#i get ~anxious~ about stuff lol

[transingthoseformers]

Since I'm an anxious bastard, I was thinking about that tfa megop post and immediately went "Oh Fuck am I accidentally doing that with tfp au Megop??!?"

Because that's not what I'm trying to do. The reason I ship megop at all is the shot for shot, push and pull push and pull, even match attitude. Megatron will get over some of his flustered surprise and Optimus is going to exactly love the revenge Megs enacts. Both of them get to have whatever the hell they want gender presentation wise. I've actually been thinking a little too much about Optimus getting a subtle finial piercing, oh i 100% bet he still has the specialty paints (He probably convinced himself they'd need them in the future, and tbh glowing paint is actually very useful in say cave situations like the rid fear episode) I've mentioned how both of their holoforms are going to be fem leaning androgynous because that's amazing. I absolutely love it when characters and people decide "Fuck it, I'm doing whatever I want" with their gender presentation, regardless of things such as gender norms or passing as a particular gender or any of that. They're transformers, beings of constant flux, why should they be limited to strict boxes?

While Oppy is more like he was before the war and this gives Megatron a Reaction, the war ultimately has made Megatron far less passive and fairly possessive in his own right. Optimus is Megatron's, and Megatron is Optimus's. These two orbit each other in a very interesting way, no matter which continuity we're dealing with. Even in TFA, the one universe where you'd expect them to have the least in common, destiny draws them into the same song and dance.

They're two powerful, tough, stupid, beautiful, stubborn, down bad bastards that I want to top. Need I say more?

#moral of the day do whatever the hell you want #i love it when characters do shit at their own pace and when lines blur #transformers #tfp au #tfp megatron #tfp megop #tfp optimus prime #i have opinions about megop and i accept that they're my opinions #don't think i forgot about their uv tattoos #i didn't forget about tfp au Optimus having uv flames and Megatron having mtmte style swirls #i get ~anxious~ about stuff lol #and tbh the Ratchma is shipped in a somewhat similar manner in this au #they're divorced medics who divorced and remarried in the War End party and bicker back and forth and hold each other up #i like unusual fictional relationships that show life isn't as clear cut as it may seem. it's messy and complicated and finds a way #lemme get philosophical ok

[missjoolee]

if you could only see

*read tags for fun facts. mostly written while half asleep. not edited.

"Oh," she says, the corners of her mouth drooping into that familiar frown that accompanied the majority of his high school career. She sets her mug down on the coffee table.

Oh? A similar frown is quick to replace the elated grin his face had adorned when he arrived. "'Oh' is what people say when they get socks on their birthday, Mom. Not when their son tells them that he's engaged!"

"It's just..." she hesitates, as if looking for the correct words. "...you're still so young."

"I'm almost 22. I--"

"Exactly! Only 22!" Emily interrupts. "How can you be sure?!"

"What?! Mom! This is Julie we are talking about!" Luke can't sit still and stands up from the couch. Resentment builds within him. Why can't she ever be supportive from the get go?

"Well.. You've only ever had the one relationship. You can't know what you want really, never having experienced other relationships."

His mouth drops open in disbelief. She cant honestly be suggesting what he thinks she might be.

"I thought you liked Julie!" His hand flies up with the statement, emphasizing his frustrations.

Emily stands, no longer able to remain seated as the conversations heats up.

"Luke, Julie is lovely. And lord knows she's done you a world of good, but you could really benefit from dating around a little!"

Oh, so she is saying what he thought she was saying.

He let's out a humorless huff of a laugh. "Are you insane? You think I should give up the best thing in my life, a sure thing, on the chance I might find someone that can make me just as happy somewhere down the line? Yeah, that math doesn't check out."

She is getting visibly agitated now as she takes a step closer to him.

"Julie will always be your teenage girlfriend. Your relationship will never be more than that of children!"

"God. Do you hear yourself?! Julie's not in her teens anymore. Our relationship has grown with us. We have supported each other through personal growth, and continue to challenge each other to be the best we can be! We've already been there through hardship together." Luke leans into Emily's  personal space, not wanting to back down. It's a familiar dance at this point, these arguments with his mom.  That thought gives him pause but he never drops eye contact.

His mom claims that Julie would prevent him from flourishing as an adult, but in this moment,  with Emily, he feels the most like he's a kid again in the worst way possible. Suddenly, he feels very tired. He takes a step back with a sigh.

"You're unbelievable." His normal volume voice sounds quiet after the heightened pitches from a moment before. He turns and heads for the front door. There is no point in staying.

"Luke? Luke! Get back here!" Emily follows after him. "Most marriages at your age end in divorce! I'm just trying to help you not make a mistake that will ruin your future!"

Luke's at the door but he spins suddenly to face Emily one last time. "It's not a mistake, mom! If you could just see all the ways she loves me, maybe you would understand why I feel this way. How I know this is the right thing to do."

"But Luke--"

This time he interrupts her, not caring to hear anymore of what she's likely to say. "I mean, if you could see how bright her eyes get when she says she loves me. I just.. " Julie's smile, eyes full of mirth flashes in his mind, replacing a lot of the angerfilled responses he wants to shout at his mom. "There's no way being with her could ever be a mistake."

He opens the door and steps outside. "If you can't be happy for us, don't bother joining in on the celebrations."

He closes the door behind him. His mom might have tried to say more but he honestly couldn't care less anymore. It's time to head home. Back to the welcoming arms of the woman he loves and can't wait to marry. She makes him a better writer, and a better man. She supports him and his dreams more than his mom ever has. This exchange has proven that all his mom will ever be good for is giving him great song ideas. But the one starting to ruminate in his brain this time promises to be a lot happier than Unsaid Emily.

#i was unsure if this song by Tonic was a juke song #i would listen and it would shout #Juke Juke Juke! #but it also is kinda sad? #so i looked it up and #this song came about from the singer telling his mom he was getting married #and she thought he was too young #and i could see emily doing that #also #i mixed in some of my personal stuff into it #I married my highschool sweetheart #it's weird calling him a sweetheart though lol #and after graduation i worked at the same big box retail store as his mom #and one of my work friends overheard her telling another coworker in the break room one day #that she wished her son would date around more and hadn't gotten so serious with the first girl he dated #I don't think she ever said it directly to him though #also also #my old dog is having surgery today and i'm an anxious mess so please leave comments in the tags or something #also also also #today is when my tumblr dash updated to the stupid twitter style layout D: #very rude #juke #mentioned juke #happy juke jeudi! #jatp #julie and the phantoms #sorry emily #you haven't had 25 years of remorse to develop your character #joolee attempts writing #i made a thing!

[tequatls-favorite-spoon]

my art from the na vs art party!! took me a lil bit cuz i wanted to color it and that meant cleaning up the sketches and then i wanted to shade them and hajsksldhaflk

the characters from left to right:

Quinn Teeling - @sunsrefuge

Ambrose Wolfsbane - @commander-gloryforge

Finnegän - @pinecone-enthusiast

Astrëllä - @ohpollenpowder

#vsartparty #gw2 #guild wars 2 #others ocs #my art #also!!! please let me know if i got any of the names or tumblrs wrong!! especially ambrose cuz i didn’t get the name in my ref screenshot #i did go thru the art party tag to find the character i drew and i’m like 99% sure it’s ambrose but if it’s not him i’m SO SORRY #ahhh i hope people like them ajhsjalakf #like i know that getting art of ur oc is usually great no matter what but i get anxious lol #also i used a new shading technique and idk how i feel about it #like i like how i blended out the edges and stuff #but i might have to play with using different colors in different areas instead of just using the same purple lol #really happy with how i did the hair this time tho!! i feel like i usually like hair better in the sketching phase #cuz it’s all loose and rough and messy #i just feel like i get the shape and idk vibe? of the hair better then #and when i get to lines or shading i feel like i end up making the hair too solid? like i lose the flowy-ness of the hair and stuff #anyway i think i did pretty good with it this time tho!! i liked adding the highlights a lot :) #…i actually kinda was referencing an old how to draw manga book i got when i was 11 #listen. it was one of the good ones and had actually good tips and info #and the way it showed shading hair kinda influenced me here and i think it worked! #oh wow i really rambled in the tags this time #there’s a reason my personal texts posts (at least on my main) are tagged as ‘regan rambles’

[healingheartdogs]

Cardio said my echocardiogram ultrasound, exercise stress test, and week long heart monitor all showed no serious issues, my resting heart rate is fine, but that my heart rate does seem to rise very rapidly under even small amounts of stress (postural changes, taking stairs, casually walking around my house) and rises very high (160+ bpm according to the monitor) so now I get to be put on beta blockers to see if they work and if they do she said that is sufficient evidence to confirm for sure that it's POTS.

Obviously could confirm it as well with a tilt table test but those are TORTURE based off what I've heard from fellow POTSies so I am very thankful that she doesn't think that's necessary and will not be making me do one.

#i was not expecting to get dx and meds this fast tbh but im very happy about it #i think the fact that she also has POTS herself helps because she is very well acquaintaned with what it looks and feels like #and how hard it is to actually catch with orthostatics in office unless youre having a bad heart day #so my orthostatics not being within range was unsurprising to her and she was like #'that doesnt mean anything you clearly still have a heart rate issue going on even if it didnt show itself right now' #i didnt do shit the entire week i had that monitor on to like physically exert myself but my heart rate still hit almost 170 a few times #also the doctor who did my stress test asked me if i ever experience any chest discomfort or pain and i was like hm no dont think so #and he went 'your chart says you have palpitations though?' #and i was like '... those count as discomfort???' akdjaicidjwjcjsn the answer is yes apparently #im just so used to them now because i have them daily that they dont even really register to me anymore #unless theyre bad enough to knock the wind out of me or make me cough #they just make me anxious which... ig is also a form of discomfort #chronic illness and chronic pain problems though lol not having a normal baseline for discomfort and pain #ndr #not dog related #health stuff #not that anyone probably cares lol but im excited about getting things that have neen affecting me for years FINALLY figured out #im not crazy im just disabled!!!! #*been

[sweetsuenos]

Finally got offered a job :]

#hopefully it works out! #its only one bus away and its selling stuff so not a stocking job which I was not fit for lol #I'm gonna need to go buy clothes though! #most of my wardrobe is colorful so I need dark blouses and dark pants #I for sure thought I didn't get it so I was anxious and applying so many places #But the interviewer called and said he thought I was interesting and smart and thought I'd be a good fit! #the only thing is it involves lots of talking to ppl but I'm good at socializing about v specific things! #so I think it'll be okay! #wish me luck!! #🧿

[anglerflsh]

so how was the parade??

Do you mean Pride? I looked at the very end of it from across the street for a grand total of four minutes before going home

#if you're talking about the military parade going on today I was there too early to see anything except the preparations but it looked cool #[.asks] #anonymous #I don't do well with manifestations. Mother brought me to one as a kid and I had a panic attack because i thought we'd get arrested for it #it wasn't even a protest it was just a city-organised event I was simply a very anxious child about these things lol #and I still am <3 I don't like the noise or the amount of people and I'm nervous about it escalating. So. I still probably won't go again #with the exception of things like the artillery parade (so events and stuff that aren't protests) I'm not one of this sort of thing i guess

[ghosts-of-love]

not to be mentally ill but today when i went for a walk in a nature reserve i was climbing a hill and it was cold but so so sunny and everything looked beautiful and i saw so many cool things and i stood there and was like damn what's this feeling in my chest and why am i smiling so much?? my guy,, it's called fucking happiness. i was just present and content in the moment and couldn't contain myself so kept doing the silly arm shake thing i do and grinning at everything and then was like woah what's this feeling. fuckin, happiness dude.

#think the arm shake thing might be stimming (??) i referred to it as pogging and was informed that i've been using that word incorrectly #but yeah stimming ig #the arm shakes!! we all know them... #anyway do you ever get the feeling that other people experience happiness differently to you? #idk last week i was v depressed and now ive had a couple days in a row where ive been giggling with people and ive been cuddled and kissed #and today i took myself off on a walk and i was so so happy and then as i was walking back to my car #i had the gut wrenching feeling that i needed to text my parents that i'd been outside and had a good day and saw multiple cool animals #and that i loved them. because i suddenly got really worried that i would die on the way home and no one would know i'd been really happy?? #even though id literally sent my bestie loads of photos and texts and a literal voice note while staring at a robin lol #anyway and then i was floored by the realisation that i carely deeply about whether i died or not #because i was pmsing last week and that is a terrible time for me and i end up being kind of passively suicidal ig #so to have such a big change in the space of a week was a huge shock #these tags are sooo incoherent and span so many emotions #i promise i've had a really lovely day. i just am anxious all the time and depressed sometimes #in a way that is harder to predict now my periods have stopped. #im realising this is the kind of stuff that should probably go in my diary but i've got this far with the tags that i can't be asked. #if anyone is still reading #you do not have to respond to this or like it in any way. i promise lol

[brittlebutch]

Adaine is such a fascinating character to me because she's such a compelling combination of having debilitating, choking panic and anxiety while also being utterly, stubbornly argumentative and combative with absolutely everyone she meets and i love her for it

#N posts stuff #it is SO autistic to me but i wouldn't call it Inherent or Obligated so i'll leave it open to interpretation in the post lol #but to me she is SO autistic <3 #it's so funny bc at the very front of the 1st episode you could almost think that it's like. just bc she's kind of Socially comfortable #with her family - even though it's clear she doesn't Like them she's still very frank in how she speaks to them #(arguing w/ her dad about the way he talks about the news & telling her mom it's Neglectful of her to not have the schoolbus info already) #but then she goes into a new school she's Clearly so uncomfortable and anxious about attending #and immediately gets pedantic and vaguely argumentative with the very first upperclassman she meets - no hesitation #(pressing Penelope about Why she wants the prom queen thing & correcting her grammar) #she's so much fun i love her <3 #d20: bad kids #d20lb

[lesbiansanemi]

And when I thought things were finally fine and had calmed down my roommate starts sending me shelters because he wants me to get rid of my cat 🙃🙃🙃

#‘she’s peeing on my stuff 😡’ #listen I get that that sucks #but also…. we had a system in place that got her stop #I get putting cat spikes on the couches was mildly annoying but guess what #she wasn’t pissing on them anymore #and tell your bf to stop leaving your bedroom door open if you don’t want her to piss on your bed #like ????? #I know he’s stopped doing these things because the bf finds them mildly inconveniencing #sorry I’m not getting rid of my cat that I’ve had for almost four years and who got rehomed TWICE before I got her #because you have to put in a tiiiiiny bit of effort #‘she pissed on my shoes 😡’ #she has literally never peed on shoes before I guarantee you it’s because I left for a weekend and she’s anxious #fucking calm down #you could also just not leave your shoes by the door #he already rehomed our rats because he found them annoying which I feel bad about #I didn’t fight him much on that one because they were more his than mine so if he wanted to make that decision whatever #but hell no I’m not taking my cat to a fucking SHELTER fuck you #‘she drives me insane tho’ #okay well your fucking boyfriend drives me insane and you’re not seeing me demand you take him to a fucking shelter so lol #GOD this is not what I wanna deal with when I get home #and it’s just pissing me off cuz I get it’s annoying #but we’d gotten her to stop mostly and now it’s started again because of things 🙃🙃 the fucking bf is doing 🙃🙃 #so like this is your own fault and you’re expecting me to get rid of my baby because your bf can’t be assed to slightly alter #how he likes to live which is apparently being allergic to just keeping the bedroom door closed #jfc #kaz rambles

[daz4i]

love my social worker he's so sweet and i love my mentor/guide/one day i'll find a fitting english word for what her role is too. last time i met the former he said they talked abt the thing i'm starting this thursday and said "while it feels like these circumstances may be impossible for you, logically speaking you shouldn't succeed there, yet both of us are certain you will" which is very nice but also AAAAAAAAAAAAA

#they're right like these ARE p much impossible circumstances for me #but i do think they think too highly of me and i'm definitely gonna disappoint them 🥲 #this was both assuring yet. like. pressuring. if that's the right word idk #ik there's the whole. 'what if i fail' 'but what if you don't' back and forth but genuinely. realistically speaking. i most likely will #i have never been able to maintain those daily structure stuff like school for example #and while i do hope that since this is only 4 short days a week (with a break in between 2 and 2) and smth i like doing - #- then i'll have an easier time. but. it's still gonna be so hard. #there's a reason i don't go out or wake up early ughhhhh it's bc i hate doing it. idk if theater would be enough to make up for that #and what if i don't like the people what if i don't get along with the directors what if i struggle with remembering lines or physicality #which will make it all so much harder and make the part i'm supposed to love unpleasant as well #what would i do then 🥲 #. why am i anxious about this rn. i have a tough day ahead of me for a different reason i should probably focus on first 🫠 #vent #sorryyyyyyy it's 1 am and i need to clear my brain out it seems #also maybe i want. advice. or encouragement. idek what i want. here. i don't wanna have to worry abt this but that's impossible ofc #(my mom told me today that she wants to tell me there's nothing to stress about but she knows that'll just be incorrect 😭 and she's right) #(dw she meant it nicely and gently as in she knew i'd just get mad at her for saying it lol. and i mean. again. gotta be realistic)

[avenger-hawk]

also:

Don’t tag my content as ____ (random problematic thing)

Dude, if you police how ppl tag your content when when they reblog it you kinda make them want to...uh...not reblog it. 

Personally, I tag ships not only when I reblog/post shipper stuff, but also when the characters are in the same artwork or stuff, you know, for being able to find the artwork quicker, cause I don’t remember all fanartists’ names (yup, sorry about that). In short, I tag ships because I want to, and if you have a problem with it because you don’t want to have your precious hands dirty with problematic stuff ok, but you put off a lot of ppl. 

Because others might not tag a ship but they might want to add weird rants on their reblog and they might be uncomfortable since you’re policing notes lol, and even tho I find certain thirsty fangirl comments on certain artworks kinda gross, or I get pissed off when someone reblogs the fanarts with permission I post, tagging some canon shit or papas*ke, I don’t start drama with it, I mean as long as they don’t bitch at me directly who cares...ofc I’m not the author. But being an fanfic author, even if it’s not the same exactly, I’m just happy if someone reblogs my stuff and I don’t look at their tags lol. What if...I mean...what if. you start not policing too. Just a thought.

Hawk out

#fanon and fandom stuff #I was going through my likes and was about to repost some cute thing but then I saw their warning and I unliked everything #cause I don't want to get anxious when I tag something #like. real life is shitty enough I don't need to be policed by some stranger on the internet #anyway sorry. I am ranting but I'm not tagging anything so it just stays on my blog and for my poor followers #it's not like I put these rants in some ship tags clearly wanting shippers to see how outraged I am lol #like when ppl tag my NS stuff as SN...I hate it lol but I'm not going to look for them and bitch. which happened to me once tbh? I don't #remember what was the fanart but I took it down cause the person had a problem with one of my tags and wanted me to change it #so ofc I deleted and blocked the person

[bangcakes]

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#in the past i would have given up but now im like #oh right if i want something..... i gotta go for it and make it happen HDJDJDJDJDJDJ #itd be easier to give up tho LOL. god.... #idk im just................ what if like. nothing even happens n i spejt all this time liking him like that would SUCK. hhhhhhhhh #i should just see if him n my ither friend wanna hang out but im ANXIOUS ABOUT ASKING #BC. GOD. the longer i dont see someone the more im like.... oh they probably didnt even like me that much JDJDJDJD #like this even happens with ppl ive been friends with for 15 years like i am just THAT insecure???? #maybe not insecure.... idk. i think i just.... dont wanna get hurt so i tell myself that ppl dont actually like me. but thats like so dumb. #bc thats like... borrowing grief from the future right????? and like hhhhh god #idk i just like. sometimes its better to have 0 expectations or hopes?????? #idk romance has never worked out for me b4 so why would it this time #tho to be fair this is the first time ive actually like wanted stuff to keep happening. #prev guys ive been like oh god oh no this is so fast #and its like. just them wanting to talk constantly #but now i have this guy that i talk to like. every 1 to 2 weeks LOL GOD #im trying to hang in there #i think its just that its passed 2am #idk idk #im just.............!!!! #and like what if bc im not moving fast enough.... he moves on JDJJDKDKDKDKDMDMMDMD #but then its like.... ok it wasnt meant to be then....?????? #god this is so JDJDJJDJDJDJD #be careful what u wish for bc like. i said i always wanted a friends first slow burn and LMAO....... #hhhh n e way #im also like maybe i jynxed this whole thing by talking about it too much 😭😭😭 #ugh whatever... im so JDJFJFJDMDMMD #personal

[felidthing]

things that are true at the same time:

valentines day is Fun Heart Shaped Candy Day and that is cool

the corporate side of valentines day fucking sucks and your love for someone cannot be measured solely by how much money you spend on them

it is very hard to avoid vday if you arent a fan of it and that is very frustrating

love and romance are largely wonderful things that deserve to be celebrated

you can choose to celebrate any kind of love on vday, whether its platonic or romantic or self-love or love for living or your pets or hobbies

gay people deserve to celebrate love whenever the hell they want

romance-averse/repulsed/ect and loveless people deserve their own spaces separate from vday if they dont like it

aromanticism is a spectrum and individuals have their own preferences and comfort levels

your experiences are not universal and that is good actually

#posts #i dont like ppl aggressively complaining about vday but i equally hate the other side of things #i am literally just vibing over here. i like pink heart things any day of the year and i dont even have the like #mental capacity to even do anything fro myself this year #most of my Opinion posts boil down to your experiences are not universal lol #its the insistence that the Other Side is Wrong And Bad that causes problems. you are all just people. these are strangers #i literally like. get physically uncomfortable and anxious sometimes when i see romance irl. and thats just my own thing i deal with #not anyones fault. u know?? i just have stuff going on w my romantic orientation and my brain that makes me short circuit #in a bad way #i only like fictional romance because its fake and moldable. lol

[echomimus]

How do you think Leon would react to finding out Danny is the Ghostface in a modern ah, after they’ve been together for sometime? I imagine he’d be very devastated but also torn bc we all know leon’s moral compass is spinning round when Danny is involved 💀

i think that it depends on how long they’ve been knowing/dating each other 🤔 trust is very important, and hiding that he’s the Ghostface is a HUGE LIE LOL

to be honest with you i think that leon would of course be torn and devastated - but also pissed because danny would’ve hidden such a big part of his life from him (with his fucked up moral compass, in the long run he’d be more pissed about not knowing that about, you know. the murders lol)

i think he would be torn because, you know. “im mad in love with him but he’s a murderer. i have to report him to the police. he’s going to die/go to jail because of me. i don’t want to loose him. he’s a murderer. if i stay with him and he get caught i’ll fall with him. i can’t pretend he isn’t a murderer. but i’m in love with him. why did he hid it from me ? doesn’t he trust me ? does he even love me ? or was it a lie too ? what should i do ? i can’t ask for advice, i need to protect him. he’s a fucking MURDERER”

so, in short : he would have the biggest panic attack known to mankind and then he would probably sit in a corner and think

#thinking a lot of thoughts #not sure how he would find out though #since danny is very careful about his “hobby” #how would danny react to leon’s panic attack 🤔 #ghostleon #headcanon #ask #feel free to ask more stuff/request doodles ! #i still have a handful of prompts to draw but i want MORE #im just seeing my ask box getting emptier and it makes me anxious lol so i postpone my doodles bc i don’t want it to be empty #i might have some issues.

[quiznak-ofgrayskull]

I feel like jealousy as an emotion gets demonized too much idk

#just a thought I've been having ig #now for a rant in the tags: #I just feel like it's an emotion like all the other emotions #it's bad if it's not like handled properly not for existing #like jealous possessive boyfriend stereotype is bad bc he handles it badly not bc he IS jealous #and it's a complicated feeling to work through too so it's extra annoying to see it boiled down to nothing #like there's rational and irrational jealousy I feel like? #Like I'm super anxious and I know I get jealous easily and I know a lot of the time it's just not worth bringing up bc my mind created this #from nothing and all. And sometimes there are gonna be times where it's more rational and based in stuff that actually happened #and in those cases you should talk about it cause like... maybe it's an actual problem or a sign of an actual problem that you can fix ig? #anyway I'm just having thoughts for no reason lol

[gaytobymeres]

if my parents dont suspect im dating someone at this point then idk when they will

#technically not dating dating but we do go on dates? #idk the minutae of relationship definitions and expectations and stuff are mostly unknown to me #okay yeah my mum is literally rn asking hella questions about her #in a nice positive but also ulterior motivey type way #honestly would be less awkward if my parents just straight up (gay up?) ask me lol #anyway yeah im getting the train up to see her and normally im not about that because getting the train makes me anxious #but ill be fine. hopefully. #im terrified of missing my stop #wah so much anxiety but actually feel a bit better now ive told my mum #a significant part of me is still closeted and 17 even though i am 24 and also out #there was a comic or something i read the other week that talked about the 'trauma of coming out' and its like yes actually that makes a lo #of sense #but i am trying to be less repressed. i was even telling my friends at uni about the date we were on on saturday