#i swear nothing better not happen to them

[liminalmemories21]

There’s a way that panic can make you feel nauseous, and he has to swallow hard before he can get the words out.  “Tell me what you need me to do.”

Trudie gives him an approving smile, like a teacher with a student who’s given the right answer.  “You’re going to help me steal a statue.”

The Knave of Clubs . . . swears he'll take her part

liner notes below the cut

First things first.  Yes, Iris is in this alot.  No, there is no secret marriage. This is not a spoiler, this was referenced in the previous story in this series. The Carlos in this universe is a step to the left of the Carlos in canon, and he has different experiences.  Also, this is my unhinged AU, which means I get to pick and choose which bits of canon I work with.   I did not vibe with that one.

Second things second.  This was going to be a caper, y'all.  It was going to be a short caper.  Carlos and TK were going to go to NOLA and help the Leverage crew take care of some business , and, I don't know, eat beignets and popsicles.  Why popsicles and not po'boys?  Because the last time I was in NOLA I had the best popsicles of my life - they sadly no longer exist, but I can resurrect them for fic.  I also had excellent po'boys, but the popsicles were better.

[eyes fic] I don't know what happened?  Okay, I do know.  One of the weird upsides to writing a series is that you get to deal in consequences and messy afters, and the way that making a decision isn't the end to that decision, and what you did last time around keeps echoing in what you do this time.  Nothing exists in isolation.  And, I love love a story about what happens after - after the war, after the quest, after the reveal.  How do you rebuild, what happens next.  That is my die-hard kink.  Also, there was S4 of Lonestar and I had . . . thoughts, questions, concerns, reactions.  I worked them out in fic.

Third things third.  My characterization of Trudie in this fic owes a debt to Mags Bennett in S2 of Justified.  She was terrifying, and ruthless, and totally in control, and one of the most interesting characters - she's why that season was so good.  Also, go watch Justified, it's fantastic.

Fourth things last.  As ever, don't try this at home y'all, this is not how any of this works.

Reference links in final chapter, because see previous notes about being too much of a geek not to footnote.

And finally, the chapters aren't for @rmd-writes, but they're not not for her either (sorry @freneticfloetry- but this time, the structure did actually lend itself to chapters).

#knave-verse #tarlos #911 lonestar #au #fic complete

[dipolardruid]

⚠️ TW WARNING⚠️

Yandere, toxic relationship, kidnapping, attempted break up on readers part.

"What...? No, I wasn't trying to, you know I wouldn't do anything like that!" Tina says with a desperate tone as she closes in on you.

You take a step back to create distance, which causes her to look at you with an unreadable expression "yet you knowingly do it, I've told you repeatedly to stop doing things because they make me uncomfortable, Even after that you still do them." At this she seems to look away a couple of times before making eye contact with you.

"I swear it's never on purpose!" Before you're able to respond or do anything, she continues on."I promise I really mean it! It won't happen starting today!" She says in a pleading tone as she lightly scratches and squeezes her fingers.

"You're right it won't happen starting today because I want nothing to do with you." You quickly turn away before Tina can respond to your words. However, you don't get far before you're grabbed by the back of your shirt "Wait stop w-where are you going?"

Pulling away from Tina, she tries to grab you again, which only causes you to become more aggressive in keeping her hands away, which results in Tina becoming more desperate to hold onto you "please don't go! I promise! I promise I'll stop!" The struggle is enough to cause you to trip over your feet, causing both of you to almost fall.

"Will you stop already! Just leave me alone!" At your raised voice, Tina flinches back, her eyes squinted, fist raised to her chest in a self soothing manner, but it seems to have stopped her from trying to grab you again.

At this, you walk away from her and out of her room, looking back every so often to make sure she isn't behind you. While walking towards the front door, you see both Petra and Jake walking towards you. Upon seeing your upset face, Jake puts up his hand to stop you.

"What's wrong?" He tries to make eye contact with you, but you avoid his gaze looking over at the floor."Go ask Tina." You tell him before walking past him and Petra they both take a quick look at each other before Jake speaks up. "I'll go check on Tina. " Petra nods before following behind you.

That day ended with Petra taking you home and Tina's nonstop calling and texting until you had to block her number.

Despite this, the others sat around you during school hours. Petra or Jake may talk to you, but it's mainly Paul who tries to get you to speak to Tina again.

"Come on, you guys had an argument that's all there is to it. What's the big deal?" He says he says wrapping his arm around your shoulder. However, upon trying to move out of his grip, he tightens his forearm around your collarbone, keeping you in place "ok how about this you just come over you don't have to make small talk with her or anything but just be around like before" you look at him to reject but before you can he speaks up "please..." he says pleadingly.

You don't know why you accepted, you never should've, it would've been better to just take the guilt and walk away from him, to ask for help if he refused to let you go yet you didn't.

Now, here you were watching your face plastered on the screen as your parents beg for your safe return, promising all that they have and more. At this, everything begins to blur as a sob escapes your throat.

"Why...?" Is all that you could muster before the tightness in your throat becomes too much for you to continue talking.

Tina sits beside you, stroking your back. "You tried to leave, I would've handled this better if you listened to everyone else about just coming back, but you wanted to be stubborn about it"

You wanted nothing more than to smack her away and yell, but you knew the consequences of that. You lost count of all the things she's done to you after some time. Things were bearable if you simply let it happen instead of constantly fighting back.

"It's ok...it's ok, come here, no more crying. I don't like it when you cry." Tina says, pulling you closer to herself, your head on her chest.

"They're still looking for me....you can't keep me here forever, tina." You say between breaths as you try to catch your breath. "Really? I would say otherwise, the news has stopped talking about you, your disappearance came and went as everything else does, your parents... let's say they aren't a worry." Tina strokes your head as she says this.

At this you feel you feel your body stiffen and your breath catch in your throat.

As you're about to question her, Tina runs her thumb over your lips before speaking, "That's enough for today. It's late, so let's get you ready for bed." At this, you go to speak up only to be met with Tina's side glance, causing you to keep your mouth shut.

You hate it. You hate the way you fear her. The way your body tenses up as she tucks you into bed and smooths the blanket around you, yet you can't help but let it happen even if you did fight back, you're just a human. Physically, you could stand a chance. However, if she decided to use her power, you'd be on the floor clutching your ears in pain, not only that it'd alert everyone in the house along with the others.

So as much as you want to shove past her as she walks out that door, all you can do is lay in this bed watching her back as she walks out able to do whatever she wants, whenever she wants.

"One more thing." This causes you to look over at her " I love you, Goodnight"

You don't want to say it but you have to yet everytime you do it feels as if you're about to vomit. "Y/N" This causes you to flinch your head back as she says your name with a warning edge to it.

"I-I love you too..."

Request are open!

#yandere #yandere oc #my oc character #yandere x reader #yandere x y/n #female yandere x reader #yandere mutants #female yandere #yandere female oc #Tina

[straightdazed412]

GUYS OMFG DID ANYONE ELSE NOTICE THIS

BRO LIZZY AND THAD IN EPISODE 7?!!??!?!

YESSS PLS WE NEED MORE OF THEM

#artists on tumblr #murder drones #OMFGABDKSHDJASUVFA #i swear nothing better not happen to them #especially Lizzy she's too iconic to die #Uzi might die though #i'm not ready for that🥲

[pineapplezdrawsometimes]

More Kirara sketches

#artists on tumblr #jujutsu kaisen #jjk fanart #pineapplezbedrawin #sketches #illustration #digital art #kirara #I swear nothing better happen to them Gege or I’ll be at your door #the way the manga is going now I’m getting very nervous about these characters

[sskk-manifesto]

(*・ω・*)b♪

#I'm a bit late but :) #Mmmhh lots of thoughts about this episode. Nothing really relevant though lol #I like it... Mostly. Well‚ I like Atsushi‚ and I like Atsushi screentime. #I always forget that there's actually a one week timeskip within the Guild arc #I think these chapters were generally better executed in the manga. #But even then it's just... #Why do the make the Guild / Fitzgerald so. dumb. Why do they make them act so wildly irrationally and at the protagonists' advantage #It really gives villain acting entirely mindlessly to make the plot advance and the heroes win. It's really sensless. #I mean especially when Atsushi yielded. Why didn't Fitzgerald take his offer. For real!! #For real. He had NOTHING to gain from proceeding with his plan. He already obtained for Atsushi and the ada to collaborate. #Now they are NEVER going to help him‚ and that's agreat loss for him. #And idk. i hear that little Tumblr post in my voice saying “why would you complain about characters acting irrationally! #Do people irl never act irrationally?” #And yeah I get Fitzgerald was frustrated for losing Mitchell and his fight with Hawthorne. Okay I understand. #But that's definitely too much. That's him acting downright stupid at the heroes' advantage and it's just pretty underwhelming to read? #That said. It's just general notes I'm not particularly annoyed because like. That's just b/s/d to you. Dumbing down the villains a second– #so the author can escape the trap they put themselves into. Very Marvel-esque move lol. #On that exact same note WHY WOULD LUCY HAVE THE DOLL. #The doll is the whole premise for your plan working why would you not protect it with everything 😭😭😭 #I'm not getting in the Lucy / Atsushi scene itself. I love Lucy but I swear every time that scene gets played a femminist dies #(it's me. I'm the femminist dying every time.) #Mmmhh a couple more things. I dislike the ost choice in the scene where Steinbeck is torturing Q it feels so out of place #And I really don't get what's the deal with the Hawthorne / Fitzgerald convo it's so confusing to me. Like it It looks like Hawtorne is– #blaming Fitzgerald for Mitchell's condition (both in health and for her family status) but... #Objectively neither of those things are Fitzgerald's fault? Idk maybe I just have very little media comprehension for this arc because– #a lot of things just seem to happen with no sense. But it's okay #Im complaining a lot lol but its mostly irrelevant things (or like with the dumbification of villains things I've learnt to live with lmao) #But the episode was generally nice. The animation this season is consistently very pretty. #random rambles

[irhabiya]

today sucked the life out of me ya Allah

#nothing particularly happened #well actually multiple things happened but none of them are that big of a deal im just tired #yesterday the ppt file for my presentation corrupted as i was finishing it :') didn't have autosave on :')) #had to redo the entire thing from scratch. i was working on it all week too for god's sake #finished by like 4am today and i had to be up by 8 for uni so i barely slept #the presentation was fine i think given i had to do everything again last minute but ik the original version was better #my blood pressure was through the roof the entire day for some reason. felt my pulse in my head for the whole day #fitting because our pbl case this week was about hypertension😭 #called my dad to make sure he went to get his meds renewed... #i'm really worried about him he refused to go to the doctor again aslan but i sat him down and we had a long talk about it #alhamdulillah he agreed to go. only for them not to have his diabetes meds in stock💀 bas ya3ni it's good that he went anyway #my mom is a different story she's so stubborn i swear #had an argument with her today about letting me work again to lift a bit of the workload off her since money is still so tight #and she got pissed at me #so now im tired unrested have a migraine and my mom is mad at me what a day bgad #ya Allah

[pepprs]

ok. giving myself 4 minutes to make this post and then i finish my homework. i just am so deeply miserable. i really think i made a mistake. i should not be in grad school. i only took a year between this and undergrad and i am still so burned out and mentally ill. im working full time. im only taking one class and this program is supposed to be so good and aligned with what i want and all of that. but i just cant stand having homework. i just cant stand it. i think i am not cut out for academia even though i work in academia. i think i will never get better as long as im still living at home but i have to get better before i can no longer be living at home but i cant get better until im not living at home and every day i still live at home saps away at my will to live quite literally. i should not have started doing grad school without regaining my will to live. without restoring my love for reading and writing that i used to have voraciously when i was younger and less deeply miserable. without recovering from the burnout. i think i made a mistake. i need a masters degree so bad so that i can be safe but i need to not have fucking homework when i already struggle to get through my days without school. i feel so stuck in my life and hopeless and helpless. i dont know what to do

#purrs #i cant drop out or anything because. lol and this class isnt even that big of a deal like i TRULY am freaking out over nothing. but my life #situation is so bad rn bro like i cant get my parents to take me out to drive and i cant get myself to get my parents to take me out to #drive and every day i am guilt tripped berated etc etc and i feel like i am never ever ever going to be able to have my own life where i a #stable and safe and happy. it can happen for other people except for me and my siblings. i dont know. im not explaining anything well. #i just cant do this. i need to not have this one more thing on my plate but i have to because if i dont have a masters degree in my field i #am nothing even though everyone is telling me that isnt true and all of them are credible but im just so mentally ill i cant believe anyone #and icant accept any advice or hope or whatever good about me i just. am stuck. this is as good as it gets and its not even good. #delete later #that was 7 minutes not 4 and i didnt even write anything substantial. nutshell. i just have been so fucking depressed lately oh my goddddd #this is maybe too strong of a thing to say but like. i know it isnt technically neglect if i am an adult but... i think i may kind of be #neglected by my family in some ways a little bit and always have been but like. emotionally. like in the ways in which im never a priority #and the things i need are seen as burdens etc etc. and theres nothing anyone can do about it even myself because im an adult but like lol. #24 year old dependent moment <3 #well there is one thing i can do about it as an adult actually. its called move out. but that requires strength i will #never possess unfortunately due to the inherent flaws in my character and constitution so. guess this is it lawl 🥰 #side note (and i swear im done after this lol): i think i was doing a lot better mentally over the summer. funny how when the semester #starts i get depressed and the depression just gets worse and worse until the end of the semester 😻 funny how this is my seventh year like #this. willingly subjecting myself to this. that should be a clue no? but i love my job and if i could just have my job and be stable in it #would be happier but also im lying to mysaelf and i will always be unhappy but its because of my mental illness not my job being bad or #anything its like. i am just sick in the head with impostor syndrome and thats how i got myself into this whole mess. lol #well that and the not moving out thing which is partially my fault but also because i live in hell as described earlier! <3

[wawamouse]

i write a little bit of my fic then i watch a little bit of oz and then i go "This is unbearable. i am so bad at this" and then i remember all the dumb shit that happens in oz and i go "Actually i can do whatever i want. Said fell in love in like 2 hours and fontana envisioned o'reily getting released after 20 years despite 2 counts of vehicular manslaughter. i can write whatever i want." then i write a little bit of my fic and then i go "i should be drawn and quartered for writing something so boring". then they kiss (???). the end.

#text #for being such a nitpicker you'd think i'd come up with better shit but i don't lol. i got a black hole where my imagination is. #common wawa L #我就是嘴贱 咋了 #any time a fic gets past 10k i just start getting violent urges to bash my head against a wall LOL #all these oz fics and nothing even closed to fucked up has happened. who am i. what's the point!! #we need to make them shorter + more fucked up #new years resolution i swear (broken promise) #I NEED TO KILLLLLLLL

[knowlesian]

i get why “this character has never done anything wrong, ever in their lives” is a fandom joke, but i feel like when it hits a point where people very seriously say that their favored antagonist made no mistakes it’s perhaps hit a dial it back, remember it’s a joke point

#like it’s obvious i’m thinking about one or two characters in particular but it’s not NOTa general issue #not even with antagonists happens with any kind of character tbqh #but it’s particularly glaring when you have people out here arguing for moral relativity so hard they lose the plot #its… okay that your blorbo did something wrong #like to say the quiet part loud starting to develop a flinch response to this re: the gremlinman #i see people argue things like oh he’s done nothing wrong (i’m not joking) over and over #its okay! let your blorbo have made a mistake #its fine you can still like them i swear #but like. not loving seeing people calcify the joke into being like “no here’s why they had to be cruel and they don’t need to change” #i keep seeing the idea that izzy shouldn’t need to grow or change people should justbe nicer and coddle him #because you see it’s their fault he acts like this #if they were better at their jobs or patted his wee head he wouldn’t have to be like this you see #and it’s like…for a million reasons no #i am still on the same train i’ve always been: i’d like to see an izzy redemption arc #if only for the sake of the world and the people who will have to be around him in the future #and saying he somehow doesn’t need to change is. weird. #everybody on this show did! even the characters who were pretty close to already self-actualized had growing to do! #so why oh why would izzy be the only exception #just. think about this stuff maybe #and like. to be blunt if you’re white and saying izzy didn’t do anything all that bad i am particularly sideeying #because it happens a lot and it’s like really? nothing? he didn’t make a single mistake? #if you say so… basically.

[dollops-of-delusion]

okay so i got accepted into my top college ed and everyone was really happy and IM really happy i agree but my brain sees an achievement and just thinks of the catastrophes that will follow said achievement so now i'm thinking about how i'm going to be in debilitating, crippling debt and IM NOT EVEN SURE WHAT I WANT TO DO. WHAT IF THE MONEY IS WASTED AND I FAIL (LEISTER)

#and also the stunning lack of faith my dad had in me getting in was really. just. wow. he refused to believe i would get in the whole time #which stings a little ig #but i'm happy!!! but im not??? #but i should be happy!! one of my good friends is also going to that school #every at school td was congratulating me and its a good fucking school to get into #so i'm happy!!! but i'm also worried?? #i feel like i should be happier. and let myself enjoy this triumph over the weekend. but all i want to do is plan. #plan out my next steps figure out how to save myself from overwhelming debt curse my parentals for saving literally nothing for college #and both FINALLY getting raises and better jobs only the year before i started applying to colleges #which good for them but shitty for me considering that it ruined my chances of getting a lot of financial aid when prior to those #very sudden shifts in wages and job qualities we had less that half of the income we're making now #so i dont get any college savings bc they didn't have good enough jobs to save up and i get less financial aid bc their tax returns from #last year make it seem like they're rich or smthn now #and it still stings that my dad's acting like my acceptance was a miracle (which i agree suqran allah first and foremost subhanalah) #but it disregards all the hard work i put into making this happen??? #and the fact that my mom didn't even believe me at first #idfk #i SHOULD be happy. i AM happy. why can't i just let myself be happy for a weekend #tw swearing #swearing tw

[that-was-anticlimactic]

Saw you posting Reki again. Everything okay?

(Thanks for showing us Reki 🥰)

lol

i mean like. literally speaking, yes. but i ran out of my meds a little over a week ago and keep forgetting to call the doctor's office to get a refill before they close so i have. not been Great this week but for literally No Reason lol

always i will always show reki have you seen him? have you seen my reki? okay thank you anyway. i love my reki. reki, my love...

oF sKaTeBoArDiNg

#crogan tag #lol i've also just been. really tired this week and stressed about practicum because we go into the field next monday and we STILL don't #have our placements which is frustrating and i accidentally fell asleep for a half hour earlier today and had... well it wasn't a nightmare #but i woke up Feeling like it was like i felt like i couldn't breathe for a minute and i was like Scared for a good minute after i woke up #even tho nothing happened and my heart was racing and it kind of just. never went away and like head has been... not throbbing but i can #feel this like. pulsing behind my eyes and up in my forehead and idk why and like i'm starting to cry as i type this and idk why because #like there's no genuine reason for me to be sad right now and i think that's getting to me and my throat has been tight all day like #swallowing hurts and not in the sick kind of way and idk reki just makes me happy i love him i love him so much frick i need to hug vanessa #(my stuffed animal pig) right now idk why typing this is getting to me or even why i'm typing this sorry not to just dump everything on you #i'm sure this was a joke and like it's actually really funny and i giggled but now i'm suddenly realizing that h #*hm maybe i'm not lol i just feel bad because my mental health has been so bad this week that i just haven't been answering any messages #frick sorry this is a lot i'm so sorry i'm hoping that typing this out in the tags will make me calm down or feel better or. idk whatever #ranting in the tags usually makes me feel better because i'm saying Something and not just stewing in it also i swear i can hear my #eyebrows moving and it's so weird like that's not a bad thing i just keep noticing it and i can Hear them maybe i'm just neurodivergent lol #just a random observation... or maybe i'm just tired lol bestie i am so so rry this is a lot feel free to ignore my tags you didn't ask for #this oiugytftgyhujis also i Have stopped crying so like it only lasted for a minute - woooooo #i hope you're doing well <3 #corey rambles:)

[malewifehenrycooldown]

it would be nice if actually NMH4 was smart and pulled a whole 'actually the real villain was inter-generational trauma all along!' and that it re-contextualised the overarching narrative of NMH to be about the about the Touchdown Family's struggle to end the toxic cycle of violence that their family has been stuck in.

#I DOUBT NMH4 will be that smart. (assuming it will ever happen) but it would be neat if they did lean into that #the reason why the ending of the cycle is so important is that it kinda adds a nice book end / call back to alice twilight #the whole ‘free us from the red crimson sea of madness!’ as a cry for help by assassins asking Travis to help them leave the life #of being an assassin still kinda gets to me #I mean the whole reason why NMH2 happens is that many of the characters are there BECAUSE of Travis. many envy him because he was the one #that became number one. AND WALKED AWAY. #plus in NMH2 travis says ‘we may be fucked up but assassins are human too’ and GAH HES SO RIGHT ABOUT THAT #like really one thing that does bother me about flesh and blood episode is that Travis is VERY NONCHALANT about killing henry. like hey. #that’s your brother who literally just told you not long ago that he saved you and (their) sister jeane from their father!!! #like?? wouldn’t you have a mental breakdown about that revelation?! like I get human emotions are complex #but like at least SOME FORM OF REMORSE WOULDVE MADE THE SCENE BETTER. even him perhaps scolding Sylvia for being nonchalant about the death #of Henry would have made the situation go from ‘oh god the horror’ to ‘don’t you dare say that about my brother #’he did everything to keep me and my sister safe and you have the audacity to think I was okay with killing him?!’ #like seriously where did that small bit of familial bonding/friendship development with Henry and Travis go after NMH2????? #like Henry didn’t just save Travis in the Nick of time with the jasper batt jr fight for NOTHING. #Travis failed to save jeane! so make him at least try to help Henry!! he’s his only real blood relative and knowing the person who’s done #their best to keep you out of very specific life threatening danger - I think you owe your sibling to try and save them from whatever #is happening to them that’s making them take irrational decisions of world domination #SUDA HIRE ME TO BE YOUR WRITER TRUST ME I CAN FIX YOUR SILLY LITTLE UNIVERSE I SWEAR #nomoreposting #suda51posting #nmh3 spoilers #shallow rambles #sorry I’m have deep thoughts about this series and it’s implications sorry #yeah I’m kinda in denial of the whole Henry’s domination of the world thing (not that I hate it!! good for him!!) #but also I wish there was much more build up and development before hand you know? the last time we got development was in NMH2 #<- NMH2 was released… 13 years ago and even then henry still doesn’t have that much screentime either so is that even character development #if you’re reading tags. dear goodness thank you for putting up with my ramblings. /GEN

[sensitivegoblin]

….

#my sister got me these rainbow high dolls #AND IM DOING A WHOLE GROCERY ORDER TO PAY HER BACK #and they made me so happy I started scripting again (long story) #they gave me such autistic joy and now I can’t even look at them #cus she just gives these death glares like #she’d swear she doesn’t do it #but since yknow I dared to stand up for myself #she had to be all like ‘I do everything for you and nothing is happening to you’ #thanks DAD2.0 now I’m never trusting you again #our relationship is much better when we don’t live together #but if I try to tell her I’m not moving in she’ll have a whole meltdown #if I wanna make everyone happy it means that I’m miserable an depressed 24/7 #so whatever I dunno #I’m just so fucking angry I keep hurting myself #why did God make me? #i suck im a loser I have no real talent I can’t do anything right #i beg God to kill me and he doesn’t #im just so tired of killing myself to make everyone happy #the only thing that takes me out of these moments is if I imagine kms over n over n over until I feel like I can actually feel the pain #I’m so tired I want someone to hold me like they used to :’(

[systematicallycapricious]

Some Ergo Lore!

Disclaimer: I’ve been staring at both this and my cacophony of assorted AoN notes for too long, so if something doesn’t make sense in it, just let me know and I’ll do my best to clarify it.

(Additionally, stuff like the metaphysical aspects of how Evokers work and more on how they’re used for research are still in the works, so I’ll likely be including those in different lore docs later on. /o/)

#Sholar System AU #Evoker #Plume of Dusk #Anti-Shadow Suppression Weapon #Kirijo Ergonomics Research Institute #Persona #Persona 3 #worldbuilding #Lorecrafting: Capricious Style #I swear this wasn't an excuse just to write up ASSW lore #It just kinda happened and I just so happen to quite like it xP #This legitimately started because I was mid-writing and was like 'so science needs to go here...' 'and I need science to put here...' #'Also what if the 3rd gen of ASSW were tanks?' #(Seriously what other reason would Ikutsuki have to mention them in relation to Plumes and Aigis in canon? He has to know from trying. xP) #(I didn't really get into that much detail on the doc though 'cause I was trying to keep it simple and on-topic) #(The first two gens were like more basic weaponry; the third gen is where Ergo decided to use bigger and more destructive implements) #(Like G1 is them going 'can we use this offensively? let's examine the properties') #(While G2 is like 'we can; let's put it in a more familiar weapon-like structure') #(G4 was when they started thinking that Personas would be more effective as anti-Shadow weaponry I guess) #(Some of G2-3 may still be in use in present-day too; they're inferior to a Persona-user but better than nothing for those w/o Personas) #(Or something like that; I haven't really detailed it yet but I should at somepoint <_<)

[literaturebf]

thats IT.

#will.. #good god. I hate them so bad #the way nothing we predicted came true like i wasnt expecting jt to but come on #and EDDIE????? HELLO??????? HELLO. #who js tling mike eddie died is the questjon. when is that happening #god im so depressed now . but also so pissed like what the fuck #tbh at the end of the clip i wanted it to go black and then be like (vecna voice) #i feel like that couldbe been cooler #lim so. #like honestly it was good or whageverbut what the HELL #AND THE STANCY STUFF?? AND THATS SUPPOSED TO BE OUR JANCY DEALING W THEIR PROGLEMS ? #they better resolve it propwrly in season 5 i swear to God. #im so #its 4am #stranger things spoilers #also the will byler stuff in general. like i know queerbaiting js real and they r using it as much as thry can but thats IT #IF YOURE GONNA QUEERBAIT AT LEAST PUT SOME EFFORT INTO IT LIKE IDK WHAT WAS THAT #and the mike monologue ohojohohdifhskfhtmdbt

[esta-elavaris]

Petty vent will probably delete later.

Power was out for a while today because of an electrical fault in the house. No power til mid-afternoon while we waited for an emergency electrician, which meant no kitchen appliances bar the stove, whatever, it's all good, I don't eat 'til like 3pm anyway, and I'd be fine with a sandwich or some porridge or whatever should worse come to worse. Completely survivable situation, I was actually happy to have a chance to sit and read with 0 distraction.

Grandparents, in light of this situation, offer to go and get some fast food for my brother and I, because my nana is a typical "if you don't eat every hour you're going to STARVE, but also you're too fat" grandparent.

We say no, flat out - we don't want fast food, we certainly don't want to send our elderly grandparents to get it (because we could always use the data on our fully-charged phones to order something if we did), we're adults, we're fine, but the offer is very kind.

By the time my aunt hears the story, it becomes "Lucy and Craig were demanding that the two 80+ year olds go out and buy them food because they couldn't make do when the power went out". Grandparents do NOTHING to refute this version of events.

All of these people wonder why we both avoid them so often, and why the only fuckers we actually seek out the company of in this family is that of each other.

I cannot be arsed, man. It's so fucking stupid as I type it down that it doesn't even sound real, bar to everybody who has met my family - the first words out of their mouths usually being "Lucy how are you so decent when this is what you came from?"

(Meanwhile all of our cousins treat them like servants with 0 gratitude, while doing not even 10% of what we do to help them, and if you comment on it, you're the devil.)

#like i am so used to only being able to rely on myself #that i ask them for nothing #in part because i'm used to 'if you need something you better go get it babe' #and also because i'd feel guilty asking #and they get SO annoyed at me for that #like if i walk somewhere that they could've given me a lift to #or if i just go a month with 0 money because will i fuck ask to borrow some from them #but then they do THIS #it's exhausting #back when i was homeless i fasted for 1 day a week bc i couldn't afford to eat daily #the only money i ever borrowed (other than insanely kind donations that i still get emotional about) #was from my brother - which I didn't even ASK for he just sent it - so I could afford a bday gift for the pal #who put a roof over my head while i was couch surfing #and he only sent it bc i fckn broke down on the phone to him and then he wouldn't let me pay him back #like i do realise it's a character flaw #but can you actually blame me when i'm surrounded by this bullshit #god forbid i ever do need to ask for something because i swear i just will not if this is what happens when i've literally done fuck all