#it's 6 am i should go to bed

[mayg0espostal]

gay dads had an argument where they should park the car to watch their daughter's magic show

daughter is stressed

Jack forced Dude to take a shower and change so this better be worth it

#handsome jack #himiko yumeno #postal dude #postal #danganronpa #danganronpa v3 #borderlands #borderlands 2 #this took embarassingly long to make #ship art #i guess? #starting to unironically ship them #also yes jack is supossed to look so stylized #them all actually #hope you guys like this shit #reblogs appreciated <3 #it's 6 am i should go to bed #draw your comfort characters

[just-jessiejames]

what the fuck is so attractive about people in trenchcoats i'm

actually what is it about trenchcoats? why the fuck do they make everyone so much more... pretty??

am i trenchcoatsexual???????

#unhinged posts from me at 6 am #i should go to bed ahah #help me i think im trenchcoatsexual #jessiejames talks #castiel #larissa weems #olivia dunham #spencer reid #captain jack harkness #the doctor #sherlock holmes #sherlock bbc #ill add more tags if i remember them fuck i uh #peter bishop #selene underworld #evie frye #OKAY its not a trenchcoat but its so close #WHY AREN'T THERE MORE WOMEN IN TRENCHCOATS #i demand them i want it give me #john preston #battinson #really starting to wonder if some of the character i like so much is just the trenchcoatification of them #would i like them as much if i didn't know they had a trenchcoat in their wardrobe? #will graham #hannibal

[sentientsky]

me when my mutuals in different time zones finally go inactive for 6-9 hours after being online for a long stretch of time:

(i just want u guys to SLEEP please)

#i say this as it is nearly 3 am for me :) #I’m so tired oh god. goodnight. see u all again in like. 6 hrs. #IF YOYRE IN MY TIMEZONE U ALSO SHOULD BE IN BED GOING HONK SHOO HONK SHOO #shitpost #mutuals

[spaciebabie]

BITE

no bite. you are a pie.

a pear pie

#spacie splains #pie time #bleeds cutely #pies dont have teeth #wait a second....then wyh am i bleeding...... #i hafta get up at 6 am i should go 2 bed skjfskjfsfd #gotta finish dinner tho

[tardis--dreams]

Gonna go running tomorrow!!!! Gotta hype myself up because i know once my alarm goes off at 6am i will not be as excited anymore ((((: BUT I'LL GO RUNNING!!!!

#i just #need to get some actual exercise #where i can completely exhaust myself #i mean. i get some pretty exhausting 10 minutes every morning on my hike to class #but i want something a bit longer and something that will end in a nice shower and not in a seminar room #I'm just a bit scared of how it'll go because so far the paths where people exercise are also occupied by other people #and then there's bikes that might kill you if you don't watch out #so i wanna go early so i hopefully avoid random people taking a painfully slow walk in the middle of the path #so you can't pass them #but I'll be moving!!! fast!! i cannot wait tbh #i should have gone tonight #(watch me oversleep and be too unmotivated to go tomorrow morning... istg if i don't get up at 6 #I'll still go at 8 or 9 or 10 am and have to live with the consequences of the paths being crowded #I'd go to bed early but my neighbors keep me up until 2am every night so that's fun #but the running will be worth it #(I'm not even a runner ㅠㅠ i just need to substitute my usual high intensity workouts with something other than pilates and yoga #i mean it's definitely not bad to be forced to do something out of my comfort zone but i really miss my jumping around time) #void screams

[autogeneity]

attempting going to bed at 9pm (or earlier! technically. for falling asleep time) feels so ridiculous. like some sort of joke. and yet. purportedly this is what getting up at 5am would demand. is this really something people do wtf

#m #people commonly do get up at like 5 or 6 to go to work and shit right #hell if I were going to the office I would have to as well #do they actually really truly go to bed at fucking 8:30. surely that is insane #kids don't even do that I don't think #also even if I only directly require this twice a week #I probably gotta do it every day because there's no way in hell I am successfully sleeping at 9pm if I woke up at 9am lmao #well I can get away with 5:30ish but I usually snooze for at least half an hour lol so... #my first alarm for when I get up at 9am (aiming for 8:30) is 7:48 #my first alarm for probably 5:30 is 4:48 #so my alarm clock tells me it's time to go to bed at 20:30 and I am like bruhhh #today I probably could and should since last night bedtime was 4am #but it still feels weird as hell like it's unreasonably early #I'm still buying dinners so it is theoretically possible. it would not otherwise be #and yet idk man #just a few weeks ago at 20:30 THE SUN WOULD'VE STILL BEEN UP #even now sunset is like 8pm. you want me to sleep an hour after sunset. this is silly! it's barely dusk!

[eve-is-a-terf]

im so wired rn it’s crazy. i’m laying in bed trying to fall asleep but my mind keeps defaulting back to my work and finishing trains of thought that i quit when i went to bed. like i’m TRYING to fall asleep but randomly i’ll spawn sentences in my head bc my brain’s still trying to craft my final presentation. and it’s so stressful bc ik i can bs it but it’s still a lot of work

anyways the reason i’m fully awake rn instead of continuing THAT is bc in the dark, in my peripheral vision, i made out a big black bug right next to my pillow. i immediately sprang out of bed and scrambled towards the light switch, only to find…. a binder clip.

#anyone know non-illegal drug ways to stop being so tightly wound #i can’t even take OTC melatonin lmao i have to be on the bus in 4 hours anyways #meditating has never worked for me bc i’m too much of a hater but maybe i’ll try it just this once #i keep telling my brain i have 6 days i can make this work but nothing amazing is gonna get done at 2 am today #but it has a mind of its own hahahahahaha #[trying to fall asleep] lee’s interpretation of virtue ethics directly rejects the theories laid out by….. wait i should go to bed #but what if i use this source to talk abt this and then that one to fill this gap etc

[radioactivedadbod]

broke: giving peter a symbiote verse bc ooze monster go brr woke: giving peter a symbiote verse to explore the nature of humanity and the divine symbolisms. and bad dance routines.

#not today. but one of these days. mayhaps. #listen all the cosmic / theological bullshit ewing puts in his books REALLY scratches a part of my brain so I must sprinkle it everywhere #it is only natural #;out of webs. #ok its 6 am I should PROBABLY go to bed jsjdfjsd

[steakout-05]

eeuuaghh i would like everyone to know that i apologise if i have not responded to your reblogs/mentions/posts on tumblr, i have really terrible social anxiety and for some reason people talking to me makes my nervous system think i'm being hunted for sport by a resident evil boss. sorry if i havent responded i'm not being rude i'm just having a panic attack :P

additionally: social anxiety is actually the reason why a lot of my old posts from late 2022 had weird spacing and spelling mistakes. i was too anxious to type properly

#sorry this seems like a random thing to post but it has been bugging me for a little bit now and i want to post it #and by a little bit i mean the entire time i've been on this website #as for the reason i have social anxiety: i went to a really terrible high school full of dangerous people- #-who were literally like. the worst most bigoted people ever. not everyone there was bad of course but 90% of them were- #-and that stunted by social development by 5-6 years and now every time someone talks to me i feel like i'm about to get murdered #also primary school was. bad. the other kids could sniff out the autism in me and didn't like me for it #this post isn't directed towards anyone specifically but also it kinda is because there's a DM from someone- #-that i haven't responded to in literally 8 months and every time i think about it i get anxious #i'm sorry!!! i'm not trying to ignore you on purpose and i want to say something but my brain literally will not let me out of fear :( #i'm not used to getting talked to directly so every time i do my entire nervous system starts screaming and running in circles #it's kinda ridiculous because it's like. come on. why are you having a panic attack over a message on tumblr it's LITERALLY just words on- #-a screen what are you freaking out about. but also it's like hhhhh unfamiliar social situation scary. help. #unrelated to that but i am very worried about what people will think of me and like i know i really shouldn't worry about that- #-because i can't control what other people think of me and it really shouldn't be any of my or their business. but also- #-i have legitimate trauma that backs my fears up and every time someone is even slightly critical towards me my brain just goes- #-''see? it happened again i TOLD you it would happen again. idiot. you shouldn't have said anything'' #and then i hide and cry and lay in bed thinking about how i'm going to die until i suddenly snap out of it and think- #-''wait hang on why should i care. i love being a weirdo on the internet why should i let my anxieties stop me'' #and then it happens AGAIN and it's just a viscous cycle at that point #be silly on the internet -> detect slight criticism -> think everyone hates you again -> go back on your bullshit after 3 days of crying #and it makes sense because that exact same pattern happened to me countless times as a child. #be silly in school -> get made fun of for it -> get hated for it -> rinse and repeat until you think everyone is dangerous and they hate yo #if i could put it in a metaphor it would be like me being a little rabbit who thinks everyone is a scary wolf because of their big shadows- #-even though they're all also rabbits and i'm just paying attention to the scariest parts of them because i only know what wolves look like #trauma does fucked up things to your psyche lemmie tell you #social anxiety #anxiety disorder #i'm literally the ''too scared to order food'' stereotype except it's not a stereotype because it's real and every time i look at the 7/11- #-at my campus i go ''hm but what if they hate me for the food i buy there'' even though they're LITERALLY SELLING IT what is WRONG with me #anyway um. social anxiety sucks and i don't mean to not reply ro everyone who talks to me i am sorr y

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[cowboycannibalism]

just binge watched half of season 1 of Animal Control (because I'm in love with Joel McHale) and it feels like such a weird blend of some of my favorite shows.

Frank (Joel) and Fred aka Shred (Michael Rowland, who I'm also now in love with), have a Jake/Holt relationship that I really enjoy. definitely because Michael has big big Andy Samberg vibes, like he even almost looks like him. And Emily and Shred have the biggest Jake/Amy vibes like it's copy and paste almost, except its starting off more sweet than coworker rivalry/flirting.

it's got that B99/Community vibe but also pulls a little bit of the dark humor vibes of Its Always Sunny in Philadelphia. I was only going to watch the 1st episode because I've been curious but I really loved it. It definitely has some flaws but it's bound to become one of my comfort shows where I can turn off my brain and just giggle away in my bed.

#anyways its 4 am and i should def go to bed #gonna try to finish the last 6 episodes tomorrow #Im sorry if i become unbearable about this show #Animal Control #joel mchale #yami's hyperfixations

[brookheimer]

#again this is all my fault i had a week to do this i just can’t seem to do any work unless the deadline is within like . 24 hours #otherwise i can’t get myself to focus or care #thanks brain. #the film one will be easy though i can bullshit it bc my profs give out B+ as the highest grade apparently so i should stop writing A papers #for them and just get the same grade for less work . unfortunately i love writing papers (even though i hate it) and can never actually #like phone in a paper like even when i try to i end ip getting into it by the end #i’m so bad at just being like yeah let’s write a B paper. i canyyyyttttyt ! which is so annoying bc i’ll get a B in this class anyways bc #it’s 300 ppl and they don’t read the papers they just give everyone a B+ so WHY DO I BOTHER #praying that for the first time in my life i write a mid paper on purpose and it takes an hour or so #then i can focus the next 12 hours on the paper i both want and need to do well on #well maybe not NEED like i’d prob get an A in the class if i got a B+ or even a B maybe on the final #but it’s my last class ever (transferring😬) with my favorite professor in the world . i have never gotten below an A- from him on a paper #and that was only in my first class w him like i’ve gotten all As since so i NEEEEED to go out w a bang. seriously. i like him too much not #to!!! it’s also a topic i’m rly interested in except also i still don’t actually know my thesis. i just have 20 pages of brainstorming and #research. don’t know what i’m doing w it yet tho #agggggghh #so mad at myself — went to bed at 7 FUCKING PM by accident bc i hadn’t slept in 40 hours and forgot to set an alarm for like 6 to try and #make up for all the work i didn’t do yesterday so now here we r. aaaagggggggh #sorry for the personal vent in the tags but this is my blog i can vent if i want to (to the tune of that one song) #i’m actually insane why am i subjecting myself to this. and even worse why am i (ADHD #depression insane) transferring to one of the like 20 schools in america that’s more academically demanding than the one i’m at rn. why am #i making things worse for myself. #except blah blah blah not really i’m fine academically and honestly except for finals (which is always just a procrastination issue w me) #cld provably use smth a little more demanding at times like i need classes hard enough to actually convince my brain that i need to do yhe #readings lolll like i genuinely always Want to do them bc they’re things i am honestly super interested in i just a) am so bad at focusing #and b) am Disturbingly good at bullshitting like i typically am one of the most talkative ppl in classes despite doing 1/2 or less of the #readings.. and like not even to get a participation grade. just bc i can skim it and immediately have things to say ab it #that’s why i won a like national award in high school for a paper on a book i didn’t actually read😬 except i had WANTED! to read it! #that’s the issue like. if u know u can bullshit something how do u get ur adhd brain to get the message that u actually want to read it #raAaagh ok personal rambling over o know it’s prob annoying bc like i Do do well in school n i am grateful i just wish i was healthier ab it

[happytapirstudio]

#EPIC tapir moment!!!!!!! #homestuck #vriska serket #terezi pyrope #i've drawn them as rats i've drawn them as wolves we got the tapirs let's keep it going y'all the furry in me cannot be supressed #tapirstuck #<-there WILL be more. #they're baird's tapirs btw #when i assigned everyone on the HS roster a tapir originally only terezi was baird's - vriska was a mountain tapir #small and fluffy and emo-black #but i felt they should both be baird's in this one there's an au here i just can't draw well enough to flesh it out yet #instagram will have to wait to receive this gem because i need to go to bed i have work at 6 am tomorrow #art by tapirs (me)

[junkie-virus]

(muttering) i dont want to die i just need to go outside i dont want to die i just need to go outside i dont want to die i just need to go outside i dont want to die i just need to go outsi

#ro rambles #think im going stir crazy but also maybe its the sleep deprivation. #i am sleeping in 2-4 hour intervals #usually on the lesser side #i only get the 4-6 hour-ers when its day out. #this of course means i do not eat much #also a horrid contributer. #this is fine #ill start going out again when my group therapy starts up again #which is facilitated by a lady who said vaguely transphobic shit to me #she didnt habe mal intent but also that means i have to educate a cis person against my will #a WHITE cis oerson at that #ohhhh i experience a million little agonies #im too scared to go walk outside but i think maybe at this point i should just try #on the brighter side im going to my aunts friday and usually i sleep better there #have actual bed as well #nicer environment

[whoa-where-did-the-pancakes-go]

What if I just don't sleep. What then.

#it is 11:01 and i just finished taking a shower that was supposed to have been taken at 9:30 #look. unless someone (steve usually) forces me to go to bed i will not despite knowing i will be complaining the entire day #“im soooi tiiiiired” well maybe its cause you only slept 6 hours you fucking microwave oven #ik its recommended for teens to get about 10 hours of sleep but if the school system wanted me to be healthy they should not make an entire- #-essay due in three days and maybe consider letting kids have more than 10 days absent or even not starting the day at 8 am what about that #huh??? huh??? wisconsin school system i have a complaint to make #see i get 6 hours of sleep. 7 hours at school. that leaves me 11 hours for personal stuff and a good four of those are spent eating and- #-doing chores and talking to family etc etc. so i get about 7 hours to myself add in showering homework and laying on the floor sobbing #and ive got like 5 and a half hours of free time so excuse me if i like to. yk. do thingsand maybe im not getting the recommended 10 hours #- of sleep. #im regan thank you for coming to my speech i wrote it in 10 minutes it is now 11:12 goodnight of youre going to bed if not? #join me in being a fucking goddamn disaster all the time :)

[10-dutchies-12-bicycles]

having a terrible time bc the past few months i accidentally kinda maybe 90% cured my adhd...? no im not making this up im srs

i need a support group for ex adhd peeps but unfortunately. yanno. thats not a thing. or at the very least a "how to focus as a neurotypical" article or sth 😭😭😭😭

#like??? do i just. focus? and then it works? i probably wont be able to hyperfocus for 6 hrs straight anymore right? #or will i? is that just a me superpower and not necessarily a me with adhd thing? do i need to take breaks??? how often?? #how do i get back to focusing AFTER each break?? how will i face my high school classmates at the 10 year reunion like #'yea so i got an adhd diagnosis. yea ikr you never wouldve guessed huh! yea so also i cured my adhd 3 yrs ago' ?!?!??!?! #on a related note i am nowadays frequently like 'i think emptying the dishwasher would be a fun activity to do!' #YES emptying the dishwasher yes or no is one of the metrics i use to measure how bad my adhd is on any given day the past while #ooooooo now that you mention it i should get out of bed and go empty the dishwasher that might be fun!! 🤔🤔🤔 :3c #<- SEE???? SEE WHAT I MEAN????? WHO THE FUCK /ARE/ YOU AND WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME #i need to vaccuum today #whoops byeee #mine #need to go asap