#i dont regret it tho XD

[ganondoodle]

Might be getting Clip Studio soon. Do you have the 2.0 version or the one before it? People on the internet have been saying a lot of negative things about the 2.0 one so I'm curious about what u might have to say on it?

Hi!

Clip Studio Paint is an awesome programm! I did buy the Version 2.0 upgrade a while back, but i do kinda regret it (tho i dont think its possible to get vers 1 anymore nor revert it back); mainly bc i discovered the new features are not very useful for me after all (the new color mixing for example bc i still use the old mixing anyway, the new one didnt make anythign better for me and caused lag issues while the others worked fine with my hardware) and even the perpetual license for Vers 2 requires you to have internet access so it can check your license when starting it and if it cant do that for a certain amount of time it will not allow you to use the full programm, only the demo of it, which obviously sucks; after backlash they extended the time period you can go without internet connection, i dont know how long it is now but the system remains the same and i doubt they will change it back since it has to do with the new way they check your license i havent noticed any other issues tbh xD

overall id say get the latest update of vers 1 if possible, if not then be aware of the issues with vers 2; personally it wasnt worth it for me since i use pretty much none of the new features plus the dumb new way its licensed and you will have to wait for newest features to be added to vers 2 until the next version comes out unless you buy their monthly plan (i havent)

i still think the programm is fantastic and much nicer than alot of others even if some of the new changes kinda suck.. it hasnt been an big issue for me yet but it was still kinda unnecessary

#ganondoodles answers #i .. literally dont know if that was any helpful #but this is my point of view atm #im not in the need of new features really so im in no rush to get the newest ones #tho i do wish for an easier way to do pixel sprite and animation export and the ability to export animations with transparent bg #but both of these arent that important to me anyway and idk if that is gonna be in any update #so really it was perfectly fine for what i was doing i really shouldnt have bought the upgrade #i think i felt peer pressured to do it #like an idiot

[barbiewritesstuff]

So my brain is a lost cause at this point there's just neurons and random sparks but nothing is computing

Like that ever shuts me up though

You were going to pray and you got smutty thoughts because of me !! I shouldn't but I'm totally cackling like a deranged hyena rn im sorry xD

ANYWAY

FUC- THAT WAS TO DIE FOR you made it so much better than it was in my head !!

Now I know you said you’d walk in afterwards but can you imagine being in the meeting? SHIT SHIT SHIT YOU MADE IT BETTER THAT WOULD BE ... FUC- IDEK ?!? THAT WOULD BE SERIOUS MAVERICK LEVEL DANGEROUS BEHAVIOUR THOUGH! THE GLARE CYCLONE SENT ALONE WOULD RENDER YOU TO ASH AT THE SPOT

He’s standing there looking fine - See it ain't even your fault who can resist that man?!?

“Don’t know if my uniform is up to code Admiral…” THAT IS SO CORNY I WOULD TOTALLY SAY THAT THO CACKLING AGAIN

(you’re saved under ‘Brat’ because that’s what you are) OF COURSE IM A BRAT DUHH

Maverick is going over everything he’s done this week just to check whether he’s going to get screamed at, Warlock is shooting daggers at Maverick, the entire team (you pretend because you’re a little shit) is mentally sending their family goodbye letters and exchanging worried glances. I CAN ACTUALLY PICTURE THIS ENTIRE SCENE AND ALL THEIR EXPRESSIONS AND I AM DEAD THIS IS PEAK COMEDY I WANT THIS SO BAD XDDDDD

Hondo, poor, sweet, sweet angel Hondo, who has just accidentally had a very good look at what the Admiral received via text is honestly reconsidering his career because Admiral Simpson is a possessive man. If he finds out Hondo knows, he will kill him. OH FUCK BERNIE YOU'RE DEAD MAN. RUN. V V V V FAR AWAY. (THE ADMIRAL'S GONNA BE A BIT BUSY ANYWAY WINKWINK) poor Bernie tho??? He's probably traumatised for life?? He didn't wanna know that about you?? And definitely not the Admiral hell he won't be looking him in the eye for a month xD Also the image of possessive Beau is just *so good*.

I mean you give him the best performance of your life, especially since he tells you he’s not going to touch you for a week as punishment. NO SHIT DONT DO THAT I'M SORRRYYYY

In conclusion:

I AM DEAD

Glad you got some amusement from my predicament this morning XD

Okay so Cyclone's glare? It almost makes you regret the entire operation. I mean you think the man is going to reach across the conference room and make you pay for it right then and there.

Imean you're ready to beg for forgiveness as soon as he cocks his head sighly to the side and shoots you the look, but at the same time, you also think that Beau is one of those rare people who get hotter the angrier they are. Or maybe that's just because you know what happens when he does get mad?

I mean, let's not kid ourselves, you're pissing him off on purpose, because when he gets past a point, Beau just snaps. And last time he snapped he railed you against his desk until you could no longer speak. You're absolutely trying to recreate that.

But you regret dragging the team into it (not Rooster though, he deserves the twenty minutes of fear he's going to live through for trapping you in a conversation about Star Wars with resident expert Fanboy last Tuesday) because they look like they're absolutely shitting themselves. Especially Hondo.

Because you know he's seen the picture. When Beau opens his phone and sees the picture, Bernie happens to be looking down and he stutters. No one else notices, and you're almost certain it's a coincidence when Hondo briefly glances at you with such a shocked expression. You know what he's thinking. He's already planning the purchase of a foreign passport on the black market, becaude he absolutely can never set foot in San Diego again!! He will never be able to speak to the Admiral without having that stupid picture flash before his eyes!!

And of course Beau's lying through his teeth when he tells you he won't touch you, but he has to make you believe that so you get desperate. He's absolutely going to be balls deep inside you by Wednesday because he needs to relieve the stress Maverick causes him on the daily. And maybe he needs to punish you one more time, you know, just so he knows you got the message.

EDIT: needed to fix so many typos because this prompt just made me dumb, I love it. I may have missed some but you know...

#fanfic #top gun fanfiction #top gun maverick #top gun x reader #fanfiction #cyclone x reader #cyclone #beau cyclone simpson #beau simpson #beau simpson x reader #original fic

[fluffallamaful]

hullooo llama :D

i wanted to send in a lee ler n a spot for a ficlet

i wanna see lee dreamxd with any ler of ur choice [the ler rly to me doesnt matter i just wanna see lee dreamxd in general, if the ler is needed tho then dream or georgehd]

so i follow the headcanon that dreamxd can have as many arms as he wants but chooses to have four arms [got from covenofwives]

and i imagine those arms to be like EXTREMELY ticklish along with his underarms of each set

so the spot[s] i was thinking of was arms & underarms

/nf btw, u can do if u want but u dont have to ^^

thnxx! :D

-slime

prompt from this post

went with ler!Sapnap4K hope that’s ok, he’s heavily inspired by @covenofwives

🦙🦙🦙…

DreamXD realised his mistake as soon as the larger, fiery god straddled him, a rather toothy grin baring down at him and accompanying its owner’s fire-red eyes of amusement. He let out a snarl as they a chuckled above him.

“You ready? Armpits right?” Sapnap4K confirmed, the simple question evoking a shiver to dance its way down XD’s spine. The god and him had traded their worst tickle spots… somehow… XD was still a little foggy on the details, but he was now most definitely beginning to regret it.

He managed only a reluctant head nod in response to the god’s question.

“And green?” 4K continued, his voice dropping to a tone of sincerity and understanding, though his fingers cracked and popped just above DreamXD’s torso as he stretched them out. Another shiver journeyed it’s way back up the masked god’s spine, crawling up to his cheeks in no doubt the form of a blush.

“Yes.” He twitched. Sapnap4K wasted no more time that that.

In only a split second he had collected up XD’s lower wrists in his one of his large hands, using his other free one to knead an equally large thumb roughly into the hollow of XD’s lower-right armpit.

“WAHAHAIT FOHOHOHOUR KAHAY!!” DreamXD bellowed, instantly howling out surpised laughter into the soul sand valley that surrounded them. They were quickly able to pinpoint the wildly unfamiliar feeling of not being able to fight back. XD’s wrists remained held tightly in the larger god’s unfailing grasp — no matter how hard he tugged — and when his other two hands did try to put an end to the electrifying feeling that the kneading fingers, they too were rounded up and bunched together with the rest. XD had never felt this helpless.

“Oh-hohoh!! Your armpits are tickly!!” The nether-god admired, switching his technique from kneading to skittering. XD’s body convulsed below, falling into a panicked squirm as 4K’s nails danced over his undeniably ticklish skin. The shrill cry of the protector’s safe word followed only shortly afterwards.

🦙🦙🦙…

#thank you for waitingggggf #llamas ficlets #ler!Sapnap4K #lee!DreamXD #lee!XD #mcyt tickle #dsmp tickle #slimeylee #submitted on the 17th of june #llama asks

[vultureboi]

Ah yes. AO3 tags. The most fun I have in my day is reading them for fanfics.

“Canon-typical wife confusion” is definitely a good one.

“Bakugou Katsuki wants that monster dick” and “all he’s gotta do is convince his overprotective boyfriend” for one story lol

“Literally you get a cool ass sword”

“General shenaniganery”

“No beta we die like sir night eye” or even “no beta we die like Bakugou Katsuki”

“Mentions of penguin romance”

“Muzan is really just putting every body part in Tanjiro here”

“Yuuji just wanted a nap”

“Seriously read the goddamn tag and warning and don’t come crying in the comments” oh god, so many stories need this, including my own. DONT LIKE DONT READ, PEOPLE!!

“Tiny little bean”

“Getting that good life saving dicking” and “Izuku’s an easy to convince sex deprived college student”

“Katsuki is a magical asshole”

“I don’t want Chisaki to be the bad guy” bich he is tho XD

“And I’m going to regret this later”

“Trust me there’s plenty of happy cute stuff” followed quickly by “in the beginning…”

I love reading these tags! I wanna hear some of your favorite unhinged or weird AO3 tags!

#ao3 tags #funny tags #fanfiction #ao3 #archive of our own #Jesus it just started pouring rain outside #enjoy these weird ass tags #yes most were from smut #don’t judge me

[kazuza-art]

Another couple of sketch from Metamorphosis @metalomagnetic XD i ought to try to draw about something else but I just cant rn XD so many scene I wanna try to put out on paper.

It is one of my fav scene of chapter 3 XD Tom relaxing outside trying to think about somehing else than Albus (i dont know why i just cant picture him in casual close atm XD) and Albus mooning over him very not obviously spying on him from a window above XD he might come to regret Tom being oblivious of him later on tho i think 🤣

#my art #fic rec #metamorphosis art #albus dumbledore x voldemort #albus x tom #albus dumbledore #tom riddle #voldemort #harry potter fanart #harry potter au

[theos-revenge]

Tag game tuesday 🌻

tagged by @golden28s thank you :D

name: frida yes bc of frida kahlo even tho is not my moms fav painter

pronouns: she/her

your sun sign, MBTIP and enneagram type (google them if you're not sure!): sagittarius, INTP-A / INTP-T and i think between the investigator and the achiever

how tall are you? little above average for my country 1'66cm

what color are your eyes? hazel

the last time you saw in theaters (bonus: what was it?): uff a long time ago john wick four, and it was ok i mean i love fight coreos and keanu as the next girl but it was a bit much

favorite dessert: cake any kind of pastry really

outer space or the ocean: outer space

you're in a McDonald's drive thru, what are you ordering? mlik shake fries and nuggets bc i dont really like mccdo i prefer carls

are you good with plants? we have a lot so i water what i can but yeah mostly my parents that care for them

would your current self and high school self get along? i mean maybe we still have many of the same things but yeah i regret many things so probably id be a lil annoyed

a food you can't stand: things that are soggy or that are not made well enough or things that are too bitter or salty or greasy but when you can feel the grease on your tongue

something you'd do if money were no objet: i would literally spend my life traveling and would move to another country also i would buy so many useless things that would made me so happy

the last app you opened on your phone (tumblr doesn't count): safari XD

and finally, compliment yourself! i think im a good listener, and im pretty self aware, i also chill as fuck when it comes to other people unless theyre being rude

and ill tag some people @greenfeelings @iwantmagic @pop-punklouis @invisible-and-forgivable @holyshit @emily-reads-books @half-lightl :D

#F

[ahoge-fish]

Hi! Hope ur doing ok over there and that sun isnt kicking ur butt too much (went out to hang some clothes to dry and i only feel REGRET )

Hope this im not bothering with this ask but is it ok if we could see how jotaro's sword looks like? In the witcher au i mean. Just wanna make sure i dont draw it wrong

Pls dont feel forced to tho! I know u just posted a comic (which i adored sm i love how u drew pol's nose kskksksks) so i dont want u to overwork it in case ur planning on doing domething else

Mabey just a reference picture from google to morelikely get the idea how it looks?

Thank u for ur time and patience hope u have a good one!

YOU'RE 👏 ALWAYS 👏 SO 👏 SWEET 👏👏👏

Yes I am okay! And I bless my ceiling fan that helps me not to die XD

NO YOU BEAN YOU DON'T BOTHER ME AT ALL!! You can ask whatever you want without hesitation whenever you want >:3 If I am busy, I'll just respond to it when I can!

Also- *scratches eyes to see better* YOU WANNA DRAW JOTARO IN MY WITCHER AU?? GNGNGNGNGNGNTNNGNGNFNDNGJDBFBF 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 Oh you don't know how HAPPY IT MAKES ME!! AAAAAAAAAAA Also thank you for the compliments about the comic and Pol's nose, I appreciate them very much :33

Here you go the sword! >:D

I changed juuuuuuuust some little things, and it came out like that! :D So you did good to ask me for a draw of his sword XD

I HOPE YOU'LL HAVE A GOOD ONE TOO!! 💖💖💖

#•🐠 answers• #jjba au #the witcher au #jotaro kujo #jjba

[froggyrights]

Before entering this fandom I never saw any drama, my dash was immaculate. I dont regret joining tho, my dash is still very good.

I have discourse tags blocked but I'm so nosy it doesn't work 😔 I do not regret joining at all but man, I would not recommend this experience to anyone else xD

#but i got to meet cool people on here so :D #asks #feralsylph

[hope-urok]

relapse relapse relapse

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i can’t have these thoughts dawg 😣 if we are going to be friends i have to not think like this ... idk how tho. i still see so much good in him. AHHHHHHHHHH. stop. 

honestly i messed up so bad. i cannot cannot have these thoughts…

tomorrow is just business… keep it professional...

i really cant. i need to forgive myself. im not there yet tho. i know i messed up. just looking back, it was messy. me saying to prioritise friendship what? im insane. i guess it was difficult with the distance back then but now hes here. and i dated m A TEEN at the time. my morals were out the window. i guess i didnt really have to try with m. like it just happened and i went with it. it was an okay time. i regret it a bit but i can't regret. i accept that it happened. it had to have happened for a reason. i believe it was to show how i was in a relationship. like a reflection of who i am and how i am. how insane it is. how toxic i am. 

i cant imagine what he went through tho. i guess coz i dont see how he could love me and care about me like that. i guess my self esteem is still in the gutters. i can somehow never see how he could love me or accept me for who i am. that is my fault. i need a bigger ego XD. fr i went down to see him in hastings and in 3 months i was dating someone else. then he came back. and we havent talked properly since. srsly we havent. like at all. and we are around each other a lot. im not sure what to make of it. ive been just respecting his space coz he would talk to me if he wanted to and was comfortable with it. lately its been getting better and im surprised i even went to his bday. i did WAY too much for his gift tho i need to chill. 

do i apologise tmr? its meant to be about camp but its the first time we’re takling alone since hastings. thats nearly 2 years….. maybe its because we havent talked since then im still in this state. still in hope? i cant hope. what is this hope. this hope has been on and off since y11. 8 YEARS??

its okay that the feelings are there. 

lets take a different take. i dont talk to miggy bc i dont want to. romwell isnt talking to me. theres nothing there. dont hope. its ruined. get over it. 

his playlists are just songs he likes. do i relate to drake songs? no not really. i just like the songs. 

[xiuminscheeks]

New episode so im back :DD

-I may be in love with Mr lee. I cant help it he has the shiniest wettest puppydog eyes of all time and the energy of a melancholy widow skhsks i would do anything he asks of me 🥺 hes still fucking terrifying and all powerful tho dont get me wrong (complimentary)

-I was gonna make a joke about yul at the table thinking 'kids these days always on their phones smh' but then he went on the sweetest protective rant over ms han T.T 

Edit; aksjsj poor all suffering yul giving the talk TWICE in one day to both parties,,, still its v cute of him

-Mr jins smug smile making coffee and listening to ms han lying her ass off is murdering me... the tangerine grab.... the school shenanigans... oh they are SOOOOO unsubtle i just know theyre immediately going to get caught

Wait tHE PINKY HAND HOLDING they are so freaking adorable

Also the dramatics of the curtain scene 💀 this show is endlessly goofy i cant deal

-Yul with the spirit banishment antics....where did that come from sksjk... but !!! Were getting to see more glimpses of the past 👀👀

-SKSJJS the sister falling for woo taek, i fucking knew itttt was coming!! And good! Hes been such a supportive and caring friend, 10/10 i approve of this matchup u.u

-I love that theyre all daring and clingy at school but as soon as they get some time alone theyre theeee most awkward fuckers on this planet, 5ft apart cos theyre NOT daTing definitely not

-love how mr lee just has the housecode and barges straight in like hey :) ive decided im gonna hang out here now and theres nothing you can do about it :D theres never a moment of peace in this show its just back to back misfortunes of awkwardness xD but its worth suffering through the second hand stress for that closet scene <333 sleepy kisses. Actually theres tongue in there nvm wow (did they fuck in the closet. I. we may never know.)

-MR LEEEEE DONT BE SAAAD AND THEN ACT EVIL ABOUT IT OTL i could fix his loneliness. sorry this is turning into me being obsessed w him but i mean. His deeply sad and sinister demeanour has enchanted me. AND HES BACK TO SCARY HES GOT A WHOLE ASS SWORD. I kindly request you dont murder the main characters theyre sooo important to me and they only just got to be happy T.T

-Also next weeks preview is making me insaaaane i knew those bracelets were nothing good >:( but every glimpse of the past we get to see i get more excited!!!!!!

Anyway AAAA i might have to start another show off your list to tide me over cos i cant keep waiting for new episodes with nothing in between 😔

- 🌱

HEY! I just logged in on desktrop and saw this. hopefully its not been long since you have sent it. the app sometimes doesnt show me all the notifications.

love everything you said cause I feel pretty much the same. the show is so good at balancing the comedy and the drama, its crazy.

Yul was definitely the mvp of the episode, despite the steamy closet scene the leads shared. he is just too adorable/

as for mr. Lee, yes, you (and I too) could fix him. I'm still convinced that whatever happened in the past was just a misunderstanding, and that no one is evil, and I cant wait till the truth reveals.

let me know what other show from my list you start! also, let me suggest to more that I started and are SO GOOD OMG. The story of park's marriage contact and My Demon. trust me, you wont regret it

#🌱anon #long post

[lalayolo23]

i would just like to say..

"-tho a single fiber is weak, it can be braided with others to form a mighty rope. had even one thread broken, we would have failed. its only together that we've wove na tapestry of faith." -best jeanist mha

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ok sorry to yall none anime fans but animes have some hella powerful and/or amazing quotes. here are some of my favorite..

"no matter how scary it gets, you must always wear smile and say 'im fine!'" -Nana shimura

"But there's one thing that scares me more than anything... And that's going back to how I used to be! That's why I never wanna regret anything ever again!" -ejiro kirishima (NO REGRTS!!!)

"don't worry about what other people think. hold your head up and and plunge forward!"- Izuku midoriya (deku)

"the deeper the darkness, the brighter the light that shines" -also deku

"I break... and break myself.. even if it mens twisting myself, ill win the way i choose.."- katsuki bakugo

"are you... all might's secret love child or something..?" -shoto todoroki XDDD IM SORRY I HAD TO XD

"there is nothing crueler than letting a dream end midway."-shota aizawa. i need context for this one to know if he talking about hopes and dreams or literal dreams you see in your sleep.. with him i could be either...

"be willing to sacrifice who you re for what you want to be." Hawks. aka murderderer (yes, i spelled it like that on purpose. dont get after me..)"if all yu do is look down on people you wil never see your own weaknesses" -katsuki bakugo. ok can someone tell me if he actually said this. cause dang. character development. XD

"the capybara was the biggest rodent in the world till i was born! :D" principal nezu

ok im done

#mha #quotes #love this shit #lol

[ducknotinarow]

💭 for all Raphs: Technology, Flowers, Regret, Change, and Dreams

| Send 💭+ a topic Kezzie whhhhy XD i'm put it under a read more for length mostly. I'm gonna included some au stuff only if I got something to say for it cause I can, but they will stay under the verse of the iteration I'll specify the au sections ofc. Any talking bits are main verse only tho. 87

|Technology|

"Eh that's more Donatello's thing." Tech isn't really in Raph's skill set, sure he isn't the meat head many other Raphael are but it's still not something he deals with too much. Mostly due to growing a bit of a distaste for his twins inventions and ya know one making him feel like he was gonna die? Yeah raphs not the biggest fan with most technological things. Raph often feels tech isn't all it's cracked up to be seeing how often it sort of fails even. He thinks tech should stay simple as simple as possible at that. But don't mean he won't listen to his brother ramble about his inventions like he used to before. It's sort of how hes trying to meet his brother in the middle when it came to their argument |Flowers|

"Eh I don't think much about 'em, long as they aint mutant ones trying to eat me at least."

Flowers are nice and all but I can't really say Raph is much for flowers, nothing against them he just dont see the appeal himself. He thinks they are pretty of course, they are very pretty. The closest he has interest into flowers is he really like the Sunflower painting by Van gogh as stated Raphs dose has a like and interest in art himself so of course he tends to stray more that way.

But Flower also relate to romance so lets go there uwu

Raph figured out he was more in favor for men when it came to his attraction. Not sure he had a type he just knew what he found to draw his eye like a well dress guy in a suit and tie looks good. SO it is funny that Casey in his trash attire as Mikey would call it drew Raph's eyes. Casey is wild, crazy and totally violent and despite it Raphael took a liking to Casey right away. Raph's pretty hands on with his and Casey relationship not really holding back how he feels and Casey seems to take no issue with how over the top Raph can be. All took was for Casey to say he thought Raph was funny for those seeds to plant and turn more into love than just Raph having a crush. Raphael likes that Casey seems to like Raph for the things that are who Raphael is even when he sometimes feels those things might make him come short compared to the rest. He knows he can make Casey laugh and even feel loved and safe so he takes pride in that.

|Regret|

"...I regert not being a better brother."

Raphael loves his family its kind of all he really has, I mean that's a tad obvious of course. They are the only ones like them and I would say Raphael is pretty close to all his brothers to different degrees. Of course, he is sarcastic to them all but they seem pretty used to the snippy behavior he has demonstrate time and time again. Mostly they blow it off or get annoyed but that's just brothers for you. He is arguably the closest to Donatello. So any fight between them tends to carry more weight. Raphael still blames his and Donatello's fight on himself. From being a jerk towards his brother when it came to their inventions something that Donatello takes a lot of pride into. To not even being away they went through some heart break. Raph really wants to re patch things between especially after Don's time ad a little turtle again where he just spent time with them he's seeing he misses that and feels it is his own fault why that happened.

|Change|

"Eh I don't change much i'm always as I come off."

I dunno if it fits but I'm going with it, I like that despite how negative Raphael can be when it comes to being hero sometimes first to make things out for humans to deal with themselves not understanding why it has to be them to fix the issue. Heck sometimes he doesn't even want to fight instead he pitches they just go home. Much like the time he got to go to the boat party, when seeing people need help? Raphael at his core dose in fact want to help. When he thought he was going to die it was how he wanted to go out even. Raphael can act selfish and sometimes he is even but even when humans don't always have the best opinion of them, Raph with change his tune because in truth he isn't that selfish that he won't help someone in need.

|Dreams| "You uh ya don't wanna be bored with what I dream about now would ya? Nah course not I bet that yappy Raphs dream got way more going on."

Raphael sometimes dreams about Casey, but not in a way you might think. He dreams about them and a life they maybe can have. Raphael has said it from the start he is nuts himself he don't know why he could see forever with Casey from the start he just knew it was what he wanted. He dreams of calling home the same place Casey dose. He dreams of mundane conversations about things being broken or needing to be fixed in their place. The idea of lounging on the couch with out having to worry about falling asleep because if he dose they can stay there all night or Casey could carry him to bed for the night. Maybe little foot steps are in those dreams he hasn't thought to much on that outside knowing he might have to keep telling Casey he can't lay eggs despite being a turtle u-u

Raphael just get's a bit too embarrassed this is something he dreams about just something so normal despite everything about himself, their relationship even Casey himself not being normal he likes to think they can have their own normal.

03/07

|Technology|

"I ain't the geek of the team 'hat's Don's 'hing. Me? I rather break stuff, mostly bones. But ya want the best guy for the job? Ask Donnie hes the wiz"

Yeah Raph ain't much for the tech stuff he tends to keep things more simple as well. Honestly he don't have the patience either. Raph is a more street smart turtle anyway sure he likes to read but his cleverness is far more on the being able to think on his feet aspect over how his twin brother tends to work. Brains and Brawn for a reason and Raph's pretty happy sticking to be brawn he approach to tech isn't to hack its just to smash it. least he tends to know when he should grab something for Donnie to check out later. |Flowers|

"Roses are nice." Despite Raph being mister tough guy we all know this boys got the biggest soft side to him. Raphael never had love on the mind though. Leo may be a romantic and Don dreamed to have a family his own someday. Raphael? nah romance wasn't in the cards he thought. Sure Raphael felt attraction being bisexual he dose tend to lean more towards men himself having a thing for muscular builds. Raphael wouldn't really turn down a chance to get intimate.

Then he gained feelings for Casey. And that was a problem. Casey struggled because of his fathers ways and instilling homophobia into poor Casey. Raphael? it wasn't that it was because Casey is his best friend. His only real friend. Casey the one person in the whole world hell universe that understands and gets him. Nothing about Raph seems to deter Casey away from him. Casey likes Raphael as he is, the broody, grumpy turtle he can be yet here's Casey draping an arm over his shoulders and telling them they should fix their bikes together well letting Raph have a space to air out his temper with out judgement. Casey this chill near laid back guy and well hes good looking. He looks out for Raph as well. Sure Casey likes to tease Raph but he never annoys Raph, despite being able to get on anyone nerves Raph even jumps in defense of Casey. And when he got feelings romantic feelings? Raphael wanted to deny them bury them and hope they die because he didn't think Casey would feel the same. What if Casey was grossed out by it?

Lucky for him Casey actually liked him back, so because Raph was the one to confess first he tends to try that more on his end. Like when he first told Casey he loved him he gave him a rose. He's seen humans do it before, and I like to think it's still something Raph dose for casey to this day present them with a single small red rose. Usually it's for no reason at all sometimes it's on purpose but he will kick Casey's ass if he teases him to much for it. But Flower mean feeling bloom and well that why he likes to do it. Cause Casey was the one to bring that out of Raph.

|Regret|

"....I regret hurting them."

Is it a surprise? his biggest regret is that he broke up with Casey, that he pushed Don out of his life. Raphael is closest to his twin and his best friend they are the ones that Raphael finds peace around the most. But Raphael will never truly forgive himself for what he did. Raphael dosen't know if they ever fully forgave him either. When Casey's needy side get worse Raphael complies because he knows it was his fault when Don shuts him out hes not as quick to push them to speak.Raphael knows he caused some scares himself.

Raphael knows Donnie gone through stuff he wont talk about he always is there if Don wants to talk or not. Raphael was in such a bad spot mentally. He was depressed deeply depressed he was listening to all his negative thoughts allowing them to rule his mind to points he couldn't. He believed how he thought. Deciding to do something so stupid like hurt his twin someone he shares a very special connection with.

And even if he knows better what it means to stick together he knows he can never truly make up for what he did. But he tries. It is part of why he got so close to his niece. Why he always has her side even on things he don't agree with. Raphael wants to prove he won't leave again. By trying to make up for it to Donnie through Ariel.

SK!Casey au: Raph is going to hold some regrets once the truth is out well at least to Raphael that Casey is the killer Raph is sort of regretting how open he was with Casey about everything even if it did sort of save his shell to express his views and thoughts. He regrets going to look for Answer more, because it shattered something for him. Casey to him was this goof ball good guy who treated him and his brothers so kindly. So how can this still be that same guy?

|Change|

"..i'm tryin' I am really tryin'" Rapheal was at his lowest more than once when his anger was so bad he almost hurt Mikey, his pride winding him a victim to Bishop, his depression making him do a lot of stupid shit. Raphael is trying to be better. Trying to change for the better if he is? Well he's not sure but hes too stubborn to give up. When Summer came in his and Casey life she was the light that he needed to start changing for the better, trying to be better about how he lets his mind work. Basically he's learning some self love and keeping to it.

SK!Casey au: Raphael, admittedly can be selfish sometimes he doesn't feel some issue should be his and his brothers problem when the death started Raphael didn't care often fought with Leo about it not being their issue to deal with. Raphael's tone dose change once getting a reality check twice. Once after seeing Buck begin one of the victims it starts to make Raph rethink a lot. That maybe there is something to the whole code of Bushido Leo is so all about. And then when he learned that killer is Casey? Lets just say there is bound to be more change for Raphael. Because he dose still love and care about Casey but how can he be okay with what Casey is doing? Not that he's getting much choice here. Casey isn't giving him that choice.

Even once Casey has him caught Raphael's not sure if he can just change how he feels. He's going to learn Love can be just as confusing as anything else. That emotions can change and be twisted even uwu

|Dreams|

"hmm I don' really dream?"

Raph is someone who doesn't recall his dreams all to well because he has narcolepsy, Raph's know to be night owl himself out late doing who knows what esp when he was going around as the Night watcher for a time. It dose add to why Raph's kind of just a grump over all. He feels rested after he sleeps but grows tried as the day goes on so it's not uncommon for him to be napping around.

Now he dose have other dreams. He dreams Summer to have a life where she is just loved and happy. He dreams of growing grey with Casey. he dreams of having his brothers there when finally dies hoping hes first to go. He dreams of just peaceful days laughing in the kitchen with Casey. It's all he wants.

CC AU:

When Casey asked Raphael to move in with him he asked if they were serious meaning the relationship. He was fine having fun but Raphael would like more, for all he knew Raph was just someone convenient or easy a chance to get their dick wet even maybe. Truth was far more than he thought he could ever have. Casey loved him and wanted to be with him. So Raphael said yes, and headed home but his trips out sort of put a target on his back seemed he made a pattern that someone noticed right away. And Raphael was caught and taken away. The whole time Raphael was captured and held he dreamed of the farm. He dreamed being with Casey on the porch sitting together as the sun would start to set. Casey's arm over his shoulders well they just talked on about the farm. Going on from the horses like Zombie to a cow or something he saw in need of a home.

Raph would wake up to the curl truth and slip back to that escape from his hell. All he wanted was to get back to Casey he wanted to return to the quite of the farm. He wanted to return to the peacefulness Casey gave him the clam quite of a county night the deep blue sky full of stars. Just like Casey's eyes he always loved the ocean but he was finding that a land lock area called to him more.

12

|Technology|

"Yeah, ain't my thing can' understand half the gibberish Donnie says as is. He's the expert." I find it funny how often Raph in 12 just breaks things to get them into cells and such because he just doesn't not have the time to wait for Donnie to like hack into. For being a ninja Raph tends to gloss over the stealth often. I do like that Donnie at one point tells Raph he's got it when Raph's ready to do it again even taking on of his sai, though more precise than Raph is when he just jams his sai into something to bust it up. Considering Raph is often shown opposite on the thought process to Donatello. Even Mikey seems to understand tech a bit better from how he learned to use cell phone signals to track the pizza boy, able to do the same so they could find Casey. Yeah Raph is safe to say technological illiterate because even Leo can understand to a degree what Don is saying once dumbed down a bit. Raph will pick on Donnie for it but doesn't stop him from just assuming Donnie will know either. |Flowers|

"Case could pick a dandelion out of the side walk and give it ta me and it would be my favorite flower."

Raphs feelings for Casey started the day Casey saved him from getting ran over by the train, Casey didn't have to is the thing. Him and Raph had been at odds the second they met. But Casey saved him. Raphael's feeling for Casey only grew from then because Casey much like then was always there for Raphael. Casey actively listens to Raph even when it might not seem like he is, Casey became somewhat of a safe space for the turtle he could vent towards. Casey never saw Raph's anger as a bad thing either likely because he deals with his own anger issues and it just felt nice for Raphael to have someone in his corner when sometimes its like he never did. His feelings just grew and grew till he realized what he felt was romantic. I honestly think no matter what happened Raph would struggle to confess because what if confessing made him lose his friend? Raph just got lucky there was excuses for why he wouldn't or had to. But after some time Raphael felt kind of bad for keeping it to him he thought maybe the feelings would fade? They only grew he found he loved the big things about Casey and the small things. He loved how Casey was loyal, Casey values friends and family. Casey someone Raph can spare with in a fight, share interest in hobbies. Casey got dark hair and deep brown eyes, and cute little freckles uwu Boy can't help it hes hooked.

Raphael might not always be the best partner he will and often makes mistakes but hes willing to talk them out and fix things. Because at the end he knows he loves Casey And he just wants to do right by Casey. He soaks up every moment with them patrolling or holding them at night eve.

|Regret|

"Mona, how I was to Donnie, how I treated Leo when he was named leader, how I treated Mikey for years, not better watching Spike, not noticing Casey was spiraling sooner, not being able to protect them..all of them." Safe to say Raphael hold a lot of regrets, i'm gonna dive into a few though.

Mona: Raphael got along with Mona pretty easily and he even tried to convince the others they should work with the salamadians but after their first fight they weren't willing to trust them. Raphael did make friends with her and yeah he did find her to be attractive but that was about as far that went. He had Casey and Casey is his whole universe. But he still nearly lost Casey even thought they broke up for a time, happy to see it wasn't true. He did keep his friendship with mona and it paid off well that they had allies in space. However Dregg soon found out about this friendship and used it. Mona betrayed Raphael's trust and called them for help Raph of course came to her aid like he would any friend he cares for. But then it was revealed to be a trick. Luckily Donnie and April were back on the ship. But he put Leo, Mikey and Casey all in danger. Raphael was pun intended shellshocked by it all. It took Casey to snap him out of it. But thing is? this has stuck with him it's why he never wants to talk about Mona once they got through everything. Mona showed him that he may want to protect those he cares for more than anything but somethings he can't protect them from. It's a near fear he has been made to realize and it keeps him up at night. I like to think he might break down one day and confess this fear. Something he is reminded of later when Giant big mutants attack them and take everyone away. He is able to get past fear and save them but the fear has very well been cemented in his head and he blames it all on Mona.

Donnie: Raph feels awful for what happened when Donnie got sick he was hurt with Don sure and even tells him when confronted but he feels so bad for not being there when Donnie needed him, even if Raph is going to be there when Don's illness and stupid gets the better of him Raph still feels that guilt. Don is his brother and well to Raph there just isn't an excuse to him not to protect them. That his brother and Raph would be lost without any of them. But even more so with out Donnie.

Casey Spiraling: Raphael is meant to be Casey boyfriend and best friend. He knew all of the stress Casey keeps from the others. How he broke one day because despite hoe he carries himself it was just too much on his shoulders. Raph knew it was because of his mother Casey strives to keep it all together best he could as well. He knew Casey went to see his mother just before he stopped responding. Sure Raph had no way of knowing what was going on but he could have found out he could have been then for Casey sooner. So Casey would gone of the deep end. It's why Raph promises Casey mom he'll do better, why he will make the same promise to Casey dad. Raphael wants to be there for Casey no matter what it is

Raph soon learns all he wants to do is just protect those he cares for, he knows that is a big thing to ask but he dose he has so little and he might not be able to fully shield them but he wants to protect them all with all he has. He doesn't care if that price is himself in the end. Foot!Casey au:

Raphael wonders if he had been far more open with his feelings for Casey even when they were together if maybe he could have stopped what happened. If he had shown Casey just how much he really loved them feeling it wasn't enough could he have helped Casey sooner? If Raphael had made his devotion better know, let Casey see it wasn't ever light heart that Raph's love for Casey burns as hot as his temper then maybe Casey would understood he really dose love him. That he loved him for real, it wasn't about anything physical only. Sure that was fun and sure it how Raph got his emotions through but he should have made a better effort to word those feelings. Even when he has Casey back he worries about it all.

|Change|

"Change is natural, all stuff changes." Raphael and Splinter's relationship wasn't always the best and it wasn't all that bad either. Raphael just really seeked his fathers approval but all he felt was that he was just wrong. That Leo was the favorite the better son and more. That no matter what Raph did no make how good he was in sparing and even art it wouldn't ever be enough for Splinter. And this did put some strain there he loves his Dad he really dose, why he freaked out thinking they had died during the kraang invasion. Raph biggest issue with Splinter is when it came to dealing with his anger. Raph just holds a lot of emotion in him and Splinter tells him to be a stone in river and let that stuff roll over him. B ut that isn't who he is. HE tries he dose but then the water gets to high and he feels like he's going to drown. Raph is fire he is meant to burn.

Raphael just needs to learn that fire isn't always destructive.

|Dreams|

"...yeah I actually don' sleep much."

Sometimes Raph dreams nice things about him and Casey and their little family. He dreams about them just being together, cheering Casey as his games and such. Hanging out with Angel or his brothers for get together even. but not always are they nice dreams uwu.

Raphael deals with a lot of nightmares, sometimes he just doesn't want to sleep at all. He rather skip it if he can or survives on small naps here and there. His best sleep is when Casey's around. He likes having Casey curled up against him, even if he doesn't sleep he least can doze well holding on to Casey. He keeps them close and buries his face into Casey hair. When he dose dream he seeks out Casey for comfort. Dreaming about losing Casey, losing his brothers, April and more. It's always the same reason because he didn't do enough and it plagues him a lot. So sometimes he fakes that he's going to sleep and waits till Casey out before he just cuddles in against Casey. Sometimes when he really bad he'll ling his fingers with Caseys and hold their hand through the night.

SF

|Technology|

"Uhg still no." I'm running out of things to say here XD Raphs and tech just don't mix XD |Flowers|

"...I kind got good with making paper roses."

And yes he dose want to give them to Casey uwu

Reason behind Raph knowing how to do origami is because of Splinter. When Raph was younger his anger was far worse and he often got into fights with his brothers so Splinter as punishment made Raph sit down and learn orgiami as a way to work through his anger but also because he would be task with giving what he made to who he owns a sorry towards. Because it takes a lot of time and effort to fold the paper just right it means Raph really has to sit and think on what he did wrong.

It can also be seen as a symbol of luck, becuase one has to sit with their emotions at the time it's like they are being put into every fold even Raph's love for Casey when he makes them hockey sticks and of course roses.

|Regret|

"Not fighting betta." He dose feel better after Casey talks to him when Splinter was take from them but it still sort of eats away at Raphael. He just wants so much to protect those who he holds dear his world is so small, because his world are the people in his life. Losing anyone of them is too much. All Raph had is his fists but sometimes punching just isn't enough. What dose he do when fighting people off isn't enough? It was enough to get Splinter back, it isn't enough to get Donnie to stop blaming himself for everything that goes wrong. It's not enough to get Leo to understand they don't have to shoulder everything alone it isn't enough to help keep Mikey from getting hurt it isn't enough to protect Casey from harms he never knew about.

If Raphael was a better fighter? its why he trains and lifts weights even outside usual practice why he likes going out on patrol with Casey it's kind of like Leo wishing to sharpen his own skills.

|Change|

"Eh I don' 'ike it much."

Raphael isn't on to take to change well he kind of finds comfort in things staying the same it makes it more predictable that way easier. But he also knkw that's some changes are good. When his feeling sfor Casey changed, when they met April. There are good kinds of changes of course there is. But it's the bad ones he don't handle well

When they lost Splinter for one. Thar was a change he didn't handle well missing even the smallest thing about his Dad like thier silly apron. Raphael acted tough as he always dose but emotional? He was a mess he felt lost aimless with out Splinter around sure they could talk and reach his sprit but it wasn't the same. He missed the way they patted his head or grabbed his face to force his attetion on to his father. Way he tried so hard to beat through swarms of bad guys to get things back to hiw it was before.

|Dreams|

"Eh I don' really dream. Dreams are for sleepin"

I have also gave SF Raphie a case of necolyposy uwu boy dosent really get that rem cycle of sleep which is when people dream. Raph dose sleep heveaily once he is out but he dosent ever sleep for long which is why he often is able to up and about with Donnie because well Raphael knows He's at least awake too so he likes getting to spend the time around his brother. Sadly this is likely when he annoys donnie most resulting in Don's revenge to teach Raph wrong. But then he has todo deal with Raph being an idiot later so really he's cause his own pain later.

MM

|Technology|

"Donnie might be a total weeb but he's the tech guy."

I mean outside his cell Raphael's nit much if a tech person still. As the other Raph's they just are not tech savvy so to speak. Dumb? Sort of but street smarts still even when Raphael's in the middle of raging out we do see him able to think on his feet when seeing the car circling donnie and mikey he did at least think of how to stop the car by hitting its break. Happily calling himself awesome for it after. Least when he has a plan often he don't and just either gose all in or decides they could just go home really challenging some 87 raphie here. |Flowers|

"Uh dunno guess rose, sunflower, hibiscus, lily? Thise are flowers? They are nice I guess?"

There is a reason I picked those. Raphael knew if able he would like to go to school so he could make friends later it's because he wants to join a team he just thinks it be fun to meet other people and such. Romance neber crossed his mind let alone his sexual preferences and what not. Even after Raphael starts to sort of get that intrest and such he dosent really know what label fits him. When he dose get intrest he dose know he likes Casey in that way at least Casey's nonbinary though so he's not sure if that really factors or not he just knows he thinks Casey's attractive uwu he likes all thier freckles and their dumb smile. Like most my Rpahs he likes Bisexual male leaning. Especially because Raphael took a major liking to any old movies they watched thar were about sports teams like Remember the titans Sunshine may have made him think about kissing boys as well.

I mentioned off hand he has a crush on the rap singer Drake as well but he don't know that how he feels. Much as much as I like to joke about it this idiot isn't gonna notice that he's romanticly intrested in casey either right away. Despite the obvious signs being there uwu

|Regret|

"Kind regert tellin' my brothers I didn' want thier faces ta be the last thing I see."

Raphael likes to play cool especially around his brothers. Mostly his brothers. Cool os not caring and being the bug tough guy. But deep down? Raphael loves his brothers so much. You can see how much he looks out to protect them with out a second thought even. This don't fit anywhere else I just feel like bringing it up I like to think Raph shell is still cracked thanks to superfly. So it severs as a nice reminder now.

|Change|

"I mean a lot changed now so guess 'hats cool?"

Raphael happy for the changes going on, mkre family is nice having other mutants around helps him feel less alone, less alien even. He gets to go to school and well I thinks he's friendly with some he still really only has April and casey as real friends Casey being his best even if they had a rocky start and nkt many understand how thier friendship works.

|Dreams|

"I dream 'bout fighting a lot. There's no problem there."

Raph, even tells the others he dreams about fighting but not so much actual dreams he has at night just something he felt would be love todo. He still has he rage issues he just full of it and he needs to work it out he dose try to keep it in check he just always feel mad but things like going out into the city, messing around on tje roof with his brothers anything hands on even dose seem to help he dosent really knkw why he so angry and he tries his best not to take it out on his brothers. He very easily could focus it on like Leo when he snitches on them instead he keeps it in and let's it come out more as teenage mood swings and attitude which has a lot todo with how he carries himself around and speaks towards others.

Fighting and sports is a very good way for him to work it out least tap into he as an outlet but this means he may loose control and go to far maybe even. With out meaning too.

That why he dreams of meeting someone who will just get him understand him in a way no one else has. He just feels so alone despite being surrounded by a family. He's not a bad person he's just overly excitable at times and very passionate about what he likes.

#muse| hamato raphael #madamkezzie #aflockoffeathers #[ 87 verse] #[ 03 verse] #[07 verse] #[ 2012 verse] #[ sf verse] #[ mm verse] #send a topic meme #muse headcanons #muse bio: hamato raphael #((I aint taging all the relationships touched on XD))

[rrxnjun]

well music taste is also kind of questionable since i don't really mind his music at all (although my taste in music is questionable for a lot of other reasons too lmaooo) i added all of them to my watch later (but the fact that jack manifold is in those videos and he is one of my fav streamers just makes them probably even better)

AHHH IM GLAD U LIKED THEM!!🥳you're here that's the thing is just such a nice song i'm glad that it's ur fav 🥹🥹

i kind of liked the chilling adventures of sabrina although i never finished the first season cuz i just for some reason can never finish shows🫡 but it also didn't become my fav show so i understand why didn't watch it🫡 ooo i never saw friend dahmer was it good??:o PASS ME BY IS ONE OF THEIR BEST SONGS OUTTHERE and tbh i deff recommend red velvet, if, lay your head down, easy love, heart made up on you (these are probably my favs from them but i'm not sure whether u will end up liking them or not😟)

dude i've been vibing so much to my by yael on my way to school that song is so🤌like that songs just adds life to my mornings!! i swear why is it so hard to find artist in native languages🥲tbh i was struggling so much with finding hungarian artists as well but then i found like three good ones and the rest i'm just trying to force myself to like (or more so ignore the thing that i don't like like cringy lyrics xd) ohh that probably makes sense why they feel nostalgic then!! thank u for telling me🥲

MY CLASS TRIP GOT CANCELED CUZ NOT ENOUGH PEOPLE APPLIED (?) FOR IT😭😭so sadly i'm not going anymore☹️☹️☹️☹️but i hope one day i will get another chance to go to slovakia☹️

(and school has been kicking my ass lately so sorry for the kind of late reply☹️ liebestraum anon💕)

ppls taste in music is sometimes so weird but somehow it makes sense. also i love how diverse it can get like u can find ppl who really do listen to a LOT of genres and i think thats great !!!! and even tho i do clown myself for my music taste sometimes,, at the end of the day its music and supposed to make ppl happy and thats what matters the most 🥰 ALSO JACK MANIFOLD IS SO FUNNY ISTG hes my fav guest on these 😩💕

i get u!!! if i dont hyper obsess over a show i hardly ever finish any either 😭😭 i dont get how ppl can push themselves through shows they dont like. omg my friend dahmer was...less chilling then the dahmer netfix series for sURE also i think evan peters did a better job than ross did at portraying him but it wasnt a bad movie imo! for obvious reasons i cant say i enjoyed watching it but i definitely dont regret it. ALSO I REALISED I KNOW ALL THOSE R5 SONGS U RECOMMENDED I JUST FORGOT ABOUT THEM AHAHAHA am i secretly an r5 stan and didnt know abt it ???? thanks for refreshing my memory i fucking lOOVE red velvet especially

the lyrics to my are also soso pretty imo!! a lyric from the song is my spotify playlist name LMAO its such a screamable song. its dedicated to his daughter 😌😌 altho i wont talk abt this bc i find the whole situation kind of..uhh yeah (love me some slovak drama). AHAHA i get u w the artists in your language!! i wish we had slovak artists that make music in the vibe of the artists u recommended to me :(

OH NOOO :((( NO BRATISLAVA FOR U THEN 🤧🤧🤧 id be bummed bro i loved class trips. we dont get those at uni anymore its depressing 😭😭 the first time i was in bratislava i was impressed w the old town centre i kept taking pictures bc i have a weird obsession w pretty buildings AHAHA hope u can visit some other time!!

its okay also!! my replies are so late as well so dont worry abt it😩 hope school is easier for u soon!! have a great day xx im rooting for u!!

#💌ask #liebestraum anon

[anoms-world]

the same ppl who pour black salt to the open wound made me love life but when i look around its all way too salty to move as i am finally become white salt so its fine as long stays the same you know what i mean sure needs sugar unless you are the only burned sugar even better/bitter. dies/doesnt by a thoughts and tears

if this dream this spell last any longer i will strart going coco tho its feel nice yea its nice to be addictic till you cant you become impation angry and confused or simple greed like the usual story yet i will start to wonder who am i where i am where i soppuse to be and more importart who they are the hot head who dont like anything about the real you oh lessons and lessons to stay away from the job nuts as much as it possible in way or another the verbal truth (details: about being punished for little stupid things and about i cant take it anymore and how deeply hurt my soul,, funny they still till me to grow up tho they cant comminute like adults treat me poorly like exactly a kid! she said you hurt me when you made us looks bad you will regret that tears* lol yea so obvious then she lose sleep like everyday haha she blame on me for this day XD confidant lie remember) has slipedd like anything else slips if you are not carefull enough or start complaining spountly she start crying i mean come one we all monsers we dont deserve tears to cry at least i wouldnt cry infrront of you like you do not to mention your practical truth that made me shocked for long time to even cry secrtvly the gifter (wolfe) toke his gifts in humilating way the same usual story everywhere its true espicialy for someone emperssed shy to ask more (someone who really thank god) or afraid to ruin chances any further sinse it tend to ruin chances out of eximent by hopes flames well at least not on porpuse they think things will last the same and death doesnt exist but no till you become someone else pet lions made me cry in blood crows made me a freak wolfes into begger buterfly into angry alien who lost all hopes dogs into pet show cats into blame game, beaver into possessed doll, horse into badass doll, fox into slave ,dolphen into spiritual victim , peackock into bug to kill ll pet myself thanks helpesly not to mention no where to go no similar interests to nothing to do.

im always afraid how can you talk to something you are afraid of (cant even pray in peace) if that mean everyone? hope the exit wouldnt be in anger and confuion it would be too messy sinse its easy and naturly to trigger big monsters the crows are nice till they talk to big friends which will tear you apart completly in so many levels send you to the dusty past from nothing from the shock point tell you find one of the hopeful kids from your past to hide, umm no they not nice yet they share the same stress as we do.

how hard can be to say "do you need help?" but nooo too high pride yet rather ask another meaningless stuff ,and peaceful quiet one not in the possession to ask this question! if this magicly happenedd the world will be a better place and less unhuman,, unless they hasitate and answer in rude way end up crying then yea you know why tho you claim to be responsible just ballshit! or mybe you dont mean it at all and obvious in your tune and the way you move said busy you are not nice excuse.

[windebris]

roman: princy or princess?

ok i know the title sounds like crack, but hear me out:

Roman’s whole deal is being a prince. Hes got the costume, he plays up the gimmick, he even has a fricking sword. We know this, we’ve seen the ups and downs of this in the series, and we know the black and white, prince vs evil mentality is about to explode in everyone’s face (more so than it already has, that is) because who everyone expects/wants him to be doesnt line up with his real self, and he’s still not at the point of truly accepting himself for who he isnt (a cookie cutter, perfect prince) and is (a mess) (via @beauty-and-passion bc i love their analyses so fricking much), but we’ll come back to that

Roman’s primary inspiration (via c! thomas’ perception) is disney princes, so lets take a look at their usual jobs in the films.

Vanquish evil 

Advocate true love

simple enough, right? just like roman, at first it seems that way. Im sure at the beginning of sanders sides we all thought he would be a showy, pretty boy prince who wanted thomas to be ‘good’. Because princes always get rid of the evil in the end, right?

but we know how thats worked out for roman. Mean to virgil, backfired awfully. Condemned janus, everyone’s against roman now. Separate from remus, it came back to bite thomas. And it was fine, roman would have put up with anything so long as it only hurt him, but because thomas got hurt everything is worse. (of course, this is the case with janus too, but i’ll come back to that)

everyone knows by now that there’s going to be a reckoning next episode. We’ve seen thomas costumed as remus, so he’s gonna be in there. Roman had a breakdown last ep, backed into a corner and a confrontation, so if he isnt there when his twin is i am going to riot. Janus is definitely going to be there bc the last ep saw jan fINALLY being accepted (also a part of that confrontation), and i’m just dying to know where virgil has been as well so he might also show up. The whole gang’s gonna see what chaos goes down if patton even sneezes in their general direction

where was i going with this, i had a point

RIGHT

So vanquish evil has failed every which way for roman. Whats left? True love. Now, in most films this refers to a princess, but i think roman’s focus always has been and always will be thomas. He was heartbroken when the whole ‘thomas was lying about roman being his hero’ (or at least roman interpreted janus’ nod that way), his whole theme is because thomas needed a prince to save him from the ‘bad thoughts’ ie remus (which is irrelevant to my point so we dont have time to unpack all that rn- /ref)

But because he failed to vanquish evil the ‘right’ way (even though literally everything patton ever said led him to believe he was doing the right thing-), he’s failed to show thomas the ‘true love’, hence he is no longer thomas’ hero. No longer his prince.

whaBAM, entire basis of his identity no longer exists

So what’s left?

disney is still there, its a core part of roman and no amount of anguish will lessen that it was a core part of c! thomas’ creative development

on that note, roman still has to be his core functions. creativity, passion, ego, hopes, dreams, etc

Thinking on it though, none of those ever fit neatly into the prince persona in the first place. A prince is there to serve his ‘kingdom’ (ie the sides + thomas) and to complete the above values, not to be an artist or performer or any of the things thomas dreams of. And there is no room for passion or ego in the life of a prince because he is always looking out for his people (what should be the others’ job). Which begs the question: why was roman a prince in the first place?

The obvious answer goes back to disney being c!thomas’ first forays into storytelling. the princes were perfect examples of ‘goodness’, which as we know is key to what thomas pre-the newer episodes wanted to be, and existing already in familiar stories with killer songs to match, it was an ideal match for a ‘good’ creativity

But deeper than that, i think roman is a prince because thomas needed a placeholder to be his protector. He wasnt yet aware of janus (the metaphorical protector, saving thomas from what he wasnt yet ready for), lying to himself about the dark other sides altogether, and virgil was too busy playing the ‘bad guy’ at the beginning to show his true colors (looking out for thomas is virgil’s purpose, as we now know), but back then? Roman was the one barricading virgil the most, ‘protecting’ thomas from his influence

Therefore! The reason roman was the prince was to ‘save’ thomas from the others, and unconsciously, the ‘dark creativity’. Without the ‘prince,’ thomas would have accepted the darkness all to easily (from roman’s perspective, which once again goes into the subconscious protecting from remus’ stuff)

But, returning to the point (i keep getting off track lol), now the prince is gone. He’s failed in his pursuits, there is nothing else to protect from (ignoring orange), he isnt thomas’ hero

I think, bear with me, he’s going to become more of a princess now.

✨metaphorically✨

Princes, in the typical disney movie, are black and white. Theyre either good (eric, phillip, etc) or bad (see hans). Fight evil, get the girl love interest, live happily ever after, or… dont.

Living happily ever after by fighting evil has gotten roman absolutely nowhere; in fact, it got him ostracized and rethinking his entire self concept, so thats not an option now.

princesses, on the other hand, have gone through a fricking renaissance. Where they used to be as black and white as princes minus the possibly-evil bit and delicate as flowers, now they can be hard-working, law-breaking, dream-chasing, yet still people-saving girlbosses, which is essentially roman on a can label.

im mixing my metaphors, but what roman really, truly needs right now is that metamorphosis. He’s crumbling under the pressure his prince persona puts on him (ha, alliteration). Thomas’ moral dilemma is making his two creativities split at the seams even more than they already have, because if morality is such a spectrum, then why is his creativity so seemingly (forgive the overuse of this phrase) black and white?

If roman could shed the princeliness and take in more princess qualities (ie a certain disregard for the rules, doing whats right [for thomas, that is, which is being himself {a theme in many princess-centric films} despite expectations] by ignoring pre-set rules and expectations), he’d be so much healthier in the long run

Thats not to say he should be a princess aesthetically. Dude said himself- he is a manly man who is manly, but the free spirit so many disney princesses seem to envelop could better not only roman, but thomas

this way, roman doesnt *have* to be perfect to be ‘good’ (something thomas still values, but in a different way now as we see in SvS redux). He can be his truest self (ego, passion, dreams and all) without contradicting who thomas sees roman as. He can go back to being his hero, if he wishes -- just in a new way

Because all the things that dont fit into being a prince fit perfectly into princesses (and he still gets to keep the innate disney-ness for the aesthetic)

#sanders sides #character analysis #roman sanders #ts roman #i spent an hour on this #what am i doing with my life #my dinners gone cold bc i was too intrigued #i dont regret it tho XD #prose by ani #ani rambles #i think it fits in both categories

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it's literally so funny that i thought i could be productive over break 🥰🤪

#lollll it's fine i'll just regret it next week and the week after probably lol #when i'm struggling bc i have practice every evening next week :P #oof lmao it's fineeeeeeee :'') #i haven't been like crazy unproductive tho which is good i guess lmao it's just like #how is it already thursday like this week long break was jsut nothing 🤡 #jfhjgfhgflg doesn't help that the basement in my house is really cold so i've been staying out of it but that's where my backpack and like #my planner is XD if i could just be looking at that all day i'd probably do more #why don't i take it out of the basement idk lmao shush 🤪 #also my spring break has just been swallowed by watching six (the musicaI) videos on youtube lmfao #all i wanna do all i wanna do baby is watch six videos over and over #anyway :') i should stop lol but yeah ugh #oh yeah and when i go back my minicourse is starting toooo lol #an extra lecture on tuesdays and thursdays :P #i'm excited about it but oof didn't really factor that into my upcoming workload lol oops #uhghhghgfhgjfghfbf oh well rip me rip my math grade w upcoming stuff actually honestly lol i'm just not thinking about thatttt 🤪 #jeanne talks #i dont need ur looooOOooooOOOOOooooOOOOOOOoooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE WE DONT NEED UR LOOOOVE #my brain rn lmfao just SIIIIIX