make myself even more upset and more stressed #woomy post #rant #tw rant #tw vent #vent #vent post #and no DO NOT sent us any asks like “uhhh buhhh proshipping isnt a problem irl becau-” shut the fuck up #its OUR dni. its OUR discomforts and boundaries. fucking respect them or we will not be happy as you can see by this rant

[hehosts]

i think i might add a maturity rule or raise my limit to like 25+ — im going to be honest that part of the reason ive been avoiding tumblr is all the dramatics and theatrics recently — ik this is harsh, but it’s something im considering on top of other rule changes

#i understand venting and everything else but #im just a roleplayer so i can’t support everyone all the time in all means #and honestly all the DNIs are now tearing apart all my connections #and its shitty to have no explanations bc im just supposed to know and be here all the time #and then to basically be stuck in the center and forced to choose #also blog hopping excessively makes me forget who you are and where you are #so it’s just been a lot of ??? from me #also the rampant borrowing of my characters powers and traits is irritating #especially if you’re my age acting this way as i am thirty and will be thirty one soon

[crow-collective15]

Y’all this is the third time in four months our “mom” got told something she doesn’t like and fucking disappears

Like yes I’m aware she’s in the hospital and I shouldn’t be mad because it’s her attempting suicide but I can’t not be mad, not when this is a pattern

I’m not mad at her for being mentally ill, I’m mad at her for letting her mental illness affect everyone else to the point of being abusive

#osdd #endos dni #anti endo #traumagenic system #did #osddid #the crows vent #vent #suicide tw #tw suicide #tw abuse #narc abuse Believers dni #bpd abuse believers dni #i just need to clearfy I’m not mad because she’s mentally ill im mad because she’s abusive #there’s a lot of missing context here don’t assume anything unless you know our full story

[titlishu]

whatbis it called when you're. so terribly sad and can't get up from bed because of it

#I KNOW its depression but like. this doesnt. feel like the Normal Depression i have #...like i. idk i cant. get up? i can but i just. so tieed #tired* #and ive felt this before but i cant like. put a name to it. maybe labelling it would make it better? #like i keep. saying im sick. but its not really sickness like i KNOW jts not i know the difference because again this Has Happened Before #but like. a) i dont want to feel like this again and b) this is more intense than what i usually feel? mahbe its because i #tried to suppress it for some time and now its fucking sucked punching me in the face #sigh. #deep sigh #vent #dni #delete later

[queenmouseyy]

hhhhh

#vent #mousey talk #moment i wanna put that i dont want doubles on my twt dni but im scared of what like #my new friends will think abt it #idk if they know yumes so well #so im scared of them julding me and finding me weird #i DOUBT that will b a double since the fandom is small #but even sooo hhhh #i just like Boron sm :( #im already insecure with yknoe his other ship #so im hhhhhh #i dont need to b more insecure