#i still havent emotionally recovered

[brainlessbaguette]

Nothing like trying to save for masquerade and the entirety of chapter 7 only to be unable to resist ponytail Malleus. Dammit TWST I'm too poor to whale any further, stop dangling fine diasomnia cards in front of my face. I am trying to not pull at all until all heck breaks loose, but I am very weak willed. Round of applause to those who have saved multiple pity rounds, you guys are my idols.

#I am still mad at Mal for everything in book 7 #but his cards are still some of my favorites #I'm conflicted rn #also also if anyone wanted to know what card made my account poor gem wise it was fairy gala ortho #that little dude messed us up #i still havent emotionally recovered #still love the robo son tho #anyway back to boring regular non ramble tags #twst #twisted wonderland #twst malleus #malleus draconia #malleus

[opportunityarose]

the voice crack at “you idiot… we could’ve been us.” david tennant i am IN YOUR WALLS

#im never going to emotionally recover from this #i still havent recovered from ofmd and now i have this #excellent season 10/10 would recommend im INSANE this was so good #good omens #crowley #aziraphale #good omens spoilers #david tennant #michael sheen #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #og post

[steffigraf]

jannik sinner leads italy to their first davis cup title in 47 years (26.11.2023)

#jannik sinner #filippo volandri #davis cup #tennis #*gifs #hes everything to me i still havent recovered emotionally

[stranger-detective]

Legitimately LOVED episode 8. My only criticism is that we didn't see Percy look back at camp after he left.

#like cmon!!!! #what about the parallels??? when s5 is supposed to be the only time he doesnt look back??? #but otherwise it killed i still havent emotionally recovered #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo tv show

[jarvis-cockhead]

i dont rlly have a big following here at all but i do appreciate anyone who interacts with my stuff immensely and suddenly felt the need to say it. ive been going through some stuffTM and its been a whole ass time and im still reeling tbh. it has been a hell of a time but tumblr still feels like such a cozy comfy place .. i forever long to connect more with people here but never know how. anyway idk where this post is going but haii hi im still here forever just a little funny in the head rn :3

#i havent rlly spoken publicly abt whats been going on but this place is so disconnected from p much everywhere else i exist so #i realised my ex was emotionally abusive and actually SAed me once. we havent been together since the start of this year but were #still trying to be friends. but surprise surprise it never worked and i am entirely scared of them #so a few weeks ago i actually cut them off for good. and its been such a time just processing all of That #never thought this would happen to me.. knew in my heart during that it was bad but never realised it was That Bad #weird mix of everything feeling raw and fresh while also so far away because most of the rlly bad stuff happened before about feb this year #but yeah i have good support systems im doing okay but ig this is smth ill have to deal with and recover from for the foreseeable future #sucks immensely but it is what it is. everyones been very kind to me and i feel cared for #but it has made me withdraw a lot from my online circles ive realised which is sad bc i miss being sillay #but yeah erm. that happened 😺 #realising about a year and a half of my life has been devoted to someone who has treated me so badly is nor fun #but anyways. i am really happy theyre gone from my life entirely #and i will heal. and i will be okay

[wcvensouls-archive]

if there's one video that changed the trajectory of my life, it's this one

#out of candy : ooc . #yes its a fancam #yes i still havent recovered emotionally from it #yes i still watch it often

[targkso]

I feel like all Cap/Havers fans need to read Time Was by Ian McDonald because that book fundamentally changed something in me

I mean the line "I couldn't leave him. We were the lost men, the bereaved men, the loneliest men in the universe. We were entangled." should be enough to convince you alone because OH MY GOD..... OH DEAR GOD.... I have never been the same..........

#i still. havent emotionally recovered from this book i think #time was ian mcdonald #like its not REALLY capvers or anything #but the charcaterization..... the setting..... the plot #idk it just hits the right chords for their dynamic?? #just someone else read it and tell me if im way off the ballpark here

[thekavseklabs]

sigh.

#bad thing happened last night and i still havent fully recovered emotionally. ty for your patience

[eggthew]

just saying. me and my sibling both have bpd (and a big reason why is because of dad lmao) so having this "we are both so incredibly hurt by this in fact its getting to the point where we cant speak to you" conversation as rationally and calmly as we can is going to be hard enough, except. except. dad also has bpd. my sibling and I are practised in Keeping Ourselves In Check While Splitting but dad very much ISNT, so. tehe.

#i remember the last big fight we had. the one where I was like one conversation away from breaking contact #where I was actively splitting like one of my worst breakdowns ever. miracle I survived. and he took it personally and #during that fight I had to be the emotionally mature and rational one and I could feel it physically breaking my brain. like I managed it #I prevented total fucking disaster and ripping the family apart but I still havent recovered it BROKE me. idk if I can pull that off again #we have been keeping ourselves in check around him all out lives because he flies off the handle at the smallest of things #hes been better later but fuck. i cant see how this could go any other way #egg talks #vent

[mushroom-winners-proof]

the way you draw skulls and faces is very sharp and recognizable. i notice that you put a lot into making them look particularly distinct for every character

thank you for the observations everyone i will let it affect my brain chemistry for the rest of the week

#snap chats #'consumed nothing but jojo for years on end' alright. ok. alright. hold on #no but uhh i did draw jojo for a long time LMAO SO IM NOT SURPRISED THE INFLUENCE IS STILL NOTABLE #im trying to think how long i drew jojo #i drew it every day and i would do multiple drawings a day since i ran daily blogs so. Yeah A Lot #its funny that my art screams 'jojo' when i spent a good year drawing nothing but dragonball #i aint gon act like the first time i started posting kh people were saying my art looked very DB tho LMAO so fairs fair #also ty on sayin my faces are distinct anon :) #my friend said once that i had same-face syndrome and i havent emotionally recovered #i know i still suffer from it when it comes to drawing kids and teenagers but i like to think my adults/middle-aged characters are distinct #i probably fuck up though but im glad people think they look distinct #i do very much like to make my facial features sharp on adults that is very true #i cant place why i just know i make eyebrow bones and cheeks Sharp most of the time #i try to make them rounded for some characters but i know i default to a point #i definitely make them round for kids and teenagers thats what helps make them look young i feel #i also just like to draw what i see when it coems to faces esp when its a character i like a lot #like a reason why i love them is probably because i think their face is fun to draw cause of how distinct it is #like xigbar has a very distinct face to me and its why i adore him

[moonav]

Aaa what i wouldnt give for Tampere 2024 or Helsinki 2024 esc 😭😭😭

I just have a feeling that juries will prevent us from winning :(

#i still havent emotionally recovered from Norway not winning in 2019 😭😭 #moona said #esc 2023

[n3xii]

Whats next in your love life?

hey guys i havent been back in a while but im here with a pick a card reading detailing whats next in your love life and what you should focus on, heres the images you can use to pick your pile!!

Masterlist (personal readings)

PILE ONE

cards- ten of swords, the moon reversed the king of swords reversed, the three of wands reversed and the ten of cups reversed

I feel that this pile has undergone a significant endings or realization in their love life and theyre still trying to make sense of everything moving forward. you’re struggling to maintain harmony and a sense of togetherness because of communication issues, paranoia, secrets being revealed, lack of trust etc. I feel this pile has delt with manipulative, dishonest people in their past and releasing yourself from the web of confusion has been difficult. you’re struggling to overcome the trust issues you’ve been left with and it feels difficult to open up to people again, so what im seeing is a healing process with ups and downs, im seeing you recovering but still adjusting to being open a vulnerable, im seeing you being less avoidant but still keeping to yourself and finding a balance, you dont want to come out of the shadows but you're still adjusting to the warmth which is good. healing is not linear or instant.  I feel like with the ten of cups here reversed, this fear of trusting people again has casued you to feel disconnected not just from potential partners/current partners, but also from your close loved ones. im picking up on someone who feels withdrawn and almost apathetic, dealing with the raw emotions of something has been dauting and withdrawing feels safer. but i am seeing you progress and be more open as you heal moving forward. <3

PILE TWO

cards - chariot reversed, the ten of pentacles reversed, the hanged man, the ace of cups, the king of swords, the lovers reversed, the 7 of wands, the 8 of wands

alrighty im seeing a situation where you currently feel lost and directionless when to comes to career and long term prospects, you’ve been taking a passive seat and view of this realm of life. im seeing that change because a new relationship forming, this person is clear headed, direct, mature, assertive and im seeing that being around this person will have a contagious effect on you that inspires you to take a stand in your life. they will isnpire you to align everything that is currently not compatible with the future you want to create. im feeling that this person helps you make major life choices that impact your life path, and they help you take a more aggressive stand on things that are important to you. this person will be very inspiring and provoke you to take more action in your life, im seeing that this person will provoke you to take more control over the direction of your aspirations and goals. they will help you mentally clear out junk and get a more focused mindset. 

PILE THREE

cards- the two of cups reversed, the knight of cups reversed, the emperor reversed, justice, wheel of fortune, the 6 of swords reversed, the hierophant and the moon

theres someone coming in with a horrible attitude towards love, they’re a masculine with immature qualities, emotional immaturity and they feel like someone who thinks treating their partner with adoration and love is ‘’below’’ them. they are restiant to take the lead and be expressive of their emotions so their resistance to be emotionally open creates unequal exchange of energy and feelings. if you deal with this person they will be unclear and conusing to deal with. With the justice and wheel of fortune card, im seeing this person get their ass handed to them karmically basically, their time of accountability is coming and the universe will teach them a lesson. For some of you this is a message that someone you know that treated you like this in the past will be getting their divine timing of karma soon, but regardless of how this resonates with you, this person will remain restiant to learning and elevating, they will stay the same and their illusions will still influence them. so if this is a person trying to come back this is a message for some people not to go back to the past, keep your priotries on whats right for you and your relationship values. 

#love reading #tarot reading #pick a card #pick a card reading #pac reading #pick a pile reading #pap reading #tarot readings #tarot cards #tarot #free tarot readings #Pick an image #pick a pile #pick a photo #pick a photo reading #love tarot reading #astrology #astro notes #papreading #Tarot Reader #tarot card reading #aesthic tarot

[messenger-of-stupidity]

Five Random Redacted Headcanons

Okay i havent really slept for a solid amount of time of sleep for like 48 hours now but i need yall to hear me out on this.

Redacted Masterlist

OKAYREADYSETGOMOTHERFUCKERS!

1) The Shaw Pack has a random XXL sweater that just circulates around. No one is sure who the original owner is, nor if the OG owner is still in the pack or alive. But whenever one of them is having a rough day, whoever had the sweater previously will bring it to them. It’s a communal comfort object. It also has like... pasta sauce stains and other food stains from the pack’s comfort food and yes it frustrates David to no end that he can’t get the stains out. The design has long since been washed away. 

Optional: Once the mates (especially Baabe because they are artsy I can feel it in my endocrine system.) get their hands on the sweater, they write little encouraging and comforting phrases for the next person. After a few cycles in the washing machine the ink fades away but the sentiment remains.

2) On Darlin and Sam’s second legit date that wasn’t Darlin bleeding out or having a breakdown or anything, they dragged Sam into the woods. He was slightly concerned that they were going to kill him because it was giving off major serial killer vibes. But it turns out they set up a big hammock between two trees and the two of them spent most of the night cuddled up together in the hammock watching TV on Sam’s phone (William pays for unlimited data and he can get signal in the woods) and eating gummy worms.

3) Pre-turned Lovely had a whole arsenal of electricity related jokes that William supplied to them to use on VIncent if he ever got on their nerves. I imagine it went something like this:

Vincent: -Which is why I’m right, Lovely.

Lovely: Well you know what I’m right about?

Vincent: What?

Lovely: How many DAMN students it takes to change a lightbulb.

Vincent: How many?

Lovely: One. Me. 

The jokes aren’t good or funny, but they got to act like it was a big deal and if anyone in the Solaire clan heard them, they would hype Lovely up and make Vincent feel like the silly bbg that he is.

4) One of the times that Aaron pissed Smartass off (post-confession) they purposefully dumped a bag of chips and packages of crackers on the bed and stomped all over it to make sure the crumbs were really small. It was only after this that they remembered that they sleep in the same bed as Aaron and would suffer as well. They have yet to emotionally recover from this.

5) David and Angel have a little chalkboard that counts the days between Angel being an unapologetic flirt. The counter has stayed at a consistent zero for the past seven months because Angel has been texting David daily to ask for nudes. He refuses to send them, but they persist for the hope that they might convince him that the only way their three brain cells will survive is if they see a Davey nude. He tried to get them to stop asking by threatening to make an onlyfans but they only hyped him up for it because it meant they could get nudes for sure then by paying money.

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #redacted hc #redacted headcanons #redacted shaw pack #redacted darlin #redacted darling #redacted sam #redacted vincent #redacted lovely #redacted aaron #redacted smartass #redacted david #redacted angel #redacted asher #redacted baabe #redacted milo #redacted sweetheart

[dragonish-the-drat]

I literally just finished The Magnus Archives Season 5, in fact, im actually still crying while writing this. I’m not going to go into detail but my god i will never emotionally recover from this. I havent been listening to the podcast as long as others, i wasnt there when it came out, but in a strange way this podcast has done more good for me than any other piece of media I have cared about. Without going into detail, my mental health has sucked in the time I listened to it, alot of identity problems and this series has really brought me on a weird self discovery journey in a way. Although this post won’t be seen by many, let alone those who worked on the podcast, I want to thank them for its existence and creating what will now be easily my favourite piece of media. What incredible story, characters and writing. Every part of it was brilliant. I doubt i will ever find something that has struck a cord with me in the way this series has ever again. So my final verdict on the magnus archives?

11/10

I fucking love The Magnus Archives.

#the magnus archives #tma #rusty quill tma #first time listening #magnus archives #magnus archives season 5 #the magnus archives season 5 #the magnus pod #tma podcast

[piss-wizard-ao3]

dndads s2ep45 spoilers

re: that one quote that absolutely emotionally obliterated a decent chunk of the fandom

alright fuckin bear with me i have some Thoughts and Feelings about particularly how the Close-Foster-Swifts deal with a) parenting and b) intergenerational trauma Anthony: 'As you're saying this, without even wanting it to, tears are rolling down your cheeks. And in that moment, you, and Taylor, and Nick all realise... That there is no fixing this. That this is as good as it's going to get. That you are stuck with each other in the forms that you are now.' this fucking DESTROYED ME and, from what i can tell, a lot of other people in the fandom also. i think this brings up some really important points that resonate w/ me personally about intergenerational trauma, and that are super important to talk about like with the wilsons and the oaks, they manage to (in varying degrees) realise what they did wrong, or what they could do better, and actively try to do better. they actively try to go out of their way to fix things, which is great! breaking that cycle is important, and it takes a while, but they're trying. with the stamplers (+ marlowes), specifically ron and terry jr, they do the 'acknowledging i havent been good enough' to 'trying my best to be what you deserve' pipeline and its Beautiful. and we get a little of that with terry jr and scary too, with terry jr just trying to do his best and scary slowly coming around to realise that she does, actually, care about her stepdad. and its so wholesome and good. it really pays homage to the ron and terry jr relationship i feel, where they end up before he died (F). BUT THE CLOSE/FOSTER/SWIFT FAMILY. i fucking. it hurts. but its the one that hits the closest to home. 'This is as good as it's going to get' fucking resonated with me. im sure it resonated with a lot of people. intergenerational trauma and the effects it has on people is such a core theme of dndads, and the way its handled so differently through each family line is honestly artful. but an important part of the story of intergenerational trauma is when it's not something that you can fix, or go back and apologise for, or something that you can become better from. sometimes trauma just is. sometimes you can't recover from it. families will break up, lineages will die out, stories and lives will be forgotten. and as tragic as that is, as much as it hurts, it's so real. in a way, its a double-edged sword that they all still talk to each-other, that they still cling to what they have, what they wanted to have. especially in the case of Taylor, who does spend a lot of the series with questions about his dad but ultimately thinking he's pretty neat, to then break down to wishing there was time travel so Nicky could be there for him, so they could re-do childhood. i just. screams. thats such a pivotal moment for him. to finally come to terms with and admit the fact that no, things aren't okay, this isn't what he wanted, and if given the chance he would go back and fix them himself. that his father, and his father's father, have failed to do it, and now it falls upon his shoulders. (this also resonates very well with the whole 'our parents unleashed the doodler and both our grandparents and parents failed to fix it so now that's our burden to bear') i wonder if we'll ever get to know if the teens from this series go on to have families. if Lincoln ever introduces his children to grandpa Grant, or if Normal ever feels, well. normal enough to even consider the possibility of raising kids. if Scary ever takes her children to visit Terry Jr's grave, or tells them about his exploits, or recounts to them the things he did for her before she grew to appreciate him. i wonder if Taylor will ever even consider the concept of having a family, upon looking back like this at his own, upon knowing first-hand the stakes if he gets it wrong. would he think that he can break the cycle? that he could be better? or is it, truly, as good as it's going to get?

#dungeons and daddies #dndads s2 #glenn close #nicky foster #taylor swift #I JUST HAVE SOME THOUGHTS OKAY #gets very emotional over these characters #i talk about the other pcs and their families also but a decent amount is about the close/foster/swifts #talkin shit

[rainydayscore]

I still havent emotionally recovered from the breakfast baguette I got from greggs this morning.