#hopefully it keeps it up and gets better

[sporeclan]

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Leaf-bare again and we're already off to a bad start :')

#clangen #clan generator #warrior cats #warriors oc #sporeclan #my poor girl finchpaw cant catch a break ever she keeps getting ill </3 #btw with petunia. the reason it says he got better was because literally in the game his infection WAS cured #and then the literal message after that was that his wound got infected AGAIN. sigh #sc:fennel #sc:fennelacorn #sc:finchpaw #sc:fadedtuft #sc:petunia #sc:cliffthicket #sc:dawnpelt #sc:mousegrove #sc:spottedfrost #sc:puddle #sc:crowstar #yall im so sorry ive been so slow with the updates i wish i could say im busy but really ive just been gaming this whole time #ive blazed through like 2 and a half f!re embIem games in like a month and a half. plus i read all of dunme5hi #plus i did take a lil break to draw other stuff than cats for a bit just so i didnt burn out #ive been looking forward to the next moon for a while so hopefully it'll be up fairly soon #sc moons #tw blood #tw injury #tw illness

[zenitsuinamogus]

My attempt at a colorful Thresher Shark for Day #01 of @fish-daily 's Fishuary prompts 🌊🦈💙

#fishuary2024 #sharks #art #my works #fish #thresher shark #digital coloring #ibispaint art #artists on tumblr #i am not great at drawing so i went for a very sketchy approach #also ive never actually done one of these monthly art challenges #but i want to get better and make more art in general so hopefully i can keep this up

[yellowjackets-1996]

(do you love me like that?) you're a reckless driver (I'm a reckless driver) and one day it will kill us if I —

#yellowjacketsedit #yjedit #akilahmari #lyricsongifs #yellowjacketscentral #ok i WANT TO DISCLAIM. im not 100% sold on pitgirl mari im not 100% sold on anything. the show will tell me when its ready! #that SAID im incapable of giffing unless theres tragedy involved and also i think it would be an interesting trajectory for them #akilahmari work imo because while different they are both very vulnerable in the same way #they want to be seen and cared for and they arent in an environment where thats easy #and like. yeah the you tell me all the time to keep my eyes on the road gif IS the gay scenes #but its also akilah being in tune with people and their emotions. ofc she knows taivan love each other ofc she knows lottienat need a momen #and later ofc she knows lottie and nat need a moment!!! that skill serves her as tension escalates #whereas mari cannot read a room + does not filter herself. and akilah often gets the best of that from her! #but also. akilah shoots her a look when she presses javi about the missing bear meat. but also. mari isnt wrong to be concerned #mari is vulnerable and scared !!!AND!!! heavily concerned about survival. so whereas akilah and mari are both scared to hunt javi #mari is the second to run to grab javis body. akilah follows still horrified. mari is better suited to survive in a lot of ways #but also tends to step on toes!!! but also mari is so loyal and so like. attentive? eager? in a way akilah isnt #so mari says more controversial things but ultimately follows status quo in a way akilah is less inclined to #even in terms of skills mari can cook and akilah can sew but eventually what good is stitching people up when they need to eat. you know. #IDK i think theyre soooo interesting and im rly looking forward to their relationship hopefully developing bc i think theyre cute and fun #but i think their dyn could get sooooo interesting. even in terms of letting mari go. like. many connotations #akilah can giggle when the jokes are still funny and they can find each other in any given space. but does that matter if it cant save them #anyway ive run out of tags to tag the chars for my blog and im being really brave about it btw. #also its 2 am and i wanna post and im being even braver about that (not deleting this tag but its not 2 am my time as i post im drafting<3)

[takethebodymarc]

and don't you guys forget to take care of yourselves! i mean it!🫵

#if things feel a bit too heavy you can always take a breaaak #go do something nice and funnn #check your other fandom;) #hell even silly little stuff about this one: past reblogs. your funny tag. watching clips is pretty good too! #keep up with your trusted blogs #qsmpblr is still here #we are still here we got chuuu #hopefully things get better🤞 #giving you a pretty flower #a hug #and a pat on the head #MWAH #qsmp #qsmpblr

[lavender-phannie]

Dan and phil I need you to come back now cause they just cancelled ofmd and I need something to keep me sane through exam season god PLEASE

#the hope of ofmd renewal was the only thing keeping me happy #now I have nothing but dread for the future #cool cool cool #dan and phil #ofmd #I’ve never actually experienced a fave show being cancelled before cause they either get finished OR I arrive years after the cancellation #I’m fucking torn up man #gonna go cuddle my hot water bottle and watch some dnp to hopefully feel better…

[engagemythrusters]

Reflection

#NO ITS NOT GOOD BUT THATS OKAY I GIVE UP #ANYWAY I FINISHED MERMAY WITH THREE MERMAIDS WHICH IS SIGNIFICANTLY MORE MERMAIDS THAN EVER BEFORE #as in i never did mermay before and yes i forgot to keep going until today but whatever i still did mermay #anyway. tried to get daniel logan's face in there. hopefully i did it right! #boba fett #tbb omega #omega tbb #star wars: the bad batch #star wars #my art #mimse art #uh i dont know what else to tag #anyway. they haven't met in canon its just sometimes i sit and think about What If They Did. #the hidden child meets the lost child. what then. What Then. #sigh anyway i hope my art gets better soon :') i hate sucking this much #mermay #FORGOT TO TAG THAT #mermay 2023

[silenthillbunni]

🐇💭

#i've decided that after i've recovered from surgery i want a glow up!!! #i want to make an effort to try to feel better nd not be so miserable all the time. it's so draining nd soul sucking :< #nd some things i wanna do is start better habits such as journaling nd reading a chapter every morning #meditate/do mindfulness every evening. do a full body stretch routine once a day. go to the gym 3-5 times a week. #ofc daily walks in nature (i've missed that sm). spending time w my cat nd dog. getting better at studying a little bit every day #i might even bleach my hair nd dye it... i just wanna dye it one last time then im done T-T #smth im unsure of is my diet. i have no idea what i can eat nd atm im so hungry but im scared of eating. so i'll have to figure that out #nd then try to meet up w my old high school friend every now nd again #try to keep asking for help from the personality disorder psychiatric clinic... or try to get online therapy maybe??? #i just wanna feel better nd *do* smth so these r some of the thinngs i wanna try to do to feel better :3 #hopefully i'll feel better soon nd recover as swiftly as possible so i can start wanting to do these things #oh and also!! wanna try to revive my interests. such as writing more nd taking photos nd such

[balleater]

another bit of lore i want to bring up into the discussions for exu calamity is what the tal'dorei reborn book tells us about the beginning of the calamity as well as vespin chloras's involvement and fate thereafter:

we know what happened (or atleast what the alabaster lyceum believes to have happened) to vespin after his attempt to reach out to the betrayer gods, and this is actually why i'm particularly interested in brennan's choice to include asmodeus as prominently as he did in the first episode.

#critical role #exu calamity #vespin chloras #exu spoilers #vespin chloras is wizard hubris personified and he got Fucked Up as a result. love that for him. #anyways im probably gonna keep posting random bits of lore that are pertinent to calamity as i remember them djfkdn #mostly bc ive seen some takes that contradict some known lore and ik a lot of this type of lore isnt given directly in the show #so i just want to put it out there #(also im trying to get better at including alt text for the pictures i post hopefully i did this one right djkfndkd)

[corfisers]

i really need to finish this one day

#one of my fave ideas but i keep getting stuck or starting over. third time's the charm hopefully #anyways. posting it as an excuse to rant because i'm losing my mind over this rn for no reason #incoherent but i just need to Talk or my brain won't shut up #you ever think about how fucked up it is that aoi feels guilty over what happened. i do. i think about her a lot #he can't even look at me. we aren't even blood related but he still had to go to jail because of me. i still love him #in reality none of it is her fault. it shouldn't be about doumeki in the first place. baby girl you were 15 when it happened. #you can say that yashiro is cruel in his dismissiveness (on the surface) of doumeki's trauma but you can see where he's coming from #you got a glimpse of what your sister was going through? of what i went through? and now you're sooo guilty over it? and who does it help? #doumeki's so focused on his own feelings that he ignored aoi when they were living together. “saves” her by pure chance #proceeds to focus on his guilt and ignore her again. if yashiro didn't get involved she'd be sitting in the rain for god knows how long #yet she still loves and to some degree idolizes him #yashiro and aoi both saying that doumeki isn't the type of person to be a yakuza too. doumeki's good doumeki's better than that #and then ch 24 happens. where yashiro says that he's going to throw up and doumeki's response is “i probably won't stop even if you do” #“guess i am like my father after all” and yashiro still goes “you're not. you're pure and im the problem” #(touches doumeki's face. rare gentle gesture. he's gentle afterwards too before leaving. man.) #he's not cruel enough to repeat what he said in the earlier conversation and he doesn't actually believe it anyway #but i wish yashiro was cruel there. it shouldn't have been about doumeki and his feelings. again. #something about yashiro throwing a knife at another person and it flying back at him huh #for all the talk about how doumeki supposedly romanticizes yashiro it really is the other way around. always has been #which is a whole other conversation but yeah. everything about aoi and yashiro in relation to doumeki makes me so fucking sad #but this is also what i mean when i say that aoi doesn't haunt the narrative per se but still has this weird presence? #she's in the parallels. she's in the brief but important mentions. she's in the “your sister was lucky she had you”. #wips tag

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneepy cozy....

#cats #(medical stuff mention for tags) #poasting confortable image of boye for peace and serenity and such forthe #I have little weird episodes sometimes where I get shaky (but like violently like 'would spill a drink if you were holding it beacuse #your hands are moving so much' type shaky) and weird and sick feeling but usually it passes in an hour or less. but last night I just #literally couldnt sleep I was shaking so much and my heartrate was up a ton and wouldn't go down even after like 6 hours plus super nausea #so I went to the hospital and now shall wear a heart monitor for a week. which hopefully it's just some weird drastic low blood sugar #event or something and there's nothing actually going on. ekg + ct scan for blod clots + virus panel + almost all of the blood work seems #normal so... aa....... #Though me being so privacy focused hrggh... I basically have a constantly bluetooth connected device around me #since the monitor comes with a cell phone that is constantly transmitting data to the place. which they said they'll call you #if they see anything weird which is also scary. random phone calls... but definitely better than letting an issue go unadressed lol #the phone is also not meant to be more than 10 feet away from the monitor at any time so I put on this old tactical fishing #vest thing thats like navy green with 100 pockets and im just using one of the giant pocketson the side as a phone holder #my enormous silly vest just to keep one little phone #ANYWAY... because I got up early the morning before and didn't sleep at all and spent nearly all day in waiting rooms and such #I have been awake for like 32 hours striaght. which I'm sure also does not help with an elevated heartrate lol #feeling shrimp emotions or whatever people talk about unlocking at a certain level of stress and sleep deprivation #and also no food or water. after a while they brought me like 3 saltines and some ice water but I basically also haven't eaten since 3am #last night and it's 2pm now.. #thus............ bapy............. baby boye....... he will help ease all ailments with his baby powers... #And no I dont drink energy drinks or anything with caffiene really I'm afraid of all substances on the planet essentially #My body just likes to become shaky and weird randomly even when I'm not conciously anxious about anything/have had no caffiene/etc #and I guess I'm always more nervous about getting anything heart related checked out because of my arm/shoulder/chest area injury stuff #... i literally have constant chest pain all the time. it moves around but i nearly always have some sort of pain or pressure in my chest #so when people are like 'oh well a little weird heartrate is fine but watch out if you have pain!' it's like... i always do lol.. how am I #supposed to tell the Bad Pain apart from the Always Pain when the descriptions of Bad Pain are very very similar #AAAANYway.... hrghh... i wanted to be very productive and finally post drafts and wrok on things today. but alas.. #I can at least post small image of soft boye.. though he recently got into stuff in the bathroom whilst left #alone and knocked things into the toilet.. So perhaps not an innocent and NICE boy.. but still.. a soft one .. beautfile....

[dreamwinged]

good morning everyone :( i am in a Funk really bad and i wanna say it’s school but i know it’s a bit deeper than that. i dunno what to do i just feel weird… i hope everyone is having a good day tho imy guys :’)

#.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖ #yk when you wake up and you just feel like you haven’t slept at all #pretty sure i even dreamed abt my problems bc when i woke up they were instantly on my mind #it’s like this sick feeling #ik it’s a lot of stuff combined and the feelings r just manifesting thru smaller stuff but it still sucks so bad #idunno…. what if im not good enough for f/os and i should drop them all and let them Be Free.. #im just not feeling good abt myself i guess. i think im scared to go home tbh #one week til i go home… :( #then i have to get my wisdom teeth out and start my new job and see my friends again who bully me for fun #can’t wait……….. #im going to try to keep learning japanese hopefully that helps me yk #to have a hobby to throw myself into #i don’t know… i guess it’s a plus that i don’t have school again til august #maybe something good will happen in that time. maybe i’ll get better #maybe i need a therapist but aaaahhhh…… scary….. it’s harder now that im older and no one can make me go #i just am unsure that i can be fixed atp i don’t know if i can have a normal life or if i’ll just always be this way #hhhh…. i don’t want to go home at least here i feel somewhat happy

[zenitsuinamogus]

Today's Fishuary prompt was Salmonid, so I made a colorful Chinook Salmon since I live very close to a Salmon Hatchery where they are raised! Thanks to @fish-daily for the prompts ☆

#fishuary2024 #art #chinook salmon #salmonid #fish #digital art #ibispaint art #artists on tumblr #my works #give it up for day 2! #gonna try my best to keep this up all month #this is mostly a good way to try out all the brushes i've been downloading and some funky color palettes #i think the sketchy crayon style also makes it look kinda like real fish skin which is neat #thank you to everyone who liked my thresher shark post i didn't expect anyone to even notice it lol #hopefully i can get better at digital art so i can make some original stuff and fanart like ive always wanted to

[honey-leemon]

woe old tummy pic be upon ye

#ill keep this one up i PROMISE #if followers go bye bye again then #as william shakespear once said; 'it eez what it eez' #pics #i AM losing weight again too so hopefully theyll only get better from here 🤙

[scribblemakes]

[ID: A collection of black and white sketches showing everyday objects that are haunted by little creatures. These creatures fill in gaps with black space and white dots for eyes /End ID]

As some of you might’ve seen: I’m no longer posting art on Twitter, so Tumblr is now the only social media I’ll be consistently posting art to. However: I’ll also be posting it to my website and possibly other social media platforms in the future.

I also post monthly sketch pages to my Patreon (April’s is on this post) with early access for Patrons, and I’m hoping to add more things to it soon!

Thanks everyone for your support (your tags mean a lot to me!) and I’ve put more of my thoughts in the tags.

#monsters #sketch #Patreon #Putting my thoughts here rather than in a read more so people don’t have to see it a lot: #Went on a vacation at the start of July and realised I’ve been ridiculously burnt out and didn’t realise #The stress of *trying* to have something ready for social media every other day was exhausting #I’m not the fastest artist out there so it takes time! I was really pushing out quick things #not progressing as an artist since I wasn’t practicing besides trying to be faster #So I’m shifting gears more now and doing things that aren’t art as hobbies #Learnt to make my website! Want to keep developing it too and making layouts for other people #Learning auslan (Aussie sign language) and having an amazing time! #mostly getting back into education since I really love learning things #haven’t been in a class for years and it’s been a big boost to my mental health #still have financial worries but not as badly now thankfully #Anyway I’ll probably be posting less art until I figure out what works for me #though less art is better than the NONE that happens when I’m exhausted and having a bad time #Hopefully I’ll start to really enjoy the process again and start getting more ideas #(ideas are so hard to come up with!)

[thethingything]

I'm absolutely determined to pay attention to all the seasonal changes and embrace them as much as possible this year and to try and romanaticise it. we've tried to do the same for the last couple of years too but I think we're getting better at it over time

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #happy posting #it's like how we used to say we couldn't stand summer but last year we actually enjoyed it being summer #and now I'm looking forward to it but I'm also looking forward to enjoying spring first and watching everything come to life outside #and I'm looking forward to autumn when it gets cooler again and we can embrace getting cosy #and maybe we'll have better coping mechanisms for the seasonal depression like we coped better with the summer depression last year #but that's far away and there's so much to do in the meantime #and hopefully once we get there it'll be fun to look back at what we did #I'm still clinging to the thing about doing what we can to make it a good year regardless of what happens #I've noticed that when we do have a rough time now we start craving the things that are good for us and will help in the long run #like keeping up with journaling and making gratitude lists and doing our hobbies and focusing on self care #which seems like a good sign. things can be shit but we're slowly getting better at finding ways to deal with them