#let me live in fucking peace

[decaeysa]

cries

#mobile tbt. #tag vent #mental health vent #tbd. #might add this to my rules ? just as an awareness thing #but man being an rper and having BAD bad rsd sucks so fucking much #(rejection sensitive dysphoria) #most of the time I can be Normal Enough when it comes to talking to people #(when I actually have the energy to lol) #but FUCK man I’m so tired of my brain perceiving shit as rejection #idk when or why people thought bpd was cool #it’s so fuckin miserable man i just wanna talk to people #the best part is it’s literally just a me issue too like #wtf can anyone else do about this like nothing LMAO #I am shaking my brain in my mouth like a dog #let me live in fucking peace

[eric-the-disposable-demon]

Uh-

just found out my cousin (who lives in England) is in the art department of a bunch of shows??? And she worked oN DOCTOR WHO? AND HAD LUNCH WITH DAVID TENNANT???? and she just told me so casually because she's interested in the art, not the show? I mean, excuse me? She worked on SHERLOCK???? FOR A WHOLE SEASON?? She worked on Peaky Blinders and Lord of the Rings and Game of Thrones??? And probably other things because she has a shitty memory and according to her everything is a blur?? AND AT ONE POINT SHE WAS LIKE: "oh and have you ever heard of Neil Gaiman?" And I was trying not to scream, because yes, of course I've heard of Neil, he's only my favorite author, I've only read like all of his books multiple times, and if you say you worked on Good Omens or the Sandman I'm going to lose it completely. So I said "yeah I've read a couple of his books," -you know, like a liar- "what about him?" and she goes "well I worked on one of his shows and he's brilliant i just can't remember which one" and i go "w-what do you mean he's brilliant? You're.. you're talking about his writing... his writing is brilliant, right?" And she cheerfully says "oh no I don't read books, I ment he was really nice and brilliant when I talked to him" and i go "WHAT DID YOU TALK ABOUT WHAT DID YOU TALK ABOUT" and she thinks for a moment and goes "oh! BRICKS" WHAT IN THE WORLD YES NO THAT MAKES SENSE YOU GET TO WORK AND TALK WITH NEIL FUCKING GAIMAN AND YOU TALK ABOUT BRICKS? NO THAT'S TOTALLY NORMAL I'M NOT MAD ".... it was what I was designing at the time, I needed to know what vibe the bricks should have. Anyway want to see the spinning fireplace I made for doctor who" WHAT THE FUCK.

@neil-gaiman do you remember any brick conversations by any chance

#Doctor who #Sherlock #David tennant #I'm losing it #neil gaiman #DAVID TENNANT JUST SAT DOWN NEXT TO HER AT LUCH AND SHE GOES OH YEAH HE WAS SUPER NICE. VERY TALL. ???? #anyway i- oh my god. #Let me just perish in peace #Just my cousin living my dream making art and vibing with Neil and David and her fucking bricks what the fuck #Good omens #Sorry this is a mess #I understand actors are still people I'm not saying they aren't but can you look me in the eye and tell me you wouldn't be psyched #If you could have lunch with David tennant?

[wistfullywaiting2]

The biggest misconception in the bsd fandom ever to me is people constantly portraying Atsushi as someone who trauma dumps excessively when he canonically barely talks about it at all.

The entire point is that Atsushi does not talk about his trauma he’s just constantly thinking about/reliving it. He can’t escape the memories of his past so he tries not to acknowledge them.

He only mentions it when asked, either directly or when someone asks him to explain himself.

Atsushi doesn’t even give a cohesive explanation for what he saw while under Dogra Magra, he just apologizes to Haruno and Naomi.

If Lucy hadn’t had her whole “you’ve never suffered the way I have” spiel then I doubt even the audience would’ve gotten to find out about his scars

If Akutagawa never asked him how it felt for the orphanage headmaster to die Atsushi would have never told him that he’s been hallucinating.

In the omake where Kyoka asks him why his hair is like that it’s clear he wouldn’t have told her that unless she had asked.

In 55 minutes Atsushi very briefly mentions sleeping on a dirty floor somewhere to Kunikida because he was trying to explain and justify his behavior.

And the thing is that there are scenes that implies that the other characters see Atsushi behaving strangely and are visibly confused because they do not understand what’s wrong with him.

Remember, we as an audience get to see things about characters that the main cast doesn’t. Just because we see into Atsushi’s mind doesn’t mean the other characters know what’s going on in there.

Also little footnote here that I think the scenes with Lucy and Akutagawa in specific are probably references to the moon over the mountain but I digress

#bsd #atsushi nakajima #bsd atsushi #nakajima atsushi #idk #on the floor wallowing in pain as we speak #bungou stray dogs #tagging is hard and i’m lazy #I love the Atsushi trauma dumping for no reason headcanon too #but I have to complain about it not being canon accurate #just don’t put it in fanfiction ok that’s all I ask #Guys let atsushi be painstakingly vague about his past in peace stop ruining it #atsushi #Atsushi hated pain #but pain had been an intimate- dies #anybody have fanfic recs with this concept or do I have to write them myself #idk guys you’ll just never catch me writing anything where the other characters truly understand Atsushi #sorry #Kunikida will never be written to know what the fuck is wrong with him for as long as I live #He just gives up #at some point

[allthegothihopgirls]

the walking dead: the ones who live - 01x01

#i know my pictures are blurry let me be crazy about this in peace #OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST WATCH WHAT WHAT WHAT OH GOD #twd #the walking dead #twd:towl #the ones who live #twd spoilers #the ones who live spoilers #rick grimes #michonne grimes #richonne #. #gothihop speaks

[generalsmemories]

every time i see someone shit on the xianzhou story quest on twitter i die a little bit inside.

#narus' corner #SO LET'S TALK ABOUT HOW EVERYONE HATED XIANZHOU BECAUSE EVERYONE AND THEIR MOTHERS AND ANCESTORS HAD PULLED UP THEORY AFTER THEORY #AND WHEN SAID THEORY DID NOT FCKING GO ALONG WITH WHAT THE ACTUAL WRITERS HAD IN STORE HELL BROKE LOOSE #ion think u understand #maybe im biased. i probably am but the way hoyoverse tackled immortality with xianzhou is quite bittersweet honestly #YA'LL WANTED UR DOOMED YAOI AND YURI AND TBH ME TOO BUT THEY ARE STILL FCKING DOOMED EVEN IF SOME THEORIES DID NOT GO AS MOST SHIPPERS WANT #THEY STILL DOOMED MILADYS AND GENTS AND NONBINARY PEEPS DAN HENG IS SUFFERING FROM PTSD AS WE SPEAK. #u look at xianzhou and see predecessors suffering the consequences of what their ancestors wanted because of immortality and vow to stop it #because they been fighting people against GALAXIES who wants a taste of that immortality who also don't KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES OF IT WHICH I #LITERALLY GETTING MARA-STRUCK WHENEVER UR MEMORIES OVERLOAD FROM LIVING TOO LONG AND GO: damn this was shit writing cause i didn't understa #IMMA AAAH #eternal wars where when u find peace after winning you DON'T BECAUSE YOU TURN MARA-STRUCK FROM THE AMOUNT OF TRAUMA U HAVE #when immorality isn't immortality in a sense u can't be killed but long lifespan but then u can't even live said long lifespan #because u get mara-struck from participating in wars to protect AND YA'LL COME OVER HERE AND SAY BAD WRITING?! #and don't come with what the fuck is phantylia doing #ion think u understand how fucked we would've been if phantylia managed to actually absorb that ambrosial arbor AS A GODDAMN EMANATOR #OF DESTRUCTION OF ALL THINGS?! YA'LL WANT INFINITE HEALING WHILE GETTING BLASED OR SMTH!?! #and the aftermath which was probs the most hated on #imma just. #imma shut up LMFAO

[iamasaddie]

nobody fucking talk to me i am so mad [at the universe]

#i love his face so hard it makes me feel this thing you do when you see a cute puppy or a kitten like VIOLENT LOVE you know? l #like when you want to squeeze THE LIVING FUCK out of them while screaming how much you fucking LOVE their stupid ass #that’s literally me and Pedro #I’ve never felt that towards anyone but my cat #just let me angry sob in peace #pedro pascal

[s0fter-sin]

i need a fic of soap bringing ghost home to his family for the holidays. his family’s always disapproved of everything; being queer, being in the military, being with ghost and it’s all over not a great time but they’re trying to pretend for the sake of the holiday. they get into it after dinner one night though and for once soap isn’t backing down, not when it’s ghost they’re attacking, when the power suddenly goes out. soap moves just in time for a shot to come through the window and he orders his family to get down

graves and what’s left of shadow company followed them to glasgow; it’s the first time they’ve been away from the 141 and they think it’ll be their best chance to take them out. johnny and simon are left behind as they become soap and ghost and soap’s childhood home becomes a battleground, his hysterical family who still think he can’t be that good of a soldier now civilians that he has to protect and get out in one piece

#its the full gambit of sisters with their partners and kids #all with respectable normal jobs and lives #then theres john still running around playing soldier and now shacking up with his commanding officer #soaps been quiet the entire time just gritting his teeth and letting them have go after go in the name of peace #ghosts been fuming the entire time but his own family trauma and not wanting to go against johnnys wishes keeps his mouth shut #and then that instant switch the second the bullet comes through the window #theyre sergeant mactavish and lieutenant ghost now and they dont give a single shit about anything butgetting out alive #‘we need to call the police!’ #‘call local pd who’re drunk off their arses and never fired their guns in their fucking lives yeah right’ #‘this isnt the time for you to play soldier’ #‘youre right. this isnt a game. its war and youre gonna shut the fuck up and let me get you outta this alive’ #ghost sneaks upstairs to get the hidden guns he brought and to get one of the kids whod been napping #soap stays to get everyone out of the way and watch out for hostiles #ghost slides him a sniper rifle and he takes out the sniper on the opposite roof and when he looks back at his family theyre #looking at him like theyve never seen him before #i just need soap whos been underestimated his entire life showing just how competent he really is #soapghost #ghostsoap #soap mactavish #soap cod #ghost cod #simon ghost riley #we’re a team. ghost team

[bonefall]

where’s that little horror piece about kits never growing up in Starclan? because I remember it so vividly but I can’t find it.

The one about Bright Stream?

Weird that it's so hard to find! It's probably because it's got such heavy tags lmao.

I really mean it though like, canon's permakitten system and the idea that Bright Stream is up there, forever taking care of fetus children who were filled by sudden knowledge and yet never grow past that point absolutely horrifies me. Jesus Christ. I don't know how anyone reads that final scene in Path of Stars and isn't filled with itching, white-hot existential dread, man.

Sometimes you just gotta write horror about it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#partner and i were joking the other day about how like #they are the one known as The Horror Blogger and im the funny cat guy #because it's literally the opposite irl. you have NO idea #They are the one who is squeamish and I am the one that is like #only scared if there's 17 different kinds of existential horror #Which tbf is important in my line of work #But let me tell YOU. One thing that gets me every time? Fucked up afterlives #Probably from all the religious trauma but. Still. #''turns out your whole life is actually teetering on the precipice of a steep drop into the jaws of unknowable gods-- #and their concept of omnibenevolent and omnimalevolent are self-defined'' #''in death your life only has meaning to those still living and yet you're conscious to experience it'' #''you will helplessly watch people you thought loved YOU reduce your memory into how you SERVED them'' #''Powerless to stop it you will find that you were only valued as a tool in someone else's life'' #''There is no peace in death just being tired and uncomfortable forever'' #EURGH #It's why my most feared monsters are actually ghosts and vampires and certain zombies #Because it's not really about the monster it's more about what that monster implies for the afterlife #Certain zombies especially. ngl. Night of the livin dead 2 has the scariest ones ever #Intelligent. Violent. Able to FEEL themselves rotting and the only relief is to consume everything you ever loved #BRR #they did eat a bunch of cops tho so... at least they have that going for them #BONES MCRAMBLES IN THE TAGS #bone babble

[xbraveheartx]

Thinking about how... the game shows you the two ways in which a puppet can "awaken" by showcasing NPCs and even the boss battles themselves, even detailing specifically as to how certain puppets awaken as their past lives as opposed to taking on a new ego.

The Parade Master and Fuoco both have their personalities-- they're not mindless puppets. They're following orders, yes, but by choice. They have egos and are rather... inhuman looking.

Polendina and Pulcinella both seem to me as being modeled as more generic in appearance, something that would speak "I'm a Butler" to everyone who sees them. Gentle faces and welcoming postures. They developed egos.

Camille, Geppetto's wife and Carlo's mother, woke up. It is stated specifically "It was God's miracle that Camille was made into a maid puppet" and "Her appearance and identity in living years were similar, so it was probably easier for her to manifest an ego". She specifically tells those who took her "Send. Me. Back. To. My. Child."

Romeo's face was specifically modeled (or was his actual head used? Still debating on that, it's suspicious) after himself. He woke up, recalling memories of his past and recognizing people from his past.

P was modeled specifically after Carlo, and throughout the game, we're shown him as recalling memories of his past. Geppetto says "It seems you inherited his personality instead of his memories", but with how Sophia comments on his physical reaction to mentioning the familiar necklace ("You look ill. Ever since I mentioned the necklace...") and how we're shown a series of memories through the ergo at the Black Seaside-- he does inherit the memories. The bad ending even goes so far to depict "Carlo", who is obviously not a real boy, in such a terrible light that it screams this is not who you really are.

So then with this trend... he...? ✨

Just really neat how they lay out the differences between waking up and developing a new ego.

#Lies of P #Lies of P Spoilers #Revival runs in the Geppetto family it seems but holy fuck let Old Man Geppetto stay dead pleASE LMAO #I know he regretted and apologized before death but we don't need that coming back to bite us in the ass 🤣 #But Lady Antonia though-- no no let her rest she's lived a good life and if you choose to give her a peaceful death #she lived a very happy last few moments. Ugh but damn do I want a happy ending for everyone this game makes me so SAD

[lunar-lakes]

controversial take (maybe?) but if you think ryan should "taylor's version" afycso and pretty. odd. and/or you listen to those shitty ai covers with his voice then i know you're not a real one because what do you mean?? afycso and pretty. odd. is his version he was the creative director behind them. panic! at the disco was a collaborative effort and ryan + spencer led the main ideas/themes/aesthetics on fever. for pretty. odd. jon was there so it slayed even more - that's why everything sucked ass after 2013 when brendon was the only one because he's not that smart or creative so didn't have ryan, spencer, jon, pete (he wrote a lot on vices) or dallon (thank you for the good songs on too weird) to lean on

#like tell me you dont know anything about panic at the disco without telling me you dont know anything about panic at the disco #2006 brendon did not dress up as ryan's puppet on stage only for y'all to give him the credit for that beautiful album #ALSO stop telling ryan to come back let my man live in peace with his dogs and partner #panic! at the disco #panic at the disco #patd #bandom #should i be annoying and tag everyone i mentioned #fuck it #ryan ross #brendon urie #jon walker #spencer smith #dallon weekes #pete wentz

[castielinpastel]

seriously, why do people get so pressed when someone likes a queer ship or headcanons someone as queer? I genuinely don’t understand.

#unless the ship is extremely problematic or it’s illegal obviously #stranger things #stranger things 4 #I saw an elmax edit earlier and the people in the comments were so pressed #and I genuinely want to know why it’s okay to bash gay ships that aren’t canon but live laugh love straight ones??? #like please just let me ship things in peace #steddie #ronance #byler #elmax #henclair #destiel #blackhill #carolmaria #valcarol #thorbruce #lokius #there are many more. #I’m in a lot of fucking fandoms but these were the first ones I thought of

[slut4thebroken]

you guys weird asf like writing bout cartoon characters jason todd?really

Okay? If you’re obsessed with me just say that. Why else would you go out of your way to send an ask? Fan behavior lmao 🫶

But on a more serious note, most gifs/images that I use for Jason are just ones that I could find. Except for the Arkham Knight fic and The Assignment. I intentionally chose those versions of Jason for the fics. Usually when I’m writing I don’t actively picture animated Jason or live action Jason or Arkham verse Jason or comic book Jason. It’s just Jason. I have also put in the notes at the top of a couple fics that I couldn’t find a gif so I just chose this random one that fit the best. Source.

Anyway at the end of the day, I feel sorry for you that you can’t just move on and ignore something that you don’t like. As well as the fact that you have to actively go out of your way to comment about something that clearly wasn’t meant for you.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: the warnings are clear. If you’re not going to like it, then don’t read it ❤️

- an annoyed author who’s just trying to vibe

#i’m tired #literally just leave me alone lol #I’m going to keep writing whether you send hate or not #so why not just fuck off and let me live in peace lmao #❤️ #🖕🏻 #❤️❤️ #jason todd x reader #jason todd

[umihoshi]

7 Deadly Sins is so unappolagetically cringe and whimsy. It's like introducing your friends to your cat who you love so so much, cuz he's silly and funny and actually really smart. but objectively, it's the ugliest critter you will ever see.

#nanatsu no taizai #7 deadly sins #4kota #watching 4kota I finally understand the derailing of yugioh designs over the years #Percy's power is literally the power of friendship #my friend described their designs as DeviantArt OC's and I could not think of any better way to describe it #but then there's like... #Gawain being the lesbian we all deserve #and cinnamon roll tristan #and next gen characters coming from actual deep relationships and not last-minute match ups #like. Jericcho being in love with Lancelot is so messed up. but it makes so much sense! #and her bei g aware of it and ashamed of herself is so human #still don't get what's Arthur's deal but #the ep with the camelot knight who was so angry about living in peace with demons #because they fucking massacred his hometown and baby daughter! #that shit hits me man! #(surprised she's ACTUALLY dead tho. like.... death is heavily overrated in nnt) #how often did Helbramm and Malescula die honestly #also how cool is it that they all got king arthur inspired names??? #and the 4 calamities? the 10 commandments?? I'm eating that shit up #also please please please let next gen be actual gay and not just bait 🙏 #please give me percyxnasiens gawainxisolde and tristanxlancelot??

[jerzwriter]

How to block on Tumblr

#life lessons #no lie #fucking block me - FOR REAL - and let me live in fucking peace #not only me EVERYONE #PEOPLE PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT YOU LOVE #Not what you hate #or get a good fucking shrink

[hannibalismos-jaaneman]

not one character in hannibal that i don't relate to. not one.

#raj shitposting #i relate to will because hell is other people indeed all hail jean-paul sartre also infj and only child in a dysfunctional fam solidarity < #i relate to abigail because wtf my parents are not really okay i need help also only child in a dysfunctional family (father) solidarity <3 #i relate to hannibal because wtf that rude misogynist does NOT deserve to live also classical music poetry medicine and art history <3 #i relate to chilton because fml i really wanted to be like this person for xyz reason but now i just have an unsolicited rival who i like < #i relate to freddie because why not i love trolling people and making their lives miserable also journalism <3 #i relate to bella because wtf let me just die in peace why am i important to y'all you pieces of shit #i relate to beverly because there is def something up with this middle aged bastard ik it i just do #i relate to margot because jfc everyone in my family hates me for being a girl #i relate to alana because i'm gay and i did not know this til it was too late lmao #i relate to jack because wtf is going on why are y'all acting up #i relate to bedelia because i am surrounded by idiots #i relate to jimmy because fuck everything i love bees #i relate to brian because i have really groovy friends #hannibal

[hella1975]

'why are you smiling' because i have beautiful mutuals and we all love each other. go back to your sports romance you heinous bitch

#going to put a barrier in the middle of the room. let me live in peace #why is she even awake it's PAST HER BEDTIME #anyway i was studying when i reblogged that ask game and i got alexa to play ride by lana del rey #(bc that's my comfort song atm thanks to the roadtrippers <3) #and she shuffled a playlist that i SWEAR was some sort of coming of age driving through a tunnel vibe #bc it was just banger after nostalgic banger i got BUZZCUT SEASONED. TRYING TO STUDY #so yeah i was already in a nostalgic 'i miss my friends' vibe but that ask game wooooo it put me in a Mood #like i have so much love for my mutuals actually they're the coolest people on this godforsaken webbed site #they have me sat here smiling and giggling at my laptop so openly my sister felt the need to comment on it smh #anyway i kept being like 'after this one i'll stop for the night' bc i feasibly cant keep typing without pissing the fuck out of my sister #and then boom just sent one and im gonna need an ESSAY for that so i am officially done for tonight #i'll answer any others in the morning <3 #hella goes home