#making her lose control

[carpisuns]

doodle dump for the huntlow fic ever by the illustrious @lollytea

#huntlow #the owl house #toh #Willow park #Hunter toh #yeah I know I already drew there you are Hunter #which I included again here #but like. How could I not #i wasn’t going to but then it felt wrong without it #out of respect I made it tiny so it barely counts<3 #also shoutout to all the scenes I couldn’t fit here like #smug Gilbert and weird plant girl talking to her plants and omg Hand Reveal and dirt fight and scary willow and losing control willow #and what if I’m on the other side of this staff. And we’ve always been whole #and infodump funtimes and unintentionally smooth ‘send me flowers captain’ Hunter #and Darius making fun of him and him struggling to type #uh. there’s probably more. but it’s time to stop #dumps and runs #mine #my art #toh art #toh fic recs

[tolerateit]

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#meg talks #I think swifties love stripping taylor of autonomy sometimes bc every narrative y'all spin about her in light of ttpd/this year is just like #“she was held captive by her abusive dominating ex who didn't allow her to do stuff she wanted to! controlled her music AND personal life” #Y'all know people don't lose their sense of self in a relationship. nobody could have asked her to not make music abt her life #she literally did do that! And recontextualizing those songs due to her personal experiences =/= them being bad to begin with #and this happens every time she's in a new relationship #it's weird how much swifties lowkey WANT her to be miserable and suppressed in a relationship as if it's music fodder or whatever #she's not “finally free!!!” she always has been! People do things differently with different partners lol?

[mudinyourshoes]

the king losing the game of baduk at the beginning of the episode and the Mong Woo saying it happened because he lost focus and then the entire episode being about his slipping control over himself and his court as he gets more and more obsessive about Mong Woo. it's just. perfect. he's up to his neck in it now.

#sejak: charmed deceit #captivating the king #she's also in deep shit because if he loses control of the court someone might make a more serious attempt at either killing or using her #god i hope they team up

[eerna]

The Oleander Sword is so good. literally feeling like kicking my feet and giggling rn. what happened to Tasha Suri in that year between book 1 and book 2

#book 1 was fine. book 2 is so friggin good i can't stop reading. i feel like a sponge taking it all in #bhumika is bhumika but like ten times more herself and i am screaming. malini finally found a proper manipulate girlboss stride. #even PRIYA who was SO BORING in book 1 is making me lose my marbles. like i wont lie when she became an elder i was like ugh nooooooooo #but it was the absolute best decision ever her trying to rise from a maidservant to the second most important person in the country by #totally blowing off the politics and instead being some sort of a forest wizard is AMAZING #and the yEARNING. FINALLY. THE YEARNING IS HERE. i was SO BORED by the romance in book 1 but THIS IS IT. THIS IS WHAT I WANT. #malini trying to balance her controlling tendencies that are needed more than ever with treating priya properly. #no one figuring out why the godly ordained empress is letting that weirdo waltz around traitorously. #the two of them constantly being on edge bc WHAT IF SOMEONE FIGURES IT OUT. OH MY. THAT WOULD BE SUPER BAD. #AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE YAKSA AND THEIR SECOND COMING. BRO. THE WAY I SCREAMED. THIS IS SO COOL. #anyway i am only 40% through i am praying the book stays this slaying bc i am living for this #eernatalk

[things-stronger-than-fear]

can we talk about the katniss/lucy gray parallels (or lack thereof) for a sec?

they're superficially the same, because of the things we talk about all the time: they're both female victors from 12. there are things that come with that culture and background -- the mockingjay, the plants, the songs. those similarities aren't so much between them as people, as individuals -- they're born of coming from the same culture. the most significant thing they share is their resilience; their spirit of resistance and rebellion. their defiance.

but really, all those things they share, only serve to demonstrate just how different they are as individuals (because personality is different from upbringing or values).

we parallel their sarcastic bows, but they're so so different. lucy gray is a performer mockingly curtseying and saying "kiss my ass", where katniss is a hunter who doesn't have time for this society bullcrap.

they both sing the hanging tree, but as i've ranted about, their renditions show how different they are: lucy gray, again, a performer with a spirit unbroken, loud and charming and sassing right to the capitol's face, daring them to defy her, daring them to look away. katniss, again, a hunter, quiet but unyielding, sparking rebellion under the capitol's nose.

they both won their games, but in such different ways. lucy gray charmed the snakes (both literal and in the form of one coriolanus snow), while katniss threw down with weaponry.

lucy gray said look at me, care about me. katniss said fight for me, fight with me.

and so what we see is that they are not at all the same person, but that's what's so important. because it's not just one person or one type of person that puts their foot down and rebels. we don't need a specific kind of Chosen One to light the spark -- anyone can.

#seriously. why am i so invested. #I DON'T EVEN GO HERE #the hunger games #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #lucy gray baird #katniss everdeen #thg meta #anyways i do believe somewhere in the multiverse there's a timeline where lucy gray /does/ spark the rebellion #(in a deeper and more immediate way) #like. look at the way the capitol had to erase her. (and not just because snow was a salty scorned ex.) #there's a universe where she's too popular for the records to really be erased. where she becomes a celebrity and #gains a platform and a network and /access/. where she flexes those snake-charming skills on the capitol. #there's a universe where she sways coryo a little more thoroughly. where she's ripped from him by the capitol #and it radicalizes him. doesn't make him a good person or less of a ruthless player in the game. but one with different goals. #there's a universe where she doesn't have coryo there to cheat for her. in that one she can't hold the snakes off forever. #she dies in the arena. there is no victor and no hope. there is nothing but love for a girl who should've survived. #in this universe the people revolt because the capitol has grown to love her and the districts see nothing to lose. #there's a universe where she survives and gains the respect of all the academy students. children are the future. #this is how the capitol loses control. #there's a universe where lucy gray sticks around in 12 past the music ban. in this universe she'll write quiet songs of rebellion. #she'll run. not out of panem but within it. she will be a singing ghost starting fires throughout a country fractured. #ANYWAYS. I WILL STOP.

[jfkisonthemoon]

they honestly couldve done so much with junpei beheaded/dismembered and im disappointed that it ended up just being mira. so much of his character and his relationship with akane is characterized by his lack of bodily autonomy, and him being openly beheaded during the nonary games would be the ultimate example of this. its perhaps the most brutal death in the game, and it never really gets explained or developed beyond the one puzzle that we get with it. junpei has been shown repeatedly to be subject to akane's plans or follow her blindly and i just think that would have been a really interesting angle to approach his beheading from. junpei has willingly signed up for nonary games in two different timelines just because he knew he would see her. he was infected with a deadly virus trying to find her. he grew desensitized to death as he took underground jobs to try and find her. his safety always comes second when shes in the picture, and his beheading wouldve been a prime opportunity to 1. exploit his willingness to let himself die/be injured for her and 2. make akane confront the fact that her confidence that junpei will always follow after her is not necessarily a positive thing.

#zero escape #additionally wasnt mira supposed to be asleep?? like i know she didnt get the forget juice but didnt she still get knocked out? #but also!! none of her other kills were like that! none of them were dismembered and she didnt touch junpeis chest #so even that reasoning doesnt make sense #kinda feels like a copout to keep the shock of junpei being disrespected in such a way - to have his very body turned into a puzzle #a puzzle that akane is forced to solve!!! without knowing that what shes looking for is his head - him! #theres so much potential there and they just didnt do anything #im not even saying that akane should have somehow been responsible for that death - only that not having her really grapple with it is such #a missed opportunity #i still fucking LOVE the imagery of it though. i really think its the epitome of the representations of his lack of autonomy #he loses all of vlr. quark. 45 years of his life. because akane decides this is best for him. he dies repeatedly trying to find her. #because she believes that she knows what will keep him safe #and turning junpeis body into a puzzle posthumously is a fantastic example of his lack of control over his body #its like hes literally become a doll. hes jumpydoll - not junpei. hes subject to these games even after he has died. #he gets no peace. no respect in his death. not when hes in these games. not when hes in the shadow of akanes whims and games. #i still love the imagery. i think it was one of my favorite parts of ztd and is honestly now a core tenet of my Junpei Understanding #but i was disappointed in the lack of narrative weight that specific death had. for him to be one of the first dead? for it to be in such a #brutal manner? like come ON. the character analysis for junpei and akane and their relationship is RIGHT THERE. all you had to do was put i #in the game #but nope. #they just handwave it as something mira did. #and dont bring up the details ever again because. plot point solved? #anyway. ive been thinking about junpei imagery and bodily autonomy a lot. obviously. #zero escape spoilers #mak no peeking #marydontlookatthis

[significant-ace-nnoyance]

watching the pov shift from us watching percy driving the hermes cab to PERCYS POV OF ANNABETH SMILING AND LOOKING OVER AT HIM ROLLING HER EYES AND MEANWHILE JUST BEHIND HER YOU CAN SEE THE WALL GETTNG CLOSER AND HITTING THE CAR. AND THIS WHOLE TIME PERCY HAS BEEN GRINNING PROUDLY OVER AT HER BEFORE HE REALIZES AND GOES RIGHT BACK TO ANXIOUS 12 YR OLD DRIVING cinema. cinema cinema cinema cinema. CINEMA

#literally seeing percy's pov of annabeth permanently altered my brain chemistry #and the way its cut #you can see that he was smiling over at her #bro fully lost control of the vehicle because he was too proud of making her laugh #im losing my mind #percy jackson #pjo <3 #percy jackon and the olympians #annabeth chase #percabeth #pjo #percy series

[darcyolsson]

revisiting riverdale season 3 episode 4 "the midnight club" post-season 7 is insane because so many of the story elements that are constants in the different incarnations of the main cast (riverdale/50sdale) are also true for the parent characters. and they're portrayed by the same actors. do you understand? fred & hermione dated because archie & veronica did and alice & fp dated because betty & jughead did. in a sense they're just yet another alternate main cast, so even when portraying the parents these characters are still stuck in their own respective narratives because that's what riverdale is about

#riverdale #personal #it goes a lot beyond the ships but those were just the easiest examples to grab lol #like. fred stuggles with choosing between music and sports and cares deeply about his dad #alice's storyline is focused on being in control of her own sexuality + she's the one to discover the murder #hermione's having doubts about unintentionally being involved in hiram's crime/(career) #penelope is suffering at the hands of the blossoms/her abusive parents #sierra (mccoy) is a political activist who is trying to come into her 'voice' and make a career #and tom (keller)'s story is focused on his forbidden romance #and that leaves us with fp whose storyline is more reflective of jugheads s2 storyline except! it's subverted in most ways #because he's jughead and as a narrator he doesn't have to play by the same rules that everyone else does #it's so good i'm losing my mindddd

[wormy-worm]

ok u know what maybe if the world isn't ready for sunrazer post that means that the world IS ready for Amoveous siblings post. This is Milo and Enho and theyre my DARLINGS and i love them SO MUCH. i have. SOOOOOOOO many thoughts abt them but after the previous post massacre i do not really feel like typing all of that xoxo love <3

#THESE DRAWINGS HAVE BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS FOR MONTHS LOL #meart #original character #robot oc #ily enho ily milo my darlings my angels my loves my funny robot guys. #ive posted abt Andromeda on here b4 if u remember her Enho is her best friend !!!!! #Enhos a battle robot who doesnt want 2 fight people.. #hes the oldest sibling and theres a lot resting on their shoulders! #shes supposed to be this big metal protector but U.U she just wants to hide in his room.. and make music for the internet.. #him and andy have this whole arc abt like. autonomy and identity and junk #being as andy is a government experiment who was raised to be a superhero who. has not yet realized that she HATES being a superhero lol #Enho inspires her! #milo um. does his own thing. he was the second amoveous bot and he is lucky to have been built without the responsibility of a battle bot #which means hes a LOT weaker. doesnt have a million weapons and lasers and such like enho does. no one expects much of him. he HATES IT!!!! #he wants to be POWERFUL! he wants to HURT PEOPLE!! he wants to be USEFUL!!! hes ANGRY ALL THE TIME #its EXSAUSTING. #yk that tinkerbell thing thats like. cuz shes so small she can only feel one emotion at once. and its so big it consumes her entirely? #hes that. he lives entirely in extremes. everything is 100% for him #he jumps to conclusions so quick and so violently.. hes incredibly impulsive and it gets him into a lot of trouble. #hes also a total NERD!!! GOOB!!! says mlady unironically. likes bad computer games. wears a stupid tie everyday. cartoonishly schemes 24/7 #enho for the record is also a pretty angry person. they just dont rlly express it. they dont express much of anything lol. #shes semiverbal on a talkative day. he can be REALLY REALLY PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE THO. THAT MF CAN BE SO PETTY. GOOFY ASS #but shes TERRIFIED she'll lose control of her emotions and her body and that shell hurt someone someday. absolutely terrified. #enho is as afraid of his strength as milo is of his weakness. theyre both two ends of the same extremes in a lot of ways. #polar opposites and yet exactly the same. they resent each other a lot. they need to learn to meet each other in the middle. #anyway ''i dont feel like typing all that'' and then i ramble in the tags for ten million years lol ToT I LOVE THESE GUYS #theyre my oldest ocs in this universe and i have so many thoughts if you have any questions feel free to ask me lol

[shutupineedtothink]

So plotwise, Nynaeve couldn’t channel in the finale bc if she did she would outshine Rand right? Like she would have just yeeted Ishmael right over the side of that tower.

Also we were clearly being set up for that Elayne Jesus shot and her healing Rand makes sense for that (no I haven’t read the books yet but I’ve heard things)

Anyway I know ppl are upset about Nyn not channeling and I admit it felt a little weird but I’m 100% sure it’s leading up to an even more epic moment when she does

#I also like the idea that she is absolutely fucked up by what happened with Ryma still #like her losing control over her channeling directly led to Ryma’s death #so it still makes sense to me that she would be extra blocked #we love you Nynaeve! #the wheel of time #wheel of time #wheel of time 2x08 #wheel of time season 2 #wot show spoilers #wot prime spoilers #wot s2 spoilers #wot s2 e8 #Nynaeve #rand al'thor #elayne trakand

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving. #sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno. #i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity. #again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

Today was the last DND session for a three-year campaign and I am big sad :(

One of the players brought whiskey for a last toast, which was very kind of them. I had never had whiskey before. Turns out I do not like whiskey. Unsurprising.

It tastes like slightly nicer hand sanitizer.

#blue chatter #it was a flavored whiskey as well #everyone else who had it said it was rly smooth and sweet #so I don’t think I super wanna know what regular whiskey tastes like #it was supposed to be like vanilla caramel flavored or smth #I was told it was like cream soda and that was a LIE it was like disinfectant #with a vanilla aftertaste #the campaign went rly rly well though #I’m seriously going to miss it #the final boss battle was just pure catharsis we absolutely whaled on that dark abberant goddess #she got Destroyed #an entire section of the continent restructured bc of the removal of her corruption #I rly like that my character got to be disabled at the tail end of this campaign #they wielded experimental magic that wasn’t supposed to work and resurrected someone who the Keeper very intentionally kept dead #it worked because they partially fused with Arawai the goddess of life and became her aspect on earth #but becoming partially divine in a mortal body takes a toll #they had more and more limited mobility and the more they cast magic to compensate the more of a toll it takes #functionally that meant my movement speed was reduced #and I lost more abilities after each combat as the consequences of overextending myself caught up to me #I wish I’d gotten to play this longer to see how this ended mechanically but it was a lot of fun to get a character who is both #very magically competent and still disabled and that still affects their ability and they still get the dignity of risk #to choose whether to continue casting or not knowing the consequences of doing so #it is very much a fantastical disability which I flavored heavily off of chronic fatigue and a mobility disorder #in-game their skin became hard and brassy around their joints which make them difficult and painful to bend #they lose a lot of sensation and fine motor control #thankfully they have a lot of money from their adventuring so they can commission an accessible house and mobility aids #and their friends help take care of them

[fruitsyrups]

What is it about PB that makes me have so many thoughts about her that are so hard to articulate... all the PB analysis I see is about her morality and stuff which is cool (except when people are WRONG. Hah.) but also I wanna see more analysis of her relationships and stuff. Like, to friends to family to her citizens to marcy (marcy is her own category). Because that's the part I like thinking about the most but I can't put those thinks into words so I want someone else to do it for me. It's bedtime-o-clock I might be a little incoherent

#the entire gum family storyline is WILD and im a little bit insane about it I think #kid PB tried to make herself a family and then they betrayed her and then she learned to control people (the candy citizens) and keep #everyone at arms length so she couldnt get hurt again. and those experience informed the way she interacted with other people for literally #hundreds of years!!!!! ahhh!!!!! #and then marcy comes along and bonnie falls in love but the responsiblities of her kingdom just keep piling up #and she pushes marcy away because the love/fulfilment from her kingdom is safe and dependable but loving marcy is scary. she might get hurt #honorable mention to shoko & finn too because I love shoko and post-S6 PB&Finn friendship so dearly #idk im kind of losing steam now. i should sleep #but if ur following me youve probably watched the show so. you know what im gettjng at. PB character development and all that. learning not #to control people so much #and getting better and letting people in #very sweet #i love PB #getting better at***

[daincrediblegg]

hi egg!!!! ive seen the tag a couple times now and im just so curious who is lady terror 👀 an oc? a ship personified? can i peer into your mind for a second (the answer here can also be Who's to say or just NO)

YES! Lady Terror (real name: Genevieve Sinclair) is my sortof self-insert (though she’s gained a bit more of a life of her own now) OC for the Terror. She and Francis as the most disenfranchised from british empirical thought and good society are falling horrifically in love with each other over the course of the expedition in spite of their respective past romantic rejections and dejections and it being the literal Worst Time To Do That. And I tag them when I am… reminded (I’m certain some think I do this too often… but it’s my house). I’m painfully (and soul crushingly at times) trying to get the canon novel for them written (though I have an excerpt of the first chapter in my masterlist in my pinned, should that be of interest), which intends to have the most insane gothic jane austen vibes one could hope for, and I have like 20 au’s for them including a particular western au that is gaining increasing real estate in my brain recently. Loads of content in the “egg’s oc’s” tag if you wanna take a peek (I say mostly bc I’m exclusively on mobile atm bc my computer is in the shop and linking over isn’t very easy😭) and I have some mini fics for them in my masterlist as well!

#thank you for asking about her I have been dying 😭😭😭😭 #GOING ASKLESS ABOUT MY DEAR LADY TERROR I AM PARCHED #she’s so everything tho #and francis has so many fucking issues about her its so funny #like picture this: there is a cute girl on the other ship and WOAH she’s actually on the level #but wait you’re treating your breakup like a divorce and literally if it ever happens again you’ll kys like you can’t take it #and then some terrible shit keeps happening on this voyage that you and she tried to prevent but can no longer control #and her life is in your hands but she’s only one of so many and she’s slipping through your fingers all the time #and you have to shut yourself off from her even though you get along like gunpowder and canonballs bc you can’t do a damn thing about losing #her. but she’s too stubborn for that and she can take care of herself bc she’s spent all her life learning how and THEN SHE ALSO CHOOSES TO #TAKE CARE OF YOU #they make me insane but alas my motivation wanes #but opportunities like this help anyway thank u dear moot

[craycraybluejay]

Bruh I be having literally the worst urges and I feel bad that I don't feel bad at all. Like damn. Guess I'm really like that. Well, anyway.

#i am apathetic to whatever monstrosities lie within my mindscape #or rather i enjoy them and am apathetic to the idea that they are evil #unfortunately the fact that I'm excited ab them makes me rly rly rly want to talk ab them #which would be bad #but if it gets bad enough i think its time i let my therapist in on the next circle of anouther hell #i know she will be kind no matter what i spring on her #but this. i dont know how to feel or what to think about all this #its pathological. i can fix it about as well as i can fix the fact that i adore music or get turned on by fear or am consistently- #-platonically or otherwise pulled to murderers and the like #i know its some psychosexual nonsense-- some fixation rooted in some perverse symbolism that i cant fully grasp #its so difficult to be a BadWrong thoughts and desires person #bc even tho i have like. some level of control and ethicsband whatnot. even tho im not doing the guilt ocd thing. #even though i know im ok the way i am #i also know i cant talk ab it. cant be excited about it. cant vent or happy rant about it. stay quiet. let it eat ya #cause ppl cant accept some things cant like. come to terms with things. again and again #i find myself relating more to 'good people' but being able to talk more openly and honestly with 'bad people' #like im too far from either side to ever be fully myself but i must let it out #and so i find i cant trust the people i love most with some of the most personal things more than i can trust a complete stranger #because at least that stranger has no spare room to judge. and i cant give af about losing a strangers high esteem of me #i share something truly heinous and sure i may be threatened but. disappointment from ppl u love is worse than murderous rage from strangers #which came first- the fixation or the corruption? i think it was the fixation #i was like that before. whatever false indulgences i have given myself will always sate the beast and not create it #i am not a bad person. but i will always have a monster inside me. a balancing act between #being a somewhat polite functioning member of society and completely losing myself to the dark #i dont hate myself. i wish i did sometimes so i wouldnt have the urge to vomit it all out #i wish i hated myself and felt such guilt over all that so i could be happy with being quiet. i wish it was only good that excited me proper #or rather i wish i knew someone like me in the right ways. irl. no phones no danger. who i could share with excitedly and not feel like ill #be told that im a freak who deserves to die. someone who will share equally horrific things with me and will keep me in check #i want talk therapy but with someone that has something SO wrong with them. a friendship that is nasty and fun and grossly honest #someone to say 'i know what ur talking ab/how u feel' when i say something pitch dark

[balis77]

Shout out to Ultimate Spider Man for having one of the coolest fucking ideas ever (Gwen Stacy coming back to life as the new Carnage) and proceeding to do absolutely fucking nothing with it before they were like "oh Venom ate the Carnage part of her so she's normal now".

#like granted they unfridged her but like #that was such a cool fucking concept #especially with the whole duality thing of her losing control of carnage under stress #and the potential for interesting plotlines just based on that alone #and instead they just decided they couldn't let her be fucked up and just reset her back to normal #like bro you panned gold and you tossed it back in the river after leaving it in the bucket for two weeks #ultimate spider man #gwen stacy #carnage #Spider Gwen is cool and all but can someone use this instead to take Gwens character in a new direction for once? #as much as I like Spider Gwen you don't have to do it for every adaptation of gwen stacy especially when you could do stuff like this #you can even keep her death being an emotional impact this way #and instead of leaving her in the fridge you can actually make it evolve her character into something cool and new #instead of just using it to make peter suffer