#life crap

[madness-of-void]

Time for the ultimate binge watch session!

#life crap #void talks #nic talks #just watching the previews is like a blast of nostalgia already #“now on dvd and vhs” *wheeze* #THERE IS EVEN THE OG SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS WITH JIM FUCKING CARREY #*wheeeeeeze*

[colourmeastonished]

Body swap movie where one of them has invisible disabilities and when the other one lands in their body they immediately collapse catatonic on the floor from the pain and fatigue and the first one is like 'oh damn guess I don't have to worry that I'm faking it anymore'

#i have this fantasy of one my able bodied friends and or coworkers occupying my body for like an hour #just to get a real sense of how much i am truly weathering hellfire every day of my life #sometimes i take stock and im like holy crap ive gotten so used to so much #im a frog in a pot and ive convinced myself the bubbling is just fun ambience #my thoughts #invisible disability #chronic illness #chronic pain

[hislittleraincloud]

Blood Draw with a Cute Mexican Daddy 🌯 🌮💦

To the best of my recollection, as I'd gone into the City (S.F....I live where Enid lives) for bloodwork before I catch up with my specialist today. BG: I hate the incompetence of this clinic, but as a Poor, I must go there. It's LGBTQ+ friendly and is known for its 🏳️‍⚧️ care. I hadn't had this phlebotomist before, though. I was thinking of working it into Afterburn, but I'll do something else that's similar. This one tickled me.

Me: This time you guys need to get what you need to get from me in this one shot. Last time you asked me to come in for a similar thing, I sat here and made sure that the nurses double checked the list of needs, and they still called me the next day saying that they forgot something. I cannot come into this clinic or anywhere where my immunocompromised ass can get sick and die from COVID.

Funky Cold*: Uh...okay. I get you, I've got all that the doctor asked for right here.

Me: *notes his several tubes* That's why I wear my mask and goggles everywhere. *notes his mask is pulled over his chin* But I do like to be able to see your beard.

FC: *instantly blushes* Thanks...*proceeds to try and find a vein on my right arm and is failing*

Me: Did you want to try my left arm? It's where I usually get it drawn from. The vein is easier to see.

FC: Yeah, sure. *I could tell he felt like a bit of a failure...but he was still grinning and bright*

Me: *unsheaths left arm from jacket and puts it on the armrest* Hold on a sec, let me help you. *PROCEEDS TO SMACK THE EVERLOVING SHIT OUT OF THE CROOK OF ARM, HARD*

FC: *looks shocked but nervously so* Whoa!

Me: It's fine. Do you need me to do it some more?

FC: NO... *sees that it's red and doesn't know what to say*

Me: Are you sure? I like pain.

FC: *is shaking his head and getting ready to insert his needle* Tell me something, though: Is it raining outside?

Me: Unfortunately no.

FC: ...Unfortunately???

Me: I love the rain.

FC: Yeah, but that means I'd have to take an Uber.

Me: *ttly confused since it seems like it would be more dangerous to take a stranger's car than BART*

FC: *delays the pricking, proceeds to tell me about how taking an Uber instead of walking to BART if it was raining would spare him from getting drenched*

Me: Huh. I guess that's fine if you don't like to get wet. You sure you don't need me to hit it some more? I should let you hit it...*quieter* Smack...oo Daddy, gimme more.

FC: No, you're good, heh... *has a real nervous grin on his face as he sticks it in and fills tube after tube as I just stare at his beard and talk more about why I just can't come in as often as I used to*...*finishes up and pulls it out (odd, because usually the phlebotomist will just hit the spring to retract), almost jumps up with a grin, huffs*

Me: What?

FC: *pinked, huge nervous grin, chuckling* Nothing, you're just the first one all day who's gotten me all...WOO! *more chuckling*

Me: I tend to have that effect on people.

*Gen X will get this ref, and the poor man's last name is the rest of the song title (I think, I had trouble reading his name badge because of my poor eyesight/goggles...plus his name badge was on his belt and he probably thought i was looking at his 🍆).

#this was also at the very end of the day for the clinic because i came in hella late #he kinda looked like Jenna Ortega's dad LOL #i guess i really am just trans afterburn wednesday #lol #off topic #sort of #life crap #phlebotomists #blood draw #use your imagination to think about how it was like before i transitioned #👹🔥

[thelatestininsomniacs]

I couldn't make it to my dad's 70th birthday surprise party, because money is super tight, especially with 2 shifts a week and a dental bill of about 3K$ and one more appointment to go. I know it sounds like excuses but I don't have savings to dip in. My step-mother didn't even invite me to the fb group, my sister did after she inquired if I knew about it. I was going to post about trying when I was invited by her, but I saw that it was created a month earlier. Even though they might suspect that I wouldn't be able to attend, but at least I would have been aware of it to try to make plans; I might have been able to at least try before the whole dental thing happened.

So the day fell on one of my work nights. The party wouldn't start till the evening, so it gives me a chance to call during my break. I tried to do a facetime call, when he finally answered, no visual from him. He moved to a quieter place. I wished an advance birthday and all that and apologized that I couldn't make it and that I would call him again on his actual birthday. That's when I heard laughter from him and a few others, so it made me regret that I even called. I want to give the benefit of the doubt that it was happenstance of a comment at the party, but maybe it's because I was in a mask and uniform on screen. I tried another conversation, another set of laughter where I said nothing funny. I had more time that I could chat, but I wanted to hang up before I got upset. So I said that my break was over. The laughter made me think of past scenarios where I would hear my step-mother comment condescendingly but in a humorous tone. ie: "Oh that Insomniac, it's too bad that her work wouldn't let her book off. Ha ha!" Sometimes it's from another family member from that side. I feel like a fucking idiot. Why did I even bother to try? I should've just sent a text apologizing for the missed event and another one on his birthday, today. I keep trying and trying and trying, and I should've just continued to do as I started a few years, do the bare minimum as he had done. But no, I had to make an exception for a milestone birthday. That is more than what he did for mine. He tried to contact me at 8pm. A full day has passed. Although he posted on his page, wasn't able to tag me for some reason, wishing me a happy bday. I laughed about it and continued my night hanging out with the Roomie. They come down here for hockey and baseball games often and sometimes they contact me to find out if I'm available the day before (not enough time to make plans), if not I find out by a fb post that they were in town.

Yes. I'm bitter. I've ranted about him before. I'm trying hard to leave this energy. It does not serve me in the slightest!

I'm still going to give him a call because I promised. I hate that I have to be the better person. The empathy. All of it. And I'm angry at myself for it.

#insomniac rants #life crap #family crap

[fairycosmos]

sometimes a woman has to serve the same look 4 times a week because shes emotionally distraught and that's alright

#im once again wearing flowy pinkish gold maxi dress for beccas celebration of life birthday meal later and i look #like crap but none of that is the point

[screwpinecaprice]

Just a silly guy, with silly silly thoughts.

@glowweek Day 2

Casual | Surprise

A casual surprise?😬😬😬

#Hooooo boiii this lad is about to get funky. #He was internally screaming the whole time. #It's in my core memory as a connverse fan. I'm never truly going to let this up I believe. haha #Our boy really one day went out there wanting to get married as a teen like a true classic Disney princess. 😭 #It was honestly endearing but sad and also pretty embarrassing. 😔 #Secondhand embarrassment aside. Steven is pretty much lucky in the romance department. Which. Deserved by the way. With all the other #crap he had to deal with. #connverse #Steven Quartz Universe #Connie Maheswaran #SU #my shiz #comic #SU comic #glowweek #connverse week #I have no idea if whatever Connie is spouting are actuallt true in real life. Good thing this can be chalked off as just a thing in their #fictional world. #Also I'm glad part of that was covered by Connie's body because I had to take a few notes from chat GPT to add in her enumerated rambling. #I had to make the glow bracelet float like that because I couldn't draw his hand holding it quiet right in that angle. #And yea that size difference is no error. That's how small Connie's wrist is compared to his hands. Or at least something like that. #teal

[fluffyartbl0g]

The one piece reread only makes the hardest moments hit even harder,,,, even when you’re rereading it poorly in portugese

Or AKA, i found out today that HINATA SHOYO reads one piece and I haven’t recovered since

#one piece #haikyuu #hinata shoyo #roronoa zoro #(kinda) #omfg okay time for my entirely SEPERATE POST IN THE TAGS #i only got into one piece at the end of last year... but ive been in the anime and manga scene for like. my entire life #i cannot understate how WILD it is that I havent noticed how everywhere one piece is.... #like once i read it... i started finding it EVERYWHERE #my sister gifted me an issue of shonen jump ages ago cause i liked act age and kimetsu no yaiba chainsaw man promised neverland etc #and it doesnt have like a one piece chapter in it actually (to my disappointment) #but IT DOES HAVE A LIL ADVERTISING SEGMENT AT THE FRONT TALKING ABOUT OKIKU FIGURINES AND OTHER ONE PIECE CRAP #AND IDK IT LITERALLY JUST BLEW MY MIND #ONE PIECE DIDNT EXIST IN MY LIFE BUT.... IT DID???? #I HAD ONE PIECE MERCH BEFORE I EVEN BECAME OBSESSED WITH IT??? (hahah if you can consider a tiny segment mentioning okiku op merch XD) #just imagine suddenly being obsessed with a piece of media. and then you look around ur room and U SUDDENLY RECOGNISE A CHARACTER MERCH??? #ITS BEEN IN UR ROOM FOR YEARS BUT YOUVE NEVER REALLY EVEN NOTICED IT OR JUST BRUSHED IT OFF WHENEVR U SAW IT #BUT ITS THAT CHARACTER!!!! ITS THAT MEDIA THAT UR MADLY IN LOVE WITH???? #also im being 100 percent legit when i say that the sense of comeraderie i feel when someone says theyve ALSO read one piece #is insane #discovering that domics and worthiikids and all these other big youtubers that ive known for years have loved one piece like me? #it makes my heart clench and my eyes water man #ive never felt so connected to the world... one piece really is peak fiction..... #i love one piece's community sm....

[youre-dreaming-302]

Thankyou for 12,000 followers, you are all so cool and have great taste.

#hope you are all doing well #I’ve been super busy but I will be more active soon #but life is long and crap #love you all so much #followers #y2k #y2k aesthetic #y2k style #y2k nostalgia #y2k icons #2000s web #old web #2000s #early 2000s #2000s internet #my ai art

[lostmf]

#sadnees #tw depressing thoughts #i'm sad #depressing shit #childhood trauma #childhood #depressing life #struggling mentally #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #mentally exhausted #tw self destructive behavior #tw self destruction #tw depressing stuff #artists on tumblr #tumblr draw #sads crap #i need therapy #i want to be loved #love me plz #i’m crying #kinda depressing #sorry for being depressing #life shit #i’m useless #crying child #childhood truama #hold me #mental illness #mental problems

[shummthechumm]

WE OUTSIDE

dedication under the cut:

i originally started this just a few days before janice burgess passed away. if you have been following me for a while, you'd know that the backyardigans is still one of my all time favorite shows to this day: a major brainworm ive had since i was first popped out the womb.

she had such a huge hand in me and my siblings childhoods outside of backyardigans, as well, and i cant understate how much it means to me to see a black woman have such a major role in various popular animated franchises.

RIP to one of my greatest animation inspos, ESPECIALLY when it comes to children's entertainment. the fact that mrs. burgess passed on the day before my birthday hurts especially, so i dedicate this drawing to her! i would not be who i am w/o these goobers, so thank you

#RIP Janice Burgess #the backyardigans #backyardigans #uniqua #pablo backyardigans #austin backyardigans #tasha backyardigans #tyrone backyardigans #this and akira's passing leading up to my bday really hurt my soul #literally one of the post impactful series in my life. #it literally help lay the foundation for little old preschool me + its fun as hell to revisit #shumm's art #medibang paint pro #medibang #digital art #artists on tumblr #nick jr #noggin #2000s nostalgia #and this show turns 20 in august??? holy crap. #now i HAVE to make a video #backyardigans redesign #? i suppose #i didnt want to change too much but you can tell the designs were simplified specifically because its early 2000s cgi #screenshot redraw

[mintytealfox]

Whenever I get approval from Astarion it tends to be after something absolutely ridiculous my bard has done or said. SO, I just picture him far in the back just:

He is living his best life just munching the vampire equivalent of popcorn and watching her go looool

#astarion #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #minty musings #he is having the time of his life with my bard holy crap loooool #bg3 astarion

[madness-of-void]

You know shit has been rough for a fucking while when suddenly things are going pretty good...and you're waiting for the other shoe to drop

#life crap #void talks #nic talks #like...no way things are looking up this great...right? #no way this is gonna last...right?

[prideprejudce]

AU Reds Poster: Alicent joins Rhaenrya as her advisor and wife after escaping her father's influence.

She escapes Kings Landing with Helaena and her grandchildren just in time. Unfortunately, her father has already sunk his teeth into her two sons who are ready to fight for their right to the iron throne. How will Alicent choose between her family and her beloved Rhaenyra when the time comes?

#alicent hightower #rhaenyra targaryen #alicent x rhaenyra #rhaenicent #rhaenyra x alicent #house of the dragon #hotd season 2 #im sorry the posters just looked so good next to each other and alicent looks like she's gazing at rhaenyra with worry #basically alicent had an epiphany after viserys died (him screaming about the chosen one crap didn't happen) #but her father already had the ball and floor moving for the crown and to overthrow rhaenyra #and alicent had a dream or prophecy that told her that the greens would destroy the entire kingdom and her family including their lineage #she tried to convince aegon to leave with her too but he was already drunk on power and not listening to her anymore #so she goes to find rhaenyra to play peacemaker and diplomat and reluctantly joins team red #but then aemond kills luke and things go to shit #helaena is then betrothed to jace to protect both her and her grandchildren #and she basically serves as rhaenyra's conscious and calm to her storm through the war #in the end daemon gets exiled after killing aemond and betraying rhaenyra's orders #otto is killed for treason and aegon forfeits the crown for his life #jace and helaena rule after rhaenyra one day passes and wives live happy together #it makes sense because I say it makes sense

[thelatestininsomniacs]

I had thought that January was the bad days. I knew that it was too quiet/good this year. Every day I'm half expecting something bad to go/bad news. Every text or messages, I'm expecting the worst, bringing me back to solidify my wall; especially with the past month and recent events. Anxiety has gone back to 11. I'm sleeping most of my days off, but I don't feel rested. I'm hoping to be rested enough for the holiday + Avatar2 opening beginning next week.

Came across my feelings. XD

My roomie has some rotten luck/happenstance at work, but slowly getting it fixed/done. I hope that my bad luck hasn't rubbed off on her. 😅

Might as well post this now in anticipation for the next event. November, you were not fun. And December, don't even think about it. You both can't be the new January betch!

Also Monday I'll be spending my day at work, cause the apt building's bi-annual bug spraying is happening on our level and obviously we can't be home. My shift starts at a weird time, so I'm hoping I can at least do one movie before my shift.

#life crap #insomniac screams #anxiety #BLJanuary is super early this year

[feelingtheaster99]

I absolutely fucking love bard class for Fabian. Like he is just able to express himself so beautifully and Ms. Skullcleaver obviously already cares so much about him and his well-being

#dimension 20 #d20 #finally an adult in his life that doesn’t view him as already an adult #and gives a crap about his well-being #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fhjy ep 3 #fhjy spoilers #fabian seacaster #fabian aramais seacaster #not all who wanda are lost spoilers #not all who wanda are lost #live reaction

[murasaki-cha]

Arnod siR-

sIR-

#arnold you whor- #my heart holy crap!! #arnold hein #7th time loop #the 7th time loop #rishe irmgard weitzner #rishe imgard wertsner #7th Time Loop: The Villainess Enjoys a Carefree Life Married to Her Worst Enemy #light novel