#im having an anxiety attack rn

[saltysatellite804]

How the fuck does everyone NOT have health anxiety. How the fuck do you exist not being hyper aware of how fragile you are??

#health anxiety #im having an anxiety attack rn #my heart is pounding #which is of fucking course making me worry about my heart #i hate my brain #i want to be normal #i want to feel healthy #would not wish this mental illness on the worst human being on earth #its 3am and i really need sleep #but i cant fucking stop worrying that im gonna die young from a undiagnosed disease

[vivitalks]

Six ways Nico says "I love you" to Jason.

this is me cheating legally on @jasico-challenges bingo by using up seven bingo prompts for this six-chapter 5+1 fic: one for each chapter and one for the work as a whole. however i am posting the whole fic together because i think it makes the most sense, and also, i want to.

#jasicobingochallenge2024 #fanfiction #tw anxiety attacks and unhealthy coping mechanisms and lots of trauma and guilt complexes and brain problems abound! #jason grace #nico di angelo #jasico #jasico fic #pjo #pjo fic #fic #my fic #if you want more trigger warnings they're in the specific chapter notes #or you can ask lol #stuff #ill probably make a moodboard for this fic at some point and make a new fic post with a moodboard and make it pretty #but icba rn #it's 5pm i have done literally nothing of value today #also oh shit i think i was supposed to do something for work that i didnt do #seriously what is this 'wfh' nonsense. it's a snow dayyyyy #anyway i should get dressed bc im going to a thing in an hour #and i should eat something lest i fuckin starve lol #i have turkey bacon but i dont think i can be bothered to make it #so i will probably have for dinner what i had for lunch: leftover box mac and cheese babey

[falldogbombsthemoon]

Yall haha, my dad made it so I have wifi access for one hour a day. which I can use from like 14 to 21 german time. So once my mobile data is dead, I will not be active that much ig. So please dont think I'm abandoning yall.

#vent following #its fucking ridiculous. im not a fucking child. neither is my brother #no idea what my dad wants to achieve through that. “so you can relaxe more” yeah no. being on the internet is my fucking coping mechanism. #there is nothing about relaxation there. also he did that so we'll to go sleep earlier. if it really was about that. #he would need to force me to sleep. you cant just change my sleep schedule by that #anyway its fucking ridiculous as i was on a good way of getting to sleep more early but if imma do that now he will think like #“wow. im such a good dad. i fixed all the problems my child could possibly have.” which is absolutely not the case #yk. ive always fucking struggled with feeling like people cant trust me. #and him not trusting my abilities to be responsible for myself is not helping #and then boom. im feeling shitty but wait haha my coping mechanism is currently set offline. #and like also im in extra stress atm bc school is fucking with me #not only are like a bunch of tests on the way but my fucking anxiety in school is getting so bad. #i cant sit in that facility without feeling like imma have a panic attack any minute #i am in need of fucking professional mental help. and at least one diagnosis. i dont want to do shit to myself. #but in this house hold. emotions are not talked about. feelings are suppressed and mental health is an illusion #i NEED to see a fucking psychiatrist. but i dont feel like i can to my parents about that. and technically i could go without them knowing #but someone needs to educate them. and i mentally cant be that someone #and guess whos sitting in their room crying and writing about that rn. not studying for their tests tomorrow and the day after. #i bet if my parents wouldnt have done that shit with my wifi i would be studying rn #quinns daily yapping post #rather #quinns personal hell

[celepeace]

Man they weren't kidding about how even if you push down emotions consciously your body will Remember

#im really going through it rn. not as much as some close to me though #i'm supporting someone through something awful that is also affecting me. just not as much as them #and sometimes i'm like ''why do i feel so crappy and fragile'' as if someone i know isn't proceeding with physician assisted euthanasia #like hmm i wonder why!! #me: why do i feel like i'm on the verge of an anxiety attack all the time #my brain: someone you know is suffering and you are never going to see them again #me: oh right #it's so weird. it doesn't feel real it feels like something that happens to other people not to you #sometimes i just sit alone and i'm like. huh. this is really what's happening #this is happening and i have to vacuum the house and go to the grocery and feed the dog #the world isn't allowed to end around me. it just keeps going and i have things to get done. the laundry is dirty #i have to do the laundry and my arms shake and my stomach turns

[biolums]

#have been so down lately and just thought about subnautica. specifically peepers and got happy :) #something something little thingsin life #ive told myself i will visit my grandma today. will report back if that happens #trying to be easy on myself while also not doing something ill regret is hard #i am. so not ready to see my grandma. im mentally so not there and ive been so shakey mentally for months and i just. idk #it would be easier on me if i didnt see her. but im not sure thats fair to my future self let alone my grandma herself #i just. i dont know. i hate being in survival mode like who fucking doesnt want to see their grandma when shes dying. whar the fuck #fun fact i get an anxiety attack everytime i receive text messages now because im convinced its my dad telling me she died #its. probably a good thing i have a psychiastrist appointment tomorrow #anyways. hi #im just. popping in idk if i will like. come back #lifw rn is. so much #im literally driving 10hrs in less than a week from now

[melto]

like obviously im not going to kill myself but like isnt that the only option

#i do not want to die im like fine but like it is so on my mind rn. need to go home and cry or get intoxicated or soemthing #i wont do that last one. but i want to go home so i can have this anxiety attack #i dont want to be pathetic and try reaching out to people rn. bc it is pathetic. #news with isaac

[idontliketomatoesleavemealone]

so turns the fuck out, my mom is the one insisting on putting another fucking window in my room

#IVE BEEN HAVING ANXIETY ATTACKS ABOUT THIS BITCH YOU KNOW IM FREAKING OUT ABOUT IT #IVE RARELY BEEN RHIS VERBAL ABOUT HATING SOMETHING #WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS #feeling fucking betrayed rn

[misophoniatroubles]

calling my emergency anxiety meds Chill Pills cus then if someone tells me “take a chill pill” i can get one out and swallow it while making direct eye contact, then say, “it isnt working, bitch”

#having a panic attack rn oops #medication #anxiety #actually anxious #autism #actually autistic #idk what to tag this man im throwing spaghetti at the wall

[coridallasmultipass]

Felt cute, might deteriorate later. [He/Him]

#feels like im in hell um #shibuya to belgium #anyway did my eyebrows perfectly but its night and ill prob sleep em off so ugh #im so tired bro i went thru my arm workout THREE times today bc of stress and anxiety #not to mention body dysphoria on top of the health concerns im trying to not think about anything rn so selfie time #OBLIGATORY: 'DISCLAIMER: i'M HI (HIGH)' TAG #but tbh not enough im still hurting with stress #could fuckin go for another round but i rly gotta try n sleep bc i get to cry abt all this in therapy tmr yaaaaay #fuckin hate that i cant treat endo lmao its like living in a cage w a tiger and not knowing when its gonna attack or give a love bite #anyway not to be a crybaby but yeah im not okay and dont know how im expected to go on lol #thought i looked good in my red light but ended up w a good orange light pic #wish i could show off my arms but its not impressive. mostly just feels nice to be like... solid lol #wish i could afford a gym #so my face will have to do for now hope i dont regret posting selfies at almost midnight lol #me #selfie #Cori.exe #Image.exe #ignore my chapped lips pls my dermatillomania has been rampant for the past like 2 days lmao i never stood a chance #hhhhh idk what to tag beyond this fence sitting whether to post or not so im just gon post and then go sleep hffff

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

Academic stress vent in tags

#really wish uncle wayne was here rn #ive fucked this up so bad #midnight and not even half done not even a quarter done and i gotta be up at 5 for work #im so scared snd i think im gonna have an anxiety attack or something #im really scared #hhhh i need someone to hold my hand but also wash out my brain in creek water #im terrified #i think ill have to drop out if this keeps happening #i csnt do this #i will i know i will but the price is no sleep tonight

[oatbugs]

am i capable of finishing + revising several (6) modules i havent watched the content of at all in the next 2 months and also get a good grade be honest

#the admin is so confusing i keep having less time than i thought #im worried if i get anything less than a 1:1 which is looking likely rn ill end up . like. being rejected by top unis for graduate programs #im genuinely so scared i keep having anxiety attacks lmao

[sadcowboy69]

#its july 1 too 🙃 #my cat is like dying rn and he might be spending his last days having an anxiety attack every night #if u set off fireworks randomly and not even on the holiday fuck u im beating u to death

[cinnamontoads]

#i feel like him slash neg #like i actually no joke have been feeling kind of insane and unhinged and awful lately #also been having multiple panic attacks a day for no reason surely that’s nothing LOL #oh god everyone really is so fucking sick of me helppp😭😭😭 #personal #and all i ever do is talk about myself like no wonder im getting the vibe that all my friends are so pissed off lately #and i feel really bad about it but i literally don’t know how to like Not do that especially rn when im #fucking drowning in stress and anxiety lately and everything in my life is going wrong. idk

[field-s-of-flowers]

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#It’s 1:40 am and I’m on tumblr #Maaaaaaaaybe having an anxiety attack #Either way I cannot sleep #Someone tell me how to go to sleep #Everything hurts and I feel nauseous and a little dizzy #Im gonna maybe do some writing but I needed to vent or smth #Can someone send me virtual hugs or something. Idk I’m a little freaked out rn #I can see outside my window and idk if it’s a street lamp or the moon

[locklylemybeloved]

ugh

#guys im literally freaking out #im having mAJOR irrational thoughts rn but its making me super anxious and i cant focus on my school work #like. i havent had an anxiety attack in WEEKS please let me have this #but noooooo now im. literally freaking out #lmaooooo i love my life 😀😍 #mae-rants

[cryolyst]

i got a bunch of sasktoon berry purdys chocolates a while ago and i forgot where i put them. i was so sure it was either the fridge or the top shelf of the pantry but. is not either. 😔

#i think im having a gnarly anxiety attack rn. haven't had one of those in a hot minute. #it has not been a great brain week. i thought it was getting better yesterday but. woke up today feeling absolutely awful. #my manager asked me why i 'looked so sad' when i clocked in 😭😭 like damn. that obvious huh #i think purple chocolates would fix me. if only i knew where i hid them from myself. #they speak!