#im really mad about this lmao i rly put some thought into this

[mapletine]

silly celeb au concept sketches (wing photocard next week <3)

+ i have so many thoughts abt this au guys i need to be sedated (don’t open the cut unless u rly want more info bc. there's. A LOT. it will be a wall of incoherent rambling text im sorry)

ok first disclaimers: i know very little abt idols and even less abt modeling so!! if anything is horrifically inaccurate forgive me im stupid!! and also this will literally be stream of consciousness unedited so if it makes zero sense im very sorry

now we begin the madness

some background info: kite was scouted off the street (as he was walking off from pickpocketing someone LMAO) for his height and build, currently very sought after to model for many brands because he’s literally the same as the sketch models on paper so the designers don’t have to compromise on their clothing designs to fit the model, bc he just. looks exactly like the paper sketch. also the white hair is very distinctive!! and his prep/management team is his research team <3 he’s currently the face of several brands, including the zoldyck brand (i see the zoldycks as a very influential family in the fashion/modeling industry, kikyo was a former model until an accident, now she’s focusing on designing, all the kids are involved in the industry somehow, illumi is within the same agency (?is that how modeling works) as kite). he’s in his mid-twenties ish and hes 6'3" - 6'4" (190 - 193 cm)

wing and his idol group debuted a couple years ago (haven’t thought too much about the members, but im thinkin feitan maybe? kurapika?? shalnark?? idk guys maybe he’s a solo act) and they’ve skyrocketed to fame. uhh in terms of content they produce, thinkin something similar to wayv/bts type music (stuff that crowds just eat up LOL like love talk by wayv, luna by oneus that kind of music) and im thinking that wing’s debut look was REALLY BAD (they made the poor man blond) but when they put him back to his normal hair color he got rly popular. he’s had some bad eras where the stylists made him look a little goofy but… he’s good now (his best era was the mullet era). also he was trained by bisky who was a former idol who has retired and she's a legend in the industry… and wing is currently guiding an idol trainee (zushi lol). wing’s in his early-mid-twenties i think and he's 5'9" - 5'10" (175 - 178 cm)

ok and the main 4 fit into this uhh... i think gon is also an idol trainee along w zushi. and killua is currently modeling for a popular teen's clothing brand. i think i mentioned kurapika as being a part of wing's idol group but lowk i think maybe he's an actor instead. leorio is also. an actor. yeah ok there we go

uhhhh ok general thoughts:

i see them meeting at like.. the met gala or its equivalent and they meet when wing trips over kite’s clothes (he’s wearing something with a ridiculously long train and wing isn’t looking where he’s going), and at first wing thinks kite is super standoffish/rude bc he doesn’t apologize or offer a hand when wing trips… he just.. sorta stares at him on the floor for a second then clacks off in his very pointy shoes (he was flustered abt the very pretty stranger who just fell for over him. also he was STRESSED asf) (also the perspective that wing had probably didn't help bc bro was on the floor and kite was staring down at him from a height of like 6'9 with the heels)

afterwards there’s a bunch of pictures and edits of wing falling over all over the internet bc it was kind of funny… and ppl are telling him like “oh my god you tripped over yorknew’s top model the LITERAL FACE of fashion right now” and wing is like “damn i didn’t know also he’s a jerk”… and to kite ppl r telling him “oh my god the country’s MOST POPULAR IDOL tripped on you” and kite’s like “uhhh.. who?” (he doesn’t keep up with the entertainment industry despite being a part of it) and they both search each other up and they both have a moment like “oh my god i fucked up (also he's really hot)”

anyways they continue randomly (not at all random very much orchestrated by the people around them) meeting at things,,, there’s a very awkward apology from kite where he explains (sortof) why he didn’t help wing up… uhh stuff happens they fall in love and start dating LOL (i didnt think abt this part that hard) and for a hot minute there r paparazzi photos circulating of them together and the media is losing their collective shit

fast forward a little bit and they r like “yea we r together LOL” and then u start seeing kite at wing’s concerts in a spectator box staring very lovingly at wing on the stage and wing (and sometimes his whole idol group) starts showing up to fashion shows and wing looks like shellshocked every time kite steps onto the catwalk hes got kind of an awed stare on his face

ok future thoughts:

after abt two? ish years dating (engaged for 6 months out of those 2 yrs) they have an extremely private wedding with only close friends invited, and when ppl start noticing theyre wearing wedding bands (takes a while bc wing usually wears a lot of rings anyways, and kite wears his on a necklace and not on his hand) the media has a collective meltdown. again. (i am the media in this i think. i have meltdowns bc of them.)

um and eventually (around when him and kite get married) wing's idol group splits apart as they all go to pursue individual passions/careers, so now he's workin on his own music/vision. i think his personal music is much more peaceful and vibey than what his old group produced, more gentle love songs and poetic music and whatnot.

and kite steps out of the spotlight and is focusing on nature conservation philanthropy type stuff,, so he'll still step out and model for charity/fundraiser type stuff and he's the face of a large conservation foundation. (also bc sometimes he'll join like.. ocean cleanup initiatives or similar things and like. imagine ur volunteering to pick up garbage on the beach and u literally see like. anya taylor joy and her husband also out there picking up garbage or smthn. that's how the other ppl feel.) hes also a big advocate for no kill shelters and donates a shitload to them i like to think.

so yeah ok if u made it this far bless u!!! i dont really have any coherent storyline thoughts just this aggregation of random world building thoughts ok bye (btw if u have thoughts on this feel free to dm me abt them or tell me what u think in the replies or tags im brain rotting abt this stupid au so hard rn)

anyways im no writer (if u couldnt alr tell from this word vomit) so no fic but i may continue churning out thought fragments like this

#kitewing #silly celeb au

[menalez]

sorry to fill your inbox like this lmao and you don't have to answer but as a bisexual woman who was single for 4 years and during those years has had quite a lot of experience with casual sex with both men and women, i can say that: 1) it took me a lot of time to get to know my body regardless of my sexual activity, mostly because hookup culture encourages lack of healthy communication. it's easier to tell a person you actually care about that you don't like what they're doing than an acquaintance or a stranger (a dude once literally put his clothes back on and left when i told him i didn't like how he was giving me head lmfao); and 2) sexual orientation doesn't really matter in this context and sometimes you're really just... not vibing with the person. by this i mean that lesbians are only attracted to women but they're not attracted to EVERY woman. and some people are just generally very rude and don't know how to properly take care of your body. now, this is MY personal experience and of course i understand that some women just don't like it and that's it, but i also thought i didn't like getting eaten out and would almost never come or actually enjoy it because i'm too sensitive and people (men and women alike unfortunately) would kind of aggressively go straight to my clit

its wild to me someone straight up dressed up and left bc u said what u prefer... im thankful when a woman guides me??? why tf would u be mad instead... baffling.

but yeah true ultimately u dont know someones sexuality depending on the sex acts that rly is a personal sorta thing and people of every sexual orientation have diff sexual preferences. i mean its as dumb as saying idk straight men that like to be pegged are gay... we all recognise thats stupid here but why do we act like women who like or dont like certain sex acts can only have a specific sexual orientation?

[totentnz]

also whats wrong with the calibri font? yeah its no times new roman but it looks nice, is readable and because apparently not many people use it it's gonna stand out

#sammy says shit #you wanna bet if i used arial or times new roman they'd ask why i used a boring font? smh #next time im gonna use comic sans because everyone loves that one /s #im really mad about this lmao i rly put some thought into this #made an effort and it still isnt enough #story of my life lmao #and then people wonder why i half ass things #because nothing is ever right smh #i even colour coordinated that shit with my photo #and i realise thats like the basics but still #next time? black background and red font #because you can read that shit so well

[sabertoothwalrus]

snap u have anon turned off? I guess we’re just doing this then DHSJSK ok based on ur art and interests and blog and stuff the vibes I get from u are like:

chill and cool but also somewhat intimidating lmao and u like it that way. “be my friend but also fear me just a little, that’s sexy”

likes things that could be considered “cringe” but gives zero Fs what people think about it and elevates said cringe to a respectable art form while not actually really shying away from the cringe? haha

“I said what I said, die mad about it” energy

really creative thinker (like not passively involved in your interests but actively coming up w new ideas, exploring new paths/AUs that intrigue you and putting energy into developing them)

pretty self-confident overall (good for u queen)

bursting with Ideas at all times. kind of annoyed that your hands cannot keep up with your brain

some brand of lgbtq but I’m not rly sure what lol

gets frustrated with sitting still/being stuck

high expectations for yourself, maybe sometimes a little too hard on yourself

very thoughtful and intentional and skilled creator who puts a lot of effort into learning and improving

zero patience for whiney or close-minded people and not afraid to call them out

not afraid of anything, possibly

doesn’t really like kids? maybe?

has a specific beverage that u drink 80 servings of a day….like coffee or chamomile tea or diet doctor pepper or one of those sparkly flavored water things

a nice, loud, warm belly laugh and a big smile that shows your gums

ok that was a lot more than I intended, sorry lol anyway what’s my grade

OK PEOPLE HAVE ACTUALLY TOLD ME IM INTIMIDATING IRL AND??? I’m just a silly little goofball that’s so baffling

Ok I DO have no fucks being cringe, but it is one thing when you’re showcasing work you’re proud of vs telling a coworker in the breakroom at work “yeah I watch miraculous ladybug” GDHFJGKG there’s a time and a place yknow

LITERALLY YEAH ACTUALLY

I’ve been really lucky that this has been true for me for awhile!! I have had years-long bouts of art block where I can’t seem to produce anything, but this past year I’ve had more ideas than I can keep up with!

I am all or nothing when it comes to confidence, or rather I’m CONFIDENT when I CAN’T do things. Fun fact tho is I’m not really afraid of public speaking 🤷

Usually I just say gay/lesbian. Gender is: I don’t have a problem being Girl but you and I both know it doesn’t mean anything lol

I do get frustrated being stuck!!! Aaaaaaaa executive dysfunction!!!!!

Next couple are pretty accurate

the one about kids is FALSE I ADOREEEE kids!!! I look more forward to being a parent than having a spouse

ehhh I don’t really have a drink like this?? I’m a big slut for Martinelli’s brand apple juice/cider though 👌

I legit scream laugh gdhfjfjf esp in voice calls oof you shoulda HEARD me when they announced the Mario movie cast

overall you did really well!!! Thank you for putting my brain under a microscope Mar!! :) 👍

[saetoru]

I read a post on twitter that said Takemichi is the most selfish person ever in tokrev universe. That he got the perfect ending where everybody was alive and still friends/in contact but he had to go back to the past anyway just to save one and, in doing so, got most of his friends killed. And I honestly agree with it a lot. Like he should definitely just have gotten married and went about his life. I honestly believe the manga is just going downhill so fast and it really all started when they killed Draken (or even Emma). It sucks they ruined such an amazing manga just for some shock factor. I was wondering what your thoughts were on this…

i have this one opinion. and im always scared to share this opinion bc people always get mad, and i mean everyone hates me anyway so idc but i also hate not getting the last word LMAO so i know id argue back and i dont have rly have the energy to argue over an opinion on such a subjective manga, but im gonna share this opinion anyway.

i think takemichi is at least just a little bit selfish. his determination and charisma and the way he cares and takes everyones burdens as his own are all hero qualities, yes, but at the end of the day, he's messing with the past in order to save his love. and that ending with mikey being away was likely the happiest ending they could get, i agree. thats unless mikey got the help he needs, but that doesnt seem to be happening any time soon.

but mostly, my opinion is that you shouldnt mess with time at all. i think takemichi should have never thought to mess with the past to change the present because in basically every time travel movie / book ive seen, read, or heard of, the lesson is that you cant change the past bc if you try, either the same thing will always happen, or someone else will suffer in the process of you trying to change your life. which i think is what takemichi shouldve realized. in the end, someone else likely wouldve died—and they did, or hina would just always end up dead, so why mess with timelines ??

you cant ever know which event likely caused something in the future bc you cant predict and account for all the possibilities, which we've seen over and over in tr. every time takemichi thinks he's figured out what the cause of mikey and toman turning bad was, there's something new he has to change, and it's just so risky, and he's putting other lives on the line whether he means to or not.

but i definitely agree that the timeline where mikey was away was the best one, as much as it saddens me to say, bc in that timeline, all his friends are happy and thriving. i just simply think that there's not likely a way every single person can be saved, so you have to pick the one that's best for everyone, which was probably that one.

#💌 — teemail. #no return address #tr spoilers #me tying my 400 word opinion waiting for someone to attack me LMAO #please dont 😭 #this is just what i think #sobs

[fadeintoyou1993]

Thoughts on the episode?? I'm losing my god damned mind about it tbh

theres literally so much in my head rn 😭 i'll try to put some of the thoughts into words rn

i keep seeing ppl being mad about it and like i understand it on a landon stan perspective bc he really does always get fucked over and i want him to be back rly bad too BUT as someone who enjoys the ted / landon dynamic im kinda excited to see how it all develops and how landon manages to get back bc he WILL lmfao like thats not even a question! ik this is controversial in this fandom but i actually do trust the writers and i actually do enjoy the characters so 🤷🏽‍♀️ each their own i guess! and aria is clearly having fun w this bc he loves the necromancer so watching Landon have scenes w the necro who is so insanely opposite of who landon is is just really fun to me lol

w hizzie.... PHEWWW like these two are literally going through their 10th divorce huh lmao and its really fun to me watching how they develop individually and how it all affects the other. i know a lot of ppl were disappointed last week about lizzie relying on her codependency crutch and not wanting to break the sirebond, but i think that that was an important plot point bc as someone who struggles w mental disorders / is neurodivergent, the fact that lizzie wanted to rely on those old comforts of codependency and the things that she was used to, the things that felt familiar for her and arent necessarily good or healthy for her or dont fit her anymore is VERY real to me. recovery/growing up/independence is not a linear path when youre neurodivergent and you DO fall back on old habits and you do resort to bad coping mechanisms, especially when youre going through so much stress. so to me it felt very real and i really really loved how they handled that; i love that lizzie was able to see that her brain is Not her weakness and she IS strong on her own and capable of taking care of herself BY HERSELF. and her being able to recognize that and recognize that same pattern of behavior on aurora is very meaningful to me so i just really enjoyed that a lot as a neurodivergent lizzie / legacies stan lol

w hope... lmao like! girly is struggling and danielle rose russell STAYSSSS eatin up every scene!!! i still cannot get over that last scene and just hope in general. i think that theyre doing a wonderful fucking job of writing hope's process and everything else and i love how theyre developing hope and lizzie's relationship as well. literally have no complaints about it sorry 🤷🏽‍♀️ just 10/10 drr stays iconic as per!

#anon #answered

[diver-up]

Please go off about endgame if you want to I’m still SO MAD about it but I feel like most people are over it. I just wanna hear more people point out how bad it was

hmmmm this is just based on what i remember cuz i literally saw it once when it came out & never watched it again. but id love the opportunity to roast it so after some thought heres what i didnt like:

-giving tony stark a kid just to kill him off for shock value

-the entire resolution to cap’s storyline... robbing peggy of the life she built w/out him so he could get the girl in the end 😍even tho his entire arc is like. abt being a man out of time and having to grapple w/ that and move on w/ his life. like ur telling me after the relationships he formed w/ natasha and sam and ntm everything he did to find bucky and bring him back he’s just gonna fuck off and live a separate life w/out them?? no

-like i get they wanted to like write steve out of the films & make sam the new cap but like i said in my other post. steve shouldve just died instead of tony and passed on the shield then and there it’s more meaningful than w/e those 2 plot points above are

-killing off natasha instead of clint. this one ties in w/ a lot of other things i dont particularly like ab how they treated clint/nat in the mcu to begin w/ (like nat hating herself bc she cant have kids, giving clint a random wife n kids for no reason, the implication that nat’s life is intrinsically worth less BC clint has a wife n kids... w/e just clint’s family and steve’s resolution just rly pushes a weird het family values whatever thing). im not getting into this ever tho bc im not invested anymore and also i dont have the energy for it. also mcu clint was never gonna have what comics clint had anyway

-thor’s fat isn’t that a funny joke :) 

-blink and youll miss it “gay representation” feat. one nameless random character saying husband Once in a sentence. i want more characters to casually drop that they’re gay and move on w/out companies acting like it’s the pinnacle of representation or w/e. it’s bare minimum at best but u STILL have writers and directors like, talking ab how meaningful it was to put it in the script. but they rly hyped up the fact that EG would have gay rep and im still annoyed abt it. try harder

-the girl power moment in the final fight.. when i think abt it i just envision the writers sitting together and patting themselves on the back for how Empowering and #feminist it was 

-all the shit they did to avoid spoilers lmao. when ur more invested in plot twists & shocking ur audience and w/e instead of like, good writing - esp to the point where even ur ACTORS are in the dark - it shows. 

EG was hyped up to be like this epic and thrilling and badass conclusion to the mcu movies before it but i remember for like the first half of the movie i kept checking my phone to see what time it was like every 10 min 😪and all i remember abt it is what i didnt like bc it really WAS 3 hours of nothing which gave me plenty of time to mull over everything i hated. i rly liked marvel comics as a kid but i literally saw this movie once n never thought abt marvel again

#long post #ask to tag #this is so long but i just realized i never had an outlet to complain cuz my friends liked it so all of this was pent up 😩😪 #im POSITIVE theres more but thats just what i remember

[itsclydebitches]

God I'm so glad to talk about the game lmao. I also finished it! It was fine Ig I think the start of the game was so fantastic so my expectations were a bit much but it was fun! I loved playing as Ciri and just zapping all over the place, wish we could do that more.

But yeah I completely agree with you on basically everything that you said lmaooo, Yen is just unbareable the more I learn about her and the things shes done/the way she treats ppl, I just don't see what I'm meant to like, even if Geralt wasn't the Best person, he deserves so so much better, Idk how I'm gonna read the books if this romance is canon there too, hopefully it won't bother me too much. She so far doesn't really have any redeeming qualities, even her small moments of humour and wit are sort of "yeah okay but it's not fun when you do it cause you just spent the past few moments berating someone for daring to try and help you so like" I actually ended up sort of liking triss the more I talked with her and Yen, she at least apologises for her wrongs (which are still massive holy shit) and doesn't rly treat geralt like shit (same with Kiera, I think thats how her name is spelt, shes cool), they both kinda fuck over geralt but they own up to it which I can at least respect, still not a fan but they're okay, at times. God the women in this game are either really fucking cool or just a bitch, usually in a not fun way The game came with both dlcs! havent really touched them cause the ending was a bitttt of a let down, I thought I wasn't near finishing cause I put it off for so long lol so my bad, probably will get into them tho! And im on ps4 so no mods :( the exp shit would be so good, the last boss fights were really easy though? I think I was level 34 (I wanted to wear my good armour lol) and the quests are level 28 so maybe I was a bit over leveled but some random mobs in world beat my ass just before the main quests so idk lol. Do you get to hang with Ciri at all post game? They're so damn cute together

Out of curiosity which ending did you get? I was pretty satisfied overall (witcher!Ciri ending for me) but I remember thinking that the last couple of plot points were pretty rushed. Though tbh, looking back I’m not sure if that’s actually the case, or if things just felt fast to me because I missed so much buildup trying to keep track of the basics. Now that I know the characters, world, conflicts, etc. I keep coming across lines and details that make me go, “Oh, THAT’S what we were referring to!” for plot points that previously felt like they came out of nowhere.

Playing Ciri is so much fun though. I enjoy zapping around as well...even when I accidentally zap myself into some guy's sword XD

I’m constantly told Yen gets better in the books (something, something major character development) and I’d be lying if I said that “The Last Wish” didn’t turn me off, but I personally stopped reading due to more than just Yen. The epic just didn’t grab me. The short stories absolutely, but I didn’t like the writing as much in novel form, heard a lot about future plot points I had no interest in/made me very uncomfortable, didn’t want to read a bunch of Yen being Yen prior just to getting a development I may or may not like… there was a lot that made me drop the books, so I’m not exactly in the best position to be recommending them, or even warning against them from an unbiased perspective lol. I might give them another shot sometime, but for now I’m happy with the games and fandom content.

I’m liking Triss a lot more on my second playthrough too (especially how selfless she is regarding the other mages) and I always liked Keira. I think the game did a good job of making her kinda selfish and manipulative (as sorceresses are wont to be in this world), but not to such an extent that you’re utterly repulsed by her actions. Her conflict is “I want to not live in squalor the rest of my days and am willing to mislead a friend to achieve that. Also foolishly trust a mad king that, if I go through with it, ends in my horrific death.” With the resolution being like, “Oh, someone else will give me a place of safety with something as basic as clean bedding? Sweet! Yeah, now that I have some security, company, and comfort I’ll use this research to cure a plague, nbd.” Keira is a great example of TW3’s argument that if you choose to help and nurture people, good things will happen for everyone, and it doesn’t ask you to ignore anything really awful to get there. I can very much stomach “You kept some info from me and put me to sleep for the night” in a way that’s far harder to do with, “You actively misled me for months while I had amnesia, cultivating this fantasy relationship” or “You callously disregard another’s culture and torture our daughter’s friend through necromancy.”

Depending on the choices you’ve already made, you can hang out with Ciri for like, one cut scene in the DLCs lol. But it’s indeed a cute one! Basically, if you didn’t romance either Triss or Yen and Ciri is still alive, you should see her again. I’m absolutely that fan that if CDPR decided, after this many years, to randomly add more TW3 content, I would in no way be opposed. I want more time with Ciri, with Regis, there’s a character from the second game named Iorveth who was supposed to reappear in TW3 but had to be cut and that tragedy will forever haunt me. Forget the mess that is Cyberpunk, just keep making more Witcher content!

#witcher

[goyangii]

i feel u so much on your thoughts about being constantly asked for your pronouns (regarding ur tags on that post i mean)... it's so infuriating!!!! this is why ive found a bit of peace chatting w older women, because they never Ever ask. they're Sane and can tell im female and will call me petnames and feel comfy and joke around. genderists r legitimately insane sorry for the rant i am just an angry gnc woman today (and always)

omfg this is probably hella late (im sorry!! i use tumblr on mobile 99% of the time so don't see the notif) but yesss omfg. it is so frustrating hanging out w/ women my age bc they are visibly uncomfortable with me and it gets depressing. it rly is insane and your anger is completely totally justified!!! older women can be very based and poggers <3

ive had some mixed experiences with older women, esp older asian (and specifically older korean) women who view my being gnc as "not taking care of myself" and always have something to say about me not having a bf/husband/children as a cryptkeeper in her mid-20s lol. but on the whole i can agree they don't buy into gendie shit for the most part and it is refreshing that at the least even if they criticize/are uncomfortable with me, we aren't debating the basic reality that i am female (that's usually the entire reason they're uncomfortable — a gnc female wouldn't be gnc if she were male).

i hope to one day have such solidarity with older women ;_; most usually pity me as they think i'm the way i am due to a history of sexual trauma and it gets depressing lmao. like, i've been friends with a (now ex-) tim since my gendie days and i've met his mom a few times — she used to vent to me about his transition lol — and his mom couldn't understand why i didn't want to perform femininity, wasn't interested in makeup, didn't wear skirts, etc. until he let slip at some point that i had a history of sexual trauma and abuse. it literally took that for her to stop bringing it up, and still it kind of upsets me that so many ppl can't get that some ppl are just...naturally gnc? like she understood and empathized with my experiences prolly on the basis that females as a class can understand what it's like to be sexually victimized by males, but can't fathom being gnc outside of a trauma response. which is so irritating bc i'm 100% certain this doesn't happen to men? like nobody looks at rupaul and is like "ah yes these men must've been sexually abused" so why do so many women assume being gnc is the product of trauma. my own mom believes this too and drops hints every so often that i'm "really a pretty girl underneath it all" and my relatives, including male ones, say that if i only wore more feminine clothing/embraced being feminine i'd "reach my potential" which is so. idk how to even put it into words LMAO. idk if you experience this as well but it drives me up the fucking wall

fwiw men, older men included, are even worse abt this all so i can't even get mad at older women in comparison. but god. i wish non-gnc women in general understood femininity as separate from being female.

#mine #ask #sorry for the rant U_U

[yarrowleef]

Read Darkness Within all in one sitting last night and then passed out so here are my scattered thoughts i wrote down as i read, (afterthoughts in parenthesis)

Darkness Within Spoilers, obv

UGH GOD THE SECOND HAND EMBARRESMENT FROM SQUIRREL FAKE FLIRTING WITH ASHFUR IT HURTS

Just remembered Sandynose died and got a small boost of happiness (will Hawkwing and Plumwillow ever be allowed to talk again now? I mean probly not b/c they aren’t protags and non-protags don’t rly have friends but I can hope. Sorry, Hawkwhing and Plumwillow’s short-lived friendship in Hawkwings Journey was one of the last times I felt something)

Ghost fleas lol

Mothwing: i’m rude now. (but more importantly, Fuck Tigerheartstar for forcing his son to be around the cat that hurt him so badly, like he HAS to know how upset everyone is regarding Shadowsight and his accidentally helping the imposter, and he’s making him be the sole one to tend to him??? There is NO REASON Puddleshine couldn’t have done it. You think Puddleshine is going to try and murder someone?? )

Oh no don't make this a traveling book, and a ROOTBRISTLE traveling book this is going to be insufferable

BACON AND EGGS

Lightleap Is Good (Hey didn’t Shadowsight have another sister? lets be real we all knew Pouncekit was going to end up as the forgettable 3rd one)

Bristlefrost’s crush continues to feel unnatural to me. It’s like she’s grasping at straws romanticizing the most generic things.....wow....I love how ur just so...bare minimum competent....being polite to the loner we came all this way to ask for help like any somewhat reasonable person would....How admirable...I love the way you just *clenches fist* exhibit some basic traits of loyalty and skill that literally every warrior has (I s2g I’m this close to head canon-ing Bristle as a clueless aromantic who doesn't understand what romance is actually suppose to feel like so she just looks at feelings of low-bar admiration and assumes “oh I guess this is that “romantic attraction” everyone’s always talking about? guess I must be in love???” because both her crushes have felt out of nowhere and like. Idk fake/forced sounding like she’s just telling me that that she’s In Love Now while I continue to not actually feel it at all from her end. I know it’s just that I hate the way Erin’s write female characters in love but this head-canon makes me laugh)

Got scared because I thought they were going to villainize Spotfur for not wanting kits for a minute, but also excited at the concept of maybe exploring a female character that doesn’t want to be a mother, but it turns out she was just pulling a Sparkpelt and actually DID want the kits all along and was only hesitant because she’s sad. Shrug oh well.  (the only female character in warriors that was distinctly upset about pregnancy and motherhood was Lizardstripe and as we all know she was eeeeeevil and abusive and “overly ambitious” because why else would you not come around to being happy about motherhood?? YES I’M STILL SALTY ABOUT YELLOWFANG’S SECRET, BAD BOOK)  Whatever it’s fine so long as Spot doesn’t lose her rebel leader spirit forever and default to “soft mom” personality for the rest of her life, I gotta have hope because I actually like Bristle and Spot’s current relationship. Also I am actually very grateful they never made Bristle resentful at Spot for getting with her crush, as lots of middle grade/YA media has a very bad habit of demonizing female romantic “competition” and its super gross, so I rly do like that Bristlefrost is so protective and caring towards her instead. )

This series is trying to tell me that Rootspring is actually Big but I refuse to accept that. he has dumb scrawny bitch energy and we all know it

Sunrise: “Thunderclan may be better with a new leader” lol go off (i mean........they right tho...It’s unfortunate that the tension in this whole plot is a bit dampened by the fact that i DO in fact want bramble to die v badly. I don’t even have special hatred for him, I’m just bored of him.)

Yes Lionblaze beat the shit out of Ashfur

*HOLY SHIT THAT’S FUCKED!!!! (I wrote this in reference to the ghost summoning scene, this was all I could manage at the time, that scene was WILD and I am VIBING WITH THE HORROR OF IT ALL)

* Brashfur: Oh yeah? Could Ashfur fake THIS? *stands up with slightly better posture* Shadowsight: oh damn you got me there...... (asdfhhfhhgh im sorry that was really funny, how did that prove anything?? ONLY A ~REAL~ WARRIOR COULD STAND UP STRAIGHT WE ALL KNOW ASHFUR IS INCAPABLE OF GOOD POSTURE!)

End of the book: *LAUGHING NERVOUSLY* WHAT THE FUCK??? (I thought he was just gonna kill Squirrelflight right there holy shit can you imagine the RIOTS that would ensue in the wake of all this Squirrel/Bramble discourse I was so scared for a second.  

 But it’s fine, she just....went to super hell instead......Warriors has come so far lmao WHAT IS HAPPENING

Final Notes:

*On Mothwing, I don’t think her behavior struck me as “CHARACTER BUTCHERING” as much as it did for other people? I mean.....Warriors fans will say that literally any time a character does ANYTHING less then perfectly nice I think her actions just seemed that much harsher because we are reading from Shadowsight’s POV, and Shadowsight is taking everything 10x more personally right now (understandably so, but Mothwing isn’t inside his head) she wasn’t trying to hurt him. Also... like... Shadowsight DID get his name too early. It’s not Mothwing’s job to put his feelings above everything else, she’s not even his mentor, Puddleshine on the other hand, as his main mentor, I don’t understand what his deal is ignoring Shadowsight, that’s not how you help an apprentice but I suppose I chalk many of his mistakes up to also not being the most experienced medicine cat (he barely even had his own mentor.) Maybe he’s distant because he feels guilty and actually blames himself for not guiding Shadowsight better?? the two of them haven’t communicated about it yet so idk

 any way I give Mothwing a pass to be a little short tempered right now as a cat who has had her abilities periodically questioned all her life no matter how hard she works or how much experience she has, just because she doesn’t vibe with the spiritual cult side of the clans, I can understand why she’s a bit defensive of being questioned and frustrated watching so much hurt happen Yet Again due to reliance on StarClan visions over common sense, and I for one still stan her for slandering StarClan and refusing to accept Mistystar’s bullshit banishing like everyone else. Sometimes a character is at the end of their rope and can’t manage to be 100% nice 24/7 and that’s maybe not inherently bad writing? idk just my hot take. At a certain point we all gotta reckon with the fact that our perception of most popular supporting characters in heavily colored by fanon and we can’t always get mad at the authors for not adhering to it

*The sisters magic shit is my fav worldbuilding warriors has had in AGES, I love the way it’s described and it actually feels like it adds something to this world. I love this horror imagery with the ghosts, very excited for that. 

*still won’t be thrilled if Ashfur is working alone, because his motive doesn’t make sense right now. I mean the trying to get Squilf thing, sure, whatever, but the “I will make everyone pay for what they did to me”???? cause like?? Who??? they didn’t do anything to him?? Ashfur’s grievance was very specifically JUST Squilf. He has no other cause for revenge, he had no other beef or complaints about the clans to my knowledge? The cat that killed him is dead, and she’s like, the only other one that I could see as having “wronged” him?? I guess he also didn’t like Firestar much according to Graystripe’s Vow (and on account of how willing he was to kill him w/ Hawkfrost) but Firestar is ALSO dead. I don’t understand his angle. Will have to see last 2 books to judge i suppose.

*All in all I am interested to see where this is going!! but also the pacing as I feared is becoming a major issue. It’s better then ending the main conflict on book 3 like Vision of Shadows did, but omg. Hardly anything happened in all these pages. I realized I was over half way through and nothing about the situation had actually CHANGED or advanced at all in all that time. Similar to the past 2 books which I believe could have been combined, this plot felt like it should have been the first half of a book. Discussing whether or not to kill the imposter isn’t much of a standalone plot, it’s just the set up to a plot. Finding the sisters didn’t need to be a whole long thing, the debates about the Imposters fate didn’t need to be repeated 10 times, all those chapters illustrating that “Shadowsight is sad” were also drawn out, repetitive, and interchangeable, we probably only needed 2 or so chapters showing his struggles to get the necessary information across. It felt like a lot of padding, it was really slow and I did a lot of skimming. I am still very interested in the overarching plot and mystery behind the ghosts so that kept me reading but man this “will they won’t they kill him” plot did not justify it’s own whole book. Alas this is a persisting issue that will never be resolved while they continue to force 6 books into 1 series that doesn’t need 6 books. I’m sure the writers are doing the best they can with these unfortunate constraints but still, it’s a wonder this slow padding isn’t more of a detriment to their younger readers that the books are supposed to be marketed to.

#warrior cats #the broken code #darkness within #the darkness within #darkness within spoilers #wc tbc #tbc #is that enough tags #yarrow speaks #wc criticism #long post #the broken code spoilers #warrior cats spoilers

[hiuythn]

sorry to ask, but i saw u shared hc for the sick anon, im going thru a rough patch and ur fic rly cheered me up. Can i get some hcs as well?

this is how keith asks lance to marry him:

so we all know how from the beginning, from the moment things got resolved at the end of tnahp, that keith’s been upfront about never leaving lance. everyone knows he’s going to put a ring on that. he’s said it to lance’s face. “what else am i gonna do with you?”

it’s not until six years later that he actually does anything though. mostly bc of the war and the aftermath.

the team are in a meeting with the coalition, boring stuff, routine stuff, and the mind link is closed, bc sometimes keith and lance need breaks. he’s lucky that it was, though, because what happens next in his mind would’ve been enough to make lance fall out of his seat and ruin the meeting and coran would’ve killed them both lmao

lance is paying attention even though he looks just as bored as keith. diligent, as always. he’s even got a holoscreen projected, taking lazy notes. there are faint little sketches of the coalition members and the team. one is of shiro, snoring, comical Zs above his head. keith bites down on his cheek.

lance is twirling the pen in his left hand.

keith looks at that and thinks, loud and clear, there should be a ring on his finger.

he sits back.

huh.

it should be a surprise, he decides after a quiet minute. lance deserves that. it should be at the right moment, the right words, the right place. it should be soft and genuine and such a sweet shock that it takes lance seconds to reply. it should make his blue eyes fill with tears, it should make him curl into a ball before keith, who’ll still be kneeling, ring box open and laughing at him because wow, that’s nice reaction, lance. it should be a proposal so perfect that it makes lance kind of mad, makes him shove keith, makes him pout that frustrated-loving-happy pout.

(bros, as a gay, this is kind of really fucking gay)

keith spends the rest of the meeting laying out proposal plans. lance gets exasperated when he finds out keith remembers nothing of the meeting. “dude, you--tell me again, who’s the leader of voltron, here?” “it’s allura.” “....okay, but who flies bl--”

and some people might ask, what’s the point, if you’re already levertan-married? if you’ve mind-linked and basically achieved the pinnacle of ‘joining hands in holy matrimony’?

keith’s answer would probably be something like ‘fuck off, i love him that’s why’

(ngl that’s hella romantic. no? just me?)

the long answer is that he knows lance is a romantic. that he really likes gestures of affection, that his face gets all rosy and he always tries to bite back his smiles, and he gets so pleased and flustered and also adorably angry every time keith does anything for him. keith’s in love with that. he goes absolutely dumb over making lance happy, he’s fucking obsessed with it. every neuron in keith’s stupid head is devoted to lance like 24/7.

(it’s a given that lance is the same, if not worse. how tf do they get anything done?)

plus, levertan-married doesn’t really mean the same as human-married.

so keith--somehow--manages to pull off thinking up proposal plans without closing the link, without lance knowing--maybe bc his thoughts are purposefully fragmented like ‘white chocolate? milk?’ or ‘speakers? mic?’ or ‘beach sand feels sandy’ and yes it sounds absolutely dumb but it’s clever because after a while lance tunes it out. though, at the beginning, it really fucking worried him because it sounded like keith was having a stroke LMAO

over the next couple months, keith steadily puts his plan together: get the ring, figure out what to say, speak to allura about detouring to earth for some r&r, speak to shiro about not fucking things up for keith because i know you’ll do that somehow shiro no are you serious of course you would you’re evil do you even remember that time i said no to inviting people for my fourteenth birthday and you did it anyway even though i was looking forward to just playing video games for the whole day??? i had to deal with james griffin in my goddamn house you ass--

the day keith asks, everything--surprisingly--goes really well? like suspiciously so. like keith’s really glad but he’s itching to reach for his knife by the end of it, bc he was prepared for shiro to have done sth by now. 

but nah, keith and lance have a lovely day hanging out, doing activities keith planned and things lance spontaneously suggests. the weather is a perfect breezy, sunny day. when the sun sets they wordlessly head for the beach. lance chases keith though the surf. they throw clumps of wet sand at each other. keith hoists lance in his arms, listening to him yell as keith spins them around. lance picks him up and tosses him into the shallows, that fucking jerk. lance gets keith to forgive him. lance gives keith his shirt, goes half-naked for keith’s shivering form. ‘i’m going to get a cold,’ lance says. ‘and i’m not?’ keith snorts. they walk down the beach and lance tells him stories, pointing to this rock or that spot and saying oh i broke my arm there or dude i saved a baby turtle from a seagull that day and keith soaks it all up like he’s the sand and lance is the ocean waves, coming back to him every time.

lance hops onto a rock, demonstrating to keith how he used to pretend he was a sea prince looking for mermaids. the winds play with his hair, the setting sun brushing golden against his bare chest and the grin on his lips. like this, he’s a foot or two taller than keith.

keith gets down on one knee.

it’s lance’s fault that the ring box is damp, but he’s lucky this thing is olkari-made, because when keith opens it up, the ring shines just as bright as lance. almost as bright. it tries its best but keith really only has eyes for his soulmate.

keith says:

every day, i want to choose you. every day, i want to get to choose you. every day, growing up like i did, was spent learning what i needed to live, what food or drink or mantra was needed to make it another day alone. my body forced to me to focus on its needs, on the bare essentials. if i went a month without a caring touch, it didn’t matter, because it hadn’t killed me yet.

before i fell for you, i don’t think i knew what it meant to want. i never had a chance to think about it, a second to indulge. if i wanted a home, a family, it was a weakness, a distraction, and i couldn’t let myself admit it. so i never learned to want.

the only other thing that comes closest to what i feel for you is probably flying. it’s that addiction to diving through the clouds, it’s free-falling, it’s soaring with my heart in my throat. and even then, even now that i know you, it doesn’t quite compare. it’s a poor substitute.

in this world we exist in, where some force out there knows exactly what we need, who we need, it’s kind of a miracle that i still got to choose you. i’m glad i got the moments where it hurt to think of you, because i wanted you so bad i couldn’t stand not having you. i’m glad i got to slowly realize that you were everything to me, on my own time. it was my own conclusion, my own resolution to love you because you were you, and not because you were someone i was supposed to love. the universe kind of tricked us, but i think she meant well.

and now i know, that even in a world where soulmates didn’t exist....i know i’d still want you.

i want to want you, every day. i want to wake up wanting you, every day, fall asleep wanting you every night. i want to leave for missions wanting you, want to stay behind watching you go, wanting you to return faster than you can. i want you to want me, too. i want a ring on our fingers, reminding me that you do, that you feel the same and you always will.

i want to marry you, lance mcclain.

will you marry me?

#klance #tnahp #tiwlll #fuck what the fuck #what the actual fuck that's so romantic #can someone check my head for me i think keith possessed me #holy god #ummmmm #i don't know how to explain this i've literally never been in love sjdfhksdjf #????????????????? #anon i hope this helps you!!!!! ily 💖💖💖 #ask #my writing #y'all i really think i need an exorcist.... #keith [reaching thru 15 dimensions to wrap his hands around my neck and wring it]: #tell them why i love lance kogane-mcclain!!!!! tell them!!! fuck!! #Anonymous

[captain-flint]

It really wouldn’t 😭😭 surprisingly what we got was the best out of the options this version was colin treverrow’s and he literally wanted to put finn in a slave camp and make damerey happen with poe flirting with her the whole time and her using a jedi mind trick to kiss him and then being end game No Thank you I’ll stick with tros ❤️

oh yeah i’ve heard about CT’s version of the movie and the bits you pointed out sounded terrifying. i didn’t know the concept art i reblogged was from that version of the script tho. i just thought it looked badass. i like rey’s look from concept art more than the one in TROS, but that’s not rly important. i’ve also heard that JJ’s original script was better than what we got, but i’m not sure if that’s been fact checked. regardless, we got what we got, there’s no changing it now. 

i gotta say i’m really not mad at this movie. i actually enjoyed it! did i expect it to be good? no. after the dumpster fire that was TLJ i didn’t expect anything. i didn’t want to think about it at all. i went in for one reason only: the main trio. i was just there to see my faves kick some ass bc after TLJ they ended up being the only thing i care about in this trilogy. i didn’t even dare to hope for finnpoe and i got WAAAY more than i thought i would. personally i think JJ did what he could to save it after TLJ (especially with those disney fuckwads looming over his head) so i’m.. surprisingly okay with it. yes, i recognize all the missed opportunities, everything that could’ve been done better (the fucked up character arcs..oof), everything that was unnecessary... and you know what? i dont care lmao. im just here to watch those three idiot babies and bb8 do some damage and love each other. that’s all [shrug emoji]

#Anonymous #ask

[taeyeonsb]

lay me down (romeo and juliet!jilix)

bc anna called me a coward and i am not: a coward

@chenle

we been knew this was gonna happen because I have zero (0) self control

this thing is 11,111 words (i wish i was joking, this is even worse than my hyunlix au ;-;) and the entire thing is just me waxing poetic about jisung (im not even sorry)

have a masterlist

all the links in here are songs!! u obviously don’t have to listen to them but i thought they were nice, and i fit them in where i imagined them playing if this were a movie

i love all members of skz !!!! and i love jaemin and lucas !!!! for the characters i just kinda went with my gut on who should be who so that’s why the people are who they are

i took a few creative liberties with the story because i felt like it but it’s basically the same

warning for violence! it’s v minor and non descriptive, but there are mentions of blood and sword fighting and all that fun shakespeare stuff

i wrote two separate endings (one sad and one happy) for u lovelies because ur hearts are too precious to break

sad ending / happy ending

aight let’s get it

it’s been a while since I’ve read romeo and juliet but here we go

felix as romeo means he’s gotta have his #montaguesquad

aka chan, hyunjin, seungmin, jeongin

all of stray kids are jisung antis lmao they could all be in the montague squad

felix’s benvolio aka his Right Hand Man and best cousin ever is, of course, seungmin, who for some reason rly has it out for changbin? felix doesnt know

which leaves the capulet gang changbin and minho !!!

yeet

since jisung is the only child of lord and lady capulet, he isnt rly allowed 2 like ,,,,,, do stuff

gotta preserve that bloodline, u kno

it’s just him and his nurse most of the time

he’s very unaware of all the capulet/montague drama

even the drama that’s happening right now

seungmin and jeongin r just strolling along, minding their own business when

they catch sight of minho

D:

their mortal enemy!!

“look who it is!” minho says “come to offer up your swords?”

when they make eye contact, jeongin immediately flips minho off

“did u just put ur finger up at me, pipsqueak?”

“I did put my finger up, yes”

jeongin abskfjs

“yeah, but was it at me?”

“idk, you tell me”

JEONGIN MINHO IS GONNA SMASH UR KNEECAPS D:

seungmin taps jeongin on the shoulder

“dude, maybe we dont want to start a fight? Prince Jinyoung seemed rly mad last time ,,,,,”

seungmin is the pacifist :D

“I’m hoping for your sake that you didnt put your finger up at me” minho jeers

seungmin: jeongin no

jeongin, already drawing his sword: jeongin YES

[they fight]

seungmin’s really trying his hardest to stop the fight bc he doesnt want his baby getting hurt

but then

out of nowhere

changbin comes

oh god

the crowd of civilians who have gathered around the fight parts for him, and seungmin wishes it hadnt

“what’s going on here?” changbin lazily asks minho, who makes direct eye contact with seungmin as he answers

“jeongin just attacked me out of nowhere”

“seungmin,” changbin starts, tone light and mocking, “don’t start again, do you want to get in trouble? I know you montagues have trouble understanding simple things, but fighting is bad”

seungmin is no longer the pacifist D:

he CHARGES changbin lmao

the crowd around them is loud and panicked, and seungmin grits his teeth

changbin is a skilled swordsman, no doubt

but seungmin’s rage will fuel him

and nothing can get in his way!!!!!

well

except Prince Jinyoung

who steps out onto the street, looking mad as heck

“WHAT IS GOING ON?” he screeches

the four of them stop fighting immediately

“I told you no more brawls! and in broad daylight, too. you’re disturbing this city, and I have had enough of it. your houses are of noble blood! you should be ashamed of yourselves.”

they all hang their heads, looking like kicked puppies

changbin meets seungmin’s eyes and smirks

seungmin’s blood boils

“if I see any members of the houses of capulet or montague fighting, the offenders will be put to death”

and prince jinyoung stalks away, anger swirling around him like his cape

jeongin links arms with seungmin and steers him away as quickly as possible

“don’t give him the time of day, honestly. he gets under my skin, too”

seungmin sighs

“I’ll see you later innie, I’m gonna go find felix”

“hah! good luck, he’s probably still wandering around in the forest, mooning over that boy!”

which he is

felix, like jisung, is also very unaware of the capulet/montague drama

but for a very different reason

hes lonely ;-;

he accidentally fell head over heels for na jaemin

who, very unfortunately, is not head over heels for him

which means felix is :((((

he’s been spending a lot of time walking around aimlessly in the forest

I also wander aimlessly in forests because I love jaemin tbh

he’s sitting on a rock, staring into a pond when seungmin is suddenly sitting next to him

“hey felix! how’s it going?” seungmin says, as cheery as possible

felix just sighs, resting his cheek in his palm

“hhhh ,,,,, im sad ,,,,,,,,,, ”

there’s silence for a bit before felix speaks again

“I had a dream last night, you know”

“oh?” seungmin asks “me too”

“really? what did you dream?”

“that dreamers often lie”

felix laughs “you may be right ,,,,, I think my heart is lying to me :(((”

poor lixie :(((

seungmin doesnt even need to ask felix to elaborate! felix does it all on his own :-)

“my heart keeps telling me I can have jaemin, but I can’t. no matter how much I want him, I cant have him”

“it be like that sometimes”

felix sighs again

“ye ,,,, my heart aches ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,”

he sounds so Sad, and seungmin is sick of it

“no, you know what? let’s go out into town, we’ll find you a guy who is so wonderful you won’t even remember what jaemin looks like, let alone still be in love with him”

“;-;”

“cmon!!!!!”

so seungmin pulls felix into town!!!! he’s gonna take his boy out shopping and find them a party !!!!!!!!!!!

they’re walking around the city when seungmin sees a messenger boy holding a list, looking lost

“dude do u need some help?” seungmin asks

the boy looks so relieved ;;;;;

“ya ,,,,, do you know how to read?”

“i can read my own fortune ,,,,, of misery ,,,,,,,,,,,” - felix, sad

“cool” - messenger boy, unbothered

“ignore my friend he’s emo” - seungmin, tired “what do you need help reading?”

the messenger gives him a paper; it’s a list of people that felix reads over his shoulder

“what is this list for?”

“my master, lord capulet, is throwing a party!”

“cool” - seungmin, who now has a plan

as soon as they help the boy and send him on his way, seungmin turns to felix

“DUDE, WE’RE GATE-CRASHING THE CAPULETS” - seungmin, ecstatic

“ok!” - felix, who’s only agreeing because he saw jaemin’s name on the list and he wants to spend the whole night pining over him

i mean , ,,, , mood

yeeet

anyways

jisung’s mom comes into his room when he wakes up

according to the nurse, she has some Important News

and he is excited!!!! maybe this important news is good news

but

turns out

it’s not

“u want me to marry WHO”

“nothing’s set in stone yet! we would just like you to consider his proposal! the marriage would be good for the family.”

“D:”

jisung is Too Young to think about marriage!!! and to Wong Lucas???

yea he’s handsome but he’s, like, twice jisung’s size!!! he could snap jisung in half by accident!!!!!!!!!!!!

“your father is throwing a ball tonight, and lucas will be invited. just try to get to know him, ok? we just want you to consider. you are still young, so don’t panic.” - jisung’s mom, trying her best

“mkay” - jisung, already panicking

his nurse helps him get ready for the ball, and she has to put his makeup on because his hands are shaking

poor baby ;-;

lmao seungmin is putting on felix’s makeup too we love cinematic parallels

“I can do it myself, you know”

“no u cant!!!! ur too sad to put on party makeup!!!! don’t worry, i got u!!!!! ur gonna look so hot, my dude!!!!!!!”

ughf get u a friend like seungmin

and now

the party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seungmin enlists chan to come with him and felix to the party

they use the power of teamwork to dispel felix’s doubts about going and try to convince him it’s for the best

the three of them walk through the doors like they own the place, even though it couldn’t be farther from the truth

“lix, just go and have a good time!!! your sorrows can’t reach you here!!!!” chan encourages felix, who nods and wanders off aimlessly

jisung’s nurse gives him one last hug before he opens his bedroom door and goes out into the party

“just have a good time! nothing is certain!”

jisung nods at her, grateful, before running his hand through his hair and yeeting himself right out of that room

he walks down the sweeping staircase slowly, surveying the room and trying to calm his racing heartbeat

felix gets a glass of champagne and cranes his neck, looking for a flash of the brightness of jaemin’s smile

all thoughts of that smile, though, bleed out of his mind as he faces the staircase

“hey” he nudges the server beside him “who is that?”

felix just nods his head in the general direction of the staircase rather than actually pointing the boy he sees out, and the servant can’t tell who he’s talking about

“idk bro”

felix, not realizing the server is walking away, “he’s so beautiful”

and he is

it’s like the world slows down for him

felix doesn’t even notice as the noise from the rest of the party fades out, leaving only the pounding of his heart, which is in his ears

the boy is dressed in a forget-me-not blue, and his golden blond hair falls around his face like each individual strand was carefully placed by an angel, and his honey skin glows under the dim lights of the ballroom

there’s a rosy red to his cheeks and a deeper red to his lips, and he moves with a certain undeniable grace, and felix has never beheld such beauty before

love, certainly, had never existed until this boy breathed it out

jaemin who?

he is so entranced that he doesnt hear what’s happening not ten feet from him

changbin, outraged: “didn’t you hear his voice? his accent? he is doubtlessly felix, from the house of montague! we must throw him out instantly, or have you forgotten the prince’s declaration? they are nothing but trouble, the whole lot of them. felix included.”

lord capulet: “my boy, he is doing nothing troubling to us. let us enjoy the night, and let him do the same. felix has a reputation of being well-behaved and dignified. i will not act upon a conflict which has not been started.”

changbin, more outraged: “oh, so ur taking his side over mine ! ur own nephew !! i see how it is !!!”

lord capulet: “little boy, i’m ur master, and u will Not start a fight”

changbin: “HES A VILLAIN”

lord capulet: “NO MORE THAN YOU”

changbin: “:o”

felix will pay 4 this >:(

well

not right now

right now, felix is having the time of his life

after the song has ended, he walked up to the beautiful boy, daring to reach out and hold his hand

his hands are so soft, and theyre bigger than felix’s, and felix is absfdjksg in LOVE

“if the touch of my hand offends you, allow me to make up for the offense with a kiss”

FELIX U SMOOTH BINCH

the boy meets felix’s eyes and felix is left breathless yet again

his red lips pull open into a smile

how could you not fall in love with that smile? it emanates the light of the sunrise and the color of the sunset, the warmth of the sun and the mystery of the moon, the promise of love and the comfort of happiness

“but give your hand more credit! you are showing respectful devotion, like a pilgrim praying. don’t you know that the clasp of a pilgrim’s palm to a saint’s statue’s is like a kiss?”

the boy’s eyes are locked with felix’s, and felix follows the welcoming curve of his mouth, the inviting softness of his gaze, the tantalizing feeling of him intertwining his fingers with felix’s

he tugs on felix’s hand and felix follows without a semblance of hesitation

“pilgrims and saints have lips, too, do they not?” felix asks as they walk

“they do; they have lips for prayer” the boy says, sweet and soft and everything felix has ever wanted

they’ve stopped walking, and now they’re in a small alcove down a quiet hallway, lit by the moon and the candles in their sconces

the boy doesn’t let go of felix’s hand until he’s pulled felix real close

felix can’t really think straight (like he could ever) with this boy so close to him

with the space between them diminished to nearly nothing and the moonlight streaming in, highlighting the boy’s face like that’s its one purpose, felix’s chest feels light, bright. home. this was meant to happen. the stars blink down at him, pleased.

there’s a lock of hair that falls in front of the boy’s face

“will you receive my prayer?” felix asks, using his free hand to brush it away

he looks deep into the boy’s eyes. he can see it, he knows that the boy’s feeling the same thing

how could he not? this feeling, it’s stronger than gravity, closer than earth

there’s starlight swimming in the boy’s gaze as he nods

and then felix closes his eyes and leans forward

and then they’re kissing

felix is a little taller, so he has to lean down a bit

(not that he minds, of course. at this point, he would do anything to keep this boy in his arms.)

the boy tilts his head and slides his arms up around felix’s shoulders

his touch is so warm, and his mouth is so soft, and he makes a little noise in the back of his throat as felix moves his hands down to his waist

felix breathes him in, and when they part it’s like this boy is the moon (he is surely more beautiful, and there’s moonlight spilling from his lips when he smiles, leans in next to felix’s ear, and whispers “you kiss like you’ve studied how")

felix laughs, hushed and bright and only for the boy’s ears

“for you, I have studied all my life”

he is so smooth when will ur kpop boy ever

the boy cups felix’s cheek with one hand, and his eyes are flitting across felix’s face, drinking him in

“I have never studied,” he breathes. he is so close, and felix’s mind is so clouded, but this boy is completely in focus. “will you teach me?”

the boy leans forward, pulling felix down, and they’re kissing again

the boy moves back one, two steps until felix is pressing him into the wall

the boy’s hands are in felix’s hair now and felix has never felt like this before

so ,,,, so right ,,,, so in love

(he’s always been a hopeless romantic)

they break apart once more, and moving away felix swears he sees every star in the sky reflected back at him when he looks into the boy’s eyes

who are you? he thinks, and he’s about to ask that very same question when a woman’s voice sounds out in the hallway

“my boy!”

the boy presses one last, lingering kiss to felix’s lips, whispering “gotta go,” before slipping in between his fingers and out into the hallway

“your mother wishes to speak to you,” comes the same voice

felix waits a couple moments before exiting as well, and the boy is gone but the woman who was calling him is still standing there

“who is he?” felix asks, and he flushes when the woman, who is most likely a nurse based on her clothing, raises an eyebrow at him, realizing how flustered he must look

it’s almost like he just made out with someone in a closet

“jisung,” the nurse says after a second of judgemental silence, and felix’s heart soars. jisung. jisung, jisung, jisung. now he has a name to accompany the beautiful face, the breathless presence, the burning feeling in his heart. “son of capulet.”

and then there’s ice.

jisung. son of capulet.

god, that’s just felix’s luck, isn’t it? falling in love with the son of his father’s sworn enemy, the one person felix should never want

(it’s a bit too late to not want him; felix is already in too deep. he’s always put his heart before his head.)

jisung, he thinks again, the name already stuck in his head

he’s starting back towards the ballroom, still in a daze, when all of a sudden chan and seungmin are on either side of him

“you ready to go, ‘lix?” chan asks

“yeah, now that the night’s at its best, it’s the best time to leave” seungmin chimes

felix doesn’t want to leave, but he has to face the facts: he probably won’t find jisung again, and he probably shouldn’t find jisung again. so he nods, and the three of them try to find their way out of the castle

they find an exit and walk out into a courtyard, and felix looks up to see the moon

he just thinks of jisung

I know our families are enemies, but can’t we make an exception for love? I want to spend the rest of my life with him; i can’t imagine loving anyone else

sad boi hours

he just wants to see jisung one more time, and even though he shouldn’t be walking around the capulet estate, especially alone, he tells chan and seungmin that he left something in the ballroom and tells them to go on ahead

and then he goes through the garden, trying his best to guess where jisung’s room might be

he thinks of jisung; where is he now? is he thinking of felix?

to answer his first question, jisung is currently standing back in the hallway.

to answer his second question, yes, jisung is thinking about felix. well, he’s thinking about the handsome (like, ridiculously handsome; illegal handsome) boy who turned his world upside down with a kiss. he doesn’t know felix’s name

after his mother was done talking to him, he rushed back to the hallway, praying that the boy hadn’t left

which he had :((((

now jisung is just talking to his nurse

jisung: “do you know who that was?”

his nurse, knowing full well who jisung is talking about: “who are you talking about?”

jisung: “the boy, the brown-haired one in the black clothes with the gold trimming. the one who wouldn’t dance”

his nurse: “idk bro”

jisung: “can u find out ,,,, b le ase ,,,,,,,,,, it’s important ,,,,”

jisung, internally: ‘he better not be married he better not be married he better not be married’

his nurse: “his name is felix!! son of montague”

jisung: “D:”

son of montague

of all the people in the world, jisung had 2 go and fall in love with !!

the Odd Ass City !!

well ,,, ,, at least he’s not married

jisung goes right to his room after hearing that

felix ,,,,,,,, jisung wants to see him again, even though he shouldn’t

jisung gets into his pjs and washes his face before flopping onto his bed, sinking into his comforter and letting out a full-body sigh

he can’t stop thinking about felix, his mind still reeling from their kiss, his entire body still warm from the places felix touched

but you can’t have him

he remembers the way felix looked when jisung first saw him: holding a glass of champagne, standing off to the side of the ballroom

(he remembers nearly tripping down the stairs, losing all sense of being when he saw felix smile)

but you will never have him

he remembers the way felix took his hand; the way his voice sounded; the way his eyes shone in the moonlight when he was holding jisung, when he was kissing jisung, when—

stop, stop, stop, you can’t be together

jisung whines into his blankets before rolling out of bed and landing with a thump on the floor

he gets a blanket from the foot of his bed and wraps it around his shoulders, shuffling out to his balcony with a pout on his face

“why does he have to be felix?” jisung asks the moon. the moon doesn’t answer.

“why does his name even matter? capulet, montague. who cares, anyway? a rose by any other name would smell as sweet. i hate that we are apart because of something as simple as a name, i hate that we can’t see past this feud.

“why does any of it matter? i love him. shouldn’t that be enough?”

“it is enough!” calls a voice, and jisung snaps his head up

was that the moon?

“my love,” comes the voice again, and oh, it’s not coming from the sky. jisung looks around, following the voice, and he peers over the balcony edge to see a boy

the boy who’s been running through jisung’s thoughts endlessly

“your love is enough for me. i’ll throw out my name if it means you will be free to love me as i love you”

jisung’s heart warms

he’s not giving up on me, either

jisung, touched but also very worried: “wyd here boy u could DIE the guards r gonna kill u”

felix, a passionate dumbass: “my love for you will shield me from all harm! let them come with swords and spears. they cannot touch me. i’d risk it all for u”

“if you are true with your intentions, then prove it,” jisung says, because he has to be sure. “if you are true with your love, then marry me. if you are true with your love, i’ll follow you anywhere, i’ll lay my heart at your feet. and if not …” he takes a breath, steeling himself. “and if you are not true with your love, then i beg you to leave me be. spare me the heartbreak.”

“i have never been more true, my love,” felix says, sincerity dripping from his tone, desperate for jisung to hear it, to believe him, to know that felix has never wanted anything more than to love him

“jisung!” jisung’s nurse calls from inside, making him jump

“i’m called inside now, but i will return to you. is there somewhere i can find you?”

“i’ll send word by nine tomorrow morning, of when and where we are to be married.”

“jisung!!” jisung’s nurse calls, louder, more insistent

“i await your message, and wish you a safe return home.”

“a thousand times good night, then. until tomorrow, my love.”

felix waits until jisung is back inside his room before turning and leaving through the dark garden

‘to be peace, or sleep,’ he thinks wistfully, ‘and to accompany you to bed. a dream for the future, i suppose.’ he turns, allowing himself one last look at the drawn curtains of jisung’s window before heading on his way

the next day

felix wakes up with the sunrise, and makes his way downtown, walking fast, 2 speak to his buddy friar laurence

friar laurence, who listened to felix’s whining about jaemin not two days ago: “u sure u wanna marry this guy? it sounds like you really like him, but u also seem kinda ,,,,,,,, fickle”

felix, who doesn’t know what friar laurence is talking about bc he literally doesn’t even remember jaemin: “huh? no dude i loVE HIM !!!! i promise it’s for real !!!!! i wanna marry him ;-;-;-;-;”

friar laurence doesn’t believe him at first, but felix seems very sincere, and what damage could this do, anyway? and who knows—this could be the thing that finally ends the montague-capulet feud. nothing like young love to solve all ur problems!!!!! so he agrees to marry them, and felix literally Lights Up

what a sweetie :((((

felix sends a message to jisung immediately

he’s !!!!!!!!!! So Excited

:D :D :D :D

he gets to marry the love of his life, the most beautiful boy in the world, with a smile like the sun and eyes like the moon

a win for the gays

when jisung gets the letter with a ring enclosed in the envelope with it, he tells his nurse after making her promise she won’t tell; she helps him get ready

they plan a way to let jisung and felix spend the night together after their marriage; jisung’s nurse gets a ladder for felix to climb up onto the balcony when it’s dark to avoid the guards and thus avoid getting killed, which would be unfortunate

jisung is :D rly excited

he wants more than anything to be felix’s, and for felix to be his

his nurse finishes fixing his lipstick, and ruffles his hair. “you look beautiful, sung. that boy is lucky to have you”

jisung smiles. “if anything, we’re lucky to have each other”

being in love is something like a dream must be, but there’s no dream in the world that could be better than this

when jisung gets to friar laurence’s small, secluded garden, his heart can’t stop fluttering

felix is there already, and there’s an unmistakable, unfiltered expression of affection settled across his beautiful face as he looks at jisung

jisung feels :,,) so treasured

as he always should !!!!!!!

the ceremony is barely that; it’s short, and it’s nothing extravagant: just the three of them, but felix could never wish for more as he takes jisung’s hands and says “i do,” and jisung could never hope for more as he meets felix’s eyes, warm and safe, and says “i do”

felix’s hands are steady as he slips the simple silver ring onto jisung’s fourth finger, and jisung kisses felix’s knuckles as he reciprocates the action

friar laurence leaves them alone in the garden, and felix’s arms wind themselves around jisung’s waist like they’re meant to be there, and jisung smiles like he’s meant to take the place of the sun, and felix is so in love with him

they’re dancing, and there’s no music so they make their own, jisung humming some tune that felix might recognize if he focused on it

(he won’t, though—he can’t focus on anything but jisung right now)

jisung reaches forward and brushes felix’s hair back, and it’s like he’s physically unable to stop smiling

he steps forward and buries his face in the side of felix’s neck, still beaming like the whipped fool he is

he only smiles harder when felix’s hands come up, small but so, so gentle, one cradling jisung’s head and the other rubbing soothing circles into jisung’s side

they both want the moment to last forever, but as the church bells ring in the distance to signal noon it has to come to an end

it takes every single ounce of jisung’s willpower to pull away from the warmth of felix’s arms, especially when felix turns his head to press a small kiss to jisung’s temple

“hey,” felix whispers, like he knows exactly how jisung feels. (he does, because he’s feeling the exact same way.) “i’ll see you tonight, okay?”

jisung nods, but he’s :( still :(( pouting :(((

felix makes to leave, and jisung pulls him in for one last kiss. “return to me.”

felix smiles in the way that makes jisung want to never let him go. “always, my love.”

and then he’s gone, with jisung staring after him for one, two, three seconds before going back in to thank friar laurence, then heading back home

and now

:-)

remember when changbin said felix would pay? well ,,,,,,

felix is basically skipping down the street

he just got married, he’s gonna see his husband tonight, he met up with seungmin and chan just 2 hang out and laugh ,,, he’s having a grand time!!!!

lol

fate said  p e r i s h

well it was more like changbin said perish but u get the idea

“FELIX!” comes an Angery shout, and felix, seungmin, and chan all turn around in surprise

there he is: changbin, felix’s new cousin-in-law! but he’s not looking like he’s about to throw felix a welcome-to-the-family party :/

chan steps in front of felix as if it’s by instinct, and seungmin’s hand darts to the handle of his sword in its sheath, cautious

“so you really thought you could come to the house of capulet, huh? really thought that would go unnoticed?” changbin spits. “don’t you know your dirty shoes aren’t welcome to walk on capulet floors? lord capulet might think you’re some sort of respectable do-gooder, but we both know that’s not true.”

felix is Panicking™

“changbin, i don’t want to fight you,” felix says evenly. “i’m sorry for offending you, but i really had no ill intentions. please, let’s just sort this out, civilly.”

chan and seungmin: ?????????????

did felix drink Soft Juice overnight ? or Idiot Juice ?? Scared Juice ??? what did he drink ????

“there was nothing civil about your intrusion of the capulet manor last night.” changbin’s drawing his sword now. “going for double standards? how typical of a montague.”

chan and seungmin are Confusion

felix isn’t even tense, it looks like he’s actually not planning to fight at all—won’t he defend his house? his family? himself?

chan: fck it ,,, i’ll do it myself

so when changbin strikes first, chan’s there to deflect it

felix is trying to protect chan and stop the fight and not die all at once, and it’s not working out so well for him

in all the confusion, somehow changbin gets his sword in the gap underneath felix’s arm, and then chan falls to the ground

felix’s heart stops

no, not chan, anyone but chan, no, no no nonono

felix can’t even breathe in his panic, rushing over and falling to the ground beside him

chan: “honestly fck both of u”

then his eyes fall closed, and his chest stills

chan? chan? o my fckin god he fckin dead

IM SORRY I HAD TO

felix loses it; that was his best friend, that was chan who’s always there to smile and joke and hug felix if he needs a hug, and now he’s gone, and felix pulls out his sword and then it’s all over

he doesn’t even realize what he’s done until seungmin taps him on the shoulder

“dude, you need to get out of here, right now”

felix’s eyes clear, and he sees changbin’s body on the ground, sees blood on his own sword

his stomach turns, and seungmin gestures him away “go!”

and so felix goes

he waits, tense and desperate for news

he knows prince jinyoung will not be lenient; he promised death for any citizen who disturbed the streets again

at least he didn’t start the fight!

but he did finish it

(felix knows the living are judged more harshly than the dead)

felix just hopes the scales can even out in his favor, just enough for him to stay with jisung

inexplicably, the thought of jisung calms him down a bit. he traces the lines of his own palm, ghosting the paths jisung drew earlier. he twists his ring around his finger. he breathes in, breathes out

when friar laurence tells him the verdict, he tries stay calm, but

“banishm e n t ? ? ? ?”

friar laurence sighs “it’s better than death”

“hardly! what good is life if i cannot hold the one i love, nor ever return to him?”

“you still have the one night. perhaps it was not meant to be”

felix feels his chest constricting. “not meant to be? you wed us, just this morning. how am i meant to go on from here? there is nothing to living without jisung.”

“live tonight, then, and survive the rest.”

we had it, felix thinks, we had forever laying in front of us, ours for the taking. oh cruel fate! a lover’s desperation merely spurs you further, i see.

it’s nearly ironic, how the ladder up to jisung’s room is so steady. everything going according to plan, everything turning out exactly as it should

except—

“is it true?” comes jisung’s voice, breathless as felix climbs onto the balcony. he looks like he’s been waiting out here a while, his cheeks and nose tinged pink from the wind.

felix takes a deep breath. “yes. when the daylight comes, i have to go.” 

“and changbin? chan? my nurse told me they are slain.”

felix nods, and he can’t bear to raise his head and see jisung. “i’m sorry.”

jisung’s hand raises felix’s chin so their eyes meet. felix sees nothing but kindness in jisung’s eyes, and that might be what hurts most. “it’s okay. you returned to me. and we have tonight.”

jisung takes felix’s hand and leads him inside, and felix’s mind is clear now. the past is over, their future is inevitable. but he has right now. 

he has jisung, and he has the way the yellow light flickers in jisung’s room, and he has the steady beating of jisung’s heart, tangible even through the silk of his shirt

jisung’s nightclothes are, perhaps, even more beautiful than his formal ones, if only for the way they hang loosely around his shoulders, revealing golden skin and magnetic collarbones

felix kisses jisung, he kisses him until both of them are dizzy, until jisung’s melted into something like water in felix’s hands and all felix can do is hold him close

jisung is breathtaking like this, in his entirety, with messy hair and flushed cheeks and cherry-red lips, and when he falls backwards onto the bed he brings felix with him

he’s radiating light from underneath felix, and he giggles, bright and soft, when felix presses fluttering kisses to the smooth skin of his neck

“my love,” felix murmurs into his shoulder.

“that tickles,” jisung whispers, and felix can’t see his face but he knows there’s a smile there, so he does it again.

“my love, my love, my love.” he kisses jisung one, two, three times

jisung tugs on felix’s shirt, guiding him back up to his mouth, and felix follows without hesitation

jisung is so warm. he’s so warm, and he’s so pretty, and felix is so in love with him

the feeling fills him up and he breaks away from jisung for a moment, just to watch jisung’s chest rise and his eyes blink open. just to watch his lips curl up into a smile that makes everything okay.

felix leans forward to press a kiss to his forehead, running a hand through his hair, messing with it until jisung laughs again

(that laugh, too. everything about jisung makes the world seem a little less cruel.)

felix kisses his forehead again, because he can now and he won’t be able to tomorrow. “my sun and moon,” he says quietly, and he watches an endearing blush crawl across jisung’s cheeks and ears

“lix,” he whines, bringing his hands up to cover his face

felix smiles, blushing a bit himself at the nickname, before slipping his hands around jisung’s wrists and moving them away from jisung’s face and above his head, keeping them secure there

he kisses jisung, again and again and again, because he can’t wait for tomorrow, and he hopes jisung can feel all the love felix holds in his heart for him

(just in case he can’t, though, felix tells him about it. jisung deserves to know how cherished he is.)

jisung wiggles his hands out of felix’s grasp to curl into the hair at the nape of felix’s neck, and felix feels safe, feels the love emanating from jisung’s very being, wrapping around the two of them and protecting them from the rest of the world. just for tonight, but that’s all they need right now.

jisung’s skin is warm to the touch, and barely-audible whimpers escape his mouth as felix’s fingers dance, feather-light, down his collarbones, across his shoulder blades, everywhere

his touch burns but it heals, going back in time and healing any scar, any scratch, visible or not, that jisung’s ever had until he feels complete

jisung looks into felix’s eyes, dark and timeless and reflecting every bit of fondness, every bit of love that jisung himself feels brimming underneath his skin

now that they’re this close, and the light is spilling over felix’s face, jisung can see the freckles that dot felix’s cheeks. felix’s breath hitches as jisung runs the pad of his thumb along his cheek, connecting the dots

jisung falls all over again

(how could he not?)

they are the same in that moment: young, and scared, but so, so in love. if there’s one thing jisung’s certain about, it’s that no one could ever compare to the boy above him

when the night finally slows down, time finds felix laying with his head resting on jisung’s chest, with jisung’s hands tracing patterns on the skin of felix’s back

“i don’t want to go,” felix says, hushed. jisung’s arms come to hold him more tightly.

“i don’t want you to go,” he whispers back into felix’s hair before pressing a kiss there.

felix wishes he could promise to stay

but he can’t; all he can do is lay a hand where jisung’s heart is beating, slow and steady, and breathe

jisung’s not sure if he actually ends up falling asleep or not; he remembers the gray light of the night shining through his open curtains and he remembers just looking at felix, looking at the boy in his arms, committing everything to memory because in a few hours he’ll be gone

felix’s lips are pouty as he sleeps, and his cheeks round out, and his eyelashes are dark against his skin

there’s an eyelash on felix’s cheek. jisung gently sweeps his thumb across to get it. he blows it off his thumb. i wish for you to return to me.

even asleep, felix is burning bright, and jisung feels that sense of longing again, the same sense he got when he first saw felix at the ball

god, that feels like a million years ago

jisung closes his eyes

if only they had a million years more

he sighs into the cold of the night. it’s not nearly loud enough, but he tucks felix closer and lays his head down

when the morning comes

jisung hears the birds chirping outside, cheerful and carefree, and he wants more than anything to join them

the sun hasn’t yet risen, but felix needs to leave

(as much as jisung doesn’t want him to, the alternative is worse)

he nudges felix a couple times to get him to wake up, and felix groans, muffled in jisung’s neck, before rolling over

jisung has to grab him so he doesn’t roll right off the side of the bed, and when felix’s eyes flutter open and see jisung’s blinding grin holding back a laugh, he can’t help but smile back

jisung revels in that moment, that brief suspension in time where nothing exists except felix’s bright laugh, falling so easily from his mouth as his shoulders shake

felix’s hair is so messy from sleep that jisung really can’t stop himself from reaching forward and combing through it

“so messy,” he scolds jokingly, laying it flat

“thank you, my love,” felix replies, the second part quieter, like it got caught in his throat

their eyes meet, and suddenly it’s hard to breathe, and it’s even harder to believe that this is it

god, this is it

felix sees jisung’s face fall, and he hates that he can’t do anything about it

“i’ll always be with you, yeah?” felix says, quiet. he cups jisung’s face with both his hands. “you’ll always have me. i’ll return to you, in memories and in dreams.” he takes jisung’s hand, the one with his wedding ring. “i made you a promise of forever with this, and i intend to keep it. i’ll love you forever, jisung. even if i can’t hold you.”

felix wipes away the tear that slides down jisung’s cheek, then kisses it for good measure. jisung sniffles.

“stay safe out there. i heard about a plague, and if you die from it, i’ll kill you. and,” he hesitates for a second, looking up at felix. felix can see the morning sun rising in his eyes. “just …” he trails off, leaning forward to kiss felix, only for a second. “just don’t forget me, okay?”

felix laughs, light and soft despite the heaviness in his chest. “my love. how could i forget you? i’d sooner forget my heart.”

and then jisung nods, and felix stands up from the bed, handing out a hand to pull jisung up with him

“you have everything you need? food for the trip, enough money, extra jacket?” jisung is smoothing out nonexistent wrinkles in felix’s shirt. “it gets cold out there, you know, you won’t be warm enough in what you’re wearing.” jisung turns to his closet and felix doesn’t argue when he comes back with a coat. he knows it’s the small things like this that’ll make jisung feel better, so he accepts it gratefully.

but when there’s nothing left for jisung to straighten, to fiddle with, to fix, he stands there in front of felix and has to face goodbye

he can’t stall anymore

that doesn’t mean he doesn’t try—he opens his mouth and scans felix for something to help, but when he meets felix’s eyes he just closes his mouth. there’s nothing left.

felix shakes his head, a heart-wrenchingly fond look in his eye as he steps forward and tilts his head down to kiss jisung, one last time

jisung puts his arms around felix’s neck, and felix holds jisung’s waist, and this is just like the first time they kissed but it could not be more different

jisung holds felix’s face as they part, and it’s so hard to not fall back in again. but jisung just swipes his hand across felix’s cheek, smearing the tears that started to stream down

he does it messily, not quite able to see through his suddenly-blurry vision, and he bites his lip, trying his best not to break down

“i love you,” he says, and it comes out like the cry he wanted so badly to contain. “i love you, i love you.” he’s never meant something more

why does any of it matter? i love him. shouldn’t that be enough?

“i love you,” felix repeats, as his voice breaks and his face crumples. his shoulders slump as he turns away

jisung wants so badly to ask him to return, wants felix to promise to return

but he can’t, because felix will promise the impossible, and jisung doesn’t want him to hurt

“remember me, my love,” felix says, and then he opens the balcony door and climbs down the ladder

and then he’s gone

i love him, but it’s not enough

jisung makes to turn back to his bed, but he can’t stand it. that was supposed to be their bed.

he stumbles over to the couch where his nurse does his makeup and cries, giving up on keeping quiet. he doesn’t care. let them hear his broken heart.

he’s so tired. he’s exhausted, and everything aches, and every time he tries to close his weary eyes he sees felix’s bright smile and every time he shifts he feels the cold air on his skin, feels the absence of felix’s arms, his presence

the capulet family is rich enough to buy jisung anything he wants but he can never have what he needs, never again

jisung doesn’t sleep that night

he wraps his arms around himself, as if that’ll hold him together, and watches the designs on the ceiling swirl and turn

(or maybe that’s just his eyes. he’s so tired.)

it takes a couple days for jisung to leave his room. his nurse has been bringing him food and coaxing him into new clothes, but she finally gets him to take a shower, and open the windows, and walk downstairs to join his parents for breakfast

he drinks orange juice and keeps his eyes on his fingers, tapping on the wood of the table

“jisung.” jisung doesn’t look up. he hears a sigh from his father. “i know you’ve been feeling down these past couple days, but i have some good news for you.

“lucas has agreed to marry you.”

now jisung looks up. “what?” his voice is hoarse from its only use being crying for so long. “i didn’t say i wanted to marry him.”

“yes, we know,” his mother says, tone placating and gentle, like jisung is fragile. (jisung doesn’t really mind. he feels fragile.) “but he really is a nice boy, and he will treat you well. the marriage will do both of our families well. he said he is willing to wait until you are ready, but your father and i took the liberty of setting up the date. we were planning to wait, but we decided you needed something to cheer you up.”

nothing cheers u up like marriage to someone u dont love

“without asking me? i don’t love him! i can’t marry him.” if jisung wasn’t so tired, he would be yelling.

“you can learn,” his father says, and his tone is clear. he’s starting to get annoyed.

“when is the wedding?”

“in three days’ time.”

“what? three days? i won’t.” jisung leans back and crosses his arms. “i won’t marry him. you can’t force this on me; you said i had a choice.”

“things have changed since then, jisung.” his father’s voice is cold.

“then they can change again! i won’t do it.”

“why are you being so unreasonable? so selfish? this is what is best for us all. we did this for you.”

“you didn’t! you did it for yourselves. i won’t marry lucas, especially not in three days.”

“then you’ll marry him in one day,” lord capulet snaps. jisung’s jaw goes slack.

“what?”

“you heard me. i’ll move your wedding to tomorrow. i obviously can’t trust you alone.”

i can’t, jisung wants to scream. i can’t marry him, i don’t love him, i never will, my heart belongs to someone else, my heart belongs to felix, i love felix, i miss felix, i need felix

if jisung had any tears left to cry, they would surely be falling steadfast. but he doesn’t, so they’re not, and he stands up, pushing his chair out.

he walks out without another word

his nurse comes to find him later on, and he’s curled up on his couch again, playing with his ring

“jisung, i know you’re hurting, but don’t you think it’s time to reconsider? you could have a comfortable life with lucas. felix is a nice boy, but i don’t think it’s wise to hold onto him for too long.”

don’t they understand that this isn’t the type of thing you can just move on from? jisung really thought his nurse would understand—she’s the only person besides friar laurence who knows about his marriage to felix

:o

friar laurence !

jisung can ask him for guidance !!

he’ll know what to do !!!

so he nods along and agrees with his nurse’s spiel so it will end as quickly as possible, and when she’s done he thanks her for setting him straight and letting him see reason

she pats him on the shoulder before leaving. “i hope you feel better soon.”

then he goes right to friar laurence

“i knew i’d be seeing you sometime soon, jisung” he says, sighing. “how are you holding up?”

“i’m not.”

and jisung spills everything about his parents and lucas. and felix. (he talks so much about felix. he just can’t stop himself from feeling, it seems)

the friar takes one look into jisung’s eyes and knows that he won’t take no for an answer, so he walks over to his cupboard and hands jisung a tiny vial

“drink this in the morning. to outside eyes, you will be dead. it’ll last long enough for you to be buried. felix will hear of your death, but i’ll write him the truth. he can meet you when you’ve woken up, and you can escape together.”

jisung thanks him profusely and tucks the vial away safely

he finally manages to sleep that night, tangled in the blankets and comforted by the thought of seeing felix again

in the morning, though, he hesitates

it could be poision, or it could do nothing, or it could do a thousand things other than make jisung appear dead. jisung doesn’t know what the friar’s intentions are, and for all he knows, this potion could make him actually dead.

but is it worth it? is it worth the risk of dying, to see felix again?

jisung knows his answer. the potion tastes awful going down, but he drinks it all. he hides the empty bottle in his medicine cabinet.

for the first couple minutes, nothing happens, and jisung swallows down disappointment. but before the hope fades out and resignation takes its place, he starts to feel tired. his head feels heavy, and his eyelids take a lot more effort to open than he remembers

i’ll see you soon, felix, he thinks, before it all goes dark

.

felix stares at the messenger in front of him. she’s the last messenger allowed in or out of the city—it’s quarantined now, the plague that jisung warned him about spreading at an alarming rate

“are you sure?” he asks, trying to still his trembling hands

the messenger nods, her eyes apologetic. “yes, sir. according to lady capulet, jisung was found dead in his bedroom this morning.”

“and his funeral?” felix presses on, despite the pain. he has to know.

“scheduled for this afternoon, when the wedding was to take place.”

this afternoon; that’s all felix needs to hear

he must look insane to the apothecary, begging for his fastest-acting poison, no matter the cost, but it doesn’t matter; nothing matters now except for jisung

he jumps onto his horse with the poison and an unlit lantern held tight in hand, ignoring the borders set by the quarantine, and races back home.

back to jisung.

sad ending / happy ending

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40, 47, 59, 62, 76

lmao hell yeah thanks for All this support i love it!! quastions

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

really idk i feel like even our schools’s Antics were pretty par for the course and i was just sitting in the corner reading the whole time basically......trying to think if anything wild happened in college but even then it was p similar. well you know what, whatever donors covered the majority of the cost of the school’s black box theater being renovated apparently Stipulated that every other year a rodgers and hammerstein production be put on. absolute freaks. my roommate/friend and their then-boyfriend, the one mormon i have Knowingly Known in my life, were in pirates of penzance (sic?) together. hilarious

47. favorite type of cheese?

i like cheddar and like, parmesan, smoked gouda.....let’s get that shit Sharp!!! and hard lmao

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

idk i’d be like an npc just doing their weird thing on their own. i’ve never played pokemons unless you count pokemons Go but i think about the famed “i like shorts they’re comfy and easy to wear” npc kid. like, yeah. i feel the same. and would say similar bullshit nobody asked about

62. seven characters you relate to?

oh god.........recognizing the self through the relatable characters :|

well let’s just talk about the wrol roles right off b/c the characters that Most occupy my gay thoughts (which is to say: my general thoughts) will inevitably get priority when it comes to Remembering things

1) whom among us doesn’t relate to jared kleinman........will roland emerging from relative obscurity and coming for our entire fucking lives like the goddamn legend he is. it’s tough b/c it’s like, oh well alana is relatable too, so is evan unfortunately sorry evan, and in ways i might ~usually act~ like one of those two more than jared but. no. it is Jared who wins the relatability contest, and we all get to be beautifully haunted by it forever

2) leaning hard into winston even with the few glimpses of him b/c somehow will Cannot play an allistic cishet. and this is even More of a case where maybe i don’t much have winston’s demeanor.......even without winston being a beacon of confidence, he has more confidence lmao. and he has that ability to just Be Himself in a situation which, i wish i had that moxie lmao. i am a lot more [usually trying to be accommodating wayyyy harder than i should], booo......even though he’s clearly not great at conflict considering how it doesn’t take Too much to put him out, it’d be pretty impossible for me to be all “called them hacks and lame” or carry out a very irritated monologue in front of four people in the first place lmao. but who knows. and it’s more in the details of like, oh no winston’s the odd one out even though he hasn’t really Done Anything, but we all ~understand~ why he Deserves it.........his expectation / treating it basically as Fact that he will disappoint people.......the [weird] [offputting] behaviors and his way of speaking in What he Says and How He Says It seeming wrong to people.......like it’s only 15-ish min of content that we have here and we don’t have the least info about will’s own thoughts on the character but it’s like. how is this such an iconic Gay Autistic Quant b/c these vibes are so rare. and i appreciate that he can be ~difficult~ lmao. same with jared though i didn’t mention it. i can be difficult!! love it for us...

3) briony atkins from murder of bindy mackenzie as a character who Does act more like how i Usually Act Like lmao.....god we’re only on three i forgot there was seven of these. and yet i know there’s probably at least 2 dozen characters who could make this list and i just won’t think of most of them unless directly reminded......but anyways yeah i mean in person i mostly do Not want attention unless i feel comfortable enough / in my element or whatever. especially if it’d be some situation like “sitting in a group of randos” lol. i mean it depends b/c i also can sometimes be ~on~ in terms of Masking and trying to be like Haha I’m Social I’m Regular and i def engage in Nervous Chatter sometimes, but like, very often it’s like god don’t talk to me and i don’t want to talk either.....and then yeah people Will be surprised that like, idk, i’m opinionated as shit and idk that i Enjoy Things / Have Thoughts And Feelings coz the assumption i guess is that you must simply have nothing to say. so the dismissal of this person who seemingly has nothing to contribute and must be Boring rings true lmfao.....but then of course it’s also important that her personality Under that is the one getting mistaken for emily’s lol cuz yeah At Heart i am sure of that dramatic / intense / excitable type Sometimes. but it takes some excavation before i am like “oh i can engage in my actual self” and like weeks and months to get comfortable w/ people and i’m always suspicious that anyone actually would enjoy it and i’m not too much......i am a motormouth actually and have something to say about any and everything and like to Have Fun Here but like. idk i come off as boring and can be Notably Quiet lmao

4) oscar martinez from the office is weirdly [Haha Same] sometimes lmfao. sort of keeps to himself but also has to pipe up with Opinions and Pedantry and the kind of Drama of a restrained theatre gay. some deleted scene from an episode where during an interview clip of Jimothy in a theater lobby and you have oscar call from across the group in that [wearied Ugh God] way of ‘jim, they’re remaking ___’ while jim just kind of gives a cursory “wow gosh” or whatever and like, i sure don’t have lots of Theatre Opinions but that “oh jeez i have a Take on this and have to share it with someone” vibe is like hahaha yeah.....it’s funny in the “the gang goes to the ice rink for a third of the ep” bit where you just catch oscar doing [ice skating turn] with some solemn intensity.......the “here’s a question nobody’s asking: is this worth it” quote.........way at the end where there’s a whole deal with one of the indoor plants and he’s like “why is it a He” @ the collective gendering of the houseplant lmfao.......i love the one thing where he and pam and uhh toby right? have the Finer Things book club or whatever and jim wants to join just like ~ironically~ and pam has to tell him that oscar doesn’t want him to join b/c he’s not going to take it seriously and use it as a Jokes Vehicle. and then you get the scene at the end where jim Is basically doing that and they’re just like taking it out of him and oscar’s all very seriously like “did you get it all out of your system” lmfao like yeah, earnest members only lmao.....the thing where he gets mad at angela’s like Jazz Musician Posed Babies posters all “it’s kitsch it Destroys art” lmaoooo and in a totally different season all “this is the problem with debate” over the completely inconsequential “is [whichever actress, i forget] Hot” “”””debate””””.......the whole tendency to get involved and always have a take to get across.....opinionated-sometimes-to-the-point-of-petty central. also that he’s the canon gay, are there even any others? anyways and as the us office’s spiritual successor i’ll add on to this by uh what’s the name of billy eichner’s character on parks and rec? it’s craig right. that Self-Powered Intensity is very #me as well.

5) augh god........im like lmfao shit who represents my Hater Club side. hmmm. oh no wait you know what. totally different but i love Prof Beatrice Hotchkiss in the trt nancy drew pc game. she’s holed up in her room writing all the time and just is weird when you try to talk to her all like no i won’t open the door, bring me food, do this Research, bring me my Ski Boots i guess......and then when you do meet her it’s all at like post-midnight in the lounge and she’s all like, encouraging you as a Night Owl and your investigative curiosity and all and i’m like oh word yeah being up in the dead of night is the shit. she’s just weird and passionate and this is another character i might not Act hardly at all like but who i vibe with lmfao. hotchkiss was the supportive adult in my life

6) remembering how hotchkiss is a historian made me think of academia which made me think of like, once again with “these vibes are So So Rare” i really ought to put the wrol role of Nato on the list cuz like. that essential representation of “gets gr8 grades but isn’t really ~academic~ / doesn’t care about that and really just cares about Hanging W Friends and [real specific interests]” is like wow damn that’s the Mood. coz like to an extent i can always Relate to the ~overachiever~ types a la the [nerd character gets all-A’s and other nerd shit] deal, but there’s eventually the issue of like.....those characters like bindy mackenzies and alana becks Care about their achievements (not exclusively as some ppl would have it 9_9) and are Studious whereas i always hated school and was a godawful student in terms of Habits and always got good grades b/c the devil was with me or something and like people will think i must have tried real hard and dedicated myself to Academics and stuff and it’s like.........no................not at all hardly, sure i did my hw every night but at like 11:29 pm or studied for a midterm at lunch right before the class lol or flipped through a lil bit of the sat study guide the night prior.........the “low-effort dumbass who Academically Excels Anyhow” representation is so crucial like!! i run into a wall when it’s the Good Grades nerd character who is real studious and focused and stuff like. couldn’t be me. meanwhile the “naturally weird + probably some ‘deliberate’ weirdness” and “likes animals” and “most likely to just wanna Roll With It” and “shitty focus lol” and “non sequiturs” and “without [activity] i do nothing” is all like....ahahahohoho..........nato rly got to make this list. and honorable mention for Wrol Jeremy. again: whom doesn’t relate!!!!!!!!

7) damnit i know there’s So many answers to [characters i relate to] and whom cover like, more particular Facets here but i’m struggling lmao. Uh. like i’m like, who’s the Hot Mess / continually evolving disaster characters i vibe with......who’s the peak despresso detached Haters rep......who embodies the solo production lifestyle........dammit you know what lol i tend to Feel for like, the background ~nobodies~ who might just get like totally destroyed in some movie with life or death stakes just to like, show how much danger our heroes / Important Complex Protags are. same w/ jeremy not feeling like the Hero / the one who the story’s about / the cool guy / player 1 / etc etc etc i’m like oo i’d be the npc who doesn’t really do anything, i’d be the rando getting blown away in the background of someone else’s story. on a totally different note another shoutout / honorable mention to wybie from the coraline lmfao one of the best characters invented from thin air for an adaptation......tangentially relevant b/c he’s entirely here to support the protag / not his story at all, just here to help and prompt interactions / exposition really.......but love that [weird loner kid who’s best friend is a cat and annoys the other kid and doesn’t Get it and has specific interests and entertains himself and just is doing weird shit around here tf dude lmao killing it] like, #mood. #lifestyle. less dismal to relate to than the bg person who dies......his counterpart who totally dies is somewhat fleshed out / given Investment so it doesnt Really count as [background Nobody who’s really just fodder for “defining the stakes / threat level”] Character Concept

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

latkes maybe......Yummy

#i expect to now just think of like ten dozen Other Characters who would've been great to mention #c'est la vie!!! c'est comme ca!!!! speaking of. thinking of the hc that winston jsut. drops french phrases into his speech sometimes #building on the moi....tbt ur benston fic w quelle horreur..... #nothingunrealistic1

[ingenves]

     ok its ya girl back at it, same deal ! if u wanna plot just HMU or LIKE THIS and i’ll come to you ! wes is my father & u can peep his pinterest board HERE !

     ⌈ chris pine, cismale, he/him ⌋ hey, is it WESLEY BIGELOW that you’re looking for? you know, the THIRTY-SIX year old CARPENTER. typically i see them hanging around GRISTOL DOCKS so you could try there! i hear they’ve been in living in PRINCETOWN for THIRTY-SIX YEARS. gristol wouldn’t be the same without them, right? anyway, whenever i see them they make me think of waking up before dawn, an old rowboat sitting in still water & a kitchen full of fresh produce.

tw: car accident & illness 

this mans has lived in town his entire life!!! his parents, william and rose bigelow owned a historic farm . willy & rose were high school sweethearts, a shotgun wedding joining them together after rose ended up pregnant with their first child at the age of 19. while rose’s parents were furious with their daughter for being so reckless, william’s father was more than happy to offer them a place to stay and lend a hand taking care of the baby that would soon be on the way.

despite the circumstances, wes was never treated as an accident or a mistake. he grew up in his grandpa’s farmhouse with a loving family. the bigelow family followed some pretty traditional gender roles. wes’ dad and his grandpa would wake at the crack of dawn and work out in the field until sunset while his mother hung around the house to take care of him, doing laundry, making dinner, taking him to the park, everything.

from a young age he was encouraged to help out on the farm but being the mama’s boy he was, he was far more eager to help his mom out with the cooking and the laundry. he was close with his grandfather as well, the two always working on little projects together like building a tree house, birdhouses, his own bee house………………….a lot of houses

but wes was never rly close with his father. william wasn’t much of an emotional or talkative guy, usually just sitting there in stern silence and working the day away. a bit of a scary guy despite not ever doing anything scary?? he’s just an ominous guy that doesn’t rly seem impressed by anything so wes never rly knew where he stood u know.

the one time wes ever really felt close to his father was when they would take little weekend fishing trips together, even though they didn’t really speak. just the fact that william took his time to teach wes how to do everything and didn’t get mad or frustrated when he lost a lure or let a fish go by accident was enough to like…..send the message. that was his way of showing his love u know.

the second bigelow child was welcomed when wes was a kid and while at first he was jealous that his new baby sister was getting all the attention, having a baby around the house was kind of fun. she’d make funny faces and funny noises and he grew to love her pretty quickly. he used to always say that his baby sister was the best thing that happened to him. when she got older, he taught her how to make mud pies and how to play pranks on grandpa who was a rly good sport, all things considered.

car accident & death tw !! the winter of ‘94 would prove to be the worst winter of wes’ entire life. on the way back home to pick up a christmas tree from a nearby farm, the family’s old pick up hit a patch of black ice and ended up flipped into a ditch. it was a bad wreck. luckily his grandpa and sister were safe at home during the time of the crash, but wes and his parents weren’t so lucky, his mother being the unluckiest of the bunch. they were stranded in the middle of the road for two hours before anyone showed up for help and by the time they arrived, it was too late for rose, who got the worst of the injuries. doa at the hospital while wes and his dad walked away with mostly minor injuries. that year, there was no christmas tree and no presents. christmas dinner was replaced with takeout and no one said a word.

illness & death tw !! not long after rose passed away, grandpa bigelow got some bad news. lung cancer that no one really saw coming. just a few months after the diagnosis they were having another funeral for another member of the bigelow clan.

it was a tough year, but they got through it. wes did his job to step up and do all the things his dad couldn’t do; all the things his mother taught him. he expected all of it to make his dad more closed off but it had the reverse effect and for the first time in his entire life, wes and his father had heart to heart conversations.

jump forward to high school and things finally felt like they were back to normal. william wasn’t dating yet but he wasn’t being all that anti-social, either.

wes discovered quickly he was the kind of person that other people liked and he was quite popular??? he made good grades, played football, dating the coolest girl in school (in his own opinion ofc), everything kind of fell into place for him in high school

and then after high school he…………didn’t rly know what to do asdj;fdksgfkdlj he never went to college and decided work around town doing odd jobs and saving some money so he could go off and travel and live his life as a young person craving adventure.

he was gone for abt a year or so before coming back home & he’s just been here ever since, doin his thing

started working with a family friend in his shop, doing what he loved and building things n working with his hands u know and hasn’t stopped doing what he loves ever since

he owns his own shop now & builds custom furniture 

the….personality section has Arrived

he’s quite the Charming guy but he talks WAY too much

definitely the kind of guy who will just…..talk about himself non-stop without even realizing it ?? he needs to get his Ego in check even after all these years smh

buT he’s very good at making conversation and is rly a friendly guy!!!! will talk and joke with anyone just because……why not ?? it makes his day when ppl talk to him so he will talk to u even if u dont feel the same way

highkey the kind of person to start up a random conversation w a stranger in the grocery story just because

lowkey uncomfortable with feelings and still isn’t super great at expressing emotions and his thoughts but ya boi is trying his best

but he’s rly good at picking up on signals. he can’t express his own emotions but he’s like….pretty in tune with other ppl

a very platonically affectionate guy. loves hugging his buddies and telling them how much he loves & appreciates them

and now for the lil extra tidbits

he’s got two dogs. a german shepherd named mulder & a pomeranian named scully sfddgfhgfg and he strategically uses his dogs to flirt w ladies when they’re out on a walk LMAO

he’s got a 6 year old daughter named aspen with a woman he is no longer dating ( im prob gna put this as a wc on the main so if u want this....hmu???? ) but they are still v close and spend a lot of time together & he loves aspen more than anything :’)

he’s very much a Dad. dad jokes all the time. endless shitty puns for everyonE

the man loves a turtleneck. he can’t keep his hands off a good ass sweater u know ??

he loves to cook and is v good at it, since he’s been cooking his entire life. he is the self-proclaimed kind of bbq and honestly???? he’s always throwing lil bbq parties & they are a hit :/  u know he be winning contests w his grilling bro

obviously.........a handyman. the house he lives in now, he built himself after tearing down the old on.  he built himself a nice big deck and everything so he can have a nice place to host bbqs and everyone will come compliment him on hard work and enjoy his fantastic recipes

he runs his own business building & selling furniture!!!! need a shelf installed??? give him a call. dog chewed up ur table leg??? give him a call. house burned down???? give him a call he’ll build u a new one.

what’s better than this ??????????? guys bein dudes

he rly likes going to the movies. lowkey loves disney but pretends he only cares bc his daughter likes it but……….u know he knows the words to every song

tragically heterosexual ://///////

he loves strong coffee & he loves beer & occasionally he loves a good book & a nice game of chess

did i mention he is such a dad bc………..he is such a dad

someone hold his rough sandpaper ass hands

#gristolintro #ok i yam off to bed now ashdjf #will b lurking mobile for a bit tho !!

[fuck-customers]

my boss could be an irl mr. krabs

lately getting more and more pissed with my boss and how he’s rly ruining our store 🙃

he’s relatively new (to our particular store and to being a general manager) and our former boss transferred at the end of august this year. and just. man is our current boss a Real Piece Of Work. for starters he’s incredibly stingy and overdramatic about labor and our overtime and how it takes from his bonus check. like just a couple weeks ago i worked night as i usually do but i came in early to cover someone in the morning so i was working a double shift. and my boss was almost immediately complaining about labor to me when he came in and how i should’ve said something about it to him. thing is, we have always just told the opening or closing managers about schedule changes which he. is not. he got so mad at me and said i didn’t need to come in for who i was covering due to labor and shit but like dude why schedule her then lol??? god the fact he was so trying to get rid of me until i come back for my night shift was so annoying? especially given my recently cut hours (more about that shit is upcoming 🙃) so. like. no i’m staying thanks!! ugggh he’s cheap so much so that it’s become a store-wide meme amongst just about everyone lmao. for example say something obviously unusable and so insignificant falls on the floor like One (1) french fry, and we exclaim dramatically “OH MY GOD we gotta pick that up RIGHT NOW, just think about [boss’ name]’s money!!!” it’s so goddamn funny he’s literally too easy to make fun of. which is all fun and dandy until you consider how his dumbass has been causing us to go downhill since he arrived.

the first big significant thing he did (that also really involved me so like. makes me even more pissed) was starting to promote our opener and give him a raise before me despite the fact i had asked first and as the main closer i do so much more shit than this other guy could even fathom doing. i was beyond frustrated and ANGRY. i work too hard and too much for the little pay i was getting. not to mention i live 30-40 mins away! gas ain’t too cheap! the fact this other guy still remains getting promoted is infuriating because he. doesn’t. fucking. deserve. it. and i’m not the only one who thinks so, just about all my coworkers think he’s careless, bothersome, and incompetent with no real maturity to handle becoming a manager. i keep fucking praying he ends up not becoming one. the thought of closing with him makes me want to SCREAM

but luckily i did eventually get my raise (after literally having to directly contact my boss’ boss over the issue) but heres what’s just. great… i’m now like still making a similar amount to what i was pre-raise because our boss pushed and pushed to start closing early. like we ARE brutally slow most of the time at night and the fact there’s this shitty construction blocking a big road entrance to our store isnt helping. but ya’ll we went from closing at midnight every day to closing at 10 except fri and sat we close at 11. its a drastic change though and it killed my hours. the worst part is i know my former boss wouldn’t have done this, maybe closing at 11 every day if anything but not 10, good lord. but because my current boss is so damn persistent in getting what he wants he was able to push enough for the change in our store hours. it’s funny because if you have some kind of issue you HAVE TO be super persistent to him about it otherwise it gets forgotten on the backburner immediately and it’s so frustrating. yet he’s always annoyingly and brutally persistent with his bosses over everything so 🙄

hes also like cutting my hours completely and giving me far less days to work, i used to be working 5 days a week all the time but now its like 4 days and recently this week (dec 3) its turned into only 3 days. but to sorta put that into perspective, i havent worked 3 days or less since MID JULY. id be working 35-40 hours a week (and 50 before i started school) and now this most recent week im barely working 19.

not to mention this hours change has managed to be reason for 1 of our night cooks to quit. and like ya’ll, we have only 4 night cooks, and the one leaving literally closes most of the week. she closed a minimum of three days each. and now our other main closing cook who closes fri-sun every weeky is beginning to consider leaving also. it’s such a shitty development from all this and i don’t even want to know the shit that’s to come next.

so not only all that shit but then there’s how he makes our schedules and always manages to fuck something up each week or weirdly schedule people in a way that makes no sense. like if someone requests off a day they normally always work each week, he often doesn’t fill that shift with someone else? like hello?? our schedules are so static too, my former boss always went out of his way to put different people together on different days each week but my current boss? nah let’s just copy and paste the last week’s schedule, change like 2.5 things and call it good. and i know it’s like, don’t change something that doesn’t necessarily need to be changed but. ugh i guess i just didn’t realize how much i enjoyed that original schedule diversity until it was suddenly gone… doesn’t help that i’m constantly being scheduled to work with the few coworkers i don’t particularly like 😊

so yeah tl;dr my new boss is an incompetent stingy asshole who gave a raise first to someone evidently less deserving than me, obnoxiously pushed to close much earlier thus killing the night crew’s hours, has given me far less hours than i used to altogether, at least partially caused 1 out of our 4 night cooks to quit, and he additionally just makes rather shitty unideal schedules

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