#like its already lacking content ATLEAST GIVE ME GOOD ONE | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

purplecandygerl · 3 years

Text

Fear

— Levi x Reader

— angst, fluff, mention of death, cursing

— summary: Levi never let his fear get in a way of his decision yet for this moment he did

— word count: 2.8k

It’s that time of the month once again, when Squad Leaders were given a tremendous quantity of paperwork to be finish in an unfair amount of time, Levi is unexcluded to this time but even worse for his part. A list of cadets where handed to him early on.

The list consist of mostly from the 104th cadets and his eyes soften at the familiar name included on the list. (Y/n) (L/n). All your efforts and hardship within the past month has finally paid off, he knew about your unspoken goal of wanting to be part of his squad long time ago. He couldn’t be much prouder of you ever since, considering you to his squad would definitely increase his time with you, he can already see himself having you by his side.

Content with list of candidate given to him, he decided to set it aside as he move on to another paperworks, his calloused hand reaches to the papers near him. The thick cursive heading made his breath hitched

Certification of Death

It felt like a hard slap to him as memories of the recent expedition flash before him as he passed through the forest seeing nothing, but the bloody corpses of his members brutally killed by the Female titan as tried to protect Eren till the end.

Worries began to fill him, he couldn’t bear to see you in those situation, this is the only thing that matters to his life and one wrong situation can slip you out of his grasp in a matter of seconds, yet he couldn’t afford any distraction in the moment of the expedition as the lives of the soldiers lies on his own hands, reaching for the list of candidates once again before crossing your name before stacking another paper above the list.

“Levi?” the sound of his name being called out as the door of his office shut close, revealing his (h/c) haired lover “not done yet?” he shook his head, “I see” he notice the lethargic tone you release as you sat on his lap, wrapping your arms around him as you buried your face at the crook of his neck indulging on his scent. He lean onto his chair caressing the tresses of your (h/c) hair. “Did something happened?” he questioned, which you shake your head

“It’s nothing, I just want to ease your stress somehow” those words never failed to cause his heart to leap in adoration, he always thought there will be times that you would finally leave him seeing that he always lack of showing his affection to you, yet one year after \here you are showering him with affection at first, he would stiffen at the unpredicted kisses you place on his cheek during your private time until it become something that enlightens his sour mood daily.

Placing a kiss in your forehead, he wishes for you to forgive him for what he was planning to do. He could take all your anger at him if it meant to keep you alive by his side.

༺═──────────────═༻

The final members of Levi’s Squad was finally announced, the rush excitement you felt were shattered to piece as the roll out of names ended without getting your name called, the combination of anger, frustration and disappointment were enough to put you on the edge, clenching onto your fist as you tried to fight off the tears threatening to fall down your cheeks.

“Are you alright (Y/n)?” you heard your friend worriedly asked as you both head back inside the castle, snapping you out of your thoughts. “Yeah, yeah I’m fine” you immediately answered. “You should head first, I’ll catch up”

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah, I’ll see you” bidding a goodbye before heading to a certain office for explanation.

“Captain” you called out from the outside of his office, giving his permission for you to enter.

“Why?” The first word that left your lips were the conclusion of messed up emotion you were trying to endure. You knew that he knows what you were talking about, you know that he would be the person who gets to decide on the final list of the members.

“There are more suitable soldiers fitted in my squad”

“So, I’m not suitable for your squad. Is that it?” you hissed, how could he say that when he knew how much you work hard to be part of his squad

“Yes” you stared at him in disbelief as your whole body began to tremble holding yourself opening your lips only painful laughter were able to leave your dry throat, which surprised the man in front you.

“Fuck you, if that was the case you shouldn’t have gotten my hopes since the beginning, you shouldn’t have fucking care if I work myself up if that was the FUCKING CASE, WERE YOU LAUGHING JUST LIKE THEM WHEN SAW WATCH ME FUCKING STRUGGLES FOR NOTHING” you snapped out

“FUCK OFF, (Y/N) ISN’T THE ONLY REASON YOU WANTED TO JOIN WAS TOO HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO FUCKIN LAZED YOURSELF AROUND ME” He spat off, his mind was screaming at him to tell the truth already yet anything that left on his mouth is nothing truthful. He was spouting to stand for his decision. For a second, he tried to reason himself it was for you own good, it really is. Until his gaze returned back to you. He watched how tears drenched down your cheeks for the first time in his life he saw you cried. He could only stand on his feet frozen as you tried to brush off the tears blurring your vision.

“it was never about that case, I--” biting your inner lips, there’s no use for you tell him everything what’s the point of everything at this point, giving up. You only turned your back at him before shutting the door close.

As the sound of the door clicking shut was the only time he realized he fucked everything up, he wanted to follow you back yet he remained frozen on his feet, the silence on his office only left your voice echoing in his mind, every word you left a stabbing guilt and regrets on him. Was everything really necessary? For the sake of keeping you alive he had to hurt you in the process.

“were you laughing just like them” clenching his fist, how his way of showing his affection were seen in a different, only then he realized someone was thinking so lowly of your effort yet it only returned back to him knowing you think he was just like them.

A knock on his door, snaps him back to his thoughts. “What?” he didn’t bothered hiding his irritation to the soldier disturbing him “S-sir, Commander Erwin called you to his office sir”

“What do you mean my squad would be on standby? I thought we would be leading for the clearing up tomorrow?” Erwin sighed, it turns out only two squads would be leaving tomorrow to examine the behaviour of the titans before clearing up the titan near the wall.

“I see, then who’s squad would you be sending instead?” he asked, taking a sip on his tea, surprisingly glad he had a free time which he would dedicated on asking for your forgiveness.

“(L/n) William’s Squad”

༺═──────────────═༻

It was supposed to be a clear up for the remaining titans roaming across the abandoned city, only expecting atleast twenty or less titans left, yet when you encounter a horde of abnormal titans gathered in the deeper corner of the city, you knew this can be the last of something. Right now, the titan’s attention were averted from you with the quantity they had you wouldn’t be able to take them all with the lack of gas and blade, if you fire the flare gun to sign the soldiers around you, the titan’s attention would directly be place to you which would lead to the first option. Lastly, if you tried to escape you will most likely lead them to the other soldiers.

Not only your choices are limited but everything is too risky for you and the other members.

“Fuck this shit” firing your flare gun instead of pointing the gun at the sky, you fire the flare at the titans instead before releasing your hook leading back to where your squadmates are, in the center of the city you found a familiar figure the vibrant red covering him.

“William!” You shouted turning his gaze his eyes widen as you fired your hook on the concrete walls in attempt to carry him “Wait no! AT YOUR BACK” he tried to warn, before you can process his warning a giant palm slaps your body like a fly.

the impact of being thrown inside of a building breaking the window in the process, a static rings across your ears as every part of your body is throbbing in pain, opening your eyes only to feel a burning pain with a blurry eyesight reminding you much of the arguments yesterday, recalling back the words you let out that time. Maybe, maybe they were right,

“Just this last time, let me see them” you speak to yourself, trying to stand up every movement you make felt like you were being electrified in pain, stabbing your blade on the ground using it as foundation for your footing. Feeling the ground continuous shaking, losing balance, hitting the concrete floor hard, a sharp pain once again pierce through you, causing you to whimper in unbeknownst to you a sharp wood stab through your abdomen, leaving you crumbling in pain on the ground the sight of shards of glass soaked a puddle of blood. was the only thing you have seen before blacking out

I was never suitable to be here in the first place.

༺═──────────────═༻

Levi anxiously waited on his seat, no matter how much he tried to focus on the meeting between regiments he found himself drifting back to your situation, despite already reminding a soldier to immediately call him when your group arrived, yet several hours have passed and the meeting is already reaching its conclusion.

“Captain!! They’re here” A soldier barged inside the office, disregarding Erwin calling him out he wasted no time to leave the meeting,

“They’re at the Medical Bay for now.” the soldier reported,

“How are they?” he noticed the grim look on the soldier confirming his fear all at once

“one of the squad were completely leaving only one soldier in critical condition” dismissing the soldier he immediately head to the medical bay, every step he make felt heavy as if the world had collapse at his grasp. It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

“Levi” a familiar voice called out, hanji was waiting in front of the medical bay door, “Is she?” the jumbled emotion he’s feeling couldn’t continue the question he needed answers for, luckily Hanji quickly understand his struggles

“It turns out that there were more titan than what was initially reported, their squad had to face a horde of abnormal titans as we split up. We only found her inside of a building after a flare was shot. She was thrown by a titan trying to save her brother, a large wood pierce through her abdomen at the same time she already lose too much blood, the moment we found her” Hanji saw the grim expression from Levi, as he quietly listen the events that had happen, the fear, guilt, and regrets shown directly to his metallic irises. For once, Hanji saw a vulnerable side of Levi, a man so close losing a part of him leaving him once again alone.

A few hour has passed, when the door has finally opened as a doctor step out of the room, looking around the doctor only find him alone waiting.

“Captain Levi, are you perhaps the relative for Miss (L/n) (Y/n)?”

“Yes” leading him inside the medical bay, his eyes quivered at the sight of your figure wrapped in white pristine bandage up until your neck and another to covering your eyes. your pale like skin made it you look like “the progress of the surgery were slightly complicated due to the loss of blood but overall, the surgery was a success” Levi felt a relief wash over him, hearing how his lover is still alive felt like a heavy burden were lifted from his shoulder,

“at least that’s the good news, but the condition of her eyes had receive a different outcome”

“What do you mean?”

“Not only her abdomen where severely injured but also her eyes, shards of glass were able to damage her pupil that may became a permanent blindness, overall she needs to stay bedridden in three weeks before we can discharge her” the doctor explained, Levi remained stiff on his feet, his mind tried to comprehend the information given to him, blind? You wouldn’t be able to see anything from now on? You wouldn’t be able to see him?

Sitting beside your bed, his hand grasp to your bandage covered hand, entwining his fingers to yours, the coldness of your hands gave discomfort to his, it felt like he was holding onto a lifeless body the coldness of your body felt uncanny it might be because he was used to having your warm hands to his cold calloused hand. Pressing a kiss to your knuckle seeing the pattern of your chest rising and falling, was the only thing he need for now. Your alive that’s all that matters to him.

༺═──────────────═༻

Despite how much he doesn’t want to leave by your side yet with the constant nag from Erwin, it’s the third week you’ve remained unconscious, your temperature had increases in the spam of time yet it still frustrated him seeing no sign of waking up. He wanted nothing more but to hear your voice again. Placing a kiss to your forehead as he whispers his goodbye.

That was several hours ago, the sound of someone screaming from the top of their lungs had reached from the hallway he was in, either way he continue onto his path back to medical bay reaching closer the screams become clearer.

“IF IT WASN’T FOR YOU HE WOULD HAVE BEEN ALIVE” the woman angrily yelled out, nurses already had their hands around her preventing the woman from getting closer

“MISS PLEASE STOP SHE’S STILL RECOVERING” one of the nurses begged at the woman “NO LET ME GO” she demanded wanting to remove the grasp around her, she was able to pull you out of your bed earlier leaving you on the floor. Her hand was able to reach to your hair tugging it off roughly pulling you to her.

“WHY DIDN’T YOU JUST LISTEN TO US IN THE FIRST PLACE YOU WOULDN’T BE LEFT LIKE THAT?!”

“what do you think you’re doing?” Levi intervened slapping the woman’s wrist away sending a glare at the older woman while holding you at his arm protectively, the people The bandage on your eyes has already been removed, showing those eyes he long for were finally wide and awake.

“WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?! I’M HER MOTHER I KNOW WHAT’S THE BEST FOR HER”

“I don’t care, your daughter is already adult enough to know what’s best for herself. you two” he called out the two-soldier passing by.

“guide the guardian her way out of the castle” obeying the captain’s order, the two already hand their hand to the exit, waiting for the woman to follow looking back at the two of you, clicking her tongue in irritation before following the soldiers.

After your mother left, his attention immediately turned to you carrying you at his arms placing you back to your bed, no words were exchanged during that time. Hugging your knees, leaning your head at the top. He wanted to say something, anything yet he couldn’t bring himself to left words out afraid he might hurt you once again.

“Let’s end this here, Levi”

Levi’s eyes widened.

“What do you mean?” He mumbled, afraid his voice might cracked any moment.

“There’s no point on continuing this”

“How?” your hand clutches on the white blanket covering your lower half, holding back the tears from building on your cloudy eyes.

“CANT YOU SEE?! I LOST MY EYESIGHT I’M ALREADY USELESS AT THIS POINT” snapping at him, the frustration you’ve been feeling since the moment you woke up and being informed by your condition finally took its last trigger and burst.

“I’m sorry” feeling his warm calloused hand at yours “I thought removing you from the list would keep you safer than the circumstance we had. I’m scared (y/n), I cannot bear to see you the same position that my old squad had that time, you’re an amazing soldier. I never mean what I said before”

“It doesn’t matter now, I can’t be a soldier anymore” removing his grasp from you

“Please just leave”

#levi ackerman #captain levi #anime #aot levi #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #levi ackerman fanfiction #levi ackerman x reader #levi ackerman x you #levi aot #levi x reader #aot x you #levi x you #female reader #x reader #reader insert

168 notes · View notes

fieryfantasybooklover · 3 years

Text

Cast In Shadow And Blood - A Clace fanfic

Consider this a sign that I am, in fact, alive.

Taggs: @lily-chen-deserves-better @blackthorn-trash @mithriel-of-mithlond @brotherhalal-ariahs @julieandthefandoms @themostawesomehuman @zfoxdraws @hands-dripping-ink @insane---chaos @rainbow-sheepofthefamily @girlwhohatesstuff @tessagraycarstairs @imherongraystairstrash

Note - Clary and Jace are the main characters here, the others are just mentioned.

---------------------------------------------------

Clary settled down into bed, sparing only one glance for the descending curtain of night that was chasing away the sun. Snow fell softly outside, silencing the world in a blanket of white. She turned to Jace, who had settled into bed beside her a moment before. “Good to see you here.” she said, grinning. “I was thinking you’d somehow managed to murder yourself using kitchen utensils, but thankfully you do seem to still be alive.” Jace grinned, handing her the bowl of snacks he’d gathered on his snack run. “You know me. I love to keep people guessing. You would know that most of all.” he said, chuckling. Clary, laughing, punched him playfully in the shoulder before leaning back onto the pillows. Jace grabbed the remote, settling in beside her. “Are you sure you’re ready for this?” Clary asked Jace, in that way where nobody could be sure if she was being serious. “I survived a literal hell dimension, I think I’ll be ok with some horror movies.” Jace replied, turning on the TV they had installed in front of their bed.

The next few hours speed by in a rush of buttery popcorn and melted chocolate and a myriad of scary movies. Some featured the paranormal or supernatural, others much more real fears like insanity and serial killers. By the time the clock struck 2 pm, they had watched enough scary movies for a lifetime and, though neither would admit it, were feeling quite on edge and jumpy. As the credits rolled for The Ring, Jace turned to Clary and exhaled deeply, letting all his nerves out. “Wow.” they said simultaneously, laughing in pure relief everything was right in the world. “I’m gonna go put everything away.” said Jace, standing, stretching, and grabbing the empty bowls. “Alright you do that. I’ll get everything ready for bed.” Clary replied, already flicking off the television and pulling the blinds shut. Jace returned within a few minutes, hands empty and tiredness gathering behind his eyes. It wasn’t long before both were settled under the covers with the lights off, facing each other and breathing evenly. “I love you, dork.” Clary said affectionately to Jace, kissing him. “I love you too.” he replied, hugging her close.

They fell asleep like that, happy and together and content that everything they had just seen was firmly within the realm of fiction.

Clary’s eyes fluttered open, making their way to the alarm clock. It read 3:05 am. Groaning, Clary slid out of bed and stood, making her way to the bathroom in the complete and utter black. It took her only a few moments to gather her surroundings and realize that something was very very wrong. What she saw gazing out the window was her first clue. There was absolutely no sign of life outside the Institute. No cars, or shop windows, or even a few people staggering their way home late. The snow was still steadily falling, blanketing every single surface. The pitch blackness of this time of morning covered the landscape, twisting and contorting it into something completely unrecognizable. By light, Clary could have navigated those streets with her eyes closed. But by dark, all her pleasant memories of the spot were gone and nothing could be seen or gleaned from the area. Put simply, the darkness hid things. And this darkness in particular seemed… dangerous. Parasitic. Permeated only by the faint glow of street lamps. And that light was certainly not enough to reveal anything the darkness could have been concealing.

The second clue that something was wrong was the silence. Outside the Institute and inside. Outside, the snow was silent as the grave and there were no night sounds. No animals, sounds of farawar life, or even the crackling of electric lighting. Inside, it was just as quiet. None of the sounds that were usually associated with a building so huge and old. The floorboards didn’t creak, no faint sounds echoed through the halls. The silence was eerie, and more than a little unnerving. By now, Clary had reached the bathroom and was quietly using the restroom and washing her hands. The splash of the water seemed deafening compared to the lack of sound. Darting out of the room and back to their bedroom, Clary realized the final factor in why everything felt so wrong.

The air. It was strangely... heavy. Somehow forceful, as if something was compressing it down. The air slunk around the halls, and Clary could not shake the feeling that not only was it weighing on her, but something was watching her. Trying to shake the feeling of unease, Clary slid back into bed beside Jace, closed her eyes, and tried to sleep. This attempt did not last long, and soon Clary popped her eyes open again. She quickly looked at Jace. He was still sound asleep. She sighed, flopping backward. “What I wouldn’t give to just be able to fall asleep and stay that way.” Clary thought, exasperated. It was just then that something shattered downstairs in the Institute. Clary sat bolt upright, eyes wide and heart pounding. Fear ran through every inch of Clary’s body. Pure, bone chilling fear that made her feel like she was disintegrating. Shook to her bones, Clary wrapped her arms around herself and tried to calm her shivering. “You’re just being irrational.” She told herself. “Maybe I left a window open and the wind knocked something over.” she rationalized, still shaking from head to toe. If the wind was the cause, you would’ve heard it from outside, a voice at the back of Clary’s mind whispered.

A chill descended on her then. Something so cold and gripping that it was like one thousand icy wolves howling to the wind before ripping you to shreds. Clary felt an icicle slip down her back and she launched to her feet, unsure of what to do. She felt her lips turning blue and her skin paling under the duress of the chill. Something thin and skeletal whipped through the room then, cloaked in a raggedy, torn robe. The terrifying sight of it burned itself into Clary’s eyelids. It was so quick and quiet that she could have convinced herself she was imaging it, except for the fact that the blinds were now thrown open and the window was cracked. Neither had been that way a split second before. Clary turned to Jace, shaking his shoulder and hissing his name repeatedly. “Jace! Come on Jace, wake up! I think there’s something here!” but he wouldn’t wake, and it seemed he was permanently stuck to the bed, Atleast, until he shifted and his neck snapped at an angle no human could survive. His face shifted to face hers. And that was when Clary screamed.

There was a painfully large grin on Jace’s face. His lips were stretched back from his teeth, and his face seemed to glow with an unholy light. He was unusually pale, as if all the color had been soaked from him. His eyes shone far too bright with something close to madness. All Clary knew for sure in that moment was that whatever was in front of her was not her Jace. Beyond that, she didn’t know. It must have read the question on her face, because it opened its mouth and hissed out something that was infinitely not human. Clary frantically searched her index of language knowledge for a translation, but found nothing. “See you soon.” it whispered, smile stretching wider. “You have summoned me with visages of horror, and now you must pay the price.” Jace’s body collapsed onto the bed. Within moments he was stirring, and Clary was frantically at his side. “Jace? Jace! Are you ok? How do you feel?” Jace pulled himself upright, rubbing his eyes and looking around confusedly. “What’s happening?” he asked, voice still thick with sleep. “Please just trust me. We have to go now .” Clary whispered, pulling Jace to his feet. He read the frantic nature of her voice and instantly snapped to alert.

The pair began running out the bedroom and down the hall. Jace knew little of the situation, but still flew through his brain for allies to call for help. “Simon and Isabelle? No, they’re on vacation in the countryside. Magnus and Alec? Fuck, they’re investigating a situation in Cincinatti there’s no way they’ll make it back on time.” as his list of allies ran dry, fear began to sink its claws into Jace. They were still running down the halls of the Institute, desperately trying to make their way to the doors. However, one blink of time and it was all over. Screams of anguish rang in both Jace and Clary’s ears, reaching a pitch so high both bent over in pain. There were brief flashes of blood, painting the floor, walls, and ceiling red. The entire building began to shake, as if something was gnawing away at the foundations. Wraithlike forms began to appear, empty eye sockets somehow still managing to glimmer with malice. Jace and Clary were desperate now, dodging the foes while still scrambling for the door. Then, one popped into existence right in front of them. They skidded to a halt, trying to turn around but it was too late.

The being reached one of its hands right through Clary’s heart and the other hand right through Jace’s. Suddenly, they were back in their bedroom, standing beside the bed. The room was cast in shadow and blood, faint rays of light revealing the room to be a horrible parody of its former self. Both Jace and Clary tried to move, but found instantly they were frozen and rendered completely immobile. They barely had time to exchange one glance that said so much before the specter appeared before them, reaching into their hearts again. And then, it twisted. Pain. Pain that made every past grievance seem like a paper cut in comparison. Blinding white pain, like a thousand explosions in one form. The pain of bones cracking and twisting and shattering into five million glass sharp shards. The pain of loneliness, of longing so deeply for someone to be by your side that you turned into a ghost yourself. The pain of helplessness, of being unable to move or cry out or scream or do anything as your death approached. So many shades of pain, twisted neatly up and forced right down into Jace and Clary’s souls.

The terrible finality hit them then. They were going to die. And nobody could save them. Eeking out a few moments of clarity, Jace and Clary turned their gazes to the other. “I love you.” the gazes said. “I love you, and I will love you from now until the moment time ends.”

And then, everything faded to silent, deep, nothingness.

Clary sat up in bed, sweat beading down her neck and terror whining in her head. Jace was safe asleep beside her, breathing softly and calmly. The alarm clock, the sole source of light in the room, read 3:03.

A scream built its way through Clary’s mind and body, working its way slowly up through her throat.

A voice slithered into her head, ominous and inescapable.

I am coming

#clace #clary fairchild #jace herondale #malec #sizzy #shadowhunters #tsc #fanfiction #megans writing #magnus bane #alec lightwood #simon lewis #isabelle lightwood

16 notes · View notes

tohrusthoughts · 6 years

Text

Entitlement.

The problem with social media and game development is that in the beginning of all this.

People made games and design choices with a through abd through complete package. Yes. Developers made games so that people can enjoy them to the fullest. But it was done in the sense of a novel or a movie.

Once it came out. And experienced it was already out. There was no changing, there was no listening to fan feedback or social justice mediocrity. That was to be adjusted and adapted and made better in the sequel or the next game by the developer.

You can't please everyone, it isnt even fucking quantifiable to attempt it. But you could attempt to make the best product possible and see your intended story and character development through and through with the use of an interactive medium and a type of experience that is impossible to get with anything else.

Now. With the abillity to interact with developers and content creators on easily accesible platforms. The idea is that we can give them feedback on things were looking forward to or would like to see happen. What ideas are good, what ideas are bad.

The innate problem is how oppinionated human beings are. Every single individual believes that the way they see things is the only singular way to view an outlook over design. And some people can share this "singular outlook." Collaborate the notion with no challenging approach or alternative perspective. What they intially see and or think is the only way....cause they didn't like it.

This negative outlook will continously be reinforced either by lack of desire or more commonly by other people who are similiar minded and just go "Yeah thats right! Fuck this thing I don't like it."

Well let me be real with you for a second.

I don't care.

The developers shouldn't care.

No one. Should care that you don't like a design choice or a storypath that you disagree with or don't like.

The reason I state this is as entertainment goes. You're developing a product. Whether its niche or not it fits a specific style and audience. This is defined by genres.

People who like rpg's more often then not, don't like shooters or action games. (Or atleast not in the same way as you can like multiple genres). The point of mentioning this is that when formulating a product within a genre it follows a set of mediums and thoroughfares that fit into that genre as all of these things have been predefined at this point with tropes and junk.

And secondly(but technically more importantly) they follow the creator/developers vision. Their storylines, character concepts, gameplay types, etc. etc. Its their individual vision and ideas become realities.

Not.

Yours.

You didnt make it.

You in fact didn't have anything to do with it.

At best you are exactly as intended a fan.

Fans when it comes down to the bare basics. Do not get to decide what a developer should and should not do with their vision. Whether you as the individul, as the fan, as a collective, or alone like it or hate it with every fiber of your being.

When it comes down to it. Truthfully. Even as a fan and something happens within a medium or a product you just, barebones morally disagree with. Stop supporting it. Move on.

What you shouldn't do. I want to say can't but thats never gonna be the case at this point....shouldn't do is harass, be vile, or hateful, send death threats or the worse style of harassment to people who

A. do enjoy these choices and can find some sense of joy or fun from the product.

Or worse B. do this to the developers.

Telling someone they should go die because of blah and blah is flat morally wrong and makes you a shit person and not worthy of an ear to listen to.

And No. you can't call blabbering like a child over your distaste as criticism.

Criticism is analytical, constructive in both postive and negative and has a purpose of creating a better product.

If social media worked like this towards developers and content creators it would be ok I like to think.

But its not. And we're not going to pretend it is.

I look at development in video games and anime as a hobby. I don't work in the industry but i throughoughly love watching creativity unfold.

And please believe me not all of it I find positive. In fact its a healthy middle of both. Somethings I get really excited about. "Oh thats really cool." Somethings its like...."Why?"

Investigate the reasoning and decisions, and decide for myself whether or not i wanna continue to support or be a fan.

Easy example. Any game that has lootbox styled orientation mechanics in anything. I will never buy. Something that has happened to many of franchise I have loved. But once it happened. It didn't matter that I was a fan. It dont agree with that concept as a gamer. I moved on.

And when talking about these games that has had this happened to them. I explain my choices. i won't support it and let others decide for themselves. But my money will never touch that product.

But this is where the real issue lies.

Fandoms.

Fandoms as a collective tend to think products belong to fans.

But they don't.

The only people who can lay claim is the people that made it. Full stop.

Right now. Which is what started this rant few will fully read, are complaining about the redesign of Sheila from the Spyro trilogy remakes.

Why?

She went from a bald kangaroo to a kangaroo with red hair. And she looks more feminine.

Feminity is not a negative. Girls can be the typical style of feminine if they choose to be. They can also choose to be butch, androgyness, or anything else. None of those are negative character archetypes but its not we "want" so we make them negative....and thats not only the wrong way to look at it but wrong in general.

What I wanna describe it personally as they added visually a fully realizied characterization. Which is what they've been doing with every single redesign. From her to the dragons.

Hell all the dragons went from generic pallet swaps of the same model to fully fleshed out visually. None of them even remotely similiar to the original designs.....AT ALL!!!!

So why is this ok for them and not her?

She looks like she has a ridiculously tiny waist now and they're sexualizing her.

Ok?

I don't get the sexulization argument. Cause i've looked at this same image. I am attracted to females. I like furry characters. I took one look at Sheila's redesign and went "oh hey thats a lot more vibrant visually contextulizes the character better. Why'd they change the eye color tho? The original i think was better."

Yes..that was it the eye color was the only thing worth noting that was upsetting in the slightest.

Annnnnd then I moved on. Still hyped for the game. It wasn't a huge deal, and even if it was. whats my options harass a developer....nah man don't buy it.

I didn't design it. Nor do I work.on the staff that is developing it.

My opinion on it regardless has no trinsical value one way or the other.

Cont.....one post up.

#spyro reignited trilogy #voltron defender of the universe #voltron defender of the future #spyro the dragon #video games #anime #discourse #entitlement

4 notes · View notes

baconpal · 6 years

Note

Whats your opinion on the Monogatri series?

fuck man, i was gonna draw tonight, you cant just give me an ask that i could write for hours about

idk how long thisll get but just in case, usual read more time but tl;dr very very good series, absolutely recommend to any seasoned weebs out there

I fucking love the monogatari series for so many reasons. i’ll just shit out bullet points of cool shit

1. gigantic but segmented: it’s one of the longest animes i’ve watched, but if someone wanted to just watch some i’d just tellem “hey just watch bakemono and stop there for now” and they’d still watch some great content and be mostly satisfied as everything wraps up well and doesn’t have any kinda sequel bait or cliff hanger. You can watch as much as you want when you want, even down to the various arcs, even out of order if need be, so it’s incredibly convenient, which means a lot to me (i say as i marathon HxH and Ippo)

2. Fuck the Order: there’s about 3 main orders that people like to preech, novel order (the order the arcs were released according to the light novels), anime release order, and chronological order since the story isn’t told chronologically in either case, and that can get confusing on top of none of the arcs being numbered outside of bakemono and bakemono 2 (which almost nobody recommends you actually watch consecutively) BUT the part I love is ANY order works and is interesting in its own way, the order that events are presented to you can change the impact of various scenes and events, like the ending to koimono is a lot more terrifying if you have no clue that kaiki is a healthy happy boy a year later, and owari becomes a bit more confounding if you know ougi is also doing fine (even if a bit boyish), and when you watch kizumono can drastically change how you feel about araragi and shinobu’s relationship, like when they were super duper tense in nise i always felt kinda whatever, but now that i’ve seen kizu its kinda like “fuck man how arent either of you dead already”

Basically its cool as shit since everything is written without regard for order

3.Character Development (and lack there of): All the characters in the series develop pretty well, and sometimes experience multiple large character shifts that improve them from the absolute pieces of garbage they are in bake (lookin at you Hanekawa, though you were pretty alright in kizu) Senjougahara is also worth note as she’s the primary girl and is thus around a lot despite having very few arcs centered on herself

but one of the most powerful parts of all the characters is they all also never change their true worst traits, and those who don’t really are my favorite characters, and those would be Senjougahara, Hachikuji, and the main man himself, Araragi. Senjou never really is able to drop the autistic girl sitting on the fourth wall deep down within her, Hachikuji continues to constantly fill roles and play parts that don’t belong to her, up through the very end of the series where she becomes a fucking GOD for NO good reason but FUCK it i love you hachikuji, and lastly Araragi, one of the best protaganists ever, who matures quite a lot over the course of his life and all, but from the begining of kizu to the end of owari, he is just completely incapable of letting someone pathetic go without help, even if it means completely sacrificing himself and I love my stupid boy so much

4. Who’s the protag anyway?: So araragi is the protag, duh, but not all the time, and the differences in how the show works when it changes is always very interesting, as it reveals a lot about both araragi and the characters who take his role; namely, Hanekawa, Nadeko, and my fucking BOY Kaiki. Hanekawa interacts with the story much closer to a novel (to the point of analyzing chapters and such), Nadeko sees everyone around her as bubbly colorful nobodies, and Kaiki sees everyone as normal fucking people which is only strange and jarring because when Araragi is the protagonist, anyone who is unimportant to him literally does not exist or physically manifest on screen. Some would call it a lazy choice, and maybe it is, this is shaft, it wasnt the first time they did it and it wasn’t the last either (side note; i like mekakucity actors fight me pussy) but even moments full of “background characters” like Araragis freshmen highschool dilemma, everyone in class other than the 2 cute girls he knows are just depicted as names and random photographic images of shit and its very telling of his character despite never being directly said in the novels or script.

5. FUck man this shit looks good: Art is important shit dude, and monogatari consistently looks good, even if the backgrounds can be incredibly simple at times, they are STYLISH and effective and thats all they need to be, and despite being a show mainly about people talking, the characters will move and be in as many weird cool perspective shots as they need to in order to fill out a scene. Whenever the show ISNT just people talkin, the animation does not slack off. The few fights of the main series are absolutely to my taste, I love Araragi V rainy devil, and thats pretty much the only straight up fight in the show, but the Kizu movies are 3 hours of pure kino holy shit, even araragi buying some porn to beat he meat is animated excessively well and with cartoon abandon.

I know that stylish substance is still just a shaft thing, but it’s always on point in monogatari, also NO CG CHARACTERS outside of a few random shots in Kizu, which is a definitely worth pointing out considering mekakucity’s original television run exists.

6. FUck man this shit sounds good: The voice acting is impeccable, I love everyones voice so much, but the music is also of very high quality, and guess what it does that thing that i always fucking mention cus it’s awesome and should be used whenever possible anywhere: Motifing. Every character has a theme in some way due to every major character having atleast 1 opening centered on them (there’s an OP for every fucking arc and its insane they’re all fully animated too its bonkers) and theres usually a couple remixes of each persons theme used at some point, especially as like, bittersweet slow classical songs at the climax of an arc being a remix of the OP for that arc.

Kizu is also noteworthy for motifing the EDs into the other songs, remaking songs from the anime for specific classic interactions (looking at you, sharp and friend or foe) as well as just being super interesting in its use of vocal accompaniment, like the shoowap-doowap kind of stuff they throw in is very fun.

7.FUck man this shit IS good: I said early that the show is mostly just people talking, but fuck man i love listening to these people talk to each other. Everything they talk about is super entertaining and full of multiple meanings and just so much to take in that any amount of rewatching will always have me finding more to love, but since its a weeb show with references and puns and stuff, I would recommend making sure you’re atleast a decently powerful weeb who can at least UNDERSTAND some Japanese and knows a bit about anime before getting into it, also make sure you can read decently fast. It’s not Tatami Galaxy levels but stuff can move quick. (bit far into a post like this to make a recommendation but hey)

oh no i wrote for an hour about this shit bless the poor souls of any mobile users who still follow me

#long ass post #Anonymous

84 notes · View notes

cryptoandfire · 4 years

Text

How to start investing in Your 20s?

Start investing in 20s. Make it your number one priority in life. No one will take care of you if you fail to take care of yourself once you become an adult. Granted, you can fall back upon your parents but make intelligent decisions, be independent and succeed as an adult.

So, I’m going to give you my thoughts on exactly how to invest in 20s. Investing in 20s is the toughest thing to do. You generally lack both resources (money) and knowledge. Pressure to keep up with joneses in your school or work is real.

Test the waters with small amount to get started. Don’t keep thinking or wishing to invest. Rather take action, invest and own responsibility for your actions.

How I Got Started Investing In My 20s

I had to learn everything on my own. My routine was to finish the day job and then come and read finance related blogs in the night. Having a student loan to tackle early in my life instilled the money discipline in me.

I hated so much to pay back the interest which the banks were charging. I even think of doing this to my kid (not even married right now), to get him/her disciplined with money and investing.

My savings rate has always been high since I started earning in early 20s. It was naturally inherited from my parents. I used to read those blogs and think if only I could invest all this money rather than giving the bank away the principal and interest every month. So you can understand that there was a natural love for investing and compounding money so I could pay the bank and become debt free faster.

I took my investment advice from various bloggers and Youtube personalities. Finally, I started reading a lot of books on financial independence and got hooked to the concept owning my own time and freedom.

I never go all in and diversify to have a softer landing even if shit hits the fan. I always invest into new things by just investing a hundred dollar, getting my feet wet and see if there is potential for it to be a true income source. An average millionaire has atleast 7 different income sources. I want to become one. How about you?

Now, with 6 years of investing experience under my belt and no major loss in any investment I made, I have never looked back. On second thought, maybe I would have done a few things differently with hindsight bias?

The most important thing I did right in my life was

I STARTED INVESTING IN MY EARLY 20s RIGHT AFTER GETTING MY FIRST JOB!

Follow my instagram if you havent’t already where I post tips every day. The format is one Crypto post, one Finance or Investing post and one Motivational post. If you visit my profile, you will know what I am talking about.

View this post on Instagram

🌋🔥Hustle and grind in your 20s so you like yourself more in your 30s🚀💯 💥Follow @cryptoandfire 🔔Switch on post notification 🎊Link in bio 💫Follow #cryptoandfire 🎉Like the quality content and help support the blog 💯 Cryptoandfire.com #cryptocurrency #crypto #cryptotrading #cryptoinvestor #cryptocurrencies #cryptos #cryptoandfire #finance #financialfreedom #financialliteracy #money #bitcoin #billionaire #business #entrepreneur #success #investor #investment #invest #forex #forextrading #forextrader #realestate #wallstreet #millionaire #binaryoptions #daytrader #property #entrepreneurship #motivation Disclaimer : Engage at your own risk with people in comments. You and only you are responsible for your investments. I'm not a financial advisor and I don't give financial advice. Do your own research and invest

A post shared by Crypto | Finance | Motivation (@cryptoandfire) on Jul 16, 2020 at 6:39pm PDT

View this post on Instagram

🚀🔥Learning how to make good decisions in your 20s is the best way to enjoy your life later.🎉 💯Smart decisions + consistent investing = FIRE 🔥 💥Follow @cryptoandfire 🔔Switch on post notification 🎊Link in bio 💫Follow #cryptoandfire 🎉Like the quality content and help support the blog 💯 Cryptoandfire.com #cryptocurrency #crypto #cryptotrading #cryptoinvestor #cryptocurrencies #cryptos #cryptocurrencynews #cryptonews #cryptoandfire #finance #financialfreedom #financialliteracy #money #wealth #chasingwealth #investor #investment #invest #forex #forextrading #forextrader #realestate #wallstreet #forexsignals #binaryoptions #daytrader #property #entrepreneurship #motivation #teen Disclaimer : Engage at your own risk with people in comments. You and only you are responsible for your investments. I'm not a financial advisor and I don't give financial advice. Do your own research and invest

A post shared by Crypto | Finance | Motivation (@cryptoandfire) on Jul 15, 2020 at 10:00pm PDT

You see only quality content. Follow me on Instagram. Forgive me for the intense watermark on the last one. I was just learning to use watermarks at that time.

The problem with people is they think too much and take no action. Oh, if I start this, it could lead me into a big loss. The best tip is to get started investing in your 20s by keeping it simple and make investing easy. So let’s not delay your knowledge search. Please read on to know more…..

Why Start Investing In Your 20s?

The fact is that most investment returns come from time. You would have heard the cliched term “Money in the market is more important than timing the market”. It is actually true to an extent. The time factor of money is due to the power of compounding.

If you know what you’re doing, you can hit a high flying stock with market timing or jump into the right cryptocurrency at the right time and make a bundle. But this is not for everyone.

So, the easiest way to put your money to compound is, time. Use the time you have in your youth to its fullest. Leveraging time and getting started investing in your 20s makes investing easy.

Let us get it clear with an example of a 25-year-old who invests $100 a month in a Roth IRA for 40 years and earns a 12 percent (hypothetical) annual return. When that person retires at age 65, their investment will be worth just over $1 million. If the same person were to start investing $100 per month at age 35, they’d only have around $300,000 by the time they reached 65. Those 10 years of not investing cost you $700,000 when you retire. Understand the time value of money and start investing in your early 20s.

How To Prioritize Investment Money In Your 20s

I definitely know in early 20s, you will not have a lot of surplus amount (savings) to be invested into various assets classes. You need to start investing with little money and as fast as you can. I was in my early 20s once upon a time too, barely scraping through after the student loans monthly payment was made. Even then, I had a little extra money that needs to be invested smartly.

Smart investment decisions + Consistent investing = Financial Independence and Retire Early (FIRE)

So, with whatever money you have, start with the first investment option. Then, start reading about other things and how you can move the profits from one investment to diversify and move to the next investment. More than anything, this is the time to build discipline in investing.

When you are out of money, that’s the time to pause and think if you’ve already allocated the existing investment to maximize your returns and minimize your risk. Don’t move on to the next investment option until you have maximized the options. It is easier to concentrate on one thing at a time.

Invest In Yourself

The best investment you can make is in yourself. I can’t make investing any easier than this.

Your active income, from your 9 to 5 day job, will be your cash generator. This cash provides the seed money for making smart investments in your 20s. Be careful with your seed money as this sets your path to a posh future. Don’t get settled into the job. Keep thinking if you are doing good for yourself and if there is a way to optimize.

Take advantage of every training opportunity you have access to. What options does your employer offer? Either on the job training or more formal continuing education are both beneficial.

The best thing about learning on the job is it has no out of pocket cost to you. So, it is an ideal way to start investing in your 20s when you have little money.

You might also want to start thinking early about your side hustle, so you don’t have to depend on your day job for all your income. Worse, even if we are in bad recession, like the one we are in right now in the middle of Covid pandemic, you know you will have a backup source(s) of income with your side hustle(s).

Understand what you can dominate to make a good living. Find out what you are good at. Then, put in the time and effort to be great at that skill. Continuously repeat it and see it replace your main income in a few years. When the flippening happens, you know you can make more from your investing than in your day job.

View this post on Instagram

💯🚀Why is everyone not wealthy? What do a few wealthy do differently?🌋🔥 https://www.cryptoandfire.com/nothing-wrong-in-chasing-wealth/ 💥Follow @cryptoandfire 🔔Switch on post notification 🎊Link in bio 💫Follow #cryptoandfire 🎉Like the quality content and help support the blog 💯 Cryptoandfire.com

A post shared by Crypto | Finance | Motivation (@cryptoandfire) on Jul 19, 2020 at 12:33am PDT

Pay off High Interest Debt

My second investing tip for beginners is to pay off high-interest debt as quickly as possible. You need to hate debt in order to get rid of them quickly. It’s the no-brainer next step in progressing towards a posh future.

What am I talking about? I am talking about credit card debt.

According to WalletHub data in 2020, the average credit card interest rate is around 18.6%. Most of my credit cards have an APR of 21% even though I have excellent credit and have never paid interest on my credit anytime.

NerdWallet’s data from 2019 shows that average US household owes $6,591 in Credit Card revolving debt and the whole of US has an average of $438.8M in debt.

If you can get more than 21%, then you can invest rather than paying off your debt but even professional investment managers rarely achieve investment returns over 21%. If it is achieved one year, it will not be consistent over a long time.

By paying off your credit card debt, your return on investment is guaranteed. It’s a no brainer that paying off your credit card debt faster is one of the best investments you can make in your 20’s.

Build Emergency Fund

To make investing easy, the third investment priority is building an emergency fund. Why? You know, life always has certain surprises waiting for you. You need to weather them as and when they happen to you

People lose their jobs without notice (think of Covid pandemic creating record high unemployment rates. Health issues can come up and accidents occur. Also, cars breakdown and can need costly repairs. You could suddenly face a lawsuit out of the blue.

One rule of thumb is to save 3-6 months of living expenses. Set this money aside in a risk-free high-interest savings account. Doctor of Credit maintains the best resource on this.

This is a set it up and forget method. You don’t intend to touch that money unless you have an emergency.

Employer-Sponsored Retirement Plan

Most employers sponsor qualified retirement accounts. They are also known as 401(k) or 403(b) plans for US investors.

Your money can be invested before any taxes are taken out, so that’s a huge advantage, if you are investing in 20s. You have a huge head start over others who procrastinate their investment decision.

For example, let’s say you invest $1000 and you are in the 22% tax bracket. That means you save $220 in taxes. So the $1000 investment costs you only $780 out of your pocket. This is a great way to stretch your investment dollars in your 20s when you are trying to start investing with little money.

Furthermore, your money grows without being taxed until you take withdrawals in retirement. This puts more of your money to work each year. Remember the first tip, time is important. You do not have to pay taxes on any of your investment gains or dividend income until you redeem.

Finally, most companies will match your contributions to a certain level and upto a certain % of investment. Mine does a company match of 50% of my investment into 401K with a max of 6% of my base pay. This is free money from your employer towards your retirement. You need to atleast invest enough to just take whatever they offer to match.

This is almost always baked in to your compensation package. You leave money on the table if you don’t use it.

Fund a Roth IRA Account

Company’s retirement plan generally has limitations on how much you can contribute to your 401K in a year. IRS sends a notification every year on how can be saved in 401K. If you are lucky enough to be able to max out your retirement plan at work, you still have more options to start investing in 20s.

You can open and fund a ROTH IRA in your 20s. Not everyone qualifies. If you are a high earner, you can’t make a direct investment into Roth IRA. But, you can use other strategies like Backdoor Roth contribution.

In the case of a Roth, your contributions are made after-tax. You never have to pay another tax dollar to IRS when you take withdrawals in retirement. It is all yours. So, investing in a Roth IRA in your 20s is a great option to maximize your retirement benefit.

Look for a low-cost index fund that invests in the S&P 500 stock index or the total US stock market index.

There are more complex things that you can do like Backdoor Roth and Mega Backdoor Roth strategies. I will write separate articles and link them here in the future.

Health Savings Account (HSA)

Health Savings Account opens up an investment angle with your health insurance account in your 20s. You are generally healthier at a young age and you can choose to have a high deductible health insurance and invest the money.

So, you can choose to self-insure some of the costs with a higher deductible. Your insurance premiums will be lower. Make sure your emergency fund is extended to 1 year of expenses before you start investing into HSA.

Many employers offer high deductible plans. Like a 401(k) or deductible IRA, you invest money in this HSA account pre-tax. And, your money grows without being taxed thereafter. Finally, if you withdraw the money for qualified health care expenses, it is never taxed.

That’s a free lunch! Grab ’em before you consider the rest of the tips.

Plan to Buy Primary Residence In Your Late 20s

Disclaimer : I’m in my late 20s and haven’t bought yet because of the peak in real estate markets. I have instead invested in Cryptocurrencies at their lows in 2018 and 2019 bear market.

I have never considered my primary residence an investment. Plan to get your primary residence as soon as you can afford 20% equity. Don’t pay the Private Mortgage Insurance (PMI) if you have an option. Otherwise, go for the lower downpayment options like FHA, if you qualify.

Buying a modest townhouse or condo in an affordable area can be a good long term investment. Your down payment becomes equity in real estate.

Every mortgage payment that you pay gradually increases your equity ownership in your home over time. There are huge tax benefits associated with home ownership with mortgage. You can read them here until I write my own article.

Owning your residence can be expensive. Repairs, renovations, association fees all add up. Real estate is the most illiquid investment option. So, Look before you leap. Make sure you have enough saved up before making the decision.

Invest In The Stock Market in your 20s

You are young and you have a high risk appetite. Retirement is far away. The return on investment is going to better than inflation if you choose to invest in stocks.

So, if you have made it this far and still have money to invest, you are a 20 something-year-old investing star.

Investing has come easy for you. And, you are on the doorstep of aggressive investing in your 20s.

So, it’s time to open a brokerage account and invest more money in stocks. Online brokerage accounts are free and easy to open.

Invest in Cryptocurrencies

If you are young and an aggressive investor who believes in high risk and high reward, then invest in cryptocurrencies. I recommend investing atleast 1% of your portfolio in cryptocurrencies to get your feet wet. Investing in 20s helps you aim for those high rewards and even if it goes to zero, it doesn’t affect your retirement in any way.

Cryptocurrencies are highly volatile and you need to have a strong stomach if you get punched in your gut. This is a wildcard to your early retirement if you don’t get bogged down by short term volatility and invest for the long term.

Invest small, understand the markets, earn profits and then slowly increase your investment. I’ve been in the space for 5 years and have learnt a lot. Leave a comment if you have invested in Cryptocurrencies as well.

Investing Tips For 20s

Here’s a quick TLDR of the post, since I’ve thrown a lot your way. Investing in 20s is the most important thing to get your life set for safe retirement. Now, go make a checklist with these action items and accomplish them one by one

Invest in yourself

Build an emergency fund

Pay off high-interest debt

Contribute to employer-sponsored retirement 401K Plan

Open and fund a Roth IRA account

Open and fund a health savings account

Consider buying your primary residence

Invest in the stock market

Invest in Cryptocurrencies

The post How to start investing in Your 20s? appeared first on Crypto and FIRE.

from WordPress https://ift.tt/2OFIy3x via IFTTT

#IFTTT #WordPress

0 notes

wild-at-spark · 4 years

Text

Tagged by: @polyhexianchicken Thank you for the tag!

Tagging: @x-de-con-struct-ed-x @bytesnbolts @omicrontheicequeen Feel free to do so if you wish and I apologise if you’ve already done it and anyone who I haven’t tagged feel free to steal if you so wish. I’m really crap at stuff like this.

MY MUSE IS. canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES/NO I mean she’s not popular at all but I think being an OC really contributes to that unfortunately.

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom? WELL… / NO / IDK.

I mean I’d say she’s rather cool. (badum tss) I don’t really now if she’s considered hot? I mean atleast one muse thinks she is?? I mean I think she’s an attractive femme. Wild however doesn’t hold such an opinion of herself.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK. I mean she’s an ex-gladiator? So I’m gonna go yes because damn you need some strength for that. Mentally she’s strong too but she only sees herself as physically strong.

Are they underrated? YES / NO. She does indeed need some love and TLC and sometimes even I underrate her. Sorry Wild.

Were they relevant to the main story? YES / NO. I mean kinda just slotted her in and she can exist outside the main story so I’m gonna say no?

Were they relevant to the main character? YES / NO

Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO. Maybe in Kaon? Tiny femme gladiator kickin aft? I’d like to think she was known for that. Or the fact that she’s now a medic I mean honestly what a career change.

How’s their reputation? GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. Depends on what point in her life you get her at.

HOW STRICTLY DO YOU FOLLOW CANON?

I mean I try and follow canon as much as possible but like its hard sometimes with all the universes and not having knowledge on them all. I do try and match and stick to the canon of whoever I’m interacting with though.

SELL YOUR MUSE! (aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutual.)

ICE AND SNOW GUYS AND GALS! I mean that’s pretty freakin awesome! She’s a really loving caring medic who just wants some damn respect and 5 minutes peace and quiet. She was raised to be a gladiator only because her Sire knew of nothing else and he saw potential. Kaon was tough but Wild was tougher. Once she had enough of fighting and had the funding she went to medical school, battled to become a doctor against the reputation she’d built through pit fighting and then went back in the pits to help those who needed her. She puts up a cold hard front sometimes because she’s known nothing but fear and anger and had the only mech who cared for her ripped away, but with a new location came a new chance, a fresh start. She isn’t perfect but then who is?

NOW THE OPPOSITE! (list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?)

While she is a sweet and loving femme that gladiator spirit still burns in her and some days it just really craves a fight. She is stubborn and she can be a bitch and she knows it and she doesn’t like taking orders because she’s usually the one giving them. Her being an outlier can be off putting which I understand but its part of who she is. I’m not sure what is mostly offputting but sometimes I think its just the idea she’s an OC which is quite sad because OC’s are wonderful and interesting and I think if you gave her chance and got to know her you’d see she isn’t that bad.

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO RP YOUR MUSE?

Wild was my very first OC I made her when I was about 8-9 years old, she’s gone through many changes and only recently have I solidified the story line and her designs and such. She got put on the shelf for 11 years just gathering dust because I didn’t have any friends who role played or were transformers fans.

Only recently I decided to make a blog for her because I found old art of her and she made me fall in love with transformers again. And I’ve got to say thank you to @x-de-con-struct-ed-x for being so damn supportive of both me and her because I really was considering just damn right deleting this blog because Wild just wasn’t going anywhere. Hell there are still days I feel that way now but they’ve been a big help and they’ve also helped me develop Wild as well. (and got her someone to love at the same time) and I’ve got a best friend now too all because of Wild so I’m grateful for that.

I’ve been RPing for a while now with my fiance through a different OC so it’s not like I haven’t got experience in it but I’m lacking in experience with Wild. I love Wild I really do and I want to see her grow and get more popular I want people to see past the fact she’s an OC and see she is a unique femme with an attitude but will put her own damn life on the line to save others and will mother hen you to protect you but also won’t hesitate to kick your ass.

YOUR INSPIRATION

People’s reactions to this small femme medic are great, especially in reaction to her powers or the fact she was a gladiator. She very much is a trouble maker and she likes a challenge and I like writing her. While I did make her before frozen existed I won’t lie when I say it does inspire me in regard to her powers but and how she reacts and it’s even a running joke between other mun’s and even muses some times. I’m here to have fun and show her off because she is amazing and it took me too long to realise that and that’s what inspires me, I want others to appreciate her.

SOME MORE PERSONAL QUESTIONS FOR THE MUN.

Do you think you give your character justice? YES / NO. I really wish I was more skilled to portrait Wild I really don’t do her justice at all.

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO. Yes I do write drabbles and I promise I’ll write some that aren’t all Wild/Ironhide but damn they’re the best couple and I will go down with that ship. I’m working on some currently although practically no one reads them :’) But it’s a bit of fun I think and it goes a little deeper into how Wild reacts to situations.

Do you think a lot about your muse during the day? YES/ NO. I am forever thinking about Wild and there’s always ideas bouncing around my head whether its AU’s, headcanons about Kaon or ideas for Wild herself.

Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO. Again I’m not skilled enough to portrait Wild I really wish I was but no one else could portrait her because she is my creation and y’know what that’s okay. Hopefully we can develop together.

Are you confident in your writing? YES / NO. I try my best and just hope the crap I dish out is ledigble and understandable.

Are you a sensitive person? YES / NO. I am and that kinda shows in Wild sometimes?

DO YOU ACCEPT CRITICISM WELL ABOUT YOUR PORTRAYAL?

I’m open to constructive criticism and I’d try and take it onboard. Telling me you hate Wild and how I write her won’t end well. I’m trying my hardest and I do this for fun and if you don’t like it just don’t interact.

DO YOU LIKE QUESTIONS, WHICH HELP YOU EXPLORE YOUR CHARACTER?

I love them! Feel free to send them in anonymous or not I don't mind any question others have about her, seeing people curious about her really makes me happy and it helps flesh her out a bit more too!

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES TO A HEADCANON OF YOURS, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?

Well I’d be curious about it so sure? but that’s the best thing about headcanons they’re open to interpretation by everyone and everyone has their own. My headcanons are for me and while you don’t have to agree with them please don’t get aggressive.

IF SOMEONE REALLY HATES YOUR CHARACTER, HOW DO YOU TAKE IT?

?? Why are you still on my blog then? I mean I might be offended but I do respect that people have their own opinions and that’s okay. Just don’t be spreading hate okay?

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE EASY GOING AS A MUN?

I like to think so? I mean I’m a bundle of anxiety and depression so I do have my bad days so if I’m overbearing please do tell me and I’ll dial it down.I’d love to get to know other muns and make some more friends but I’m so damn anxious about interacting sometimes I could and sometimes do cry. Please don’t hesitate to send me an ask or a private message I will get back to you as soon as possible but do bare in mind I’m from Britain and most likely in a different timezone. Ya just gotta get to know me I’m like a coconut, I take a while to crack but I’m good on the inside? I nearly put delicious? Maybe I am delicious on the inside but we shall never know,

I enjoy OOC interactions as well as IC ones just sometime bare with me because I am very tired and awkward so sometimes replies take a while. If you have a problem with me or my content or you’re having trouble please do come and talk to me about it because honestly we’ve all been there and I like helping. I look forward to interacting with others because I am 100% an introvert and the internet is my only escape from real life. Hopefully we can make some more friends.

#tag meme #ooc

0 notes

booksbroadwaybbc · 5 years

Text

I know I have the potential to be great, and I choose the path of the weak every time. via /r/selfimprovement

I know I have the potential to be great, and I choose the path of the weak every time.

Im so shitty. I dont even know why im writing this. Honestly I see other people post and I wonder if this actually helps. I'm at a point where If there's even a chance it could help, I should try it. Im 29, skinny black guy. I literally weigh about 130 lbs. Live with a roommate and brother. Other brother moving here in bout a week. Im older than all of them. Somehow I've got to this point in my life dropping out of every school endeavor i ever embarked on. Dropped out of High School, got my GED got into college then dropped out of that. Was too busy smoking weed, playing fighting games...just being a fool. Never been in a serious relationship at any point in my life. My love-life is non-existent. My only working background is in grocery stores and call center. I legitimately want to just stop everything. If I have to take calls for another few months that really might be it for me. I'm at the complete end of my lane. Im not here to discuss where my thoughts have gone, but I know for certain I cant keep doing this type of work for the rest of my life...I don't think I'll last to the middle of 2019 before I quit and look for another job. Speaking of that, my last 5 years of work history is just me bouncing between jobs. I got a job at software company doing customer support, but i threw that away too. They wanted to send me to Ireland, a real chance to start over and for some reason i threw it away. I just feel inadequate as hell in comparison to my brothers (one who has graduated college, the other who is going to Lincoln Tech now). I don't have problems talking to women casually, but I dont have it in me to discuss anything romantic with a woman. I wouldn't date me. If I was a woman I wouldn't even talk to me lol, let alone date me. I see my laziness, my apathy, my lack of empathy toward other people, and I know it's' shitty. I hate it, I hate myself and I absolutely must improve. I know that I can, when I actually put my mind to something I excel.

But you know what I hate more than anything? People who look for sympathy, people who want others to feel bad for them, and worst of all people who don't fucking work. So as I make this post, I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. If anything insult me, because well thats what I deserve and probably what I would do to someone else.

So since im literally at the end of my fucking rope, I've been trying to rewrite my life as hard as possible. Dedicating literally every minute of every day to improvement. Literally every --single---minute of every ---single--- day. As i write this now im at work, im doing quite a few things inbetween calls, and decided to visit this reddit because I made this account and subscribed to it a few weeks ago.

I probably sound like an idiot going into detail on this, but as embarrassing as it is I will. I made a plan for myself for the next 5 years. The plan includes my goals and ways to achieve them day by day. It also includes checkpoints every so often for me to check In and make sure im actually focusing on my goals. I need these checkpoints because in the past when I tried to do things like this I would lose focus eventually and fall into loads of weed use and alcohol abuse. My goals are listed below in no particular order:

Improve my overall Health - this multi-part goal. It includes both physical and mental health. I weigh 130 lbs pretty much on the dot. I'm not sure what my ideal weight would be (I don't know how I'd look at lets say 170 lbs for me to call that my ideal weight), but the first milestone is 150lbs. I want to hit this in 6 months, or atleast check in at that time. In terms of how I plan to do that, I've detailed a complete workout regime for me. Of course, I could go into detail on that, but the most important step, more important than working out is just eating more. The hardest part of course is always sticking to the regime, but atleast i've wrote down what I need to do. I don't know why but for some reason I just have trouble getting myself to eat. Even when i'm hungry, i'll smoke or go for a walk or go to sleep or just game - I'll do anything but eat. As of today, I'm changing that. For my mental health, I plan to read recreationally more especially when on public transit which Im on for about 2 hours a day. Why reading? I need to stay away from my phone. I spend so much time on discord, losing myself in non-stop content online through youtube or twitch or whatever. I need to get back in touch with me, and not be scared to be in my own thoughts. As a kid i use to read a lot, I was a creative kid. I think somewhere in the weed use I lost that, I want it back. After doing some research I've also started journalling. I Journal twice a day, once in the morning once at night. I try to spend 30 minutes a day total (15 minutes per night/day) writing down my thoughts from the previous day and goals for that day in the morning, and what I actually accomplished and thoughts for the day that night. After reading what I've wrote for just a few days, turns out I'm actually a very bitter person. Maybe not bitter, but definitely angry and intense. I'm also trying to meditate, but Im not really good at this. What I do is just sit down in my room, light a candle, make some tea, close my eyes and think for 10 or so minutes. Any thought that comes in I try to analyze where it came from and if it's a negative thought or stemming from a negative. Im not good at this yet honestly. Its important to know these things aren't something I want to add in only for a limited time. I think I need to do this for the rest of my life, otherwise I spiral fast. My mom has suggested therapy but, I completely refuse. If I can't fix myself I won't get fixed. I'm not scared to ask for help, but therapy is out of the question until I've done absolutely everything I can to fix myself.

Develop a Skill. Particularly I want to program. I've taught myself abit of HTML, CSS, and Javascript. Honestly I'm a complete beginner, but I've dabbled abit. I've made steps to already begin teaching myself in my routine. I've been using codeacademy pro for about a month now and I'm working on deploying my own site (my first project will just be my resume on a responsive one page site, got the idea from a friend). This comes from, I have to develop some type of skill in order to move out of Customer Service. I don't know what else to even do, though IT support comes to mind but I don't want to support anymore I want to create and develop. I'm not trying to avoid work, I just want to avoid working with the general public, and I want to avoid my job being to educate others or fix mistakes they've made. Even though I think that still happens in development, I atleast want a career that pushes me mentally and forces me to improve my skillset in order to stay relevant. Most importantly, I want a job I can be proud of. A job that I myself can be proud of. Even though Customer Service/Call Centers are important for alot of companies, I cannot stand this line of work. It is so mind numbingly tedious and repetitive, and I feel like I am wasting my life and my potential handling these minor inquiries when I know I can use my mind to accomplish and work on something much greater. I don't care how arrogant or fucked up it sounds. It's not that I think i'm better than anyone, I just KNOW that i can achieve more than this. I know that im here because of how shitty of a human i've been. I'm tired of it, I have to change it.

Learn another language. The only other language I've had real interest in is Japanese. Honestly I've been at odds even with myself on this for a long time. Is it bad that I enjoy that type of culture? I'm not trying to be a "weeb" or just say it to sound cool. I've spent time learning to recognize some hiragana/katakana just on my own in the past. I don't think it's a perfect culture or anything, but its the only one that legitimate has always interested me for as long as I can remember. So i've decided to pursue it and fuck it, if I look stupid or like a weeb or whatever I guess I just have to accept that. Again I have my own routine I've detailed for myself for learning, and I have a few people I can actually practice with. I somehow got a friend of mine a job in Japan as a english teacher...but I havent done anything myself to move toward that and I know god damn well I could.

I want to become better at interacting with people. Last few months I've lost myself in just complete self indulgence. I won't go super into detail, but I think we all know what this means. Drug use, alcohol use, long nights on the internet avoiding sleep exploring the most degenerate shit man. The worst is after nights like that you can't look people in the eye, or have normal conversations. It just eats at you knowing youre not only wasting time but spending it on something so shitty and useless. Putting time off with family/friends to stay at home and waste time, I won't do shit like this anymore. When you fall into a rut like this, or whatever it is, all your relationships around you start to crumble. Then I wonder why I havent been in a relationship, lol. Well im done and hopefully by writing this It gives me strength to not fall back into that dark place and keep me on the right path. I will show I can support my family and I can receive their support as well. It will take time to repair these relationships, but If i dont start now I feel like they really will crumble forever.

This is basically my current mental state. I don't know if this even fits this subreddit but I hope it does and if not feel free to inform me. The purpose of this is to show that, I am on the path to self improvement, its all I care about right now. Being better than I've been in the past month. Better than I was yesterday, because if I dont change my life now I'm legitimately scared what I will do or where I will be 5 years from now. If you actually read all this, thanks. If you have any thoughts, please let me know. If I sound stupid, let me know. If I sound like all im doing is crying and complaining, please inform me. You have any videos I can watch on improvement, including mentalities/mindsets/meditation please let me know. Im open to anything. It took me about 2 hours to write this in between calls. As I hit post I'm going back to coding and planning on working on my first project immediately tonight. Guess i'm saying this more for myself than anyone.

Thanks for reading.

-Just

Submitted November 10, 2018 at 11:22PM by StoicJust via reddit https://ift.tt/2z213YJ

#IFTTT #reddit

0 notes

latestnews2018-blog · 6 years

Text

Virat Kohli’s video of man littering streets sparks debate about privacy

New Post has been published on https://latestnews2018.com/virat-kohlis-video-of-man-littering-streets-sparks-debate-about-privacy/

Virat Kohli’s video of man littering streets sparks debate about privacy

Mother of the man publicly shamed by Virat-Anushka slams couple for violating his privacy

Dubai: Indian cricket team captain, Virat Kohli and his wife, actress Anushka Sharma confronted a man for littering the streets, on Saturday. Kohli posted a video of the incident on Twitter and it went viral.

The young man’s mother has now slammed them for violating her son’s basic right to privacy.

Through his Twitter handle @imVkohli had posted: “Saw these people throwing garbage on the road and pulled them up rightfully. Travelling in a luxury car and brains gone for a toss. These people will keep our country clean? Yeah right! If you see something wrong happening like this, do the same and spread awareness. @AnushkaSharma”

Saw these people throwing garbage on the road & pulled them up rightfully. Travelling in a luxury car and brains gone for a toss. These people will keep our country clean? Yeah right! If you see something wrong happening like this, do the same & spread awareness. @AnushkaSharma pic.twitter.com/p8flrmcnba— Virat Kohli (@imVkohli) June 16, 2018

Many reacted by saying it is necessary to confront people who litter. Tweep @Sura_Gr wrote: “Well said @AnushkaSharma awareness needed for well educated people mostly.”

well said @AnushkaSharma awareness needed for well educated people mostly— Surendar (@Sura_Gr) June 16, 2018

The young man in the video, Arhhan Singh took to Instagram to say that the couple lacked ‘verbal etiquette’.

In his post he agreed that it was careless of him to throw the litter out of his car and on the road, @arhhansingh wrote: “Mrs Anushka Sharma Kohli a little etiquette and politeness in ur dialogue wouldn’t have made u a lesser star. There are all kinds of manners and hygiene .. verbal etiquette is one of them. The garbage that mistakenly went out of the window of my ‘luxury car’, was way less then the garbage that came out from your mouth.”

Singh’s mother Gittanjali lashed out at the couple calling it a ‘stunt’ in the name of ‘cleanliness’, she accused the couple of violating the privacy of her son.

With a screengrab from Kohli’s video, @gittanjali.elizabeth posted on Instagram: “@anushkasharma @virat.kohli… you both posted a video for your fans and followers by violating basic rights to privacy… As a mother, I would like to state that you have not only shamed my son @arhhansingh on social media by not blurring his face, but you’ve also exposed him to unwanted hostility and danger from fanatics for such a small thing that you claim he has done but have no proof of anyways? I am concerned about my son’s safety.”

@anushkasharma @virat.kohli The last thing we would want is to get publicity out of your cheap STUNT in the name of CLEANLINESS! You both posted a video for your fans n followers by VIOLATING Basic Rights to privacy &you shamed my son in the video as well in your post content you both may be who you are in your fields, with millions of followers & all the PR backing you… you may be payed for your campaigning or maybe doing it for sheer publicity As a mother,I would like to state that you have not only shamed my son @arhhansingh on social media by not blurring his face, but youve also exposed him to unwanted hostility…. and danger from fanatics for such a small thing that you claim he has done but have no proof of anyways ? I am concerned about my sons SAFTEY !!! how dare you crush somebody’s image/and morale and reputation and expose him to public hate, a boy who is on the verge of starting his ventures, ..just to prove what good citizens you both are to increase your fan following ?How dare you?? If you both really cared or bothered about cleanliness , then you would actively do something about all the garbage in your own lane.. you would make a noise and use your VOICE to urge the municipal authorities to take action atleast in the lane where you live,to start with, which you haven’t . Posting videos of fake bravado just to fool your followers. If your intention was genuine then you would pull over and politely correct the person for littering IF THEY DID in a decent and real manner… and not by displaying such a rude and arrogant attitude, and then posting it for the world to see! You have caused a lot of grief with your post & this is morally and humanitarianly very wrong. You may be #AnushkaSharma or #viraatkohli in your house or on screen & the field…but on the streets you are just a citizen trying to correct another… DO IT WITH KINDNESS ….fear karma . And just FYI , he did not react badly, not coz of who you both are.. we couldnt care less,but only because he has a decent upbringing ! Unlike people like you, who seem to think that you are the empowered ones to talk and treat people as you wish !

A post shared by Gittanjali (@gittanjali.elizabeth) on Jun 16, 2018 at 12:19pm PDT

The response sparked a debate about Singh’s right to privacy.

Instagram user @arshdeep_12_ wrote: “Anushka is no where wrong a sq mm or 100 sq mm litter means litter .. and she didn’t abuse you, she scolded you appropriately and every responsibile citizen should do that with every irresponsible citizen like you. Virat Kohli did the very right thing by shooting and posting the video because people like you should be taught a lesson.”

@deepakv712 tweeted: “This whole ‘Garbage saga’ is being unnecessarily stretched. What Anushka did was not wrong but Virat should have blurred out the face before uploading the video. That’s it.”

This whole “Garbage saga” is being unnecessarily stretched. What Anushka did was not wrong but Virat should have blurred out the face before uploading the video. That’s it.— DV 🏏🇮🇳 (@deepakv712) June 17, 2018

On Instagram @shreyas_js_ highlighted a bigger concern: “I dont know if posting and defaming other fellow citizens is ethical and mannerful. But I know one thing – there are NO bins anywhere on the streets, atleast as far as I know.”

And @saurabhs_23 wrote about the positive impact such videos can have, he also said the couple did not really need publicity: “Sachin [Tendulkar] posted a similar video of people not wearing helmets and that had an impact on me. I started to wear helmet. These people are youth icons. They are followed by millions. If posting such a video can make 100 of those millions to think upon this issues and get better… it’s great. Don’t know how people think it’s for publicity. They already have enough of it. Actually in excess.”

In her post, Arhhan Singh’s mother @gittanjali.elizabeth also went on to highlight, that the couple’s celebrity status does not give them the right to “crush somebody’s image, morale and reputation and expose him to public hate, a boy who is on the verge of starting his ventures….”

She added that it was okay to correct another person but there was a way to do it: “…on the streets you are just a citizen trying to correct another… do it with kindness …fear karma.”

Anushka Sharma was previously associated with the Indian government’s Swachh Bharat Abhiyan (Clean India campaign) and became its ambassador in 2017.

http://platform.twitter.com/widgets.jshttp://platform.instagram.com/en_US/embeds.js

0 notes

jaxsilver · 7 years

Text

Gender, Drag, Dysphoria and Contentment?

hurhur i wrote a song called contentment once, it was fucking terrible. So here’s the deal. Gender doesn’t exist. This is all purely based on my own beliefs, experiences and being in my own head, so consider that before you rip my fucking ass into shreds for anything you’re about to read. I don’t believe gender exists, atleast not in the way we know it. There is no boy, girl, fluid, non binary etc. It’s all just a label, a category someone came up with. But how the fuck are you supposed to feel when none of that really fits? For absolutely years I tried to figure out what gender label I felt most comfortable with, in recent times i settled for non binary as it was the biggest grey umbrella I could hide under. UNTIL… (que dramatic dundundun) one night, when i smoked some really dank weed, i realised something that would blow my goddamn mind. GENDER DOESN’T EXIST. but then what does? AHA, this is where the stoner mind kicks. What does exist is femininity, masculinity and androgyny, everyone is just a different mix of those. Keep the whole gender thing in mind, we’ll get back to it in a jiffy. Pronouns however are a completely different story, they are only something to refer to people as just as if it was their name except not because its kinda creepy to just repeat someones name 10 times a sentence yknow? A persons pronouns should still be fucking respected and if anyone ever misgenders you on purpose just burst into tears and make them feel like they’ve murdered your first born. Personally i still choose to go by they/them and he/him because thats what makes me feel comfortable in my own body, some people might not get that because yeah i was born into a ‘female’ body but if you don’t get it sucks to be you, respect a persons identity and pronoun choice or bin yaself you useless paperclip. Now drag. Like every other bitch under the age of 30 who’s taken a pritt stick to their eyebrows, (or in desperate day before payday broke ass times, hair wax) (don’t do it) (it doesn’t dry) I’ve watched an episode or two (or like 9 seasons worth) of Rupauls drag race. When i first fell in love with drag i was 13 and still functioning as “girl”. The people i was friends with saw drag as a man dressing up as a woman which like no you’re wrong. Drag to me is art, makeup is your medium and your face is your canvas. Yeah drag is about looking feminine but who says you can only do drag if you’ve gotta duct tape a dick to your ass?! Recently i’ve decided to start doing drag and being a drag queen, something i was told i couldn’t do at 13 because i was “already a girl”. WELL WHOOP DE FUCKING DO WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT HERE I AM DOING WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY AND THERE YOU ARE POSTING OUTDATED DONALD TRUMP MEMES. I’m still a tad salty about it so moving on. Shoutout to Adore Delano and Sharon Needles who were the first queens i ever saw make the dirty punk, grunge, emo look fucking incredible and beautiful. (also all my mates that badgered me to start drag, u da best). Remember how i told you to hold on to that gender concept? time to bring it back. As i said earlier, it took years for me to find a way to be comfortable with the idea of gender. If nothing you’ve read so far makes you understand that drag shouldn’t be limited to one type of person consider this. Until drag the sheer idea of femininity made me fucking cringe and crave death. no like seriously, you ever look in the mirror and realise you can’t wear your favourite expensive as fuck jeans anymore because they give you a waist which gives you a feminine shape and you just can’t be fucking arsed to hear ‘she’ all day anymore? it kinda sucks. drag is my outlet. it allows me to be feminine but on my own terms. i call my drag persona my hotter and more talented little sister. i’ve always loved the frances bean cobain grunge look with the long hair and makeup but to look like that as myself was just really fucking uncomfortable. but drag? no, not in drag. Lux Vicious is a character i created and use my self to portray and goddamn she’s fucking cool. don’t get me wrong, it didn’t suddenly stop body dysphoria, it was only an hour ago i was standing in front of the mirror being sad about the lack of bone structure in my face and not having a flat chest but that’ll never stop. but i can wear those jeans now and not feel as shitty about myself, because i still know that the things that aren’t out of my control (like my body shape) are all masculine and androgynous bc thats who i am. the tiny percentage of femininity i harbour comes out only during drag, but it finally has its own outlet and i feel a touch more comfortable in myself. there was probably a lot more i wanted to say but i thought of the majority of it in the shower and by the time id rinsed off id forgotten like 87% of it so keep your peepers peeled for a two point oh. the moral of this story is if it fucking makes you happy and feel good about yourself fuck everyone who negates it and doesn’t agree with it. its your fucking life and as long as you’re not killing people or sprinkling cancer into the water pipes, you’re golden.

p.s. this is not my usual style of writing due to me being high as a fucking kite on allergy medication because hay fever and i aren’t on the same page at the moment.

0 notes

cryptoandfire · 4 years

Text

There is nothing wrong in chasing wealth

Chasing wealth is often chastised. The art of obtaining wealth is commonly misunderstood because people think it’s NOT OK to talk about money and wealth.

Can wealth can only be obtained through earning higher income? Oh, I have a middleton income and I will never achieve wealth or financial independence is what most people think. This is completely untrue. These failures exist due to complete lack of actionable financial education taught in school.

Schools teach complex calculus which are not that useful to life but fail to teach money and money management. They don’t want to teach because if they do, you will not carry forward the torch of consumerism culture in the US. Economy depends on velocity of money that’s generated by people exchanging money for transfer of service or value.

It’s appalling that people enter into huge debt to earn that fancy degree for thousands of dollars, but most students fail to understand anything about money at all.

Earned Income <> Wealth

People seem to think that one will automatically become wealthy once they attain high salaries in their career. This is totally far from truth. Only those who keep lifestyle inflation out of their lives will eventually become wealthy.

No matter how much money you earn, there will always be something more and new to buy. It’s like you keep dreaming of something like ‘if only I could afford it’ and years later you see yourself closer to being able to afford it. The problem with earning more money is it gives you a lot more choices and that causes increased spending.

For example, a higher paying job requires more expensive clothes and more travel, which subtracts from the income earned. You also feel the urge to keep up with office Joneses. This is exactly why earned income cannot be associated with what wealth is. Chasing wealth is not equal to spending them away for momentary pleasures!

Keeping up with Joneses

In fact, people that earn higher incomes are often in a worse position to reach financial independence. Simply put, their lifestyle costs more. They become accustomed to a more expensive standard of living and sucked into a flywheel as everyone else that can’t afford to save or get ahead.

The difference is they will have flashy things that others would aspire to have, but don’t know they also have higher payments to make. They generally have more financial stress and the spending cycle escalates to bring their mental peace back.

What is wealth?

By Merriam-Webster definition, wealth refers to an abundance of valuable possessions or money. Even though I’m not fully Financially independent yet, I can assure you that building wealth is grinding it out slowly. There is no magic unicorn waiting to show up secrets to becoming wealthy. You could be lucky and inherit wealth but we are talking about common people here.

Building wealth requires patience, a mix of smart decisions involving investment options and a high savings rate and limiting tax liability legally.

How I honed my Saving skill?

Think about the freedom that you can afford by increasing your Savings rate. My personal Savings rate is much higher because saving habit was inculcated in my life from childhood much before FIRE as a term was coined. Chasing wealth can be fun for people like me.

If you save lesser % of your income per year, you’ll need to work many years before you can afford a year off. That’s why, your income level alone doesn’t determine if you will be wealthy.

If you have watched PlayingWithFire, they ask people to aim for 50% Savings rate. Technically, if you’re able to save 50% of your income per year, you can afford to take one year off work for every year you work, if you maintain your expenses constant.

Flashy people retirement needs more money invested to maintain the same standard of living. So even if someone earns half of what you earned in your whole career at work could still be ahead with a combination of high savings rate, smart investment decisions and pouncing on opportunities outside work.

Chasing Wealth

If you have a negative mindset with something, you will never grow in that field. It’s the same with money. You need to love money and money management. Enjoy watching your wealth grow once you do.

Average people think talking or having a lot of money is a bad thing. Rather than challenge themselves to read a book to learn more about money, you’ll typically find these folks whining about how hard life is.

Never allow a rich or broke person with low savings rate to influence your spending or behaviour. Aspiring to build wealth and then chasing wealth is the first baby step that you need to make progress.

Independent Thinker

Wealth accumulation creates confidence that could make your life a lot better. It also allows you to feel financially secure and start thinking about things you want to do.

I hate to ask anyone for financial help. I read, learn, evolve, understand what works best and unlearn the rest. Independence builds character and I’m proud to say that I’ve made it so far all by myself.

I never obtained a job through someone I knew. Nowadays referrals seem to be the only way to get jobs. Thankfully I am good at my job and didn’t have to change companies in a while.

The wealth accumulation mentality came through repaying my student loans. I didn’t qualify for any scholarships so had to pay the full student loan principal along with the interest. I hate debt (except for Mortgage) so I quickly paid it off. Being debt free allows me to sleep better at night.

Frankly, everything I’ve done has been solo in the last three years – vacations, investments and my education. I have high respect for independent people because they will definitely not be influenced by anyone else and will make smart decision by increasing their knowledge over time.

Own Your Time

Financial independence and owning my time is the greatest motivator. Blog helps me pour my thoughts into written form that could helps readers. I still have my day job and can’t wait to make the blog a viable career alternative and own my time.

Personally, I invest a lot and diversify it within many asset classes. At the end of the month, when I look at my passive income sources actively contributing 20% to my networth, I get a high. The whole of 2020, my passive income sources have been great and always have contributed atleast 20%. One of the months I had 51% which made me think, if only the passive income remained similar, I’d start owning my time.

Financial independence and owning my own time is the noble reason to pursue wealth.

Constantly Invest and Full-Time Blog in RE

You need to have a clear vision about how you intend to spend free time once you hit your target. Your wealth needs a purpose. You need to know yourself better before retiring and know exactly what you want to do with your time. Otherwise, Early Retirement could end bad.

In my case, I’m fortunate to have found two hobbies that I thoroughly enjoy. It’s not that I don’t like my day job but it is more fulfilling to work on my own product rather than making another company rich through my efforts. I already excel at investing with a high win ratio (well aware it could change any day) and now trying to help everyone with my knowledge on this blog.

On the investing side, I’m trying to build a cash cow to have constant passive income to allocate and reinvest. The first step is to get passive income cover all my expenses and then slowly increase over time. This will make retiring early a reality!

At the time of writing this article, my blog gets no hits (one week baby!) apart from bot hits. I am ready to produce at least 500 quality content before the blog turns 1 and then evaluate the performance of the blog. It’s a form of giving back (knowledge). Hopefully the blog is useful at least to some people in a year.

Make Life Easy For Kids

The world is running at a break neck pace with increased competition. Legacy and ensuring financial security for your family can be achieved by chasing wealth.

Your kids could inherit all the wealth and not have to start from zero if you don’t waste money on things you don’t enjoy, just to keep up with friends or colleagues. You have the opportunity to leave behind a legacy for your family.

Money Matters

People like to use the cliched sentence that’s often repeated “money doesn’t buy happiness”, but an old study showed that earning more money does increase happiness — to an extent, before leveling off after around $75,000 per year. The diminishing returns effect of money plays its part beyond that. But anyone pursuing fire would need to accumulate wealth faster in their formative years so they could do what they like in their latter years of FIRE life

Money matters! If you like it or not, we live in a world where everything is based on how much money in your wallet. Money is not everything but it definitely is something.

Parting Thoughts

If careers in sports and the arts were easy, everyone would do them. A limited number of people generally succeed in making it a viable career path. It takes a special kind of dedication to succeed in either arena. Coming to terms with the fact that I cannot be one of those people is the best thing I did.

It’s not selling out oneself to do what’s best for you financially, even if that means you end up in a career you would have once considered not interesting. You never know, if you pursue your side hustles hard enough, maybe they will eventually become your main hustle.

Owning your own time and being financially independent should be the guiding force. Take the time to appreciate you have the job that you do right now and progress towards a happy life. Chasing wealth is definitely not wrong as long as it helps achieve your goals!

youtube

The post There is nothing wrong in chasing wealth appeared first on Crypto and FIRE.

from WordPress https://ift.tt/3iOLaKt via IFTTT

#IFTTT #WordPress

0 notes