#i write every day i swear

[gooperts-gunk]

im so crazy over the tragedy of everything q!bbh does being under a demon pretense even though he's a fallen angel.

do u think he just accepts the demon label because it's easier. do u think he believes it too, and catches himself in his thoughts with "oh, right. im not exactly that". and maybe he believes that he did this to himself? do u think what he did was to protect himself or someone? no matter the fall, he still has so much kindness to give and his brain just isn't wired the way a natural-born demon would be, he can't hold back instincts when time demands it, maybe that's why he fell in the first place.

and when he's finally bad, not good, it's treated like the end of the world, without empathy on why he would act out. do you think this keeps happening? the same scenario, multiple times, every timeline? he has to be used to it. so he has to take it in stride. he's good until he lashes out under extreme pressure, and suddenly he's called demon. and once again he's what heaven made him out to be. what he made himself to be, his brain would ruthlessly provide...

i don't think he wants to be that, though he hides secrets behind secrets of which neither identity is a home... but i don't think he wants to have to change, either. and i don't think that's wrong of him.

...you collapse atlantis ONE TIME and all of a sudden YOU'RE the bad guy and SURE it was FUN but REALLY now,--

#lots of expansion on this in tags beware #this is a draft from 2:40AM the day before i just felt something within me and i needed to write about fallen angel q!bbh angst NOW #this post is brought to you by q!bbh in purgatory and post-purgatory i will never forgive you purgatory 1 #no one can bear to have a healthy conversation about q!bbh's behaviors let alone TO q!bbh. BUT IF Q!BAGHERA WASN'T STUCK ON THE ISLAND... #i miss u bbh + baghera interactions let me see u soon pls #he isn't impossible to communicate with ur just not jiving with his autism right u can get through to him i swear BUT TOO LATE he DIED #now he doesn't remember!!! (unless that part of the library is recovered) u lost ur shot!!! (ur issues with him will rise again) #now every time bagi goes “'cause he's a demon” with bbh i go OH MAN SHE DOESN'T KNOW IT'S MORE... it hurts how flippant it is sometimes #because WE KNOW OH MAN WE KNOW IT'S MORE and this concept of him being fallen adds SO MUCH CONNOTATION to EVERYTHING he does #it isn't just DEMON THINGS it's GOD MADE ME THIS THINGS and i just can't wait to know WHY what did you DO!!! #your instincts are to be nice though cautiously detached when your life restarts so WHAT DID YOU DO IF YOU ARE NOT INHERENTLY BAD??? #goopert talks qsmp #qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo

[skymantle]

not shipping something subtextual? alright whatever

not shipping it because a wildly popular INACCURATE fan theory says the characters are related? annoying.

not shipping it because you believe (falsely) that they're related + claiming there's no subtext when the crux of the series is the relationship? DIE.

#i need to write my thesis on portal as a feminist story it's been brewing in my head for years and every time #someone says something stupid about caroline or chell or glados it bubbles up and i become exponentially more evil #maybe writing it will inspire less rage within my heart when I see a godawful take in the wild #even if you don't like chelldos. and I get that. you can't deny that the chell and glados' situationship is the heart of both games #the first game ends with them trying to kill each other. the second one ends with them saving each other #logs #portal #chelldos #I swear some people opened the game and absorbed nothing but british men and glowing hole #I think of the GLaDOS line ''I'm being serious I think there's something really wrong with me'' every fucking day #the delivery and context of it. also she's just like me

[stoner3456]

how it feels to be so hyperfixated on a character/ship to the point where I associate EVERYTHING with them and die inside every single time

#every day is a struggle #gang idk how long I can keep this up #mr burleday #jermy fartz #petrol cc #camp camp #class of 09 #co09 #LOSING MY SHIT I SWEAR TO GODDD. #If I had the power to draw and write i'd be unstoppable jvhjwfewfgyfuay73q8tgd;e #songs #especially songs. #not to mention automatically getting the urge to turn em trans. #relatable #real #jermy x ainsley #mr burleday x mr lorre #burlorre

[mewtwo24]

Okay but like. Two things about the volume 8 statue [redacted] chapter.

Firstly. By god no amount of "yeah it was unhinged" comments on this website prepared me for whatever the fuck that was. I need at least 5 business days to process.

Second, was I the only one who read that scene as:

Hua Cheng, teeming with self-satisfaction to see Mu Qing near writhing with scorned disgust and fury: this was a 100% successful trip

Xie Lian: our statues are fucking in Mu Qing's palace oh god oh fuck what do you m e a n successful

Hua Cheng, smirk getting even bigger: this was a 100% successful trip

#tgcf #volume 8 spoilers #hualian #hua cheng #xie lian #mu qing #hua cheng really out here like 'it's called christening the heavens with our love which is more than you lot deserve.' #nothing could have prepared me for how that scene played out #hua cheng how does it feel to win every single day of your deceased life #mf thought he was going to be humiliated in front of his lifelong crush/sworn love #only to instead watch one of his love rivals tangentially humiliated by XL's (hualian POST-COITAL) overwhelming spiritual power no less #I have never witnessed a bigger W in my life holy shit the way that boomeranged #I just can't get over how funnily hc's built I swear to god it ends me every time #mfer was born and literally nobody liked that. baby boy suffers for most of his life #fast forward to ghost hc. master of cataclysmic power and protecting his loving failwife (who is basically full of aged weird girl energy) #said weird girl energy being hc's salvation because xl saw him feral and unhinged and legit went 'i like him i'll let him tear up the couch #for 800 y e a r s hc pined and nourished his love--waiting for his opportunity #thusly leaving every single one of his competitors for xl's attention in the dust (not that they were much to write home about) #hc is like the definition of 'bide your time and fucking destroy' #i don't care what anyone says he's legitimately one of the coolest characters i've ever seen #i also can't get over hua cheng straight up being like 'xl in distress? we all know who this is a job for. M E' **builds hc statue** #without an ounce of hesitation #the way i love this mfer he's so sweet and so funny at the same time nobody doing it like him #i also love mxtx's passion for the dynamic of “GET RID OF HIM HE'S A MENACE” “no he just needs enrichment let him be" #why bingqiu and hualian will live forever in my heart

[bunnyreaper]

PLS PLS IM BEGGING UPDATE COLLARS AND CAGES PLSSSSSS IM GONNA CRY THE CLIFFHANGER OF CHAPTER 4 PLSSS UPDATE IT

no

#okay but seriously #im sure you didnt mean to be rude #but im genuinely struggling so much with my physical and mental health #i can barely use my right hand at all #and some days i push myself through to try and write and you know what?? #it makes my wrist worse #and yet every day i sit with this guilt and pain bcs im not doing enough #not writing enough #not good enough #and its not like i have my usual outlets to relieve stress #so yeah #ill update at some point i promise #its coming #but i literally struggle to physically type because i have one hand and one finger #and then wrist pain #and shoulder pain #and i was just SICK #like im trying my best i swear <3

[soo-won]

Rereading the beginning of the Eunyung's Home arc right now and yeah...when Eunyung's mom tells him "why don't you just apologize? Why do you bring up the school play event again after so many years?" it really connects with what Eunyung says to Haejoon in ch201, huh. That it would be so nice if he was nice like Haejoon and could accept everything and not be so hung up on things like that. Maybe if he was like Haejoon his relationship with his mother could be better?(I don't think so. but Eunyung maybe does).

But in parallel we also see how this aspect of Eunyung, being hung up on things and staying angry can also be helpful. It's because Eunyung is like that that he doesn't let Haejoon apologize to his mom when he shouldn't have to. It's because he is like that that he makes Haejoon have a medical diagnosis after his homeroom teacher hit him. It's because he is like that the bullying situation in the Marie arc could be resolved as well. As Haejoon says, it's also thanks to Eunyung that he could sort out things with his uncle and receive more allowance. This side of Eunyung that every adults around him try to make him suppress is good and healthy. It's this anger that causes change. It makes things harder for him and it causes more ruckus, sure, but Haejoon's acceptance in these moments is hurtful as well, it doesn't resolve the issue at hand, it just makes him carry all the burden. Haejoon grew up wanting to cause the less problems and worries possible to his mom (and now his uncle) and avoids confrontations with adults as a result (also a direct consequence of when he lost his mother probably), while Eunyung grew up fantasizing about his parents receiving punishments for all their abuse. The consequences were so bad to him when he tried it's the one thing he gave up on though, so it's no surprise he lashes out whenever else he can.

When you think about it it's also connected to their level of trust in adults. Haejoon relatively trusts adults. If you take the New Dorm arc, Haejoon was planning to tell other adults about the situation there, before Eunyung told him not to (pretty violently lol) because he can't trust adults to deal with it or believe them. So Eunyung uses his own way to deal with it and it works! But Haejoon trusts adults to deal with other adults and yeah. That's how it should be and go. But Eunyung presents the "but" of this. That's how it should be, but in some cases it doesn't work because adults are douchebags, and for Eunyung it's the majority of them. Haejoon grew up with a good(even if not perfect) mom getting angry for him so he knows good adults exist. He also was moved by Juwan's mom's kindness as well(even if that makes him embarassed too). Eunyung doesn't, though, so he has to rely on himself and get angry for himself, because otherwise who will?

Writing all this I'm like....yeah No Home is all about balance. Haejoon and Eunyung searching for the right amount of distance and closeness in their relationship. Searching for the balance in their distrust of adults too. Eunyung can't trust adults for very understandable reasons, but the arc with Haejoon's uncle shows us that adults are simply struggling sometimes and trying their best, even if they're clumsy. It's true Haejoon's uncle was drinking, but he's not an irredeemable piece of shit like his father either. But it was a situation where Haejoon couldn't rely on any adults either, after all his uncle is basically his only family left. And that's why Eunyung's point of view was so helpful.

Idk man I just love the hundreds of layers in this manhwa so much. Like it's not just "the best is not to be extreme <3 not too much not too little" it's "sometimes you have no choice but to be too much. Sometimes it's destructive, though. But sometimes it's the only solution. And /sometimes/ you need a bit of the two. Sometimes both solutions work equally well. Sometimes the consequences are bad and sometimes everything ends well" like yeah life really be complicated and unpredictable like that. There isn't one guide to follow and that will work no matter what, you constantly have to adapt to the situations and people around you. Something something Eunyung and his father but if I don't end this post now I never will.

#no home manhwa #txt #ch201 gave me severe no home brainrot im afraid #please read no home if you havent!! i say this every day i know but it's really .so good #i can't put it into words #but it changes your brain chemistry #Wanan the god of storytelling fr #I swear I didn't plan to write so much but I kept having new ideas and new things to say... #So scared to post this in the wild. Afraid to be cringe #But I'm free!!! #This is my default mode btw. I fight constantly the urge to talk non stop like that 7/7 and sometimes i lose. #no home #lumen rants

[sga-owns-my-soul]

sorry to everyone i tell a fic idea to that they get excited about bc i'm so bad at finishing a fic but i can offer you the start of the 8 new fics i've started this week with 0 plans on how to finish them if you would like

#rip to mushroom and spurious #i swear they must wake up to a new fuckin fic idea from me like every other day #me three days ago: omg so there's this fic i started- #me yesterday: so i had this new idea- #me today: omg so guess what i just started writing- #it's literally a curse #no one is allowed to look in my writing folders #they're shameful #i have too many fucking wips #help #how do you finish a wip #asking for a friend 😭 #they're all amazing ideas tho #like evil dictator mcshep bc elizabeth actually dies in the storm/the eye #or ford adopting a puppy and coming home bc of it #or johm ascending and bonding with atlantis to help her run #listen i have nothing but good fics ideas #i'm just. less good at actually writing them to completion #we can't all be perfect okay i need some flaws #anyways #writer struggles #personal rambles #kinda stargate

[marcsnuffy]

re: those posts, I will never understand how passionate some cishet male manga fans get when describing two male characters fucking to criticize the media they're talking about

#just the terms dickrider/meatrider/glazer are enough #you go on youtube shorts & theyll go like “[character] is a meat muncher glazing champion who bounces on it every day” #like damn ok.? #i know you're exaggerating for comedic effect but why did you say it like that #ik its something similar to why the gayer cishet men act the straighter they are but i will never understand #i dont want to talk abt how weird they got w orochimaru and sasuke #WAIT THE FLOCH & EREN JOKES TOO #had dudebros writing FANFICTION mid youtube videos #this hopefully means nothing to you all. I spend too much time on that side of the internet. unfortunately! #wait just saw a reddit comment saying reo's “meatriding to a suicidal extent” in epi nagi. HELP? #txt #also related to the comments on manga4life i swear some of them are summaries to pwp fics on ao3 atp

[starrysharks]

BTW, i actually have a sort of order of focus when it comes to my ocs,,, right now reassassination is the most important, and starsaints is currently being actively worked on. projects on the back-burner that are still being rotated in my mind are x-calibur, sinstring manor, unnamed guts girls band project, and magical girl ward... completely "dormant" oc projects that i probably won't return to till much later are planet☆pigtail, spectre city online, and metallic miracle. but i care all my ocs equally :]

#btw this list changes very frequently based on what im into ! #really i might start waffling about ocs at any time #but reassass and starsaints are my main focuses that are being properly written #i really want to get reassass out within the next 3 years at least #ideally i'd finish writing every chapter by the end of the year and start releasing it in mid '25 #and with starsaints - probably 2027 like i kept saying i'd want it released then #but probably later #just think “within the decade” for those two lololol #but they WILL be real one day. i swear by jt #*it....

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

I am at 59k on this Ninjago fic i swear I'll finish it this month I will work on nothing else I am going to finish this--

#knox rambles #save me y'all every time i sit down to write the last big couple of scenes i end up adding a new unrelated scene instead #I've added like ten new scenes in different places and three new cameos from characters i wasn't going to write and i'm adding another scen #right now right this second I SWEAR I'M GONNA FINISH THIS SCREMS #I keep sending people my wordcount so y'all get to suffer knowing too #definitely splitting this into chapters because my gods #what am i even writing you ask? kai angst #well everyone angst thye all get angst but we're destroying kai right now #told my friend like 90% of the fic and realized i have three major plot points going at once #and they all play an important role to angsting the crap outta kai #only a little extremely confusing #okay i'm stalling i gotta get back to it #its so hard to write with my computer overheating i need to see if i can steal the laptop from my fam #Me: we certainly have been inactive on our blog by the time this is out people are gonna have it show up on their dashboards and go who dis #i KEEP GOING BACK TO RE-WRITE STUFF TO HGKSJLSDFJFKD #OKAY GOING GOING HOPE Y'ALL HAVE A STELLAR FIRE DAY

[realllism]

the whole ‘merlin lets uther die and everyone lives happily ever after’ thing is a cool trope in fics but personally i would find it funnier if he didn’t try to save uther even for arthur’s sake and uther just found increasingly ridiculous ways to avoid death

#bbc merlin #merlin #uther #since the antagonists seem to all be utterly incompetent killers anyways #‘if merlin just let morgana kill uther then everything would be fine!’ #-except morgana can’t kill uther and her luck gets worse every time #i swear i’ll write this fic one day #doubt that anyone cares but i’ll still write it for myself

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

if there is one thing i love in this life it is imagining all my otps in a jane/nobley austenland au scenario

#all my otps have gone to austenland in my own imagination #every time i think of it i'm like 'wow that would make a kickass fanfic' #(but do i ever write any of them? not yet!) #dollsome's deep thoughts #p.s. yes this is my way of confessing that in my brain roman and gerri have done austenland #also i swear to god one day i'm going to find the strength to write the rory/paris version somehow

[doverstar]

an absolute wave of homesickness for Doctor Who (2005) series 1-2 just about knocks me over at the quietest moments of my little life

#it was such a specific time. I was just a kiddo #still living with my parents with a giant bedroom downstairs all to myself #it used to be a hair studio or something for whoever lived there before us. and I had this massive room with a table to draw and write at #and a tiny twin bed and I used to set up a projector against the opposite wall and hook it up to my laptop and watch DW to fall asleep #enthralled. couldn't believe the show I'd found. couldn't believe how much I loved Rose and loved the Doctor #you could not drag me away from it. I could not stop talking about it or thinking about it. Matt Smith had just become the Doctor and I- #-had so much content left to consume. and everything was simple. I didn't have a job at the time and every day was creativity #I used to write so much I'd forget to eat. and Doctor Who was the background music of my life back then #I miss winter nights swearing I'd only watch one more episode before I went to bed. all by myself. my family hadn't discovered the show yet #in that small single bed with four blankets and Doctor Who on the wall. drooling over timepetals and pausing and rewinding constantly #that time of my life was so safe and so secure and my imagination was so hungry and DW was feeding it and it was my first time seeing it #I miss that. I miss knowing it couldn't be ruined and there was more yet to see on live television with Eleven when I got caught up #and meeting Matt Smith's Doctor on my own while my family had just then started watching it themselves with Nine? magic #nostalgia #dw #doctor who #bbc #timepetals #dr who #rose tyler #doctor who 2005 #tenth doctor #tenrose #elevenrose #ninerose #nine #ninth doctor #ten #eleven #eleventh doctor

[lakeglitter]

seeing furiosa today, but only just now i thought to check the run time.... almost 2,5h???? guys what happened to max. 2h films 😭😭😭

#i swear every other film these days runs over 2 hours and at some point i think we need to ask #is this really the only way to write scripts now? is editing your writing a dying art now??? #.

[privatejoker]

gosh I could never do that. Just the thought of finishing one book is almost overwhelming

you probably could i'm just a crazy person also i read a lot of novellas

#i make myself read and write every day it's the only thing in my life i can do daily without feeling like i'm going to explode #i swear like anything in the world you just gotta do it and you start building a skill

[lockley-spktr]

Remember when I said I had Jake Lockley thoughts and posted nothing? Yeah, me too.

#i didn't lie #i swear #that man is always on my mind #so are marc and steven #but there's just something about that little guy with the hat #every time i go to write my thoughts down i feel like nothing i want to say makes sense #or that they're not original at all #anyway #one day #moon knight #marc spector #steven grant #jake lockley