#i even put the references for fun

[lokislytherin]

the angel (jay), the witch (daniel), and the audacity of this bitch (gun)

Lookism (2014-) is a South Korean webtoon written and illustrated by Park Taejoon (PTJ). It revolves around Park Hyung Seok / Daniel Park, who was bullied and “an unattractive loner who wakes up in a different body” which is “tall, handsome, and cooler than ever” (Naver Webtoon) when he transfers to J High. Daniel desires to find the secret behind why he now has two bodies, and in the process of doing so, he gets involved with two key characters: Hong Jae Yeol / Jay Hong, who eventually becomes one of his closest friends; and Park Jong Gun / Gun Park, who is a major antagonist of the series. This essay will explore the extent to which Jay and Gun can be seen as character parallels of each other through investigating their similarities and differences.

First and foremost, Jay and Gun have various similarities. Most of these are explicitly shown throughout the webtoon - for example, they are both smokers, as well as trained fighters, with Jay shown using Systema and Kali Arnis, and Gun with a multitude of martial arts including Aikido, Kyokushin Karate, and Capoeira. They are also both affiliated with wealthy families and corporations, as Jay is the second son of chaebol organisation H Group’s CEO Hong Kyeong Yeong / Steve Hong and younger brother of H Group’s future heir Hong Kitae, while Gun is one of the Ten Geniuses raised by Choi Dongsoo / Charles Choi, who is the CEO of H Group’s competitor HNH Company and the hired bodyguard of Charles Choi’s daughter Crystal Choi. But this is not the extent of their similarities.

Moreover, Jay and Gun are both closely linked with Lookism’s main character, Daniel. However, their relationships with Daniel also mark the biggest difference between them: their treatment of Daniel.

In the first chapter of Daniel’s arrival at J High, Jay is shown to have some kind of interest in him compared to the rest of their class: 

The isolated panel of Jay’s parted lips proceeded by a bust-up panel of Jay (Chapter 4) juxtaposes the grouped reactions of the rest of the class. Although Jay never speaks, he is almost always one of the first individuals to come running to Daniel’s aid whenever he is in trouble in future chapters, eventually solidifying his place in Daniel’s friend circle. Daniel is also one of the only characters in the series capable of perfectly interpreting Jay’s silences. Whatever Jay’s exact interest in Daniel is has never explicitly been stated, but PTJ has implied that Jay is homosexual and harbors a crush on Daniel, claiming "큰형석을 짝사랑(?) 한다” (@/ptj.comics on instagram), which roughly translates to “I have a onesided love(?) for Big Hyung Seok”, referring to Daniel’s second body. Time and time again, Jay has shown himself to be willing to sacrifice anything and everything for Daniel, including himself.

Similar to Jay, Gun shows an interest in Daniel almost immediately after meeting him on his own, yet the way he treats Daniel is wildly different. He constantly fights Daniel or the boys in Daniel’s friend group, causing Daniel no small amount of stress and worry. Yet, after Big Daniel is kidnapped by Park Jinyoung, the original Daniel goes to Gun and asks for Gun to train him into becoming a better fighter so he doesn’t “have to solve his own problems” (Chapter 397), this is what Gun says after beating Daniel up:

In the earlier panel, Jay is drawn in bright lighting as he looks at Daniel, suggesting that Daniel brings light to Jay’s life. However, in this panel (Chapter 397: The Kidnapping of Daniel Park - 4) Gun is shown walking into the darkness while dragging Daniel’s bloodied and unconscious body behind him. This suggests that Gun is willing to destroy Daniel - both in mind and body - for his own goals, and ‘for Daniel’s sake’, providing a contrast to Jay.

In conclusion, Jay and Gun have many similarities regarding their backgrounds, but meeting Daniel brings out the self-destructive side of Jay while bringing out the destructive side of Gun at the same time. Thus, Jay and Gun can be interpreted as character parallels through careful analysis of their probably-toxic relationships with Daniel Park. 

This semi-bullshit essay was not proof-read but is dedicated to @lookismaddict​ all the same for enabling this humble writer.

#LMAO #park jong gun #gun park #jay hong #hong jaeyeol #daniel park #park hyungseok #character study #lookism #lookism headcanons #meme essay #i may not necessarily fight to the death for self sacrificial jay headcanon #but i am inviting you all to stand on this hill with me #fyi this is exactly how i write essays for school #almost #i even put the references for fun #bc 1) starshatter 2) gun characterisation lesson #i lied i gave up on the references #i'm sure they're in specific chapters but i basically referred to the wiki #and pulled characterisation out of my ass at points #bc i'm biased

[lilybug-02]

Eimmit High...timmiE high. OMG!

Part 28 || First || Previous || Next...

--Full Series--

Next update may take...much longer! I have finals and an internship and not to mention I have to draw- A LOT :')

#Golly! #this is a shorter update but I wanted it to be that way. We've been in the house for a while. It's time to change some scenery!! #Chara using their game narrator voice like “golly!” and “amazing!” #Eimmet high :)) i was really hoping to be able to reference Timmie Chang here. An integral part of UT/DR!! She's awesome! #WE ARE OFFICIALLY ON Day 2 BABY #yes- there is still a little everyman easter egg as well as some other things... ;) #I tried so many new and different things for these panels. I was a little nervous implementing them. But im having a lot of fun with it! #i try to put my own artistic enjoyment above all other things :) its what I strive for. #Angle's landing day! excited for the festivities! #Chara is feeling stabby :) #loved detailing Chara's hand in the last page. When I detail the hands- just know shits getting real #I'm really happy with how I was able to redraw Toriel here. She showed up in the second part and that was it for 2 years -w- #so even if she's not a major character- I wanted to give her some good screen time <3 #I did not make the Darkworld “Mayor” just for that one joke....but dang did it fit perfectly. #these 4 pages took longer than I wanted. I got burnt out with school and then finals came!!! AND ALSO EMAILS q-q #deltarune chara timeline #deltarune chara timeline comic #chara #asriel #kris #susie #toriel #tw cursing #cw cursing

[ukiyoebirds]

When you're the only one in the friend group who has wings.

Click for better quality.

#digital art #references are life #kirby #kirby fanart #waddle dee #king dedede #meta knight #bandana waddle dee #flying #floating #helicoptering with a spear #cute #I've been playing Kirby and the forgotten land lately #friendship #it's a lot of fun #What's this? Something not angsty?! it's been awhile #these guys have tried to kill Kirby at one point or another #I put in effort for king dedede's hammer and I didn't even bother to try for meta knight's sword

[wtfforged]

combine your comfort characters for instant mood improvement

#this is zoro in mr zenyatta overwatch's outfit if it wasnt clear. #.... even though his outfit is just pants. lmfao. whatever i had fun #honestly i think he looks great in zens outfit since its just baggy pants. zoro looks great in baggy pants #disgruntled filler-ssop to the rescue for my inability to not draw at a slant #im not tagging overwatch it doesnt count #i fucked up the comic readability bc i put the speech bubbles out of order but oh well. we live and we learn #when sanji says swordsman hes talking about genji as a reference to my last comparison post. sorry. im tired #wtf... art #one piece fanart #roronoa zoro #zoro

[sonic-adventure-3]

metal sonic take 2

#this time i don’t have a migraine so i was actually seeing what colours i was using and i actually used reference #maybe i’ll clean this up later but i’m sleepy now #y’know what? metal sonic is kinda fun to draw when i stop getting in my own head abt ‘not knowing how to draw robots’ #been putting it off for a while #maybe i’ll even draw omega sometime soon #my art #metal #metal sonic #sth #mmmmm okay i lied i think i still do have a migraine the ibuprofen is wearing off now

[iris-drawing-stuff]

Milgram Omori AU continuation

Around 4 years after Mirai's death

He manages to repress the memories of the murder, but he still feels uneasy in the hallway in his house where it happened. To cope, Haruka dreams of a perfect fantasy world (called Headspace) where he gets to live happily with all his loved ones. Generally, Muu takes on a caretaker role, replacing his mother. Mikoto is a friendly people person who bickers a lot with Fuuta. Fuuta is hotheaded and causes problems but genuinely cares about the others. Kotoko is the level-headed mediator who stops Mikoto and Fuuta from arguing too much. Mirai is sweet and always supportive of everyone.

During a fun but routine day(night?) in Headspace, something happens. While looking through Mikoto's photo album with everyone, Muu suddenly goes missing after discovering a photograph of a broken violin, alluding to Mirai's death. Haruka forces himself to wake up.

In the middle of the night, Haruka goes downstairs because he's starving, but he has to go through the hallway to reach the kitchen. Passing through causes him to have a panic attack and hallucinate Mirai. He eventually manages to get there and eat, but he throws it up and then goes to sleep.

In Headspace, Haruka and his friends set off on a quest to find Muu. Mirai opts out of the actual adventuring but sets up picnics around Headspace to provide support for everyone while they're on their journey.

That's all for now.

Also here's their Headspace sprites. Featuring Kotoko in a tank top with a wolf on it because she's just like that. It'll be more clear in the actual Kotoko outfit.

#milgram #milgram fanart #milgram au #milgram omori au #mikoto kayano #muu kusunoki #fuuta kajiyama #tbh haruka's mom does not end up in headspace because i do not want to draw her #she doesn't deserve it #I've given Muu and Fuuta completely new outfits since in Omori all the headspace versions of characters minus Basil and Mari wear pajamas #Although Muu takes Basil's role she gets to wear fancy pajamas with an embroidered bee because I thought it would be cute #I put the blanket on Fuuta to allude to the final part of Bring it on #IDK I thought it would be a fun reference even if it doesn't quite make sense

[sysig]

The familiarity is not very comforting (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Papyrus #Asgore #Always with memories/lack of memories being distressing! How memories shape action interests me quite a lot #Papyrus and Sans both have the ''this has been on me since forever so it's normal'' outlook on the plates #Defensive when other people get concerned about their lack of concern haha <3 #But what if ♪ #Honestly probably could be set anywhere but I wanted Papyrus to be worried for Sans' safety and not fully know why <3 #Lots of very I don't know why I know this but I'm not happy about it haha #Can you tell I didn't use references for this from Asgore's outfit and the boys being on the opposite sides lol #It was very fun to draw them being carried haha ♥ Asgore's gigantic hands #Teeny tiny babies even still haha #In case it's unclear - Sans is looking at Asgore's text in the second panel and putting two and two together about his hand plate #That was a point of curiousity for me while I was reading :0 All the other text Gaster uses to communicate is WingDings! #All the papers he has the boys do and obviously his native font to speak haha #Wondered briefly if it was perhaps that distancing thing I mentioned a bit back in reference to ZEX actually haha #Like swearing in a different language - a way to not claim the action as his own in some small sense #Or perhaps as reference to their fonts being in that alphabet? I wonder! #I love their little interactions in how they look out for each other even in small ways <3 #Papyrus concerned of course! Falling is dangerous! It'll be more obvious why later but this is emotionally a very strong and real feeling! #And Sans wants to do anything he can to not make his brother sad ♥ #It'll all turn out okay you two 💕

[alfhildr-the-word-weaver]

I lowkey want one of those "live laugh love" type house signs that says "come freely, go safely, and leave something of the happiness you bring" for the entryway of my house someday. I think it'd be hilarious, but it's also lowkey a nice greeting in its own way, if perhaps mildly ominous... What a nice way to set a welcoming vibe! ;)

#I'm kind of joking but also kind of not #like whenever I manage to get myself a house I could totally paint a little sign like that #it'd be so fun seeing who got the reference too #definitely putting it on the 'projects to do when I finally obtain a dwelling' list #(I have been trying to move out but it is not cheap... it's a whole thing) #but yeah can you tell I'm behind on Drac Daily again? #I'm listening to the podcast one this year but I'm not even as caught up as I was last year #granted I have more other stuff going on and I didn't really set keeping up as a goal this time around #some day I will finally get through all of Dracula... maybe later this year. We'll see #Dracula Daily #Count Dracula #live laugh love #home decor #fandom decor #jonathan harker #tangentially #welcome signs #vampires

[rotisseries]

tired of people who want pjo movie references in the disney+ show. "logan lerman should've been-" i don’t care. "poker face in the casino-" actually i hope ms. gaga keeps her entire discography miles away from it. i don't care move on

#peace and love🫶 #this isn't even to say I didn't like those parts of the movies or that I can't see the appeal in having references in the show #I'm just tired of HEARING about it oh my god #the pjo movies are getting all of the loving looking back they could need #just in the fact that people's opinions of them are clearly shifting #like people look back on them more fondly now they were VERY bad adaptations but fun movies overall with some good scenes #I think the shift in public opinion is also due to the d+ show btw I think the fact we have a good adaptation now #means people no longer feel the need to spend energy publicly and viscerally disavowing the movies anymore #but we still don't really need references to it!! especially when it's shit you're so clearly not getting I'm sorry #they're not putting logan lerman anywhere in there you know this look inside yourself #and they're DEFINITELY not putting poker face in the lotus hotel scene COME ON NOW THAT WOULD JUST BE STUPID #the lotus hotel scene is already going to undeniably get compared to the pjo movie version #and they. kind of have a lot to beat. the lotus hotel scene was so much fun #there's already going to be a bunch of “which was better?” discourse about it #using poker face would honestly probably not help. also then it's not gonna be a fun scene in it's own right #it's gonna be a fun and good scene to people just cause it references some bad movies #anyway I hope they pick a different song I saw some people say hotel room- #pjo #pjo tv #pjo disney+

[nonoqy]

smol dnf playing with giant patches if you're up to drawing cat :D

if not sleepy or cuddly dnf perhaps 👉👈

they're having fun ^_^

#anogie who asked for small gnf playing with patches This is for u as well 🫶🏻 #patches is so . patchy dont zoom in on her i just put splotches of color on her without actually rendering the fur 😭 #fun fact ​i used a pic of my own cat as a reference :3 #nia.doodles #<- is that even the tag i don't remember

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

looking very closely at the website neighborhood and here's some little things i noticed (plus some overthinking & flower symbolism):

~ the only butterflies on the "map" are the ones outside of Frank's house, and the single one outside of Eddie's.

~~ i think the flowers outside of Eddie's are either hyacinths or lavender. given that the flowers are different colors, they're probably hyacinths. which is a Fascinating choice to me, because hyacinths can symbolize regret, devotion (especially beyond death), love, forgiveness, and jealousy - depending on the flower color. Eddie has light blue, dark blue, and purple. The butterfly is landing on the purple one (sorrow, mourning, forgiveness, regret, devoted love).

~~ its also Fascinating because the myth behinds hyacinths is about the greek god Apollo and his (male) human lover, Hyacinthus. they were playing discus (metal frisbee). Apollo threw the discus too hard, and it bounced back and hit Hyacinthus, killing him. devastated, Apollo grew the hyacinth flower from Hyacinthus' spilled blood. SO THE FACT THAT EDDIE, GAY PUPPET EDDIE, HAS HYACINTH FLOWERS OUTSIDE THE POST OFFICE IS UM. INCH RESTING!

~~ (also also in the myth, Apollo wanted to rescind his immortality to join Hyacinthus in his death. and in an alternate version of the myth, Hyacinthus was technically murdered, because Zephyrus was jealous that Apollo preferred a mortal over him & purposefully blew the discus off course to strike Hyacinthus. things to think about. yes, in this whole myth metaphor im viewing Eddie as Hyacinthus and Frank as Apollo. do with this what you will)

~ All of the trees in the neighborhood are in the same general style, except for the tree outside of Sally's home, which is a pine tree. i wonder why!

~ the only buildings with second floors are Barnaby's, Frank's, Sally's, and Poppy's homes. rip the "wally falls down the stairs" memes

~ there's a teeny tiny Home in the post office display window

~ Julie's house has quite a lot of heart symbolism. like, a weird amount. an amount to the point where i now have an entire theory around what her role and arc might be. i Will talk about it with minimal prompting.

~ one of the swingset balloons has a happy face balloon with its eyes closed, which stands out to me (and fuels my julie theory)

~ the only neighbors who don't have flowers outside of their buildings are Sally, Julie (disregarding decoration), and Howdy.

~ Poppy has daffodils, which symbolize rebirth, new beginnings, resilience, and hope. however, they have a negative side of selfishness.

~ Barnaby has red, yellow, and blue tulips. red means undying love, admiration, and truth. yellow means "there's sunshine in your smile", joy, happiness, friendship - But it can also mean unrequited love or jealousy. Blue means individuality, trust, and good luck

~~ note that there's a dead/trampled white tulip. white tulips symbolize sorrow, "my condolences", apology, honor, purity, faith.

~ Frank has sunflowers, daisies, and some others, but those i think are more generic, unspecific flowers for added decoration. i couldn't find a "red flower on vine" that fits the general look of the ones on his house. now, sunflowers symbolize adoration, loyalty, longevity, happiness (also, might i add that these flowers are from another greek myth about apollo, this one where Apollo turns a jealous nymph into a sunflower for snitching on his mortal lover, which got her (the lover) killed. inch resting indeed.)

~~ also blue daisies, which i am assuming are the blue flowers outside his house, symbolize freedom, trust, loyalty, confidence, and honesty. lots of positivity surrounding Frank's house!

~ Wally has daisies. these symbolize innocence, purity, new beginnings, hope, and affection. it can also symbolize the ability to keep a secret. a fun fact i found interesting is the word daisy comes from an old english word meaning "day's eye."

~~ do i believe these flower choices were purposeful? maybe. probably. it does seem strange that there are specific, distinct flowers drawn in equally specific parts of the "map", while a couple of generic "cartoon" style flowers are sprinkled throughout

~ three green apples are growing on the tree next to Howdy's Place

~ it stands out to me that the bodega window above the fruit stands is completely blacked out. no window shine or nothing

~ Sally's "yard" is weirdly barren. everyone else's buildings (excluding Home) has several things decorating the surrounding area. all she has is a spotlight and a tree.

~ Barnaby's house having paint all over it (and a paintbrush & can next to it) is just cute to me. it makes me think that he wanted to paint like his lil' buddy Wally and just went ham with it. or it was a team effort between them<3

~ it took me a while to notice the tiny "Eddie's" painted above Post Office. it gives the vibe (to me) of him tacking on the "Eddie's" to make the office feel more like his. maybe he saw the sign "Howdy's Place" and decided to paint his name on his building to make himself feel more established and at home

~ there's something on / part of Frank's roof. i don't know what it is. if anyone has an idea please tell me its driving me insane. at first i thought it was a chimney but theres two? making an additional symmetrical structure? idk!!

~ there are only three buildings with straight up rainbows. Eddie's post office (hanging from the roof and in the window), Sally's house (the entire front), and Frank's house (butterfly on the door wreath. i almost didn't catch it, it's a sneaky one!)

#conclusion: i am definitely overthinking but being proven wrong through discovery is half of the fun #(and turning out to be either right on the money or even partially-right is the other half of the fun) #its just!!! its really strange how fitting some of the flower choices are!! #eddie has flowers that are 'from' a greek myth about tragic gay love. #barnaby has a trampled tulip that is often used as a sympathy funeral flower. along with all of his other character references to death #frank has one of the few flowers other than hyacinths that directly links to a greek myth where apollo's mortal lover dies tragically #(which is just a weird coincidence if you ask me. the canon lovers both having greek myth apollo based tragic love flowers) #wally has flowers that symbolize keeping secrets and whos etymology is literally 'days eye'. him. the eye contact connoisseur #who's from something that puts emphasis on daytime while spurning night as something forbidden #ITS JUST!!!! WHY DOES IT FIT SO WELL!!!! #either these are some craaaaazy coinkydinks or this was Purposeful. #my flower-symbolism loving ass is chewing on this like a rabid dog #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home speculation

[pamouche]

Sand and his iconic t-shirts

Guns N’Roses

The Who

Wild breed

The Wet Bandits Wanted

No doubt

You suck

Pink Floyd

The Rolling Stones

Peter Frampton

Kiss

#i had fun looking these rock bands. i didn’t know that much abt them tbh #it makes me realize that sand is such a fan!! #i hope one day sandray get to go to a music festival #or even better that sand’s the one who puts on a show in front of a lot of ppl! #i’ll definitely come🥹 #anyway i’ve tried to link you to his t-shirts references if you’re interested #i’m not sure these sites are safe so do your research before buying from them #i’ve noticed that some t-shirts are expensive lol #i know sand found them at thrift stores but the prices??? this is too much. i agree with ray ahaha #ofts sand #sand x ray #firstkhaotung #first kanaphan #only friends the series #ofts #oftsedit #my edits🌱 #only friends sand

[vynegar]

"Albie" (main story 11-21)

At the end of Episode 11 (Part 1), we find out that "Albie" is simply a name that Vyn made up on the spot when Rosa asked. He may have been inspired by his own birth name, Vilhelm Richard Albert de Haspran.

In Chinese, Vyn choose the name "阿明". "阿" is a prefix used to form nicknames, "明" can be a name but also means "bright, clear". In Vyn's Romantic Rail Getaway card "Food for Thought", he tells us the meaning of his name:

You can see the character 明 appear in the word 明亮 ("bright"), although 明 is such a common character that I wouldn't say that this Chinese text alone is enough is sufficient evidence to show the connection between the two names. It's the way that the "Albie" and "阿明" happen to coincide in the name "Albert", which made me take note of Vyn's "careless" choice in name.

If the Chinese name was intended to subtly reference "Albert", I can certainly imagine imagine this as one way to preserve that reference through translation, even if it becomes more obvious. We do have an example of the translation preserving plot-relevant wordplay in a name: Lowe Leare ("Lowly"), originally 萧仁 ("小人", both pronounced "xiao ren" but with different tones). However, there's also an incident of a plot-relevant name being missed through translation, though it was in an event (not the main story) that probably foreshadowed a distant plot point and had infamously bad translation issues.

Anyway, it remains possible that "Albie" is a coincidence. However, after Vyn and Rosa wrap up their conversation about Albie's name, the narration makes a comment on the importance of that moment:

It isn't until the whole case is settled that you are surprised to realize something... You had briefly touched on the key to cracking the case at this very moment.

...which at least gives me enough confidence to not feel silly writing up a whole post about it. We've only seen part of this case, and there's a lot of mystery still surrounding Vyn's behavior so I don't have any definitive hypotheses on why Vyn might have chosen his own name for Albie. Is there something that made Vyn seen himself in Albie? Did the delinquent's attitude remind Vyn of the cruel, stratified world that he was born in? Is he reminded of how people who have imperfections will be tossed aside and abandoned? I guess we'll see when part 2 of this episode is released.

#tears of themis #vyn richter #tot vyn #tears of themis analysis #mo yi #tot translation #thoughts of themis #was the ''albie'' reference really obvious or not?? i honestly have no idea. but it only clicked for me bc i was staring at both versions o #text side-by-side and i was like. WAIT A MINUTE. #doing fan translations is fun bc even after there's an official translation; you might read something almost 2.5 years later that triggers #some deep memories (bc u took so so long to translate and had to agonize over every single word choice oh my god) #god i did my first translations two and a half years ago. sounds CRAZY when you put it like that #but honestly great experience 10/10 i'm always wishing i could go back to that time. also nothing makes me feel more powerful than when i k #know i have an easily searchable script of certain cards thanks to my own translation. it was SO EASY to find that RRG excerpt #hmm should i crosspost to the themis subreddit. i do have an account but i use it mostly to talk about console otome games

[nancywheeeler]

i know people are not watching Stranger Things for period-accurate indiana culture but it’s wild to me over the course of 4 seasons now, no one has mentioned the colts once. not even in passing! they moved to indianapolis in 1984 and it was a huge deal! you’re telling me officer callahan never tried to break a painful silence between him and hopper with “how about them colts?”

#the indiana personality trait trinity: thinking they're a part of the south basketball and the indianapolis colts #i'm allowed to say this i lived it #also why does the stranger things wiki say hawkins is in roane county? a county that does not exist? #why not put your fake little town in a real county at least #a shout into the void #this is very niche posting but i don't think hawkins has felt like a midwestern town since S1 #they basically add any feature they need for plotting purposes #i'm fine with it being everytown usa #but they could have had more fun adding a dash of weirdly specific hoosier references #does the word hoosier even come up at all in stranger things?? #the very popular (mandatory indiana middle school viewing) hoosiers movie came out in 1986 #damn it now i'm thinking fondly back to middle school hoosier hysteria

[goldkirk]

I opened Pinterest for the first time in months.

That made me realize a lot about how bad I was actually doing and how much of a Waffle House Index use of Pinterest is for adult me, apparently.

I hadn’t realized it had grown that foundational to me in a healthy-brain-exercise-and-hobby-joy way. Nice to know moving forward! It’s another sign I can keep track of and use to spot correlation/indicator patterns earlier my behavior.

I love this kind of thing, it makes me so excited!

#personal data hacking is my passion #someday I’ll tell a story about the most notable times I tracked things or hacked my own mental processes from childhood to now #including the fear of spiders and bed wetting and behavior changes and posture and heart rate and cursive and putting kitchen items and #trash away as soon as I’m finished using them instead of never ever or ages and ages later #I’m so proud of that #you have to give it time and still commit. chaining thoughts and routines and behaviors really works #we are not separate brains and bodies and external environments #anyway I’m gonna go haha I used up he last of my energy burst on Discord and here and I need to go rest and lie on the floor and probly doze #love you all be back soon bye mwah! #add to journal #trauma evolution #my Waffle House index #this is going to be a fun new tag I’m so going to have fun with this and I bet it’ll be a helpful example reference for other people too #more than just for future me! #so excited so proud of myself so happy so grateful for hope about me really trusting that my ability and my behavior and my performance #are able to and going to yes keep getting better #long many-milestone path-journeys of potential #like when I was a little 6-7 year old kid-team athlete looking ahead at a concept of a future with me over time getting #stronger and cleverer and faster and slicker and calmer and even happier and more and more capable and able to accomplish! #a gift. all this time I didn’t think I’d have and have been living anyway is such a gift. #knowing that I truly have future time to grow and explore and change and improve in even though I still can’t FEEL or IMAGINE that future #time yet. also a gift. #the time I will one day realize I can imagine a future and imagine myself alive? will be a gift. #breath is a gift. experiencing life is a gift. other life is a gift. rhythm is a gift. motion is a gift. awake is a gift. color is a gift. #such a great expanse. all of it new. all of it eternal. all of it me. all of it nothing I’ve ever known before. all of it all of it #all of it. gifts. #gonna go have floor time now. this would be such a nice time to re-re-regain my ability to cry! #mwah I love you future me. take care of your hand and thank u for writing all this down 💛 #hey little star whatcha gonna queue? #my poetry

[snazzi-strawberri-artz]

MARSHALS MORNING ROUTINE!!!! :DDD I really liked the drawing i made of him tying his hair so i colored it!! >:]

#im really proud of this you have no idea #especially the final illustartion where hes all dressed up!! #like my linework is SMOOTH and YUMMY and GLIDINGGG #Augh had to look up so much references for this HHHH BUT ITS WORTH IT #but yes i think my story is gonna be around the early 1900s? like specifcally in 1920s but i dont want to limit myself to only that period #But its been really fun researching for this!! #i know. too much about 1920s men garments now #another favorite sketch of mine is where hes laying on the couch just having woken up surrounded by wine bottles and shit #hes so loserfail <3 my wife #but yeah even if his house is a fucking mess he puts more effort into appearing proffessional to hide how much of a miserable mess #he is inside <3 #i love doing this i love it so much #i may do this for other characters? lets see!! #but for now. i shall rest. it is 3 am. as i had lost track of time😁