#especially with todays date!

[onebugeverysooften]

10/13/23: Large Milkweed Bug (Oncopeltus fasciatus)

#bug of the day #large milkweed bug #Oncopeltus fasciatus #done with graphite and orange highlighter on a sticky note #saw a lot of these guys while doing my research project! #been meaning to get back on here and I thought an orange and black bug would be perfect for the spooky season #especially with todays date!

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #you didn't hear this from me but streetlight manifesto has 2 and only 2 tour dates scheduled so far for this year #one in their home turf and one in mine #it will've been 5 years since I last got to see them live #after 6 consecutive years of attending #I was genuinely and reasonably worried I might not survive to see them live again. #tickets don't go on sale for another day or two so it's not a 100% guarantee but. #it's like kind of a big deal tbh. #no not kind of. it's a big deal to me. #I'm emotional about it. #anyway check out my craft blog I reblogged earlier today or the merch catalogue in the pinned post so I can afford tickets lol #(honestly my wife and partner would probably cover the tickets if I asked especially since they're both coming with me) #(so the money part is realistically nbd)

[official-boobies-posts]

always was, always will be aboriginal land ❤️💛🖤

#dont know how many aussies follow me but its jmportant #for those who arent australia!! #today is invasion day otherwise known as australia #its a celebration of the mass genocide of the aboriginal and torres strait islander people #(the owners of aussie land) #weve also very recently lost a vote to give aboriginal people a say in what happens to that land #thankfully the protests all over the country were huge #ive just gotten home from one that had tens of thousands of people marching through meanjin #if youd like some links to support indigenous owned businesses (v important to do especially today) #feel free to dm me #australia #invasion day #australia day #jan 26th #change the date #vote yes #land back

[roomy-ghosted]

My feelings towards ao3 this morning.

#baldurs gate 3 #astarion #bg3 astarion #like-i get it. but- #please. please for the love of god. just fluff or non-sexual fics. #for five seconds. #please. #I can only handle so much corn. especially when it's almost all geared just towards women. #this is all /lh i dont actually care all that much- but there comes a point where theres too much and all a man wants to do #is hold another man close. or go on perfume dates or pottery lessons with another man. #small things to help healing or gentle things or silly playful things. #hell- even taking care of all the spawn with Astarion in the bad ending- #why are all the bad ending fics ive seen corn btw? I've seen like- zero non-corn ones. #i get it. I get the vibe. but like- also. consider. like- maybe I wanna read angst with. with no corn?? please? #I've got 4 unposted fluffy fics im working on. One being hurt-comfort with some extra hurt #which i had to stop writing for a bit today because it was hurting a bit TOO much. #but yea. a little less corn for Astarion? for those who aren't horndogs? please? or just don't wanna fuck him because they #dont wanna hurt him more- (im not at the point in game where he's comfy with sex again yet-) #BESIDES GALE IN THE WAVEMOTHER ROBES IS RIGHT THERE PEOPLE- #LIKE COME ON. IF YOU'RE GONNA SEXUALISE A MAN HE'S RIGHT THERE WITH HIS PUPPY DOG EYES AN HAIRY CHEST. #There needs to be more sexualisation of Gale. NO I don't take no for an answer (Astarion is still my favourite though-)

[ranger-crow]

‘Bout time I got around to posting this-

We got six healthy chicken nuggets! In order from oldest to youngest we have-

Jovi: Female, March 11th

Halen: Male, March 12th:

Chili: Male, March 13th

Pepper: Female, March 13th

Fleetwood: Male, March 14th

Roxie: Female, March 16th

I will definitely be breaking into the daycare over the next week to see who opens their eyes first! I’ll try to get some better pictures of them later ‘cause these guys have some very pretty colorations and spots starting to come in that isn’t done justice under the heat lamps. Fleetwood has a very heavy melanin pigment and pepper is a reddish purple that seems to grow deeper each day.

I’m holding Roxie- I ended up giving her shell a little crack since she was struggling to get a start and she’s very reactive to my voice. Despite her late start she’s easily the chunkiest of all her siblings and a lovely rosey purple color with some larger splots of white. Don’t tell anyone but I definitely have a favorite <3

#the daycare workers are laughing at me- I’m totally not attatched nope not me! #pokeblogging #pokemon irl #pkmn irl #pokeblr #pokeblog #pokemon roleplay #crow.txt #pokemon rp #pkmn rp #ooc: wanted to get this out days ago but I’m slow rip- #i got too many hobbies and stuff I want to do- on top of a job that kicked my ass today especially #I’m trying not to get so hung up on dates and timeframes tho- I can’t control that and when I get the chance to post stuff I’ll take it #I do want to go through my drafts and inbox tho- stuff has been piling up so if you sent an ask and I haven’t answered it yet I have seen- #it I’m just busy and will hopefully get to it on a rainy day <3

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

appleshipping (gameverse edition) ❤️💚

#that moment when your two childhood friends ditched you because they're dating each other now (blue) #here comes the obligatory diary styled rambling #im so giddy over red rn ❤️ #today wasnt such a pleasant day sadly #so i tried to keep my mind off of it by coloring this draft i had #feel better now #i love red ❤️ #im quite proud of this. id say this entire piece has accomplished 3 things i had in mind for my new years resolution #first. i draw more full body especially two people #second i draw more body (especially men. look at red) #and thirdly i always wanted to do a page doodle - and i did it #i want to try this again - with steven perhaps 💙 #i love my champion boyfriends a lot #pipino never leaves red and jaide ❤️ #~ art #♥️ appleshipping #selfship #jaide (gameverse).insert

[daz4i]

p5 fandom is fun (...on tumblr). a few celebrations we have throughout the year:

akechi fucks up (also known as delicious pancakes day)

akechi fucks up 2 [SPICY EDITION 🔥🔥💯💯❗️❗️❗️]

protagonist gets shot in the head

christmas eve! time to shoot god in the head also

small potatoes day (<- most painful day in the whole persona series)

#today is protagonist gets shot in the head day btw! #at first i wanted to make this a post abt all 3 games that have dates #but p4 doesn't really have any ''holidays''. and p3 has 2 that i actually see ''celebrated'' #(both have more key dates ofc but ppl don't really put emphasis on them or especially draw art for those)

[canisonicscrewyou]

Okay here’s the thing, some of you are asking for the 2019 Aziracrow Cosplay Pics** in my inbox, and upon reflection how could we not. You’re gonna get so much more lore than you could’ve ever asked for or wanted,though. This is a long post, and I almost want to apologize for it. **Pre-HRT baby face pics ahead

For context, Damien and I have known each other since freshmen year of high school, 2012. In fact, we had like no classes together, and whenever one of us mentioned our nerd shit in class the first couple of days, kids kept telling us we HAD to meet each other. We finally met in a history class after they got transferred into it, and exchanged fandom memes back and forth after school on the sidewalk that day until our rides picked us up, and pretty much from then on freshmen year EVERYONE thought and asked if we were two little queer kids dating in our Catholic School.

And of course we weren’t— we just sat in each others’ laps a lot, or grabbed at each other a lot, and were a little inseparable for a while. Neither of us read anything into this. We were also, very importantly, cringey little 14-15 year old SuperWhoLock girlies, only I didn’t watch Supernatural, and they didn’t really watch Doctor Who, and we both thought Sherlock was pretty good. We supplemented our own love for our special little shows for the other. We were so inseparable that Damien’s 1-month-long-freshmen-boyfriend got them a Doctor Who gift for Valentine’s Day. The key to the Eleventh Doctor’s TARDIS. (My favorite, at the time, and also one that I knew they definitely sold at the comic book shop up the block.) They break up with him for giving them chocolates with nuts(allergy), and immediately give my little autistic ass the TARDIS key at lunch. Neither of us read anything into this. This is a common theme.

Damien, at some point, tells me to read a book they love, Good Omens. Due to my brain being the way it is, it takes about 3-4 business years, until college, to read Good Omens at their recommendation.

Damien is one of my best friends throughout high school and college. I also think it’s important to note that they were a jock, and I was a theatre kid. And the only time I convinced them to do something, a haunted house, with the drama club, to share a hobby maybe, they got hit in the head with a lightsaber by a 1st grader and needed stitches immediately after we started.

ANYWAYS.

I get Damien into cosplay a year or so later- 2013? 2014?

But it also takes us years to cosplay together- we would help with each others’ cosplays a lot. By that I mean I built a bunch of their props and they helped by getting the supplies with me and generally just hanging out. It takes us until 2019 to cosplay together.

Good Omens is out on Amazon Prime.

We text each other.

“Do you want to do a couple’s cosplay of this?

Yes, yes of course I do.

And yes, of course you’re Crowley, and of course I’m Aziraphale. And of course I’m Crowley, and of course you’re Aziraphale.”

Pretty much every week that summer, we built our wings from scratch, from wire and masking tape and ethically sourced goose and duck feathers and mall Chinese food. We go out and plan and shop for our gay little outfits. We sit and talk in their car, in my driveway, for ages every time, every night.

Another fun fact: this was the same convention that I painstakingly painted their tits blue for. And also painstakingly helped them wash blue off of in the shower, drunk, later that night. Unrelated, Aziraphale was the first cosplay I felt comfortable in.

Another fun fact: while getting ready for the photo shoot we booked that morning, my family dog scared my cat Almondmilk, and he peed all over my Aziraphale cosplay, and I yelled a bit. Our photographer rescheduled, blessedly, and a few hours later our photographer was asking how we wanted to stage the kiss, since of COURSE there had to be a kiss, but instead we sort of just—

“We’re really good friends— We’ve known each other since high school— We’ve already seen so much of each other this is no big deal— Do you need another shot?”

“Uh-huh,” Our photographer says, knowingly. “I think maybe one more, if we’re comfortable with—“

“Oh yeah, no problem at all-“

“Uh-huh, Yeah,” Our photographer says, knowingly. “Tilt your head up more.”

Not many couples can say they somehow managed to get their first kiss documented and edited in HD.

Damien got nauseous at the last day of the con, and the only thing we had to help were these honey sticks from a tea shop booth. They couldn’t open the little sticks themself, with their fangs in, so I took them and ripped them open with my teeth to give to them. Completely, totally unrelated, though, I think this was the summer I began to realize, perhaps realize once more, that I was so absolutely done for for Damien.

Anyways all of that went SO well, that we were planning every Ineffable Husbands cosplay we could. Somehow, our most logical next choice was a fun and very quick, messy little boudoir photo shoot in my college dorm room, while they were visiting me 3+ hours away from their school.

Down so bad you lovingly pack wigs to go to college with so that you can have your best friend sit in your lap for your little ship.

We did that as Just Good Friends, literally in front of an old friend who took the photos and helped us stage the poses a bit.

We went to sleep that night in that bed. It was big enough to fit 3, maybe even 4 people if you were in a pinch. The bed was not treated like it was that big. (Note, we now sleep on a full sized bed, and it’s suddenly too small.)

And we talked for a while and we went to bed and all I could think about was how much I loved them no matter the sense of the word. And how many nights we sat talking in your car in my driveway for way too long, wondering if I should ask if I could kiss you. (A quick pronoun change, because I know you’re reading this.)

And

Nothing

Came

Of

This

For

LIKE

FOUr

MORE

YEARS.

Just good friends. Just good, good friends.

And that’s how Good Omens helped me realize, in retrospect of 2019, how in love I was with my Crowley best friend.

#long post #sorry for the gay oversharing nerd ass romance story when all y’all were asking for was cosplay pics. #hiiiiiiii damien this is close enough to our anniversary (next week?) that I can be gay on main hardcore mode. #also everyone say happy birthday Damien bc that IS today #the hilarity of 2019 especially. how we didn’t end up dating after that con alone is beyond me. #We probably Were Not Ready but anyways. it’s a good fucking cosplay. I still have that cosplay. #this cosplay gave me gender euphoria pre-hrt which was hard to come by in costumes/theatre/cosplay #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #good omens cosplay #aziraphale cosplay #crowley cosplay #we beat the toxic codependent sapphic teenage friendship by transing our genders <333333 #andrew’s face #ask to tag for the boudoir ones. however they’re also incredibly tame bc a friend was photographing us and we were trying to play so cool #I was at least

[cerbreus]

i need you guys to look at my pretty pretty rocks 👀💕❤❤💕

#went to an annual rock show today!!!!! #so many rocks!!!!! #thankfully i set myself a cash budget or my god we would have been there. a lot longer. #such beautiful stuff though!!!!! i've started collecting slabs #because i like to display them on my wall like a collage #i'm enamored with all these shapes and colors and patterns..... #some of the sellers told me what the rocks were but i have a really REALLy horrible memory so I'll have to look them up again later #but I got so many for me and also some (not pictured) for my partner as well..... #i've been keeping my eye out for some specific things since before we even started dating and finally got my hands on some x))) #and also some that just have like #patterns and colors I think he'll like!!!! it's so much fun...... #ahhHHHHHHHH I LOVE MINERALS AND STONES SO MUCH #they also had a lot of petrified dinosaur poop slabs which were actually. so beautiful. #anyway #heheheheh #literally all of this if i was trying to buy from the rock stores here or online they'd have charged me probably $20-$50 each..... jfc #especially some of the special ones i got like #finding them below $80-$120 for a small stupid tumbled version is REAL hard #my stuff #over half the sellers were just selling tumbled stones though :( saddened by just how many lake superior agates i saw that were tumbled #they look SO cool naturally... why.. tumble them...

[shiroganeryo]

I don't know if you've answered this before but what do you predict will be the ending for DGrayman? I think we all think that Kanda (my boy's got literal death flags everywhere) and Allen will die, but what about everyone else? How will the world be saved?

I really apologize for taking so long to get to this ask, but I've been actually thinking the matter over and over. My answer is probably a little off the chart regarding to the actual question, but this is all I can muster with the current information we have (up to chapter 250). This will be a tad long but I'll try to keep it brief.

But the thing is: it's impossible for me to make a prediction. The beauty in Hoshino's writing is that, while she scatters little details for us to catch and plants seeds very early on, helping us find out certain reveals ahead of time (Allen being the 14th's host, Mana being the Earl; there were very early signs for things like these, things of the sort), knowing such information still isn't enough to give us a definite outline of how the story itself will play out.

That's masterfully done writing right there, and I admire her so because of it; not many shounen/seinen mangaka nowadays can pull this off with the same grace as she does.

Back to your question, much like the majority of the fandom, I believe Kanda will die at the end and there are two reasons for that: one is that it's been hinted at (we could even call it foreshadowing) since Kanda claims he wouldn't be able to die in peace without returning the favor to Allen - not to say he means anything other than "one day I'll die and then I'd take this regret with me to the grave", but we can only get the feeling he has dwelled on the thought (and also possibility) of dying, sooner than expected, especially with the weakened state of his seal.

The other reason is that this would be the most gratifying ending for Kanda, as he would be able to reunite with Alma. He lived his entire life searching for that person and longing to reunite, so that would be the most logical route to take - as well as the best, happiest ending possible for Kanda. After all the horrors the Seconds went through, they both deserve eternal peace.

As for Allen... call me crazy, but I believe there is a chance, albeit slim, that he makes it out alive. I'll need to bring up some things from Chapter 250 to be able to elaborate on this, so here's your warning not to click the Read More if you're avoiding spoilers.

One thing I've observed is that Hoshino plays a lot on word meanings (which unfortunately translation can't convey efficiently) as well as red herrings. Ever since we found out Allen's the 14th's host, he's been considered doomed to get erased so we're playing a clock-ticking game, waiting until that happens.

So it seems that there are only two possibilities: that Allen either gets erased by Nea, or that he dies, sacrificing himself for everyone's sake in the ensuing battle against the Earl that is possibly bound to happen. I can easily picture Allen doing the latter, but the latest chapters gave us something else to consider: Apocryphos' meddling.

We still don't know the full details as to why, but Allen is both deemed as an angel as well as a lamb of sacrifice to the Heart. Something makes me think Apocryphos might be trying to 'craft' the perfect host for the Heart by making use of Allen.

It just aligns with everything we know about Apocryphos as an entity: for someone that is a sentient Innocence whose existence gravitates around the sole purpose of protecting the Heart, why is it so obsessed with a specific accommodator, to the point it even quite literally turned Allen into a blank slate (Nea has confirmed so)?

I'm led to believe Allen is not the Heart, that would be far too easy and predictable. But that's not to say he can't become the Heart. We don't know if the Heart is sentient (all Innocence seem to have sentience to an extent regardless) or if it has an accommodator, and if there is one, if this person isn't out there waiting for the perfect candidate to pass the Heart on to.

This is all just speculation, of course. But it's something that's been on my mind for a while, as I've tried to understand Apocryphos' end goal.

And in the end, if Allen and Nea have become allies due to their shared goal (ending the war and saving Mana), that could also mean that they both die together, as that would be the reunion of Mana and Nea as one, as well as the reunion of Allen with the Mana he so loved.

But then comes in another valuable variable that is Link. It's highly likely that he might sacrifice himself and bring Allen back if he falls, but because of how Atuuda works, that would mean exchanging his own life for Allen's.

There are just a lot of things that could go either way, and that's how Hoshino is so good at keeping us guessing. I often say that I find theorizing anything that goes too far into the future of DGM to be pointless because of how sharply a new, unseen reveal might shift the current scenario.

The latest chapter is building up the expectation that Allen will meet his end soon, especially since the Zoogle Bookstore entered the picture. And that is exactly what's keeping me from being able to predict anything worthy of note; because what they unravel there will very likely be a major game changer not only to Allen but to all involved - which means, by extension, everyone involved in the Holy War.

Another thing keeping me from theorizing anything more solid is Lavi. As a Bookman, he's a witness to history itself, and his whereabouts/status are extremely relevant to map out an end game. The most popular theory is that he's the one telling Allen's story, as it seems the D. in the title refers to "Dear Gray Man".

I can, however, also see Allen as the potential narrator of this story. As for whomst this Gray Man is, only time will tell.

I could go on and on with this, and not get anywhere near what'll truly happen. It's difficult to reach a conclusion in what will happen at the very end for the aforementioned reasons, but if there's one thing I can say, is that this current universe's loop will be the one to end the Holy War, so the Black Order and the Clan of Noah should cease existing as organizations.

Innocence would very likely cease existing as well, having fulfilled its purpose, so all accommodators would be freed. With the end of the war, also comes peace for the Memory of Noah, freeing its hosts from the millenia-old anguish that bound them to a perpetually-destroying world. That would leave the remaining survivors free to do as they please with their lives, away from the war, at last.

First and foremost, DGM is a story about love and hope, even in the darkest of times, and most fans can resonate with such - it's not rare to hear from a fan how this series has helped them hang on when things were looking rather dim in their personal lives. DGM's story is a tragedy, but a beautiful, bittersweet one, just like real life. Thus while I don't see it having a perfect, neatly sanitized ending, I don't see it having a kind of overly dramatic 'everyone dies and the planet explodes' kind of ending either. It would go against everything Hoshino has built all along, after all.

I apologize if, in the end, this wasn't the kind of answer you were hoping for, especially with how long it got - and I did keep it brief, really! But thanks to you and whoever may be reading until here. ❤️

#there are a lot of scattered thoughts here but I hope it's a good enough answer #or at the very least something enjoyable enough to read #I'm looking forward to the next chapter next month #ask #DGM #spoilers warning if you're not up to date with the series! #sorry if there are typos and etc I'm especially tired today but I haven't been having much free time lately to reply when I'm more rested

[rosalesbeausderholle]

We're doing The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo this month for our book club, and I'm sure there will be a lot of discussion about how problematic the lesbian character is and I kind of want to ask "ok so how many of you are bisexual?" *sees raises hand* "ok now how many of you have dated exclusively men and never tried to seriously pursue women?" just to create drama but they would not see the point even if I served it to them in a platter like that so I'll try to be nice and keep my mouth shut.

#liveblogging my life #I don't think people who have not dated women can understand the nuance in a lesbian from the 50s being insecure about any men in her #bisexual lover's life #like that still happens TODAY but in the 50s-70s especially #so they will not see the nuance they will just scream biphobia and that's it

[sharenalovemail]

alright! sorry for the delay, adhd ate every thought of mine this past month oTL

i realized it's easier to just keep the polls to tumblr instead of redirecting to a different page so im gonna ask some questions again lol (thanks for everyone who did vote on the google forms thingy though!)

im currently leaning towards june or july for this one - before august when the brave alts will drop and attention will be on alfonse, but giving enough time for people who prepare. but if people prefer another date ... that's what this poll is for!

the plan would be to announce prompts at least a month in advance (i.e. april if may wins) or maybe even two if it's preferred + time allows

#fire emblem heroes #sharena #fe sharena #fire emblem #interest check #okay important tags out of the way. gonna ramble more in here i cut myself off in the main post #ive been meaning to make this post the entire month but id remember when my phone was dead 😭 #while the gforms thing i shared last time did get some attention it didnt get as many votes as the og interest check did #so i figured id ask the important thing again - the date #especially since the way i covered it in the gforms was... lacking #everyone say thank you to the spring alf and rena doodles that released today for getting my ass into action #who woulge: my intense love for sharena; or -- adhd #anyway I'll start gathering some prompt ideas and see if i hold a poll over those or not later on #scheduling this to post... not at 1 am lol

[morrigan-sims]

these swatches from these conversions of Jaheira's outfits from BG3 are perfect for Fallon's "I'm totally not a royal" outfits.

#morrigan.txt #delete later #ugh she looks so good in these. especially the first one. #I'm so obsessed with her it's unreal. #fuck the person who made this cc but unfortunately her cc is the main base of my fantasy cc collection... *sigh* (thanks DHM!!) #and now that Sifix isn't posting cc anymore and Strange Storyteller Sims has been inactive for YEARS my fantasy cc supply is drying up. #and it's killing me. #I need fantasy cc to live. #now as for why Fallon needs ''I'm totally not royal'' outfits... spoilers? #well not really. they're for certain dates. #but I don't wanna get more detailed than that on here #sorry I've posted so much today #it's been a while since I've opened sims.

[hella1975]

i have such a reputation that four separate people incorporated pringles into my birthday gifts. be that girl

#to the point my one mate today (the one i almost ditched in that seminar LMAO) ((WAIT I NEED TO TELL YOUSE ABOUT HIM)) #anyway! he was like 'oh i actually got you something!' which given our dynamic despite RECENT DEVELOPMENTS AHEM #is so unusual like he was NOT required to get me a gift. but then i immediately was like 'it's pringles isn't it' #and he was just like 'sigh. yeah' LMFAOOOOO #and you know what? chuffed to utter bits. ive already eaten half of them in 24 hours. scranning even more as i type this #anyway back to that guy. so you know i sometimes mention my flatmate from first year who also happens to be on my course #so off the bat we've got a weird friendship bc he's not just a coursemate bc i also lived with him #but also first year halls were assigned not chosen so it's not like we were actually FRIENDS #especially bc my flat did NOTTT get on lmfao so me and him were mainly just. acquaintances who lived and studied together? #very strange foundation to have with someone. but we went all of second year barely staying in contact #and then this year we live in the same area and for the LIFE of me i cant remember how we got back in contact #but all of a sudden we were messaging every day and meeting up before lectures and sitting together in them and stuyding together etc #and we get on REALLY well like he has my exact sense of humour i know ive posted about him several times #over the past three years being like 'me and this guy are the funniest people i know' 'he would do bits on tumblr' etc #AND THE OTHER WEEK HE ADMITTED THAT HE LIKES ME AND WE WENT ON A DATE #AND IT WENT REALLY WELL BUT I CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME FIGURE OUT HOW I FEEL ABOUT HIM #SO IM TRYING NOT TO PUT PRESSURE ON ANYTHING and i was super clear w him also that im not actively searching for anything #so if smthn happens organically then it happens but if not it's my final year and that will always take priority and he was super chill #so i dont feel like i HAVE to make a decision just yet but we're going out again tomorrow #and it's like. even if it doesnt become smthn romantic i just really click with him?? like we get on so well??? IT'S SO FUN #AND THAT'S WHAT MATTERS! WOOHOO! pringles post derailed by a MAN. awful #hella goes to uni

[chl3borzoi]

You should never feel dread about intimacy. It should be a pain-free and enjoyable thing. You should feel held by your partner. Your partner should defend you to others and make you feel wanted, in many more ways than just sexually. If this clicks with you, i encourage you to leave. Heartbreak and being alone is sad, but it's better than bad.

#i feel like too many people taking dating way too seriously. #if things are bad and youre not comfortable or happy #and if you do indeed try to voice yourself and address things. to not be heard or understood. or respected. LEAVE leave leave #leeeavvvveeeeee regain confidence recognize your charming character qualities take care of yourself. #you should never ever ever put up with feeling scared in the bedroom #because apologies cannot fix that level of trust breaking #p #yeah i slept through therapy yeahh im binge drinking again lmfaooo. love yourself because i don't love myself. #OH a liar is something we don't entertain. #if youre partner is a liar ESPECIALLY a pathological one RUNNNN AWAY #wrong your oh look i picked up a bad habit lmfao. god. have enough self love and worth to date someone whos fucking literate. #feeling [REDACTED] Today may record vocals for my friends album later

[arthur-r]

something’s just not right / there’s hunger in my eyes, but you’re not looking into mine / in the morning light / i wake up next to you, but we’re no longer entwined / i want to love you with a ravenous hunger, tear your flesh into mine / you say you like me, but you’d rather that i listen quiet, keep it all inside / i romanticize a lust for blood and the glint of evil in your eyes / any kind of sign, something to tell me that your heart is burning just like mine / rend me to pieces if that’s what it takes to tell me that i taste divine / there’s something wrong but i just can’t quite place it, leave me on the precipice, i’m fine / something awakening and stirring inside me / i’m gearing up, your pretense in decline / i slice my heart up on a platter and find that you don’t even wanna dine / i gave my soul up, you can eat me raw / diced up and vulnerable, i’m yours to try / you’re glancing to the side, bored, and find that you don’t even wanna dine!!!!

#round 2 of recording my loser boring cannibalism song #(it has more words now. it is still not a complete song but it is getting somewhere….) #basically i really like cannibalism as a literary device and devouring somebody and being like violently enamored #and i convinced myself that my relationship was really good and healthy and i just don’t know how to handle a Good Normal Relationship #but secretly loving somebody should be at least a LITTLE BIT like cannibalism. especially if you’re me #so i got really hungry and he didn’t ever lift a finger for me or smile in my direction #and i wish he would just be hungry for me back. kill me a little bit if it would mean you care #i just thought that Normal People should be Normal about each other and he was just being Normal about me #when he like. did not prioritize me ever. and was only affectionate when he was drunk 🫠 #he does NOT deserve to be the one who ended the relationship!!!! #anyway i would rather he eat me alive than not even look at me. and that’s what this song is about #and i’m gonna raise my standards so much fucking higher. he should be fucking hungry for me actually #literally and figuratively shdhdf i was always the one to invite him to dinner too. #and he was SHIT at communion motif. that guy had awful fucking table manners why did i date him #anyway shdhdf. idk here is round two of my hungry song #i’ve already changed the lyrics a little since recording this a couple mornings ago but it’s FINE my roommate is in here so can’t re-record #but: there’s something wrong but i’m not ready to face it. actually. cause it was so fucking obvious i was just willfully ignorant #anyways!! i’m feeling a little weird today and i haven’t done anything and i want to play music but i can’t. so i’m posting a song instead #and later i might be going to a concert?? we’ll see. if i’m feeling better physically by then!! #anyway i hope everybody is doing okay and lmk if you need anything!! sincerely arthur #me. my post. mine. #delete later (probably) #music