#just felt like talking ab it

[jalluzas-ferney]

Fun fact, Shakespeare invented over 1,700 words. Some of these include :

Addiction

Eventful

Generous

Bedroom

Fashionable

Hurry

Jaded

Kissing

Worthless

Varied

Assasination

Amazement

And oh so many more (clearly)

#just felt like talking ab it #shakespeare #writing #fun facts #facts #william shakespeare #historical #historical facts #English #English language #language arts #art #theatre

[raisinushigher]

am i just so far gone with these two that i can barely correctly comprehend anything they do toward eachother as normal casual interaction anymore or was this actually topher being worried about abe

#bc like…….. in my mind #topher is SUPER like way overprotective of abe. both in the way that he doesn’t want him to get hurt #and he also doesnt like anyone else getting really close to him but he’s calmed down with that one a little #and to me this is one of those moments where topher would 1000% just drop everything #if he thinks abe is in actual danger #dont talk about it much bc i hate them yada yada but seriously i love just… thinking about the most mushiest take on them as possible #like topher is legit in love with abe ya know hes never felt the way he does with abe around in his life ya know #that’s just what they are to me. and that’s what this moment here makes me feel and i have not gotten over it at all #probably won’t until s4 comes out. this is my new favourite crumb #and another thing #i can not lie. i did. get unreasonably excited and happy when abe said he’d come with joan to where topher is #and then later when he said he’d stay behind with topher and the bleacher creatures #im not Even gona reach and pretend it means anything cuz it doesn’t i just love them being together at all #clone high #tophabe #clone high spoilers #mine

[brookheimer]

from strike sparks by sharon olds

#i rly forgot how much i liked olds’ later poetry like i’m not a huge fan of some of the early stuff but when she talks ab her family it’s #always just… god. #anyways. siobhan roy. obviously #obviously the second one did not happen . but replace mother with rather and i think that’s part of why shiv and the others can’t forgive #logan even beyond the obvious ones — who would they even be if they did? #it wasn’t forgiveness last ep when logan was dying but it was… it was something. something that felt i think a lot like this except yknow. #without the fucking closure. #but who are they now that they aren’t against logan? who are they? #sorry for the annotations lol this is from a few years ago #and i couldn’t find good screenshots easily online so #sharon olds #succession #literature #poetry #lit #succession spoilers #in the tags #click to read it . obviously

[mtt-burger-emporium]

thinking about chara and the implications of the line "chara hated humanity. why, they never said..." like ok i KNOW something was happening at home. chara baby you didn't deserve that shit i'm so glad you fell down a thousand feet in a cave hole and right into the arms of people who would keep you fed roof over your head and would never raise their hand against you. "eradicate humanity" you're 10 years old how about eradicating your shitfucked surface fam by calling cps first

#soda.txt #chara #(ok idk if this will work but LEEEENGTHY discussion of child abuse below) #ok listen hear me out on this- i know the initial interpretation is a sui attempt WHICH I ALSO AGREE WITH- BUT LISTEN #i believe there was something else going on leading to the whole ''eradicate humanity'' bit and the obvious answer is an unsafe homelife #well. at least for me. #being around people (or perhaps adults) who hurt you and make you feel unsafe in a place where you should be welcomed with open arms and- #a promise of care would probably make any child feel like all of humanity was (in simple terms) cruel and uncaring #so hearing about somewhere they could GET AWAY FROM THAT? of course they'd take that opportunity and run. #chara was just lucky enough to fall into a place that pulled them out of the ideology of ''all of humanity is cruel'' #because the dreemurrs were kind and patient enough to take them in and give them a new family #and wouldn't anyone want that? #for the part of The Plan (the buttercups) i think.. i think that one was formed by the idea that chara felt obligated to- #pay the dreemurrs back for their kindness. not that the dreemurrs would have made them. just by their own mental code. #what better way to pay a kind family back- one that took you in and cared for you like one of their own- then by forming a plan to- #set their people free? #they've been stuck down there for so long. they've wanted to feel the sun for SO LONG. why not give yourself up to grant that dream? #idk if these thoughts are coherent. LOL sorry i kinda just started saying words huh #but its ok. #feel free to ask me questions ab my interp of chara btw teehee ^_^ i love talking about chara they're my favorite theyre so silly #ok now for the proper tags on this bitch #chara undertale #chara dreemurr #child abuse mention #suicide mention #tw child abuse #safeutdr #OH ANALYSIS TAG UHHH UMM #🧪lab notes

[vegaspeteangst]

that's right, you'd better be scared, you'd better be afraid, you'd better be terrified of me

there's no need to be scared of me (for now)

i just know you aren't scared of me (the thing is you like it, you like everything that's happening at the moment)

you really aren't scared, you really aren't that terrified of me (and i think i'm falling for you, no, it seems like i already fell for you)

and now i'm scared, and now i'm so afraid and now i'm so fucking terrified (because you're my weakness yet my strength and it's time i fell on my knees for you, it's time i begged you not to leave me alone in the darkness)

please, i'm begging you, don't be afraid of me, don't be scared of me, don't be terrified of me (i want you to take me back, i need you to take me back even if it's going to be on your terms, it's your choice, i'm at your mercy)

i'm not scared, i'm not afraid, i'm not terrified (if it's you, then i'm willing to take it all, i'm willing to give my life, i'm at your mercy once again)

we're neither scared or afraid (it's just us and that's all that matters, it's just us and we've overcome so many things together, it's just us and we're going to take it step by step... we'll be fine as long as we have each other)

#it should've been a post ab different emotions and meanings hidden behind vegas touching pete's face #and as u can see there's one particular shot of pete doing so #it just felt right to include it here cause it still portrays vegas emotions through that touch #it was literally a point of no fucking return #this exact moment of pete touching vegas face was a groundbreaking moment for both of them (at least that's how i feel lol) #vegas let him do it...pete didn't hit him straight to the jaw this time... he just wanted to feel vegas was really here #pete just wanted to stroke a face of the man he loved so much yet hated #oh gosh i need to stop talking so much #so yeah this post isn't like deep analysis or stuff like that #it's just something that i interpreted the way i felt it after rewatching vegaspete scences for the hundredth time #vegaspete #vegas theerapanyakul #pete saengtham #kinnporsche the series

[hovkinnie]

honkai domination and kolosten arc spoilers/rambling+ some heavy complaining after the read more (it's basically a whole ass essay im so fucking sorry lkfjdslkfjdslkfj)

thinking ab how fucking rad and meaningful kolosten would've been if the domination arc had ended with kiana and HoV coexisting instead of what we got.

It definitely would've been better to do that with more setup of them actually talking throughout the story (which is the same thing you can say about the way it went, imo) but even without it- it would've been even more in line with what I think are the most resonant themes of that story.

The thing that made me fall in love with honkai like I did was the themes around victimhood and antagonism. Sirin, Wendy, Bronya, basically all the Herrschers we've seen- whenever a character that wasn't Otto during the beginning stages of the story became a threat to the world, it was never really because they were "evil". They were victims of the cruel world around them, sometimes victims of the same organisms that fought against the supposed real evil of the honkai, and either broke or lashed out because of their real vulnerability.

But in a lot of those moments the story understood two things: one, that that's a tragedy, one that deserves to become motivation to change the world so this kind of thing can't happen again, and two, that if at all possible, despite the threat they might pose to our characters or the world, what they deserve isn't hostility but compassion. Because they aren't the perpetrators of their own violence, only the victims through which it becomes externalized.

This compassion IS extended to Sirin, not only in Second Eruption but also through Kiana, who, despite being a danger in a sense because of HoV, is shown compassion as one of two different people carrying on from Sirin's past.

But imo, it undercuts this theme that HoV isn't extended the same compassion. Because HoV is not only a more direct threat to the world than just Kiana by proxy, she's a much more direct inheritor of what Sirin could represent: A righful anger at the world that victimised her, one that isn't content to fight to protect that world.

And in a story that had at that point so wonderfully allowed characters who were framed as villains to be accepted for who they are, to be recognized as the victims they are and shown a path forward that didn't end with them burning out, in a story with Bronya's self-determination being fought for, with Mei becoming a Herrscher that fights in her own way to protect who she loves, with HoS being shown compassion, Fu Hua being stopped from sacrificing herself for absolution and a pointless so-called victory, with Seele being allowed to live in harmony with her other self and taking her own name, it's just painful that HoV's anger cannot be accepted and coexisted with.

I know that it's not a hugely popular opinion, but I think kolosten drops the ball with Otto, and I think it's because until that point, we had seen Otto from the perspectives of those who were the most hurt by his actions, some of whom might have developed a sort of stockholm syndrome but who were still able to see the hurt he's caused the world. We knew, always, that his view of the world did not include the real compassion that we'd seen growing in the main cast towards those victimised by him, the thing that to me was the emotional core of honkai. Where kolosten fails for me is that now we got so, so, SO much from his own perspective, his own hand-washing, while getting absolutely NOTHING about the people he'd hurt.

We knew throughout the story, always, that the kinds of experiments he'd done to people en masse for hundreds of years were a kind of mass torture that was what created Sirin as a Herrscher in the first place, the pain that created her anger. We knew that Kallen would've been better off if he'd never been so obsessed with her because we got her perspective on that history, and we knew that the world would've been better off in the years after that because we got the perspectives of the people most hurt by his actions. And yet kolosten gave us none of those perspectives, only focusing on him, the people with the most stockholm syndrome for him, and Kiana as a newly-reborn protagonist who isn't about to let anger cloud her judgement.

All kolosten felt like was a pity party for what was undoubtedly one of the most horrid men imaginable in that world. And that's really only because there were perspectives that were sorely lacking, perspectives that could've been there, ANGER that could've been there, if HoV was allowed to exist, if she was allowed to be there to say what I wanted to say the most to every character that I otherwise adore throughout that entire arc.

"Fuck this garbage fire that's been burning for 500 years. He doesn't get his pity party, or his one in a million shot to save someone who never wanted to be saved by him. He's hurt too many people to deserve anything other than a million void lances tearing him apart, one for each person whose life he ruined by existing."

Because if your compassions for victims doesn't extend to accepting that they're allowed to just fucking HATE those who hurt them, then it isn't worth shit.

#(this is like actually extremely long tbc pls don't click if ur not ready to read a whole ass essay) #honkai #honkai impact #honkai spoilers #herrscher of the void #hov #im not tagging anything else cause i don't want this to be seen as like tagging hate or w/e? #i love honkai and i talked ab the reasons why in here #it's just #i couldn't stop thinking and wanted to write it out #all the reasons why it felt like at some point it started really failing in the regard that i used to love it the most #yes even beyond the fact the girls are gay #i read yuri every day that's not gonna be what moves the needle and makes something one of my favorite games ever

[reignbowarbiter]

take pen15 off of tiktok rn bc ppl dont get it

#cheese *blush* #theyre all hating on maya for being a ‘bad friend’ THEY WERE LITERALLY KIDS😭😭😭 ITS SUPPOSE TO BE THEM BEING KIDS.!!!! OF COURSE #BOTH GIRLS ARE GOING TO BE ANNOYING AND MEAN TO EACHOTHER SOMETIMES😭😭 #and u can always tell when ppl didnt watch it bc maya HAD been a good friend to ana multiple times but they both made mistakes #and accidentally hurt eachother😭 also ppl saying ‘mayas the type to do xyz’ and its something so horrible like thats a real person😭 #the whole show is based off of them like why r u saying maya woukd fucking suibait someone THATS A REAL HUMAN.!!!!!!! #also i hate how they make fun of how the girls look like obviously they have makeup on and stuff but they really do look like that irl😭 #its especially bad with maya cus everyone thinks shes ugly and hates on her 10x more than ana like just admit ur racist… #also its so ironic how there was an entire episode in the show where everyone was talking about how ume was so cute and maya felt bad #bc she was also asian and no one was saying that to her and literally everyone is bashing how she looks in the comments #while talking about how attractive shuji is in the same breath like guys . hello #i could talk endlessly ab pen15.. literally one of my fav shows and it makes me so sad to see ppl who havent even seen it say they hate #both maya and ana:(

[hiraya-sa-dilim]

HAPPY FUCKING PRIDE TO BIGOLAS DICKOLAS MORNINGWOOD OF ARMAGEDDON WINTER 2023 EXCLUSIVELY

#trigun stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #armageddon #armageddon winter 2023 #not to be a lesbian but holy shit. holy fucking shit. #TJIS IS THE GAYEST IVE FELT IN SEVEN LONG AND LONELY MONTHS #idk if u have a tumblr whoever u are but oh my god thank u for. existing??!? #idk how to talk to people?? i wouldve asked u ab ur punisher bc??!? it is utterly Impressive i am so serious #and i wouldve asked u for ur url if u had one for rhe kost aroace reasons possible (i call my intense aesthetic attraction lesbianism) #and BOY were you fucking!!!! attractive!!!!!! #AND YOU SMELLED LIKE SMOKE HOLY SHIIIIIIIIIIT #trigun #cosplay #post #mine #2023 #auckland #aotearoa #new zealand #I JUST NOTICED U FINALLY GAVE HIM ARCH SUPPORT

[ceruleanfuckup]

So I had a fantastic date tonight.

#it was a gym date and the first time we were meeting each other so i was nervous about it but it turned out to be really really nice #he's new to the poly stuff and the way that he spoke about it told of an emotional and intellectual intelligence that was so fuckin hot #he's really cute and we have a kind of shocking amounts of crazy passions that are exactly the same #he can quote scott pilgrim as much as me #he has dice tattoos #he got really excited when i gave him the origami ball i made while bored in a meeting today and wouldn't stop fidgeting with it #we got dinner afterwards and talked a lot about a lot of different things about each other and it was just really nice #and he told me i have the prettiest brown eyes 🥺 #he also said that he showed his husband my pictures and he was like 'damn he looks like he has a strong stomach.not abs but like a strongmn #and i got SO EXCITED #i pointed out my gym crushes to him because i wanted to test the jealousy waters and he reacted very well #he answered my questions with a level of thoughtfulness and contemplation that i felt deeply attracted to #i just think I'm going to fall for him really hard and I'm very very excited about it #my love life has been... lackluster recently for a lot of different reasons #and I'm so fucking excited to have someone that i can be excited about who is just as excited about me #I've been craving that for so long #I'm just thrilled and looking forward to the next date #we're going to be talking a lot #I'm gonna be a little sad for a second. the person who i thought was my stream of consciousness has shown me that he doesn't really care #and that's been hard for me to come to terms with. we haven't even had a conversation about it #but he's been the only person that I can tell things to when i get excited about something #and i don't feel like i have that. so I'm writing in a Tumblr post about this because I don't feel like i have anyone #to get excited with me about things #hopefully that will change soon. I'm very hopeful about him. #just please. whatever deity is out there. please let me find some happiness here. i have been craving and wishing for way too long #personal #edit: another very very good sign is that he's much smaller than me and a trans man who is getting back into the gym #but he didn't seem intimidated by my size and was even comfortable taking flexing selfies with me after. #if existing around me or in that setting triggered any physical insecurities #he didn't show it. which was a big change from the ball of anxiety i saw when walking into the gym. I'm just impressed in a few ways

[eeunwoo]

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#hii.. im still not really here a lot re kpop its just not really like the most important thing in my life rn lol #but uh i guess my dog's passing is something i gotta deal on my own entirely. my mom seems pretty much over it without really taking me int #account at all. today shes even sorta like. making odd comments/jokes about it like 'i talk to toto sometimes' because we say this #weird lady on tv talking ab how she talks to deer heads. and i just stared at my mom like deadpan and just looked away #bc what the fuck. and ofc she wouldnt consider its not an ok thing to say . otherwise shes really like trying to make out that im being a #really good kid and taking care of her and her feelings bc shes inventing things in her head about me being extra nice and careful with her #shes like awww youre taking care of me <3 and im like no im actually treating you like you're a total stranger in my house because you #basically are. and anyway. im basically on my own like i always am. i just have to deal with it all alone. as always. which is like fine #its just im extra lonely and alone so <3 ive also been suicidal and really really on the edge. that's your alex update if anyone cares #to be completely honest it's been taking everything in me not to just od right now its all i can think about and i havent felt like it in #years. ive just been sleeping for 12 hours at a time lmao........ anyway yeah thats it? #mrow.org

[haemosexuality]

i cant sleep and im anxious and feeling emo and scared that our friendship is going to end

#unfortunately for me ive always felt replaceable and boring to talk to and now that shes dating im like. clearly shell realize what its like #to be close with someone whos actually fun and will stop talking to you forever. i recognize this is irrational and just me being insecure. #im not like gonna be annoying about it #also sucks cuz we are online friends and he is obviously there physically w her #so again clear choice on whos better to talk to #i maybe could talk to her about this bc a few years back she admitted to feeling insecure when i made a new friend and we talked ab it and #it was great its good to be open. but im scared of being thinking im like jealous #ive also made clear before im against her dating him (TEN YEAR AGE GAP) so i think she might think this is why. which it isnt #her thinking im being jealous* that phrase came out fucked up

[louismygf]

just recently watched this is us with my college friends

#tbqh i found it kinda boring 😭 #the louis clips were so not enough #ive watched some clips online prior to actually watching it (for the first time might i add) #one of my friends had a cousin who was crazyyy ab 1d so she dragged her out to the cinema to go watch it when it came out and in 3d lol 😭 #the 3d schtick is so funny 2 me lmao 😭 #my friend recalls freaking out in the movie theater bc she was a major niall fan at the time. she said 3d niall was so close 2 her face lol #anyway. ab how i watched some clips online prior #i was actually waiting for the louis n his sisters part or the one where he visits his school or smth #my friends.... they literally don't know a thing ab louis personality-wise so they didn't really get much from it #UGH i should download aotv and make them watch it that was way more interesting (but idk? smth about it feels like it's made for fans only? #but... i'll suggest it the next time we get together 🙏🏼 #anyw back to my review. #simon cowell's face was a jumpscare what can i say. it was so evil how nicole scherzinger was just. completely written off #im from the future i Know things #<- and like. about this. i felt kinda bad being cynical about the movie when i know my friend is Still an ot5 at heart #i think i broke her 13-year old heart a little 😭 #it's so weird how the movie keeps singling out zayn about him getting kicked out or him talking solo music etc kskdj. feels v pointed Lol #they really just documented the 1d-mania & madness they ensued huh.... i think 2 of my friends (bts fans) weren't as impressed LOL 😭 #they kinda flamed their performances and stage outfits which is. yeah i agree. kpop idols do WAY more than just.... that (1d) kskskd #i guess i'll make them watch the extra clips next time (o haven't seen all the clips yet i think) #OH and 😭 why was martin scorsese in the film that was hilarious #didn't have a lot of realness to it. is what i thought of the film. yeah. this is(N'T) us ✊🏽😔 #maybe... i am too much of a hater #i liked... the... um. it's hard to highlight things i liked ab the film when im Not a 1d fan 😭 like im a louie ONLY idgaf ab 1d 😔 #the part ab louis audition.... im sorry babie the editors did u dirty but it was so funny........😭 #<- though i imagine it solidified people's (wrong) opinions about him :/

[cassarson]

Do any of y'all have adhd and bipolar or know of any good accounts of what having both is like? I've noticed that I've been having some seriously abnormal moods recently, and the more I look into it, the more I think that it looks a lot like bipolar, but I'm not sure how it would interact with my adhd, or even if there's anything other than my adhd going on at all. Feel free to DM me if you don't want to talk about it publicly

#personal #adhd #bipolar #(?) #as an example of the mood swings: last night i worked on a project that isnt for a grade from 6pm to 1am with a 20 minute dinner at 9 #and now im 10 minutes into my first class of the day. and im sitting on my bed in my robe not even dressed from the shower #(yes the class is in-person) #and i know i need to get up and move but its just not happening #and this isnt super weird for me w the adhd but ive been having really long stretches of unsteerable hyperfocus for a few days #when normally being medicated means i can control the general direction of the hyperfocus #and since monday ive felt like i need less sleep and have been even more nocturnal than usual which i think is making mornings harder #and ive been feeling like im on top of the world #like being late to class doesn't matter and i can spend my time doing what i want to even if i have other shit to do. #ive been super late to classes recently bc of executive dysfunction in the morning #and hyperfocus in between classes. #idk it feels like im losing it a bit and im really frustrated by my dumbass brain rn. #n e way. that was a long ass rant. pls lmk if youve got any experience w this or any resources that talk ab it. thx!❤️

[imblocking-you]

Watching Death's Game because I like suffering 👍

#death's game #netflix #// maple #ion wanna kin bro but i feel like im headed there #'do you travel to the afterlife on a plane?' BYE #SIWON? i forgot the cast is like stacked lmao #feels like a world hopping novel i like it #talk about karma T T also i didnt expect how graphic it was BYE #THIS FALLJNG GUY BYE LMFAO #and he reverts back to the teenage form when the stronger opponent arrives #GOD THE GUILT #yung bulgogi sa spoon :(( wala na iyak na ko guys talo mga may single parents talo mga walang nanay hahahahaha #after death told him that he's only thinking ab himself oh this life is purposeful UN HUH #but we know it's doomed to fail kasi nga second ep pa lang BUT MAN i hope something changes... #'everything is fine yee jae' it is it truly is the fact the mom was calling him before he jumped oh you just know she was ready to tell him #exactly that OH this breaks my heart #choking and holding back tears while eating FELT #NO NO *bunches up hair* I WONT FALL FOR IT THIS IS JUST A PLOY TO GET ME ATTACHED TO THE CHARACTER BEFORE YOU INEVITABLY KILL THEM #Lee Ju Hun HAHHAHAHAHA LARO #tinago niya 'yung pera para next life makukuha niya gagi pangmalakasang ungkatan ng past 'to LMAO #why does this one prisoner dude look like sohee #BYE WHAT IF IT'S JINSANG WEBTOONS TEND TO DO THAT #HELP I KNEW WE'RE TYING UP LOOSE ENDS HAHAHAHAHA #I just know taekang other son is tied up in all of this too #gagi part 1 pa lang pala yata 'yung drama na 'to mapapabasa ko ng wentoon ng 'di oras #jinsang you overgrown chuuni 😭 #i feel great for getting jinsang beat up but like we all taesang is dying so...i wouldnt be so comfy if i were u lol #OOH THAT NAME DROP FELT SO GOOD AVENGE HIM BROTHER THATS RIGHT #yall him being given the chance to print shit and he immediately goes to grimes core is obviously a sign that he's pretending to be a psych #NAURR the vendetta just ruins it

[mishkakagehishka]

Going "oh i gotta go home tho" and being asked nooo why but how do i tell them i have to play a mobage like crazy today to prepare for an event without sounding insane

#^^; ... well #i passed but i nearly fucking fainted #that kind girl i talked ab is SO ridiculously kind tho wtf #girlie came with doughnuts and was like. you're gonna get this #every time my brain blocked up and i felt like giving up she just kicked me under the table #when the prof turned to the others she kept mouthing ''you're doing great'' at me #???????????? how do some people have that much kindness in them genuinely #i am amazed. and really glad i made friends with her

[tiptapricot]

Man idk what ppl r talking ab TnB 2 fucking jammed

#tiger & bunny #like so many arcs felt natural n satisfying the character work was done rlly well #ppl r sad ab yuris arc but like?? he’s not… confirmed to b dead #it was an ambiguous death we don’t see him turn to ash or hit the water or a dead body #n his arc felt like… it worked to me. from my perspective on his character and his complications #and just… gggHhoiughh Subaru n Thomas’s development #n Kotetsu n Barnaby caring about each other n barnaby cRYINGGGG n oUggHhhHGhJiIhghh #just #I rlly liked it. I’m rlly rlly happy w it. n I rlly rlly hope they get another season id love to see them being domestic and healthy #and living #and for yuri to live a new life with that vengeance of himself ‘dead’ and able to heal and cope with his trauma in a healthier way #so yea :-) #I rlly rlly enjoyed it… agHhhh #the fruit is talking again