#hhhhhh i'm just

[bednbunfast]

everything feels like it's falling apart,,

#☕️ | chatter #chise go to BEEEEEDDDDDD #hhhhhh i'm just #ive been thinkingnabout how i speak sometime s #and imnsorry ifni ever made anyone uncomfortable because i can get pretty sarcastic #sometimes?? maybe #i dont knwo #im sleepy...goodnight to people ? #ior good morning! idk #ior...iori...oh my god i forgot about iori my little guy my silly oc #i need to redesign him.... #funny how i was unapologetically the most sarcasting little shit in junior high and then completely lost the sass in shs because of the fuck #ing pandemic man. i wanna be a little shit again #or not...i may have been roasting the class pres and he sent me to help clean woth the library when the tracher asked of someone was naughty #is naughty even the right wordi cant remember fuck i hate language barriers and words fhat can never truly be expressed #like?? to fully understand something in another language translating it isnt enough you need to #actually learn the langauge #because the contecnt and context and everything is just..lost #some words are not translated correctly to what it actually means andit frustrates me #gods punishment for the tower of babel isnsntupid iland i hate him for it #also like ive been asking people if jesus had a choice in becoming sacrifice and my granma said no and shes religous so nowni feel bad for #him bevaus ehe had no choice ornsomething idunno im itred #gnnfor reals #im sory agaij im just #i dontnknkw whay im supposed to be doing #taling with new people are jard so im so sordh #if i sound weird #im not very good at speaking with new people

[shevr]

workout mix

#this was fun to draw but hhghrghrgh again i spent too much on it im so bad at just making satisfying doodles fast #like i wanna draw stuff as warmup thats fun to do & also ideally looks kinda nice bc THEN i need to try to get other more serious work too #but at the moment i just spend too long on the warmup & then fail to move on to something else hhhhhh #i'll get better i'll get faster i'm not dead yet #anyway yeah she's listening to you're gonna go far kid. you know why. my little pony rainbow dash you're gonna go far kid [explicit]. #shevr #my lines #mlp

[catsharky]

I'm sobbing and clawing at the screen begging Larian to just let my Tav give more hugs because so many of these characters need it.

WIP cause this is getting colours, I just like how the lines look

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #astarion #bg3 astarion #my tav #sharky's tav #she's a tiefling bard #also surprise! I'm not dead #Baldur's Gate just has me by the throat and it's not letting me tap out until I see the end credits #there's a new tattoo on my brain next to the Mass Effect one #I'm hopefully gonna do a 'BG3 characters get the hugs they deserve' series #Astarion was obviously first because. yeah. #Rolan's likely next cause I'm fucking gone on him too love him would kill and die for him would rip the heavens and hells apart for him #If Astarion hadn't swooped in and snatched my heart first I'd be real pissed that Rolan wasn't romanceable because hhhhhh #sharky art #tav: ember #oc: ember

[crow-with-a-pencil]

Transformation sequence go brrr

#my ârt #fnaf #fnaf daycare attendant #sundrop #moondrop #been working on this over the past couple weeks #hopefully I finished every part idk I'm tired #hhhhhh just post before I make the smears even more smeared #animation #if there's proportional weirdness no there isn't #it's just perspective hahha #imma disappear again *scurries off* #oh bye the way this is to celebrate 1000 followers ANYWAY-

[lyxchen]

Pia cuddle pile <3

Here's a version without the shading <3

#...i'm trying really hard not to criticize this one bacsue it too me over 13 hours to make and i am still in some state of art block #so i really should just be proud that i was able to finish this #but #hhhhhh #there's some things i could have done better in this one but also i still think it's very cute #the one with just esther and pia is my favorite:3 #*it took me #anyways #enjoy <3 #spatort #tatort saarbrücken #pia heinrich #esther baumann #leo hölzer #adam schürk #pesther #hörk #lyxchen's art

[lucassinclaer]

PLEASE! BEGGING! el and lucas' bond is about more than their love for max.

it's a deep understanding of each other that can remain unspoken but because they've seen the darker parts of each other right off the bat they can trust its authenticity. it's el hearing "i'm sorry" for the first time in her life. it's lucas seeing more than the black and white rules of childhood.

it's an undercurrent of support. it's lucas going, "no, actually, just because el is powerful doesn't mean we can't do everything we can to fight alongside with her." it's him following through on that, proving to himself and to el that they're good by way of action. it's the implicit team work that comes out of that.

it's two kids, changing each other, shaping world views and having a dynamic that - though underexplored in the show - is soso integral to their characters.

#i'm sorry if the first sentence is rude btw it's just hhhhhh #i adore ellucasmax but ellucas is sm more too!! #stranger things #hopclair #lucas sinclair #el hopper #emspeak

[burrowingdweller]

/mysterious silence/

#joseph gilgun: /exists/ #me: /gently/ i'm gonna fckng eat you whole #u know it was a while since i got that feeling when #when you draw a person and you just #idk #hhhhhh #hope my aggressively positive vibes are strong enough to travel through electromagnetic field of the earth and reach one concrete person #preacher #cassidy #nah i didn't watch it #.......yet #but these braces these curls #/sniff/ gorgeous #joseph gilgun

[despairforme]

For the KNB!AU. ~

#nnoitra gilga #murasakibara atsushi #[ i'm just hhhhhh about them these days ahaha ] #toby draws. ╱ mod's art.

[lover-of-skellies]

Went to Arby's and witnessed a Kevin having a slight meltdown over having to wait for his fries, I don't know if I'm ok

#not skeleton stuff #rambles #hhhhhh #I'm not like. majorly upset or anything #I'm not crying or panicking either #but like #I was reminded of someone specific #and of certain things I've been through #and i just feel numb now. like i could spend all day zoning out #i wanna say this is dissociation #but idk if that's right or not

[etincelleart]

Finally reading The Guy I Was Interested In Wasn't A Guy At All

#holy freaking hell wtf holy hell i'm so lesbian i'm about to explode #hhhhhh #HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #help #no in fact i don't need help it's just so much lesbianism to handle #i also in fact really relate on the crush part god freaking help me #lesbian biab blesbia lesbiab lmeiabv lesbian lesbia #girls #GGGGHDFGXFG

[khaotunq]

Scenes where the symbolism slaps you in the balls: Mon in that blazer. Becky Armstrong as Mon (GAP, 2022-2023)

#gap the series #gapedit #gap nueng #asian lgbtq dramas #monsam #gap series #mine: gap the series #mine: mon #mine: thai drama #my gifs #endless gifs #my edits #no but u don't understand #mon turning up at sam's cloaked in her colour #shrouded in her colour #with just the little flashes of pink #she's showing she'll exist under sam's shadow and hide herself in it #asdfasfhgdfg help #someone else could put this more eloquently than me i'm sure #but hhhhhh fdsjkghdfgksjd

[softly-n-sweetly]

♡

i kinda like the idea of being edged for hours, brought so close again and again until i'm crying and begging for you to please let me cum, but you don't let me. you make me cuddle up next to you and go to sleep, ignoring my pleading whimpers and the way i rub my thighs together like a desperate little pup, too stupid to do anything myself, eventually falling asleep with my face against your chest, unaware of how you're planning on waking me up in the morning🩷

#i just. hhhhhh. help #nsft #personal #nsft concept #I'm sighing so heavily bruh

[sysig]

I did some Souichi studies because I’m love he <3 (Patreon)

Bonus:

Here are the Studies compared to their Originals btw :3

So like, not a joke, not an exaggeration, I’m pretty sure this is my favourite panel in the entire Challengers/KoiBo continuity (and I decided to draw it first lol - it’s ‘cause I have such big feelings about it!!) It just hhhhhh, it so perfectly encapsulates everything he’s feeling in that moment; disbelief, betrayal, uncertainty, distrust, conflict - every moment of love he’s built up to that point has been thrown into immediate relief to what he’s been told and it’s all there, right on his face, it’s such a masterfully done expression ;; <3 I legit cry every time I reread, that whole scene is just so good, I could actually talk forever about his relationship with Morinaga in that one moment

The rest aren’t nearly so intense lol, mostly just grabbed from moments when I thought he was being especially cute <3 Concerned lad! His hair is so swoopy in Challengers hehe <3 <3 It’s actually even fluffier in his super early-on appearances, which are also excellent >:3c But I still like his KoiBo look best ♪ You can also see it’s a bit of a challenge to make his face as slim as he actually is, just thicken the lines inward until it almost looks right! Lol

I love this panel haha, everyone so silly chibi’d out. You can also really get a good look at how ridiculous his hair is, look at how the tuft that’s tucked behind his ear joins up with the tie! How does he tie it up like that, consistently?? How is he allowed in labs like that!! He’s ridiculous <3

Confused and blushy Souichi ft. Morinaga, I just kind of filled in the details he was covering lol. I love Souichi being dumb and having no self-awareness <3 He’s actually quite intelligent and emotionally aware a surprising majority of the time! But his blind spots leave big gaps haha

I love when he has his eyebrows in a relatively neutral position, he’s normally so grumpy! He looks so friendly even with just a neutral expression :D Plus his hair!! The way it’s communicated to be thin and feathery by being able to “see through it” to his lab coat, ah <3 Handsomest

Shy boy <3 I also really love the way his hands and wrists are shaped, such cool lines ah

I could’ve sworn he and Morinaga were like, almost the same size in Challengers... I guess Morinaga did have a second growth spurt, but still! It’s just an excuse to see him being cute!! Oh noooooo (lol)

Grump man <3 Beauty boy <3 His hair flows so beautifully!

It’s also fun to see a younger Souichi in a flashback, rather than in the Challengers style haha. He was a mess by himself, he’d hate to hear it but he really only does well with others haha. I also love how this scene is from the POV of one of his admirers, Momo is such a good girl and she’s so right <3

He’s being such a meanie to his sister in this scene lol, he’s the worst! <3 I was going to leave it at that, but adding his little frameless-glasses stem holes really made it look like Spamton’s googly eyes and I about lost it lol

#Doodles #Koisuru Boukun #Warning: Mushy design and characterization love ramblings under the cut lol #My beautiful trash boy <3 <3 #So I actually have a folder specifically dedicated to just Souichi's beautiful face/interesting behaviours lol #They're mostly collected from the last big reread but I have some from years and years and years ago! #The last big reread also included Challengers because Morinaga >:| Fucker Supreme (derogatory) #I needed to look at his characterization from original to spinoff #But Souichi is the only one with the dedicated folder lol #He deserves it <3 Little insect man <3 <3 Poison nerd Engrish enjoyer Idiot man <3 <3 <3 #He actually really fun to draw??? I ran out of room on my paper but I was like ''Well I could fit just one more...Well maybe just one more!' #I ended up with several half-finished sketches because I just straight up could not fit any more on the page lol #If I'm able to capture even a little bit of the reasons that I find him so beautiful and lovely and interesting in my own art then I'm happy #His hair! His eyes! His caring nature! His opinionated blind spots! His childishness and his trauma and his self-expression hhhhhh #I love him so much what a beautifully flawed character <3 <3 <3 #Watching him grow into himself for over a decade has been such a wonderful experience as a reader hh #Plenty of bumps along the way lol but I don't think I could stop loving him even if I tried hehe

[crow-with-a-pencil]

Happy holidays and merry crisis

#ignore how late this is but hhhhhh #it's a sketching kinda day #my ârt #trying a new signature that actually makes sense here #fnaf daycare attendant #moondrop #gonna draw more I promise there's just a lot of stuff happening #also what the actual hell how did the eclipse drawing get so many notes #and so many cool people reblogged it I'm actually crying

[lyxchen]

Sometimes i really hate how gendered the German language is. Cause the term 'partner'? That you say so people don't immediately know what gender you partner is? Yeah you can't do that in German. I say 'Partner' in Germany and people are gonna assume it means male partner because that's the male version of that word. If I wanted it to be accurate I'd have to say 'Partnerin' (the female version of Partner) which really defeats the whole purpose of having a genderless term for someone you're in a relationship with...

#like i don't really want everyone to immediately know that i'm gay when i talk about that subject #especially with people i don't know #so i try using the genderless version but haha sucks to be me because now people assume i'm straight #idk i just don't like it #i also head the word 'Partnerperson' and no hate to anyone who uses that but it's really not a common word #hhhhhh #german stuff #lea's random thoughts

[iguessyouregonnamissthepantyraid]

random little burst of activity on the ohtmb series got me in my feelings about ohtmb!loki again......

#specifically got me daydreaming scenarios i haven't written yet #i love guardian of the galaxy loki he's like a son to me #i just. hhhhhh #i've been writing a lot more lately and i'm HOPING this will result in a sudden deluge of mcu content from me out of nowhere #but we'll see what comes of it #hey what if an antagonist used loki's anxiety about inevitably outliving all the guardians against him :) #what if one of them is very specifically in danger of dying :) #i'm feeling very normal about him tonight i promise #me