#jay's tism thoughts

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Black Autistic Culture is people not believing you're autistic while also critiquing you on everything you said that was "disrespectful" and "rude" as well as telling you to learn how to talk right.

#my mother is such an interesting person #also probably autistic herself but refuses to acknowledge it #she'll acknowledge the ADHD tho and do nothing with that information #but it's whatever #autistic black girl #actually autistic #autism #autizzy #autism things #being autistic #autistic problems #black autistic #black autistic culture #black and autistic #autistic and black #black autistic girl #jay's tism thoughts

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Finally got the Quest for the Lost Powers so here's my thoughts!

Kai: -Kai stop whining and acting like you're useless without your powers challenge. (the other three also kinda did this but not nearly to the same extent) -Oh my fsm Skylor just dump him. Do not let a man treat you like this. -On that vein, Kai stop being a total @ss. -The arc itself tied into his original True Potential arc fairly well though. -Like it was thematic at least. Zane: -ZANE GET'S THERAPY??? ZANE FORGIVES HIMSELF FOR THE ATROCITIES HE COMMITTED? ZANE STOPS HIDING FROM HIS PAST??? -Phenomenal. Unheard of. Never-before-seen. -Please be consistent with the spelling of Pixal's name I am begging you. -Honestly no real complaints here. Basically just exactly what we've been saying about him. Amazing. Cole: -LOU LOU LOU LOU -"I'm just a song and dance guy who can juggle a little" sir I would kill and die for you. -Of course Sally-Bob can fight, she's a farmer. -Lilly lore WHOO!!!!! -Cole is just vibing. It's great. -Again, very good in terms of tying into his original arc. Fantastic. Jay: -See Kai, THIS is what a healthy relationship looks like. Take notes. -UNAGAMI IS BABEY AND I ADORE HIM. -Calls his dad like 3 times "just to say hi"? Please. It's to make sure he hasn't been abandoned again. Duh. -This child has the 'tism. And he's right, the Chicken's motives are really none of our business. Girlboss. -Oh yeah I guess Jay is here, too. -Grew up in the middle of nowhere and now has zero sense of direction bruh he's just like me fr. -Stop calling Libber your "real mom" but other than that you're pretty dope. -Nya you put a tracking device on your boyfriend? Yeah okay fair. -They bros. They homies. Yay.

#ninjago #kai #zane #cole #jay #quest for the lost powers #unagami #lou hence #why the heck does the word “useless” have a link on it??? #this was entirely unintentional I swear

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I've come to the realization that I like to talk but I don't like talking to people. When I talk to people, especially new people, I never know what to expect but talking to myself is so simple and stress free. Now if only people would stop assuming that I'm crazy.

#hyperverbal #autistic black girl #autism #actually autistic #being autistic #autism things #autistic feels #autistic problems #autistic women #autistic #autistic girl #black autistic #black adhd #adhd things #jay's tism thoughts #autizzy

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I can't believe that I didn't do this already but,

Happy Black History Month to disabled, chronically ill and/or neurodivergent black people

We don't get enough appreciation.

#black history month #black neurodivergent #autistic black people #black and autistic #black autistic #neurodivergent #autistic black girl #autizzy #chronic illness #disabled #jay's tism thoughts #black autistic culture

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Have I stated how much I hate the whole "Strong Black Woman" archetype and how much it's hurt me as a disabled person? I could go on for hours about how much this has such a detrimental effect on disabled black people. (And honestly just any in general who doesn't fit inside the mold.) But honestly, I'm just too tired of being forced into a role that I can't fill. It's taxing for me both physically and mentally. I wish more people would just understand that I can't do it.

#im exhausted #im just so exhausted #a vent? #not really because im just mad #im sure many of you can relate #ok to reblog #ok to rb #jay's tism thoughts #autizzy #autistic black people #black neurodivergent #black mental health #black women #black people #black and autistic #black autistic #autistic black girl #actually autistic #autism #autistic problems #being autistic #autism things #autistic feels #autistic culture

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The World: You gotta figure things out on your own. Nobody's gonna hold your hand throughout your life.

Me: BUT I WANT THEM TO. WHY WON'T YOU HELP ME 😭

#i hate this #I hate being forced into independence #i hate having to figure out life on my own #i hate not having anyone to guide me through life because im supposed to learn on my own #idk if this is an autism thing or not #actually autistic #autistic problems #autistic black girl #black neurodivergent #black autistic #autizzy #jay's tism thoughts #autism #autism things #being autistic #neurodivergent problems

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I was just thinking about how the only neurodivergencies that black people acknowledge are ADHD, autism, down syndrome, and schizophrenia.

Even then ADHD is seen as the dumb/problem child disorder

Autism is only acknowledged if you have high support needs or are nonverbal no matter how visible your autism may be.

Schizophrenia is just the crazy man on the street that everybody knows has something but no will do anything to help.

Non-black nds reblogs are nice. DO NOT DERAIL.

#personally i don't know enough about the black down syndrome experience so i cannot speak for them #if anyone wants to add more feel free #black neurodivergent #black mental health #black and adhd #black and autistic #autistic and black #black adhd #black autistic #black and neurodivergent #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #neurodivergent and black #schizophrenia #black and schizophrenic #down syndrome #autism #black community #autizzy #jay's tism thoughts

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I hate how adults just abandon you after you hit 18 and expect you to be able to navigate the world by yourself. I don't know what I'm doing and I feel like I'm failing everyday.

#idc if you reblog #autism #autistic black girl #actually autistic #autistic problems #being autistic #autism things #autistic feels #autistic girl #autistic women #autistic #autistic culture #black autistic #black and autistic #jay's tism thoughts #autizzy

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Does anyone have any tips on avoiding overstimulation or at least avoid a shutdown while at a concert. I'm going to my first concert on February 23rd and I honestly don't know what to expect.

#jay's tism thoughts #yes it's for SZA #actually autistic #autism #autistic black girl #being autistic #autistic problems #autism things #autistic culture #autistic feels #autistic girl #autistic things #autizzy #autistic women #actually autism #autism advice

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I wonder how well my mental health would improve if my house were cleaned. But for my house to get cleaned my mental (and physical) health needs to improve. Yet when I say, "yeah I don't usually get around to cleaning certain parts of my house because of lack of motivation," suddenly you're the most disgusting person that they know.

In all honesty I don't have the energy to feed myself half the time Sally* why do you think I have the energy to clean my house? Why don't you offer me something that's actually helpful? Or at the very least pay for my therapy.

*Sorry to the Sallys reading this I don't mean you.

#anyways #tw rant #rant #vent #kinda #autism problems #chronic pain problems #adhd problems #mental problems #autistic problems #mental health problems #autism rant #autistic black girl #actually autistic #autism #autism things #being autistic #black adhd #black and autistic #jay's tism thoughts #autizzy

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Why do people always assume that everything I do or say has malicious intent behind it? I ask questions because I want answers because maybe I'll be able to assist you and I get called judgemental. I ask for clarification for what you're saying because I wanna know the intention behind your words and I'm told I'm picking apart your words. I just don't understand.

#jay's tism thoughts #autizzy #autistic black girl #actually autistic #autism #autistic problems #being autistic #autism things #autistic feels #black and autistic #autistic

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I'm sick and tired of being told that I'm scary and menacing because I don't smile. It's something that I've noticed happens a lot with black autistics. Y'know how many pictures I've taken for that have been compared to mugshots? Also the number of people who have shifted away from me after we've made eye contact does not go unnoticed. Instead of forcing us to smile maybe you should stop and think about why you're really so frightened in the first place.

#idc if you reblog #im just really pissed #autism #autistic black girl #actually autistic #being autistic #autistic problems #autism things #autistic feels #black autistic #black and autistic #autistic #autistic women #autistic girl #autistic culture #autizzy #jay's tism thoughts

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Black Autistic Culture is people not comprehending the fact of that black people can even be autistic in the first place.

#skip accommodates I have to explain what autism is #autistic problems #being autistic #autistic black girl #autistic black people #autism things #autism #autizzy #actually autistic #black and autistic #autistic and black #autistic #undiagnosed autism #undiagnosed autistic #jay's tism thoughts #autistic black culture

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Brain: You have an eating disorder

Me: No I don't it's perfectly normal to be disgusted by food. And everyone has gagged at some point while eating.

Brain: Sure.

Me: And I'm sure most people are blocking the food tag because it's making them sick.

Brain: Oh honey no.

#hahahaha #im having a blast #arfid struggles #tw arfid #arfid tag #arfid problems #arfid #black and autistic #autistic black girl #autism #being autistic #autism things #jay's tism thoughts #autizzy

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I say a lot of things that are supposed to remain unsaid and unfortunately it's a result of the tizzy. What makes it worse is that I always realize this the moment I've already said something.

#and then i never learn #jay's tism thoughts #autistic black girl #actually autistic #autizzy #autism things #being autistic #autistic problems #black and autistic #black autistic #autistic

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I hate that I'll never be a real person just a shell decorated by a number of masks. I don't know who I am and I doubt that I ever will.

#I look at my own texts wondering who typed them because I don't feel anything #who is this person #i truly dont know #this is probably something cluster b related but 🤷🏾‍♀️ #masking #autism masking #bpd masking #autism #autizzy #autism things #being autistic #autistic problems #bpd problems #bpd vent #jay's tism thoughts #vent