#i feel like i should tag this but idk

[nature-played-a-trick-on-me]

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literally like this makes me think about the failed therapy again and it makes me so madddddddddddddd also like the irony of getting assaulted in front of my old therapy place like what on earth. close to there is no god level of shite. not doing shit to help me and then i get assaulted and i genuinely think that incident caused me to spiral more and become an unmanageable child from hell. like i was 14 at most and maybe a year after that i was essentially kicked out by my dad. once at my mum i didnt dare leave the house anymore and no one did anything like what the fuckkkkkkkkk

and then the stalker guy at my old place who assaulted a girl and then beat her up......... feels like im incurable at this point like theres people whove been through way worse things and got better. but sometimes it feels like its not gonna get better and anyone who likes me and is a good genuine person who respects my boundaries will tire of me and my distancing and will just leave lol

and i tried therapy 2yrs ago and the conclusion was that they couldnt help me bc of my zoning out which they did nothing about. at all. and like not to mention the psychological torture and physical abuse that make the therapy setting in itself extremely triggering. hence the zoning out after 15 minutes. and its so useless too because i will literally forget things. literallyfucking forgot i was assaulted like i was asked about it in therapy and i was like no and hten in the car on the way home i was like ohmygodinheaven that fucking ALSO FUCKING HAPPENED and everything feels so ironic like i think i couldve gotten adequate treatment if i didnt dissociate so badly and if id been able to talk and remember things id likely get a diagnosis that could get me proper treatment but my symptoms were/are too bad. only pieced things together this spring or so bc i wanted to try therapy again and recalled that 3/4 went under the radar so i wrote everything down over a week and more kept cropping up and i was like what on earth is this. like someone running after me and yelling she was gonna kill me was the least terrible thing i actually ended up scratching it out because it was bad but doesnt haunt/bother me like the other things.

no therapy or anything so now i just spend about a third to half my time reliving the worst moments of my life and i just have to be normal about that and try to live with it bc nothing can apparently be done or the expertise just isnt there. ?????????????????????????????????????

like i have 0 specialised professional support and if i were to appy to therapy id have to wait over 3 months to get treatment and i just know it will be half assed again. i went into my last therapy with trust and dedication and i was willing to crush my entire soul to get through treatment just to be told they couldnt do anything for me bc i 'zoned out'. they discussed my case in their regional team meeting and unanimously decided to send me home to do 'fun things' to take my mind off 'the bad things'.

guess what, school and sports and friends are fun until my skin crawls most of the time and i want to stop existing. the fun also causes the 'bad things'. this thing with this guy could be wonderful but instead im having migraines.

#i feel like i should tag this but idk #what to

[badpanini]

i dont know what compelled me to do all of them but here they are

(NOW AVAILABLE AS STICKERS!! =3)

#i feel like maybe i should have made murderface an uglydoll but idk 😭 #i hope you guys can recognize them all lol #trins art tag =p #metalocalypse #metalocalypse fanart #toki wartooth #dethklok #skwisgaar skwigelf #william murderface #murderface #charles offdensen #nathan explosion #pickles the drummer #y2k #scenecore #domo kun #gir #happy bunny #dear daniel #gloomy bear #happy tree friends

[amygdalae]

Senshi's "I have to feed the youngsters" moment is so funny on first reading and fucking devastating on a second read through 🥲

#dungeon meshi #😭 senshiiii #idk if i should tag this spoilers i feel like im being sufficiently vague here

[umbrvx]

the damned

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #omniscient readers viewpoint #orv #kim dokja #kdj #erm. idk if i should tag yjh its just his hand lol #yea its another Many Hands piece. this is the first time i feel i pulled it off though so yayy #(my last attempts being like... some school assignments & that zero ffxiv piece) #anywayssss hiii ^__^ #also omg i tweeted this but i am sorry if my kdjs are super inconsistent i have no control over this man

[stunkbug]

genuine question from someone who has never owned vanilla extract in roughly two decades of being alive and is being flamed in several group chats for it

#i cook a lot and i feel like i bake a lot but #mostly what i bake is bread? maybe this is why?? but idk #should i like. tag this. to get more answers. #vanilla extract #polls #ok that’s all im tagging it as LOL

[nighternex]

Something lurks in the dark...

This was originally just supposed to be lethal company art until my funky little brain told me the bracken would look pretty if it had leaves/ferns on its head.

Then mid-way through sketching another bit of my brain whispered that it looked kinda like Sun from fnaf don't he?

Well one thing spiraled into another and now the hoarder bug is a mini-music man and the bracken is the daycare attendant. 👍

Good night everyone.

#nyxnight paints #ms paint #lethal company #fnaf sb #fnaf sb au #dca fandom #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf mini music man #bracken #hoarder bug #bracken sun (???) #maybe bracken eclipse (???) #fnaf sun #idk if I should tag fnaf y/n since this was a lethal company fanart first #most likely not gonna write a fic about this but if anyone does feel free to let me know (I wanna read <3)

[dear-ao3]

society if people actually checked whats on the boycott list or not instead of losing their shit and trying to cancel people:

☀️🌄🌅

#like girl help #specifically targeted boycotts. are meant to be specific. idk what to tell yall #wont be naming the situation bc i dont feel like getting cancelled for saying ppl should concentrate their energy on activism rather than #fucking twitter #from katya #not a tag

[spellbird]

(Read from left to right)

Had an intrusive thought about Kazuki's facial hair and just had to make a little comic about it! It's been a while since I've made comics, so sorry that it's kinda messy/ just sketches. I tried to clean them up as best as I could!

#buddy daddies #rei suwa #kazuki kurusu #kazurei #miri unasaka #comic #fanart #my art #(i feel like I should make a tag for my art that's a bit less generic since I rarely use my art account for things anymore) #anyway to the like 3 people still left in this fandom plz enjoy <3 #sorry if this formatting is weird #im hoping tumblr doesn't fuck with it and idk how to make comics #I'd ideally like to clean these sketches up so they look nicer but I don't have the time or energy tbh #this has been sitting in my WIPs for at least a month now

[wybienova]

dream visit (nostalgia) - a 2nd anniversary katfl comic

#wooo wooo yayyyy uayyy happy anniversary #happy birthday elfilin and elfilis my beloveds #kirby #elfilin #fecto elfilis #idk if i should tag this as forgo #katfl #LOTS of talking abt this piece in the tags below #i wanted to do some kinda thing and I got this idea for a comic #so i just kinda went in and did it messy #not really worrying too much about how it looked #and I like how it came out I think #even if elfilin looks kinda bad at some parts #kind of a sequel to my old dream visit post? #that one I gave elfilis/forgo the tunic script but I didn’t feel like doing it this time #this one i was kinda thinking about like. ok #identity and stuff and how it differs for them #i know forgo and elfilis are 2 separate entities #but i like drawing elfilis #so i think in this dream scenario where they can kinda be whatever #they’d show themself as elfilis #because that’s what they are trying to become again anyways #and really elfilin is only a small part of the whole #so forgo IS far more ‘elfilis’ than elfilin would be #similarly they just keep saying ‘i’ whereas elfilin sees that form and thinks ‘we’ #forgo being kind of self centered: they don’t need elfilin to achieve their goals #that being destruction which elfilin would inhibit #except they do to actually become elfilis again #idk whatever I should stop talking #wybs art

[codgod]

at least we know who you are

#.png #qsmp #qsmp a1 #egg a1 #uuuh idk how to tag the other one #qsmp memories egg #child death #i normally don’t tag that for whatever reason #but i feel like maybe i should this time?? idk #also! memories has pink and green on their outfit #because i’m going with the vibe that they were intended for the new members #and most of them have either pink or green on their skins so. yea #very simple kinda scuffed outfit because i’m picturing them as a rush job like richas #they were just kinda shoved into whatever was lying around #and the feather is from their book and quill

[muffingnf]

A rant under cut that people may not agree with idk sorry i just need to get it out

Sorry i’m home from work now and not done yet another reason why I’m actually pissed off is that George is being treated so fucking badly that obviously people, me included, are going to feel fucking bad for him and hope he’s alright. He shouldn’t have anyone feeling bad for him as HE fucked up, however the reaction is SO FUCKING SEVERE and does not match up AT ALL to what happened that obviously people are going to be like ??? what the fuck.

Crazy ass death threats with tens of thousands of likes, doxxed to the moon and back, removed from Vidcon’s creator list, edited out of Nolan’s video and removed from the Feastable’s IG post, everyone and their mother “taking a stand” against him to make themselves look better, friends unfollowing and deleting any trace of him from their accounts. Like. You would think he did something way fucking worse than what he did. And that’s not even something we should be thinking about!!! Because what matters is that he hurt Caiti!!!! And yet he’s being treated worse than fucking Wilbur! and Illumina! and even PUNZ!!! who has worse fucking allegations against him.

The reaction is not that of people who care about Caiti, or of people who care about victims, or of those who genuinely believe he’s a bad person. This is the reaction of people who just want him to fucking kill himself because they’ve always hated him and his friends and it’s not NORMAL!!!!

#i cant fucking deal with braindead fucking idiots like #giving him a ‘punishment’ way fucking worse than the behaviour deserves is obviously goikg to make people defend him and feel fucking bar #bad #why cant people be fuvking Normal and agree he should apologise to her and own up to it and fucking #idk #declare that hes going to be fuckimg trying his damn best to improve #and then move on #discourse #what do i tag this with #george situation #? #anyway

[amelia-yap]

AUEGH

#ruby rose #rwby #obligatory tiny distressed ruby #my art #HELLO I HAVE OFFICALLY FINISHED YET AGAIN ANOTHER ONE OF MY SEMESTERS #and holy shit it was the most awful by far #i felt like absolute shit the entire sem and was behind in literally all of my classes #it was so shit that i actually skipped a class because of the stress of being behind on work. which i had never done before. #i am a criminal now lmao i feel so bad #also a little mad at myself because i know i could've done better. i've been doing the bare minimum and cutting corners #which was very noticeable lol #im gonna actually split my upcoming semester this time my ass and health cannot do this anymore #BUT ANYWAY I FINISHED MY SEMESTER RAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #COUGHS OUT BLOOD AND SINKS BACK INTO EARTH'S CORE AND EVAPORATES #IM DONE!!! #also my eyes are really red now for some reason #probably from the lack of sleep or the long hours staring at my bloody laptop idk #probably both #yeah i should go sleep now lol bye #ranting in the tags because i don't know how to talk like a normal person lmao #sorry if you read all this nonsense jkdhkfsdhfkhd #but i should be more active around here again!

[gambeque]

therapy sesh

#fuck imma ramble in the tags actually lmao #i said this on twitter but i hc that iso gained some knowledge of octarian thru meeting so many octoling kamabo participants #so 8 has an easier time talking to him since she doesn't have to butcher inkling lang. to be understood #plus idk iso is a chill and insightful dude #he has a lot of care n respect for 8 and the work shes putting in #giving him the mem cakes without expecting anything #he wants her to slow down some tho idk i feel like shes desperate to find all the thangs/mem cakes and starts rushing thru tests #queue iso therapy sesh #he gives her his lil octo doll B( #raaagh #i can go forever lmao #maybe i should write a fanfiction or some shit christ #anyways #if u read this idk #thanks #ask me stuff abt 8 and/or iso and ill love u forever #or not thats chill lol #rambles #splatoon #iso padre #agent 8 #myart

[cherrirui-official]

Friendlocke Violet Gijinkas (Part 1/7)

Since the edited episodes are starting to come out, I figured that bc of that and the fact that I've been keeping this in the back burner for a loooong while now, might as well complete all my friendlocke violet gijinkas!! Some are gonna stay the same while others are gonna have slight/ complete redesigns, so please keep that in mind!

I plan on posting them in order by groups of three, so there's gonna be seven parts in total, all of which I'll be linking here when done vvv

(Part Two) (Part Three) (Part Four) (Part Five) (Part Six) (Part Seven)

!! These will contain personal headcanons I have for the cast, little fun facts, and also spoilers for Friendlocke Violet (for both the edited vids and the streams) !!

@saltydkart-reblogs

And that's pretty much it, designs under the cut!

LARK:

HUGE nerd. spent most of his time during the Uva Academy studying different kinds of pokemon as well as different fighting styles he can utilize once he is able to go out on his own journey with his very own trainer! Too bad that didn't really help in the long run...

His entire wardrobe consists of McDonald's related outfits. It's fucking insane. He even has some from long LONG ago that aren't available anywhere else.

The bubble pattern on his hair is able to move and change. Nobody knows how this is possible, not even Lark himself. All Lark knows is that his hair looks incredibly stylish!

Speaking of bubbles, he has the ability to blow bubbles whenever and wherever he pleases!

Often keeps himself extremely clean and gets upset if even a small speck of dirt gets on him, despite this he somehow smells like McDonald's food and axe body spray. Disgusting. He's so cool!

Even after death he still likes to hang around the other team members as a ghost, often getting to know the newer members as well as reuniting with the old ones. Sometimes they see him, sometimes they don't. It usually depends.

SARA:

Due to being a human in her past life, Sara is able to actually speak with the other humans in the pokemon world. However she usually doesn't due to it being seen as extremely weird and out of place. She did slip up once while talking in the presence of Arven, who thought it was the weed making him hear things.

Oinkologne are usually unable to do much with their hooves but Sara spent nights practicing how to knit with her new hooves and now she's able to do it flawlessly. I don't know how she managed to do that but go queen!

When first joining the team she'd often have the urge to eat her food related companions. It was a strange time for Sara, but she managed to overcome it.

When Peppy gets sick, she usually is the one who nurses him back to health. She was a human once so she often is able to figure out whatever sickness Peppy has and treat it properly. I suppose she's like a second mother to him.

The bag she carries with her is full of thread that she collected from various Tarountula she encountered on the journey, as well as little things she knits together in her spare time.

For the most part, Sara forgives... but NEVER forgets.

Did you guys know that Sara has a new YouTube channel? Check it out!

Pastey:

Before joining the team, Pastey was a nameless wanderer. He's been down every road in Paldea and knows almost the entire region (except for Area Zero) like the back of his hand.

He's gotten hurt pretty badly throughout the run (ie. the Mikey fight, the Atticus fight, and ESPECIALLY the final battle), however, he does not gain any (physical) scars from those fights. This is bc he's basically an axolotl, and axolotls are usually able to heal without scarring.

Pastey's "arms" are, to put it simply, mud prosthetics. More info here vvv

Pastey HAS met Mall Bingo once before the run, however, he doesn't recognize her. The only reason he does not recognize her is bc she wears glasses. (You know how people somehow aren't able to recognize Superman bc he wears glasses in his civilian attire even tho his face remains the same? It's basically like that lmao)

Unlike the lightbulbs he eats, the gasoline he drinks isn't really mandatory to his diet. Gasoline is like alcohol to him and he drinks it like an absolute CHAMP.

He goes fishing when there's nothing else to do or when he can't sleep at night. He doesn't do this bc he thinks it's fun or anything, only bc it's a "good time passer" or so he claims. Other members of the team will often sit with him and vent out anything that's troubling them at the moment, and Pastey is always there to listen to them.

And that's pretty much it. Next is Joe, Hannah Ü, and Mykyie!

#I am a firm believer that Sara can and will beat ass #No i do NOT plan on making gijinka designs for Chatbike and Phil sorry guys #just getting that out of the way i know how much yall love phil /j /lh #Anyways it feels so good to finally start on this like holy moly #also idk when the others will be done... HOWEVER... #The sketches for Joe Hannah and Mikey are already pretty much done I just gotta make em digital #so ideally they'll be out pretty soonish I'd say... I hope #but yeah if anyone has any questions abt them feel free to send them in my askbox and I'll be happy to answer them as best as i can! #<- No anons tho sorry yall #Also I need to be honest here Lark's outfit kinda does look atrocious and I couldve changed it... BUT... #I honestly thought it was WAY funnier if Lark's attire looked weird on purpose so I kept it like that lol #Anyways sorry for the word vomit here are the tags #friendlocke #friendlocke violet #saltydkdan #should my gijinkas have their own tag...? Sure why not #Violet Gijinka Au #cherris canvas

[juaneloriginal]

Doodls

Stanman and fluffy narry from "the fluffy parable" i know, such an original name wow yeah

and the other stanman but Peruvian and his human narry from "FREEDOM" au which again i suck with names so like sorry

#tsp #tsp narrator #tsp stanley #tspud #:3 #tsp fanart #stanley parable #idk if i should now tag my stuff with their respective aus or save myself the trouble #i feel like it will be cool to be a bit more organized

[officialspec]

What do you think gay men are attracted to in men that they can’t be attracted to in women?

It can’t be anything about femininity or masculinity obviously. That’s both sexist, and cultural so can’t be what drives men-only attraction.

It can’t be anything about stated identity because someone could lie just as easily as they could tell the truth in such a statement, and it makes no sense because homosexuality and heterosexuality exists in other species with no stated identities. It’s not like other animals without gender are all pan.

Saying idk it’s the vibes or some indescribable trait men have that women can’t but “I can’t explain” is a nonanswer.

Soooooooo what is it? Or do you think any sexuality but bi/pan is just cultural performance or an identity rather than an inborn orientation?

- [ ]

first off i hate this ask and i think youre a freak. in any other world i wouldve blocked you for this but unfortunately for both of us i actually like this type of philosophy. dont send this shit to anyone else though

i dont think its right to compare human sexuality to the same thing in animals, to get that out of the way. im sure until a certain point it comes from the same biological impulses, but human beings have way more complicated social structures and reasons for coupling that just do not exist in other animals. our social behaviours are what make us unique in the animal kingdom and that definitely extends to gender and sexuality. so theres that

people love to tout 'gender is a social construct' around like its a criticism in and of itself, which i think betrays a misunderstanding about social constructs in general. theyre the foundations we build language on to better understand each other, and affected by a whole host of cultural and historical factors. just because theyre subjective and complicated doesnt mean they arent real. in terms of the effect they have on peoples lives they may be the most real thing that exists

for example, 'kindness' is a social construct. the definition and ways it is enacted differ greatly across personal and cultural lines. but no one would ever suggest a world where kindness doesnt exist or loses meaning, because its an essential part of the way we interact with each other (in the same way i dont really see a world where gender entirely ceases to exist, mainly just one where people have more fun with it. im not a psychic though so who knows)

similarly, sexuality in humans is another social construct. i think the driving biological forces behind it are very real, but the labels people attach to those impulses are subjective attempts to express their inner world to the people around them if that makes sense. and those same biological impulses are ALSO subject to social ideas of gender, because those ideas are established at birth and reinforced over a persons entire lifetime

to use myself as an example, im a gay trans man. ive identified as other things in the past, because i was trying to pick apart feelings i had and express them to others in an attempt to find community. my identity might change as i get older and experience new things, or it might not. i identify as gay because im not attracted to the social concept of women, and someone i would otherwise be attracted to might lose all appeal after i find out they fall under that concept (this has happened before w transfems pre and post coming out lol)

of course, the real REAL answer to this is that trying to give queer identities rigid and objective definitions is a fools errand, and also lame as fuck. someone might identify as gay and be more attracted to general masculinity than men as a social category, maybe they fool around with a couple of butch women without considering themself any less gay. two otherwise identical people might be a butch lesbian and a gay trans man without either of those identities coming into conflict. they might even be the same person at different times of the week

the labels people choose to use are communication tools, not objective signifiers. if you dont understand them, they probably arent talking to you

social constructs are everything. we as humans have the unique ability to interpret our own messy desires and impulses into words that other people can use to form an idea of someone else in their mind. its how we build connections, and of course it isnt perfect because trying to squeeze someones entire personal history and the centuries of context that defined it into a handful of syllables is going to leave some room for error. but its all we have, yknow? so we keep trying. and i think thats much more human than any imposed objective 'truth' could ever be

tldr we live in a society dipshit. get with it

#ask #long post #i feel like i should tag for the ask bc it sucks but idk what so like. lmk #gender #trans stuff #i love you language philosophy i love you messy human relationships i love you contradictory identities