#i cant fucking stand it

[lalloronaa]

why can't I just be good enough for you???

#bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline culture is #bpd #i cant fucking stand it

[anawkwardlady]

I bought a sweater but I forgot to check whether it was itchy or not.....

ITS ITCHY........

#my mom can put wool sweaters on without anything under the sleeves idk how she does it #i cant fucking stand it #nana is posting #cupbreak

[kryptonian-tree]

im gonna need to start looking for places as soon as i graduate uni cuz i do not want to be in my mothers house another summer

#kryptonian babbles #i hate being around her cus all we do is argue #i cant fucking stand it #every 3rd conversation turns into something #uhhhhggggggg #i’ll my friend how she got her place and figure something out #defo need to get a job during next summer to save up some money

[louser441]

actually gonna blow my brains out, woke up to loud ass music after sleeping like shit, managed to crawl outta bed to have a shower which i spent most of it crying cause kimiya dawson came on, then the moment i get out my aunt and uncle are fucking screaming and slaming shit. at this point i dont know why you stay together if you are this unhappy. go to text my mom and shes having issues with her ex AGAIN

fuck my life all this before noon and i have to prepare for my class?

i should cut but im running out of space on my left thigh and i need at least one of them clean so i can keep wearing my tights and shorts

might just cut over the ones scabbing over, they bleed alot more than i thought they would before

#441 #vent #self h@rm #sui mention #i cant fucking stand it #im tired #and its loud #it calmed down now but fuck man #one morning #one moring where everything doesnt go to shit within the first hour i wake up

[spottedbread]

I CANT FUCKING STAND BEING AFAB

#I CANT FUCKING STAND IT #I CANT STAND YHIS SHIT #I CANT STAND ANY OF THIS SHIT ANYMORE #THIS IS JUST THE FINAL STRAW FOR ME TODAY #IM GOING TO FUCKING AHAVANAVANVAAJVAAJCAAJ

[araneapeixes]

Uh Oh....the ladies have entered their 4th pint stage

#GUYS HELPP ive been looking at this too long i cant tell anymore if its even good #as usual i kinda like the sketch better ripppppp but it was nice to finish something #anyways my previous point still stands: whoever wins does get to fuck shadowheart in the bathroom #some details i want ppl to notice: lae'zels dogtags and army pants #karlachs cigarette pack sleeve. bc shes a handsome guy:) #also astarions cunty earring anddd i replaced shaddys hair accessory with a punky spikey one #and ummm my Tav is wearing a rainbow bracelet:) bc theyre gay #bg3 #bg3 fanart #baldur's gate 3 #astarion #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #wyll ravengard #bg3 wyll #lae'zel #karlach #karlach cliffgate #shadowheart #bg3 tav #ren #tadfools #the tadfools #i rly think i fucked up laezels face shape but by the time i realised it was too late #wow mayb ill use a ref next time?? whaaaat??

[ispyspookymansion]

#the only new flags should have slurs directly on them i think so they cant be coopted. or just like. gay porn. on the flag. #kora.txt #i stand by thats tag but this post is a fucking nightmare youre all so annoying. this is what i mean

[katabay]

PERCEVAL THE UNHAPPY, THE MISERABLE, THE UNFORTUNATE, THE FISHER KING!

Perceval, de Troyes (trans. Burton Raffel)

ALRIGHT alright. so previously I did an illustration that explained the premise of all this, that it's inspired by the narrative choices that Bresson made in his film Lancelot du Lac etc

to dive in more into it (because this is something like derivative fiction. I'm putting concepts into a blender and seeing what comes out of it): the setting is haunted by the previously existing narratives that started cannibalizing each other until it regurgitates itself into the more well known narrative beats, and something else about the invasive rot of christianity and empire mythmaking into settings. it's an intertextual haunting, if you will! and this scene takes place during the grail quest narrative, but the temptation of Perceval plays out differently.

in both Chretien (and Wolfram's) Perceval narratives, what 'wakes' Perceval up (in more ways than one. desire and self actualization in one go!) is seeing knights, something his mother tried hard to keep him from. so instead of the temptation of lust & etc in the Morte narrative taking the form of a lady, it takes the form of a knight. the temptation to renounce one's faith to serve something else remains.

so Perceval still stabs himself, but instead of continuing on the grail quest in the shadow of Galahad, he becomes the narrative's Fisher King because his earlier state of being as a the grail quest hero is creeping back into his marrow. it was waiting for an opening, and stabbing yourself in the thigh is one hell of a parallel!!!

that wound isn't going to heal buddy, and the state of the setting will now be reflected on your body. sure hope that Arthur hasn't like. corrupted the justice of the land or anything. that sure would suck for your overall health.

all the red in this sequence is because in de Troyes' Perceval, Perceval takes the armor of the Red Knight and becomes known as the Knight in Red.

and now for the citations, which I will try to order in a way that makes sense!

Seeing Knights For The First Time

Perceval, de Troyes (trans. Burton Raffel)

The Temptation of Perceval

Le Morte Darthur, Mallory (modernized by Baines)

The Fisher King, and Perceval The Unfortunate

Perceval, de Troyes (trans. Burton Raffel)

On Perceval and Gender, etc.

Clothes Make The Man: Parzival Dressed and Undressed, Michael D. Amey

On Wounds

Wounded Masculinity: Injury and Gender in Sir Thomas Malory's Le Morte Darthur, Kenneth Hodges

The Red Knight

Perceval, de Troyes (trans. Burton Raffel)

On Arthur and the Corruption of Justice

The Failure of Justice, the Failure of Arthur, L.K. Bedwell

#long post #GOD IS IT A LONG POST #i am so so sorry for that. #knights knights knights! #komiks tag #blood cw #if it wasn't clear: i dislike galahad so much. he represents so much i cant stand and worst of all he ROBBED MY MAN #OF HIS NARRATIVE #but like. what's christianity but theft acting uwu innocent about all the shit they did tbqh #fucking. la croix jesus christ over here. #sir perceval

[glfry]

Can we agree that the "Thats two things" line from Mike was autistic as shit

#i love how William very clearly thinks he’s trying to play smart or something but. no he’s just like that #in general hes sooooo autistic. Same goes to Abby. #when aunt Jane noted how abbys meltdowns reminded her of mike I was cheering in my fucking seat #SO autism #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy's #Fnaf #five nights at Freddy’s movie #Mike Schmidt #can’t wait till this movie comes out anywhere that isn’t peacock. please I wanna watch it again but peacock doesn’t even have a free trial #also Just his general anti socialness??????? hello? #the way he just. walks off during the pharmacy scene #or the way he basically ignores max CANNOT be neurotypical #also with the former that his stand-offish nature is seen as rude #ALSO near the beginning of the movie where he tells his coworker about the dream theory- #-and he completely avoids eye contact and just fiddles with his Walkie-Talkie #like that cant be nt behavior

[erzvolnes]

playing dredge. sailing around at night. see another ship on the water blaring its horn and beelining at me. think wtf and start heading back to the dock bc im not prepared for whatever this interaction is gonna be. the ship is much faster than me but thats ok, im pretty close to shore.

ship gets within viewing distance. the horn sounds kinda off. the lights in the windows don't look much like windows any more. there's a weird and distinctly un-ship-like shape under the water.

it's not a fucking boat. it's a fish pretending to be a boat. a big fucking fish chasing after me trying to trick me into thinking it's a fellow fisherman. when i get into range of the dock it shies away from the light and darts back underwater so fast it's like it was never there. i close the fucking game and never open it again.

#I CANT STAND THIS SHIT I HATE SCARY GAME THAT CHASES ME IN THE DARK #I THOUGHT IT WAS ANOHTER SHIP I THOUHGHT IT WAS A CHARACTER WHO WANTED TO TRADE OR SOMETHIN #BUT NO ITS A FUCKING. BIG BEAST. PRETENDING TO BE SOMETHING ITS NOT #dredge #god. #its time for bed i cant take this any more

[p4nishers]

i can't fucking BELIEVE the only fucking time nandor is the smartest person in the room is when it comes to GUILLERMO like that's such a fucking deliberate choice to make with his character and im fucking SICK over it

#i hate them so fucking much guys i genuinely cant stand them #wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandermo

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

#pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #Percy shows up at CJ and squints at Nico like ''hm. why do i feel like i hate you? like i just wanna punch you in the face?'' #and Nico just immediately goes ''huh no idea anyways i have to go-'' and jumps into Tartarus #but not before he gives Hazel essentially a detailed explanation of ''this is Percy i cant say much but please dont let him die <3'' #and Nico's whole Tartarus trip was basically a whole ''im doing this so no one else has to'' #only for Percy and Annabeth to fall in like one book later and Nico proceeds to spend the next book internally screaming about it #and then Cupid calls him out on it and the next book #Nico's just like ''at this point im hoping i keel over within the next week just so i can force this dumb crush to chill the fuck out'' #Nico staring pointedly at Will: ''For my own sake i need to form another crush RIGHT NOW so i can finally get over Percy.'' #''this has been so bad for my health'' #Nico's crush on Percy is just too funny to me. horrible pick my guy. terrible job. love that for you. he could not be less interested. #Percy LITERALLY TRIES TO KILL NICO and ditch him in the underworld and Nico is somehow STILL like ''but i love him'' #Percy basically chokes him. beats up his dad. tells him ''go get smited by your dad for me.'' and ditches him. #and Nico's opinions/crush on him DO NOT CHANGE #though also Nico's reaction to Percy beating up his dad + skeletons is SO funny. his jaw is on the floor. he's flustered about it. #he just witnessed Percy be incredibly hot and proceeded to go ''yea i'll do anything for this man. collect reinforcements of 3 gods? sure'' #nico you absolute DISASTER with HORRIBLE TASTE. you can do better. raise your standards. #which tbh is funnier when you factor in sun and the star. Nico just wont stop crushing on guys who dislike him and everything he stands for

[punkkboyyluvrr]

not to be strange and abnormal on main but yo can we talk about this. the unwavering gaze that lasts... suspiciously long. the small chuckle that turns into a shy grin. the fact that this is the softest and most wholesome we see david look in the entire movie. this man is head over HEELS for michael are you fucking kidding me. this is not a "boy oh boy i cant wait to manipulate this dude into becoming a vampire with me and my buds" look, this is a "oh holy shit this is the cutest guy ive ever seen i need to hold my composure and act like a totally cool and normal dude so he likes me" look.

#oh i cant fucking stand him(affectionate) #the lost boys #tlb #david tlb #david x michael

[slavhew]

dropping a nuke on him

#homestuck #hom3stuck #home2t4ck #jake english #dirk strider #admin draws #fanart #having a lot of thoughts about him lately. #again disclaimer i love him but hes the fucking most embarrassing guy. i cant stand him. #you wanted uranium jake? fine. have all the uranium you want. ssayonara you engaboo shit

[kazuwhora]

listen idk if im being dramatic but lemme rant in the tags for a min

#its so fucking hard to do my school work when my landlords are renovating at all hours of the day #like #its already stressful enough knowing i wont have a home soon #and on top of that while I DO have a home they make it fucking impossible to do anything in peace #I cant fucking stand it

[hyperfixationstation1]

cheers to the man who sleeps during the end of the world

Grantaire sketch.

Micron 0.2. Derwent HB and 9B

#les mis #les miserables #grantaire #victor hugo #the brick #cant stand his ass btw #like duuuuuuddde shut up #when I first read his description #you know #he was extremely ugly #which is so mean #then I googled him #none of the people that have ever played his ass have been ugly #Victor what the fuck do you mean by ugly #ridiculous #oh it’s meant to show that skepticism is ugly #still mean Victor #still mean #oh uh #les amis #enjolras #les amis de l'abc #yeah #pencil illustration #art