#it wasn't her fault

[buenasnochestelevidente]

//Pretty girl

#art #digital art #oc art #abstract art #original art #art project #eyes #ar #it wasn't her fault

[thecatfarm]

Oh, to be a rich, bear-y older gentelman, with a blue beard, surveing my halls with the locked chambers, and the closets where I hide my wives -and, now, where’s the newest one?

#she stole my red key #it wasn't her fault #she had no choice #i painted it red after all #barbe bleue

[sinedia]

and  another  thing,   i  think  a  lot  about  how  awful  and  lonely  it  was  when  jasper  was  a  child.    that  feeling  of  ‘i’ve  always  been  old  and  always  been  angry’   and  how  much  of  a  waste  he  felt  it  was.    just  a  big  ball  of  depersonalization  and  hate.    and  i  ache  for  all  the  aus  where  he  had  someone  to  anchor  him,   someone  warm  and  kind  that  he  could  attach  to.

#not jasper completely detaching himself from his human life #i'll shut up soon but #for a while that warm person was his sister #but she left him to get married #it wasn't her fault #but their relationship couldn't rekindle after that :(((

[ludaroace]

i think whatever is going on with tubbo rn and the way he is treating people is based primarily off of how they've treated him and more importantly sunny and people who have been nice to sunny are being treated significantly better than others .

the people he was nice to (scarily nice to) were ONLY fit and ramon, the ones sunny mentioned were the only ones that wanted her while tubbo was gone . he refused to let ramon take blame for the fields being trampled . he was very complimentary towards fit . he answered literally all of fit's questions about what happened .

he is being nicer to chayanne - but chayanne was supposed to protect him and he didn't . sometimes he snaps at chayanne but then he apologizes . chayanne is one of the reasons he left sunny for so long .

he was kinda weird whenever phil was mentioned . not inherently hostile, but not really in a nice way . making assumptions here, but i feel like it would have been hostile had phil been around . sunny almost died because of phil .

cucurucho ? he was going hard in on him . like to the likes we haven't seen in a while from tubbo, very outwardly hostile . he's always been more aggressive towards cucurucho, but usually not like that

richas ? he more or less said that he would be willing to kill richas for sunny and half threatened his bed in front of fit . amongst other things . he was weird about richas before, but it ramped up as soon as sunny talked about gutting richas (which out of context seems wild, but it was more of a joking threat when sunny said it to richas) . richas is the reason why tubbo died, and sunny "wants" him hurt

#qsmp #q!tubbo #w phil - a little more on the speculation side but i think the way tubbo took what sunny said was very literally #no one took care of sunny/wanted her around other than fit (and by proxy ramon) = everyone else left her to die #even tho that wasn't exactly the case - bc tubbo is taking things to the extreme rn thats how i think hes seeing it #obviously don't think chayanne is at fault for tubbo's death but he seemed to imply he thought that way a couple of times #the only eggs/people that were brought up that he didn't really have a reaction to were bad (who is dead) #and pomme who i think got forgotten because he is tunnel visioning richas as someone who is against sunny #tubbo tag

[iwasbored777]

Y'all since we already know that Gwen can and probably does look at Peter B being happy now and think how her Peter never got a chance for a better life cuz he died so young because she accidentally killed him now imagine she goes to Earth-42 and finds Miles-42 fatherless and she knows that she almost let that happen to this Miles. I get that we assume Miles will understand that she had her own problems and was forced to be in Spider Society and he would eventually forgive her but I'm saying that I don't think she will forgive herself, ever.

#friendly reminder that peter was also in love with her and i feel like that and the fact that he didn't hate when he was dying just added #more weight to the whole thing #cuz he forgave her immediately and she never forgive herself because of it #she knows she didn't do it on purpose but she still did it and that's what always follows her knowing that she was the one who did it #so far every other spider man that i know caused the death of their loved one but wasn't the one who did it and this was all her #it wasn't a supervillain that did it it was her #and on top of that her own father blamed her for it for years and after knowing it was her #so imagine her after staying with the spider society thinking of that like was this really my fault my own father thinks so maybe i was too #forgiving to myself i did it so i should stay away from everyone and she even had jess tell her all the time to not grow attached #sorry for so many tags lol but think about it it's wild from her pov #gwen stacy #miles morales #spider man across the spider verse #beyond the spiderverse #spider man beyond the spider verse #across the spiderverse #Spiderverse

[bonefall]

what’s up with BB! Puddleshine? been having thoughts about him recently lol. i find it funny that rowanstar grabbed this random child from the nursery and was like ‘bam here’s our brand new doctor and spiritual leader everyone’

(*shaking twelve year old in the background*)

You know what's pretty cool about AVoS, buried underneath the slog of it all? The thing I keep going back to about this arc, in spite of how annoying it is to be forced to say in ThunderClan as everything interesting happens off-screen?

The way that so, so many young warriors are horrifically traumatized by both the structure of the Clans, and the Kin that they turn to.

It's a shame that the Erins were so committed to the idea of the Clan social structure NOT being the problem, because this whole arc is a perfect time to show how flawed it structurally is. LET these kids have a point, that maybe they were rebelling against something broken, but Darktail was a malicious actor who exploited their naivety to serve HIS ends.

A recap of what's happening in BB!AvoS before I explain my intentions with the Puddy Boy;

The big problem that I want Rowanstar to display is a problem that ALL the leaders of this time period also have. Commitment to Clan rivalry.

After Firestar was killed in AVoS by Dark Forest warriors, Bramblestar considers diplomacy secondary as a tactic. "ThunderClan will not be bullied any longer. We have been too soft with the other Clans for too long; and they have humiliated us by taking advantage of our kindness." (Note: Harespring and Breezepelt being part of the assassination patrol is not revealed until TBC. For MAXIMUM drama reveal.)

He escalated a border dispute that Firestar had worked closely and intimately with ShadowClan to resolve; a fight for a knoutberry patch on their border, just before Winter.

After Russetfur died in this painful battle, Blackstar backslid hard from his redemption arc. This caused the Thunder/Shadow alliance to dissolve towards the end of OotS, ending a friendship between the two Clans that had lasted through all of Po3.

He was open to Sol's manipulation, and while Tawnypelt was trying to fight the Dark Forest trainees who took over ShadowClan in the meantime... Rowanclaw became deputy by organizing a patrol of cats to remind Blackstar how much he means to them.

So Rowanstar inherits the Clan with this in mind. ShadowClan solves SHADOWCLAN'S problems. "ThunderClan had a quarrel with WindClan, but decided that we were their enemy. Leaving ourselves open for betrayal was a mistake; if we cannot handle our own problems, we will inevitably succumb to them when our so-called 'allies' don't come to help." (Note: he isn't completely wrong. His words are borderline prophetic for what's about to happen.)

Onestar has a smug chuckle at this. Since taking leadership, he's been appealing to the strongest, hardest members of his Clan. Those who once tried to kill him for his "weakness" in the Civil War. The "lesson" ShadowClan learned is one that he's known since the day Onewhisker died and Onestar was born, on the night of that sabotaged muirburn. "That so-called peace was always a farce. We are warriors of the four Clans; it was always going to come down to honor, and putting ourselves first. My WindClan isn't foolish enough to pretend like ThunderClan ever acted in anything but their own, hidden self-interest."

And Mistystar respects the direction Bramblestar has taken his Clan in, and approves of the "honesty" that the Clans are now showing. "As the branches of the honeysuckle fight and win the light for themselves, sometimes there are beautiful flowers that die in the shade. We can mourn the end of an era, and prepare for a future that will be made all the sweeter for our shared struggle. This is the way of the Clans, and StarClan's solemn light shines upon us all." (Note: god I love writing Misty's speeches)

In the family tree reworkings, Rowanstar is now the brother of Littlecloud. Sons of Brokenstar, honor-sired for Newtspeck.

Littlecloud... is suffering from early onset Alzheimer's.

He didn't want to choose an apprentice after Flametail's horrible death, heartbroken and stressed out, especially when he couldn't reach his nephew through contact with StarClan.

He can't remember, anymore, that Flametail was freed. He keeps forgetting this, over and over

He keeps ending up in different times of his life, where he's best friends with Cinderpelt and still calling Leafpool by her pre-Honor Title name, where he's inventing a mobility device for Wildfur, where he's still escaping the plague and before he knew his mentor caused it, where he's on the Great Journey...

Rowanstar is in a lot of pain, watching his brother forget so many things, scared and confused half the time. He doesn't want to believe that this is really the end, or that... many of these cats are now so young they can't recognize the various eras that Littlecloud is finding himself in.

Puddleshine and Slatefur are going to remain in Pinenose's litter. Either Lion or Birch MIGHT get shuffled to another one; and ALSO the shuffler might survive the Kin. (SO voice which one you want to survive, if you have a preference!)

SO, Violetshine has either two or three adopted siblings... plus another.

Pinenose's oldest surviving child is Happypaw. Happy is the half-sibling of Puddle/Slate-- the death of Weaselkit in the Great Battle caused his parents (Pinenose and Owlclaw) to break up.

(this is why I'm thinking about just reducing the litter to Puddle/Slate, so Violet has three major adoption-siblings to remember instead of four.)

And now we're ready to talk about Puddleshine.

He isn't the first young cat to be shoved into an extremely high-pressure position because of a Cleric becoming incapacitated. Kestrelflight was also forced to become the holy speaker of his people when he was far, far too young, after Barkface died in TNP. He dealt with this obediently, with only Jayfeather ever really being able to get him to think about it in a different light.

Unlike Kestrel, Puddlekit did voice that he was interested in becoming a Cleric, in BB. But he was too young to be properly making that choice, to know what he was getting into. He mentioned it practically offhandedly, and BOOM Rowanstar had rolled him into the position.

But Puddlepaw has a deep sense of responsibility. "Wise beyond his years"-- likely because of how tumultuous his home life was.

His mother's oldest child, Happypaw, was openly a bully of his half-siblings. Pinenose distanced herself from him as a result, causing Happy to be closer to Owlclaw, who was still not over Weaselkit's death.

But Puddle's Ba Spikefur is not a cat who handles his kit's emotions well. Instead, he encourages ambition, tells him to get back at his half-sibling by being more influential than that twerp could ever be.

Puddle will often go to Violet, the new POV, to vent about these things.

And one thing he mentions to her is how amazing Kestrelflight is, when he gets to meet him at the half-moon conferences. He learns SO MUCH from him, it's like he GETS what he's going through...

Puddle doesn't even feel sure that Littlecloud knows what he's doing anymore. If he's learning the right information at all.

But Rowanstar won't DO anything about Littlecloud-- and he CERTAINLY isn't about to let Puddlepaw go train under someone else's Cleric.

As a result of this, Puddlepaw becomes a VERY important member of Sleekpaw's little group. He wasn't one of their friends to begin with, buuuuut...

When he sits to chat with Sleekpaw and Needlepaw, with Happypaw good and far out of earshot, she makes a lot of sense.

A LOT of it.

ShadowClan is run by old men who don't know what they're doing. Rowanstar is too emotional to make good choices. Puddlepaw, barely even old enough to begin apprenticeship, is running all the medicine for an entire Clan.

And, sure, he doesn't have much in the way of a connection to StarClan, no, just a little more spiritual than the average cat...

But who can point this out? If Littlecloud is slowly losing his mind anyway?

"It's not right, how much pressure's on you," Sleekpaw growls, "And it wouldn't be this way if we could challenge Rowanstar. You should be training with Kestrelflight right now."

"But we're dealing with the shells StarClan dealt, and the Clan is looking to you now," Needlepaw points out on behalf of her friend, "You have much more sway than you know."

This time around for BB, Sleekpaw starts as a young hero. She's right. Rowanstar should be challenged, his emotions are affecting the ENTIRE Clan, and Puddlepaw is in a bad position because of it. Needlepaw is like her best diplomat, surely to become her deputy someday.

They would have made an excellent set of leaders for ShadowClan. But they trusted the wrong person, and were exploited. When Darktail and The Kin came to the lake, they were swept up by it, and WindClan began an embargo.

Puddlepaw eventually oversees the Yellowcough Outbreak, and at first just thinks it's Greencough. He has no idea about strains, or the special types of Color Cough that Clan cats have historically dealt with. Even when he finally does learn it's not JUST Greencough, he's powerless to do anything about it. A lot of cats die because of the lack of mullein.

After that, with ShadowClan so weak and the Kin so strong... he's one of the cats who calls for the merge. The most important one, in fact, leveraging his position to say that this is StarClan's will.

Sleekwhisker and Needletail were right all along, and he's happy to stick it right into everyone's faces. Onestar's tantrum of an embargo killed his Clanmates, Rowanstar stopped him from properly training, he's been under pressure from the time he was small with Littlecloud not fit to be a mentor, and he's ready to welcome in ShadowClan's new era as something that is not a Clan.

...unfortunately, it turned out to be the wrong choice. Not because his thought process was wrong. But because Darktail had other plans in-mind.

#Also I did decide on it being early onset alzheimer's for BB!Littlecloud specifically #It means a lot to me... my great-grandmother had it in her last days. And it's very likely I'll get it someday too #and the line that leads from her down to me #it scares me. So I want to explore it. For myself #especially in such a terrible situation like this #BB!Puddleshine #obsessed with all of these children making big choices for their Clan and the way it's going to make them turn on their IDEAS #They were right. They were right to be mad at what they were mad at #But it was a bad actor who ruined it. #If I have to deal with a born-evil foreigner in BB. Then I'll lean into it. I'll reveal he wasn't such an outsider after all. #And I'll show that the xenophobic backlash was the WORST possible route for all of these cats to take #and yet... they do. They attack the one thing they felt they had control over #When the truth is that it wasn't their fault. #BB!Rowanstar #Better Bones AU #BB!AVOS #Their biggest mistake was being mislead. I hope Puddsy realizes that when he looks at Shadowpaw #Kindness for himself through kindness for another.

[purpleandstarlight]

Hua Cheng about those ""losers"" who fall in love with someone and then don't end up becoming so obsessed with them that they fight for them, die for them, become a ghost king for them and spend 800+ years of their immortal life simping for them despite barely talking with said person during those 800+ years:

#i always think about that scene in like #book 5? #where Xie Lian's talking about his ex-bff like #“Im really sorry they broke up. i hope it wasn't my fault. He seemed to really love her.” #and Hua Cheng #fucking goes #“If they broke up then it wasn't love. Just like.” #and i sat there like #LISTEN MR OBSESSED SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST...NORMAL. EVER THOUGH OF THAT??? #fking simp... #(affectionate) #oh right i should tag hhh #hua cheng #san lang #hualian #tgcf #heaven official's blessing

[stars-in-a-jam-jar]

Guys.

I don't think Kipperlily's great metatextual crime is level grinding.

Kipperlily Copperkettle's metatextual dungeons and dragons crime is metagaming

#kipperlilly copperkettle #fantasy high junior year spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fantasy high #guys #guys think about it #it's unfair how she found the rogue teacher #she Made Sure that Lucy Frostblaxe wasn't coming back #she's made herself untraceable by Most Every Method #she sneaks around with invisibility constantly #to get a leg up on everyone else and have access to information she is Not supposed to have access to #and then she believes she's just following the rules #it's not her fault she's better at it than everyone else #she only ever wants her way and THAT is where the anger issues come from #I'm making a whole other post in the tags at this point absjhskdbd

[scintillyyy]

the thing is that there are interesting ways to play with the idea that thomas and martha weren't the perfect parents that bruce will always venerate them as on account of they died when he was 8 (i feel like the ones i'm most interested are the throwaway lines that imply they might've sent bruce to boarding school + the idea that thomas was maybe a little too focused on prioritizing his work over family), however dc seems to constantly go for ~but did thomas cheat on martha?? was he imperfect in his potential unfaithfulness???~ (they do this for a lot dad characters in general i feel like) and it's just overdone and tiring and i hate it so.

#i genuinely think their go to when trying to interrogate if a dead father figure had flaws is to be like “oh he might've cheated” #stop stop i beg u #(this is also why i generally don't like secret siblings because it feeds into this tendency) #also i will defend melinda and meili bc it's not their fault they were created by tt #but the absolute flipside to this is the idea that the dude in question would never dare have a relationship that wasn't his one true love #'even though i knew he would never love me he only had eyes for your mother i was totally cool being a pity fuck dw' #anyways i would fix melinda by having her actually be zucco's daughter #or by having john and meili be in a relationship and then he broke up with her for mary. let's get messy.

[chayannesegg]

im so glad empanada, even after a tough day, got to have that talk and hug with richas and then bagi where em got some lovely advice about dealing with grief from richas & talked about what went wrong during the day

but i can't help but contrast this with sunny. sunny who empanada still hasn't seen. sunny whose been alone for days. sunny whose talked with almost no one. sunny who doesn't know bad is dead. sunny whose pretending tubbo isn't dead. sunny who got no goodbye. sunny who got no long talks about grief. sunny who got no explanations. sunny who no one visited today. sunny whose birthday is tomorrow. sunny who no one will wake up for first tomorrow

#qsmp #qsmp sunny #qsmp empanada #it's giving em and sunny being separated so long post em's first death #but also 50 times worse #they're sisters your honour they should be together #idk if sunny and leo will have talked off stream or not #but presumably she's done something with her mystery friend #we are for sure going to get angst from sunny tomorrow if only someone stays long enough to see it #also off topic but i think the em interaction with mike was fine #yes he clearly wasn't successful in cheering her up but she seemed to appreciate the attempt #even if it probably left her feeling a little like her feelings were her fault for not being able to cheer up #and he did apologize for barging into her room and left #i don't think he's in her bad books at all #she could definitely tell he cared and she was much more visibly frustrated with bagi #which they luckily had some resolution over #me once again writing one post in the text and another in the tags lmao

[tytangfei]

Don't sleep, Xiaoyao. I'm begging you. I'm sorry. It was my fault. I shouldn't have left you. No matter what, I shouldn't have left you. I was too greedy to give up my status as Tushan Jing. Xiaoyao, please. Open your eyes and look at me. I'm your Shiqi. Xiaoyao, I only want to be your Ye Shiqi. Didn't we agree that I'll be with you forever? You can't abandon me. Wherever you go, I'll follow you.

#lost you forever #cdramaedit #yang zi #deng wei #xiaoyao #tushan jing #wen xiaoliu #ye shiqi #cdramagifs #cdrama: lost you forever #fire cw #burns cw #injury cw #blood cw #death cw #i thought this show already broke me enough but i was wrong #this scene shattered me entirely #how he protected her dead body and was willing to burn and die with her #also for anyone reading the tags it's not actually his fault #he had to go take care of family matters so he meant it was his fault as in he wasn't there to protect her #jina makes gifs #jinaLostYouForevergifs

[sysig]

They’re perfect for each other honestly (Patreon)

#Doodles #Adventure Time #Fionna and Cake #Simon Petrikov #Golbetty #It's not exactly Petrigrof but like - it's not Not that either lol #I'm really really happy that the show acknowledges that Simon was selfish in his and Betty's relationship - it's Very Good #And at the same time in it's small way Beth does give the concession of ''I guess that wasn't exactly [his] fault'' #They're both called out! Betty's obsession with Simon caused her own self-destruction - and she takes responsibility for it #Simon is still shafted with the consequences but it's not like Betty doesn't get her own consequences #This whole journey is just more consequences of both of their actions! Of what Betty modeled she was willing to give up! #And Simon loves her. He respects her. He was selfish and self-driven but that didn't stop her from taking root and inspiring him in return #Her being self-sacrificing and then in her own selfish way not letting Simon make the same mistakes as her I just hhhhh #They're so lovely ♥ #It's a bit matronizing of her haha but she Wants with her entire essence - she always has <3 #It's her turn to be selfish Simon has had his turn - she won't let him throw away her gift as much as he wants to #They're just both so beautifully flawed ahhhhh <3 <3 #''We made our choices. We could've made better ones but...I don't have any regrets.'' #It's about breaking the cycle! Of him rejecting making the same mistakes! It's beautiful ;; #Also all the halo imagery drives me nuts ♥ Angel bf and his cosmic goddess gf

[imakemywings]

Someday I will make a post about the Athrabeth and common misunderstandings but today I am too tired

#the Athrabeth is not Finrod advising Aegnor to leave Andreth #the Athrabeth is Finrod explaining to Andreth the cultural and practical reasons Aegnor left her #he is trying to tell her it was nothing she did and it wasn't because she ''wasn't good enough'' as a mortal or wtv #he's trying to give her CONTEXT for Aegnor's choice #he's not arguing that Aegnor might the right or wrong decision #he's just trying to offer her an explanation so she can stop feeling like it was due to some fault on her end #rambling

[supermusicallee]

NO other show in existence understands sister dynamics better than fleabag. especially from the perspective of older sisters i believe. having the same character yell "...you're fine! you'll always be fine. you'll always be interesting, with your quirky cafe and your dead best friend. you just make me feel like i've failed," AND "the only person i'd run through an airport for is you" !!!!!!!!! it's insane and it's exactly how i feel

#fleabag #i dislike anyone disliking claire because of that you'll be fine scene. that's the realest relationship between siblings are you insane #or maybe i actually am even more of a horrible person for thinking this #“we're not friends. we're sisters.” #terrible #magnificent #like i would die for her. i would kill for her. seeing her upset BREAKS my heart‚ i can physically feel it #i also can't help but feeling pettiness when everything comes so easily to her #all her bad moments make her more interesting and real while i simply exist like blank paper bc anything happening to me must be my fault‚ #while her misfortunes play like a melodrama #it's NOT her fault‚ but it wasn't mine either so why did i have to live through everything for her to have everything #okay wow i'm having a great night 🙃 #*nr

[adhd-merlin]

today I'm thinking about "I blame myself for what you've become"

#merlin and morgana #I've just finished reading that long meta post #I don't agree that morgana turning evil was merlin's fault #she made her own choices #but. he certainly tipped the scales #and he wasn't portrayed as entirely blameless in the show #at least insofar that “coming out” to morgana might have prevented her descent into evil #maybe. possibly. #but there's no way of knowing that #anyway #the point that said The Wicked Way is the last episode in which Merlin fights for his rights (!!) #I don't entirely agree there either bc of ep 5x10 #but it's true he lost the will to fight for his freedom after that :( #omg that's so sad #ramblings #*

[loonylooly]

IN NESTAS DEFENSE, it was not her fault she "dIdNt sToP fEyrE" from going into the woods. Like that is a whole 14 year old girl, have you ever met a 14 year old girl? If you tell them no they WILL do it anyway, but in a sneakier way.

Also hot take but I really don't think it's that big of a deal that Nesta didnt "take care" of Feyre the way she did with Elain. Like, that is not her job! She's like 17 she should be studying for her SAT's not parenting her sisters when their dad is right there! I feel it's like totally understandable that she took one good look at them both and went "yk what, Feyre you can get by on your own, Elain's a goner if I don't parent her lmao bye". Like...taking care of another person is really tiring?? Even just trying to be a good influence to a child is tiring?? And like...she was 14! 14 is really young but it's not young enough to where you need to be taken care of at all times. Don't be hating on Nesta for not taking care of a 14 year old, that ain't her job!!

#It's like giving a student detention for not doing an extra credit assignment #Like it was EXTRA. It wasn't her responsibility!!! Her dad was right there!!! It's not HER fault he didn't parent his daughters!! #nesta archeron #pro nesta #pro nesta archeron #nesta deserves better