#i genuinly love cats so much and they make me so happy

[westywallowing]

mental health rants below ☆☆☆

#okay so #for a couple months now ive been thinking about maybe getting an emotional support animal #i have struggled with an anxiety disorder for majority of my life #and for the past maybe six or so years i have specifically had intrusive thoughts #ive ranted about those on here a few times before #theyre really bad for me and have been an ongoing problem #the only thing is that they basically go from 5% of a problem during the day to like 90% of a problem at night #nighttime is a big trigger for them specifically when im going to sleep #and theyve been worse recently and i havent been having a lot of fun!! #i entertained the idea of getting an emotional support animal (specifically a cat) because the comfort of animals generally does help me #whenever i would have bad nights at home i would bring my small dog up with me and he would help tones #i guess i just keep having this battle in my head of like. what if im not 'mentally ill' enough to need one #WHICH IS SO FUCKED UP RIGHT #if i think it would help me i should try especially since this is something ive actively struggled with since i was 12 #is it weird to have imposter syndrome type feelings about ur own mental health issues???? #i genuinly love cats so much and they make me so happy #and hnnnnnnnnn #westy's shit #tw intrusive thoughts #mental health

[a-s-levynn]

If you'd like, could you draw any of the Tinys saying "thank you"? Words, signs, doesn't matter. I'd just like them to thank you (and by extension, everyone, really) for all the positivity and amazing art and ideas and consideration you bring to this fanbase, and how incredibly kind and amazing you are as a person. Even through the minimal time we personally have talked I've seen that myself, and it's part of why this fanbase feels like home sometimes. If this request is too much or maybe too overstepping for me, please feel free to ignore it, though!

I know you asked for thank you and i'm sorry for doing something else, but it felt more appropriate for the moment. In my defense i was not prepared to get emotional over a Tiny Token ask. Please allow me a moment to stop and talk a bit because.. i'm emotional.

All i'm doing here is to try, in my fumbling ways, to reflect back what i'm getting from all of you. However briefly we talk or if you just popped in with a tag or comment under something. It means so much more than i could ever express. I complain about bits of my life on the regular but just like all of you, there is a bit more going on in the background. I joke about being a sad wet cat of a person, but i'm pretty sure a few of you can relate to, in general, feeling disconnected, lonely and not terribly happy.

So every day, coming here, seeing all the funny and thought inspiring and jawdropping things everyone creates and shares and discusses genuinly is the highlight of most of my days for the past few months.

Seeing all the kindness and enthusiasm and understanding and acceptance and love people have for each other is so fucking heartwarming to see in the otherwise pretty bleak everydays i have lately.

So if i can make at least one of you smile with my silly little scribbles or with an enthusiastic comment, than that is already made it worth getting up that day.

So thank you. Thank you all for being the way you are. 🙏🏻🫶🏻

But most importantly never, ever any of you dare to forget even for a second that

#levynn answers #tiny token

[ineedsleepleavemealone]

Some random headcannons

(I ship erasermic so some of these relate to that)

I guess this also needs a warning: some more mature things if you squint hard enough

Also the ships in this are: erasermic, kiribaku, tododeku, and a tiny tiny bit of momojiro (sorry if I forgot one)

~ Mic is actually kinda sad and breaks down alot when hes alone because of the stress he goes through, aizawa is the only one he will break down infront of ~ ~ Aizawa secretly loves giving mic piggyback rides. Change. My. Mind. ~ ~ Bakugo is nicest and softest when he is sleepy, and more open with his feelings when he is tired (especially to kiri, I ship them too😭✋) ~ ~ When sero cooks or cleans he will put on spanish music and dance to it. ~ ~ Dabi is kinky™️ ~ ~ Dabi will tease e v e r y o n e ~ ~ Dabi makes up stories of how he got burnt, like: Twice: so- uh how did all this go down * gesturing to scars * Dabi: oh, while sneezing Twice: but how does tha- Dabi: *sneezes and uses his fire* Twice: oH- ~ ~ When 1-a all become pro heroes, deku will wear everyone's merch ~

~ When bakugo is working out, when he does push ups he will get kirishima to lay on him for "additional weight" (we see you bakugo👀👀) ~ ~ Shoto can make snowflakes with his quirk. I. Rest. My. Case. ~ ~ shoto likes dancing in the rain or snow, well not dance just like being with deku ~ ~ Shoto will make little things out of ice and give them to deku (all might figures👀👀) ~ ~ Occasionally in the dorms everyone in 1-a has a movie night ~ ~ Ojiros tail wags when hes happy ~ ~ This is cannon because I've seen the official art, but I hc that bakugo likes animals and animals love him cause he smells like caramel and his hands are warm ~ ~ One word for aoyama. S e l f i e s ~

~ Shoto didnt know how to ride a bike so when they all moved into the dorms 1-a taught him ~ ~ When bakugo walks into the dorms common area he says stuff like "it smells like bitch in here" and "ughhh if I stay in here to long the bitchyness might affect me" ~ ~ All the girls in 1-a: sleepovers™️ but every time mineta will try to get in lmao. It. Never. Works. ~ ~ Shotos birthday present to everyone is endeavors credit card number😂he will also go clothes shopping with all the girls just because he can use endeavors credit card ~ ~ Tokoyami is actually really good at drawing and loves writing poetry ~ ~ Bakugo is the oldest in 1-a which is cannon. I feel like he would be the type to brag that he's the oldest and would use it as an excuse to do what he wants ~ ~ The dekusquad and bakusquad have groupchats ~ ~ Bakusquad play video games together and eat pizza together all the time ~ ~ The dekusquad gc consists of iida talking about homework, positive memes, and todoroki not understanding anything happening on there ~ ~ Jirou has a music playlist for every situation. Every. Situation. ~ ~ The best jeanist said bakugo couldn't learn how to style hair so katsuki "I am the best at everything" bakugo learnt how to do hair and now all the girls and kirishima go to him and make him do their hair ~ ~ Kirishima needs his hair dyed red when his roots start showing, so bakugo dyes it for him ~ ~ 1-a loves playing games like truth and dare and never have I ever when they cant sleep or are just bored ~ ~ Bakugo sleeps at 8. pm which is cannon, but still wants to be the best at whatever they are doing, so he still goes if they are playing or watching something but always. Always. Falls asleep, and he falls asleep on kiri. ~ ~ Aizawa is actually really flexible and can jump around and move literally like a cat. ~ ~ Mic: finger guns™️ and I can imagine this Mic: *does finger guns at aizawa* Aizawa: pull the trigger. ~ ~ Everyone goes into bakugos room for advice. Like jirou would go in there at 3am and just be like : yo so I'm lesbian and momo is lesbian and she said she likes me but I'm not sure if she likes me.

And even though bakugo will literally shout at them for being in his room at 3am they will still get advice😂~ ~ Kirishima is named after a mountain. Bakugos favourite activity is mountain climbing. Its cannon and ik it is I just thought I'd say that ~ ~ Shinso definitely uses his voice changer for memes. He would say things like "I'm katsuki bakugo and I'm a little bitch" with bakugos voice and "im aizawa and Im in love with a cockatoo" with aizawas voice. ~ ~ When denki is nervous random sparks of electricity come from his hands. ~ ~ If denki doesnt know how to do something he will search it up on wiki how. Change. My. Fucking. Mind. ~ ~ Shiggy genuinly doesnt know what moisturizer is ~ ~ Mic is amazing at playing any instrument ~ ~ Mic knows sign language and is fluent in alot of languages ~ ~ After toga stabs someone she mumbles things like "ughhh what a mood" "damn that one snatched my weave" and "we stan a queen" and once held up the knife like a beauty guru ~ ~ The girls constantly try to get uraraka to float m*neta into the sun ~ (yes I censored his name💀💀) ~ Tokoyami has good music taste ~ ~ The bakusquad (kaminari) tries to teach all might vine references ~ ~ Shoto l o v e s conspiracy videos ~ ~ Ojiro can purr ~ ~ Mina shares her clothes with everyone ~ ~ Shoto likes to watch the sun rise ~ ~ Omgggg I love this one. Aizawa listens to Mics radioshow when he grades papers and when he cant he will hum the music to himself ~ ~ Kaminari is memes™️ ~ ~ When mic says todorokis name he says it like the target vine (next competitor is- T T T T T T T T T TODOROKI SHOTOOOOOO *makes air horn noises*) ~ ~ The UA staff have prank wars (especially mic and literally anyone. Once poured pink cat shaped glitter on aizawa and it was 100% worth it) ~ Mic can harmonize with himself. Periodt. ~ ~ Tetsutetsu and shinso spend so much time at the 1-a dorms that one time bakugo cooked food for them too. ~

~ On that note, bakugo is obviously an amazing cook and when hes cooking for himself he will "accidentally make too much so you extras can have it" ~ ~ Shoto is literally turtlenecks™️ ~ ~ Mic literally has the worst sleep schedule like how is this man alive???? ~ ~ At night iida will run around the dorms saying goodnight to everyone and checking that they are all still in the dorms because he feels it’s his responsibility to look after everyone ~ ~ Shigirakis favourite thing to do is to just stand in the rain. He finds the rain soothing and calming to him because it’s one of the only things that he can’t destroy so it gives him peace of mind that he still human and isn’t the completely destructive monster everyone claims him to be. ~

Hope you liked them✌✌

#tododeku #erasermic #kiribaku #momojirou #shiggy #mha #bnha #bnha headcanons #lowkey love this #Mydogjustbarkedanditscaredme #iliveforaizawaomg #present mic #aizawa #katsuki #Wantedtodomoretagsbutdontwanttoannoyyou

[strugglingclassicist]

15 questions// tagged by @fluentisonus

Named after someone?

Yes! I’m named after my great grandmother who died not long before my mother found out she was pregnant with me! 

Last time you cried?

Idk sometime the past few weeks

Do you have any kids?

ofc not 

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

yes i do, but mostly i try to make sure it’s not done in ways where people can feel stupid or bad

What is the first thing you notice about people? idk what the first thing is, but the most important thing I notice is if it feels like they’re genuinly kind/well meaning or not. If i’m not able to place someone it usually makes me a bit uneasy or tense around them, especially if i haven’t been able to place them after several encounters (tho it can take me some time to realise this is why i might avoid spending too much time with someone)

Eye colour

Blue, but with a yelow circle around the pupil

Scary movie or happy ending?

Definitely not scary movie but also i don’t feel like i necessarily need any happy ending. I love the bittersweet, but in general i’m happy if the ending feels like it makes sense as opposed to be very sad or very good just for the sake of it

Any special talents

i can sort of write with both hands at the same time, either the same message but mirroring each other, or the same message double over, or two separate things. As a kid i managed to play a small piece by Grieg on the piano using both feet or a combo of foot and hand, I’m not sure if this is still a talent of mine now that my legs are longer and i’m less flexible and i don’t want to wake up the house by testing it out. I also recently found out that i can do that thing ridiculously buff men show off with where they like, make their pecs bounce/dance. I can do both at once or one at the time and i find it very funny bc i’m not really fit at all

What country were you born in?

Norway

What are your hobbies?

Knitting, painting/drawing (though not as often as I’d wish), also baking and cooking

Do you have any pets?

Not personally but my dearest has a cat still back with the family whom I have adopted in my heart although I’ve never met her. I get regular updates in form of pictures and anecdotes on how my very fat and evil step daughter is doing and I’m very proud of her

What sports do you play/have played

I’ve had some unsuccessful tries with football and aikido as a kid, and krav maga as a teen. all short encounters. More successful was my time with historical fencing with german longsword which I really enjoyed!! but then i was abroad for a semester and then now it’s covid so I haven’t been training it for over a year and I miss it:(

How tall are you?

some annoying millimeters short of 170

Favourite subject in school?

throughout most of my schooling it was maths:’) tho by the end history took over. I always liked it very much but at the end of my schooling i had some really wonderful history teachers!

Dream job?

once i’d answer professor rip now I’ve grown as a person tho and know my personal needs and desires better. In the long run I really want to be a teacher, or at least work with communication of knowledge in one way or another. But like,, I don’t want to be a teacher by 25 and I’d like to experience and try out some other stuff first. right now i think it would be cool if i could follow my interest in palaeography and interest in text transmission/text criticism a bit and perhaps work at a library or archive or collection where they deal with really old texts!

Tagging// @languages-and-else and @catilinas if you wish!

#this was fun!

[goji-pilled]

I'm rewatching Reflekdoll,again,and tbh I can say for sure this is by far my favourite episode ever.Here some thoughts since I'm a little late to that party lol

-The talk between Chat and Ladybug is like this mix of friendly teasing and joking and a very serious topic (at least that's how I see it lol)But honestly the parts I love so much come after that so skip that

-Juleka and Luka sibling moment.I mean we finally got to see what their realtionship is like and I couldn't be more happy with what we saw.Luka engouraging and supporting his sister and her dreams?Fuck yes that's some really good content

-What else I like about this scene is that I can personally relate to Juleka a lot,not only in Reflekdoll but also in Reflekta.The fact that she didn't want to bother Marinette or how insecure she is is something I did/said/felt too (or well still do/say/feel)Like this feeling that you're all alone,that noone cares or notices you?That hurts,a lot.And it's something I know all to well.And honestly it's super important to show children that these feelings exist because it might help someone

-Juleka not being able to handle a compliment?Yep,absolutely relateable.I swear I'm going to protect Juleka 'till the very end

-Alrighty this is the part that makes me slighty salty:Alya pushing Marinette into things that clearly make her uncomftable.I mean yes she means well and want to help her best friend but seriously,pushing her like this and forcing her into uncomftable situations with Adrien is the absolute wrong way to do it and the girl just doesn't seem to get that.Fucking hell Marinette pretty much begged Alya to not invite Adrien but she is just like "Fuck it!" and disrespects Marinette's wish.

-After 'Ladybug and the Miracubros' we present to you:'Adrien and the Girlsquad'

-Juleka getting more nervous untill it's an actual panic attack.Again I can relate a lot to this,even though I wouldn't say that I have panic attacks.It's more this feeling of becoming so nervous that it feels like you have a knot in your stomach,your throat is dry,you feel super uncomftable and all of the sudden your thoughts are worst case scenarios;"What if I mess up?","What if I'm not good enough?","What if they laugh at me or hate me?",etc.I have these thoughts more often than I like to admit since I was 6/7 years old.It just makes me kinda happy that a show for children shows this topic

-Marinette trying to comfort Juleka is something I loved too.Like Marinette is very understanding here and tries to help Juleka calm down which shows us a bit of their friendship and I just really apprechiate that

-And Alya is at her bullshit again dear god.Honestly Alya sees that Juleka is having a panic attack and all she thinks about is getting Adrien and Marinette together.It's just wrong on so many levels.Not only does she keep disrespecting Marinette but she also head on ignores Julekas situation,which is rude and disrespectful.Like seriously that's so not okay and she should've been called out for that.

-Adrien sweetie thanks for trying.It's good to see that he wants to help Juleka in this situation.

-ALYA GODDAMNIT.And again she is being pushy.Yes Marinette said she's gonna do it herself but in a way where you can tell she wanted to help Juleka and remove the pressure,plus Marinette never said she would never consider Juleka as a model again so there is that!But of course a certain Blogger had to be pushy and forceful about it again.And Adrien didn't even want to model,he just wanted to help.Oh god the way Alya told Juleka to give her suit to Marinette is just...no.Juleka is upset and honestly does Alya notice?No.And Marinette's clearly uncomftable oh god why.

Alya:"I care about all my friends equally!"

Alya:"Adrien!"

Alya:"Marinette!"

Alya reading something from her arm:"And uh...Julia?"

Honestly I could go on with this but let's refocus on the positive stuff.

-How the fuck does noone hear or see Adrien and Marinettd talk with Tikki and Plagg????

-Adrien and Marinette in that Partnerlook just expanded my lifespan for 100 years

-"He's too hot-I mean I'm overheating inhere don't you????"

Mari please you need to calm down oh god please someone save the poor girl-

-Julerose.Julerose.JULEROSE.I swear everytime Juleka and Rose interact my hesrt bursts.Also thank god for Rose and Marinette,it's these two who try to help Juleka (just like in Reflekta).Also Juleka bot wanting to bother others with her feelings?Yes hello I'd like to say that this situation is relatable.

-That soft look Juleka gave Rose after Rose kissed her cheek is just...so adorable and it shows how much Juleka loves Rose

-God Juleka talking herself down?Almost crying and super upset by herself?Probably even hating herself?Yep again,this is all too familiar to me and it feels so good to have a chrachter to relate too.

-"Yet again my young prey fails to be the center of attention."Your "young prey"???Seriously????Gabriel what the fuck-

-YEET THEM GLASSES

-No honestly Nathalie's transformation is so amazing.It's simple but in combination with the amazing theme this transformation is by far one of my favorites.I'd go as far as to say my second favourite transformation(Together with Luka's)

-I genuinly love the whole scene in the lair.I can't even tell you why because I don't know but I just love it.

-Them sending off an Akuma and an Amok?Loved it.

-Petition to let Gorilla adopt Adrien

-Also Gorilla is so soft for these kids

-I loved the scene of Juleka's akumatization.Like the purple maskoutline being a combination between Hawkmoth's and Mayura's looks so fucking cool

-Reflekta is back bitches!Honestly Reflekta has always been one of my favourite akumas and I'm happy seeing her again!Also her design is so fucking amazing holy shit

-I'm not fan of Miraculous' english dub but Juleka's voice actress is amazing.Lots of love to her.

-"I'm gonna show you what it feels like to be me!"Honestly that's such a great line on many diffrent levels.Not only does she say it because she's a villain right now but because she obviously has some kind of selfdisliking and ugh can you make Reflekta even more relatable too?

-"Juleka is no more,I'm Reflekta!Everyone always forgets about Juleka anyway..."Honestly this is again a pretty deep line and it shows more of her emotions...And I can relate to certain dagree.It feels like people just forget about you,that you're not important,don't matter,sometimes you want to be someone else so badly...Honestly Juleka truly is one of my favourite characters

-Reflekta turning Marinette into a Reflekta and saying:"Perhaps you'll understand me better now that you're in MY shoes!"It's another line that shows how Juleka(or at this moment Reflekta) feels.She feels misunderstood and wow same here haha...

-Tikki and Plagg's interaction earlier was great and Plagg reassuring Tikki is so adorable.Honestly these two need more screentime together

-"Rose!Where are you my BFF!"Juleka has the 'She's just a friend' desease,we all know what people in this show mean when they say:"She's just a friend".And since she said BFF they're probably married

-Plagg calling for Chat Noir and then almost casually telling Marinette his identity is gold.

-Honestly all Plagg/Marinette interactions are gold.I love this chaos duo.They are the best part about Kwami swap AUs.Also Plagg looks and sounds so soft when talking to Marinette I love them

-Marinette taking the ring like:"Fuck it"

-I love the detail that the Miraculous changes to it's wielder

-LADY NOIR TRANSFORMATION.I absolutly loved everything about it and it's my favourite transformation with Roi Singe's

-Lady Noir is giving me gay thoughts

-Lady Noir said fuck Reflekdoll rights

-Tikki is just like:"Oh god no the choas duo finally found eachother-"

-Adrien not introducing himself,rude.

-Adrien taking the earings:"Fuck it I always wanted to do this"

-MISTERBUG TRANSFORMATION.I love his transformation so much,he's an adorable Bugboy.Honestly his version of the Ladybug theme sounds so great holy shit

-Adrien sweetie why do you have a Reflekta head agi-oh never mind it's gone

-Hot take:Marinette does the Black Cat transformation better than Adrien,while Adrien does the Ladybug transformation better

-"M'lady Noir" I love it

-Adrien did the Orgins-Ladybug move with that yo-yo

-Lady Noir helping Misterbug out even though she sounds a bit rude gives me life

-The Lucky Charm scene is amazing I love it,them arguening and teasing like a married couple god just kiss already you dumbasses

-Again Marinette is explaining how the Lucky Charm works even though she may sound a little harsh she means well but she didn't have to hit him.......well it was funny...haha

-"Why don't you help me instead of making fun of me?!"...Adrien...she explained you the lucky charm the whole time...she tried helping you and teased you....you pun and tease her all the time...your still an adorable bugboy and I love you

-Marinette is so extra when summoning her cataclysm...I love it.Though she could've thought about the idea of cataclysming a sentimonster a bit longer...she's still a queen and I love her

-Adrien getting to explain cataclysming a sentmoster is a nice contrast to her explaing the lucky charm

-That wink Lady Noir gave Misterbug that just gave me a lot of life

-Reflekta is the first Akuma to ask for help nakwsnkwwk

-And again she helped him by reminding him to catch the akuma in a teasing tone

-Idk why but Adrien catching an Akuma and saying Marinette's catchphrases was so awesome

-Adrien admitting and understanding why LB never jokes around is some character developement we stan!Untill the writers decide to take that way that is but y'know

-Marinette admitting that she's happy to have a little less responsibilty for once hurts my heart like the girl has so much responsibilty and stress an in the end it always depends on her to fix thing and she just needs a break and a hug...

-Them working our a plan was great.It showed how well they work together and just ugh,kiss already you idiots!

-Gabriel goddamnit why are you letting her use the damn Miraculous god jesus

-Dusuu is absolutely adorable and I love her

-oh...rip Nathalie

-Oh the reunion with their kwamis was so sweet holy cow my heart is gonna explode

-And here I go again becoming salty,like Marinette should not have been the one to apolagize.It should have been Alya,to both Juleka and Marinette.Alya way the one being rude,pushy,disrespecrful ans inconsidered.But oh well of course it's always Mari's fault...

-Adrien and Girlsquad are the Brotp

Anyway overall I love Reflekdoll so much.It absolutely is my favourite episode.From Juleka/Luka sibling moment,being able to relate so strongly to Juleka,Mayura's transformation,the Kwami swap untill the end I loved the episode,despite being salty here and their but you can't expect me to watch a mlb episode and not be salty

#miraculous ladybug #mlb #alya salt #ml salt #kinda? #im tagging it to be safe #but yeah i loved reflekdoll

[the-umbrella-academy-ff]

Saving you (Klaus x reader) - Part 2

Damn, this part wasn’t my best but I have some ideas for later I can’t wait to write them.  Klaus was actually nervous and playing with his fingers. He was standing in front of your door and he had to admit it, it was weird. Meeting someone when you're trying to buy drugs, drinking a coffee then going to their house. Weird. But he was the one to suggest it and he wanted to get to know you better, so it'd be a good start. Ben tried to talk to him and make him move. “Klaus, you've been standing there for 4 minutes.” “I know, I know ! It's just... Do you think I should tell her about the Hargreeves' name ?” “It's up to you really, but it's probably better to be honest right from the start.” “Do you think she'd freak out ?” And you were cleaning a little bit when you heard his voice. You checked by the window and saw him talk to... No one ? You went to open the door. “Klaus, are you alright ?” He seemed to be caught off guard. “Hi lovely ! Wasn't sure I got the right place.” “Yes it is. A little small I guess, but it's enough for me. Come in.” If curiosity could really kill the cat, Klaus would have been dead a long time ago. He saw all the papers you've mentionned in a big sheet stack and was drawned to it. How could someone have so many ideas ? He almost wanted to be inside your brain to understand how it was working and what kind of ideas you had. You saw him and couldn't repress a smile. “Later, I'll let you read one if you're nice.” “I'm always nice darling, can't you tell ?” “I'm not so sure about it yet !” “Ouch. That hurts.” He almost stumbled on a few books as well. You were indeed really messy but he thought it was funny. He gave a quick look to the apartement. There were drawings, writings, a piano and many books. You definitly were an artist and in a way, it made sense. He felt that you were kinda special while you were talking in the coffee shop. You seemed genuinly concerned about the world, about culture, and also about him. He liked the feeling, being important for a few minutes in someone's eyes. Ben was always by his side but it was different because you were a stranger. He ploped down on the sofa after kicking his shoes off, and crossed his legs, putting his jaw against the back of his hand. “Y/N ?” “Yeah ?” You came back with waffles. Klaus' eyes lit up. “You made waffles ! How did you know I love it ?” He screamed with pure happiness, clapping his hands together. You chuckled. “I didn't know you were like 5 years old. And to be honest, who doesn't love waffles ?” “You're totally right, no one ! I mean, even my brother Diego who's like “let's not eat too much sugar cause my body is a temple” comes with us once in a while to eat waffles !” He made a deep voice while saying this. Ben, was a little bit jealous. You couldn't possibly know that he was here but he also wanted waffles. How unfair was this situation ! Klaus was literally eating like a kid. He even had some chocolate on his cheek when he was done. You realised that he was actually pretty cute. “Thanks. I didn't eat something like this in years !“ “It's alright, really. I'm doing waffles like every week.” Suddenly, he thought he found heaven. “I can have some next time as well ?” “Yeah, it's not a big deal really.” Then Klaus'face went darker. He seemed to be realising something important. “Oh, but I might be busy for the rest of the week and next week too, it'll have to wait a little bit.” “You'll enjoy it even more then !” He was thinking, but he couldn't share what was on his mind with you. He'll be tortured and Diego's bloody girlfriend will be killed. Those weeks were going to be complicated. He started to play with his fingers.  You saw that he was struggling with his thoughts, he was nervous and you wanted to cheer him up. “I didn't know either that you paint your feet's nails. That's pretty cool ! And you have such a unique style.”He looked at you, then at his feets and smiled. “I'm awesome, I have to keep it that way ! Even my feet deserve to be fashionable.” “Well, I'm mostly jealous of your pants.” “Obviously, everyone is. I never lend them but as you made waffles, sometimes we can swap clothes if you want. Your shorts are cool too.” Ten minutes later, you were in Klaus' pants looking in a miror and he was wearing one of your shorts with fishnet tights under. He had nice legs, you'd give him that. “I'll be right back, need to find a matching t-shirt.” You trusted him enough to let him alone in your living room for a few minutes. You just had this feeling. When you came back though, you were a little bit taken aback to see him talking alone. “No, Ben, no waffles.”He sighed. “No way, I told you it's a no. Not here, later I swear. Well, that's true, but... No.” Then, something even more surprising happened. Someone else just appeared next to Klaus and started eating waffles.   “Oh my god Ben, don't do that here !” Klaus didn't seem to notice you, neither that Ben guy. You could see that he was talking to Klaus but couldn't hear a word. “No ! I don't ! I have no clue how to use this shit, it's still very new to me !” You dropped your phone and both Klaus and Ben stared at you. “Y/N ? Oh dear god, I can explain.” You made him shush and got close to Ben. “You're not really here ? What is happening ? Who are you ?” You put your hand through him and backed off suddenly, Klaus thought you were scared, so he tried to speak but you did it first. “Oh my god, I'm so sorry. It was rude.” They exchanged a look and start smiling. “(Y/N), he's my brother, Ben. But he died so now, he's stuck with me.” “Hi Ben. I didn't expect another visitor to be honest, but you're welcome.” He greeted you with his hand. Then you turned to Klaus, put your hands on your hips and raised an eyebrow.  “I want some explainations young man.” “I'd probably ask the same thing if I was meeting someone else this way. Fair enough I guess, but you know, it's really boring. I mean, my family's boring and annoying. Pff ! Don't we all have an asshole as a father, a mother who's a robot and a nanny who's a weird monkey ? And my brothers and sisters, jeez. We're seven, so we can't get along all the time for sure, we fight all the time.” You stared at him and couldn't believe your ears. “Alright.” He gestured for you to sit, which you did without a word. “Let's start with the beginning.” He started explaining everything, too tired to keep this for himself. Hargreeves was definitly a name you've heard before. The Umbrella Academy too, but you never expected to meet one of them. Klaus wasn't exactly what you had in mind when thinking about superheroes but it all made sense. The drugs, the alcohol and the ghosts. You felt bad for him but you also got a little bit scared, you had to admit. You tried not to show it, because obviously this guy didn't need people to run away from him but it still was a lot to take.Klaus was watching you, waiting for you to say something. He had the feeling he could tell you everything already, maybe he was wrong. Once again, he hated his powers. It just made his life more complicated and Ben was invisible to you again, he was leaving him alone on this. He sighed, undressing himself to give you back your clothes, but you put a hand on his wrist. “Oh god, what are you doing ?” “Uh ? Giving it back ?” You looked at him and thought. Klaus was waiting for you to explain your reaction, but you took a huge decision. You didn't want him to leave like that. You wanted to stick with him in this madness. The feeling just got stronger every minutes since you met him, so you had to give it a chance. “You have to stay a little bit more. You didn't even finish the story yet, what about this apocalypse thing ? You just can't leave my on such a cliffhanger !” He allowed himself to smile and dropped back on the couch. “You see darling, I don't know the end of the story yet. But I'll tell you for sure !” “But, does it mean that I may die and you'll rewind the time ?” “Yeah, maybe. Actually, probably, we kinda suck at saving the world. But, what kind of fucked up superheroes are we ? I mean, I'm talking to ghosts and my sister can spread rumors. It's not even impressve !” You stayed silent again, Klaus began to panic and wanted to slap himself. He told you that you would die, that was the dumbest thing he could do. “Oh but maybe not ! Don't worry, we'll find a way...” “Klaus, promise me something ?” “If you make more waffles, anything. I'd kill someone if you want.” “If you rewind, try to meet me again, please ?” He was expecting everything but not this.  Someone wanted to know him ? Someone who knew he was a bit of a weirdo was asking him to stay in her life ? He gulped. It was mean to be an adventure, he wanted to try something new and have a little bit of fun but it was becoming more serious than what he intended. He wanted to explain to you how it could be complicate, that he and his family might try other paths to save the world and he may never be able to. But he couldn't tell you that and frankly, he didn't want to. “I swear, pinky promise.”

#klaus hargreeves #klaus hargreeves x reader #the umbrella academy #number 4 #tua #klaus

[crazyspookies]

ZRS7M8-9

More!

M8

1) “You may remember visiting the Edgeware Dragons with Mr. Valmont, Five.” I sincerely don’t. When in the world was this was it something that happened off mission or am having a poopy brain?

2) “We’re sleeping four to a one-person room at the moment.” wow we’re getting real cramped aren’t we, feels like old days at the start of the apocalypse. On one hand, that sounds like a liability. on the other i guess it talks about how much damage the riders are doing??

3) “ Well, Fort Canton’s happy to help by rehousing the more interesting characters.” Again, feels like old days when new canton when new canton was all about being chic and have the best of the best. Like that one email they send you about  joining their ranks adsfghadkj

4) “ Colonel De Luca would never be out in public without her cat suit.” AMAZING. I CANT BELIEVE

5) “Ian Golightly’s broadcasts were very clear.”

6) “We’re not saying anything to Five. You’re the world’s greatest criminal, cold-blooded killer, the scourge of all free people!”

but also

7) This does go to show how damaging ian’s misinformative shit propaganda has ben to our cause. Also how people are still lil shits willing ot believe anything no matter how absurd it sounds as long as it  lines up with the way they see the world.

8) “ We heard about that army, didn’t we? Broadcast 221.” oh my god they know those broadcast from memory this is beyond me fuck jones and evans

9) JANINE NO. ITS SO BAD I CAN’T LISTEN TO THIS

10) “ In the form of Jody. “ BAD LIARS UNITE WHAT COULD GO WRONG

11) “Be still, my beating loins.” iconic tbh

12) Janine flirting with jones is so painful omg

13) “AMELIA SPENS: But you can see me with your gun.”

mE:

14) “AMELIA SPENS: Sorry, I’m just working out if it’s to my long-term advantage if Abel is spared from destruction or not.” yeah im actually pretty concerned about this. Amelia’s biggest motivation to work with us was basically that we shut down her other options (sigrid), then she was willing to help with the babies too.....but sigrid is dead and the babies are fine now, sooo...You know i feel we’ve grown too comfortable with assuming amelia’s going to be on our side. Some might even think she likes us too much to betray us at this point, but while she DOES like us, it would be dumb of us to belive that that’s her priority over, you know, surviving in general. i feel we should be very weary about her.

15) “That’s what Millie always said. She said I don’t trust that Sigrid, and Golightly even less” I find incredible that Millie expressed these opinions and her best friend and her husband both decided not to believe her, especially after she disappeared. I mean it’s not only about being gullible. Sigrid lied about who took their loved one? Ok, you can believe she’s telling the truth. But if your loved one literally told you not to trust this person, and you still shoose to believe this person’s word has more weight than your loved one’s?? That’s not being naïve that’s just being a shit.

16) “JONES: I’d have given it to you if you told us the truth. But now, I’ll find someone else who wants it.” Yeah i can imagine a couple people who’d want it.

M9

1) Amelia sounds weirdly soft and honest and while i assume that she just likes five in general, i’m sure she also knows that sounding nice and honest is a good way to make five listen to her (kind of a weakness there, eh?) even if it’s suspicious af.

2) “ Yes, I must admit that was a little ruse on my part to get you over here.”

3) “ whenever I give her advice, she looks at me like I’ve just offered her a fresh handful of steaming vomit “ asdfghjfjkjhd

4) Again, there’s such a weird sincerity here, worrying about serious things she doesn’t usually show much worry for. Makes me think that either she genuinly wants to help us somehow, even if its from v far away where it can’t touch her

5) “I hope you’ve known me long enough to understand that I never do anything without a reason” DON’T I KNOW IT

6) “Obviously, I enjoy the finer things in life, but I do think you need to know when to say enough, when to cash your chips in and leave the table. Always have an escape route, Five. That’s my advice to you.” I respect this bitch and I also feel this is going to be one of those prophetic things. Like, this mission is a “i’m going to help you out before i take off (and maybe betray you if it fits me)” kinda thing

7) “ We did the right thing! What were any of us supposed to do? Stay and die with everyone else?” ”I’m not embarrassed, anyway. I did what I had to.”I feel like i already know what she’s going to tell me something along the lines of “i used others as bait and run away”. Which kinda touches previous musings about characters and survival themes and stuff.

8) “ Give me your scarf. Just give it to me. It’s just a scarf. I’ll get you a new one.” me:

9) “ Honestly, if I did know how it worked, I’d call it off for you. I mean that.” Aww “ Well, what I mean is that I’d tell you exactly what price I’d charge you for calling it off “ Ah.

10) I don’t know, just because amelia doen’t regret her decision i don’t think she takes pride in it either. It is what it is and she moves on.

11) “ Right. Yes, you don’t need to look at me like that. Yes, I did suspect that dropping your scarf down there earlier would somehow key them into chasing you, not me. DNA, maybe, or something else.” AHFGHDSFHKASDGF IM SO ANGRY I SHOULD HAVE SEEN THIS COMING AND I AM VERY OFFENDED AMELIA

12) This last part feel so important and so strange. Again, i feel like she’s seriously offering five a way out before things go to shit and she does whatever she has to do to assure her own survival. It’s a strange offer though, knowing that Five has chosen Abel over and over again in the past when they could have made “smarter” selffish choices. It is also strage because it feels like most of the time, when it comes to Five’s survival, they kinda go with the flow, and do whatever they’re told to do with few exceptions, and this is might be the frist time someone actually asks: You have choices, you don’t have to choose right now, but what are you going to do with your future? What are you going to do to survive?. It is no secret that i enjoy it when five makes their own decisions as a character, and i feel this is a good promp for them to do that. Do something that is not exacly according to plan. “ It’s time to start thinking about how you’re going to live through this one.“

#zombies run #zrs5 spoilers #fennel's zr recaps

[nyctophilia13]

Tonight it hurts. My jack-o-lantern of a chest is so self aware of being carved out and empty that even you are not enough to help me pretend that I am still growing Still blooming. That I have not been torn from my foundation of life at some point and instead that space is just not yet. It is not yet rather than another “has been there”. Usually I can tell you with a steady smile that I am happy and then because you fit so still and nice in that gap So warm and so strong I can comfortably convince myself of just that. I can medicate on your soft skin and bright brown eyes and I can swallow your easy to down words and suddenly I am imagining that my vines aren’t dead I am climbing baby climbing Here it is though, this is suffocation right now. It’s fine, I feel your pulse as my own. Your pain. I hurt but I’ll be okay, have I ever said differently? I’ll force those bitter words out with a sweet tongue and open my tight throat so you can make sure I’m breathing right. My involuntary sighs I keep insisting as just something I do. Play it off. Play this off like it’s just something people do. You know better but baby I’ll run my fingernails against these empty spaces in me and you’ll eat up every word I say. You know though. You keep saying my name in your pasts lovers voice. It’s okay, I say that to you with a mouth full of teeth and crossed fingers against my spine. But honestly I am having a hard time choking down the lump in my throat that keeps screaming words I don’t quite understand. I keep thinking that if you really love me, it would be too much for you handle but at the same time I keep thinking that if you really foresaw my face in the years ahead that you wouldn’t be so desperate to paint pictures of a false me in your head. That you wouldnt be running your tongue against your lips every time you saw a blonde haired cat toy resemblance of your ex. You aren’t fitting in my palms right now or lounging a floor up on my wrists right now. You never kept those scars in a locked place anyways and only now am I realizing that the need for your sun spots licking up my bare thighs maybe can not be looked at as anything other than your counter war against loneliness. I never let you miss me. Maybe I am wrong but the seeds you laid down years ago are just now starting to take root and it’s hitting me in psychedelic waves that the patterns you planted them in no longer make sense, there are straight rows of flowers that your aching heart wants and then there is a dead end tree. The bark has an old picture nailed in it that I think used to be me. God, I would lovingly exist in your garden as branches and sticks if only you weren’t digging holes for new blossoms so close to me. Im back up plan aren’t I? I am what you need but never what you will genuinly want. These are the thoughts that I swallow down. I was originally the girl that could be scheduled into your plans and I checked out with an A plus on your list of desires and I had words so strange but so predictable that you could mark me on your calender as someone you could save for next month. And now I’m still here but I don’t fit into that paper thin description of who you want, am I right baby? You needed me here But you can’t seem to cut me in the right shape. I noticed long before I actually turned this empty space between my joints into words and jotted it down. The substance of these thoughts feel like blood clots and having one body part at a time peeled apart from their vessels and then being stripped slowly of any skin. The thought of losing you tastes like accidently ripping a whole finger off because I know I should stop biting my nails but somehow that’s developed into much more than just a bad habit. You are something I hold closely but the acid I’ve drenched myself in is chewing through. You can say that it’s different but I see your eyes wander To the same type The same fucking type The same fucking type of a girl that your mouth apparently has no taste for. Or so you say. If I tell you this I am so sure that you will narrow your brows and reassert that I can always hang my tapestries on a different wall. I can’t sleep tonight with the fear. You told me that you would’ve put your bed here anyways. You said that you wouldn’t mind if I was around but the only difference is you’d would have set the fan on low at night. If I didn’t lay my self conscious absorbing skin against yours you would have only missed out on the carpets I picked out So maybe there would be colder floors. But maybe instead there would have been a puddle of soft lips and innocent cheekbones laying there to keep you warm. All the things you keep claiming you’d never want me to be. I need to explain this to you desperately but goddammit baby, you’re the type of soul to put up a fight. I’ve written every word about you for over half of my love life so tell me why doesn’t that change your view yet? Tell me why you can drop salt water from those beautiful eyes and then question my ability to swim after I’ve only sucked in life sentences just to be able to somehow make it to shore again? Tonight it hurts. It hurts like lung cancer after I thought my cigerette habit didn’t mean enough to care. like somehow you are not satisfying my craving when I see you nonchalantly smoking your same brands. I get it though. I may not be able to fill this in me with secondhand smoke but then again I’ve always turned my face towards every air you let out You need me or else you’d start some kind of fire baby, it’s okay, I get it. I understand now. Why pay attention to an ashtray that’s always stayed put?

K.h

[onlyonewoman]

Dearest BS fandom, fuck us all

As I'm quite new to this fandom - and to tumblr and fanfics - I really want to explain that I had literally no idea there was a shipping conflict going on here between silverflint/blint and silverflint/madisilver. I was just told and I'm like... wtf fandom?

I genuinly thought that this was all for fun and that when people say they'd hope for more people to write about this or that pairing, it's not seen as saying "write what I want" or "stop shipping your pair". When I said I would love for people to write more about unusual pairings and go outside canon more, I certainly didn't mean it like "you people owe my ships time and devotion". Jesus... If I'd known it would've been taken that way I would never have written it like that.

I also didn't know that the hopes for the show were so tightly connected with the fanfics. I genuinly didn't. I'm going on 34, I've never been in a fandom ever before and I didn't know it could be this infected. To me it's just... weird.

What may have been the most weird thing to me in all this, is how much people read between the lines in the show. I don't do that, I just don't have it in me. My bf is very good at it thou, but it doesn't mean he's always right in what he reads into something - and the same goes for me, of course. Sometimes I truly miss something that is there. And so I asked my bf about the BS ships and he sees no Blint, no Gunnbones and no Silverflint whatsoever in a romantic and/or sexual context.

Maybe he's wrong, maybe I'm wrong, maybe we're all wrong. That's really not the point. The point is that trying to decide what an author, a musician or a tv show creator "actually meant" when he/she doesn't confirm what we want, seems a little rude to me. Or more than a little. If I write an original fic with a couple who are in love and then someone say to me "you know, to me they're not from what I read between the lines", then that's not "that person's truth", it's that person trying to make something I did to be about something else than I wrote about.

The only BS canon here, is what Levine and Steinberg have decided for THEIR characters and THEIR show to be. An if that doesn't make us happy then yes, we can create our own endings and pairings in fanfics, but we still can't take their creation and claim it's about something else than they say it is. That's just rude.

And I wish people could be more relaxed with this pairing thing. People who don't see what I see in Gunnbones, are absolutely not rude or mean for saying that. I asked what people see in Silverflint that I fail to see, because I was curious. When I say "I don't see what you see" or "I don't get it", I mean those exact words. When I ask for people to explain what they see, I don't mean "prove it, you blind idiots", but really "I would like to understand this thing that is so big, that I don't understand".

And no, no one OWES me any fics about pairings I like, for heavens sake... If I wanted to make a demand, I'd write it like this: "Behold fandom, this is OnlyOneWoman and you shall all bow to her endless need for shipwrecks and cats!" (And then, I hope, the men in the white coats would come and remove me from my computer until my megalomaniac delusion had been cured.)

I genuinly felt really sad and confused yesterday for that shitstorm I had no intention of creating and I hope people who got sad/offended/irritated/whatever about that post and read this, will understand that I didn't know about this weird shipping wars at all and had no idea this was so infected. At this point, I just hope for one fucking M/M kiss that's not a flashback to Flint's past and frankly, I don't care if it's silverflint, gunnbones, blint or just a couple of drunken pirates making out for three seconds in a dark corner of the tavern before Nassau falls. Oh, and a cat. We definately deserve a cat.

#black sails #fandom #shipping #this is weird and confusing to me

[pinkniall]

what do you like the most about the boys?

Ooooh so mUCH but

Harry: I love to see him just shine, I love that he is so good on stage and putting on a performance, he knows what to give people and he does it well and he is so so very talented. I also love just how he dresses, how he does this now without caring much about what others might think and that he is very kind and sweet. There are times when he, rightfully so, could be so mean and rude but he just isn’t. I also love that he is a messy bitch that lives for drama because boooy I live for that too, like I really really see him just dropping something and then see people go crazy over it, like announcements, tickets, and then he just sits back and laugh at us. I love him to death, honestly. He is very, very dear to my heart and I just want him happy.

Liam: I LOVE just how cute and giggly and soft Liam looks. Part of me has always thought Liam could be a bit of a douche and fuckboy, and there are many things he’s done in the past I really don’t approve of, but I think he has really grown and what I love most about him is probably how he is really allowing himself to be the way he want to be, and is confident in it. He seems so caring and loving, and I also love just how he does all these ~sexual~ things and release sexy songs though, when radio 1 had him read naughty tweets he was a BLUSHING GIGGLING MESS like, is he real?! I don’t know but I love it. Also I love love love his style of clothing (most of the time) like when he wears soft cuddly hoodies I just wanna cry because he looks so huggable like a bear.

Louis: I love how Louis just seems so smart and kind, he can look like the actual sun when he is smiling and I love how he just seems to want the best for people around him. He is strong, extremely strong and I love how he is just such a great big brother clearly that makes sure his siblings get the best and he protects people he love with everything in him. He is a leader, and those are people I always admire because leaders are important, but especially leaders like Louis, that leads for the better of others and not because they want power. He seems like such a lovely person to be around, to talk to, and the warmth he spreads is just... special. He is one of a kind, and I just hope he gets to shine the way he is supposed to. That he gets the attention he deserves.

Zayn: I love how Zayn is such a nerd, honestly. I love that he gives off this dark, broody, gorgeous of a model vibe but he is really just such a big nerd. I love that he sorts his gummy bear by colour. I love that he loves comics and gets tattoos for it. I love how he is just into everything, that he draws, sings, plays instrument and is himself. But yes, the nerdy part of Zayn is what I love the most and could talk about for hours. I also love how he is so genuinly happy for everything fans does for him, his support for fan artists are just incredible and he wants to make people smile. Also I fucking love that he lives on a farm like, god Zayn with horses and cows and cats and other animals I just, it’s the best news I’ve heard in 5 years. I hope he is happy.

Niall: ... okay we’re there. Okay the thing about Niall is that I really didn’t care much for him early on in the band, I was too hooked on Harry/Zayn that the little Irish one didn’t really matter, even though I loved that he brought his guitar with him to stage. But then the last year of One Direction came and I started to open my eyes about how funny and relatable he was, and then the hiatus started and... god. You all know how thirsty for him I’ve been lately and honestly, Slow Hands was what really made me go WOAH because that song? Fucking brilliant. And then the fucker goes and grows up and makes me, for the first time ever actually be attracted to a One Direction-member. God?? I love everything about Niall and his music is exactly what I love. When I saw him live I hadn’t heard any songs apart from Slow Hands and This Town but I loved them all, and then he released Too Much To Ask and I was SOLD. His whole album is gold and I just want him to have the world. I want to give him the world. What I also love is how private he is, but he also is an expert at making fans feel like we know him like a best mate does. I think that’s brilliant of him, and impressive. He does the social media and fanservice thing better than most celebs I’ve seen and kudos to that Niall. But really, I just love him so much. He is a happy place for me, and loving Niall was just... the best thing to happen to me I think? And I honestly feel, and this is a bit silly, but finding him, his music and the friends I’ve made over thirsting over him really helped me through these last 5 shitty months so... really, truly, I feel like I owe him so much? I can’t wait to see him live again and MEET him and just... I don’t know I love Niall a lot.

#god this turned into an essay #Anonymous