hsr: 2.1 spoilers
thoughts on firefly (LONG AND UNPOLISHED BUT I MUST SCREAM)
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just to get it out of the way, i love that firefly is sam.
also what i’m about to share is a mix of interpretation and headcanon based on how i would write her. NOT INTENDED TO BE A THEORY OR A PROPER ANALYSIS OF CANON.
and i’m not going through all of samfire’s dialogue and lore for this because if i did that for every post expressing my thoughts i’d never post anything ever.
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i propose: “firefly” is sam’s dream.
imagine this: you are a killer. one with strength and perception far beyond any mortal being. when an enemy is caught by your senses, their life ends before they ever knew the fear of your presence. this is what you were made to be, and this is all that you are. you can’t even dream…but you can imagine.
what if you were instead, a mortal? one with lovely eyes the color of the night sky lit by a bustling city below. you’ve always looked to a starry sky fondly, and longingly. so incomprehensibly vast - each speck of light was a unique something, forming a great sea of possibilities, but all too far from your reach. what could be a better fit?
and what if instead of the one role you were made for, you had many roles? this young mortal is an actor! sure, actors read off a script as well, but each story woven by the script was different. each has its own destiny. you ponder what it’s like to be bound to multiple destinies, rather than just the one.
and you continue to ponder. each day this imaginary “you” becomes more and more realized. and now that you have finished imagining, you begin to wish: that between the checkpoints of fate, the brief moments of freedom will let you play as this “you”. but you know that’s all it is: play. you can never escape your true nature…right?
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UH. BASICALLY. i headcanon firefly as sam’s wishful persona manifested in the dream world.
that being said, that doesn’t make firefly any less real to me.
firefly herself even asserts that what one experiences in a dream is still true and valid, but when sam speaks, they seem resigned to what they believe is their “nature”, like they can only be the type of person firefly is in a fabricated world.
without the constraints of the waking world, sam can be a kind and lively young woman who can make friends on her own, and has a job - a purpose - where as a performer, obeying the scripts brings delight instead of blood. and it was such a wonderful experience that they didn’t want to wake up from it.
i don’t yet know how much sam fully validates their “firefly” self beyond the feelings being real, but the way they behave and describe themselves to acheron when they’re sam suggests that they don’t believe they can also truly be “firefly” at the same time.
also i’m mainly going off of the idea that firefly’s appearance can only be easily manifested in the dream world, and that sam’s “armor” is truly just their body, but i believe this headcanon still works even if it is armor, because it is more about the mentality.
of course there are some glaring constraints in reality that prevents them from being able to do certain things (at the moment), but the way sam views themselves also constrains them far more than they realize. if sam wishes to be firefly, then sam IS firefly. and once they realize that, they don’t have to strictly act and identify in the way they believe they should.
sam’s scripts have always been brief, and i wonder…is it just because sam is simple in their skills and approach to their work? or is it because between the inescapable events one calls destiny, between the tasks sam must fulfill, they can do or be whatever they choose?
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that was a very roundabout way to say that i think samfire is trans.
bonus thoughts:
omg after seeing the reveal, firefly feels more like an affectionate parody of the character we were meant to think she is. hc sam watched and read a lot of romcoms and was like…damn i wish that was me. i wish i was a cute girl with fluffy hair going on a date with the trailblazer, but alas i am but a 8 ft tall murder robot. GIRL YOU CAN BE BOTH.
i also like that this idea highlights a more positive side to dreaming, in contrast to the rest of the penacony story so far. yes, one can’t slumber forever, but is a rest - a respite - not needed from time to time? and just as reality can follow one into their dream, can dreams not also be with you when you wake?
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I’m not sure if anyone will read this, but have any of you who happen to be trans but not binary “passing” ever felt really really isolated even around other, non-trans, LGBTQ+ people? I always feel like I’m talking to walls and maybe it’s just me but I feel really isolated and excluded because of it sometimes.
Or literally just send me an ask bc I feel so weird about it right now. A really really weird, and to me disheartening, event happened recently involving my cohorts and I have no idea if maybe I’m just overreacting or not.
Edit: I want to specify here that no, I don’t believe that non-trans LGBTQ+ plus individuals are “bad” or anything of the like, I have a lot of friends that are and we’re cool. I’ve just been having a specific problem recently, with a certain group of people I’m around, and I’ve been wondering if I’m the only one who feels this way sometimes. I feel like that should go without saying, but I just wanted to clarify that.
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okay so something crazy is happening rn.
i take my nephew to basketball practice and usually i sit in the car and wait until he’s done, but today i really had to pee so i went in and found out the drama department is doing a play. so now i’m sitting here waiting for the play to start bc why not and guess what? I HEAR THE DRAMA TEACHER SAY “demeter, Persephone are you ready?” LIKE YOOOOO ARE THEY DOING THE PERSEPHONE MYTH???
what a crazy fuckin coincidence
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(rant about veganism so scroll if you don’t care)
im not even vegan anymore, i eat meat fish dairy eggs etc. But I still think the anti vegan posts on this website are so stupid. It’s always some post with a stupid response from a vegan person, and then 20 thousandreblogs acting as if that one person represents all vegans ever. Majority of vegan people literally do not care if you’re vegan or not. I started eating animal products again after 5 years and none of my vegan friends gave a shit. Also the arguments people use can literally be debunked with one google search? Vegans are not the reason crops are being grown on land in poorer countries and shipped out. Majority of the time those crops are being grown and shipped out to other countries to feed LIVESTOCK. And most vegans don’t care about people eating eggs from chickens they have in their back garden, they care about the mass production of eggs / mass slaughter of animals in slaughter houses etc. Idk i think people are just wilfully stupid when it comes to veganism. Obviously there are healthy and environmentally friendly ways to consume meat, and cultures where people respect and hunt animals. Obviously there are people who don’t want to be/ can’t be vegan for various reasons. But that doesn’t change the fact that a lot of us do not hunt our own meat, we get it from shops and restaurants who got it from slaughterhouses 😭 it’s really annoying man, and like I said I haven’t been vegan for a few years now
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