#fr it's been such a long time

[holland-ish]

hey y'all! it's been a while (no short of a few years :0) but i'm just popping in here to drop a reminder that I'm no longer writing on this blog (i'm so sorry, I opened my inbox for the first time in like a million years and realised I've left so many people hanging who don't realise I'm no longer active) just because it's not where I'm at atm <3

But, I'll always leave everything here as is because I have a lot of love for all the memories I've made and experience that I'd gained from all of you! I've had a crazyyyy time since I've been gone with so many new commitments - new jobs, new passions, dance, hardcore studying and hopefully soon I'll be a lawyer etc etc etc....

But yes! I love you all very much and just wanted to pop back on here to say a little something because this blog is still occupying much space in my heart. If anyone's interested then I may possibly drop my new blog (which is undecided whether I would return to writing as time is a scarce commodity in my life at the moment but trust me I have been feeling the pull of my literary side lately) which will honestly just be all of my passions and hyperfixations in one place.

much love and kindness and my apologies to all of you who have been in my inbox asking for updates on my unfinished series (fr I am SO sorry to leave it all hanging) <<333

#update lmao ?? #fr it's been such a long time

[ruporas]

all I wanted was to save them... (ID in alt)

#nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #tw blood #let me know if there's any other tags i need to use!!! not sure if it counts as gore #ruporas art #*vash voice* YOU ARE NOT WRONG/LOST WOLFWOOD!!!!!! #i think very often about ch 49 where wolfwood thought it was fr over for him for that brief moment. he was already bearing with so much #fatigue that it wasn't going to be enough for him to fight back properly.. and ough... augh..... for the first time after bearing that cros #someone saved him. someone saved himmmm AUGHHHH <-- guy who can't be normal about it even though its been 7 months since i read it #but he's suffered alone for so long and continued to do so because it's all he ever knew in those short years #and its devastating. his one and only desire was simple and it was still difficult for him to reach T_T #anyway... i love him... holds him tenderly in my palms

[spacedlexi]

"sounds nice... having a partner"

#the walking dead game #twdg #violentine #clementine twdg #violet twdg #MAANN when clem says this in s3 JUST WAIT BBY #people who say clemvi has no basis like ep2 isnt just them working as a team for 2 and a half hours regardless of player choice #like be fr #clem telling louis that violet patching up the back wall is ok because she needed something to keep herself busy. married behavior #vi asking clem to help check in on everyone while she deals with the wall. their shared smile when she comes back outside :) #and then they sit in the leadership spot together overlooking the yard and everything theyve planned together coming to fruition :) #sorry i just think their romance set up in eps 1 and 2 is obvious as FUCK and im tired of (Some) people pretending it isnt #'i havent seen her warm up to someone in a long time' brody literally tells clem that vi seems to like her after its been 24 hours #after shes been a block of ice for a whole year. and clem just melted those walls down immediately while they fought walkers together #violet is so devoted to clem post ep1 its embarrassing for her #'i saw she had you pinned and i- shit i got So crazy...' sorry if you dont think shes in love with clem idk what to tell you #'i'll tear that boat apart before we leave without you' i know you would girlie!!! #the animators went CRAAZAYAYAYAY the way they look at each other... their little smiles at each other....even before the belltower #the way clem looks at her while they dance.... the way she puts her head down on her shoulder so contentedly.... #and then she keeps her head on violets shoulder as she pulls away so clems chin gets dragged with it like she doesnt want to let go #'so you never forget that night' 'i never will' they are DISGUSTINGLY in love with each other it makes me physically ill #its 2024 and im still hearing 'i just didnt see it :/'. lazerbeams you #spaced art 2024

[syn0vial]

living in a country with nationalized healthcare after being raised in the US is just

> experience uncomfortable medical issue > leave it untreated for months or years bc it's "not serious enough" to warrant professional medical attention > it gets worse > finally go to a clinic > they ask me how long i've had this problem and i tell them how long > they look at me like i'm a fucking nutter, treat it in 5 minutes, and charge me $6 USD > i walk out feeling like the world's luckiest idiot

#crumb post #shout out to the time i almost let a skin infection become septic #literally the only reason i went to a clinic was bc my taiwanese coworker saw me limping and ORDERED me to go #god bless her fr #anyway just went to the dermatologist and he removed a painful callus that's been bugging me for the past two years #i was too embarrassed to tell him how long i'd left it untreated so i just told him one year #fixed it in like 2 minutes :`) #healthcare

[spearxwind]

Here's some d...dragons !? Commissions I've done for @scylla-apologist, @madmaxxing and @triruntu !!

#I'm still taking these btw!! Working on another four currently and have one in the queue so feel free to send in some emails!! #I have time to work on em this week so I can knock a few more out :D #windyart #commissions #body horror #dragons #DUBIOUS dragons even #creachures if you will #I would have waited to post more comms together in the post but it's been so long since I posted art and I rly wanted to share these #cause i rly love how they all turned out fr

[azaracyy]

a lesson on good karma digimon survive week 2024 day 4: supporting characters

#digimon #gomamon #digimon survive #survive week #survive week 2024 #rambling ahead. you don't have to read the tags beyond bc there's nothing that important tbh... you can just look at the art... #exhausted from being out and doing housework yesterday. then got a last-minute job with very urgent deadline today #finished everything but yeah basically i did anything but art so #irl do be like that aint it #anyway it's been a long time since i played survive and my memory isn't that good #but i always remember the part where we had to protect the gomamon #and later they showed us a path via the dam allowing the team to continue exploring #it reminded me of just how important it is to be nice and do good things whenever and wherever possible #and be mindful with the not-so-good things you do and say #be it good or bad. karma is real even if you don't know when it will get back at you #and you know in visual novel settings. whatever choice you make really determines what happens later on #yeah believe it or not i end up thinking stuff like that by helping a bunch of adorable seal mons... #mmm i'm officially behind now so i might as well take my time while also rest a bit haha ;; #this week has been fun with survive week tho fr. even though i came in unprepared (when will i change) #gotta keep surviving #png

[turtleblogatlast]

Thinking about the Don Suave scene and what it means in terms of LGBTQ+ representation because my brain does nothing if not torment me with random topics to ramble about on the regular.

Anyway, I just wanted to ramble about why I like the scene but to get it out of the way - the scene can very easily be interpreted in so many different ways, and all of them are valid. I personally see it as Leo having at least some attraction to a man. And the following is an explanation of my own interpretation and thoughts on it and what it means especially for Leo’s portrayal in the grand scheme of things.

Long-winded interpretation under the cut!

Now, to start with, it’s important to me that in the scene Leo looks at Don Suave in the very beginning and then for the entirety of the rest of the time the man is on screen, Leo’s eyes are closed. Yet, in the end, he is still visibly enamored with Don Suave, happily cuddling up to him as he’s being carried away.

You can very easily interpret this as Leo being spellbound and that’s honestly super valid and I believe he likely was at least somewhat in the beginning, but considering how fast he looked away and how he never looked again, I personally think it makes more sense to read it as Leo just finding the man attractive, at least somewhat. (For the record, I personally headcanon Rise Leo as bisexual with a heavy preference for men, but I want to be blunt when I say that any interpretation is valid. Literally any. Ace, pan, gay, bi, none of the above or a mixture of something new literally all of it is more than okay and fair. Hell you could even interpret this entire scene as more romantic attraction than physical and it would still work. Anything goes!! Don’t bother people, guys, really.)

The main reason I take this scene to be at the very least LGBTQ+ adjacent isn’t just because of how it’s portrayed, but because of who Leonardo is. Not in terms of Rise of the TMNT, but in terms of the entire Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles™️ franchise.

Leo’s a character who, while changing with each iteration, has still at his core been around for decades upon decades as “the blue one”. One fourth of the team. He’s the one most are going to look at as the Leader, and oftentimes he is the one closest to having the title of Main Character. Not to say the others aren’t just as important, but Leo’s presence in the A plots of basically all TMNT media is often something very main character-esque.

And that’s very, very important to note. Here we have a Main Character of a prolific and decades long-running franchise distributed by a children’s television network. You can play around with his and his brothers’ characters all you like, but there is always going to be challenges to dodge around, especially since this was still in 2018-2019.

For example, you can play around with their designs so long as they’re color coded turtles, but their sexualities? Now that’s tricky.

“But what about Hypno and Warren?” Not main characters and also they’re Rise originals. They have a lot more room to play around with than a character like Leo does. But even talking about main characters in the franchise, you could arguably have an easier time playing around with Donnie or Mikey’s sexualities than Leo or even Raph, as (unfortunately) the former two tend to get more B plots, so they’d likely have had a little more leeway (still not a lot though.)

So, where does this leave us?

It leaves us in a place where outright stating and/or showing undeniable proof of Leo’s attraction to men is very, very difficult. So, workarounds!

Workarounds like the entire Don Suave situation.

To be honest, as left up to interpretation and lowkey and deniable as it is, this whole scene means a lot to me because of who Leo is as a character. It’s just nice when we get so see even the bare bones of representation with characters that have been such a large part of pop culture for decades, y’know? Even if more would be so much nicer, this is better than I thought we’d ever get for these boys.

And, again, literally nothing I’ve said is the only way to interpret it, I’m more than happy when people interpret media on their own honestly, it’s just something I’ve been thinking of lately and I was wondering if others felt the same way.

Whatever you think when you interpret this scene or Rise Leo as a whole, I just thought this would be interesting to think about, even if it was ramble-y, haha.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rise don suave #rottmnt don suave #I lied I’m back to ramble because I’m just #so bad at keeping my mouth shut #or uh #not typing word vomit #anyway- yeah this is my personal interpretation #I believe Leo was legitimately mesmerized by Don Suave’s powers…in the beginning #but even the series’ creator says it was ‘at least PART of what was going on with Leo’ so #idk it’s something that’s been on my mind and I was wondering if anyone else felt the same?? #may delete this later who knowssss #pleaaaase feel free to disagree I just like to talk lol #but yeah sometimes I look around at how much media has LGBTQ+ rep in it now and it honestly makes me emotional?? #(we always always ALWAYS could use more but) #we did not have even a crumb of this as kids #but also like most of that rep is new properties #and I just was thinking about what that could mean #idk man idk #once again please don’t take this as facts it is VERY MUCH NOT #man I was looking around for good images to use and found jack all #anyway tho did you know Donnie often has bi colors around him and Leo is often dressed in the colors of the trans flag- #okay anyway back to the caves I go this comic won’t draw itself #I gotta spray myself with water any time I go to type long winded essays because they’re not great for the mental health fr

[t3chborb]

I'm one year older today, so I figured I gotta wrap a present or two~

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... Wait...

... I got it backwards, didn't I...

... I'm supposed to be... uhh... the one opening gifts today...

... Oh, how incredibly silly of me...

Welp, I'm sure Ramattra doesn't mind~

#Borb's Scribbles #Overwatch #Ramattra #Unholy Abomination #rest in pepperonis my blog's rating #fr tho my bday is the time of year when i allow myself to be completely unhinged and self indulgent in art #bc may as well treat myself right? #my victim this year is our poor ramram #and i just so happened to be in the mood for something more... extreme... this time #i doodle sin every once in a while #tho it's been YEARS since i made sin that i would deem “finished art” #this is the first one of those i'm actually proud of #and HOT DAMN I did not realize just how much power i have in my hands- #shit i may just have to draw polished sin more often #because if i don't draw what i wanna see who will??? #i have been disrespectfully staring at the other variants for way too long now- #...oh yeah did i mention there are rated e variants of this? #because OF COURSE there are #kinda wanna post them but tumblr would probably crucify me for showing robot schlong #welp ya'll just gonna have to live with that i guess lol #jk jk bear with me while i wrap my head around a website that allows this stuff to be posted-

[sheryl-lee]

last year staff tried to convert all gifs to fucking low quality mp4s. this year they’re trying to force gifmakers to only use the beta editor, which seems to ignore the 10 mb limit, lowers the quality and essentially crams gifs into a text post. really just goes to show how little they care about creators on their creator-dominated site.

#this is only in the last 2 years!!!! i have been giffing for ~6 and you better fucking bet that this is just the latest in a long line #of staff's attempts to fuck over gifmakers for zero reason #i am so fed up #between this and like the embarassingly low levels of engagement and acknowledgement when i post gifs #and the fact that im like. busy. with life. #stepping away from gifmaking becomes more and more appealing bc i dont have the time and energy for bullshit #staff fr going so far out of their way to fuck with gifmakers and drive them off the site it's bizarre #sameera.txt

[gaydexvocaloid]

🥀 🌸 🍏 🥕

#vflower #flower #IA #hatsune miku #gumi #vocaloid #cevio #cevio ai #floweria #gumiku #fanart #my art #digital art #vocaloid fanart #not super happy with how this turned out ngl #but might as well post it bc i’ve been working on it for #way too long #it’s my first time fr drawing most of these vocaloids 🥲 #besides flower #ofc #megpoid gumi

[shokupanko]

First Fukase Friday of 2024! This one took 5hrs lol I wanna to be so extra (─‿─)

#vocaloid #art #fanart #vocaart #fukase #procreate #fukase friday #FIVE HOURS OF MY LIFE #But actually I was working on it for a week on then off so the total time was 5 hours and 11 minutes of insanity #I love creating new outfits so much like designing clothes is sm fun #I was trying to make it steampunk but then it started looking harajuku now I have no idea what it is lol #I feel bad that I had nothing for his birthday but I’m always late for VocalSynth birthdays anyway sooooi #ALSO I SAW THAT SOMEONE SAID MY ART INSPIRES THEM AND OMG I’VE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPH #I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH I MISSED YOUUUUUUUU #I tried to make this extra extra detailed which is why it took so long #usually I finished artworks in like an hour hour and a half #but I wanted this one to be ✨special✨ #ALSO can I just say January was like the hardest month of my life? it was so mentally draining and exhausting #I started spending more time with my siblings and now I can’t get away from them lol I love them with my whole soul #no like fr they keep me going and I’ve never been happier #maybe isolating yourself when you’re sad ISNT a good idea and you SHOULD socialize? #I’m big dumb okay #anyway happy Fukase Friday and belated birthday to my special boy #ALSO I REALIZED THAT I’VE NEVER DRAWN HIM WITH HIS MARK???? WHY????

[vynnyal]

This is likely the hardest I've laughed in rain world yet. Basically, you can glitch a spear into a quantum state using a dead bat body, allowing stabbed enemies to follow you through tunnels. So I tried bringing a leviathan to Moon. And the game really, really didn't like that

#rainworld #rain world #game clips #I cut out the moment I died because the footage froze for a solid 20 seconds right at that moment #I was so close!! But I accidentally went back through the tunnel and got crushed. #And for some reason while grinding this out I somehow glitched the game into thinking I died 200 times #So my score is like -130 which is really funny. Like I can casually speedrun hunter with 1 or 2 deaths to this point #Game fr said ''skill issue'' #God no am I gonna try actually speedrunning this game. The actual advanced movement tech is crazy hard #Anyways welcome to my gaming channel please like and subscribe /j #I posted a hk highlight clip but then realized that since I'm shifting fandoms I'm likely spoiling the hell out of my new followers #Sorry if you saw that LMAO #I have another video of torturing moon that I found really funny but it's like 5 minutes long #And no way do y'all have the patience to watch that. Especially without context #So that's a friend-exclusive #Or maybe I'll put it on my literal YouTube channel with like 300 subs for. Some reason #OR THE ART ONE LMAO ''it's been three years check out this completely unrelated video''

[flowerflowerflo]

chat is this flirting am i being flirted with

#basically for context this isnt the girl ive been obsessing over for the past god knows how long #shes a friend of a friend that i dont really talk to anymore but we wrre in a group chat together #and we started talking and havent stopped and we've been talking since 7pm #and its now 12am #fyi this is the longest ive stayed up in like forever #SHE ALSO IS GIVING ME HER CINAMMOROLL FUNKO.IF SHE ISNT TRYING TO HIT IDK WHAT FLIRTING IS #first time being flirted with guys i cant tell if she's being fr or not though #she also gave the sim she made me her last name #like girl #!!!!!!!! #girlblogging #sapphic #thoughts ୨𖹭୧

[worstloki]

My issue with Thor not ‘realizing’ why Loki was acting off in Avengers 1 isn’t that Thor didn’t recognise Loki was acting unlike himself—Thor did note that—or that Thor didn’t figure out what was wrong—he did try asking—it’s more along the lines of Thor giving up, and that he accepted Loki was bad now within two days while knowing something was off when Thor himself behaved just as bad for much longer before without any specific compromising event.

#Thor was happy go kill for so long and Loki waited for Thor to get better and then Thor KNOWS something is up #and he still accepts Loki is evil now and never questions or visits Loki in prison again #he moped around about it because of duty and depression but that he had such little faith in Loki #like either his little brother really did go mad out of jealousy and rage AND is permanently like that with no resolution between them #it’s ridiculous #I like the Thor in my head who never believed Loki had actually gone mad and went after the infinity stones bc he suspected #the one that would not only trust Loki to get them off Asgard in TDW but knew Loki had the throne after and let it be that way #bc he knows his brother and wouldn’t stop believing Loki can ‘get better’ even if he’d truly gone mad #like I get that Thor in Avengers 1 would have been conflicted and could’ve taken everything at face value #Loki was DEAD and now he’s not of course Thor isn’t going to be thinking straight #it’s easy to look at Loki and assume he spent a year plotting revenge after faking his death #but Thor had time after to cool down and only gave Loki a chance in TDW when there was no other option #like did he genuinely think Loki will try to kill him #is Thor scared of Loki now or what #Thor’s spending so much time thinking of what he’s lost that he develops depression but doesn’t ever voice or support the idea that maybe #Loki was forced to do the invasion #AFTER he asks ‘who controls the would-be king’ like come on Thor just ask a follow-up question #Thor autistic king distracted by ‘YOUR father’ discourse fr #T-T #I simply don’t think Thor would have given up on Loki even if Loki stabbed him sorry #it wouldn’t even be bc he’s naive it’d be because he knows and loves his brother #and he’d keep hoping for a change of heart #he wouldn’t ditch the issue unless it was to go under the radar and that’s never explicitly implied #unfortunately #:(

[duahauuoplanh]

Cheek kiss ¬◡¬

#Junho #Yoona #King the Land #Lee Junho #always next to Junho #It’s Junho’s season now #2pm #SNSD #I put my heart into every gifset I’ve made #their 15 year friendship surely is strong af cause if I did this with my long time friend even professionally #I'd be questioning what are we for the rest of the year #I tho have been on set and witnessed some sht but still #I never get how is it to make out with someone 'professionally'? #fr #parallels

[daz4i]

wait so chuuya has angel imagery about him in stormbringer. and dazai is referred to as a demon on more than one occasion. and. hold on. wait. I'm going insane. hold on.

#don't try to figure out the grammar of this post I'm too lazy and having too many thoughts for that rn. #ANYWAY are they literally an angel/demon ship. in a way. bc if so. the dan rights are insane #I've been thinking abt this for awhile idk why it took me so long to post abt it #I'm ngl demon dazai as a concept is already enough to give me rights personally he truly is just like me fr #and . you know how insane i am abt angels. tbh chuuya would make a really good angel he's loyal and has humanity issues doesn't he. #also he is a Fucked Up Creature :) love that about him. but yeah that's another part of it #i wish there was like. more of that. more than just that one time symbolism. i need more. so i can write an essay abt angel chuuya #(if there is and i just missed it PLEASE send it my way. i am asking nicely 🔫) #(ig you could argue he's like an angel saving the ada in this arc but... eh that's not direct enough for me)