#feel stupid

[platoniccereal]

thinking about how pretty much every tranquil we meet as a player is somewhat pro-circle/pro-chantry?? it makes sense since they have no control over their live, but just this fact makes me wonder that they also go through massive pro-chantry brainwashing. obviously. hey're stripped from their emotions and dreams, technically, but what we see in games they're also don't have their previous ideals and principals. what'd happen if someone like anders/fiona/dorian yada yada yada were made tranquil? it's a popular angsty trope, and from the game info it seems that this person would be very compliant and indifferent. but they still have excellent mind, etc., and principals are born within one's mind, there certainly could be the tranquil who still stands up for their principals. tranquility is somewhat how i live my life as a depressed person, and i'm still a sjw.

i dunno where i'm going with that, ig there can't be just the ritual of tranquility, there also is a constantly working system of "reeducation" for them so they become obedient units of the chantry.

#dragon age #my post #feel stupid

[liebefreundin]

Sometimes I wish somebody would see my red-rimmed puffy eyes after the night of crying and ask me whether I am okay.

But then I remember that there's no point, because I'll anyway answer that it's okay for the reason that's none of their business.

But sometimes I wish I had enough courage to answer truly.

#i dunno #just sad #feel stupid #feelings #feeling blue

[justgloomythoughts]

I hate when you mess up like you lose something or take a wrong turn and someone goes “see this is why I do this” because all that says to me is “see this is why I’m smarter than you”

#mess up #mistake #accident #lose #lost #lose something #screw up #dumb #stupid #better than you #smarter than you #feel bad #feel worse #feel stupid

[disableddyke]

#disability #ableism #disabled #meme #had a teacher who would always make this autistic girl feel stupid whenever she asked questions and would respond loud enough for the class #to hear the annoyance in her voice #catch on fire <3 #greatest hits #10k #15k #20k #30k

[hummingbooks]

Zack and Cody showing up at that restaurant at 7:30pm tonight:

#disney #the suite life of zack and cody #i feel like i should add that this picture is from 2022 or something #now that this lil stupid post broke out of my bubble

[tiarnanabhfainni]

every single time israel fires on people picking up food or humanitarian aid it truly cuts me to the core. obviously it's equally horrible to fire on civilians escaping the invasion or to bomb hospitals or refugee camps or people just living in their own homes. but there's something so brutal about hitting people right when they have gathered for life-saving aid. by firing on them there the IOF have set up an impossible dilemma where starving people have to choose between death by bullet or death by hunger. they have left no room for palestinians to choose life. i do not know how my government or any other government can just sit by and watch while innocent people continue to be gunned down for the crime of existing in israel's eyeline.

#feels like a stupid post to make but im watching all this videos and i feel so much for these people just trying to eat

[rhinco]

actually the best ship dynamic is i would kill for you. i would kill anyone who layed a hand on you. please let me kill for you. please let me show my devotion by dirtying my hands, it's the only way i know how. let me destroy anything that hurts you. i've hurt you too. i'm destroying myself.

#went to jupiter got stupider #feeling sooo normal today #sander igna #oc tag

[v1ckycupid]

walk up behind me, flip up my skirt, move my panties to the side and slip your cock in whenever you want. keep pounding me over and over and over again until i’m struggling to stand properly. when you cum, keep going. use the old cum for lube. only leave me when you want to, but leave me a sore, used, dripping mess.

#dumb slvt #free use slvt #cnc free use #cnc k!nk #rough cnc #soft cnc #attention wh0r3 #needy wh0re #wh0re #stupid slvt #cvmdump #cvmslut #cvmslvt #dumb wh0re #feeling slutty #cnc fr33use #fr33use #free use kink #r4p3 m3 #r4p3b4it #c0cksleeve #c0ckwarming #c0ckslut #c

[peculiary]

Nova Annual #1 March 11, 2015

#how long #how long is this going to take #feel stupid #stupid

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

#warm up #this isn't good #writeblr #this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3 #but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker #and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS #the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!? #..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much. #on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt #and medical debt #i will put that first little bit of cash #into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments) #i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option #but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver #oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs

[team-crossover]

Hello brain damage, my old friend

#can't think #feel stupid #identify as stupid #this is to go beyond super stupid

[skellydun]

who wants to lay on top of me like a weighted blanket and fix me

#i can't use actual weighted blankets bc it feels suffocating but another person? 10/10 #not even in any kind of way i just need someone to crush my body back into some sort of shape that is not exhausted and aching #need me a bear hug and a bear to crush me tbh #the cabin will fix me. i will be secluded and alone and get high one of the nights and have smores. i will take stupid nature walks and read

[unpretty]

the thing about having been really broke. averaging $500 a month in a good year broke. using a gamestop credit card i shouldn't have qualified for to buy taco bell gift cards for food broke. is that i am SO bad with money. i have a degree in accounting and i am so bad with money. i do not think of myself as superstitious at all but money feels so cursed. not in a spiritual way, i mean literally. practically.

having 'too much' money feels so bad. money is a thing you spend as soon as you get it because it's so cursed. the more it is the more cursed it is. i save too much money and bad things will happen that cost all my money. money is a thing that summons expenses. if i have no money and the car breaks down i find a way to make it work. i scrounge and resell and pass the hat and talk to my mom's friend's friend who knows a guy and in the end i'm so relieved to be right back where i started. but if i were saving my money for a new computer and then the car broke down, the money is just gone. i spent the money i saved for a thing i wanted on a thing i needed instead and after all that hoping i'm right back where i started.

i get a windfall and i set the money aside because if i'm careful that's enough to pay for gas for months. but then i need to pay for heat and i apply for assistance and they look at my bank account and see i have money and now they won't help pay for heat. soon it's just a habit. i get the money and i spend the money. immediately, as soon as possible, get this money away from me. don't even save enough for cigarettes. i can find money for cigarettes, somehow i can always find money for cigarettes. cigarette money is a weird magical fake money i summon from dark corners whenever i run out of cigarettes. i don't know how it works either. i've tried to summon the cigarette money for things that aren't cigarettes and it never works. just get this out of my bank account. get it out of here before something notices there's money here.

anyway i'm working on it but god it's hard

#original #i think i've made this exact same post before but everyone politely ignore that my memory is bad #i was doing better and then it all crashed and burned in the last couple months #and i'm fixing it but god it feels so stupid #i'd finally worked my way up to having Savings. Any Savings At All. where did it go. #how did i spend that much on pennywhistles and moonpies #that shouldn't be possible that's illegal

[lesbianonna]

thinking about flowers and i never even received any with all the times ive been in the hospital…

#i just want flowers idk they’re pretty #but i don’t want to ask it’s embarrassing #feel stupid

[triona-tribblescore]

I thoroughly enjoy the stage of huskerdust where they have yet to fully admit their feelings to each other uvu <3

P2

#doodle comic from yesterday #because i am once again thinking about them #THEY ARE SO STUPID #ok no fr though i LOOOVVEE seing ppl draw them in a relationship dgmw #BUT #I juts find it SO much more fkin amazing when they are still trying to figure out how to go about their feelings and whether to act on them #or not #hehe #tribbleart #husk #angel dust #hazbin hotel #huskerdust #hazbin hotel comic #hazbin hotel fanart #<3

[v1ckycupid]

wake me up by settling your cock in between my ass. slide it up and down, softly groaning in my ear as precum leaks from your angry tip, anxious to slip into my wet hole. when i roll over onto my front, climb on top of me, spreading my thighs apart slowly to not wake me up. lick two fingers and slide them into my pussy, getting me just wet enough that it’s easy for your dick to push in. slowly push your cock in, easing it in inch by inch, my hole clenching softly as i get used to your girth. when i start to stir, take the plunge and start properly fucking me. slam your dick into me again and again, whispering in my ear “i’m so sorry, i had to, you looked so pretty” as you violently pound me into the bed.

#dumb slvt #free use slvt #cnc free use #cnc k!nk #rough cnc #soft cnc #attention wh0r3 #needy wh0re #wh0re #stupid slvt #cvmdump #cvmslut #cvmslvt #dumb wh0re #br33dable #feeling slutty #cnc somno #somno breeding #somno fantasy #c0cksleeve #c0ckwarming #c0ckslut #c #stalking fantasy #cnc stalking