#who can blame him he knows now

[bakudekublogblog]

izuku didn’t just have to see katsuki’s dead body, he also had to see the fucking all might card right next to him. physical proof that katsuki always had a tender spot in his heart for izuku and their childhood together. evidence that katsuki fucking LOVED HIM THIS WHOLE TIME and now it’s TOO LATE. it’s actually so devastatingly romantic and fucking tragic. izuku really only finds out katsuki loved him all along when he thinks he’s lost him forever.

#bakudeku #bkdk #and then kacchan comes back and izuku stares at him with such open longing like #who can blame him he knows now #how can he not know!!!! #what else can it mean to hang on to a little card you got together years ago #and it’s right by his face too?? #he was probably looking at it as he died??? #it makes me fucking insane every time I think about Katsuki’s sentimental ass hanging onto that stupid card #carrying it around with him #his biggest regret not getting it signed #no matter what he never could bring himself to let it go #just has it on him at any given time apparently #like have you heard the phrase carrying a torch for someone #bc that’s #the metaphor is right there. #AND IZUKU HAS TO SEE IT HE HAS TO LOOK AT IT #WHEN HE THINKS ITS TOO LATE #HE LOVED ME THE WHOLE TIME AND ITS TOO LATE #ITS PEAK ROMANCE ITS SO BEAUTIFUL #I’M SO GLAD ITS NOT TOO LATE #in my mind bkdk is already canon bc this is just so damning #he only calms down when he’s told maybe it isn’t too late after all too #it’s so romance it’s to tragic it’s so dramatic it’s so JUICY ITS SO GOOD #I COULD TALK ABOUT IT FOREVER AND JUST MIGHT

[delizbin]

what a difference a night can make…

#jesus it really is all about choices isn’t it #some smooth because god only knows how much haymitch needs it #and me as well to be honest #it’s like… catching fire to mockingjay transition #he aged like 40 years in a few months who can blame him #somebody hugs this man right now for gods sake #i love him so much #haymitch abernathy #effie trinket #the hunger games #thg fanart #hayffie fanart #hayffie #thank you #my illustration #also changed my signature for some reason #new year reasons I guess #watch me go on a spiral I dare you #me and mitch are literally one single being #i am so sorry that book!haymitch had to go through all pf that alone #I am sure he tried to take effie with him that night as well #alas #thank goodness for the movie canon

[finexbright]

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#as i said i'm only now catching up on what happened at red rocks and honestly i'm just so confused as to #why people are getting hate mail for being at a show???? like unless you were right there at the show you will NOT know what's going on #you can't just ''leave'' a venue because there's security measures ensuring that people don't run and cause a stampede #i get that the team there sucked and should've been much better equipped for an outdoor venue but why the fuck are we blaming the fans???? #and then being mad at louis??? yeah i get that his tweet wasn't the best but i'd imagine that he was trying to help out as much as he could #ensuring fans were safe and taken care of. pretty sure he is the one paying all hospital bills and stuff as well #yeah i know he's an artist and he has people doing things for him but also it's louis. he might not have been at ground zero #but i bet he was doing everything he could to help get fans to safety and he had to tweet something amidst all that #just to reassure fans a bit more and he did what he could #besides. i'm sorry but instead of being all ''louis/his team should've done more'' can we all just make sure that the fans #who were actually in that hail storm and who actually got horribly injured and who actually went through such a scary situation #are feeling okay? like why are we arguing about trivial things when what matters the most out of this situation is the fans and their safety #i honestly need people who were not at the venue and people who do not understand how traumatic things can be #to just shut up and log off #anyways to everyone present at red rocks i'm sending you so much love and i'm so sorry something so traumatic happened #i hope everyone is safe and is being treated for their injuries 💌

[zeb-z]

Absolutely love that every clone still working with the Empire that Crosshair has a mission with all go AWOL immediately after interacting with him. It draws him unwanted attention from the Admiral because it looks like he’s the key in the other clones getting radicalized and leaving to fight against the Empire instead of for them, but really it’s just because Crosshair doesn’t hesitate when they do to follow a clearly despicable order, clarifying that the Empire really isn’t the Republic they all fought for and that it isn’t peace they’re maintaining.

He’s not some rebel or otherwise, he just makes such shitty decisions that the other clones are like oh yeah the Empire is fucked up im out. That’s so fucking funny to me, actually.

#the bad batch. howzer and his group. tbb on kamino again. now commander fucking cody himself #THE commander Cody. imagine doing something so fucked that you’re the driving factor in getting commander cody to leave. incredible #it’s incredible. his track record is phenomenal. maybe if he wasn’t such a power hungry taken over by propaganda stubborn dickwad #I’d be impressed #sorry crosshair apologists I’m sick of this man making bad choices and blaming it on the rest of the bad batch #yes there’s more to it then him being stubborn he’s got his feelings of abandonment and the fact that it was nailed in before he got his #chip out doesn’t help #if he’s even telling the truth about that who fucking knows dude #but come fucking on now. i can understand him that doesn’t mean I like him. hope he comes to his senses at least #the bad batch #tbb #Star Wars #sw #commander cody #crosshair #the bad batch spoilers #z speaks

[martyrbat]

detective comics #509

[ID: Bruce Wayne sleeping in his penthouse, his eyes squeezed shut as the narration reads, ‘Gordon's strained laugh sounds hollow, but it echos in the Batman's mind... and haunts his dreams...” Bruce awakens to a hand on his shoulder and before he can think, he's twisting it and holding it down. The panel expands, revealing the hand belongs to Alfred as he's almost toppling over! He cries out, “M-master Bruce—my arm!” as Bruce groggily realizes who it is. He lets go at once as Alfred moves to the end of the bed and holds his arm while stammering an apology, “S-sorry, s-sir... Sorry if I startled you.” Bruce looks at him with aghast as he cries out, “My god, Alfred—I almost broke your arm!” Alfred reasons, “You must have been having a nightmare, sir.” as Bruce sits up and puts his face in his hands. He weepily dismisses, “A nightmare—what kind of an excuse is that? Old friend... forgive me...” Alfred reassures, “Nothing to forgive, sir. Just bad nerves, sir.” END ID]

#THIS ONE !!!! #bruce and his neverending guilt complex #just immediately regretful and so apologetic as alfred is quick to reassure and dismiss it #holding his arm because of fucking course it still hurts but when bruce lifts his head he stops .... #always thinking of how he was a caretaker for bruce since he was a small child/infant and how many little things bruce does now will remind #alfred of those days #he likes his grilled cheese q certain way. he cries if he thinks he hurt someone. he blames himself for a lot. he gets bad nightmares #like so much has stayed the same as so much continues to change but the love and care thry have for each other is always there #(<- guy who is always number one in bruce is disabled and needs a caretaker but also in how the people around him know bruce loves and cares #about them. its not about not being loved its about how heavy his love is and how bruce will subconsciously use his love to harm himself #(from blaming himself to his parents murders and jason's future death to something as simple as this and how he'll beat himself up #for hurting alfred and not able to protect him as well from himself) #(like his mental illness is forever using his stupid bleeding heart against himself as a reason for why hes awful) #this is all fully sidetracked im just fucking wired today sorry lol #but while im talking and something more related to the panel itself:: #after this line bruce looks up and says ‘the batman suffering from bad nerves? lets hope not. gordon can worry about the election but i #cannot afford to. still its not just the campaign. lately so many other things are pressuring me—mostly as bruce wayne’ #and like !!!! #it wasn't about batman! it wasnt about his burdens and responsibilities!! alfred was telling HIM. BRUCE. that its okay #and bruce automatically ‘its not because batman cant behave like this’ like !!!! #batman is the priority in the sense of he thinks he needs it to protect people. even his family even alfred and every single stranger #he won't ever allow himself any grace even while sleeping because batman cannot afford those ‘slips’ #just GOD 70s/80s batman makes me insane for forever and ever amen #c: detective comics | i: 509 #crypt's panels #bruce wayne #alfred pennyworth #alfred & bruce #‘awake or asleep—it scarcely matters anymore. the nightmare never seems to end.’ #<- nightmare bruce tag <333

[mejomonster]

On a serious note, I do feel mysterious case lotusbook has a lot of sincere themes about getting older, realities of responsibility and dreams realized, how it's difficult to succeed and not always the direct path one expects, how there's value in little aspects of life. Almost every li lianhua scene seems to be about that to some degree. The murder cases aren't particularly deep as far as super complicated to figure out or Able to be predicted super well (since they don't always give all the details in the initial setup), but the themes about who was killed and why do connect to li lianhuas situation.

#mysterious lotus casebook #lb #by all this i mean: a lot of the positive things li lianhua AND di feisheng say are fairly good advice tbh #like a fei? hes like you need to be fair in your decisions for your actions to be worthwhile and earned #li lianhua: sometimes being the one taking all responsibility was bad for you and the people you led who felt burdened #by You taking the burden. and stepping back can be a respectable choice. #cooking is more difficult than fighting. keeping yourself alive is Hard and its the hardest thing we do #and its admirable even when youll never be a hero never be able to achieve what those around you might #your peers are worthwhile if they choose diffetently than you (qian wanmian isnt lesser for not choosing to lead a sect and instrad #dissolving it. di feisheng doesnt think li lianhua is no longef worth his time even though hes weaker now. li lianhua is still someonr he #wants to see alive see brlieve in himself see passionate about things. the monks think its never too late to #reconnect to people again. that people who love you will want you and accept you even when you fail. #even fang duobing by knowing li lianhua gets the experience of someone who wants him alive #and fondly smiles and Is proud of him. evrn if hes learning and fails and moody #fond of him in a way his family wasnt that strangers lied about due to his status #in a way that he clung to li xianyi for ALSO seeing value in him when he felt he didnt live up to expectstions of the world #its the Kindness of little moments of acceptance. of being kind to yourself and kind to others (even down to #not wantjng to kill suspects but take them to trial. not wanting scapegoats blamed. which arent usually done in wuxia) #its the fact this show is quite about gentleness and healing (i see the Love and Redemption screen writing ismilarities) #rather than about power struggles. do you know what i mean?

[strawberrytalia]

LMAOOOO Duke was such a dick for this 😭 “one of his ex-partners” what did tim do to you personally to warrant that

#i understand now why duke fans hc him beefing with tim #BC THATS SO RUDE LMAO #well i know on a deeper level it’s just that duke is being insensitive and a bit self-centered #he wants to help!! but he also disrespects someone who literally DIED #a former ROBIN at that #someone who was ACTUALLY robin lmfao #duke can get really wrapped up in his own thoughts and desires at times #hence why he comes off as patronizing or conversely not empathetic #like dude the man’s son died and you call him an ex partner and blame his death on him 💀 #duke thomas #see i can point out when my fave has flaws!! #i can point out when duke is being a grade a asshole!!!

[kennabeth]

dustfinger crying over brianna... me punching a hole in the wall...

#this is the only time he actually cries in the whole series and he's just #silently weeping because he doesnt know her he doesnt know how to know her #his angry little girl who took every moment apart as a rejection is now an angry big girl who wants to know why she wasnt worth staying for #because he was her entire world!! she adored him and copied him and followed him and he left her all the same #and that hurt goes beyond being able to blame on mo for taking him away for good #and dustfinger fucking knows it #he tells us he was a shit father and he can regret it with every fiber of his being and he can try again with farid and jehan #and he can get on his knees and beg for brianna's forgiveness #but it's not going to bring that unhurt little girl back #and he is so afraid of her hating him forever #says kenna #inkheart #dustfinger #brianna #want this in my tag for her #anyway do you all remember that silk scarf that dustfinger uses in inkheart to wrap mo's arm after basta's dogs get him? #ive always thought that was for brianna since he always brought her pretty things back #and ive not once in 15 years been able to come up with another reason why hed have that on him

[fionnaskyborn]

THE IPOD IS WORKING

I REPEAT

THE IPOD

IS WORKING

#OKAY CONTEXT A FEW MONTHS AGO I BOUGHT AN IPOD CLASSIC‚ THE A1238 MODEL FROM 2007 TO BE EXACT #ON THE FLEA MARKET FOR THREE EUROS #THIS BAD BABY IS CAPABLE OF STORING EIGHTY GIGS OF MUSIC ON IT #TROUBLE IS‚ I WAS IN TOO MUCH SHIT TO GO LOOKING FOR A CABLE I COULD ATTEMPT TO CHARGE IT WITH #(the people at the flea market in my hometown are usually very honest about whether or not a piece of tech is working but i'll always have #my doubts until i see for myself) #TODAY I FINALLY MANAGED TO BRING MYSELF TO GO TO MY FAVORITE TECH STORE AND AFTER SOME DIGGING THEY ACTUALLY FOUND A 30-PIN CABLE #(it took them a while because the younger of the two dudes who were in the shift didn't exactly know what he was looking for. he brought a #package to the older guy and he said ''that's a samsung cable.'' in his defense‚ that cable and the actual 30-pin are incredibly similar in #shape so i don't blame him lmao‚ it was an honest mistake) #and i plugged that bad boy in tonight and NOT ONLY IS IT GIVING SIGNS OF LIFE (CHARGING)‚ IT SENT ME RIGHT TO THE MENU SCREEN AS SOON AS IT #GOT TO A CERTAIN PERCENTAGE!!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #NOW I FINALLY HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO GO THROUGH MY ENTIRE YOUTUBE DOC AND EXTRACT EVERY SINGLE SONG I'VE LISTENED TO IN THE PAST THREE YEAR #(that's as far as they date the watch history logs‚ sadly - they start deleting them after some point so everything before late 2020 is los #to time‚ but fortunately enough there is PLENTY left!) #CAN I GET A HELLLLLL YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY #logs #I AM IMMEASURABLY HAPPY ABOUT THIS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[milimeters-morales]

filling the inside of my head with ferrofluid acau peter seeing himself as the caretaker of Miles once a year and a few months have passed and he’s bettered himself as a person but miles has finally had enough so anytime peter acts like a decent human being and shows a more casual, calm, and caring side, miles is so tense and creeped out and at some points just asks peter to snap out of it and be mean to him again because he’s just so used to peter’s old ways. peter never knew how nice he used to be before his memory got wiped, and the people who are happy he’s more like his old self now don’t matter, because the one person whose reaction and life he genuinely cares about more than himself finds him terrifying and is waiting for the other shoe to drop and get hurt again because peter’s further messed up his perception of kindness so badly

#like IT DOESNT MATTERRRRR NOTHING MATTERS TO HIM BUT MILES FLINCHING WHEN HES GENUINELY BEING NICE. #MILES IS JUST SO SCARED NOW. HES NOT HAD A STABLE LIFE IN AGES. MATT CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH AND PETER HAS ALREADY DONE SO MUCH HARM #AAUGHHHHH #PETER WILL MOVE QUICK TO HELP MILES WITH SOMETHING AND MILES IS ABOUT TO START ATTACKING #BUT PETER CAN NEVER BLAME HIM…. HE CURSES THOSE HEALING ABILITIES HE KNOWS HE DESERVES THE REMINDERS OF ALL THE HURT HES CAUSED THIS CHILD #BUT ITS LIKE THE ONE THING HES DOING RIGHT IS WRONG !!! SOMEONE RUN HIM OVER #miles already didn’t trust easily. and a year plus some with a man who sees you as a lesser animal on the best of days. i’m sick #actual cryptid au #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #peter parker #m&m posts

[yappacadaver]

and it's like despite all the awful shit he's done and continues to do, like, i get it. he's employed like 24/7/365. he never got to live a life, despite spending a childhood clinging to the hope of having one someday. He knew companionship and love but lost it and can't ever get it back. His circumstances are so anomalous and gruesome that it completely isolates him from pretty much every other human being on the planet. he knows hell is real and he is basically guaranteed to go there if he can't break this demon curse thing.

like it doesn't make the kidnapping and spreading the curse around any better, but i do get it.

#like personally i don't blame him for the actual murders #and it's hard to blame him for hiring people without telling them because like lol. #anyone who's like 'oh he should just tell ppl about the demons' like what are you onnnnnn if you went to a job interview with a creepy old #guy and he started talking about demons and hauntings and shit you would think you're being pranked or that he's lost his damn mind #and fuck offffff with the 'ohhh not me im a quirky bean i'd love to take a job if the interview was like that' like sure. ok. maybe YOU wou #but what are the odds that milford in 1998 coming off the satanic panic has a thousand yous running around waiting to be hired #like i honestly dont have any suggestions for how he could have handled the hiring situation any better #now the actual JOB i have plenty of feedback #like yea he should be there to train your ass against the demons lol we got more hands-on guidance for the embalming (the non deadly part) #but like the whole 'raymond is evil cause he kills possessed ppl and hires people without telling them abt demons' #do you think that old man can run the whole mortuary by himself and also have time to teach classes #until he inevitably dies from either stress or the demons and is sent to hell (which he knows is real)? #it's my understanding that by having others around who can help him fight the demons he'll have the spare time to figure out how to #break out of the demon curse or break possession or literally any useful information that could treat the disease and not the symptoms #he is running out of time!!! he is only getting older and the demons are only getting more frequent and someday he won't be fit enough #to properly banish them!!! if you even care!!!!!!!!! #fucking tag essay lmao #mr delver i wont u...

[minty-bunni]

Danny could totally blame some of his ghost fight injuries on Dash if he times things right. He avoids questions about how he managed to break his arm AND gets the added bonus of making Dash look bad.

He could use this to get out of gym for awhile as well.

#danny phantom #lets be real #he is a petty little shit in canon #he melted Dash's shoes to the floor once and used his powers to mess with him so many times #no one can tell me that if an injury got revealed during Dash's bullying getting physical that he wouldn't blame him #and then play injured for awhile just to get back at him #dash grabs him by the injured arm he reacts in pain BOOM Dash looks like a jerk who breaks arms #danny has a big bruise on his back? dash slams him into a locker and now he is known as the guy who shoved a kid so hard their entire back #bruised #see if he'll finally get in trouble now #danny's bones heal fast and he can just use intangibility to take the cast on and off #he just keeps it on when people who don't know his secret are around for the time it takes human bones to heal #oh I'm sorry I cant do gym class this month your football star broke my leg

[skrunksthatwunk]

found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now #sigh.. i dont know. i dont know. #at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him #no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow? #it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my #best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker. #i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time. #but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh #he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him. #im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to #say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more? #just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am #and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him #and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him. #she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on. #she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken #but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him #and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not #like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him? #so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her #and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all #the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess #like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea. #but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.

[thebleedingeffect]

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#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks. #ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-

[martyrbat]

batman and superman vs vampires and werewolves #2

#feeling fucking insane about this actually #bruce talking out loud to jason's memorial case—sharing the events of the night with his robin—with his son. #dicks response..... that lightheartedness before being slightly snarky at the realization.... #‘havent been called that in a long time’ before realizing bruce was almost hoping for it to be jason despite how illogical it may be #‘have room for one more?’ ‘might as well throw a ghost in the mix’ AND BRUCE REACHING FOR HIM BUT STOPPING HIMSELF!!! #like yeah jason coming back is cool and all (hate most of his red hood character lmao) but!!! this!!!! #haunting the narrative and influencing bruce and being a driving force in bruces still despite his death!!!!! #HELL MORE BECAUSE OF IT EVEN #bruce experienced the greatest lost of his life twice. the first as a kid and his parents deaths and how it was a driving force to make him #dedicate his entire life to fighting crime and helping others. but then he experienced it again but now as the parent #he now knows firsthand the other side of that coin. he knows both sides of grief and mourning and lost #first as a helpless child. then as batman. he became batman to prevent this from ever happening yet he still couldn't prevent it #making him push himself more and more because he still wasnt good enough. he still failed. #he still has only himself to blame for all 3 murders. #like losing jason was the thing that tipped him over on he cant ever have that civilian life hes yearned for and wanted #because there's always going to be scared little boys with blood on their hands that needs help. just whos blood it is can and has differ #anyways. bruce talking to jason still while working and trying to help others..... man. #c: batman and superman vs vampires and werewolves | i: 2 #crypt's panels #batman #bruce wayne #dick grayson #nightwing #jason todd #robin ii #bruce & dick #bruce & jason

[dangoulains-devotion]

thinking just a bit too hard about how the added depth given to tifa and aerith's friendship only increases the weight threatening to crush tifa after the forgotten capital, she already had so much to carry on her weary shoulders, she's going to have to carry even more when mideel happens, and it doesn't even stop after meteorfall, ohg od oh i love her so much i

#(sobbing and crying and snotting everywhere) AERITH GAVE HER SOMEONE TO CONFIDE IN ON SUCH A TUMULTUOUS JOURNEY #SOMEONE SHE COULD BE AS CLOSE TO FULLY RELAXED AS POSSIBLE #SOMEONE TO GOSSIP WITH OR SHARE HER CONCERNS OR JUST. BE A NORMAL GIRL WITH #YUFFIE'S THERE BUT SHE'S JUST A KID AND TIFA WOULD NEVER WANT TO HARM THE AIR OF CAREFREE CHILDISHNESS SHE MANAGES TO MAINTAIN EVEN IF #ITS BECAUSE YUFFIE IS HIDING THINGS THAT ARE CRUSHING HER #but poor tifa . gentle tifa. is now left to regret. to blame herself. #she has barret who acts like a father figure to her sure - but despite how much she cares about him and values her frienship with him #he's not aerith. he's not someone she can just gossip about first loves with. not someone she can fully Relate to. if you get what i mean #she is left to trace back the thread of how poor aerith got caught in this mess #she was the one to ask aerith to save marlene. but how did they get there? aerith refused to let cloud be a bystander in wall market #how did that happen? she made a risky choice that put her in a position where their paths crossed. why? because cloud was briefly lost #during the bombing mission. why did the bombing mission happen? she couldn't stop it. ETC ETC #NONE OF IT WAS HER FAULT... BUT SHE NEVER WANTED TO DRAG INNOCENT PEOPLE INTO THIS AT ANY SINGLE POINT #AND NOW SOMEONE WHO QUICKLY BECAME A CLOSE FRIEND IS GONE oh lord my heart #all of this added onto the things like how alone she was in nibelheim... it was just her and her dad for some years after the boys all left #and then the Incident happens and she loses that last person she had... and to an extent another she didn't even know was right there(cloud #god i could talk about her and how she has suffered more than jesus for ages (happy easter. lmao) #FF7 Rebirth spoilers #just in case?? for anyone who's only playing the remakes i guess. since this was basically already there the remakes just elaborate on it #i think about 'we found you!' 'i guess you did!' SO OFTEN #these two girls mean the world to me and i will not let you reduce them to love interest rivals #when tifa ran over to aerith's body i think everyone in the world heard my heart shattering into dust #these thoughts are a bit disjointed and don't articulate well what i mean but god. god. i am thinking about her today