#don’t let us lose him

[astral-from-afar]

RAIKOU NOO!!

#astra liveblogs #nabari no ou #don’t let us lose him #after Gau woke up for him #that would be miserable

[dreamofbecoming]

listen i know we all love steve “completely ignorant of queer culture to the point that bisexuality is a surprise” harrington being roasted and educated in turns by robin and eddie, yadda yadda, good stuff. i read “they made a horror version of rocky?” in a fic recently and cackled. also a big fan of “he knew he was bi from the start and just never talked about it” as a trope, love it excellent well done

but what about steve who realizes after starcourt that the most important person in his life now has this thing that’s a major part of her life that he knows nothing about, and what if he fucks it up? what if he says something ignorant or rude by accident, and hurts her? what if he loses her because he didn’t know the right thing to say? what if he can’t keep her safe because he doesn’t know what to look out for? absolutely fucking not, this steve says

and listen she’d never say anything, because she can tell that he can tell how much she likes teasing him and teaching him things, so he plays dumb, and she thinks it’s very sweet. but she notices when the zines she keeps under her bed that she buys at that one secret bookshop in indy when she can sneak away on family trips start going missing, always one at a time, and replaced in a few days with another disappearing. and she finds the new ones he must have gone to buy the weekend she was at her aunt’s house hidden in the back of his closet when she goes to steal one of his sweaters. and she notices when he slips more of her queerer movie recommendations into his personal take home pile rather than the movie night stack when he thinks she’s not looking.

she doesn’t notice when he drives to indianapolis after she tries to explain to him why she can’t just ask out a cute girl, tries to impress on him the fear attached to every moment of attraction that he simply has never had to feel, but later she finds a crumpled receipt from a diner in one of his jacket pockets when she’s looking for his keys, and the address is across the street from the bar the gorgeous woman at the bookstore told her about, the one she memorized the address of but hasn’t worked up the guts to think about visiting, and she knows he must have gone looking for a place like that, must have been trying to understand, must have been scoping it out to make sure it was somewhere she could feel safe, after she told him she never had.

so when eddie nearly pops a blood vessel when they clock each other and she mentions that steve is the only person she’s ever come out to before, her hackles come up. because she gets it, she does, he’s only known king steve until recently, so it makes sense that he would be afraid, be concerned for her safety.

but steve is her person, and no one- no one- has ever made her feel as protected or as cared for as he does. no one has ever tried as hard to understand her, no one has ever put so much work into making her feel safe and seen and loved. and she thinks maybe even if no one else ever does, that’s ok. because she has steve, and more importantly steve has her, and that means no one gets to question his ally credentials in her presence without a dressing down to remember, no matter how well they mean or how recently they helped save the world.

(and maybe she’s not as surprised as she could be when he figures out bisexuality all on his own, because she’s been reading all the same pamphlets he has, after all. and she’s seen the way he looks at eddie, i mean come on. maybe no one else has noticed, but then, nobody knows steve harrington like she does.)

#stranger things #steve harrington #robin buckley #platonic stobin #steddie #(if you squint) #this got away from me #i just really love love giving steve a bit more credit yk? #like yes he’s very stupid and he has a history of being self absorbed #and we love that about him #he’s very flawed and that makes him interesting #but i really feel like one of his defining traits is his need to be useful to the people he loves #combine that with his abandonment issues and i really feel like he would be scared of fucking up and losing robin #and yeah he would play dumb like he does with dustin and d&d #but i don’t believe he knows nothing about d&d after all this time and i don’t believe he would let himself know nothing about queer culture #i’m just so so attached to the idea of steve who knows that teasing him for being dumb is his friends’ love language with him #so he pretends to be dumber than he is so they have chances to explain things to him #also stobin sharing clothes is so so so important to me just putting that out there #anyway i just think they’re neat #my writing

[puppyeared]

Once upon a time

#I want them to lose focus and have a consensual workplace relationship 🥺🥺 #ALSO WHAT?. SEASON 4 DROP OUT OF NOWHERE WHAT? AND WE GET SHADOWPEACH BACKSTORY CRUNBS??? #can’t get over macaque’s face in That photo. I know what you are #I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS FOR THEM THOUGH UGHHHGFDO #like I have the model sheet for macaque and it shows him with his six ears and it says only to draw the six ears if extreme closeup but i #can’t find a single screen cap in the show with his six ears #I’d like to think wukong would have been one of the first ppl he’d show them to if he always has his glamor on them. PLS IT WOULD BE SO CUTE #like the glamor comes off his scar and someone pointed out his tail switching between black and white and a theory he’s using glamor on his #fur too. but he never ever takes the glamor off his ears which I want to believe is more than just the crew not drawing ‘em #I’m gonna be honest I’m only gonna watch season 4 when dub comes out but. that’s not gonna stop me from peeping the tags since I don’t under #understand the subs anyway. #first shadowpeach art too let’s gooooo. im so normal about them (lying) #my art #myart #Lego monkie kid #lmk #monkie kid #lmk sun wukong #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #sun wukong #shadowpeach #lmk fanart #lmk wukong #lmk monkey king #lmk six eared macaque #lmk season 4 spoilers #lmk season 4 #lmk spoilers

[ozcarma]

Trying to watch 999 let’s plays is such hell to me - NO ONE PLAYS THE GAME RIGHT just shutupshutupshutupshutup and play the game!! Stop trying to make jokes!!!!

I’m too autistic for this, I cannot bear hearing let’s players doing their own voice acting when I adore the game’s VAs too much. Everyone always fucks up Santa’s and Lotus’s voices especially.

I understand the draw of Let’s Plays are largely the people playing them who have gained their own following, but as someone who just loves the game I don’t wanna hear ur stupid banter 💥💥💥 play the game and be intrigued but not TOO intrigued because give it a fuckin minute it’ll explain what’s going on 🙄‼️

#zero escape #999 #my opinion is that the let’s plays that are alright are half-blind play thrus where one person is knowledgeable about everything #and can keep the blind one on track and properly guide their curiousity #I also lose my MIND when people get stuck on the puzzles on this ridiculously easy game #(<- says the person who has played it numerous times and knows all the solutions by heart) #like you IDIOT just do THIS #(<- also the person who still has to look up the answer to the box puzzle behind door 6) #and don’t get me started on when the LPers hate Lotus #don’t get me wrong - disliking her especially when u get to the hospital room is Good and Correct as it’s what the writing is leading you to #but some LPers get so misogynistic about it I have to immediately tap out cuz its too much #also another reason why I don’t like when they don’t use the in-game voice acting #is cuz so many people play Junpei as Basic Anime Protag when Evan Smith’s voice acting gives him SO much character #and Junpei is my favorite >:( #I have many more gripes but that’s enough for now #I just want everyone to experience how great this game is but ONLY in the way I LIKE #I know I sound so whiny and entitled but please tell me someone else relates #the urge I get to just make a whole channel dedicated to 999 play thrus where I just play the game again and again with a different friend #would they all be identical to each other because I would be directing them all the same? #yes. but what greater autistic joy is that (for me) #I never thought the Joseph Anderson streams would be my favorite playthrus cuz I hated them too at first #but his dynamic with chat and consistent amusement and enjoyment of the game is very nice and soothing

[laniidae-passerine]

I know some people are talking about Sally and Barry attempting to emulate their mentors in certain situations, which backfires on them, but I don’t think Barry gave up on trying to be Fuches halfway through. Actually, it was a perfect impression. When he started screaming down the line at Hank, it’s because that’s what Fuches does. Whenever Barry tells him firmly that it’s over and he’s not going to help Fuches anymore, Fuches loses his shit; he yells at Barry that he’s pathetic, he won’t survive without him, when I find you motherfucker! Barry’s mistake was failing to recognise that Hank isn’t him. Hank respects himself, genuinely cares about other people and, most importantly, won’t degrade himself just to feel like somebody loves him. But Barry absolutely would and, with all his other damage, that’s why he’s furious that Hank somehow says no to him.

#barry will always walk on his knees for a hundred miles through the desert #but Hank will ​let the soft animal of his body love what it loves #and he would never ever do himself damage for somebody to use him. Barry always does #I’m not defending Barry btw I’m not that vein of Barry fan I hope he explodes in an explosion and fuches and maybe gene comes with <3 #but Barry has never been loved unselfishly. never been loved by somebody not using him. so he understands love as sacrifice and pain ONLY #love is not gentle. love is a thousand tiny needles. love is their teeth embedded in your heart #so when Hank - who knows love can be both sacrifice and tenderness that you expose the worst of you and have it kissed and not cut open - #when he doesn’t adhere to this system Barry has in his head (when he basically says ‘no. this not how love or the world really works.’) #Barry fucking loses it. The way Fuches loses it. because to them love is pain and if they don’t hurt you they don’t love you #and if they hurt you (no matter how awfully) then you forgive them in the end. you get to be a little upset. but you always go back. always #but Hank won’t and he doesn’t need to! he is loved openly and honestly and any pain comes from having to grow and understand not from abuse #and Barry loathes him for it. he hates it. and he’s never going to get out and he’ll never be free. he is sick sick sick #and there’s not a cure in the world for it anymore #not when he let it fester and get worse and worse and worse. and now it’s over before it’s over. #ANYWAYYYYT #barry #barry hbo #monroe fuches #noho ​hank #barry berkman #edit: yeah turns out Hank will also kill it though. oops!

[mumblesplash]

ok mostly just getting this out of my head i think the reason i like stampede vashwood as much as i do despite not being much of a shipper in general is it resembles a dynamic i theoretically love but have never actually seen—where one character (A) is pining over a character (B) they know feels the same way about them.

because see for A these feelings are uncharted territory, a type of connection they’ve never formed before and maybe fear they never will again. even getting to the point where they admit their feelings to themself is like pulling teeth, but it’s something special to them.

meanwhile, character B has no reservations about their own feelings at all. they could give the most heartfelt declaration of love and mean every word of it as easy as breathing. they’ve loved A from the start and always will.

but in a sense, A’s feelings are unrequited anyway—the affection the two have for each other is equal, but it’s because B cares that much about everyone. it doesn’t matter if their feelings for A are romantic, deep down they probably don’t even know how to tell the difference between that and being whatever anyone wants them to be. and A knows this, so A can’t tell them what they want

ideally, this seemingly infinite capacity for compassion and love is part of what drew A to B in the first place (it at least can’t be something A resents or sees as unfair to them personally, that would miss the whole point). also ideally character B represents some sort of hope for a future A thought was impossible, escape from a dark past or a chance to become something better than they feel they are, but it’s a chance they can’t take without losing them

also also, this dynamic is angst-only. if they’re healthy enough to talk through their feelings and actually end up together they’re disqualified. it takes two specific types of disaster character for this to work properly, and any way it plays out will end up with everything falling apart horribly.

and like if i’m being honest here it’s barely even romantic. they probably never even get around to kissing and if they do they’re both convinced the other one doesn’t really mean it

#this is probably one of those ‘oh he’s been overtaken by the madness again’ types of posts isn’t it #oh well #re: the hope of escaping a dark past wolfwood is a good example of what i mean here because his whole ‘forcing himself to play the devil’ #thing is both the thing he feels he can’t escape and the thing that makes him ‘useful’ to vash #his willingness to pull the trigger when vash won’t is what makes him more than just another person vash loves #do u see what i mean. it’s about the tension of not being able to let love change you because the moment you do you’ll lose it #and like. this isn’t exactly what vashwood have going on per se #at least i don’t think? i never read the manga or even finished the original anime #but like you can see how the resemblance to this would get me Thinkin yk #mumbling

[yaminerua]

my mum: stopped me at every opportunity I asked to come see my dying grandpa bc ‘you don’t want to see him like this’ even tho I already had seen him and he had been happy to see me after years estranged from that side of the family and I very much wanted to fit as much time with him in as possible before it was too late and in the end she blocked me from all of it

also my mum: you never came to see your grandpa, you don’t give a shit

and now my mum yet again: won’t let me come see my gran who has been losing weight and falling and breaking bones a lot and been in and out of hospital since being on her own. Didn’t let me go talk to gran when we were both at my great aunt’s funeral last year and so I never saw her and she only found out I was there through other people who saw me. Refuses every time I ask to see my gran, including now when I’ve got presents for her

also my fucking mum right now in the same breath as refusing to allow me to come over: you never come to see your gran, you don’t give a shit

make it make fucking sense jfc

#Never mind the fact that the way my mum and aunt and cousins act about my gran it feels like I’m the only one who DOES give a shit #I’m the one crying and feeling bad for her and wishing I could do more #while my mum and aunt bitch about each other and refuse to coordinate to find an arrangement that works bc they don’t talk #And no-one believes me bc of the years we spent estranged from the family #which was largely bc of my mum being Fucking Terrifying and my aunt a manipulative bitch #I’m so pissed off. I wanted to mend things with papa bc when everyone else had acted like fools he had been fine #and he didn’t deserve to lose contact with us for all this years and I wanted him to know we love him before he was gone #and my aunt and cousin walked us out of the cancer centre the second time I tried to see him so I only got one actual session with him #and now I can’t reach my gran who has been lonely and declining bc of the grief and loneliness #and I’m fucking pissed bc yeah my gran did some batshit stuff in the past #and it was all a big mess but I still don’t want her to feel like I don’t cherish all the good times I spent with her as a kid #before everything went sour. You couldn’t keep me away from them as a kid. I loved spending my holidays there #some of my fondest childhood memories were with them and I hate that things got ruined but I just #want to make up for lost time and let bygones be bygones and yet everything remains complicated

[quietwingsinthesky]

the amount of time i spend thinking about Even carrying the metacrisis doctor’s fob watch is really quite disproportionate to how much ive fleshed out that part of the story in my head

#i still find myself not caring if the metacrisis doctor couldnt use one. he can because i said so and because donna shouldn’t get amnesiaed #alone. #but anyway. even. its just something about like. #here is your best friend. the man who showed you how big the universe could be. its still him human or not. its still the doctor. #can’t call him that. have to watch your tongue always because no matter how familiar their faces are. these two people do not remember #everything you did together and never can. at least they still love each other. nothing could change that. that’s what matters. you steer #them into each other’s lives so carefully and watch to see if they’re going to get hurt. but they don’t. it’s okay. #and still. and still. you carry your best friend’s life. everything that he is. you can hold it in the palm of your hand. he gave it to you. #he entrusted it to you. well. that’s not entirely true. technically you volunteered. but how else could you say thank you. #you made your world so so small again. for him. larger than you would’ve been used to once but you know what galaxies feel like to fly #across. and now you’re stuck in time and space. this is for love too. this is for the life you hold in your hands. #or wear around your neck on a chain. and because you chose this. you can never see him again. or you see him every day and he doesn’t #recognize all of you. #that would make anyone desperate wouldn’t it? make you do something stupid. make you turn to someone you shouldn’t. #even makes bad choices when they are cornered. i think. #dw oc #the important bit is of course that the only way they can ever get rid of it is by their own choice. which they never would choose to do. #(because tentoo won’t take it back. he’s his own person. impressions of the doctor influencing him. but the part of him that is donna doing #so as well. a whole new person. who does not want her memories back and to be unmade.) #but the point is that the moment even takes it. they will never let it go. they will lose it. on painful occasion. but it always finds its #way back. depending on the context this presence and responsibility is either comforting in its constancy. #or. in a less kind world. a horrifying reminder of how far they have fallen from who they tried to be for him.

[edge-oftheworld]

ashton really did be like ‘I’m reading the bible’ in his story

#like most christians don’t even read the bible #which is something I took way too long to realise how much of their pressure was projecting anyway #I can’t be the only one who had a good cry about that #like. not in a Must Convert You way. but like. i swear once it was something you were drawn to when #you were scared of the future and wanted security or just to feel loved by someone who’s not also dealing with being human #like I swear we used to just be like ‘oh this is a weird violent love story where Guy In The Sky tells temperamental little dudes (us) #that it’s gonna be okay and he was really extra about ensuring that. #like I was just thinking yesterday about how mum is like a prayer song to me. how sometimes we just want cosmic parents #who you know. we don’t have to be in charge of the emotions of and we don’t have to parent back as they get older #anyway I’m fully tangenting here and ash didn’t even write mum obvs that’s lukes song and like good for him. whatever #but to normalise trying out not even Christianity but this weird long ass document we’re obsessed with?? when did we lose that #when did we let people take it to oppress people and why did we not fight to take it back from them? #anyway ash please find my faithfromanewperspective blog so we can talk about the bible #or any of you. send me an as about the bible pref on my main blog but I’m not fussy #ashton irwin #5 seconds of summer #5sos

[coffee-at-annies]

I get to keep jars 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🎉🎉🎉

#chit chat #off season more like nap season #I’ve been bracing myself since may (maybe earlier) for us to lose him to free agency so this is i don’t have words I never let myself hope

[getting-messi]

:(

#so I haven’t been on Instagram since that day I mentioned I’d stop #but I was on Snapchat and this girl that I was super close with was posting a bunch of stuff cause it’s her bday #after years of wishing her a happy bday publicly and getting her gifts and her not even sending me a message on mine or even remembering - #I stopped going out of my way for her since she has given me no energy back #but anyways it’s her bday today and a bunch of people were posting her #and what’s crazy is that she got married recently but she didn’t even tell me when she got engaged I had to find out through someone’s story #and then she had the audacity to just send me a link of an invite to her bridal shower and I was like……I thought we were friends? #like I just don’t know I don’t care that she didn’t tell me she was talking to a guy but she didn’t tell me about her engagement #had a party to celebrate and didn’t invite me to that either #and then barely acknowledged my existence to send me ONLY A LINK to her bridal shower? cause she wanted gifts that’s all #so I was like whatever I’ll go and I even bought her and her man a couples gift EVEN THO I DONT KNOW HIM and clearly don’t know her #but it was a big winter storm so she had to cancel and said she’d let us know when she reschedules #she didn’t bother rescheduling and had the wedding last month #and now on her bday I’m seeing everyone post pics from the wedding and I’m like…… #ouch #she couldn’t even invite me to her a wedding #it just feels like a slap to a face #I’m really in my feels recently about not having a single friend #and it’s like I still have her dumb gifts because I couldn’t return it #and it’s like okay people lose touch with each other but every single one of my ‘old friends’ cut me off so harshly #I have way more stories about the other ones #like I truly PRAY that I could just have A SINGLE good friend that I could text and hang out with #but it gets harder and harder the older I get #I saw a tweet that said stop putting energy in your relationships and see how many last if the other person cares they’ll seek you out #and look at that - I was the only one holding onto flimsy friendships that stopped the moment I stopped putting effort #:( #social media sucks

[hetalia-club]

just listened to Romano’s cover of Be Prepared, not only is it the greatest thing on the planet and sent be spiraling. But I also seen your post saying that he’s singing it to his simps and can I just say I love that so much?!

I feel like Romano really would talk to us all like that in this kind of situation because he would be angry we let him lose before 🤣

Lmao yes! So happy you understand my vision as clearly as I do! He would love his simps until he needed something and then I think he would treat us all like minions. We are all hyenas in the cave…

#ask #if you don’t think Romano would verbally abuse us for letting him lose idk what to say

[tariah23]

Been crazy about this particular title page for years actually

#I won’t write an essay but man……. it gets to me sorry #rambling #I’m sure that kishimoto wasn’t thinking too much about it based off of how he talked about his other official works and how jump #and his editors basically called all the shots even down to how they wanted him to draw something as simple as Naruto looking imposing or #jumping up in a scene and this and that #so maybe this one was drawn with the same visions from his editors in mind #but still #the water… the sinking feeling of going under and losing everything including your life and the person you care so much about will all be #buried if you don’t stay afloat- let me stop I’m embarrassing #*uses the geass on myself via mirror* I will not talk about n rn I will not- #um #sorry for talking about Naruto #I’ve been normal for a few months now but I’m slipping since I quit my job lol I need to find another soon so I won’t go insane #again

[raamitsu]

there are no words- hell no other ways to describe how handsome satoru is. GOD.

#gege can despise him all he want but he knows he gotta do us the act of service #someone on twt said that as long as satoru’s alive they don’t mind him losing an eye and that’s just hurt #but also the potential fanarts that will come from it? yeah. it will be fruitful. #don’t let gege know about this or imma slap you out of this mother earth #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #gojo satoru

[vulpinesaint]

yeah. gosh. fourteen year old me would be so happy to know that we are where we are now.

#i have to dress edgier. for him #seriously though… the metamorphosis a body can undergo #my best friend was so right when they said that my face shape has changed. i grew a jaw out of Nowhere #and the things that letting your hair grow out a little will do for you… #fourteen year old me would be so happy to know that we look at ourself in the mirror and feel good. #feel right. #that we’ve gotten things correct that we’ve gotten a binder that we can see past what other people might see. #i definitely looked trans (child) then. but i look trans (hot young adult) now. and it would be such promise for them. #if they could know the kind of things i wear… oh they would lose it. #we got some fashion stuff down baby me. we got it figured out. #turns out you just have to figure out how to wear that dress shirt in a way that emphasizes the right things. #god i love you little me. you’d be so fuckin happy to see us now #and thirteen year old me… oh gosh. babe you’d be so happy to know that we finally figured out what was wrong. #we figured out why nothing meant for girls ever looked right on us. #and your future doesn’t look how maybe you thought it’d look. but it looks so fucking good #sending so much love out to past selves. kissing elementary school me on the cheek. #it’s okay not to be a tomboy. you get to be something even cooler than that when you grow up. promise. #and middle school me you WILL use tumblr and listen to mychem and dye your hair black + have long fringe that falls in your face. #don’t let the dream die. we’ll get there one day. #you don’t look Emo but you look like you. which is even better. #sentimental in this chilis tonight. everybody hold my hands so we can sing kumbaya or something #OH GOSH. MIDDLE SCHOOL ME… you wear a lot of black and children Do have to ask if you’re a boy or a girl… #you’re getting closer to those 2015 ‘i got mistaken for a boy in the grocery store’ textposts all the time. promise. the dream comes true. #all those adam lambert music videos you’re watching right now are gonna pay off one day mark my words fjskfj #valentine notes