Jack and Mark discussing their friendship at the end of their latest video together:
Jack: you... you're genuinely one of my favourite people in the world.
Mark: awww
Jack: and I feel like, despite our (sigh) I don't know... cause people for a while were like: why don't they talk anymore? why don't they play together anymore? and, like, man, life get's in the way. eveybody has like different things going on.
Mark: yeah, sure do.
Jack: and I feel like we've both been on, like, parallel paths for so many years and every now and then, they like connect, but they're always kinda like, going in the same places and we always kinda, like have the same mentalities on things and... I don't think there's ever been, like, proper bad blood between either of us.
Mark: nooo! no! yes! so for anyone thinking, you know... I mean, all, all human relationships are interesting and dynamic in a way... but, no, yeah, you're one of my favourite people too. I love seeing the stuff that you make. and I can't wait to help you make some of the cool projects, ah, you've got on the horizon, cooking up in that noggin. and, uh...
Jack: that big old brain of mine
Mark: yeah.
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i'm really just so happy that they've addressed this! when i saw the video i was just delighted to see them talk to each other in a chill environment without having to interact with and comment on the game at all times. it felt like a step further than normal gaming videos. and then that ending totally made me cry.
seeing them from starting this really fast, intense friendship (that everyone was obsessed with at the time) and then it kind of falling apart with them not doing anything together any more and Jack even putting out a statement that they were never as close as people thought they were, a long time silence and then, pretty recently starting to do projects together again. it just makes me happy that they are so chill with each other now.
goes to show that things can probably get overwhelming pretty fast if you are pushed in a certain direction all the time. it's just so good to see they can be normal friends now without all the hype sorrounding it and i'm happy for them.
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Tomorrow marks a year since my mom died. Today it is my daughter's first Easter. Life has that funny way of continually being sorrow and joy in all things.
I am disabled. My children are healthy and happy.
I miss my mom. I am here with my own children. They smile when they see my face. They call me mama with their sweet little voices and pet my cheek with their tiny fingers as I press kisses into their skin.
I'm constantly a mix of grief and gratitude. Grief for my parents. Gratitude for the people I still have. Grief for the breakdown of my body. Gratitude that I am alive. I hurt in many ways, but I will power through today for my babies. I'll hold the baby up by her hands to take supported steps and help my son comb the underbrush in search of Easter eggs, though it will physically hurt me to do so. The world keeps going with or without me, so I'll do my best to keep up.
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actually i talk about math but i wanna say something on reading also
yeah a lot of people call the classics Snobby and everyone with a lit degree has taken that as a personal offense and decried it as anti-intellectualism and blah blah blah instead of actually like addressing why people might say that
but to anyone who cares im pretty sure people say that shit as a defense mechanism
The Classics as a whole can be intimidating, especially if you already struggle with reading/writing or didnt have a good education on the subject
theres decades if not centuries of people talking about these works and interpreting and argueing about them and on top of that theyre Great Works that Everyone Should Read and Everyone knows about. theres also, whether you like it or not, a nice sheen of Only Smart/Highly Educated People Can Truely Appreciate This on top
so when someone approaches one of these works for the first time it already feels like coming in late to the party
but on top of that the writing styles can be dense, the books/poems/plays lengthy. theres usually a lot of historical context thats needed to fully appreciate the story being told. and thats before you get into whatever literary/mythological illusions thatll almost certainly be inside the story itself
then they take a crack at it and its slow and confusing and boring and really time consuming but everyone else is talking about how amazing it is and what a Classic it is but because of all the reasons listed above this new reader Just Doesnt Get It and well
that makes em feel fucking stupid. they feel like an idiot
so they brush it off as pretencious and snobby because otherwise theyre just too stupid to get it
or alternatively, they push through the whole thing, dont get what the fuss is about, and assume everyone praising it is so far up their own ass theyre now a circle
the same can also be said for things like movies, art, and music
im not saying that the brushing off of The Classics or more involved books/art/movies etc is GOOD
but i think brushing it off as anti-intellectualism is just attempting to ignore the actual problem
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you know, over the summer i had a big crying session roughly every two weeks, bc i was rly stressed out about starting school and feeling like i'm not good enough and i'm gonna fail spectacularly. and i was like "damn, i've been crying a lot lately". but while the fear and self hatred were very much real, a small, more rational part of me did think "it's gonna get better once i start school, i'll realize i've been freaking out over nothing, it's gonna be fine really".
now i've been going to school a little over a month and um. now i cry like. every day? i either cry in the car after school or at night in bed, or both. once i did already on my way to school. every day i feel either tired, sad, or angry, or two of the above, or all or the above. never none of the above though. the hating of myself and feeling like i'm going to fail has not gone away. if anything i'd say it's a little stronger now? i'm just constantly stressed about everything all the time. there's too much going on all at once. while our school has lots of great aspects and great things, i really do feel like i hate my school, the bits that are bad are just so fucking. so fucking bad. so i'm just annoyed and stressed and sad. genuinely good days are a very rare occurence now.
i was just about to cry myself to sleep but had to stop and get up cus i started seriously hyperventilating.
funny how life turns out huh
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