#fucked up body in a fucked up world

[talkethtothehandeth]

Trying to not panic and not think about the fact that if this doctor doesn’t do his job, my last hope is paying for treatment out of pocket at a teaching hospital one state away because I can’t afford the mayo clinic

If I do not get treatment, I will die.

I don’t know what to think anymore

#personal #fucked up body in a fucked up world #undiagnosed #chronic pain #disabled #chronic illness #cripple punk #arthritis #ehlers danlos syndrome #chronically ill

[chitinleg]

got him off-balance!

#my art #ds9 #star trek deep space nine #julian bashir #elim garak #garashir #watercolor #image desc in alt text #i normally post on mondays but. today im breaking my pattern! getting a little silly. getting a little wild. garashir jumpscare #“tumblr user chitinleg garak would neot easily let himself be swooped off his feet into a hug like that” yes i know BUT! #look at his expression. look at how his arms r pinned. he didnt let this happen LMAO julian just surprised him. grabby huggy human behavior #if you look really closely you can see the tiniest frown in the world on Garak's face. because he's like “EEP !” #cant see bashirs face at all in this only his body but i think we can all imagine that whatevers going thru his head. he needs this hug bad #ALSO. for anyone wondering what the fucked up shadow is that starts at the juncture of the teal sleeve-cap where its set into the armhole #the jumpsuits have a bit of a fold of extra fabric (called an Action Pleat) there which allows for a little more maneuverability of the bod #AND creates a really sleek and flat back panel #because you can see the fabric twists along the side arent grabbing the flat back fabric theyre grabbing the fabric folded beneath it #often times i think about drawing out a dissection of kiras first uniform and this voy era one for other artists to use. bc god knows #i struggled at first to find full body references #they like to shoot ds9 very close to peoples heads. and the camera is so blurry. they smeared butter on that thing. god bless

[stainedglass-sketchbook]

CHILDREN OF BHAAL

I adore the vibe of redeemed durge your sister killed your mind and took your place - it was the greatest gift she ever gave you

#orin the red #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 orin #the dark urge #cant stop thinking about orin #myart #durge vaye #still deciding what kind of c section scar to give vaye #went with a vertical scar for this one #the lore for vaye is that he got pretty far into his life as baahls chosen as far as milestones are concerned #became unholy assassin almost finished those plans to take over the world had a kid for sacrifice/back up bhaalspawn purposes ect #& was daddy's perfect little murder baby <3 until the lobotomy ofc #then only with memory loss was there was enough distance for him to actually face how fucked the whole situation #btw Orin did Vaye's top surgery c-section and lobotomy <3 #thats his whole medical team right there #when you wake up with no memory all you have is your body for evidence so i really leaned into that for vaye's scars #I gave him vash the stampede level scars lol #he wakes up knows 4 things: that hes been through metaphorical hell and survived that someone did a choppy job on his top surgery #that at one point he decided face + eye tattoos would be his thing and that hes had a child #Im debating whether or not Orin would outright kill the kid or if shed keep the kid around until theyre old enough to face her in a duel #Leaning towards the second #that means while vaye is wondering around faerun that kid is having arts and crafts time with auntie orin! (oh no oh no oh no)

[crucefix]

PMS isn't real Needy, it was invented by the boy-run media to make us seem crazy. Jennifer’s Body (2009) dir. Karyn Kusama 

#jennifer's body #horroredit #filmedit #filmgifs #userfilm #fyeahmovies #tumblr user romroy posting in 2022? the world is so fucked up....

[bitsbug]

Stockpile

#inspired by how I tend to collect scav corpses to eat later while playing artificer #and realizing it's kinda fucked up for them to rest amidst the bodies of their sworn enemies #rain world #rainworld #art #rw artificer #rainworld artificer #tw death #tw corpse #ask to tag #there's no blood or anything but there is dead scavengers #oh i should probably have... my own art tag huh.... #art of bitsbug #sure that works #don't mind the slightly less cropped version that existed for 5 minutes

[spotsupstuff]

Did saint ever ascend biting notos? Also how was the gang’s reunion in the void?

of course Saint has! after all, its sole reason for existence is this. no matter how lonely and difficult the quest will be for it, everyone has to go

as for your second question... my god as u can see i went off on the first one, this is legit the biggest comic i've ever done- i'll do some stuff for the reunion in the void at a later point i prommy 😩✌ it'd be better like that either way. these guys haven't been introduced enough for my tastes for the big relief ending yet

#Spot says stuff #rain world #rw #oc tag #// body horror // #rw saint #iterator oc #rw iterator #oc: biting notos #oc: filler iterators #philosophy sessions au #my art #shout out to Spore for being introduced by her death u go filler girl! im... trynna fluff up the group a lil since the whole late game- #-story depends so much on the unity of iterators n itd be nice to have at least Some repeating names 😔 #notos' way of speakin does NOT MATCH WELL with LONG ASS MONOLOGUES yet it KEEPS HAVIN LONG ASS MONOLOGUES. FUCK YOU TOO CHILD #saint keeps reminding me of the rabbit from pooh and then like. shendu from jca my god what a combo

[puppetmaster13u]

Oh boi even more of One au in like 3 hours lol

I like to think that like how in @phoenixcatch7's Doll au there's gas versions of like cures and such in the batfam's gas masks since they don't need to breath when possessing the puppets right? I like to think there's an organic version of that with the meat puppet bodies, at least with Bruce, where the plates on his neck opens up into vents of sorts, pictured here with a few spikes removed for visibility reasons.

This gas could be some cures for like Joker venom & Fear gas and such, or it could also be sedatives, paralytics, could even vary between each member. (For example in the Cryptidverse Steph has Anesthetics on her claws, Jason has reflective powder that mimics embers/sparks, Cass has paralytics, etc). Honestly I am just brainstorming so this could definitely change lmao

I do like to think they start developing their own venom though, gotta' have those fangs & tusks for some reason lol

#meat marionette au #batman au #cryptid batman #cryptid batfam #body horror #batman #dcu #dc #Sorry Phoenix if I am spamming you lol #Honestly I feel like Bruce & Kane are the only ones with like big-ish tusks as though to show they're the fully grown ones of the group #Batwoman has set up shop in Bludhaven while Bruce usually sticks to Gotham me thinks but they still help each other out because family <3 #God I want to ramble about their language and body language and stuff so bad lol I love world building #I also totally haven't been writing a drabble for this for the past hour lmao #The caves have a favorite mortal and It's definitely Bruce lol #Okay but now I am thinking of how Bruce & Clark could meet the first time lol #Bruce can definitely sneak up on Clark if he wants to and it's probably terrifying lol #Something I will have to think about for later I suppose #What are the tunnels? Fuck if I know lol #The drabble totally isn't from Its pov tho lol (definitely not) #Tumblr don't eat my tags 2023 #Bruce definitely freaks out the first time he sees his second body #Not helped by the fact the first time he sees it he is piloting it and emerging from a flesh wall #All stumbly like a newborn deer (not helped by long limbs and body all differently proportioned & more limbs lol) #The secondary body's face is something between a human and an animal's muzzle #Dick deserves electric organs like an electric eel so he can shock people #Y'know what Cass deserves pitch black flesh & organs- like I am talking vantablack barely lets in any light black #Bruce is probably more wary about taking in kids what with the whole eldritch thing beneath the streets but really what choice does he have #All of them were already trying to do vigilante work & they'll end up killed if he doesn't help them :/ #He loves them but he *really* wishes the tunnels didn't take a liking to them as well because they're already traumatized enough #He wishes it didn't call to them like it did to him so long ago

[pine-arten]

hunter design :)

going to make a hll design soon

#pinemartart #rain world #rain world downpour #rw hunter #slugcat #body horror #i think it needs that tag #eye trauma #and that one as well #let me know if it needs any more #anyways. the hunter !!! #love the idea where the rot holds onto the spear #also idk if anyone has noticed but in hunter's ascension ending #you can see like. weird veins on them #also can you tell i just went off memory for the rot and not how it looks like #it's ok the hll will be better in that regard #hll will also be a lot more fucked up #is there a body horror tag but for more

[tomfrogisblue]

If you ignore them talking about whether they'd eat each others eggs if humans laid them, BOLAS was always a fucking terrifying team.

The whole team is just abandoned experiments, battle strategists and people hanging onto sanity by a small fucking thread.

The team is full of ex convicts, ex war criminals, and plenty of people with a perchant for using massive explosions to make a point.

Even those without good pvp or general minecraft knowledge make up for it easily with sheer bloody-minded persistence and willingness to die for those they are loyal to.

And in the team are some of the most cunning on the island; infiltrators, detectives, murderers, generals, presidents, secret society leaders, conspirators, anarchists

Add onto that the rage of grieving parents...

The other teams should always have been afraid of Team Bolas Rojas.

#no one in the team was operating on full sanity points BEFORE purgatory #qsmp #qsmp lore #qsmp purgatory #bolas rojas #if you cant tell i dont know what exactly from everyones lore is canon to the history of their characters so i just generalised lmao #like wilbur blew up a country and then phil blew it up again but eh. and like a different time phil took over the world with his friend #also do you remember that whole period when vegetta made the island practically unwalkable due to mines being FUCKING EVERYWHERE #they may all act kinda silly but a bunch of them have a kinda high body count or close ties to the Federation

[lavanfalas]

Doodles :-)

#art #drawing #artwork #digital art #fan art #trigun #vash the stampede #vash #vash trigun #nicholas d. wolfwood #nicholas d wolfwood #wolfwood #wolfwood trigun #trigun 98 #i guess these are my hc for their bodies precanon #before vash finalizes his worlds most fucked up top surgery #and before wolfwood gets his. normal person top surgery #also before vash gets even more scars

[feliformiaboy]

trick or treat!

#art tag #rain world #five pebbles #rain world iterator #gore tw #blood tw #body horror tw #scopophobia #ask to tag #originally drawn on 10/01 i just got excited for spooky month lol #castor draw anything other than pebbles gore challenge IMPOSSIBLE APPARENTLY #sorrryyy i love thinking about him bloody and dying and fucked up. He deserves it (said lovingly)

[heartslobbf]

um. utena tenjou punches the stone ground so hard that her fist breaks, and drags her broken body to the heart of the world. she bleeds pure love, and the mechanism cannot bear it. IF YOU EVEN CARE!!!!!!!!!!!

#honestly all rgu propaganda for every poll ever should just be that palace perspectives quote #think about it every day of my life. she punches the stone ground so hard that her fist breaks #and drags her broken body to the heart of the world #she bleeds pure love #and the mechanism cannot bear it #like what more is there to say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what can possibly compare to that!!!!!!! fuck!!!!!!! #rgu #shut up daisy

[camping-with-monsters]

“OOHOOHOOHOO!! NOW WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU’RE GOING!?”

ah! finally finished coloring this! put it on halt for a while! anyways uh. funny ghost bird guy from funny music game or something like that

#LITERALLY WHO LET YOU #anyways uh. birdie guy who might be a little fucked up <33 #he’s literally so shaped who let him be like that /pos #top ten fucked up girlypops of the world #I feel like the coloring could have been a little better but like #I had to make do with the character’s body which is basically just. completely black. #I try not to use pure black or white in my art cause it’s hard to shade that— usually settle for warmer tones #settled with a more purple-ish here #basically my shading style doesn’t mend well with pure black or white (or gray either to be frank) #so usually I have to find workarounds like just making it slightly more of a saturated color or at least give the idea of that #I think it came out alright here ?? #barnaby billie bust up #bbu barnaby #Billie Bust Up #BBU #The Kiwi Draws

[cannivalisms]

do you guys ever think about how babs hated ianthe (or at least had a strained sort of friendship with her) but was the perfect archetype of a cavalier, while gideon l*ved harrow but was a terrible archetype of a cavalier, and those are the only two pairs at canaan house who became lyctors.

& while we're at it, do you ever think about how, despite babs being literally born and raised for the role, it was gideon who actually served as the 'better cavalier' in the end

#the locked tomb #gideon nav #naberius tern #gideon the ninth #the unwanted guest #babs was literally perfect as a cavalier except when it counted. except when he was meant to embody the whole point of a cavalier #& die for his necromancer. which gideon (the terrible cavalier) did without a second thought #and then the book ends with gideon desperately trying to become that perfect cavalier and stay dead & in her role for harrow #while babs is still the one prone to kicking up a fit in ianthe's body. even as she still insists he was ever so loyal #i just find them real fucking neat. #books #notnow #bonus bonus: still deranged thinking about a world where babs knew this was his point from the start. or also (as a friend pointed out) #if he knew it was between him and corona in the end. would he have gone any quieter?

[clodiuspulcher]

today im thinking about malaria in ancient rome.

about the fact that P. falciparum (the most dangerous kind of malaria) was likely endemic at least from the 2nd century BC onward that Galen said semitertian fevers (P. falciparum infections) were more common in Rome than anywhere else in the Roman Empire that the most severe manifestations of P. falciparum (quotidian fevers + cerebral malaria) were most common in babies and young children, an epidemiological observation that indicates the transmission rate of P. falciparum was extremely high in Rome that Quintus Serenus said there was no Latin word for semitertian fevers (they used a transliteration of the Greek, 'hemitritaeos') because "no one, i think, could have named it in our language and mothers would not have wanted to"

#working on my thesis gonna bring down the mood of the whole department #but i feel like i have to honor them #and the thing about malaria that fucks me up is P. falciparum has been around for tens of thousands of years #its not a disease of agriculture like smallpox or of sanitary issues that come with civilization like typhoid #it predates agriculture its been found in the bodies of mummies from ancient egypt and skeletons from ancient greece and rome #there are species-specific plasmodium parasites for gorrillas chimpanzees and humans #which to me indicates there was a plasmodium parasite for every now lost hominid #malaria is the strongest recent evolutionary pressure on the human genome #upwards of 30% of people in some parts of the world are heterozygous for sickle cell anemia #or heterozygous for SE asian ovalocytosis #thus it was more evolutionarily advantageous for 2-3% of all children to die #so about 30% of people could be protected from severe malaria #these mutations take a long time to evolve. parasites take a long time to evolve #there are people who mourned their infants tens of thousands of years ago in languages we will never know with rituals we will never see #and i cant do anything about any of that but i can keep going to the lab every day and trying my best to figure it out #because so many generations of humans stretching back to before we were human could not

[sunforgrace]

he sat there on the ground and cried. for cas. cas told him he loved him was taken away and he buried his head in his hands and wept

#AND THEN THEY TRIED TO PRETEND LIKE IT WAS FINE? and after the widower arc #it wasn’t even as nearly fucked then this time all their friends got thanos snapped and we don’t even get canon confirmation that they were #brought back. even with covid not even a vo or offhand mention or reference #jack is god and in every drop of rain or whatever. #sure yeah whatever they beat the final boss and got over the protagonist angst of it all but the world was still the same it just wasn’t a #chuck story which only ramped up to being The Big Problem in the season 14 finale. #cas was stabbed by an angel blade and dean broke while wrapping his body for the funeral pyre. ALONE. and was. not doing well #and you tell me it’s whatever after he sat there in that dungeon refused to answer sam’s calls and cried during the complete and total end #of the world. that he just bounced back from that and died and drove around heaven for decades in a few minutes and smiled while americana #electric guitar played on some bridge #cas helped oh that’s nice I guess smile now I have GOT to go drive my car around. because I did not get enough of that in my time on earth. #unlike my time with cas which I am satisfied with and in no need of closure. perhaps a conversation. looking upon him to see him alive and #well. healing some of that trauma of the last time I saw him. a reunion hug maybe even which has become tradition. CUT THE CAMERAS deadass #he’s going for the face touch. no this we cannot possibly have time for we have to play carry on wayward son twice #sorry. it has been three years. sorry. it’s just so funny buddy your ass did NOT escape the hamster wheel