#idk if worded any of that properly

[fluffypotatey]

OH YOU KNOW WHAT I JUST REMEMBERED!!!!!

ok, ok, so Guggenheim Museum attack is where Gwen meets Miguel and Jessica and joins their spider society, right?

well, when watching this movie a second time, i noticed that Miguel gets an alert on his watch-thingy about a ‘Canon Event’ happening! he even tells Jessica to be careful and not disrupt it. and you know what happens after they defeat the (very beautifully, ink animated) Vulture, Gwen reveals herself to her dad.

apparently, according to the little algorithm thing Miguel’s got, Gwen was always meant to be forced into revealing herself to her dad and have this ugly falling out and i just—

I literally sat there in shock (and more tears) during this scene because both Miguel and Jessica were aware (i don’t know how aware or how much about this canon event they knew) and chose to not interfere until the very end.

maybe, i’m wrong tho or maybe i misheard, but it really helps put into perspective that while Jessica and Miguel have empathy and consider themselves to be good people (or the people who have to do what’s right even if it feels wrong), they are steadfast in their goals. they are willing to have a teenager go through that (a forced coming out basically is what they was. Gwen saw no other way to maybe have some kind of talk with her dad even if she didn’t want the reveal to happen like this).

and i’m just….idk i’m not okay

#gwen stacy #spider gwen #atsv #atsv spoilers #spiderman atsv #across the spider verse #across the spider verse spoilers #across the spiderverse #maybe i got very emotionally affected by this scene because of personal reasons and maybe it ignited more anger towards Miguel but yeah #idk if worded any of that properly #but basically this bit where Miguel and Jessica willingly stay back while Gwen is forced by canon or something to come out to her dad #it like a little intro to the goals and motivations of Miguel and Jessica later in the movie #They see it as a better to hurt a few than the whole multiverse but jfc #i mean….props to Jessica for being willing to take Gwen in after???? for understanding that what Gwen went through was traumatizing #for having that but of empathy and compassion to know that even if what Gwen went through was a ‘canon event’ she needs comfort #like bro #imagine what would have happened if they didn’t take Gwen in???? #would her father actually shoot her???? would she have to be given a fucking ‘I’m sorry’ speech while he dies???? #would she even last that long as spider woman because of this???? #AND RHEN LATER WHEN GWEN MENTIONS TO MILES THAT THE GWENS OF THE UNIVERSE NEVER HAVE HAPPY ENDINGS????? #WAS GWEN IN HER WORLD ALWAYS GOING TO BE A TRAGEDY???????

[kingprilbusbignaturals]

i just think it's interesting that dropout was like "we as a company cannot express any political opinions towards the israeli/palestinian conflict" yet their BIGGEST show is currently discussing the ethics behind one group of people taking a "home" away from another group of people, and figuring out who started the cycle of fear and violence, and debating which violence is justified in this circumstance. like an npc literally said The Zionist/Apartheid Thing of "if we stop our Killing Them On Sight policy, they're gonna turn around and do that to us."

like. im not claiming this was an intentional analogy for the palestinian genocide (or even that it lines up perfectly)... just that media is inherently political, and this particular media company has branded itself as being anti-capitalist and, ironically, has profited off of this stance (from both selling anti-capitalist merchandise and from customers wanting to check out/support a company that aligns with their values). so it's kinda fucked up that they claim they don't "want the company to have political opinions" when the current show they're airing COULD BE VIEWED AS THEIR STANCE ON THIS VERY ISSUE.

#idk if i worded this properly #just.. any bit of public support helps yk??? #like palestinians keep BEGGING for us to KEEP TALKING about them #and this company that has made BANK from their Being Political shows.... wants to stay silent on this??? its just disappointing #i speak #burrow's end #burrow’s end spoilers

[ghost-proofbaby]

“I love you” “it’ll pass” okay but which one is Eddie and which one is reader bc I don’t think I’d be able to handle either outcome

okay. just. hear me out. listen. listen to this idea i don't know if i could ever put myself through the heartbreak of writing. (tw: i'm bringing up the cursed thing that is eddie's canon ending in stranger things as of right now. yes. his... very, very, very long nap.)

"i love you" = reader

"it'll pass" = eddie

...and how ironic it is, for him to have insisted so many times that it'll pass, especially after the canon events of season 4. in which you are left alone, with nothing more than a memory of him, and all you can think is how it'll never pass. the love, the grief, the pain - he lied. it won't pass. even when you finally crave it to.

#im thinking big sad thoughts right now #i was going to save this ask in case i get around to writing it one day but even conceptualizing that tore my heart out #i can't handle writing the canon events very well i just start ugly crying in the corner #thank u ily <3 #mention of eddie's death? idk how to tag/tw that properly #anyways #he'd say it more jokingly and less forsaken #a self-deprecating joke that becomes a long term bit between the two of you #but it isn't very funny when he's gone and those words are all that can echo through your heart #even louder than any of the times he might have said those three little words back

[dovalore]

say goodnight

#ffxiv #ffxiv pandaemonium #ffxiv patch 6.2 #hephaistos #hi tumblr friends i literally just wanted to draw toe beans and went overboard #angy even when he’s eeping #i kinda want to draw the other characters from pandae cute and squishy as well #i will see you in like… 2 months for my next properly rendered piece LMAO #take my word with a grain of salt #i’m going to talk about pandaemonium abyssos spoilers now #firstly idk if hephaistos actually has beans on his model #but i see others give him beans so it’s canon enough for me #lahabrea’s plot relevant soul sextape is a sentence that makes sense now and idk how to feel about that #anyway back to hephaistos #i’m glad i can’t really stop and look at details while in battle because HE’S SO FUCKING FLESHY AND NASTY #THAT’S NOT EVEN TALKING ABOUT HIS TRANSFORMATION #i’m choosing not to see any of it #idk if the placement of his back wings was reversed i’m not looking at him to check #actual sleep paralysis demon #scream goes hard as fuck i’m listening to it as i type this #there’s a scream/evanescence mashup please listen to it #if 7.0 causes a resurgence in emos i’d be unsurprised #i mean we already got reaper in edw so there’s that #i welcome the emo tide that may or may not come with further story updates #be free my friends revel in what may be considered cringey #i’m going to bed now goodnight

[paulinaaam]

omg yes, please delegalise zh*ngch* in eu

#i fucking hate this ship wholeheartedly and it makes me uncomfortable in general idk why (i mean i know: FUJOSHIS but whatever) #i've blocked every variety of their ship name here but i can't find this option on twt ._. #not to mention idiots who can't tag their posts properly and then i have to suffer while trying to enjoy things i like lol #my dislike towards popular headcanons and ships is the reason why i barely interact with any fandom #because i know they would fucking destroy me for disagreeing with them #(other than that i just can't put my thoughts into words properly and i suck at any art-related activity) #pau.jpg

[confused-mushroom]

Hey, so tumblr is dying rn, but I'm still gonna try to post.

Little lost, so coming to the gender website to get advice.

It's hard to explain this and I have trouble with words... so please excuse it being long and rambly

So... um.. well I get a little lost on gender shit sometimes. I'm AFAB, I don't THINK I want to be a guy, and yet... aaa I'm not super comfortable with my body. I've done packing with socks before and even worn a binder to feel more comfortable. I don't mind masculine terms like sir and stuff, yet i don't think I'd want to use he/him or they/them pronouns. Haven't actually... tried that though since I am full of anxiety and can't talk about it with friends. I prefer to dress in more masculine clothes too and keep my hair short. I even wish I had a lower voice that sounds more like a dudes. I do identify as lesbian, but that has nothing to do with this stuff, as when I was younger I wanted to be a guy, I wanted to have a guys body if that makes sense? Again sorry bad with wording. Now it's just... I don't know. More confusing. I don't feel like I'm a man, but I don't know what I am.

But I'm just... lost. I don't know what I want to be. Everytime I think about this (pretty often) I just feel so confused and a bit stressed because I can't figure anything out.

Literally made this acc just to talk about this and seek advice. Idk if anyone will even see this lol

#i just feel lost on this stuff and idk how to word it properly #but ill appreciate any advice #lgbtq #lgbt+ #trans #transgender #transmasc #gender #lgbtqplus

[mishkakagehishka]

They look like a klapa ensemble here

Klapa Redikuli🥰

#idk any properly dalma word for an eccentric #or i can't remember any

[eldritch-nightmare]

idk i might open requests up again for a few days

#archived mind of v: thoughts and opinions. #im not feeling Particularly motivated to write the ones i already have rn #like. i will write them the motivation to write them just isn't there and i don't have any ideas currently #god i hoped i worded that properly #so i just think i might accept some requests for maybe a week or two nd then close them again #idk. uhm. i'll make a decision later on today maybe #for now i'm working on some bot requests <3

[nights-flying-fox]

Saw something something about anon hate

FUCK THAT

I'm here to show name-fully-attached love: you're doing great Nighty and I'm proud if you so keep going buddy!!

MIKEEEEEE AAA YOURE SO KIND!!!!

Thanks so much!!! Oh my stars aaaaaa you're so great and nice Mike!!!

#this made me so happy aaaa #sorry im having “bad with words” day #so idk how to respond properly but ♡♡ #i never got any anon hate but if ever do get one i'll just go back and look at this ask

[magnoliamyrrh]

.

#sometimes i stumble across posts that are so vile about what has been done to palestinians that i dont. even want to reblog them #because its so vile and inhumaine and . no words sort of behavior that i dont want to b the reason someone has to read that #with their own two eyes #im nauseous straight up. poor little kid lord almighty this species. this fucking species #and its like...... we all Know anyone who follows me Knows so whats the point of knowing something so #specific and horrid 😔 #idk i guess its like how #sometimes i read about the cases of torture of sex trafficked balkan little girls and women and part of me wants to #post about it on here but its so horrific that i just. dont. want anyone else to see that shit #like to know specifics about the torture i just read abt #................. #:(((? #what a terrifying fucking species #humanity. capable of such immense beauty and love and empathy...... and such deep. deep. deep depravity that #we lack words in any language to even properly condemn it #. if the kids family is still alive inshallah i hope theyre..... god i dont even know.. i wish them all the strengh #because i dont know if 'alright' if something you can ever be after your kid is put through that. even if the occupation were to end

[sodafrog13]

i think a lot abt biker and jacket's relationship for someone who does not like them together romantically

#and talk abt them a lot for that matter fgdfgfgd #idk!! i just think that there's like. possibilities there y'kno #like there's a reason why i made a playlist for them. bc if you know me then you know me making ship playlists and like #actually sharing them. is a little unusual. bc i have others that aren't hlm related #but this is the first time i've felt strongly abt them (the playlists) enough to actually share #which makes sense for beardjacket and jacketgf since i post abt them a lot #but for biker&jacket (esp consdiering that it's a ship playlist /meant/ to not be romantic) it's like. god idk how to say it properly #like there's tragedy there. if u kno what i mean. just inherently #like there's a reason that of all my jacketshipping playlists the biker&jacket one has the most amount of songs w no words (5/10 of them) #bc to me their relationship isn't built on affection/any sort of real attraction. it's built on understanding. #on needing this person in your life even if it isn't good for either of you because not having them there would just make things even worse #bc the beardjacket playlist also has a genrous amount of songs w no words (4/10) but i have specific reasons for having them there #the main general ones being /comfort/. and longing. bc that's what those songs meant to me personally #w the biker&jacket one i have straight breakcore songs on there (bc to me biker/jacket means breakcore) and a 25 minute ambient/vpw track #as well as release by M|O|O|N and it's ok you're ok by bonjr bc to me all of those songs are like #like regardless of how i personally feel about them they're not meant to be. satisfying? ig?? like they're meant to be unsettling in a way #i'm essentially trying to encapsulate how games like hlm and firewatch make me feel #like. like this is how it's supposed to be. even if it's not what anyone wanted #anyways. i need to keep studying. #the trash speaks

[shopcat]

do you think jonathan and eddie would get along? as of st4

i think jonathan would try and roll eddie into a blunt and smoke him

#asks #sts #sure :) i think theyre very similar in a lot of ways and any ... contentions?? is that a word. btwn them isnt something i dont think like #wouldnt be present in any other friendship irl. approaching fictional relationship dynamics realistically is fun #i think jonathan AS OF st4 would probably be very overwhelmed by a lot of eddies whole Thing but i also think #EDDIE post vecna Miraculously alive is not the exact same eddie as. epiosde one. clearly #also i think with an argyle buffer TOTALLY i love argyle. so much. #i could talk about this more properly in an actual answer sorry but i just wanted to make that joke #eddie is so small he felled into the bong and jonathan smoked him #drugs tw #oh i also think eddie might at worst find jonathan a bit boring or something but idk idt thats a bad thing i think they could go to dq #they could work the counter at dunkin

[astrxealis]

really want to read more and more literature (esp classics!) aghhhh yesterday iirc i was on a walk with my mom and twin and an old guy (not a weirdo dw) who was jogging or walking too actually asked what book i was carrying and it's a little funny bcs uhm he just went "oh a classic!" you see. i was carrying dante's inferno. which i still haven't properly started to read but anyways he might... if my mom is right... be the local parish guy so oopsies !! LMAO anyways yeah really interested in lovecraft for a while now! horror scares me and gives me paranoia but i also enjoy the writing of it? and i remember once that something/someone said my writing is kinda similar to his. hm.

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i never talk about literature here but hi i grew up reading books and i really love literature. both fiction and non-fiction! admittedly i #less prefer modern books because i prefer classics and all that? and i kinda fucking hate people who only like boring and/or famous #literature lmfao fuck you but anyways putting my bitterness aside! arthur conan doyle with 'sherlock' of course & 'a dream within a dream' #dazai with 'no longer human' is something i think i'll really enjoy reading one day as well and hmm #i never properly read 'lord of the rings' despite my relative having the books and i borrowed it once? but didn't make the time to actually #read it unfortunately :(( 'the great gatsby' is something i also have yet to read and then jane austen's works! #and then. louisa may alcott ... i asked my mom right now about her books that we have/had and i did not fucking know we had #'little women' all this time holy shit. i remember reading 'a modern cinderella' but also i am unsure now... but yeah. that/those too! #shakespeare's works are of course a must-read hehe we do have 'the tempest' and i've read a couple of his works but only a little bit #either based off the knowledge i just. know. or for school back then! but yeah. you probably know his works already lmao <3 #and then uhmm 'phantom of the opera' we have now as well! bought it alongside yk. 'the tempest' 'inferno' 'paradise lost & regained' #a few months ago but tbh i haven't made it very far in reading any of them yet but i really want to sometime! and learn more guitar! #and get back to playing piano and also finish and play more games but anyways. yes. #george orwell's books! we have a few if i'm not mistaken (love my family fr) i really want to read them. my dad keeps recommending #his works for us to read. especially 'animal farm' but i've heard '1984' is really good. i also really want to read more of narnia! #only ever read the first book and wow it meant a lot to me tbh? with. growing up and all. and then i read a bit of another book hmm. #'to kill a mockingbird' was something i have wanted to read since i read 'the hunger games' as a kid because i for some reason connected #the two in a way because of the word mockingbird. and then uh other books that i don't think are as... classics. idk what are classics tbh. #BUT okay yeah i still haven't read 'a monster calls' but i know it made my twin and mom cry! and then 'the fault in our stars' we have but #i also haven't read it... haven't read the witcher books either and then george r. r. martin's stuff. tbf i'm not an adult yet so lmfao. #'the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy' i know my dad really wants to read and i know my tita has it but i'm not completely sure if we have #it ourselves too now? but yeah. really interested in that book as well. and then i have yet to read 'frankenstein' and then i'd love to #reread books from my childhood from authors like roald dahl !! and then man i should read more from #neil gaiman ... i've read his short stories? and a book. or few. i can't really remember. #anyways. okay. running out of tags but i really love literature ..... <3 #also want to read more of modern literature tbh! the ones that are actually good tho <33

[bo0zey]

manic mixed depressive episode on my bday is so fun especially when ur going on 2 days no sleep n have a 12hr shift starting at the asscrack of dawn in 6hrs

#idk if i want to sleep like i do but i don’t i just keep walking in circles n staring off blankly #also bursted into tears for no reason bc i missed my mom and remembered how much i hate my fucking birthday #was in the middle of a borderline argument w my family then just zoned out n glanced at the time and tears welled #6:13??? #then i pretended to go to the bathroom to hide my tears from my dad cuz he would’ve yelled at me if i went to my room w/o saying anything #so there i am crying like a pathetic loser on the toilet trying to suppress n swallow down ugly sobs #and there i am crying in my dumpster fire of a room on the floor #i literally go the entire year without crying abt her but every time december hits i always get into this weird funk #and idk why it’s still happening it’s been 7 years #i think my subconscious mind is influencing my body to release the trauma stored inside it bc i was never allowed to grieve her properly #so now in blips of time leading up to my birthday and the next day of her passing i’m 15 turning 16 again #i wish i didn’t have to work tomorrow so i could go visit her at her grave instead like i never go to the cemetery but i really want to #i guess i can go on her actual death day but i don’t want to go with my dad and brothers i just want to be alone #they don’t understand the feeling of losing your mom and best friend on your 16th bday #they don’t understand what it’s like carrying all this guilt and trauma and holding her hand and feeling her hand go limp at my words #i told her it was okay she could let go i would take care of my brothers and protect them from my father and i would be strong for everyone #meanwhile i’m listening to my dad n my aunt throwing all her clothes in trash bags upstairs #i didn’t even get to pick out what clothes i wanted to keep of hers im so angry my dad refused to let any of us miss her #“i miss mom-‘ ‘she’s dead get over it!’ #i got over it alright but then this time of year rolls around and i’m under it all again #i miss her so much i wonder if she’d be proud of me i wonder what it would be like to feel her hand in mine again #ooos im crying again lol #im so pathetic i’m literally 23 in less than 30 minutes why am i behaving like a crybaby child #23:33 when i was typing that btw n 333 is my angel/life path number lol #i wanna saw my arm off but i won’t #i debated staring an iv on myself instead but i’m too drained i just want lay down n cry lol #pathetic loser crybaby girl can’t function can’t shut up making everyone uncomfortable with her sadnes n tears stupid stupid stupid #drown in them and die nobody here loves you anymore nobody cares you’re the problem always the problem #i can’t remember if my mom loved me or not everyone says she did but i forgot what it feels like #i wish i never told her it was okay to let go i lied to her i said i’d be okay but here i am manic depressive

[thethingything]

we got about 3 hours of sleep and then we fell asleep for an hour in the evening and then we accidentally fell asleep for another few hours and woke up at 3am so I feel like our sleep schedule is gonna be fucked now (it already was kinda but now it feels worse) and all this is because our executive dysfunction has been so fucking bad and keeps stopping us from getting ready for bed when we want to, then we keep having nightmares that wake us up, then our neighbours keep being loud so we can't get back to sleep

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #our brain just hasn't been working properly for idk probably the last couple of weeks. I've lost track of when it got bad #but I'm having to double check everything I write because we keep typing completely the wrong words #and our speech keeps getting jumbled when we talk out loud #we can barely keep track of what tasks we're doing and keep fixating very intensely on random shit #our ADHD symptoms are as bad as when we don't have any caffeine for days but we have had caffeine and it's not helping #so yeah we're really struggling to keep on top of stuff

[synthshenanigans]

Dear Machine. Hate, the Cog is insanly fucking good god damn

#late i know but been busy a bit lately #been a long time since a song has been that close to actually making me cry ngl #song is insanly amazing but it makes me feel really bad at the same time #especially him using a lyric from the other albums #i wish the best mentality on him cause like #the concept of being that heavily perceived with the things you make is terrifying #idk how to word any of this my brain dont work properly #not a tagged post cause its too much of a rant #also i feel weird talking about it #moss post #ignore me im being weird and overly emotional idk