#for a minute there i lost myself

[sheltiechicago]

For A Minute There I Lost Myself

By Gaia Alari

#gaia alari #artist #art #for a minute there i lost myself #portrait

[alrightyyaphrodite]

#for a minute there i lost myself #🎵 #Spotify

[ihatebrainstorm]

The (Hopefully) Comprehensive Guide to Drawing Transformers! [1]

[Chapter 1/5?]

Decided to make a little quick guide to drawing transformers/humanoid mechs because some people asked! (Plus I thought it'd be fun lol) .... Hopefully it makes sense and helps some people out :'D

[Next] -> coming I dunno when, I keep adding to my WIP pile......

#class got cancelled this morning so I finally had a little free time eheh #also the sketches on page 2 are probably not really accurate but hopefully it gets the idea across skdfskd #I banged it out in a few minutes lmao #gotta get back to the work grind now... #WHAT DID I TELL MYSELF ABOUT MAKING MORE WIPS AGHHHHHH I KEEP DOING IT #Dig's (Hopefully) Comprehensive Guide to Drawing Transformers #transformers #mtmte #maccadam #maccadams #tf idw #transformers fanart #more than meets the eye #frootertooter archive #lost light #perceptor #bumblebee #tfa #transformers animated #tfa bumblebee #mecha art #mecha

[secondstill]

u ever rediscover a song u needed to hear at exactly the right moment

#for a minute there i lost myself

[fregolicotard]

26.05.2022

“My life has got to be like this, it's got to keep going up“

#146of365

#void fever #for a minute there i lost myself

[soracities]

if we should protect children because they are vunerable, this means you would protect cruel children who bullies people who different than them then. the children who responsible to trauma for someone else's entire years

You're assuming that "protecting" children is the same as absolving them of responsibility and that's not what I said. All children are vulnerable, because all children are children; they don't come out of the womb with a perfectly working moral compass anymore than they come out of it waiting to hurt people--they're vulnerable because their understanding of the world is entirely at the mercy of what we, as adults, consistently tell them and show them. Children behaving cruelly aren't exempt from that--they learn that cruelty from somewhere, or someone. Your job, as the adult, is to make sure they understand that it's unacceptable so it will not happen again--but your job is also to ask why someone that young is behaving this way to begin with, so you can ensure they become better.

"Protecting" kids is not ignoring when they hurt or torment others, it's not refusing to teach them consequences or right from wrong, it's not "zero tolerance" policies in schools that treat a child being bullied and the child bullying them as equal instigators, and it's certainly not protecting them from recognizing, and atoning for, the pain they have caused someone else. You don't have to make peace with the now-adults who hurt you when you both were kids, but you cannot let the horrors of your own childhood impact how you treat or respond to the children living theirs around you right now, either.

You don't protect kids so they can get a free pass for bullying or tormenting another child. You protect them because kids are impulsive, emotionally reactive, and profoundly social (which means deeply impressionable) human beings who are still learning & processing insane amounts of information every day about what it means to be alive, to be alive as yourself, to be alive as yourself with other people. Protecting them is realising that you can't isolate the responsibility of a 10 year old from the bigger responsibility of the literal grown adults around them, adults who are in charge of teaching them about the world and how to behave in it. Whether you have children of your own in the future or not is completely irrelevant to this; we all become those adults eventually--no matter what happened to us as kids.

#ask #Anonymous #i dont want to keep repeating myself on this but we're all carrying fucked up and traumatizing childhoods to some extent and if you want to #spare another child going through the same thing the solution is not to hate on children bc they didnt ask to be born any more than the res #of us did. but they're here now and what are you going to tell them while they are? #what kind of an adult and what kind of a compass are you going to become for them during the time they're learning about being alive? #and if you decide its not your problem the minute this child says or does something fucked up and that they're a lost cause at the age of 8 #bc their impulse control is shitty and their empathy & understanding is still buffering then that is part of the problem. they learn what #they're doing is okay and then they keep doing it--to other kids and years later other adults. our world is fucked up and makes fucked up #people and if you have it in your ability to limit that damage at its most formative and dangerous point then why wouldn't you? #notes from elsewhere

[moeblob]

ok now I'm p sure no one remembers me drawing for this game bc I think everyone who I talked to about it left the tumbles but. hello, have some Lost Dimension fanart in 2023.

#lost dimension #agito yuuki #super friendly funny little man whom i love......... #agito is such a good boy and uh haha wanna funny fact about me n this game? #i was really close to getting a plat trophy for it and then side tracked with another game #and got really close to a plat trophy in the OTHER vita game and realized #i had never gotten a plat trophy before and was like damn cant let it be the other game i cant do that to myself #so i returned to lost dimension to make it my first plat trophy honor and then went back to the other game #and like thirty minutes of gameplay later i plat'd the other game and i was like WOW I REALLY DODGED THE BULLET #bc i didnt think i had been that close lmao but i cant say the name of the other game out of shame #whereas i will gladly say yo i played lost dimension and love everyone #like you could ask me what game it was that im ashamed of but im so ashamed i wont answer you #it is indeed that bad

[seraphicalsuccubus]

I feel like my heart was just ripped out of my fucking chest and handed back to me with a knife stuck through it

#why do friend break ups suck so much #I’m really not doing well today y’all I can’t even hold myself together for more than 2 minutes before I start crying again #this shit just fucking hurts and I feel worthless and unwanted #I just miss having a best friend … mine doesn’t give a fuck about me anymore because of her girlfriend and I just feel so lost

[charlie-rulerofhell]

TV of the Lost, Ep. 574

#lord of the lost #lotl #tv of the lost #made myself some gifs while i couldn‘t sleep and thought i might share #totally unrelated just moments that stood out to me in some way #shame that gifs can only be so long though because chris dissociating for a solid minute in the bg should be appreciated as a whole #queue are not the bug queue are the patch #meaning that i‘ll queue this and hopefully will be asleep when it posts but we‘ll see #(sleeping on your back is such a pain who does this voluntarily??)

[balkanradfem]

So I haven't made many garden updates because of my mental health, I went into survival mode for a bit, but now things are looking up, so I have things to share!

The garden has started producing zuchinnis monstrously, I've somehow managed to get more than 6 zuchinni plants which is a Mistake and I should have known better. I've ran out of ideas so I've been looking online for recipes and then I found this video, which I believe is the most sinful video ever created, if you're into women and wanting to get severely tempted then and only then watch this.

I've managed to get poisoned again, nobody is surprised, but this time I didn't do anything except eat food that was more than 24hrs old, I thought it would be fine, it didn't taste like it went completely bad, it was more like, on the edge. I think it happened because I put raw chives in it, and it was like, a blended soup, so maybe I just shouldn't do that. It took me 2 days to recover, I'm alright now.

The rest of the garden is doing so bad it's kinda funny, I haven't been taking care of it like usual, and I've found myself not having enough seeds of everything I've wanted, like green beans, peas, potatoes, so I've decided to plant what I have, only to get seeds, without actually eating those things. I also want to learn to grow potatoes and onions out of seeds, I've never done it before but I'm very excited at the prospect! My potatoes are not currently flowering but I saw a big field of potatoes and they all had flowers, so I'm planning to just sneak in there and steal a few potato fruits - nobody here is growing potatoes from seed anyway and the fruits are very poisonous. (I will not eat them don't worry).

I've gotten a decent harvest of garlic, I'm very happy with it! I got above expectations amount of chamomile, and I got gifted a whole lot of thyme. I'm in the process of drying strawberries for winter and I love how much I've got already. Next zuchinnis to get harvested will get dried too, and then finally, I'll dry cherry tomatoes as well. I can't wait to have a stash of dried goods again, they were invaluable last winter.

My tomatoes are looking pretty bad this summer, and that's not usually the case, I wonder if it's the bad weather, or I just haven't done enough fertilizing this year. I've gotten a few tiny ones from my balcony, where I'm having a few dwarf tomatoes grow, but they've also been doing bad, and they seem to be dying already. Peppers are still tiny little things and I only hope that eventually they start to grow properly. Beans, on the other hand, are doing great, they've taken their space and they're ruling their lands, climbing up to the skies and creating tons of produce. I'm checking every day to see when I can start a harvest, I would absolutely love some beans.

I feel like this year is a preparation more than a great gardening year; the beans will fertilize my soil, the lessons I've learned about planting in strawberry beds will help me do a better job next year, the tiny amount of green beans and peas I've planted will give me the seeds to plant big amounts next year, and if I learn to grow onions and potatoes from seed, the next year I will have more than enough, and I will have the knowledge to keep producing these things forever, without ever having to worry about seeds again.

If anyone has recipes for zuchinni that only require potatoes, flour, garlic and spices, I'd love to know! I have poisoned myself with soup so I have to hit the pause on that. Once I get tomatoes and peppers it will be pizza time!

#gardening #garden progress #growing food #weirdly bad year for garden it seems #or its just because i refuse to buy seeds #but I want to LEARN how to garden without buying stuff ever! #and i feel like i'm on a good route even if i poison myself a little here and there #also WHAT IS WITH THAT VIDEO #i've watched it few minutes ago and i am NOT OKAY #my brain is lost in lesbian lust #and i don't know if the video was meant to make me go insane but it did that job really well

[cometrose]

zhongli thoughts im bored

i am obsessed with the imagery of him holding a golden fan just below his eyes and gazing over the city

highly proficient in all makeup, cosmetics and accessories, you need to dress up nicely for a fancy occasion he can have you looking like a goddess just give him some time

he sits in the sun a lot, when he had the exuvia he would sit on the tallest mountains and sleep in the sun

Unlike the other archons zhongli is closely attached to the sun, he is like the sun in many ways, he guides people, brightens their lives, plants and life thrive under his care

However the sun is still deadly, those who get too close to him burn up in his presence and those who keep their distance are trapped in the shadow he casts and lose themselves, like the sun in the sky he is meant to shine brightly all by himself

i am obsessed with the imagery of zhongli sitting in a bathtub and all of his draconic features just come out one by one, first his arms turn gold and then come his claws. Next comes the horns on the top of his head as his hair grows longer and longer. Last is the tail which flops over the edge of the tub

He can't sing but he has some talent with instruments, a habit he picked up from being around quizhong, ping and venti for so long, he can work with string instruments best

He will pat your head, he can't help it, if hu tao has her hat off and she makes him smile that hand will be on her head

crazy thought of the liyue gang playing hide and seek, like xiangling, xingqiu, yunjin, xinyan, hutao and chongyun playing this huge game and they run all over the city it becomes a huge affair at one point xiangling is "it" and she can't find anyone but she comes across zhongli sitting in his favorite spot at third round knockout and she's like "sorry to disturb you but have you seen hu tao" and he smiles and is like "well i don't know about the director but i saw a blue haired exorcist up at the terrace he might be around the glaze lilies" and xiangling thanks him and goes to chase chongyun down, zhongli whispers behind him "she's gone" and then 4 of them, xingqiu, yunjin, xinyan and hutao just poke out from behind him (they want to keep hiding behind him but with a smile he shoos them away to play the game properly)

zhongli is painfully popular you can take the man out of the archon but you can't take the archon out of the man

zhongli likes to keep the moon by his side specifically the people who are like the moon; guizhong, venti, xiao, azhdaha, rukkha, ganyu the list goes on and on -perhaps they are naturally drawn together its unclear who gravitates to who but even liyue itself is a beautiful moon he can cling to

zhongli can petrify things with his hands, just lightly brushing his fingertips over anything will encase it in stone and with a short breath it will crumble to dust

mr. workaholic the reason why we never see him at work and always on vacation is because he goes crazy and completes all the paperwork and it scares hutao so she kicks him out (but then he spends all his money so he has to come back the cycle never ends)

as a consultant zhongli takes on many jobs if they hire him from wangsheng he’s quite expensive though ganyu tries her best to direct the qixing away from him but some things are unavoidable and they require his assistance

#zhongli #genshin impact #zhongli headcanons #the liyue hide and seek has been in my mind for like two weeks lol #since he was alive at the time i like to believe he knew one of the moon sisters #maybe that is where this moon affection originated! #give me 3 minutes there is too much sun and moon symbology going on listen listen listen why is zhongli the only one associated with the su #why is everyone close to him associated with the moon even liyue is named after the moon listen listen i think its neat i think its great #hes like batman the moons are his robins and he keeps losing them like they just die and shit #we have lost quite a few moons mister zhongli like i'll knock on wood but i have this terrible feeling you will outlive the other moons too #there are so many moon characters just people whose symbols and themes are all connected to the moon #i have seen the theories to some extent but i can't discuss it #i can only be so delusional #sometimes i wonder if im talking to myself #i mean like that’s okay the void can be welcoming i suppose

[sovhina]

Celebrating my ocs birthdays like a good god for once lol happy birthday to Zahra! The most specialist girl to ever

#Lost the plot with this one bc I just wanted to get it done on her birthday lol #have like 10 minutes left #I can do so much better than this #but we’re aiming for done not perfect #zahra baby I’ll redeem myself on your full body you have my word #oc: zahra #project: hotblack #hotblack #they can’t all be masterpieces siiighhh

[woah-uhuh-uhuh-uhuh]

prepare for an eventual giant post on the bmc novel btw... there is SO much jeremy lore to unpack here.... i already have a massive bullet list of neurodivergent moments but ill hold off until i finish to make sure i get as many as possible

until then heres his beanie baby moment

(ohhhh i cant not kin him)

#IK HE JUST DOES THIS FOR MONEY #but I RUN A PLUSH BLOG #*jabbing myself in the chest* /I/ spend hours cataloging plushies from ebay on a big google sheets spreadsheet #my posts #posts #bmc #jeremy #book #i actually got lost in a beanie search loop for lile 30 minutes in the process of making this post #its kind of maladaptive at this point #btw the actual important part of this passage is #“this mentality where all that matters is the planet you control and analyze and understand”

[lazy-toad]

Argh no-one here would happen to have experience with ADHD and having to memorize large chunks of text would they? Because at the moment it's so painfully understimulating that I cannot physically force myself to sit down and learn this damn speech

#i hate adhd why am i about to fail this assessment because learning my lines was genuinely too boring for me to cope with #the way that i cannot listen to music or take 2 minutes to stare out of the window and am literally just sitting there #repeating the same thing over and over really really fucks with me and i cannot force myself into doing it #essays are boring but at least i can listen to music and take 5 mins to scroll tumblr every now and then without all progress being lost

[sexynetra]

I am on a mission to learn how to draw can you believe these are literally only 4 days apart I’m feeling so pussy pussy cunt cunt rn

#also I know it doesn’t look like Marcia I literally today learned how to draw facial proportions I can’t fuck around too much yet #also I liquified her she wrong so it’s a lil fucked up but #I’m v proud :) #didn’t even touch hair or body or anything but that’s fine I just want to learn to draw Marcia’s face right #that’s goal one #I will not rest until I get this down #I will become the expert in drawing Marcia’s face #also do you love that I can’t remember any makeup look except the red and white one #I’ve used it for like 6 drawings of her now #anyways it’s crazy what a single 10 minute video on how to properly proportion a face can do #also I don’t know what my style is yet bc I just started so obviously that factors into things #anyways! #artist advice is always welcome critique might (will) make me cry :) #encouragement is always… encouraged 😉 #anyways I’m v happy with myself #even though I opened the canvas and lost track of time and blinked and it was 2 am #also can I just say it took me a few tries but I’m loving the lettering on her name :) #okay that’s it I’m going to brush my teeth and fall asleep #also I’m still trying to figure out all the secrets of procreatepls aid #marcia #marcia x3 #marcia marcia marcia #drag race fanart #my art #also there’s only a one hour difference between how long it took to do these that’s so funny #wow #also in my defense! #I was trying out different styles so I was trying to copy a more cartoonish style #but still :) #also it looks so warm on my phone rn bc I have night mode on but the colors are so pretty on my iPad :) and presumably here once night mode

[rawliverandgoronspice]

!!!! I think I FINALLY have my cut for the first three minutes of the animatic, complete with sound design!! Pretty happy with the extreme moodswing too, I think it's a good introduction to the story's potential extremes and I think I did a pretty okay job replicating a specific kind of vibes for one of the scenes.

Things I'm still unsure about:

whether or not I keep the red arrows as indicators of movement, because while I think it works without, the splash of color is always welcomed and might help, through sheer convention, forgive some of my sketching approximations that look more off otherwise (but I also kind of want to use red as a color related to Sheikah Vision/Lens of Truth shenanigans later so ????? I'm not sure. I could use more of a purple shade for Truth also, I have yet to decide)

whether or not cutting the extended intro I had storyboarded was a smart move or not. I like it better as being confusing and kind of messy I think? but I don't know if that's just my own mind or if it's too confusing for an audience that isn't me

god do I need voice acting? ;; things would be so incredibly easier without voice acting, but I cannot deny that even my crappy filler readings on my shitty webcam's mic do give a punch and a oomph to the scenes that we just don't quite get otherwise

#thoughts #animatic project #thralls of power #I've been moving forward a little slower than before but also I had less time #and it's the opening so I'm trying to make it tolerable #I am not sure I love the very first shot in that regard btw because it's a Building and I'm awful at architecture but #I'm also forcing myself to move forward and accept when a shot is kind of shitty #otherwise I'll never get anywhere #so!! we'll see #I can also make some last-minute adjustments if I truly feel like some stuff is too egregious at the very end #that's the plan anyway #also given I have gotten rid of the previous intro I have a stupid problem which is: where do I introduce the Main Theme #I have a Main Theme planned for the story and I really like it #but now it has lost the space it was meant to be introduced in #so I'm not too sure what to do about this