#i am buckets and buckets of tears

[pineapplefromthecan]

#bucket guy #totk #loz #the legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #I am his biggest fan

[tomlinsun]

are you crying because of the unus annus 2 year deathversary videos or are you normal

#i expected to shed a few tears but holy fucking shit am i crying buckets atm #unus annus #markiplier #crankgameplays #thank you for everything

[jalebi-weds-bluetooth]

There’s something hauntingly beautiful about IPKKND

You can fall for the characters as irrevocably as the characters fell for each other. The silence, the sparking of imagination, the acknowledgment of desire and love (not as rivals).

It haunts me on how beautiful it is.

#Jalebi thinks #it’s midnight Jalebi madness #I am getting extra senti about this show and I have no idea why? #IT COULD BE MY PMS TALKING #but am I crying bucket tears over this? #YES #why? #no idea #ipkknd

[becca-alexa]

never in my life have i ugly-cried during a movie like i just did for the Barbie movie

#becca.txt #barbie #i get it know #anybody saying the barbie movie is feminist whatever the fuck can get fucked themselves #this movie is beautiful #how the hell do you get the message that barbie hates men #she's literally telling ken to express himself and be who he wants #is it because she stops him from being a piece of shit? #is that it? #god i cried so much #like full on sobbing #and believe me i am NOT an emotional person but this movie???buckets of tears shed

[hopelessly-malicious]

“When I said I’d take a bullet for you,” Hero’s smile slipped, replaced with a grimace. “I didn’t expect to make good on that promise.”

“Idiot.” Sidekick muttered harshly, but the tears streaming down their face gave them away. "I told you to wait for backup."

#writing #writing prompt #malicious writing prompts #writeblr #creativewriting #great a bucket of my own tears #what the fuuuuuuuuck #am I supposed to do #with this #hero x sidekick #sidekick x hero #hero #sidekick

[katyspersonal]

Small crisis regarding my former mariadeline impression

This post is basically just:

But I kinda need to put my thoughts here

I've been thinking recently back on my days when I still saw Gehrman as a ‘creep’, and it was a point in Maria’s story that she hated herself for feeling attracted to Adeline who WAS below in a status. In that version, she was deeply concerned of taking advantage of her authority - because she subconsciously projected, and sort of saw Gehrman in herself. Been long ago, but after I revisited the lore bit that triggered it, I was hit back with just how many layers have to be undone to get to mariadeline ship being fulfilling and happy. We have the fact that Adeline still addresses Maria as superior ('lady' in localisation, '-sama' in original, sama is used to politely, formally address ones of higher rank). The subordination was probably never broken in canon!

Also, Maria didn't want Adeline to become a Blood Saint but Adeline wasn't convinced, most likely out of her pursuit to be someone meaningful - "grooming" of Blood Saints isn't canon, in Japanese original it says that they merely were prepared physically, to produce unique blood within their body, so that certainly allows there to be willing, conscious ones. I feel like Maria would have a huge weight of guilt for failing to convince her that she didn't need to put herself through this.

But things also get soooo much worse around Research Hall, because Maria is associated with the reason why these experiments are a thing to BEGIN with! Yes, evolution is nice and all, but patients are writhing in pain and beg for it to end. That meant Adeline too - not only she mutated horribly and Maria was no longer able to see her beautiful face, but also Adeline is restrained with more belts than any of the other patients, and then additionally restrained to the chair. She must have had it extremely hard if they had to put extra effort in holding her still... My guess is that Adeline was going too rabid when devoid of brain fluid for too long. And Maria had to watch her go through this, mutating physically and forgetting her worth psychologically. But who knows, what if none of that had happened if Maria didn't "help" with Fishing Hamlet? Someone who took her own life over a collective crime strikes me as someone more prone to blame herself, ALL herself, rather than sharing guilt. She did not come after throats of Willem and Gehrman for initiating Fishing Hamlet massacre, despite the fact that the leaders are probably more guilty than the followers, you know...?

I wonder if the real reason Maria went nonverbal with Adeline (Adeline being accustomed to her walking in without a word, Maria giving her the balcony key without explanation since Adeline still thinks it is "a charm" when we meet her) was not shyness but anxiety. Maybe she felt like she didn't even dare to touch her, maybe she was not able to start talking to her without crying - and she needed to hold it back. She wanted to stay strong and worthy of Adeline’s respect, even if she probably didn’t deserve it.... But Adeline deserved someone to admire, rather than the gods that only make people feel small.

I mean, the status imbalance itself is already a very fat hint that they never got official and whatever was there from one or both of them probably lingered in the status of unresolved romantic tension until the end. The fact that Adeline still sees Maria as her superior even as a patient effectively hints that it was still the case back then - so as a Blood Saint, and before that. Basically, the only time in canon they COULD have been in true relationship is during Research Hall events, but I think the setting full of pain, misery, fear, insanity, body horror and death was uhhh... not very favourable for happy fluffy love to bloom. Adeline was going way too caught up into Eldrich truth to care about something as human - an requiring her humanity - as normal relationship, and Maria, the one who would care enough to pull her back, failed to do so at least two times by now.

_______

So yeah, all in all I briefly addressed that mariadeline probably never came to fruition in canon, then I forgot all about it and got sold on happy portrayal of the ship within fandom, but now I am thinking back on it and considering even more nuances. I’ve just grown so used to take this ship as a given that it does feel like a slight crisis to realise that they probably never dated? There is a possibility though; Nightmare features a hunter version of Maria, that she forsaken in “reality”, ie Nightmare dials back into troubled and painful past. So maybe it dialed Adeline back TOO - to her more desperate, tormented state as a patient, when she still wasn’t Maria’s girlfriend too; when in “reality” she DID, in fact, feel better about herself and the women got to be happy witch each other for just brief time... Again, past Adeline already being a mutant. Like, odds are, all stuff depicting mariadeline happy and established when Adeline was a Blood Saint, or before so, or a patient that still looked human is an AU? Because it is not filling blank spaces, but contradicting canon? It is just that... I was not THINKING about it this way much? That so many things we just assume and take without questioning in fiction actually are rather different in reality?

I am probably becoming very old like I said before, but it is even strange how we as fans can look at two characters caring about each other and instantly jump into fluffiest, most shippy interpretation, forgetting the nuances. Like... dear god, this ship has so many underwater rocks (no pun intended).

#bloodborne #mariadeline #saint adeline #lady maria of the astral clocktower #bloodborne headcanons #bloodborne observation #*cries a waterfall and squeezes my clothes soaking wet with my own tears into a bucket* #every single time i analyse this ship it gets more and more sad #again i know recently i sound like an old lady #there are like 0 happy things about these two characters #why their lives have to suck so much...? god #but yeah... similar crisis as when i realised that valtomura actually crashes and burns as far as canon goes #like..... wait this whole time we were dwelling in an AU? #again there is a difference between 'canon never stated it' and 'canon contradicts it' #i am having one crisis after another recently #maria's clothes aren't actually masculine but just practical? micolash fails to deliver spirit of mensis???? #and now 'mariadeline didn't happen in canon'???? #i will soon make an iceberg of this sort of realizations #bloodborne is a fun journey lol #by fun i mean all my blorbos are depressed and there is nothing to smile about in their lives

[night-dragon937]

gods listening to music of artists that i've gone and seen in concert/at raves and just like. reliving the euphoria of the moment when i was there at the live performance like. obviously sitting at my desk with my headphones is not the same as being at a rave or concert but i can kind of capture some of the memory and those good feels are just smth else

#blog post #tw ahead im gonna go on about some dark shit #kind of? idk #like so when i was younger and struggling #by which i mean when i was suicidal from ages 9-18 #one thing i tried when i was 15-18 was making a bucket list and essentially it was stuff i wanted to do before i died because saying #'im at least gonna live to do these things' was SO much easier than saying 'im gonna live the rest of my life' back then #and on that list was going to several concerts (all of which i've done now!!) and like tbh i had my doubts like is a concert good enough #to keep living for (yes) and like what happens after i see these bands in concert (i wait for them to tour again and see them again duh) #(and also see other bands) #and i wish i could go back in time to past us and be like. u were so right. seeing these groups/artists in concert (and the ones i like now #and hadn't heard of back then) is SOO worth it #im so glad i have been alive to go to all the concerts and the rave that i went to in the past year and a half it was so so good #and im so fuckin excited to go to more #there's at least two concerts im planning on going to this spring plus a rave im considering going to (its a three hour drive one way so #idk yet) plus our top favorite band for years is hinting at releasing new music which means a tour!! #im just gettin the feels because im remembering good memories and so fuckin excited to make more good memories #im so glad im alive and honestly that brings tears to my eyes that i can say that totally honestly now #like. i have a cat! i am reconnecting with family i didnt use to be close with! im working on cutting off toxic family! im working on #health issues which is very good. im out as queer and im so happy and proud of that. i have several hyperfixations i love consuming and #cosplaying. cosplaying!! i have so much fun making tiktoks and going to cons and putting everything together its so great!! im starting to #work on my big huge writing project with my coauthors for the first time in years and im soooo excited to revive that old hyperfixation and #share it!! i have an awesome partner who i care very much about and while i recently cut off some toxic friends i have plenty actual #friends that im so glad to have!! #im currently at a job that pays well and that i enjoy which is a win for me and i might possibly be in a position to go back to college #soon which means going into my preferred field which im SO stoked for!! and im actually really excited to go back to college. when we were #in person i had such a great experience and i cant wait to go back #ough

[headphonemouse]

#i am thinking about thimbles again #having a thimble was on my bucket list #but the thimble wasnt important. it was the situation leading up to owning a thimble. of having clothes that were too loved to be discarded #of having the skill and time to fix things. to mend tears and make things new #of having someone to mend clothes for because i loved them #at one point i was gifted a thimble because i mentioned it was on my bucket list. but the situation wasnt right and it secretly upset me #instead of throwing it away i just kept it. stored it and tried to forget about it #years later i lived with a friend. they brought me food and clothes to mend #the food was payment for my services‚ they said #while mending the clothes i remembered the thimble. i didnt have it with me. but i had everything else #and now it seems like i have none of that #and i can't? won't? don't know how? don't know if im allowed to fix it #i just hope i can store it away and try to forget about it #art tag

[natsinvires]

Superstar Saga is gonna make me cry…

Man, I was on the Hermie III boss fight and well, the whole time I was spamming him with bros. attacks, but my god it was taking forever because every single time he goes back in his damn shell, he heals. I’ve been sick of fighting him that I just HAD to search up a tutorial, and you know what I saw??? All they said was to just use Mario’s default hand attack to burn his decorations so that he never heals….. 30 minutes of fighting and I just shut the software and powered off my 3DS….. welp imma go cry in my bed, peace ✌️

#superstar saga #mario and luigi superstar saga #mario and luigi series #man just kill me- #pouring buckets of tears #just wasted half an hour of my life #video games am i right?

[bettycanavosio]

when i tell u ive had that board saved since chapter 2…. also hope your exam goes well!! <33

DON’T DO THIS TO ME….. from the very beginning i was so scared bc of canon and as i’ve gotten more attached the more i’ve become scared. ready for my heart to be ripped out at this point

#read bad moon rising for good health #or a bucket of tears. i’ll update you #ALSO thank you!!! i hope it goes well too but i am yet to prepare for it #a* #han

[witherbythesword]

i swear with every application i have to write my brain gets more derranged. Not only does it feel like the psychological equivalent of pushing my brain over a cheese grater it also worsens all of my pre-existing issues which are plenty :)

#personaltext #application processes make me feel like human garbage 👍 #wheel me out to the curb for trash day #I am doing so good #this is where I'd put my bucket full of tears #if i wasn't emotionally so repressed that I am unable to cry #instead of crying i just feel like going crazy #noice

[5tupidusrnam3]

Fear

thing I made in the middle of the night some days ago

What the text says under the read more thing

hello I am a worm bucket

hello

(AAAAAAAAAAAA) ok I’m not welcome I’m leaving (AAAAAAA)

I also have scoleciphobia

#I have a phobia of snails and if a snail ever crawled on me I would break down into tears and panic and cry and I would also panic and I w #so this is the most horrifying joke I have ever made in the history of ever #I just imagined being a snail bucket and I could feel them on me and it’s horrifying why do I feel it what #anyways this is a post about a phobia of worms not snails and I’m talking in the tags because I am sick and that is my reason #scoleciphobia #Stupid stupid post stupid stupidest post stupid STUPID POST this is a stupid post tag #Osc

[madness-of-void]

So my dog Cookie likes my room. She's in it often. My room is her safe space when people come over, and she wants to hide. Welp...today she has now been banned from my room. Because, for the first time ever, she decided to say "fuck you" and took this plushie of Nightmare I bought from a plushie maker, and use him as a chew toy. I'm shocked that he isn't completely ruined! And I say "completely" coz she tore up one side of his hoodie pretty damn good, and she nibbled on the hood. Shocked the shorts were fine coz she took them off his body. Shocked the tentacles survived. Shocked ANYTHING survived.

Now I have a pretty expensive plush (coz making these bastards by hand are not cheap and never should be) that's semi ruined. *sigh* And now I know why Cookie was hiding and looking at me with guilt.

#life crap #void talks #nic talks #i am upset #luckily it wasn't a day where i had been beaten down emotionally at work #coz I'd bawl buckets of tears otherwise #but I'm still upset #my poor goopy boi #she's never done this either #she knows the difference between her toys and the stuffies my sib and i have #so i have zero idea why she decided that today she would fuck up one of mine #😭😭😭 #banned from my room forever coz now i can't trust her in here anymore #*sigh* #okay done rambling #moving on to the regular scheduled stupid shit

[exu--lan--sis]

Thank you for such an amazing birthday. It was so nice to see you getting excited about it, when between the two of us, it's usually me who's excited about stuff. I didn't think I could feel happy because I never do on my birthday, and on top of that I knew you would be gone in a week. Plus, we both knew I'd be tired after classes. And you knew me well enough to know I wouldn't be happy if you pushed me to do anything. But when you told me everyone was telling you to do something after my classes, I felt excited. Because it's not like I ever have a bad time with you, birthday or not. It was so sweet of you to wait, even though you were tired and stressed out. I had no idea what you had planned, and then you said we'll go to La Delicia because they have a really good blueberry cheesecake. Because I must have cake on my birthday. And my mind just went like "You remembered!" While we ate, you suggested we go to Chillox for their fish tots, and added that even though I don't like fish, I'll like this. And you weren't wrong, because I did. And you still weren't done. You wanted us to go visit a pizza place you had heard about called Digger. I was so stuffed and didn't think I could eat anymore but you just said 'No we'll go all out. It's your birthday.' It made me feel so happy seeing you so happy about my day, I agreed. We had pizza which wasn't great but I did get more time with you which is the most important thing.

You told me later that while I was in class, you looked up the best places we could go to within a short time and came up with this plan. It was so spontaneous and out of the blue, and also so short but I loved every moment of it. Earlier you had said we would go for lunch the next day as we would both have time, and we did do that, but this little adventure meant everything to me. And I can't believe that just a week later, I am thinking back to how we were waiting for pizza at this time, and today I am waiting to see you off at the airport. It's safe to say I am not okay. But thank you again. Best birthday I have had in years, but I am not surprised. Anything I did with you turned out to be the best.

#personal #i am a bucket spilling over with tears #i miss you already #peepee #</3

[returntotheground]

we found a town with lower priced homes for the area ($300k-$500k range) and a still decent school system and just overall looks like a nice place to live

aaannnnddd in the last few weeks a bunch of developers have moved in and torn down several small homes and are advertising $850k-ish monstrosities once construction is complete and it's looking like they're planning to essentially take over the entire town

we need to burn this system to the ground RIGHT now i swear to fucking god

#i am LIVID #WHERE ARE WE SUPPOSED TO LIVE HUH??? HOW IS THIS SUPPOSED TO WORK #like it's kinda far from any jobs but it was in a price range we could afford in a year or 2 once i get a job again so whatever #you make do right? except APPARENTLY NOT bc these stupid fucking companies are already moving in and wrecking it #apparently the rich are the only ones supposed to own the rest of us are supposed to either pay buckets of rent or end up on the streets #god i'm so angry #i'm so tired of this shit i want the housing market to fucking collapse so hard that no one treats property as an ''investment''' ever agai #also it should be illegal to tear down perfectly fine small cheap homes to build giant mcmansion bullshit #buy empty lots or fuck off i hate that i'm competing with downsizing boomers for our first fucking home while ''inventory'' shrinks #and if i get a single message trying to explain how it's ok bc free market and economics i will find you and i will light your home on fire #free market your way out of that bitch

[rahhhbananas]

✭ ✭ ✭ 𝐌𝐘 𝐒𝐎𝐍 ✭ ✭ ✭ ft. a lot of characters

summary. Y/n is very protective of his son (aka Spider Plush).

warning(s). He/Him pronouns, foul language, Hobie is a major bully

a/n. Y/n and Spider-Plush are the new Miguel and Lego Spider-Man

“He is a person! And you will treat him that way!”

The voice of Y/n welcomed the newly woken society. It was around 7 am, and a commotion had begun in Miguel’s office. As the sun lazily illuminated the sky, Miles groggily made his way towards Miguel's office, attempting to rub the sleep from his eyes. He couldn't fathom why there was such a commotion at this early hour. "Why is there so much yelling? It's 7 in the morning...!" he groaned, his voice laced with exhaustion. Miles walked through the door, greeting Gwen and Peter B. who were watching the scene amused. Miles looked to see Y/n in a heated debate with both Miguel and Hobie, although it was mostly Hobie, Miguel was sitting down, trying to sooth an incoming migraine.

Pavitr stood at Y/n’s side, cradling a….Spider-Man…plushie? “What is going on here..” Miles who was now wide awake stared at the situation, looking at Gwen for answers. Gwen responded with a chuckle “Get this…their arguing because Hobie skipped Spider-Plush in line for breakfast.” Gwen managed to say between fits of laughter. Miles gave Gwen a look “So, he doesn’t believe in consistency and he doesn’t believe in manners?” Miles watched Y/n, who looked like he was on the brink of committing murder, due to Hobie’s nonchalant face. Peter chimed in, catching a swinging Mayday “I don’t think he did it to be rude. Maybe because he likes getting on Y/n’s nerves,”

Jess who just walked in looked at Peter, “This early morning air finally gave you a brain?” She walked towards Miguel, handing him water and probably a headache pill. Miguel thanked Jess, looking up at the continuing argument. “Yeah..and how did Pavitr get into all this?” Miles questioned, Gwen laughed, for what seemed to be the 4th time “That’s even funnier! He’s trying to take Hobie to court,” Miles smiled, seeing the obvious amusement in the situation “Yeah, somehow he’s got a diploma in that stuff.” Jess chimed in from the computer.

“That’s not the fucking point, Hobart! My son deserves respect! You’ve made him cry!” Y/n gestures to the “crying” plushie, and Pavitr who’s nodding in agreement. Hobie scoffed “Cryin? He’s got a tear sticker on ‘is face! You’ve got yourself fooled!”. This was Miguel’s last straw, he finally flipped the table, literally, sending everything flying— including the cup of water, that Spider-Plush was now drowned in. Gasp filled the small crowd, the laughter coming to a halt to stare at Y/n who was breathing heavily, trying to calm down.

Y/n slowly turned, looking at the soaked Spider-Plush. The plush squeaked, comical tears spewing from its large eyes. Y/n turned to Miguel and Hobie— the latter raised his hands, in a attempt to prove his innocence, he instead pointed to the leader who sported a small bead of sweat, his posture straightened “Umm, that was an accident- I was trying to de-escalate the situation. My anger over took…” Y/n pounced on Miguel, not letting him finish his sentence. Miguel tried to pull the other off his face, stumbling around while knocking things over.

“I-it was an accident!”

“YOU HORRIBLE PERSON!”

“GAAH! WHERE DID THESE CLAWS COME FROM?”

“DON’T….WORRY ABOUT IT!”

“JESSGETHIMOFFME!”

“Sorry, Miguel. I’m not getting into this fight.”

“APOLOGIZE OR SUFFER!”

“AHHHH!”

The crowd watched in silence as Miguel walked out with a bucket on his head, drenched in water. Y/n, on the other hand, walked out cradling his son, the plush wrapped in a towel, Y/n cooed trying to calm down the squeaks emitting from the plushie. Y/n walks up to the group, staring directly at Hobie “Hobart. My lawyer will contact you.” Y/n pointed to Pavitr, and somehow the teen was in a suit. Hobie chuckled, “Fair enough.” Hobie looked at Gwen “Gwendy. Ya down to be my lawyer?” Gwen shook her head “Nope, your not dragging me into this.” Hobie sighed in defeat “Alrigh’ Miles, see ya in a suit on Tuesday.” Hobie shook said boys shoulders, before running off, leaving the boy no time to complain.

Y/n looked at his boyfriend, tutting his head “Fine. Miles. You wanna play that game? Helping my enemy!” Y/n groaned, pulling shades from seemingly nowhere, while also putting them on “I want my child support by Friday,” Y/n said, striding away, Pavitr shuffling after him, the stuff suit preventing him from running.

Meanwhile, Miles stood shocked “Child support? Wha…what is he talking about!” Gwen shook her head disapprovingly “Come on Miles, don’t play dumb, take responsibility.” She advised before departing, leaving Peter who shook his head as well “Don’t worry kid, we’ve all been there..” Peter smiles, before joining the rest.

“Wha- what are you guys talking about!”

#male reader #cute #gay #across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse x reader #miles molares #across the spiderverse x male reader #miles morales x male reader #hobie brown x male reader #gwen stacy #pavitr prabhakar #black male reader #marvel #miguel o’hara #peter b parker #maydayverse #spider plush #my son my son you are my shining sun #into the spider verse #into the spiderverse x male reader #viral #i love him #the plush #marvel x male reader #atsv x male reader