#i am a fuckin mess

[macey-wacey]

oh

buddy daddies was really not fuckin around this week

#i am a fuckin mess #how am i suppose to wait a week for the next episode #what the hell is even gonna happen these next couple eps #like #how can this even end happy for everyone i have no idea #buddy daddies #mac mumbles

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i don't know what order to start Dissecting, so i'll just start with:

it's absolutely fascinating how the dynamic Wally & Barnaby had - to my knowledge - before the update, and a dynamic i'd seen speculated elsewhere and generally accepted, has been completed turned on its head

see, given that Wally is the "main character" and Barnaby is classified as "his best friend", i got the feeling that Barnaby kind of... tags along on Wally's 'shenanigans'. that he's the sidekick, the best friend. especially since their dynamic has been previously & briefly described as "Barnaby is very polite to Wally." he's the Companion.

but the audios sorta paint a reverse picture. in the Interview, when Barnaby enters stage right, he completely bowls over Wally's introduction and dominates the interview. when the interviewer asks how the two of them are handling the fame, even outright asking Wally, Barnaby doesn't hesitate to answer the question himself, and only about himself. Wally doesn't get another word in edge-wise until the interviewer explicitly singles Wally out.

(now, an argument could be made that Barnaby knew that Wally was somewhat overwhelmed with all of the questions, and tried to take the reins to give him a reprieve. but, considering that the interview seems to be very early on the possible timeline - like, very soon after Welcome Home debuted - i don't think this is likely. i doubt Barnaby and Wally would've had the time to solidify their dynamic or really get to know each other that well yet)

and Barnaby continues to take point in pretty much all of their other conversations, too. like in the mystery Howdy/Barnaby/Wally audio, their interaction gives off the vibes that Wally is Barnaby's sidekick, his tag-along.

(on a related tangent, it's fascinating how the website described the episodes as "[beginning] with Wally introducing the focus or theme for the day before coming across other characters who would join him on his escapades until the end of the day." but from pretty much everything we've seen so far, it seems like He's the one who's just along for the ride, bouncing from neighbor shenanigan to neighbor shenanigan instead of having his own adventures.

of course, if the 14 audios are present time, which is honestly somewhat likely, this could be because the show isn't running. they aren't doing episodes - they're just existing, doing their things. no need for Wally to take point in any way shape or form. tangent over)

in the 14 audios with Barnaby, he doesn't even acknowledge Wally until the very end - which, of course, could be because that's how the scenes are set up. except that in some of them, the characters do directly acknowledge Wally's presence outside of the endings. Eddie in 5-14, Howdy and Poppy in 1-14, and Frank in 4-14 (technically, since he was infodumping to Wally at the very start before Barnaby interrupted). you'd think that a guy would try to include his best friend a little more!

maybe i'm reading into it too much. & given what we know about Wally as a character, it would make sense for Barnaby to be the go-getter Main Guy of the two. but it really seems like its Barnaby & Wally instead of Wally & Barnaby. he's just kinda... there. going along with whatever Barnaby is up to.

but also, on the other side of things - & it's occurring to me as i type this, it's interesting how in a lot of audios, Barnaby seems to seek Wally out. in "Just So", he shows up to fetch Wally. in 4-14, Barnaby interrupts Frank and Wally's gardening session, almost as if he's stopping by to check on his little buddy. in 7-14, Barnaby calls Julie's house (presumably) searching for Wally, or at least checking in once again. something to consider in all of this!

#and if the 14 audios are in the same day along a timeline - which they Are. im trying to puzzle it out rn but anyway - #its interesting how barnaby just kept. checkin. in. #they had three audios where they were already hanging out and then got two (technically three) more where barnaby checked in! #it feels like there's something there... #separation anxiety? a compulsion? love for his buddy? a secret fourth thing? #maybe he could tell something was Off with wally that day... #(which is a topic i will ramble about in a different post) #its a push & pull to be certain.... #but yeah that plus all the evidence of Barnaby kinda being the Lead and wally being brushed off to the side.... #what a complicated fuckin picture it paints!!! dont know what it means yet! #i have another post im working on centering on how the neighbors seem to treat each other - wally & eddie especially #but this post aint about that. itll be related though #homebogging #wh speculation #please let this have made sense! #when i make posts i just kinda throw myself at it bc i have No organizational skills! #my brain is a complete incoherent mess and i am so sorry if this post is messy <3

[mispatchedgreens]

get yourself a man that hates everyone but mostly himself, that's powered by shame and spite, that would do anything for you, that would murder you

#the radiant emperor #she who became the sun #swbts #general ouyang #my art #I've spent a long time in les mis fandom not to get a kneejerk reaction when i look at this fuckin mess that's like #haha 60k of reincarnation au when? #imagine a world where the feelings of servitude are absent and ouyang can squint at esen suspiciously and tell him #'wow you're a fucking brat' or sth?? #i am SICKENED by them you understand I'm inconsolable

[spicyraeman]

why did my dumbass have to get embroiled in 7 layers of dyke drama when I was younger, i'm a straight guy now I shouldn't have to deal with this

#I am using the words straight and guy very loosely lol #but fr being a fuckin lesbian mess for most of life has really come back to bite me in the ass #me and my horrible horrible taste in women

[ask-the-totally-real-peppino]

mabye we could be cheese slimes lol

(Anonymous Cheeseslimes! Now available in Original Cheesy Yellow, Mystery Grey and the new limited edition Snotty Approved Green! (silly!!!)

#ooc post #you can be cheeseslime if you want to be #I am not carrying you tho #and you are 100x more likely to be chomped on by Fake Bean #but live your dreams #also I am not immune to cheeseslimes with paws #so they got pawbs #also also I could not stop thinking about matpat comparing pupils shapes to come to the wrong conclusion of Vigi being in that poster #like the cheese topping monster is RIGHT THERE HOW DID YOU MESS UP SO BADLY #but then again it is game theory so #it's jusT A THEORY- #(Bean fuckin explodes)

[bardicious]

Im trying to not block everyone who willfully misinterprets snw, but it is fuckin hard, not gonna lie. Also, beggin people to stop remembering TOS with rose tinted glasses, ffs.

#Where No Man Has Gone Before and Then Some #star trek #strange new worlds #star trek snw #like??? holy fuck #acting like tos didn't have silly episodes #episodes that straight up didn't make sense #that shatner didn't overact in some scenes to the point where its kinda embarrassing #willfully forgetting kirk's crush on janice and how it was focused on #for an insufferable amount of episodes #SPOCK ATE THAT BACON CAUSE ALIENS MESSED WITH HIS BRAIN GET OVER IT #also spock touches people willy fuckin nilly in TOS #like - is snw not true to TOS or is it not true to your fanfiction?? #I am mad actually

[lecliss]

Sakura gets a second point for being the first to complete the tree climbing at being better at chakra control, but at the same time it just feels like she was made good at it so no extra training segment time would have to be put into her getting good at it and it can be all about Sauce and Nart. Idk that feels too pessimistic but also could totally be true.

#she takes on a very 'obsever' role. like kashi is the teacher watching over them. but sock is the watching and commenting from the same #perspective of nart and sauce and also the viewer unlike kashi. cuz he provides a lot of exposition and whatnot in his inner monolgues #and its like. of course the girl is just the observer who watches alongside us as the two main boys grow and develop #AND I DONT WANNA FUCKIN BE PESSIMISTIC ABOUT THIS BUT GOD ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!!! #but her whole character so far is 'i hate the class clown. im book smart. i diet and im in love' #and the way i see it is. 12yo girl TRYING to fit into the femininity she sees in the world around her so she forces herself to be like this #but she has inner sock who speaks what she really feels showing that she puts on quite a front and isnt really much like that at all #and you expect her to grow into wanting her to truly define herself. and she does with getting stronger and training under tsunade and #learning medical ninjutsu so she really finds a spot for herself. she does!!! but then she KEEPS hanging onto the love nonsense #and admittedly there are moments that push a very obvious trope of thinking she likes sauce cuz hes cool but finding out that the real 'gem' #is nart so i definitely understand where n@rus@kus are coming from #but then she just STICKS with sauce until its the worst ship possible and its an utter mess of 'ill never give up on him' #EVEB DESPITE HIM TRYING TO KILL HER!!! THEN THAT FUCKING WORKS OUT!?!?!? #AND TOO THIS DAY SAUCE STILL NEVER COMES OFF LIKE HE ACTUALLY LOVES HER #IM SORRY BUT ITS TRUE. SARD WE ARE GETTING YOU BETTER PARENTS. ON GOD!!!!! #so she just hangs on to this one little thing that she SHOULD have gotten development for to move on from BUT IT NEVER FUCKING HAPPENS #so its like half her development never fucking happens and thats why it #s such a fuckinf mess!!!!! #i fucking hate this show. i need to go back to watching mike's dino game vod. what am i doing here????? #i did this to myself btw. i didnt need to start yelling about that but thats just how it is with nart #start thinking about something good and then it reminds you of something related thats bad and now its like. yeah this shit sucks #remember when kishi said he regretted not making hina the heroine???? we could have lived in a better timeline. #but if i say that i will get assassinated #anyway. #sock count #personal

[soldier-poet-king]

I mean at this point I'd also take just like. Being allowed to Exist outside my room and make messes and LIVE + not being responsible for the emotions and moods and managing passive aggression for every single member of this fuckin hell family

But like. Y'know. If I could dream EXTRA grand and unrealistic and indulgent, I'd want that warm communal space

#franposting #ok im done. gotta go do work #small blessings in getting to do finnicky database work this week #with a program thats as old as me #so its SUPER unweildy #and i get to fiddle around with access points :) #its time consuming and a little boring. but its finnicky and detail oriented #and in the long run it makes the data so much more accessible and better organized #and itll save me effort when i got to migrate it to a newer system #and also. i just. take personal pride in my access points and subject headings #<- insane person sentence ik #but like! so many different contract ppl have worked on it its a MESS #and i am slowly slowly standardizing it. and im just :) genuinely :))) #i fuckin love. clenches fist. metadata and database work

[knowlesian]

WHATEVER i wanna talk about why the duel is hilarious 

because this is it: this is where izzy is not asking us to just believe he is why things happened. (aka: ‘i massaged the crew’s opinions of you!’ and then a smash cut to izzy not realizing his actual inability to massage the crew’s opinions are about to get his tight lil ass chucked over the side as lucius stares right into the camera like he’s on the pirate office in his soul, if i had to guess who would be the one staring right at camera in these moments) 

this is HIS THING. he is GOOD AT STABBING. he can STAB ALL DAY. there is NO SUBTEXT HERE SHUT UP HE WILL STAB YOU SHUT UP NOT LIKE T H A T & etc.

by all logical rules both muppet and real, stede really should lose this one. and he does! kind of! he gets stabbed. 

but stede is a fancy man with a fancy ship and a fancy mast: how the everloving fuck is izzy supposed to factor in ‘this motherfucker right here spent more money than i will see in perhaps even my lifetime! who knows! giving his gay lil’ ship the best that money could buy’. that is insane. that is NOT A THING IN HIS WORLD. 

WHO DOES THIS?

stede does this!!!! because if that hadn’t been the fiiiiinest cherrywood from brazil or whatever the fuck, izzy would have still won. it’s the fact that stede had the money needed to outfit his ship in this utterly insane way that lost izzy this duel, in the end, because even clever twisting to the side doesn’t matter when your mast is made out of wood The Poors can afford.

(also. stede won by getting subtextually fucked and izzy lost by subtextually fucking him??????? i am. this show.

the fuuuuuuuck.)

#my ofmd meta #truly i laugh as izzy's reality breaks #you can see the screen go blue in realtime #that sad lil hamster keeling over on it's sad lil wheel #izzy like ...but this. this is what i do. i am genuinely motherfucking skilled at this #i #I EVEN DID IT RIGHT #I DID NOT LOSE: I LOST... BY WINNING???? #he just. collapses like the saddest little flan in the masochist cupboard #it's so funny and sad but funny like #he always starts this shit he PLAYS STUPID GAMES and he wins. such stupid prizes #ed was like: don't do this. you literally do not have to do this there are CONSEQUENCES TO DOING THIS #and izzy was like hold my fuckin beer kids watch me do this thing anyway #he fucked around: he found out #it's so good so tragic he is literally the definition of a tragic figure he BUYS HIS OWN MESSES WITH EVERY LIFE CHOICE #so good. #also the class stuff but like. i am laughing at him here ngl #sad dirty man i will poke your brain through the pickle jar

[project-wildcard]

My inspirations!

My biggest inspiration, by far, is Just Roll With It. It's a TTRPG podcast that is just so good at every aspect of story telling! Every single campaign they've done I've cried out of some kind of emotion that they make me feel. The characters are all incredible! Gillion Tidestrider is probably my favourite and everyone after that is just a close second and they're all tied with each other because they're all so amazing in their own ways.

Wildcard specifically was actually inspired most The Trickster from Prime Defenders. The story of exactly how that came to happen is a little silly and for another time. You'd think with the multiple forms and changing personality gimmick that I'd have been most inspired by Vyncent and yes there's a lot of similarities but I want to make the distinction here and now that every form Wildcard takes is still Charlie at heart. They do not become a completely different person, it just changes the way their emotions work. At their core it's still the same person.

Thank you Mutants and Masterminds for being the system I used to create Wildcard's character sheet back when I was in denial and thought I'd just play them as a character in a campaign despite having no friends available at the time to DM such a campaign. I also use those character sheets to get a good idea of building and balancing all the heroes and villains in the world (although there will be plenty of leniency based on what I think is cool and fits the story).

I've also, definitely taken a lot of inspiration from the Spiderverse films, which might come across more once the first part of the story is released. Those movies are perfection the characters are incredible the story they're telling is innovative and fresh while still falling into the feeling of a Spiderman story. I love Gwen I love Miles I love Pav I love Mayday I love Peter I love the Spot I love Miguel and I LOVE LOVE LOVE Hobie! One of the characters in my story that I'm yet to speak about yet is very similar to Hobie and I'm so excited and I love the parallels and as I write them I'm definitely gonna be pulling so much from Spiderverse Hobie's personality. Spiderman in general (most versions of them) is my favourite superhero so there will probably be a lot in my head that I don't recognise I'm taking from Spider people stories but I'm just gonna make the sweeping statement now that there will likely be similarities. I will not, however, be going into multiverse or time travel stories, at least not in the main canon story, maybe I'll do a weird little "what if" after I finish telling my story where a "balanced" and fused Wildcard meets a "corrupted" and vibrant Wildcard.

Shout-out to Marvel in general, comics and movies, I've seen a lot of that stuff so again, it'll probably just leak in without me realising.

This helps me when I'm struggling to let myself write

Finally, a big thank you to all my friends who encourage/enable (in the bad way) me. I am on my shit and my shit is telling an intricate story that I am very passionate about with characters who I love and care for. Namely, all 3 of my friends on that one discord server where I first infodumped about Wildcard, Hazel, for helping me build the character sheet and helping me come up with names and also letting me info dump to you, and Mimi, for basically the same reasons as Hazel, as well as being the first person I made a superhero story for (we did an introductory session of DnD in a superhero setting. Her character will be making a cameo at some point most likely). Also everyone who's tried to help me learn how to draw because I'm not gonna lie, my only motivation there was drawing characters for this story.

#superhero oc #oc #original character #queer oc #mutants and masterminds #oc dump #infodump #jrwi #jrwi pd #spiderverse #oc writing #writeblr #writblr #writers on tumblr #inspiración #jrwi ashe #i am so close to finishing all my background posts i just have one left about Wild Mode and then I'll make a master post #and then i can finally let myself write the first part of the story #i know the how to enjoy writing post says to just skip between stuff as much as you want #but i need to get this done or else it'll all be a huge fuckin mess #thank you for being patient with me i am very silly and have the tism

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i swear i have the body of a 50 yr old. i did something mildly active for less than an hour today and my back Aches. who authorized this

#my back: oughhhh im so weak you need to lay down and be still for ten hours #honey i do not have the patience nor the time for that #i am chugging this soup and then im Really Fuckin Crunching The Packing & Cleaning #my mother gets here at like 2 am and i want to get shit done before she arrives #so that i can be told i did a good job for once in my damn life #sorry that was pathetic! #i actually am just a spiteful creature that wants to prove that Hey. maybe i can be relied upon this one time #bet she expects to get here to see an absolute mess w/ not nearly enough packed #JOKES ON YOU FUCKER IM DOIN IT ALL ON MY OWN #i got shit done Without you. ha! #also i want to go whale watching tomorrow #i need to be on the water... i need it.... big aminal please... #rambles from the bog #i feel so. Independent. and tired #took the cats to the vet all on my own. got them a prescription. rode in two ubers and made casual conversation both times #completely fumbled a brief interaction with a really cute girl who was definitely outta my league #me: wants to talk to cute girl. if she offers to get the door for you say Yes #brain: look at the floor. ignore her. say 'no ive got it' when she offers to get the door for you #sobbing and wailing. totally won otherwise lmao #my cats were so good!!! they were so sweet and they Listened! #they stayed on the weighing plate & let their claws be clipped #they were so friendly and nice and WELL BEHAVED WHAT WAS THAT #when i try to clip their claws i get squirmy mc wormie and little miss war crimes #i walk away with new scars and nothin to show for it #but noooo. vets do it and not a peep. not a single wriggle. no hisses or meows. just hangin out #man. at least my cats are comfy enough with me to be up front w their desires #fuckin fakers... beautiful sweet well behaved fakers.... #the vets absolutely loved them btw. all three people that were in the room loved how sweet my little critters were <3 #i am Proud tbh

[meat-wentz]

do you ever just “to the love, i left my conscience between the pages in the bible in the drawer, “what did it ever do for me?” i say, it never calls me when i’m down, love never wanted me but i took it anyway, put your ear to the speaker and choose love or sympathy, but never both. love never wanted me.” like like do you ever catch yourself breaking your own damn heart over and over again because of your routine cyclical mechanisms of self and your inability to cope healthily and realize that your conscience and something as weighty as the bible require the same amount of faith and when life lets you down and you let yourself down, what did that faith ever do for you????? and so you leave it in the nightstand of a cheap motel and maybe you’ll be better off without the guilt???? like like do you ever feel like you chose love even as it spat in your face do you ever feel like you chose love out of spite that you chose it even though you were never made for it that you chose it knowing you may never live up to it that you did it with a bitter taste in your mouth that you chose love knowing it never chose you???????? DO YOU DO YOU???

#XO rips my fuckin bones out of my body and leaves me a husk #literally i am just a mess when it comes to XO it could literally run my entire life into the ground #anyways #fall out boy #fob #lyrics analysis #sorta #from under the cork tree #text #pete wentz hurt me and he should pay for it by feeling loved and being loved wholly and fully

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions(tm): it's incredible how we just provide a little snippet of material designed to be "guy we all want to push down the stairs immediately somehow" and through this amazing acting alchemy it becomes gold. electric. magnificent. we can't get enough so we will just keep writing this loser character and the actor will somehow keep bringing the dazzling transmutation through his ability

actor will roland: [is aware autistic people are real]

#this is at least half humorous in several ways lmao but also like fr... #winston billions #will roland has pretty much said he is aware that autistic people real. and not [ppl's utterly off the walls assumptions abt what Defines #Autism or what an Autistic Person is like and how you would Know] #i don't think that Billions(tm) would be very much better at that than re: say; taylor's being nonbinary (surprisingly alright yet. u kno) #quant kid 2 could've been anyone but writing Winston is like so certainly the common deal of the inadvertently autistic character #drawing from all the autistic people allistic ppl encounter all thee time without being aware & deciding they're annoying / jerks / too #weird to live too pathetic to die / grating nerds / Funnily Odd in a way you deign to merely raise an eyebrow or scrunch your face at.... #so on so forth. ''oh you know Those People we all know who are just Like That'' #and deciding they must be ''just like that'' b/c they're either too arrogantly rude &/or clueless / Unaware to be neurotypically superior #also do not get me wrong lmao big old proponent of Did You Know That? Actors Act. Now You Know #so of course yes will's acting is off the shits i mean here i am am i right. and he is using it when he is acting. #the acting talent Is off the shits. the tiniest moments they give him & he CRUSHES KILLS it really is amazing i'm not waving it off at all #cue twitter randos so betrayed when kelly aucoin is not dollar bill & is like ''yes in my acting job i'm playing this fuckin asshole'' #meanwhile i'm still following the interviewer who a) asked will anything abt billions b) talked abt the immediate striking intro of will's #as quant kid 2 And the immediate draw of / effervescent dynamic between winston & taylor. Someone Who Gets It #anyway it's like will can fathom that actually the people who are Always ''acting wrong'' w/their bad grating vibes no matter what they do #are not always Those People(tm) who We all know & loathe right....thee magic of knowing winston can be someone fully earnest #and of course always actually trying; & having perfectly comprehensible wants & needs. damn how's he doing that #bringing a certain je ne sais quoi to this Insufferable Loser Nerd material! so we don't mess with the process. #i.e. we will only ever let his role get dunked on forever b/c sure can't fathom anything else anyways. our Correct characters could never.. #only tuk; adjacent in wrong nerd loserdom; can be his friend. rian who is correct but zany with it can be his abusive friend

[wearily-confused]

fuck FUCK fuCkkKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!

#vent ahead #spent so much time picking specific pics from near about 600 photos (all of which i clicked) and was down to the last 50 #guess fuckin what #after all that time #i went to delete them from the backup version #and voi-fuckin-la! #the originals disappeared too #AAAHHHGHGGHFF #thankfully i had already forwarded them to my cousin (the whole stack #not the selected ones unthankfully) #so i went and screenshotted a few #then #fuxkin THEN #i realised that its letting me forward/download tge pics i don't have (which whatsapp doesn't normally do smth not on internal storage smth) #(and yes it was whatsapp and yes u had to painfully select and send 600 pics in itty bitty batches) #(atleast they went from 30 to 100) #(cuz otherwise my fingers. and patience. would nOT) #(some pics did repeat bcz whatsapp sucks and messed the order) #bUT #now i forwarded all 600ish pics to another phn #and am debating btw letting my sister pick the pics (lol sry not sry) or doing it myself #again #which pain #P A I N #but also specifics #argh #its now officially a ✨later✨ prblm #as if i wasn't tired enough honestly #tag limit reached </3 #eph

[princekirijo]

*squints* hey is that new riku art as your pfp

.... Maybe 😳

#asks #latenitewaffles #koopa bro #yeah... i wasnt sure if anyone would notice so thansk :] #but yes its just a lil sketch i was messing with that i ended up finishing nothing too crazy #... so i wont be posting it properly #i am still way too shy to post my art again 🙈 #i keep telling myself to hold off until i do a riku reference sheet for him his thief outfit and pimpernel (which is so close to happening) #but idk. i also dont like saying these things cause whenever i say something i never do it 😭 #but uh yeah. i am a turtle. hiding in my shell. #the art reveal is gonna go HARD though ive been improving for two years 💪 on that grind #<- i sound like those fuckin insta gym bros im sorry 💀💀💀💀

[astro-inthestars]

I have a terrible habit of seeing my fictional crush on screen and just squeaking out their name. This is a toxic trait to me/j

#rennikorambles #i soUND PATHETICGJDSAHKGADSFJ HELP #LIKE A FUCKIN *FANGIRL* WHAT THE FUCK ASTRO... REALLY NOW. #siGH dude im a disaster. a mess. if we were to rate how much of a mess i am we wouldnt be able to #cuz they havent even INVENTED a scale this large. honestly