#its just insane when you think about it

[clamorybus]

its insane how my small town of <10,000 is more diverse than the majority of hollywood productions that are set in major cities

#im exaggerating obvs its not like i ran the stats or whatever #but in SO many movies and tv shows #even if there's people of color they're all skinny and abled #like growing up i've known and seen so many fat people. people with cleft lips. people with prosthetic limbs #people with burns. people in wheelchairs. people of all faiths and speaking all languages #like i could go on #and ive been to <15 cities and towns in my life and maybe two of them had populations over 1 million (boston and nyc) #i am not making a bad joke when i say that i see more disabled people in the outlet mall on a wednesday #than ive ever seen on tv or film #like that's legitimately fucked! #such large parts of the earth's population are just left out of media entirely #when they're such large parts of our lives and our world but they're just ignored #its just insane when you think about it #mickey.txt #(like obviously structural change and aid is ultimately more important than representation #but its still messed up how many people are left out of even the background or crowd shots #its really gross to put it mildly)

[wasyago]

the brainrot won

#GUY S i know i haven't posted anything in a while and thats because im working on a big cool project that i really want to finish without- #distractions. but uh. as you can see. ive been distracted 😔. still working on it tho!!!! and im very happy with it turns out its just- #super time and energy consuming so ive tried to limit my intake of other media to not make myself want to draw other stuff #i also haven't read the last two (two already?????) chapters of RnS and im very sad about it and i want to read it but you know that if i- #read it ill want to make fanart and then ill never finish my project :( #SO. sorrey for the lack of art itll be coming when im free to draw!!!!!!! #but also. yes ive watched new life because i dont want to go insane with nothing but this project on my mind and umm. had to take a little- #break to do a couple designs for fun... and to switch it up a bit because for real im going insane i think #ALSO. friend got me into zelda botw and i haven't played a whole lot yet (because project) but ive tried to take some inspiration for- #designs from there. at least for joel and scott. everyone else not so much... #WELL ANYWAYS this is getting long. i should really stop rambling in the tags and just make separate posts for all this but i dont want to #umm. tags. #new life smp #smallishbeans #mythical sausage #geminitay #pearlescentmoon #smajor1995 #inthelittlewood #my art #sketch

[skunkes]

Oh they were not lying its getting bad.

#talkys #maybe its bc id rather do a 24 hr deep investigation before I ask anyone anything but this is insane #thinking about how someone recently told me they looked all over for my comm info when its literally all in my pinned 😭 no u did Not! #i keep seeing info in caption and ppl being like i didnt read the caption 🙄 #which is stupid as fuck but this is literally IN THE VIDEO YOU JUST WATCHED. READ

[ghostly-cabbage]

We need to talk about the worst thing about making AUs....

The fact that then when you inevitably think about crossovers you don't want the crossover with the canon you want it with your specific AU. Your brain worms, your circus, but THEN WHAT?

Oh, yeah, to understand this crossover you need to go read this entirely different fic/series? Girl help 😭 you can't do that

#high-key this post is about the genrex x dp crossover I started way back when and how I don't think i'll ever be able to go back to it #bc fae and I have literally put such a massive amount of work into f.h:s and fleshing out the world and how everything works and #the characters personalities and development that I genuinely do not wanna write something in the canon universe anymore #like f.h:s has become my default way of thinking about Rex in a creative capacity #we're here just to suffer but also experience untold amounts of joy you know #we're really lucky here in the phandom bc fanon is so prevalent that people are willing to get in on the ground floor with any #wacky crazy fun hcs you can dish out #and i love it here for that #but for the smaller fandoms its... you cant expect your readers to already have an understanding of your specific au and bible length hcs #anyway #in a low-key way this post is also about how #last month Fae and i went insane for several days about our gen rex AU version of Rex ina crossover with Murderbot and it was so fun but al #It was just for fun and for us YES but I keep thinking about and it's objectively hilarious to write something that is for a max of 4 ppl #When you really get to it tho it was actually for a max of 2 people and those two people are named Kei and Fae

[aastarions]

astarion as a tailor post-game my beloved

the thought of him designing you the cutest outfits to wear and feels such a sense of pride swell in his chest when you first adorn the beautiful fabrics, he especially loves watching you leave the house in the clothing he’s designed for you because he knows if anyone were to compliment you with suggestive intentions, you’d be quick to grin and say, “thank you! my husband recently put this together, isn’t he just so talented?”

#c is insane about astarion #i think he’d feel a sense of possession because he cant walk in the sun with you just yet #so having you wear the clothes he’s made for you its like hes with you during the day when ur out and about :((( #astarion x reader #i dont usually put my little stuff in the tags but id like to write more of him so this is my pspsps #as in if anyone wants to talk astarion id love to hehe

[kagoutiss]

oot zelda doodle i liked :’-)))

#tloz #ocarina of time #oot #zelda #my handwriting is very very bad so i actually added alt text/image description #which i should already be doing with everything anyway. i wanna go thru and update some old stuff with that too #but yeah anyway. all the stuff this series presents about being Fated To Be Something or Fated To End Up Somewhere #even if that thing or place is ultimately Horrible and the consequences primarily occur off camera or post-canon after the Happy Ending #characters who end the story with pretty much nothing and also you find out later they inadvertently cause a far worse disaster #than even the one they gave up everything to prevent #oot zelda’s infinite number of issues and almost guaranteed lack of happiness or normality for the rest of her life #even after ‘fixing everything’ in literally the best possible way she could figure out how. given everything she knew #and then blaming herself for accidentally allowing everything to go wrong in the first place. by trying to fix it #and she was literally just a kid going insane from prophetic visions while simultaneously being disbelieved by everyone around her #except impa but she’s a whole other situation entirely. with a whole other set of baggage on the other end of the spectrum #i just rambled sos so much oops. anyway yea oot zelda #its fine. i throw up when i think about her. its fine

[chessb0r3d]

i cracked the code.

#believing dirk is the worst guy because its what dirk thinks of himself #ignoring daves bisexuality and think hes a gay man in denial even when he explained hes bisexual #believing john 'im not a homosexual' egbert is explicitly straight while he makes out with his mcconahey and cameron posters more #than he kissed women(literally only once) #believing that rose is an edgy psyhcotic little bitch when she was neglected. she speaks elegantly to cover that shes silly and a total ner #and how did people forget that rose also writes gay wizard fanfiction. reads Wikipedia. and her beautiful artstyle as a result of neglect #(and by neglect meaning having SO MUCH TIME to draw) #jake wasnt into dirk. he also told di that he didnt like how brobot getting touchy with him during strifes #but as part of the repression 4(prospit kids). he refused on changing the bot settings #what jane said about roxy being better when she was drunk. it was fucking sarcasm. its the least insane shit you could say to a best friend #all the kids have issues and of course people get mad over a girl being sarcastic. #when KARKAT said THE SAME THING to rose when she was drunk on the meteor nobody bats an eye #trolls are just grey humans that are bugs. he doesnt get an excuse for being an alien. humans were made from KARKATS BLOOD #jade isnt all silly girl and is so FULL OF HATE towards the trolls. she called karkat a fuckass (VERY FUNNY) to do her a favor #“jade would rather have punched karkat in the fact then had a pleasent conversation with him.” #“she viewed the trolls as rude mean and cruel. and even thought that nepeta was just making fun of her. #despite it being that nepeta just wanted to roleplay and have fun." #dred.loki #I HAVE YET TO ADD MORE. THESE ARE JUST NOTES #homestuck #chss

[wannabemylover]

rewatching the first episode of Hannibal and holy shit I forgot how good this is but it's actually insane that Brian fuller set up the ep like this, he introduces will and Hannibal by first briefly showing them at their core, at the darkest, most vile part of them---we get a glimpse behind the curtain---and then its gone, the curtain is snapped shut and we see their masks, their human suits.

Will empathizes with killers because he likes it, and he wants to kill but he refuses to give into the urge because he knows how much he'll like it and he won't be able to stop. So he lives vicariously through other killers, satisfying his own dark urge by feeding it little morsels of secondhand blood lust. Every crime scene he works gives the urge something that satisfies it, not enough for it to grow, but enough for it be sate. Enough that he can ignore it for long enough that he can walk around and be Professor Will Graham who is Weird, Brash, and Non-sociable.

And Hannibal is a cannibal at night and a psychiatrist by morning.

#hannibal #hannigram #hanniblogging #hannigram brainrot is real #also ive watched the entirety of hannibal like four times and everytime i watch it i still find stuff to lose my mind over #brian fuller the brain that you have #winston my beloved #also plzzzz the way hannibal was just gonna kill jack with like no hesitation #AND the way hannibal was fucking smitten from the moment he spoke to will #like wills all like i hate eye contract its distracting as hell and hannibal is just looking at him like 😍😍😍 #plss you are embarrassing yourself #also question #when will was like how do you see me and hannibal said that shit about the mongoose and the snakes and will just looks at him like ???? #do yall think he was confused because he was genuinely like dude what the actual fuck are you saying #or because he understood it #and the woman at hobbs' work being like two guys from the fbi #and neither of them are technically from the fbi #just two insane dudes having a first date by larping an active fbi investigation #omg and when will shoots hobbs he realizes that oh fuck this is my chance this is my chance to kill and finally satisfy that dark urge #so after he shoots him once he just keeps shooting shooting shooting till its impossible for hobbs to survive for hobbs to be dead #till it was will that killed him

[kaeyachi]

Kaeya had always been an efficient and hard-working individual (he had to be to support Diluc in the background as his brother rose thru the ranks after all).

He has so much free time because he completes all his work way ahead of schedule. And if he still has enough time, he adds more to the workload in secret.

And once all of that was done and over with, he makes time for everyone. He has to. He feels as if every moment has to be given to someone else.

No one knows how he does it. No one has to know.

Every mission has a dozen strategies in line, and every battle plan is made with efficiency in mind. His perfect record will not be tarnished. He can't risk it (even if it baffles others that he would willingly activate a ruin guard just to prevent a failed mission. Jean disagrees with his methods, but Kaeya can say that the results say otherwise)

He needs to be quick.

Efficient.

Perfect.

And so he comes and goes like the wind.

Kaeya values time because he knew every second counted. He can't just stand there as if he were frozen. Time could run out in an instant.

Kaeya had only been late once his entire life.

He'd rather he never be late ever again.

It took one day of being of being imperfect for everything to fall apart. On that tragic day...had he gotten there on time... then maybe...

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" Come on, let's get moving, traveler. We're not frozen in place after all. " Kaeya teasingly says. He stiffles a giggle at the traveler's exhasperated sigh.

"Yeah yeah, we've heard enough of you calling us a slacker. Can't you be a bit more patient?" Paimon whines at him.

Kaeya snorts, but acquiesces, hiding the shaking of his hands at the thought of being idle.

He imagines hearing a clock ticking.

Kaeya knows that that is his own problem. He tries his hardest to relax as he waits for the traveler to finish whatever they're making on the alchemy table because, seriously, it is supposed to be a relaxing day. There's nothing major going on, and his schedule is once again empty as intended. What's the hurry?

Kaeya taps his foot on the ground as he waits. He wishes he could take his own damn advice when he tells others to relax.

#kaeyachi randoms #kaeya #kaeya alberich #this is actually shorter than it originally was can yall believe? #kaeya with anxiety truther there i said it #kaeya cant stand being IDLE #get it? get it? #you see that is a play of words in reference to when he is stood idle on our screens. he is one of the more verbally impatient characters #and we also see it reflected on his actions both in fighting and at work. he has a speed boost bonus and if he isnt teleporting he is #actually moving so fast that he seems like it. this is what i also concluded that results him in large amounts of free time that only amber #seemed to be hardpressed about. the people of mondstadt find him reliable and approachable despite the lax attitude and frequent nights at #angels share. we also had lore tidbits before of kaeya straight up saying he finished all his work and jean saying that he also did the #backlogged ones. It is actually insane that we hear him relaxing frequently and i bet its not because of the lack of horses COZ LOOK AT HOW #BUSY THE OTHER CAPTAINS ARE. Also id like to think that he is a toned down noelle and that is why jean told him to watch over her training #give us noelle and kaeya interactions pls i kinda need it tbh #to all those that reached this far into the notes i actually have more to say so get ready #if it wasnt clear the only day he was late was when crepus died. everything fell apart for him that day so i can see some obsessive need to #just keep running around and doing things as efficient as possible. I also think that he found the knights slow and inefficient in several #occasions and he is willing to put them in the line of fire just to get their hearts pumping with adrenaline (and fear lol). idk kaeya is #just so anxiety-coded. impatience-core. Mr. dont waste my time type of guy. and also wow look i found a way to make his idles become angst #silly me ehe #oh youre still here? how about i tell you that kaeya-efficiency-alberich probably knows where everyone is at any time of the day? #can we honestly please give him more free time i need more of him tbh #fun reminder that bro is working around 3-4 jobs casually lmao #i also just realized that the notes is a whole nother post on its own #AND THE ACTUAL FUNNY PART IS I CAN STILL ELABORATE MORE ON THIS LMAO #wait let me add this one tiny idea too but he thinks time is so valuable. bro lost 2 dads and lost time with his bro + he significantly #lessened his time at dawn winery for quite some time. i can see why he is extroverted now.

[bakudekublogblog]

izuku didn’t just have to see katsuki’s dead body, he also had to see the fucking all might card right next to him. physical proof that katsuki always had a tender spot in his heart for izuku and their childhood together. evidence that katsuki fucking LOVED HIM THIS WHOLE TIME and now it’s TOO LATE. it’s actually so devastatingly romantic and fucking tragic. izuku really only finds out katsuki loved him all along when he thinks he’s lost him forever.

#bakudeku #bkdk #and then kacchan comes back and izuku stares at him with such open longing like #who can blame him he knows now #how can he not know!!!! #what else can it mean to hang on to a little card you got together years ago #and it’s right by his face too?? #he was probably looking at it as he died??? #it makes me fucking insane every time I think about Katsuki’s sentimental ass hanging onto that stupid card #carrying it around with him #his biggest regret not getting it signed #no matter what he never could bring himself to let it go #just has it on him at any given time apparently #like have you heard the phrase carrying a torch for someone #bc that’s #the metaphor is right there. #AND IZUKU HAS TO SEE IT HE HAS TO LOOK AT IT #WHEN HE THINKS ITS TOO LATE #HE LOVED ME THE WHOLE TIME AND ITS TOO LATE #ITS PEAK ROMANCE ITS SO BEAUTIFUL #I’M SO GLAD ITS NOT TOO LATE #in my mind bkdk is already canon bc this is just so damning #he only calms down when he’s told maybe it isn’t too late after all too #it’s so romance it’s to tragic it’s so dramatic it’s so JUICY ITS SO GOOD #I COULD TALK ABOUT IT FOREVER AND JUST MIGHT

[beaulesbian]

maybe it's how luffy's love for zoro is more subtle in the animanga (even if it's everpresent), and people usually more point out zoro's devotion to luffy than how luffy cares for him., that the live action show really went and made luffy say to zoro: I need you. It's so simple, I need you. to instantly get across just how important zoro is to luffy

#bc its so simple to both versions of luffy!! #just thinking about soft zolu and their love for each other ;-; #zolu #one piece #the opla “i need you” is just rlly nice to hear #and zoro takes it so much to his heart. makes it his whole personality afterwards #(not rlly but you know. from like devotion lvl 50 to lvl 1000 in the span of those words) #animanga zoro immediately saw luffy as his captain in the chapter they won their first fight together #already accepting this would be their future and all his insane amount of loyalty and trust were there almost immediately #and the live action took it slower with showing luffy how he needs his first mate to be by his side #otherwise he can't properly function! they weren't a complete team when zoro was healing #why are they so much of all this?? ;-; #mine #gif:zolu #gif:writing #gif:opla

[finngualart]

the winternight trilogy has me frothing at the mouth and i wanted to try and capture some of the characters

#winternight trilogy #morozko #the bear #medved #vasilisa petrovna #katherine arden #sketches #i cant even remember when i last made art based on a book #its so nice to not have to worry about likenesses of actors or realism for a change #and just try and capture the vibes of characters #morozko is a skeletal emo twink i think #medved is just odin by another name (you cant change my mind) #and vasilisa vasilisaaa i love her so much id die for her #i want to do more drawings of her presenting as masculine bc im insane about it #and of solovey #and of medved messing around with konstantin #but its time to sleep

[thenobleprincex]

sometimes i just start thinking about the twelfth doctor and i just.... *screams*

#i do what i do because its right #do you think i care about you so little that betraying me would make a difference #and when i close my eyes!!! #clara am i a good man #i just... like i can't even say i have a favorite doctor and i find those kinds of conversations very silly #but 12th does drive me insane in very particular ways #and they all have great speeches that i love deeply but his wake something absolutely feral in me #and i was also a 12th/clara girlie so there's also that lol #but i love him and his fierceness so very very much #12th doctor #twelfth doctor #doctor who #mine

[yellow-yarrow]

hmmm. if the samaran meth is something that helps you be fearless in the pale. and the opposite of the pale is matter. and there are sentences in the book like "matter rages in her" when talking about Malin taking the drug.. and there is the part where a homunculus forms and then "it was never there" - like the pale made it disappear (absolute negation) - but the drug is likely one of the causes for their disappearance - and someone had a theory that malin might have had a "baby pale" in her. and there's a theory that there is something in her that she wants to delete from the world. then how the fuck does this all work

#mr kurvitz exblain what do you mean the pale is light and light is love and love is hardcore and anodic music will contain the swallow #i keep running into circular logic and contradictions when i think about the lore sometimes #i bet it all makes sense its just. im looking at these breadcrumbs with a magnifying glass. drawing no conclusions or insane ones

[bandtrees]

one of the most infuriating things i’ve realized about fandom spaces lately to me has been some people’s inability to just trust a story and engage with its premise and what it’s trying to express. “canon sucks i can do it better lol!!!” is one of the most annoying attitudes to me and i do kinda hate how prevalent it’s gotten (in actually good polished media that isn’t to be engaged with like that)

like between people who read things in as bad a faith as possible and ceaselessly criticize things they supposedly like, and people who only care about media for the sake of making cookie cutter self-indulgent fandom content, it feels sometimes like the most controversial thing you can do in a fandom is “actually liking the source material for what it is”

#babbles #like yeah aus n such are fun but sometimes i see things in fandoms that make me like ‘do you even LIKE the source material anymore???’ #‘just make ocs man!!!’ #rewatches of source materials should be mandatory people go too insane when they start forgetting what they’re engaging with #to say nothing of the very specific phenomena of. intentional bad faith readings of media #like people who went too damn hard in ‘be critical of what you consume’ and just look SO. MISERABLE. What About Having Fun! #like as a former dr fan. dr fans. is it great No i outgrew dr. but i think it’s better to accept outgrowing it than being #the most miserable ‘fan’ ever like UUUGHH THIS SUCKS WHY DO I LIKE IT ITS SO BAAADDD UUGGHHH #and criticizing it 24/7 like i don’t like dr much anymore but there’s a very specific… Type of dr fan #where im like ‘ykno you can just leave if you hate it so bad?’ #no need to self flagellate over it just accept you either like something kinda mediocre or just move on nobody’s keepin ya here

[realbeefman]

peak charmac is when charlie slips up in an argument and calls mac “ronnie” and for just a second all the complications wash away and they’re left standing inches apart with the knowledge that this is the person you stole candy from the corner shop with. this is the guy who was there beside you to throw rocks at trains when things sucked. the boy who kept threatening to beat up shawn demont with his super-awesome ninja skills when that asshole stole your bikes and the kid who bit that asshole teacher after she told you to stop demonstrating your super-awesome ninja skills during class. and then reality and time come rushing through the space between them like the icy water running off a mountaintop in spring because, of course, growing together means knowing exactly where to swing the axe to make it hurt the most

#kind of went insane midway thru writing this. sorry i just reached the lesbian sex part of hannibal and im Feeling stuff #saw someone on twitter call ships you like but don’t obsess over snack ships and THAT’S charmac for me #i do not think about them often but when i do OH BOY!!! #charmac #charlie kelly #mac mcdonald #its always sunny in philadelphia #its always sunny #iasip #always sunny