#keep in contact anymore

[whimsyprinx]

i know it’s selfish of me to want people to reach out first or like generally because people have lives, they’re busy, they’re dealing with their own shit, maybe they just don’t think to even keep in contact, etc etc but that doesn’t make it hurt any less or make me feel any less unwanted when it feels like half the people i thought were my friends don’t seem like they think of me as their friend.

#whimsy whispers #idk I think it’s made worse because like while I’m not busy not I use to work and be busy and still tried to create time to keep in contact #with people and like I struggle reaching out to people and keeping in contact but despite that for a while I like consistently tried to keep #in contact with people and message them daily even though I felt like I wasn’t wanted and was being annoying but like as you can see I’ve #since stopped that because like the feeling of bothering people only got worse especially when it felt like I was the only person trying to #keep in contact anymore #I know I shouldn’t expect or hope for people to go out of their way and comfort zone to talk to me and make me feel wanted or to prove that #they (still?) care about me but like I just don’t know what my role in peoples lives are anymore like am I even your friend? do you want me #in your life do you even like me? it just doesn’t feel like it and like I don’t expect anyone to see this post and to reach out because of #it or feel anything other than annoyed that I’m making a vague post about what’s up in my life I know that’s now how this works #I also know people avoid me when I get this way but as it stands im not getting any better #or idk I’d like to think I am I wanna believe I’m not as upset as I could be but some days it’s just so painful and I feel so alone and #disposed of like it truly feels like whatever relationship I have with people isn’t anything #it’s nothing I’m nothing and nothing is going to change that nothing is going to change in general

[nelkcats]

Therapy needed

Danny needed therapy, that was pretty obvious. After the whole "my future self killed everyone because my family died" thing it became pretty obvious that he needed to acknowledge his traumas and deal with them properly before another Dan happened or his emotions just exploded. The fact that his parents wanted to kill him and no one would acknowledge his death was making things worse.

So he asked his sister for help, but Jazz being annoyingly responsible commented that he couldn't become her patient, something about how personal feelings could cloud her judgment and family can't give each other therapy. Danny thought it was a bit hypocritical considering she used him as a lab rat with her psychology books but decided not to say anything.

The fact that Jazz could not be his therapist made everything 10 times more complicated. First of all because Danny had a trauma with psychologists (and wasn't that ironic? He blamed Spectra for that), and secondly that no one would believe his whole life story or keep it a secret. It was unfortunate that the Yetis were general health doctors and not mental health doctors because that would have solved his problem.

Just as he was about to give up and continue to treat his traumas as a recurring joke, Jazz introduced him to someone. Her name was Harleen Frances Quinzel and she was completely crazy, but according to Jazz she was excellent at her job. Danny had his doubts but in the end he agreed to have an appointment with her.

Strangely, Harley Quinn lived up to his sister's expectations, not being upset when Danny asked to change the decor of the place (Spectra had done a number on his head, common offices became uncomfortable for him), nor when Danny almost froze her by accident. Harley was patient, attentive and considered all his suggestions, accepting or denying as needed. Danny liked it.

The only complaint the halfa had were about the stalkers on the roof who were always watching him on his way to and from Harley's house, it was getting very annoying. One of them panicked when Danny came out crying - couldn't a ghost face his traumas in peace!?

#dpxdc #Harley is good at her job #Danny is happy to be in therapy #mental health is important #You can't tell me that Spectra didn't leave some trauma on Danny after their first meeting #Danny thinks it's ironic to have trauma with therapy #He almost refuses to see anyone but trusts Jazz #Harley tutored Jazz at one point #Jazz trust her #dp x dc #dc x dp #Harley is good but the bats don't fully trust her #Reason why they are watching #Danny is very upset with the stalkers #is he not allowed to cry in peace after a little trauma dumping? #Harley is very good at keeping secrets #The bats thought Danny was some criminal contact of Harley's #Then they saw him crying and they don't know what to think anymore #Danny is going to throw a ball of pure ice at them if they keep bothering him

[tequiilasunriise]

I am so in love with this volume because I am so in love with the way Blake Belladonna is finally allowing herself to love Yang, you feel me?

Blake has always had this love fer Yang, we all watched their slowburn unfold over several volumes, but she kept this love close to her heart and only let that affection slip through cracks of her walls and/or during dire life or death situations. The simple, domestic, everyday ways to express love? Holding hands just because and softer words spoken freely and casually? Blake couldn’t do it because she was still afraid.

Afraid to hurt Yang and scare her away with her affections, because she had hurt Yang so much already and couldn’t bear to risk burdening her even more. She had left, she had abandoned the one person who she trusted most, and she had to prove she was staying for good this time. They still had to repair their friendship first and foremost.

Afraid to be the one hurting for exposing herself, because love had burned her once so throughly before. She trusts Yang with her life, but that haunting nightmare that is Adam makes it hard fer her to trust the brightest thing in her life with her heart. Blake had to overcome the bullish knife hanging over her head before she could be in another relationship.

And then when these issues were slowly getting resolved, Blake still held back. Sure, there were more tender moments between them, but they were more brief and far between. Blake was still holding back because this slowburn slowdance was all she knew when it came to Yang. They had to focus on the threat of Salem, of Atlas falling, of all that. It was better to play it safe, now was still not the right time.

But then? But then Blake watched Yang die, and suddenly all those cautious moments of ‘playing it safe’ racked up to an indescribable amount of missed opportunities and regret. Suddenly waiting all this time for the ‘right’ time didnt matter at all anymore because Blake completely ran out of any time.

Blake isn’t going to hold back anymore, she’s finally comfortable enough to be who she always was deep down under those trauma walls, this openly affectionate silly goofy little book nerd who just wants to make her beloved smile, and she’s going to absolutely s h o w e r Yang with flirty tones and dumb jokes and longing touches and be such a dorky romantic because she doesn’t want to waste anymore time. As Weiss spoke fer all of us, it’s, “About time”. The ‘right’ time is right the fuck now screw that ‘not concerned with sands of time’ bullshit she wants to kiss this stupid pretty face and she WILL let Yang know. I think about Blake this volume and I’m just SO PROUD OF HER. Nothing like a little taste of death to push a slowburn along, huh? Seriously though, witnessing Blake’s arc come full circle to open up and be the person she once was before Adam crushed her into taking up as little space as possible, before she deemed herself as nothing but a coward and a fool, seeing her laugh and smile openly and shoot every damn shot she can- it’s so, so damn good.

Anyways, I am also in love with Yang Xiao Long having no idea how to handle Blake being incredibly openly in love with her. 10/10 watching experience, truly.

#those fanfics that had Blake being a smooth flirt are O U T. Canon silly goofy dorky romantic Blake Belladonna is IN #shes so in love she cant contain it anymore she can hardly even LOOK at Yang without those soft eyes and gentle touches #she keeps having these brief soft moments of physical contact with Yang and its DRIVING ME NUTS #stolen moments of sunshine bc shes so drawn to yang she cant stop herself from indulging even if its a quick little touch im so fucken ill #lord save me im so ill IM SOOOO IIILLLLLL #GODS. GODS IM HAVING SUCH BIG FEELINGS OVER BLAKE BELLADONNA RN. #rwby #bumbleby #bumbleby bumblebabes #blake belladonna #yang xiao long #rwby spoilers #rwby v9

[sergle]

s3 of witcher is so bad but i DO black out during every scene with mahesh jadu in it so at least it can do that for me

#i stopped watching bc i just couldn't do it anymore but i do still have a sickness looking at that motherfucker #sergle.txt #NO disrespect to our boy henry of course but ppl focus too much on him as eye candy in this show. when mahesh is there #looking. fucking. crazy. #granted s2 had problems but i was still like. i was prepared to keep vibing #in particular it just wasn't as tight and the special effects were just Worse #and the girl who plays siri was Acting Too Hard and it got a little distracting. like i could feel her acting #but she's older now so it makes sense that she would want to try and like... show her acting chops #anyway yeah. that man. that fucking man #please don't be mad at me if you liked s3 btw i promise that it does not matter.. #they DID fix geralt's contacts in s3. but I liked his neelix eyes tbh

[science-lings]

imagine being Misty Fey and leaving your daughters in the care of your asshole sister who frames one of them for murder and is literally just about to do it again, knowing that the asshole sister has a daughter who killed two (debatably three) people and nearly killed another. You keep track of one of your daughter's life enough to notice that that one kid that your niece tried to kill interned with your daughter and defended your other daughter for the first daughter's murder because they met at the crime scene and became instant buddies and the first time you meet your remaining child she doesn't recognize you. You will never be able to tell her who you are because you get murdered that night.

#i am always thinking about a bridge to the turnabout btw #you think she looked at phoenix interacting with Maya and was like 'welp I guess I have a son now' #lost one lawyer daughter and gained one lawyer son #her reputation had to have been crazy for her to disappear for so long like holy crap #i bet she was at Mia's funeral in a disguise #she's kind of fascinating actually i wonder how much she actually knew... #she may be a deadbeat but she's so interesting to think about #i like to think she tried to silently keep up with her kids but couldn't contact them #she definitely shouldve though #at least after morgan was jailed like... what are you waiting for? dl6 was solved! maya could channel greg again and ask why he lied! #theres literally no reason to just dip out forever anymore! #i hate her i want to study her I want her to haunt the narrative more #misty fey #ace attorney #i want misty to watch courtroom recordings because she's desperate to see her daughters #she gets to know phoenix as shes trying to keep up with Mia and Maya #middle child phoenix supremacy #imagine realizing that this random guy has done more to protect and save your daughter than you have by just being there for her

[mrpsychokiller]

i hate having hormones on my brain i feel like crying over lost space probes

#i cant describe how sad i get everytime i think of them we made them and sent them to space to explore the universe for us #and then one day they dont respond anymore. and we keep trying to contact them again and again and again #and eventually all that can be done is accept we will never see them again. their mission is complete and theyve done all that they could do #and now its over. #i am unconsolable #🧃

[konowhoregakure]

Ok but

A cop duo AU with Kakashi and Obito, like those silly cop movies where they solve the case by just fooling around and having luck.

#They’re silly but they have contacts so it’s all ok in the end #Obito keeps calling Kakashi partner and Kakashi can’t deal with it anymore #naruto #naruto shippuden #naruto shitposting #kakashi hatake #obito uchiha

[stark-illerbase]

MY FACEBOOK DID A THING HAHA

#des rambles #Lemme make this clear that this is NOT hate toward the kid playing Jacen #I haven't even seen the episode and I'm sure he did great #this is SOLEY from a design perspective #bc jacen is a walking L #neither of his parents are white #yet he is #they give hera the most unnatural crispy contact lenses and dont keep the same energy with her kid #i literally cannot stand anything star wars related anymore bc they just trash my favorite characters repeatedly #rant in tags #ahsoka #ahsoka series #ahsoka episode 3 #hera syndulla #jacen syndulla #kanan jarrus

[abysel]

A MESSAGE:  so, as many of you might've already gathered, i've decided to step away from the rpc as a whole for the foreseeable future. all i'm doing right now, is putting thought to paper and letting you all now that this is not a goodbye, but a see you later. this blog will stay up, and i will still occasionally swing by whenever the thought pops into my head, or if i ever feel like writing publicly again. tumblr just isn't awesome sauce at all, and hasn't been great, for what feels like a really long while. being away from here has greatly improved my mental health and i'm just not really feeling a grand return as of yet.

so for now-- consider this blog on a permanent hiatus. thank y'all so much for the patience!

on the same topic, and to piggyback off of everything, i will still be writing all of your favorite scrimblos on discord. or at least, attempting to! so, reach out to me if you're interested in keeping in contact that way! my ims on here will stay open to y'all, so feel free to ask me for my discord on there!

#had to put this on my blog in case anyone even checks this out anymore!! #LMFAO #but yea idk #i wanna write!!! i really do!! #but lordy loo. #anw ask me for my discord. let's keep in contact baybee. #so yea! peace!

[peri]

the urge to contact everyone youve ever cut off is so strong all the time 24/7

#log date.txt #ive been really sad about the people who arent in my life anymore recently #specifically the ones i cut off #i mean i guess i just never stopped being sad about them? #the last time i spoke to the most recent one i cut off was in like early 2021 #and i forced myself to be and act detached in the moment #but as soon as i blocked them i sobbed #luckily theres One (1) thing they said thats stopping me from contacting them again #and its stupid and very bpd of me to feel the way i do about that small thing they said #but i mean it keeps me from contacting them so.. whatever works #i just wish i could have them back in my life without ..... without everything else #i miss when things didnt get so complicated between us

[solace-seekers]

will: well, see, i haven’t taken my contacts out in a couple weeks but that’s not-

everyone else at the table: WHAT-

will: see this is why i wasn’t gonna mention it. i mean what’s the worst that could happen, i go blind? that’d actually be kinda fun

#will is like. direct quotes from my friend grady #grady i haven’t spoken to you in a few days but i hope you took your contacts out #everyone at the table is all apollo kids lou ellen cecil nico whoever #everyone in the world because will is making a dumbass decision #no one can yell at me for keeping them in a few days anymore until grady takes his out #pjo #hoo #pjo/hoo #will solace

[bootyful-seventeen]

hey y'all, anyone have any good stress relief tehniques or habits they'd like to share cuz I've been more stressed in the last 3 weeks then I was in the last 6 months

#to cut the long story short my mom had to sell the old house cuz her broke ass couldnt afford to keep it up #eventho it is a whole ass hoarders house and was in shambles with a flooded basement a collapsing ceiling in at least 2 rooms plus mold #and the stench a dirt and dog piss and shit all over the floor really made it worse then it was #but yeah so shes been staying with me and my grandma and its been awful #she hasnt been taking any of the medicine the doctors gave her when she snapped and started a fight and also started screaming at neighbour #so shes been terrorizing us here while the house has become her second hoarders den since she dragged so much crap here #my backyard side entrance and front porch are full of her shit and my grandma hates it since she can barely step into the house #so since she kept looking for places way out of her budget i had to go do house hunting since my useless sister is busy getting lit again #so ive been showing her shit in her price range that was under 420k cuz im not a moron who looks at 800k homes when i have 570k #and each time she has a new complaint saying its too expenive or its too small or its too old when she said she wants to do renovations #but shes saying she wants to renovate a newly renovated place instead of an old one #so i just showed her a house near my sisters uni and she liked the inside & backyard but she complained that 400k for newly renovated 3 bed #that is literally a 9 minute drive from my sisters uni is too expensive when shes the one who was looking at an old ass unrenovated bungalo #that is a street over from us that is 800k and she says it looks like garbage cuz an old lady previously owned it before dying #like no shit it looks old cuz older people lived those decades and like it and she just keeps doing her bullshit again & again #cuz when i tell you her mind is gone i mean it is GONE and she starts up all these wild stories to just explain some shit #like something goes missing? the neighbours are hungarian and stole it and left the hoard of junk in her old house #she has more stupid stories to harass and stress us out with but if im gonna share that ill have to write a book about it cuz fuck #and you know its bad when no one else can stand being in any contact with her cuz she starts screaming at people about it #so the only one who even likes her anymore is my sister and thats cuz shes deep in denial about just how insane she is & how abusive she is #so yeah i need some stress relief help that maybe isnt constantly hitting up maryjane cuz i dont do weed often especially since shes here #cuz weed 'burns your brain & makes you crazy like this' when shes the only one whos ever infuriated me to astronimical levels #i know retail therapy helped before she came here but i dont want to keep spending money i dont really have #it would be great tho but shes refusing to give me the 70k she said was mine from the house sale so i can cut her out for good

[candlebel]

I cared. I still do. I still think of you and I still cry over you. You were importat to me. You still are.

#I was interested. I wanted to get to know you. #I did not want validation. I only said it because you said it... I don't know why. I was susceptible. #I was blindly accepting certain things that you said about me. Judgement that you had for me. #I was under severe stress from my job at the time; while at the same time dealing with unresolved emotional trauma and very low self worth. #I was burnt out. Crushed... Completely. #I didn't want attention. I did not want you to cure my depression. I though I was just letting you know me. I wasn't aware I was oversharin #I tried... SO HARD to get over the things that triggered me and hurt me but I just couldn't... #I wanted to. I did everything in my might; I took it to therapy; I looked everywhere within me; to either get over it #or completely forget about you and stop caring at all; so things were ok and normal again; but it didn't go away... #to this day... #I just feel so... unsafe... at the idea of talking again #I know I wasn't the best listener and I profoundly regret that. #I was not only thinking about myself like you said and I was aware of the effort that other's put; but I was afraid/resistant to PRECISELY #that cause of past events with other people. Because in some I was the one putting that effort and ended badly for me. Looking back #that was inappropiate of you because you felt too comfortable generalizing my past relationships and why in your head they failed. #“I cant help but feel you are looking down on people who” Stay away from me if you ever make a stretch like this again. #By “experiment” I meant that you don't know how a relatioship with somebody is gonna turn out until you go and try. That's all I meant. #I didn't want things to turn out this way. I'm sorry they did. #The effort I put for you may have been shit to you. But to me it was a lot. And I'm done taking judgement. #Altho I love my friends I still keep distance. I still can't completely help that. I can go months not talking to my BF. #You were my BF during my teenage years. I remembered you fondly. I still do. #I don't feel ready to talk again having to keep to myself interest that I might have. Related to trauma. I do not feel comfortable with tha #No I do not look at your blogs. #The day I said I was abused I had a panic attack right after that. That's mainly why I had to cut contact: I didn't want another one. #I didn't tell you because I didn't trust you to not say “talk to the void” again. I didn't trust you to want to hear about it. I didnt feel #safe with you anymore. Event tho we ressumed contact I felt that way the entire time. #I wanted to answer all the questions you had; I really did; until I couldn't stand it anymore. #And the day I removed you from discord... I know you probably had an awful day that day... I'm so; so sorry... #I'd like to one day be completely unbothered by assumptions and stuff cuz I know it's not your fault... You went through stuff too... #vent

[princeofyorkshire]

mentían, provocaron daños psicológicos irreversibles, prometieron que iban a volver y nunca lo hicieron y aún así ahí va la mejor boyband que ha tenido el mundo

#volvía para eso no #happy birthday one direction i forgot about the anniversary that means i’ve healed ig #anyway i am not really gonna use this blog anymore unless louis drops the latam dates so i might come back to scream for that but yeah this #blog will stay inactive for… who knows how long #so feel free to unfollow! no hard feelings i am moreofeffie on insta if you wanna keep contact #or @ frankyfitzgerald here on tumblr which is mostly multifandom/aes stuff #so yeah i hope everyone’s doing well 🫶 #**

[toytulini]

god i really went THREE FUCKING YRS without getting sick i was being so goddamn careful but then my parents got smth and foolish me, didnt step up the level of precaution i was taking around them, and lo and behold, im almost definitely sick

#toy txt post #grumping #AS SOON AS I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK AND DONT HAVE ANYMORE DAYS OFF TOO. GOD. I GUESS ILL FUCKING ASK TOMORROW #IF THEY WANT ME THERE OR NOT. obviously i will be wearing a mask. just. augh #the annoying part is i WAS taking precautions around my parents. wearing a mask around them. etc. #but foolish me let my door be open cos the room is a little warm. so their air conditioner just blasted all their Sick Air right into my #fucking bedroom ig. i have a hepa filter running all the time but it wasnt enough ig #and like. you know. at night when they were in bed id dare to be unmasked outside my room. my mistake ig #i ate food they made. i was wearing a mask around them but not the best mask i couldve cos that one does hurt my nose after awhile #i was wearing a mask around them but i wasnt likiting contact as much as i shouldve. they kept opening my door and coming into my room #before id gotten up so i couldnt get a mask on in time. etc. see. all on me i shouldve known better/s #idk. just. frustrated. i try to take my silly little precautions in a way that not fucking obtrusive to them #cos god forbid. god forbid i ask them to like. idk. wear a mask if theyre going to come in my room while Actively Sick. #or like. not be All Over The House Coughing. idk. fucking whatever. im the unreasonable one i know. my symptoms are not currently that bad #dont know if its covid #doesnt feel worth bothering to do a rapid test cos i keep hearing theyre not picking up new strains anyway and who fucking knows #idk! #i should try to get a little more sleep ig #feels like ill be okay im just fucking. mad

[dinopant]

im still sooo sad the interview for my last job fell through, the interview went great! he wanted to do a follow up and he really seemed to like me

but they just told me there was a mix up and they thought they had more hours to offer to hire another person but actually couldnt

it was a mix up and whatever, but man, i went out there twice and reached out a few times myself because i really wanted to work there and it felt really promising it was just very disappointing

#they said im top of the list to contact if anyone leaves or gets fired or whatever #but im just like #sigh #i dont wan tto work at starbucks anymore #they never schedule me and im p sure one of my shifts i work with a LOT hates me and keeps telling the store manager im bad at my job #its become both financially hard to stay there but not emotionally i dont want to be there anymore #but i cant leave until i find a job closer and or better paying #it just sucks #i drive 20 mins to be there for a 15 hr job #and im barely scheduled for shit #im there for 5 hours most days #and i have the same weekly hour amount as the highschoolers #and when i ask my store manager about it she just tells me she doesnt have the hours to offer me #even tho everyone else is 25+ minimum usually in the 30s like.. #come on