#ive got 3 interests in my brain rn but

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ahaha we r playing it fast and fucking loose out here in the middle of fucking nowhere #like for real. dangerous fucking day. why? bc being around ppl stresses me out so fucking much i cant function #we've done 16hrs of driving in the last 3 days and i have not eaten much bc i get so stressed in restaurants #and so many things either bother my braib or my stomach and nothing tastes good and i csnt advocate for myself and if someone else tries to #advocate for me i get freaked out and paranoid abt being watched #so yeah. low on food and im so neurotic that i cant pee in public restrooms. which is not good so i dont drink much which is double not #good. which is to say that i got up todsy at 6am in an undernourished condition and then did fucking like 8hrs of field work in #the fucking desert. real real bad move. do not fucking do that. my pee looks so bad. god if i dont have a panic attack or burst into tears #by the end of the week it'll b a miracle. im already going all weird. i have v little bandwidth to pretend to b human then i do field work #and it all goes out the window bc im focused and trying to get things done asap and if things arent efficient i start to freak out. so ppl #will try to joke or talk to me and i just stare at them for a beat too long bc my brain is lagging and its all awkward. just like dont talk #to me and let me get this over with. i basically did lunges for like 5hrs my legs r gonna hurt so bad and we have 4 more days. like it was #bad today. like the undergrad with us also thought so. i feel so bad 4 him but hes a good sport. i dont kno whats gonna happen the rest of #the week. i got back todsy and wandered around bc there r like 3 rooms in this field house and i csnt relax if someone else is in the room #i went outside and ate a jelly sandwich sitting on the ground like a weirdo. like im pretty sure im noticeably being weird bc i do try to b #slightly charismatic normally but rn im stripped to my base elements like. oh ur talking to me? ok u arent saying anything interesting so #im moving on. im not gonna speak unless i absolutely have to and im gonna find a corner to hide away in. pls do not contact #hopefully im so stressed ill skip my period bc i do not wanna deal with that on top of everything. and the fact that im wide fucking awake #at like 11.30 after the day ive had is not looking like a good sign on that front. its a sign if fucking crazy. im laying #here on this bunkbed in a too warm room. no pillow bc im a freak and i dont wanna sleep bc im not tried and i cant sleep around other ppl #ugh so many bad vibes. do not do what i did. pls. that was real dangerous. #god i think that was at least a 13 or 14hr day. fuck that. i don't even care abt this project and im worried that's showing #not to mention the bad thing i did like a month back when i was losing my mind has caught up to me. its fine. awkwardly annoying but fine #hhhh actions have consequences ☹️ #tw food #unrelated

[polaraffect]

having access to money & having a brain that likes to hyperfixate are two things that should not exist within the same person

#damien.txt #and yet here i am #currently hyperfixating on ensemble stars. doing everything i can to not flood my followers with enstars content bc. man. #uhhh but i spent.......... $40.......... on........... pasha cards....... #which. what a choice. i feel like by the time they come in they're not going to spark joy like they are rn but sjkfhgsjkf #alas. it is done. and now we live with the consequences #like having 40 less dollars in my bank account #tangent here for a second but hang on #so i recently got this corkboard thing for my wall bc i transferred rooms in my apartment & wanted new decor #and my room generally speaking has a sort of. nature dark academia look. #like it's mostly browns & greens with a very sort of academic vibe to a lot of the decor #but. for the corkboard. what im thinking is maybe it should become my like. expressions of 'cringe'. #bc as much as like. dark academia & nature & books are aesthetics i vibe with and things i like. #i also have other interests! a lot of them! namely things that are considered very cringe by an outside audience though lol #but i think i would like things about that in my room. so i think im going to make that board the dedicated space for like #postcards and drawings and. well. pasha cards that are my more 'cringe' interests #bc cringe culture is dead even though ive said cringe like 4 times in these tags <3 #okay thanks for reading i will maybe get back to fob posting on the regular soon if my brain decides to be normal once classes start lol

[braimrotting]

ive never used this before but qsmp is pulling apart my skull and throwing my brain around rn.

PARTICULARLY my guy philza

q!phil has overcome all my waking moments and i need everyone to hear. this guy is so paranoid yet gets into every situation. hes like paranoid in the opposite way that bad is. bad prepares for every possibly situation and makes sure he has every item for it while phil just ensures he never faces bad situations.

its so obvious in how he like scuffs the tasks to stay in familiar areas. chay and tallulah spend like 70% of their time awake in 3 areas: the wall (bunker), the fishing spot and spawn. in the downtime where the code stopped attacking, they got a lil more freedom (also cause phil wasnt there) but i fear we may get more recluse phil due to the return of the code.

also similarly, its rlly interesting to see q!phils acceptance and familiarity with isolation. assuming his hardcore world is canon to qsmp that would be an easy explanation. but its so bittersweet how phil always waits. q!missa has been gone for so long but phil makes sure chay doesn't hild any grudges about it and he keeps the amour stand waiting. q!wil might not be able to come back but phil still holds hope and comforts lulah with it.

their house is so full of love too. wilbur and phil yanked at my heart by keeping the signs up. chayannes sign sayin "a pretty garden for a pretty girl <3" will never fail to make me smile. MY COTTAGE CORE SLICE OF LIFE FAMILY FR!

#qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp missa #qsmp chayanne #qsmp tallulah #im so unhealthy about this family #qsmp wilbur

[dilucsfav]

OMG AUTHOR POSTING TWO NIGHTS IN A ROW?!?!?!?!?

sorry, this time it’s not a request, it’s just what i wanted to write 💔 ive been doing hcs so much that i haven’t done an actual story in a while yk??

very small diluc scenario cuz i couldn’t resist and i really need this rn <//3

Loveliest of All

warning(s): insecure reader, mention of scars & body dysmorphia, slight(?) nsfw

The warm smell of toasted marshmallows from the scented candle filled the manor, my slight heaviness in breath as Diluc’s warm lips trailed up my forearm— holding me so gently, as if I were fragile glassware and would break at any rough moves.

One hand lay accordingly on my wrist, keeping my arm in place, as his other hand held my hip down against the bed, his thumb rubbing smooth circles into my figure. Treating my body with such love and carefulness, his gaze trailing up to stare at my expression.

I was so hot from the warm room and Diluc’s hot body against mine. His lips found their way to my shoulder, then carefully, to my neck. I was his, his to love and to treat with sincerity and passion.

His fingertips traced the edges of my scars, my beauty marks and insecurities. The warmth and affection engulfed me as he kissed my marks— parts of my body that I wouldn’t allow anybody else to see. His head leaned down to my lower body, kissing every imperfection that I cried at the sight of.

It was odd enough that the most noble, bravest man of Monstadt was treating me like this. His gentle and soft lips giving my skin endless kisses, his eyes wandering up to look at me, almost as to reassure me how wonderful I truly looked.

Even though my mind ran with thoughts, picking at every little “bad” feature that showed on my body, my exposed skin that he was now praising and rising genuine interest in— he thought I was the loveliest person he’d ever lain eyes on.

His inviting and warm hand placed itself on my jawline, holding my chin and tapping on my bottom lip. He admired my features; from my nose, my eyes, cheeks, eyebrows.

I smiled to his touch, wondering how I got so lucky to have the Darknight Hero at my fingertips so easily. How could I make such a man bat his eyes at me so willingly? Make him drop to his knees, hold my ankle and strap my heel on as if I were his porcelain doll?

So many precious memories suddenly flooded my brain as the soft man kissed me tenderly, not leaving any of my skin untouched by his infatuation for me. My eyes started to fill with tears at his words.

“Are you still tense, angel…?” He took my face, studying me. “What more should I do to assure you that I love every part of you? Am I doing something that makes you uncomfortable?”

“No!” I quickly said, and I earned a frown at this response. His hurt eyes looked between mine, trying to fish answers. “I’m sorry, Luc. I’m just—”

I didn’t want to cry over nothing. But I couldn’t help the hot tears that melted down the sides of my eyes and became cold as they touched my hair. I turned my head against his touch, my brows creasing as I tried to control my breathing. His eyes immediately widened as his hands retracted away.

I grabbed his large hands, looking right at him and squeezing his palm; It was almost a desperate action. I filled the silence by taking his hand and placing it back on my cheek, making tears spur down my face even more.

His thumb ran under my eye, wiping away the tears that ruined the peacefulness my face had displayed previously. His delicate touch reminded me that he was there, he loved me and couldn’t understand why I thought so negatively of myself.

The body that had made his eyes glance twice, the fingers that wiped the blood from his wounds, the legs that wrapped around his hips in a hug, the lips that had only spoken love to him and gifted him with kisses— how could he look at me so unpleasantly when all my body’s ever shown him was love?

“I’m here,” Diluc whispered, almost as if he read my thoughts, “I’m not going anywhere.”

I wanted to thank him for loving me so much, I wanted to apologize and show my gratitude to him for treating me with such elegance and compassion— but all I could do was kiss him.

Kiss his jaw, his cheeks— even more desperately at his lips. I couldn’t help myself as my breathing picked up from the eager kisses, a sloppy excuse for an apology. I couldn’t stop kissing the man, the man who had lips that honored me.

In the moment, as mine and his fingers collided together as he pinned my arms back down— the world stopped. As his lips desperately went down my jaw once again, his fingers squeezing mine, his legs now holding my hips down— I craved his touch more than anything in this world.

“You’re beautiful,” he insisted, burying his lips against my collarbone and kissing down my chest, his devotion swallowing my tense body. To assure me that he loved me more than yesterday, to assure me that my tears were not overdramatic and exaggerating— he heard my cries, and he answered affectionately.

“You’re the loveliest in all of Monstadt.”

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin fluff #genshin fanfic #genshin diluc #diluc x you #diluc ragnivindr x you #diluc x reader #diluc x y/n #diluc scenarios #diluc #master diluc #diluc ragnvindr #diluc imagines #diluc headcanons #diluc fluff #genshin headcanons #genshin imagines #diluc ragnivindr x reader

[mommypieck]

hi im sorry but i really wanted to rant and my best friend has been rlly weird lately.. my finals are going on rn and im usually not struggling this much to study yk.. like- im smart. i understand everything and its rlly easy. i cud be topping in everything if i wanted. but im so burnt out from 2019.. everyday id go directly to more classes after school and id reach home at 8pm where my mom wud force me to do homework and study more.. i was the fat kid until 2 years ago and i never had friends bcuz of it.. i developed anorexia and suddenly got people talking to me once i lost weight.. but ive also been depressed with adhd and ocd.. my therapist thinks im doing fine even though my antidepressants dont make me feel fine.. my adhd meds stopped affecting me too.. i REALLY wanna study, like i really do. tomorrow i have an exam for a subject i really like. but im unprepared. and i simply can't get myself to study.. i really dont know whats wrong with me.😭😭😭 i know these are my finals and i shud be serious cuz this will determine my life!! but i cant bring myself to sit and actually study.. for the previous tests this year, i managed to study the day before and the morning of the exam.. but this time, even though im waking up at 3:30 to study for the tests, i simply cant make myself do it.. I really do wanna study, i never hated it.. but idk why i cant.. pls some advice </3

i usually just make myself like the topic i am studying. even if it's the stupidest most boring shit, i just tell myself that it's actually interesting. and it works. also im really bad at chemistry and i hate it, but lately i always study a day before the exam. i just can't study anytime else because my brain doesn't work. but I don't think i have any advice to give you if you don't feel like studying. i had to study so i study and i don't think about not studying most of the time. only with chemistry. i know i didn't help u but im seriously not the type to ask for advice.

[lazaruspiss]

Just had this dream where all the Robins (and Duke), and some other male characters I can't remember or identify rn in my head (but I'm sure they were on the young side) were sister wives to Bruce. As in, the most literal specific brand of polygamy practiced in like, Burkina Faso (I was investigating so that may be why lmao). Like they don't really have any relationship with each other aside from friendship if anything, and the wife hierarchy can get things nasty with some infighting. And the first objective is to, aside from sharing and pleading the husband, raise and help raise each other's kids. It was. So specific.

I'm telling you because it.. kinda goes with your username lmaooooo

this is what my brand has come to... sister robins...

a part of me is just making a conspiracy board of every robin-age character to identify that last one but also it's totally possible ur brain made up a guy bc, yknow, dreams 😔 first thing my brain inserted tho was Respawn bc he for sure fits the criteria of "would unknowingly let bruce make his life worse". tho maybe Cass? given youve kinda got the W/F/A lineup in there so far.

my god wait. some omegaverse fics ive read were just reinventing sister wives huh. sister omegas. ohh thats so funny to me <3 i know just enough about sister wives to just be like. hm. that seems... not great. but it can for sure be interesting for the world of the fictional playground...

Dick being at the top of the hierarchy seems inevitable right? id imagine most would end up with mixed feelings about him at best and that Tim would be a total suck-up about it. damn. cant believe ur making me brainstorm this as the first thing i think about this morning 😭

#asks #anon #really calling me out here #when i said poly robins i meant with each other and bat not included. sob. #also cannot stress enough how this was the first thing i read upon waking up. thatll teach me to be on my phone first thing 😭😭

[sydneyscarm]

“about the blogger” meme

thank you to @bioloyg for tagging me :)

y’all don’t really know me so this’ll b fun

star signs: aquarius sun, gemini moon, capricorn rising,,, two air signs in my big three might scare u but trust my chart is earth dominant!!!! i promise!!!!

fav holiday: i love christmas! im not particularly religious, and i don’t consider myself christian or catholic like when i was a child, but i love the lights and the music and the gift-giving and general holiday cheer

last meal: lol i think i had a joint for dinner last night honestly. just forgot to eat and went straight to bed after smoking. i’m about to eat filipino spaghetti for breakfast though

current fav musician: faye webster (specifically jonny rn) and beyonce (all of renaissance has been on repeat since its release) and victoria monet (all of jaguar II is insane, grammy sweep i just know it)

last music listened to: probably ctrl (deluxe) by sza on my way home from work last night

last movie watched: taken, that action movie with liam neeson lmfao. but if we’re talkin movie theater viewing, it was the ballad of songbirds and snakes

last tv watched: i’ve been rewatching s2 of bridgerton. kate & anthony the couple that you are.

last book/fic finished: the last book was catching fire (i was rereading thg like the rest of the world) and the last fic i read was an unfinished sydcarmy fic i found literally an hour ago called all things go (all things go) everyone should read it, very good.

last book/fic abandoned: last book i abandoned was speak, okinawa. it’s a memoir about an asian girl’s struggling relationship with her mother and her culture. very good (and relatable) but extremely heavy so i took a pause on it.

currently reading: thg resurgence so i’m reading the ballad of songbirds and snakes, i didn’t get to finish it before watching the movie and i keep getting caught up so it’s taking forever to finish, but im almost done w it

last thing researched for art/writing: i haven’t full-fledged written for fandom in probably years. but i used to research a lot of fighting techniques cause i was deep in the my hero academia brain rot LMFAO

fav online fandom memory: i mostly inhabited twitter fandom spaces so in 2020 i was placed in a ship gc and i met one of my best friends on there <3 so i think that would be it

fav old fandom you wish would have a resurgence: the show is quite shit and not good at all but, for nostalgia reasons, i would love to see fairy tail (anime) have a resurgence. i bet the fics would be soooo top tier compared to when i was like 9 and reading fics on wattpad and ffnet

fav thing you enjoy that never had an active or big “fandom” but you wish it did: this is more to do w me being interested in things once hype dies down and less to do with a fandom actually being active or big, but i absolutely devoured s2 of bridgerton when i first saw it. and i read every single fic in that kathony tag.

tempting project you’re trying to reign in/don’t have time for: i don’t really write anymore and have stuck to silly posts and headcanon threads but i’ve had a pride and prejudice sydcarmy au stuck in my head for a couple days

this was fun now u know some of my life!!! im pretty sure @bioloyg tagged everyone that i come across in this fandom so ive got no one WHOMP but feel free to do this if u see it 😛

#no but srsly #that p&p sydcarmy au #fr

[spacexseven]

hi tuna I am not feeling Super Great atm so I'm not gonna ramble on this concept for Too Terribly Long cuz Brain Bad BUT I was thinking about the spy au again and what. if. added a little angst to it and our little spies realized they actually quite liked darling a biiiit too late. I'm talking after they've already carried out the assassination (and possibly torture). darling is fine of course, managed to survive the onslaught in some manner, but yan doesn't know that. yet. I'm sure they'll figure out eventually but they kinda already shot themself in the foot haven't they. forcing the emotion of guilt upon dazai and fyodor. sorry boys.

P.S. didn't mean to leave u hanging on the soulmate au thing im pretty sure I sent u an ask on that??? cant rly recall I sure hope I did.

P.P.S oh hell yeah ur playing obey me. love obey me. I'm personally a fan of belphegor and beel but tbh I like all of the characters! diavolo good choice. big dork. are u thinking of writing for them cuz thatd be fun.

- 🩹

yes im very sorry i answered it really late cos winter break is coming up right ive got my semester finals and what not so im struggling to juggle everything rn T^T please excuse the lateness itll be like this for a while

you know i might actually try writing for obey me sometime when i'm free. i'm not a huge fan of the game style but the lore sounds super interesting so ive just been watching playthroughs. diavolo is so <3 i love him beel is cute too but belphegor is so SCARY what is going on with him

huhuhu severely wounding darling and realizing they might never forgive them would kill them. i can see dazai, after realizing that there was no salvaging this relationship, lose all his previous reluctance and just go all out. if darling's already certain he can't convince them to forgive him when he's nice, there was nothing else he can do apart from this, right? chuuya would be similarly reckless, but he'll end up scaring darling into pretending to forgive him. with fyodor, i can see him using some scary tactics to break down darling until they have no choice but to go along with his decisions. guilty? as far as he's concerned, he was only protecting his goal. but now that darling's part of it, he has no reason to fool them any longer. things would be more pleasant if they just gave in and forgave him already.

#my friend said belphegor becomes really cute later #but im 99% sure he wants mc dead #like. #i didnt ask to be here okay #bsd 🐟 #spy au 🐟 #ask 🐟 #anon 🐟 #dazai 🩹 🐟 #dazai 🐟 #chuuya 🐟 #fyodor 🐟

[neurodivergantizzetwitch]

intro post :3

hiii! im [insert name here]: a stereotypical AuDHD trans girl who still hasn't settled on a name yet-- my life isnt... going well rn, but tumblr makes it a bit more bearable and every little bit helps.

im a trans fem, more specifically i like the term demigirl- which feels like it fits me. im also ace(ish), by which i mean im ace but pretty sex favorable- just don't experience sexual attraction. im also very gay and have the best partner in the whole entire universe (they said they were gonna join tumblr soon- so ill at them here once she does.)

oh yeah and my brain is funky. im a peer reviewed (and officially dxed, but im an advocate of self diagnosis) AuDHDer- which informs basically everything i do. i also have a bunch of the mental illness stuff, and have struggled w it a lot. idrk or care what the exact diagnosis is, spend enough time around insane ppl and you learn a lot of the specific labels are pretty arbitrary and a lot of symptoms are shared- i just describe myself as fucked in the head or legitimately insane

also im never consistent w tags- sorry. maybe one day ill try to be but uh... yeah not today. i do tag for potentially triggering content tho- and try my best to be consistent w it, so if you're sensitive to the following and want to follow me for some weird reason id reccomend blocking them:

#cw sex mention, #cw: substance abuse, #cw: abuse #cw: child abuse, #cw: gore, #cw: sh, #cw: si, #cw: disordered eating, #cw: bigotry, #cw: disturbing content,

id also say in accordance w the previous thing i sometimes say things about my life that are "dark" in a way that can cross a line, i don't mean to do this- and i want to respect everyone's boundaries- but accidentally sharing super dark shit is smth i struggle w.

im a committed anarchist, and i will unabashedly post in accordance w those views. i haven't been able to help people as much as id like to bc of the whole being a minor in a fucked up situation with no money energy or time thing, but im trying to do more. If anyone reading this has suggestions- lmk.

i also like a lot of shit. like A LOT of shit- and i get REALLY obsessed w it too, so it is not out of character for me to start posting a bunch about smth i had not known existed until i got obsessed (as mentioned, AuDHDer). what ill post about is just kinda based on what im feeling that day and my interests, but heres some of my favorite things that im enamored w in no particular order:

games:

mtg

minecraft

hermitcraft (which yes is minecraft and no isnt a game but shut up)

hollow knight / skilkskong 🤡

celeste

metroid

nitw

botw

hades

books

cosmere

the locked tomb

percy jackson

the sandman

six of crows

the hunger games

lotr

spec fic, especially non-traditional spec-fic

shows/movies

spiderman across the spiderverse

made in abyss

hazbin hotel

hunter x hunter

the owl house

Pan's Labyrinth (& other Guillermo movies)

miyazaki movies

wes anderson movies

animated movies & shows

cinematic/classic movies (not neccessarily old just like the literary fiction genre of movies)

weird/offbeat movies and shows

music

coheed and cambria

mcr

jhariah

girl in red

will wood

pinkshift

jack off jill

paramore

mother mother

the cure

chloe moriando

bauhaus

cardiacs

dead kennedys

lena raine

siouxsie & the banshees

milk in the microwave

mitski

penelope scott

sungazer

45 grave

other interests/hobbies n shit

drawing

d&d

writing

painting

guitar

bass

drums

singing

music production

game design

coding

animation

character design

video production

poetry

theater (yes im a fucking theater kid did you even have to ask that)

musicals

even though im solidly gen z, i havent really grown up on the internet the same way. some weird combination of my parents' disapproval of it, social anxiety, autism, and not being allowed to use it for years means that ive had this fear of posting stuff on the internet. for so many people like me the internet has been a place to escape and be themself, to me it's more often than not just a reflection of a reality that seems just as scary and ostracizing.

the thing is... i dont have a lot of friends. i dont have a large community really. and i think though there are some ways in which my aversion to social interactions including those on the internet has been helpful, there are other ways it's really isolated me- both from my peers and a broader community of people.

so im trying to put myself out there a little more. this stupidly long intro post is i think just a way for me to commit to that for myself. ive been so scared of doing it all my life, right now i think i just need some sort of outlet to be myself. who knows? maybe i'll even meet some new friends.

#transfem #autistic community #ace #leftist #intro post #mental health #lesbian #mtg #nerdy girls

[lightbulb-warning]

What's your opinion on the other games (THH, SDR2, and UDG)? I don't remember seeing you post about them much or at all

indeed! i haven't posted anything about them! (except one (1) kyoko cameo)

i do like the other games!! i've only watched playthroughs of dr1 and 2 (and read a summary of udg. i haven't had the time to watch a playthrough yet "OTL).

THH was popular when i was in middle school (Kyoko Kirigiri and Sakura Ogami were very relevant to my tween am-i-gay?™ crisis) and around that time SDR2 was already out, i think? (yes it was i just googled it.) so i have been an extremely casual dr enjoyer until recently. when drv3 came out i genuinely had no idea and legitimately thought it was a very elaborate fangame some people i followed occasionally posted about (hi, nice to meet you! im Very Dumb!!)

i got SUPER sick last summer so i watched a bunch of lets plays and now im in hyperfixation hell!!

DRV3 is specifically the game my brain has been obsessed with because themes of real vs fake/fiction vs reality/meta-bullshit fall directly into my personal interests. Plus, out of spite (and the game being on sale at one point), i actually played it on my own in may, which has just amplified my current hyperfixation and now im here. on tumblr. actually engaging in fandom. wowza.

ive been wanting to get more invested in the other games and actually play them!! and i wanna play rain code spoiler free really badly!! but unfortunately it's not something i can get to at the moment _(:'3 」∠)_ no videogame space in my budget rn *sobs* oooo you wanna commission me sooo baaad/j

hopefully i can change that soon! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

here's some rapidfire opinions!!

makoto is so goddamn stupid i love that for him, he is genuinely so dumb. even though kyoko and togami are supposed to be on the smarter side, they are also occasionally morons (both of them. BOTH OF THEM went "poison? bet." and ingested it) therefore makoto comes off even DUMBER. (affectionate)

Aoi is wonderful and underrated i would die for her anytime.

Sakura? *starts crying hysterically* /pos

i am ENAMOURED with how the evolution of the MCs mechanics has been Makoto: I object! -> Hajime: I sustain! -> Kaede/Shuichi: I'm gonna commit PERJURY!

Hajime being a massive hater is incredibly funny to me good for him

kazuichi is a complete cringefail loser i love him

IBUKI????? IBUKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think about fuyuhiko and peko constantly. they spin in my brain and make me miserable. it's amazing.

also, no doy, but THE ARTSTYLE OF THESE GAMES. I GO BATSHIT STUPID. THE ART DIRECTION AND PSYCHOPOP ARE SO GOOD i eat i feast i go bonkers

and yeah. that's all for now, folks!

#i haven't watched the anime. getting my adhd ass to watch anime is really hard :') #ask maiora #shut up maiora

[amara-laz]

Hi I don't want to do my physics assignment so I'm gonna pick my favourite songs from the mechs albums I've listened to so far :p

Ok so in the order I listened to the albums!!

High Noon Over Camelot

Right off the bat, Skin and Bone was my favourite. Like, the vibe?? And also the Saxons singing off of each other like that?? It's so bouncy /pos

Holder of the GRAIL joined like 5 minutes later lmao. I love the story and Captain Mathea is honestly a character I got way too invested in!! Helps that it's very nice sounding to my ear :))

I am now also partial to Blood and Whiskey!! Tbh at first I didn't get the hype but damn is fucking good. Jessica Law, you terrify me /pos my voice actually gives out if I try to sing Guinevere's parts

The Bifrost Incident

Loki immediately was one of my favourites bc of the way the words are sung?? It's just so?? Auditorially pleasing?? Like it??? Just slips on my brain??? God I love it shsjdjr

Ragnarok II is also really good especially the ending ahdjfjf Void is banging and Raphaella as Odin is just so haunting but also creepy but also also also /pos

Losing Track also charmed me eventually, mostly with the chorus :p absolute banging lyrics and the way it fragmented and stuff was so hshjwsjrjrk

Fun fact actually about my TBI experience!! My phone refused to play Red Signal for a good several hours!! I changed devices, turned WiFi off and on, my phone off and on, changed videos, etc, etc!! It took me days to hear Red Signal for a second time!! Oh also I have the Expert Testimony segment memorized now :p I can only recite it with my shitty British accent tho

Once Upon A Time In Space

Rose Red!!! It's a round!! It's pretty!! Is that a viola??? Another immediate favourite!! Oh and also, Jessica Law!!!! Old King Cole is another one, I just think it's neat :))

Honourable mention to Sleeping Beauty bc it gave me actual whiplash the first time I listened lmaooo

Ulysses Dies At Dawn

Riddle of the Sphinx!!! Trial by Song!!!!!!!

Trial of Song (listening to it rn!!) is so melancholy and so beautiful nejdjjffnr (LOOK I AM NORMAL ABOUT JESSICA LAW AND THE SONGS SHE SINGS THAT IVE HEARD OKAY) (Okay I did loop the Mermaid's Revenge for like 3 days and landed it in my top 3 most played songs on Spotify. So what.) and I just jwjeje it's so pretty!!! Sbbsbdbdb

Riddle of the Sphinx is so like?? Catchy?? I love the chorus?? Again, story is good!! Oedipus' rise and fall is so interesting?? And also good vibes 👍

Honourable mention to Ties that Bind!! Ariadne's story is also very interesting and also RAPHAELLA LA COGNIZI??? THAT IS SOME BANGING SINGING LIKE HOLY SHIT!!!

Okay cool now I need to go do my physics

#the mechanisms #i cannot be assed to properly tag this so #:p

[throwaway-yandere]

Otome anon again ❤️ thanks for the reply! I'm quite happy about it. And yeah I'm a little late to your works bc of school so there's a bunch of works that I need to catch up on 😭 Really hoping we get a small break soon. From the looks of it, your newer works are gonna be WILD 😳 I mostly got introduced to your blog bc of your Alhaitham and Tighnari fics: Vision Qualifications and Creative Differences. I was particularly very interested in how you portrayed Tighnari in CD and adored the way reader being a writer was portrayed.

And yes! It's a game that will be downloadable and I've been learning a bit of renpy to achieve this. It's surprisingly simpler than I imagined. All the tutorials are helpful and the folks in the renpy server are very nice 👌 So far routes aren't 100% finalised but I will say that there ARE secret routes that you can unlock if you choose the right options 🤭

I'm thinking of trying to make a survey to decide some routes but I'm not overly sure what to put on it.

Thanks for all the support!!

"your newer works are gonna be WILD 😳"

??? wdym, after the last 4 fics ive written im being incredibly merciful rn in the secret pen pal event lol.

I mostly got introduced to your blog bc of your Alhaitham and Tighnari fics: Vision Qualifications and Creative Differences. I was particularly very interested in how you portrayed Tighnari in CD and adored the way reader being a writer was portrayed.

you guys are free to hate me for this: but those two fics are my least liked fics i've written hAHAHAHAH. not enough spice for me. not enough violence or dubious "food". i still question why people wanted part 2 on that tighnari fic when for me it was the blandest story i've written i am SORRY it just IS for me ya know what I mean it's just BLAND NO SPICES NO FLAVOR- i wrote about cannibalism, a dragon diety!reader, and a bunch of weird things, my small brain does not calculate why these two has more attention than the ones I actually use my brain for hAHHAHAHAHA- (like seriously, both those fics had little research whatsoever while I'm pulling out sht like Japanese & Filipino mythology, KPop culture, and fricking Abraham Lincoln's biography (no joke.) on other fics hjdasjas)

All the tutorials are helpful

my dumbass who spent hours tryna figure out how to remove the dialogue box for a CG scene: haha yeah g-good for you...

I'm thinking of trying to make a survey to decide some routes but I'm not overly sure what to put on it.

as a dain simp you know who i'd vote for so if you don't want a biased poll don't let me find that survey hAHAHAHAH

considering that you like otome games, I'm recommending this one: "I Got Reincarnated As A Server NPC In An Otome Game But A Capture Target Won’t Leave Me Alone". Don't be discouraged by that title, it's not a comedy LN at all. It contains violence and a mentally deranged cold duke of the south diluc lol. my fave blorbo.

O Capo! My Capo! can be a pretty grim series considering how I was inspired to write it because of a bad ending in an otome game fandisc. There are major character deaths (and it's 100% the readers' fault when an LI dies because of votes), mentions of drug abuse, etc. But if you like Piofiore perhaps you'd appreciate it too. Capo!reader is basically "what if Lilia had Dante's occupation and Gilbert's charisma-- oh and I guess your Nicola is Alhaitham for some reason" lmao.

ps: i think i saw you posting a question on r/otome_games about how to make the MC's personality. i agree with the majority that, honestly, you should just go wild lmao. make MC have some fighting spirit. the bar is low--

in any case, I wish you luck!!! have fun coding the game <3

#ansy-stalks #ansy's stalking: otome anon <3 #is this opinion controversial lmfao

[liloinkoink]

so three things abt lamplight rn

1. lamplight’s gonna have three arcs. 

one) torchlight arc, which consists of the first meeting fic (aptly named torchlight) and goes up until martyn officially escapes the watchers by making it back to civilization at large. there’s only really one or two other things im planning for this arc, its just their first week or two of knowing each other. this is the shortest arc

two) lamplight arc, which is the bulk of the fic and also what i have the least planned. sleeping hound and 20 questions take place here, and i have a fww other things i want to write in it. i am also, honestly, open to requests if anyone wants to throw smth in the ring here. its the time martyn is adventuring just Wherever with his lantern. this has the capacity to be the longest arc

three) moonlight arc, or the arc where ren gets a body. the first part of this arc is written and posted already, and will be a three-chapter fic. i do have one or two things other than that fic in mind for moonlight as well, but nothing concrete for an ending 

2. i have all the longer lamplight pieces drafted on ao3 and will be posting htem over the nect few days, the last piece of which is that noncanon lamplight-verse treebark one i never posted. im holding off on posting 20 questions until i can write up another short piece or two to pair it with (and i can edit it a little to be more of a middle-fic piece than an intro piece), but that’ll also be on ao3, so essentially 5 more pieces will be up on ao3 over a few days

i am already writing the next lamplight pieces and will continue to do so because. yknow. theres diseases in my brain

3. i said in the tags of an ask that i was considering open the floor if ppl wanted to write lamplight fic. i have since seen interest in this, so the floor is officially open. if you want to write smth in the lamplight arc, you can probably just go for it. for the torchlight or moonlight arcs, you should probs wait till ive got more of them out. 

as always, feel free to ask me stuff about lamplight au! i love answering asks about it. if youre interested in writing or drawing for it and have any questions abt the au, feel free to shoot me (or Haunted, esp for art) an ask! 

#says words #lamplight au #holding a sign reading ‘pls ask me about how ren emotes and experiences the world’ #(at least. if you plan to create for lamplight. i want an excuse to talk abt it)

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

DO YOU THINK WOOZI WOULD LISTEN TO AYESHA EROTICA. THIS IS SO RANDOM BUT LIKE WOULD HE???

YOU LIKE EDGING PEOPLE?? man how do you even do it...like i can never tell when someone is close it's kinda frustrating

so if peer pressure is real...could we all collectively peer pressure you into marrying all of us?? i mean you did say you could do the craziest shit... (ok but thank you to peer pressure because we got an amazing dom!yn fic so huzzah)

I THINK HUZZAH SHOULD BE BROUGHT BACK TOO!! yipee, booyah, all white american venacular...

GALLAGHER GIRLS, DOCTOR WHO, AND SUPERNATURAL??? that's actually really..diverse? thats so cool wtf pls tell me more about those shows

I WILL GIVE YOU IDEAS!! as soon as i can think of them..what do you like to write? i'll kinda base off my asks/ideas off of those so you'll have a better writing experience </3

YOUR BRAIN IS NOT MID??? do you think a mid person would bias woozi?? didn't think so 😒😒

IKR??? HOW COULD HE DO THAT 😭😭😭 istg he literally messaged me first and asked to do everything with me and then out of nowhere he just invites someone else to tag along when we hungout??

im sorry that you're feeling stressed rn 😕😕why is everyone mad at you wtf?? i promise you don't sound narcisstic when you talk about it because if it's bothering you, you gotta let people know how you feel!! im glad the blog and a couple friends can help you feel better; ily and hope you feel better!!

-MISSED YOU TOO (🫨 anon)

I literally have never heard of her before (ASIDE FROM THAT ONE VIRAL TIKTOK AUDIO) but listening to one of her songs... I MEAN HE DOES LIKE SEX SONGS.. listening to some song by arianna one time that had me screaming into a pillow... AND HE WRITES GREAT LIKE SELF-CONFIDENT (?) BOPS (Hit... Super...) ITS VERY POSSIBLE I WOULD NOT BE SURPRISED

OKAY IVE ACTUALLY NEVER EDGED ANYONE BEFORE I TALK TO HEAR MYSELF TALK PRETTY OFTEN... I HAVE ALMOST NO ACTUAL SEXUAL EXPERIENCE I JUST ACTIVELY PARTICIPATE IN IN THAT TYPE OF INTERNET CULTURE... I AM A FAKE.. A FRAUD...

i feel like it would be really hard to tell when someone is close...

I would marry all of you??? I am literally ready to get married right now??? Let's go???

there's something to be said about white venicular like... It can be so good and funny to say, I used to love 20s slang. Like Hoover was president... people were drinking giggle juice... that shit was the bee's knees !

GALLAGHER GIRLS IS ACTUALLY A BOOK. A TEEN BOOK ABOUT THIS GIRL CAMMIE WHO GOES TO A SCHOOL gallagher academy! that is a private all-girl's school for spies. The first book is pretty good but in the SECOND book you find out that there is also a all-boy's school called Blackthorne Academy AND YOU MEET MR. ZACHARY GOODE HIMSELF.... bro... the books kinda evolve past silly little teenage drama among spy kids who don't know how to be normal and get more serious but my favorite part about my time in that fandom... is that... in the books there are four main girls: Cammie, Macey, Liz, and Bex and all of them have blackthorne boys that we all shipped them with EXCEPT Macey. She had a different love interest cause she is like the daughter of a politician or... something and so her love interest in the books was kinda a lamo nerd and NO ONE LIKED HIM SO ONE PERSON CREATED ONE OC WHO LITERALLY DOES NOT EXIST IN THE BOOKS AND WE ALL ADOPTED HIM. I think his name was maybe Nick? But completely made up. And we all wrote him the same and everything I miss the good old days....

BUT anyways I won't be crazy about doctor who and supernatural but just know I AM crazy about them... my beautiful amazing hyper-fixations.

Doctor Who, a man who stole a time and space travel machine and ran away to save people across the universe just being eccentric and getting up to all kind's of hijinks? Yes. IMMEDIATE YES. The doctor is so funny and relateable and his character is so heavy it just gets me going

AND SUPERNATURAL I am a dean apologist and destiel shipper till DEATH Destiel was the first gay couple in a show I shipped, but like those first few seasons the horror anthology-esque feel of the show is just so fun

WHEN IT COMES TO FANFICS I LIKE WRITING UHM.... uh wow I don't know actually. Anything that will get two characters into a long-relationship kinda fast. Like fwb to lovers kinda? I am kinda good at writing fwb these days LIKE that's like all I write BUT I CAN WRITE ANYTHING I LOVE REQUESTS THAT ARE A BIT DIFFERENT THAN WHAT I USUALLY DO

BRO WHAT THE FUCK. He's playing you... HES A PLAYER. FORGET HIM. BLOCK HIM (i'm just kidding) but also booo him. Get you someone who will treat you right....

I will not go much into it because my stress is making me a little crazy and I'm being a bit crazy these days but in defense of my friends who are all mad at me it's fair. They're mostly mad because I'm hanging out with three different groups of friends and Groups A and B I've been close to the longest and really judge me for hanging out with Group C but I work with Group C the most now and... idk it's a lot. I'm sick thinking about it...

#BRIE IS NOSY SO IF YOU WANNA KEEP ME UPDATED ON HOW THINGS GOOOO.... #FEEL FREE TO :) #IM EXCITED FOR YOUR REQ/IDEA FOR THE HALLOWEEN FIC #AND DONT FORGET... treat you better... shawn mendes... #ALSO SORRY ABOUT GOING OFF ABOUT GG I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO TALK ABOUT IT FOR A MONTH NOW I MISS THAT SERIES #b: 🫨 anon

[tpher]

danny lore update. just me rambling and thinking out loud

hes so very angry at everything. irrationally so. its meant to be a joke just how mad and exaggerated he gets. that being said hes not meant to be cool or likable*

(*he has a cool design and plays guitar/sings/is in a band, and those are some objectively cool traits i suppose.. but hes not meant to be seen as a badass, more like an exhausting person to be around lmao)

and i dont wanna justify his behavior bc im trying to make a character who sucks, but not knowing his backstory makes him confusing to really comprehend why hes like this. ive decided that his parents worked a lot when he was a kid, so he was practically raised by his grandparents. so if anyone, he cares abt them deeply but theyre also a huge reason why he ended up being this way, because theyre very blunt and opinionated people. it rubbed off on him. that being said, his parents arent like this so they dont understand where he learned that from. so this caused some conflict but whatever. he doesnt want his parents' validation anyway.

on a similar note, if he got picked on at school, he would be quick to assume the worse and need to defend himself, leading to getting into a lot of fights. he was later on essentially a bully himself

so whats the takeaway here?? the ppl he cares abt teaching him to speak his mind and not hold back. even if it leads to more conflict, hes very prideful. he sees it as "brutal honesty" when its just rudeness

when interacting w others, he will groan and roll his eyes a lot. definitely lots of sarcasm but just as much blunt yelling. he will roast ppl in the drop of a hat.

is it purely a pride thing? ehh. he DOES think highly of himself and has high standards. he also doesnt hate ppl as a whole, is interested in dating, is extroverted. thats all important to note bc itd be easy to assume otherwise.

another way his heightened emotion stemmed from was him being trans from a young age. the stress and confusion hit him like a truck, making him prone to lash out. once he came to terms w that and started going on hormones, the anger from gender stress turned into anger from increased levels of testosterone ON TOP of him already being a ball of rage. help this man

does he have anything going on besides anger? no

ok yes. as mentioned, he loves music. rock music to be exact, so thats a healthy way for him to let go of his emotions. he also has a dramatic flair, wanting to give everything his all. he doesnt like being boring/bored so if he has so start something in order to be entertained, he will. this would make him a bit of a prankster

what abt when someone treats him the way he treats others? oh he would NOT be able to take it. he will kick and scream until you feel worse. he will bite his hand until he thinks abt how to get back at you

...unless you strike a specific nerve. where instead of purely fighting, you get into a mutual understanding where arguing can be fun in a "healthy competition" kinda way. cant explain it rn bc my brain is mush and ive written too much but thats what he has w topher <3

#txt #oc posting

[lifesteal-headcanons]

okay okay. okay. ive got another branzy hc that ive been swishing around in my brain like a potion. so. you know the mechanisms? my favorite band of all time? one of my special interests? yeah well.

(this is gonna be a lot of explaining just to get to the hc i apologize)

one of their albums is "The Bifrost Incident" its a retelling of norse myth. but that's not super important rn.

usually in mechs albums, jonny d'ville is the narrator, but for tbi they created a new character, a midgardian named Lyfrassir Edda. they did this because the album itself is in a slightly different format (a police report). but basically theres this eldritch horror entering reality, and lyf figures out its coming, so they send out a bunch of warnings (no one listens) and then they leave.

we do not know if they are alive. the ending didnt really imply if they were dead or not (knowing mechs albums itd be safe to assume theyre dead. no<3)

so the fans, attached to this little guy, came up with headcanons to keep them alive, including the main one, eldritch lyf.

the idea is that the bifrost/yog-sothoth had sort of,,, attached itself into lyf and was able to keep them alive through anything via eldritch fuckery. it also changes some of their physical being (their hair, depending on your headcanon, turns white or already was white, but has rainbow shimmers in it. some people give them eldritch tentacles. its up to you, mostly)

(we're finally getting to the branzy part) yeah well something like that happened to branzy. obviously not the entire thing but

something eldritch happened to him, and said eldritch thing attached itself to him. his hair turned white and if you look too closely you can see colors, shifting and shimmers. sometimes, when he has a wound bad enough, it starts healing itself with the eldritch magic. colors knit together skin and repair bone. overall, quite un-useful because it doesnt happen unless its a really bad wound

#woooooooooooooooooooooooooo vester infodump :DDDD #ask #headcanon #lifesteal smp #branzy