Astarion stealing Tav's body heat at every possible opportunity. He is putting his cold-ass hands up the back of their shirt. He is pressing his face directly into their shoulder and breathing pure winter chill down their neck. At night he's like a weighted blanket made out of ice. He loves being warm and will do everything short of crawling into their skin about it but he looks so happy that tav is just accepting their fate at this point.
i'm reading a book where a strong guy walks through 300 kilometres of a mountainous landscape and reached his destination mostly fine (dirty, bruised, blistered, starving) but then he simply takes a literal month to recover. i'm imagining other people reassuring them on the day of their arrival like "it's okay if you wake up really late tomorrow, you look half-dead <3", and then the next morning someone does go up to check up on them and realises. this is gonna be more like a "small sips of sweetened water" type of deal
oof that guy is Going Through It
i love when a character is coming down from some kind of survival high where they've been living off adrenaline and 40 minutes of sleep for the last few weeks, and then they crash and they crash hard
and suddenly this person who's been thriving off the bare minimum can hardly even lift their head without a little help
i'm also a big fan of prolonged recovery periods? like yes, give this person a solid week or two in bed, a few more where they're only up for a few minutes of time (all while someone gives them the rest and nourisment they need)
gahhhh i need to get back to writing because i love this so much <3
exhausted health update because I have to rant somewhere lol
So we're ending day 12 of my mysterious right-sided numbness. It's moved from just my torso all the way down my right leg to my toes, so now I'm just hobbling around half numb rip. And now the torso numbness feels like im being vacuum sealed or something, just a horrible tightness and lack that makes it impossible to ignore. Went to the ER the other night and had 2 panic attacks within the span of the several hours I was there, got my bloodwork redone and a cat scan which all came back with a big Nothing on them. They told me I needed an MRI but that I'd have to go through my Primary Care and after I told them my primary wouldnt see me until May they referred me to a new primary not in my network so that's been a dead end rip.
So far everyone is pointing at my horrific anxiety as the cause but not one doctor has actually offered me help for the anxiety despite me having the active panic attacks in the office lol. My Primary wont see me for several months despite the severity of my current condition and none of the mental health programs I've reached out to will get back to me so for now I'm just. Existing in this anxiety Ouroboros where my anxiety causes my numbness which causes anxiety which causes numbness. I'm trying stupid home remedies to try and minimize the active anxiety attacks but so far we've just been circling around alternating Holy Basil, Benadryl and literally just drinking Rum and going to sleep, which sure all help my anxiety a little maybe but also make it almost impossible for me to function normally during the day. This is making art difficult so commissions are going slow which is obviously making me more anxious lol.
I also am home alone most of the week managing the household, which is made more difficult since right now the numbness in my foot/leg makes it dangerous for me to drive and difficult for me to get around my house to do daily tasks. Idk man I'm just tired as all hell and I seem to vacillate wildly between full anxiety breakdowns and depressive/dissociative episodes.
At any rate during the week I'll just be constantly calling and harassing every doctor/therapist I can get a number for trying to find someone who will be able to either address my anxiety directly or can at least get me into an MRI to rule out MS or anything else that ISNT anxiety. I'm going to become the bane of the medical profession for a while.
Wish me luck!
I LOVE THEM SO MUCH ZACH I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO DESCRIBE (no cause the way I ran to my friends to show them these and proceeded to curl up on the floor while they laughed. IM INSANE OVER THEM QwQ <33333)
I once read that magic is to blame for the suffering in Hawke's life and I just couldn't disagree more. The Chantry and its cruel yet useless Circle system are to blame for literally every major shit thing that happened to Hawke. Not directly, but we can trace the blame to them anyway.
• Malcolm and Leandra would've never had to leave Kirkwall and a cushy life behind if the Circle prisons weren't a thing
• If mage healers weren't locked up and instead were free to heal the general populace, Malcolm might've survived his illness
• Hawke's now dead sibling wouldn't have died bc they would've never had to flee Lothering and the Blight
• Hawke's other sibling wouldn't have died/become a grey warden bc Hawke wouldn't have had to go to the Deep Roads for money
• The same sibling also wouldn't have been imprisoned/joined the Templars
• Leandra wouldn't have been killed (even if Malcolm had died) if the Templars served as actual protectors against dangerous mages (being part of the guard for example) instead of being mostly a bunch of bigoted jailers who are too busy keeping the innocent mages "in line" to actually do anything about the truly dangerous ones (and are mostly too incompetent against those anyway)
So nah, magic didn't fuck Hawke over. An oppressive system did. Hawke has every right to want it torn to shreds.
love when shows that successfully invite zs are like ‘well since ur here we might as well milk this opportunity for all its worth’ and give him all the screen time and attention and have him sing as much as possible