#maybe it’s also related to my adhd? idk

[snimeat]

Wait. Sorry, but I read your tags and you have dyscalculia? I didn't even think it has a name, I thought it was part of the dyslexia chain of disorders... Which it is! But I didn't know it had a name! I can't believe someone has the same type of inconvenient bullshit as me! Tho, I'm guessing mine is much lighter, since I'm actually pretty good at math. With a lot of checking and people triple checking for me, and struggling with a line of an equation for like an hour before I can comprehend how simple it is in reality. Same with letters tho. The brain sometimes not comprehending what is visually presented and convincing itself it is wrong, when in fact it isn't. Words appearing out of nowhere in the middle of sentences when writing. Or words changing shapes and meanings as you read them, so you have to re-read a few times until your brain understands it. Fun times, sorry, I got into it.

I can't differentiate between 7 and 9 what's the quirk you got from it? XD I know it ain't funny, but I got excited! I mean, if this makes you uncomfortable to talk about, absolutely ignore this please ☀️

oh don’t worry, it’s part of the tumblrcore experience to read tags lmao.

but i do actually, i was also diagnosed quite late i was fourteen at the time. and boy, the struggles i had with it was huge and still is. i didn’t know it was in the same chain as dyslexia but thinking of it now, makes a lot of sense. nice to know a fellow dyscalculic too, i’ve never met anyone either. i don’t think i can define mine as lighter since it was one of the main source of anxiety for me growing up lmao. i just god, i suffered with the bare minimum when it comes to math. even the simplest of problems is difficult for me. i have trouble helping my almost 10 year old sister with her math stuff, to give you an example. i just run from it in any given circumstance. i think i do also double, triple check any calculations i do. i even take a step further and do it at least five times to make sure and my mind sometimes still goes “are you actually sure it’s correct?” and proceeds to count at least two or three more times to be sure, even when i have a calculator with me. my main struggle is forgetting the numbers i’m seeing, exchanging them, i have trouble telling the difference between thousands and millions and whatever else gets too may zeros or too many numbers, basically anything after 900 gets hard for me. it also affects my left and right, cannot get it right for the life of me. reading old clocks takes a few minutes lmao. but truly exchanging things was one of the main issues for me, and i wouldn’t even realise it. it was like my brain couldn’t see the mistake unless someone helped me get there. hm, what else?

< > these two symbols? trust me, i still don’t remember them to this day, i would have to use a visual written explanation to remember which one was which and i still would take a bit of time to get there because it’s just confusing to me. i never had trouble with letters necessarily, i don’t remember rn anyway. those math problems that required you to get an answer after seeing something like “matt has two apples and karen has whatever blah blah blah” i just couldn’t do it. geometric math was my deathbed. pythagora’s theorems HOLY FUCKING HELL my most hated back then. my brain would shut down and not work at all. the multiplication table thing? i swear to god unless it’s two or five (counting on my fingers btw) i can’t do it. it’s like i see math and i think i get it but i don’t, not really. it makes no sense in my brain, i can’t seem to grasp it fully. and it’s so frustrating. i could complain about my brain’s lack of understanding for a lifetime, okay?! 🤣

#maybe it’s also related to my adhd? idk #i read somewhere that the possibility of having one and the other is quite high but im not sure #i truly feel so much anxiety when i have to deal with numbers #i used to work in two places where i had to deal with cash. i used to play it off laughing and saying iit can’t count just to take some weig #weight of my shoulders if i made any mistake #which i did often #repeatedly because i just overlooked them #sometimes iI just don’t see the numbers and i skip something #but i guess that’s also my adhd brain being inattentive lmao #who knows where one begins and the other ends at this point #ra☀️ #youdontloveme-yet #gei’s nonsense answers #dyscalculia

[heffrondriving]

soooo. that new big time rush album huh

#how we feeling today rushers (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #also yes i've come back from the dead just to post abt this like. i owe this blog *this much* at least ykyk #anyway its like 3 in the morning here and ive just woken up after a vv long and exhausting day yesterday so this was a pleasant surprise :> #i haven't really listened to it in full yet bc idk adhd things but when the mood hits right y'all know i'll be VIBING #i never talked abt it but waves and can't get enough were great earworms so i'm excited to see how the rest of the songs will turn out #also hope everyone's doing well here on the btr side of tumblr hehe y'all been absolutely fed this year <3 #is this gonna be allen's 2k23 tumblr comeback??? nah prob not i'm too in love with the fooo conspiracy atm but hey maybe also who knows 👀 #(*heckler from the back of the audience* NO ONE CARES ABOUT U AND UR TRASH CONTENT IDIOT STFU FOREVER ACTUALLY!!!!!) #but yep. life has been fuck work has been a headache and so many unwanted tragic plot twists this year. but at least we got new btr lezzgo! #also happy pride month y'all!!! just saying this for absolutely no rhyme or reason related to this post at all wdym lmao ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯ #okay thats all promise i'll shush now and it's time for old grampa to disappear into the darkest recesses of the internet yet again hejdååå #btr #big time rush #another life #album #stop it forever #lmao i hardly remember my dumbass blog tags;;; it's for the best hdbfkgk

[katierosefun]

can’t tell if i genuinely want to write a slice-of-life modern tcw au or if it’s just nostalgia talking . . . 

#caroline talks #it has been. so long since i've written anything star wars related #but i also want to write a modern au of them #but also it would be like. nothing but vibes. #like think my liberation notes + 2521 vibes #3 siblings that are living together and each of them having their own stupid conflicts #ahsoka being a high school student who's learning a thing or two about herself #anakin being in his twenties and just starting his new job and wanting to kill someone at all hours #because somehow he went from being the gifted kid with the adhd to suddenly his stupid boss is chucking papers at his face #obi-wan being in his thirties and just like. being obi-wan. #something distressing always happens to obi-wan in his thirties idk i need to think on him some more #maybe it's also because i've been watching be melodramatic lately #the vibe of the story would be like 'no matter how old you are! you're gonna go through it' #like different levels of going through it #title would be something like 'let's hurry up and turn forty' or something #based off that one line from my mister that's just like 'i can't wait to turn 40 i bet my life will be easier when i turn 40'

[doomstonee]

I’ve noticed that a lot of the Skylanders are neurodivergent coded, more specifically Smash Hit.

Smash Hit’s main interest and the thing he loves talking about most is destroying things, he made it his literal job before becoming a Skylander. In his quest dialogue he’s usually very loud with little tone control and can get very quiet at times, he’s highly expressive and hyperactive. He also doesn’t like rutabagas which is probably texture sensitivity.

other than “he’s just like me fr” I do think that the Superchargers themselves are neurodivergent coded, and looking at their quest dialogues and other media of them does show it a lot.

#skylanders #no seriously smash hit is just like me fr #I rant about pointless shit because I want characters that I looked up to as a child or relate to to be adhd/autism representation #smash hit #skylanders smash hit #skylanders superchargers racing #skylanders superchargers #Thrillipede dive clops nightfall spitfire are autism coded #smash hit stormblade high volt fiesta and splat are adhd coded #its the neurodivergency #idk why I was scared to write this maybe it’s because people don’t want their childhood to be ruined #it’s not like skylanders was also my childhood #they just like me fr #Astroblast has both adhd and autism

[jankwritten]

hm.

#maybe it's time i put some actualy thought into the possibility that i'm autistic #because the more i read about it #the more it becomes very clear that every facet of my mental disorders could. very easily stem from autism in some way shape or form #my anxiety #my social anxiety specifically #my thing about specific noises and foods as sensory related issues #the way that burnout affects me and also the way that I can't verbalise how things are specifically in my brain #a lot of my other attributes like my gender/sexuality also align with more autistic behaviors but that's obviously not a telltale sign #aroace nonbinary people are not all automatically autistic #i always go in circles with myself about this because my brother has an autism diagnosis #or at least he has been tested and been given a 'very likely' kind of answer #but my mom has ADHD #(her dad and her brother are also suspected to be on the spectrum but they've never been tested) #but every time I bring up the possibility of me being autistic with ANYONE outside of my friends it immediatley gets shut down #idk how to feel about it anymore #but me being autistic would explain so much? but also i don't want people to just think that i'm using that label because it's #like 'hip' nowadays or whatever the fuck in online spaces for people to self diagnose autism and shit like that #i'm just really tired of fighting with myself 24/7 about this #so. #it's a label i want to be able to use because it makes SENSE and it explains so much about me? #but i don't know for sure and i don't know if i ever will #tonight's one of those nights man #i am once again oversharing on the internet #the depths of the blog #not pjo #not omgcp #not fandom

[kenobster]

theres a pattern every time I try to use Tumblr... no matter how many times I have left/come back, how differently I try to do things, no matter how much fun I've been having, etc... The first several months are great, honeymoon phase, amazing. Then around this time frame, something upsetting happens (maybe this time, it was being stuck with a kidney stone and languishing around in bed for 2 weeks, idk) and this site starts negatively affecting my mental health ... to the point where I'm stuck in this self-pitying feedback look where everything suddenly feels bleak, bitter, insincere, and super lonely (for literally no reason as far as I can tell).

I don't understand why, and it's extremely frustrating because I have been (and am!) enjoying myself otherwise. :(

Does anyone else get like this? Or have thoughts? I'm gonna talk to my therapist, but historically this has remained an unsolved subject and so anything might be useful to me at this point T.T

#personal #like sorry super personal #also thank you for the asks - i am working on those but got sick again last night #so i had to pass out #edit: i thought abt what changed since i first joined #and it seems like i became a lot more social #using discord more for example #got several ppl im messaginf #and consider a few of them friends!!!! at least on my end #and i think that makes me feel more entrenched in this website than i was when i started #which might be the problem #but #my goal when i made this blog was literally 'find ppl who like talking abt obiwan and befriend them bc u dont have anyone like that irl' #so if that was my Happy Person goal #and i achieved my Happy Person goal #then why am i sad????? >.> #like wtf is this i dont get it :/ #tho its starting to make me wonder if that adhd/auti post abt feeling BAD when good things happen #maybe relates more to me than i think idk....

[arrowlock]

at what point does it stop being adhd + social anxiety + fear of change + sensory issues

and instead it starts being autism

#genuine question #bc i have a lot of the above and i also relate to some of the symptoms of autism and also my autistic friends keep telling me im autistic #which sounds like a big sign to me lol #and also ive been obsessively researching autism (and adhd) for the last four(?) years but maybe thats a hyperfixation?? from adhd?? #theres so many overlapping symptoms ToT #also typing this all out it seems very obvious that its autism but also what if its not #last session w my therapist i was talking about autism and she was nodding in a way that made it seem like she might agree that im autistic? #but also i cant read social cues #which again. autism #BUT #i can tell when ppl are annoyed w me or want me to stop talking #and also i can tell when ppl are upset/something's off but most of the time i can't tell exactly how theyre upset or why #like someone being creepy but i dont Realize it until my friends point it out yknow #idk if this makes sense #nothing i say makes sense to me

[mental-skillness]

this just in: is it bpd or adhd?

#like #low frustration tolerance is a symptom of adhd #difficulty regulating emotions and restlessness are too #so maybe im not bpd #maybe what i think is feeling empty is just feeling depressed and restless #and identity issues r supposed to be really common for young adults #my therapist said it's not unusual to feel like u dont know who u are anymore #and i bet my “splitting” could also be adhd related somehow #or depression related #or just anxiety #ughh idk #adhd #bpd

[livinwa]

I have recently learned that I don't have an original experience, under the guise that each day I prove to be more and more nerodivergent as time passes by and the question of "am i really? Maybe I'm just attention seeking" just sort if becomes a denial rather than a question.

Here's a bunch of things I think are signs and or could be debunked but I need opinions ti be able to figure myself out and stuff, so maybe enjoy the drama and stuff???

1. I thought I was able to look people in the eyes, no I'm not, not unless I'm comfortable with that person and/or the situation is like really awkward then I actually physically can't look at them in the FACE.

2. My jacket. The thing my avatar has, its my comfort item. One night I couldn't stop crying and had the thought "put the jacket on" and I did and I ended up being able to finally calm down and breath despite the tears not stopping. I felt safe.

3. Headphones. Once more another comfort item. I dont like leaving anywhere without them. Their as much as a trademark as my jacket and blue jeans.

4. Speaking of blue jeans (this could also be a self esteem thing I dont have a high ar on that) I don't like wearing certain clothes outside nor do I like wearing certain clothes to sleep or in my bed. My preferred fashion senses have always pertained to what I loved to wear and feel on my skin (let it be known I had a navy blue jacket at all times like this one sort of that I outgrew in middle school and a different jacket that held my special interest on it)

5. Speaking of special interests, TRANSFORMERS. that shit took over my life so fast you'd think that I was driving a nasa car with the way I dove headfirst into making that bitch an extraterrestrial. And while of course I grew out of things transformers is ALWAYS THERE and NEVER GOING AWAY no matter how much I dont talk about it with other people (that's what this blog is for)

6. Sensory shit. I dont care what something smells like I am going to get a whiff. Smells bad? Okay let me make sure. Smells good? I'm following it like a cartoon character ti a white steam trail. The only time I dont like a smell is when its so strong it literally makes me gag. I like smells but don't mix and match and crank it to eleven (also sugar cookies and cigarettes dont mix at all) this also goes for biting. I bite. So much.

7. Sensory OVERLOADS. I HAVE HAD TBOSE BEFORE APPARENTLY. Though absolutely they are rare. Is there a spectrum to how people deal with sensory overloads? I don't know and thats why I'm asking questions. I would be doing the dishes and the waters running the forks are clanging and the kids are screaming and the one little guy that I hate (sibling) is repeating the same phrase over and over in the most annoying way possible and I just can't take it anymore so I shut myself down to forcefully finish this task because I know what's going to happen if I don't and eventually in a groggy something something morning voice I tell him to shut the fuck up and it helps. If he listens.

8. For as long as I've known, I love food. And I have recently known, food equals a pattern in household. Not only food but the day has a type of pattern as well, and it directly connects to the type of food too. In simple terms so I don't spill guts along with blood, to little, irritable, find other ways to find needed things, a lot, the days okay and conversations light.

9. I have come to the epiphany that eggs are my comfort food. It doesn't matter how their made most of the time I will eat eggs in nearly any form I have LITERALLY had a daily/weekly limit to how many eggs i make a day forced onto me because eggs are too expensive.

10. I cant remember shit but most importantly I cant remember where I put items sometimes almost immedietly after I either set it down or look at something that has relative importance. I have forgotten I put my pencil in my backpack literal seconds after I put it in there, and mutual can attest to my lack of remembering exactly what I said unless it had great importance or funny capacity.

11. I have been stimming for as long as I have known and before I knew what stimming even was. Flappy hands and unusual sounds. I liked the sound of a whistle so much I ended up creating my own verbal stim that I used to this day. (Learned how to whistle a year later)

12. Masking. From what I was exposed to and understand its basically the ability to put on a mask and different facade for the general public compared to what was within, until 6th grade I actually barely had freinds (was really nice, had no/2 enemies in my life(very weird one was a literal frenemy)) and often was just walking around until I played games with others because those had rules and didn't involve too much small talk and I was happy to play in those games. But that was it. Then in 6th grade I gained the facade of happy and chill guy that never really got sad, the works.

This is not all but enjoy the blood sweat and tears of this... whole thing. I'm confused im tired and I'm simply trying to figure things out.

#nerudivergent #nerudivergancy #adhd #maybe #probably may delete later #autism too? #theres a lot of things #maladaptiveness maybe but that isnt the focus of this thing #idk man #theres a lot of personal stuff im not putting in here for personal reasons but i may make stuff on it later #theres also the specific things that can happen in specific conditions that arent trauma related that is actually pretty funny #like sleep patterns. #sleep in class and only in freinds cars comfortably outside of my bed #lwd to some funny things

[redysetdare]

ppl gotta make up their mind on what counts as lying because for so long i was told i was lying because i wasn't detailed enough. ppl didn't believe me because there wasn't enough detailed given - there wasn't enough explanation. So I started over-explaining. I tell them exactly what and why and how but then THAT'S considered lying. It's seen as overcompensating - setting up a narrative.

idk it's so frustrating because i have no way to make ppl believe me. everything i do and say is wrong. It doesn't help that I struggle to trust myself as is so part of me is in constant war with itself over if I'm just lying to myself over the smallest of things.

#text #adhd #maybe adhd related idk #i feel like it's neurodivergent #also related to disability and my own health as ppl often think im lying about being sick or something #and i struggle so much to just allow myself to be sick and rest and take care of myself #im in constant need of others to tell me i am sick and should call in because i feel like i cant trust my own judgement #it fucking sucks #so eveyone around me acting like im a liar all the time for seemingly no reason doesnt make this any easier on me #i just want to be believed #i want to trust myself

[iwantabatlleaxe]

The WAY I teared up when my ex called me my pet name just now. We're good friends still but damn. Just. Ouch. I know it's me who broke up and all but damn the feelings man

#legit crying rn #. #listen. im upset bc i do love him so much but he's irresponsible. and gets angry easily. #he got into a fight over nothing today and i just dont want someone like that this close to me. but damn the feelings #LIKE HE PUNCHED A MAN AT THE SUBWAY. Life isnt about u and you dont get to explode on random ppl even if they are dicks to you ig?? idk #either way. i miss the good memories. i still wanna explore the world and not build a life with him... or idk maybe we could keep things #more casual? maybe an open relationship? NO BITCH WTF I WOULD BE PLAYING W HIS FEELINGS AT THIS POINT #UGH im gonna call my mom #also he has adhd #which I know impacts impulse and a bunch of other stuff and could be related to his hot headed behaviour but still. UUUUGH #stopped crying as i was writing this btw #vent #break up #YOU KNOW WHAT. READING THE TAGS AGAIN SCREAMS RED FLAG EVEN THOUGH HE IS SO CARING WTF AM I THINKING LMAO #.... sad lmao actually

[chamomillytee]

Shout out to my parents for both giving me hoarding tendencies and the inability to value things. Cleaning my room gives me severe anxiety but my phone breaking is no big deal

#why cant you just clean your room #idk maybe you threatened to take it away every other week #keeping my room messy = parents cant take it away = which now equals hoarding tendencies #it could also be related to potential ADHD and depression which. okay.

[dissociacrip]

idk how common of an experience this is but another shoutout i wanna give is to other people with congenital conditions that either went undiagnosed and untreated, or your parents or caregivers didn't tell you about a diagnosis or get you any treatment, and maybe you even grew up thinking you were perfectly able-bodied while very much not having the same level of physical functioning as your peers. especially if your parents, caregivers, or other people in your life blamed your inability to function "properly" on poor diet, lack of exercise, or other choices that wouldn't have made a difference (which is especially fucked in the case that they're, in fact, aware something is "wrong" and either don't really bother to understand what that means or are in denial about it.) it sucks so much to go through and it sucks so much to think about.

edit: i'm saying this as a late-dx'd autistic person who was also dx'd with adhd at a young age but i also wasn't informed until way way later than i should have - while some of you can relate for obvious reasons, this post is not about autism, adhd, etc. it is only meant to be about congenital physical conditions, which is why "able-bodied" is used in the post. i spent 22 years not knowing my muscles didn't work correctly and autism/adhd/etc. just isn't along those same lines (which doesn't mean "better" or "worse," it's just not the same), especially in the case of congenital conditions that are progressive or terminal (in that case it's inarguably worse.) undx'd and late dx'd people with autism/adhd/etc. get plenty of recognition on social media in disabled spaces as it is but the same can't be said about undx'd and late dx'd people with congenital physical conditions (aside from, like, hEDS). sorry.

#cripple punk #cpunk #chronic illness #physical disability #actually disabled #j #body log

[bulbabutt]

if i can be corny for a second i wanna talk about the greatest strengths of the 2003 tmnt series and why it speaks to me (esp as a queer person)

so i might have alluded to this before, but let me say it outright: each show is definitely a product of its time, and the ideals of whatever generation its from. whether talking about the humour, the story, the dialogue etc, its always important to remember that these shows will always come off in a way due to the generation theyre from. and thats not a bad thing! it just means its important to think about them from that perspective.

2003 is a show of my generation growing up, and a thing about that era that maybe some people younger than me wont understand is there is so much more language commonly available to describe yourself now than there was then. you can take this in any context; mental health, sexuality, gender identity, or even just the ability to describe your relationships with more (idk if this will be the right word) therapist language.

in 03 we have a family unit of splinter and his sons, each with their own strengths and weaknesses. we have a splinter who hasnt opened up to his sons about the trauma hes experienced, but not in a way of shutting them out, simply because it isnt their responsibility to know as they are teenagers. he tells them of the mutagen that created them, but not of his past with his master yoshi, who he calls father when by himself, but never around his sons which is just an interesting concept to think about.

(i do not intent this next sentence as ragging on the two shows after this when i say it, simply from a character standpoint) this is the splinter who completely doesnt make his problems his sons problems, but he also is very willing to tell them the truth when he knows they're ready. this is is the most idyllic version of splitner out of all of them, even when comparing to his mirage counterpart (who hes the most based on) due to that splinter raising them to be ninja specifically to make them fight shredder. this one is just their father who loves them and wants to keep them safe the best way he can, and he was never a human in the first place to even know how to be that. so this whole family dynamic starts with him, and the way he raised his sons reflects his parenting.

so, the setting and year this show is made is 2003. something very relatable here is how there isnt a lot of language for the personality quirks of the turtles. there's so much evidence here for mikey having adhd, his brothers will say things like "why doesnt mikey have to help?" and the answer is "well, he'd be bored. and whats worse, mikey not helping or mikey being bored?" its this beautiful moment of, "hey, we know its not fair, but thats how mikey is, and its better for everyone if we just respect that thats how he is" mikey cant keep his hands off stuff, they know this they dont yell at him for behaving that way, they just stop him. this coding feels the most specific, but like i said. its 2003. we dont have the words to describe what this is yet, and if we do its not common knowledge.

another example is in the classic episode where raphael meets casey jones. raphael is sparring with mikey, and he lashes out and nearly kills mikey. everyone reacts to this by getting him to stop, and no one is more upset than raphael himself. they all tell him to go get some air, which he does. theres no moment of any of them screaming at him for losing his temper, its very clear that they all know he's going to do that himself. and he does go get some air. they all know thats what he needs. he goes and meets casey jones, another hot head, and raph has to help coach this hot head on his anger. when he comes back at the end of the episode after having let out that aggression, he apologizes and no one is upset with him. there's a very clear understanding among his family that he cannot help it, but the best thing they can do is give him his space when he needs it. watching this from a 2023 perspective (20 years later) im sure we could analyze this as a few things going on with raph, my mind comes to autism but at the end of the day it doesnt matter why he behaves like this, the point is that he does and the best thing his family does is just...help him. which they do. and they never hold it against him.

when leo is going through his ptsd arc hes at his closest to raph as a character, the show draws a lot of parallels (like having him go let out some aggression with casey) and we get to see the dynamic in reverse. in "i, monster" (the rat king episode) leo is losing it, taking on rat king alone and not wanting to let up. raphael is actively holding his brothers back when they say "we shouldnt leave him to fight alone", raphael says "if leo gets in trouble i'm the first one in there, but right now it looks like leo's got more than one monster to work out of his system" raph doesn't exactly know what leos going through, but he recognizes it. he knows he needs to fight alone, so raph lets him. its only when the building collapses and leo is no longer in a safe position that he says "leo lets go", which leo wordlessly agrees with and actually listens.

this is what i think is the best part of these guys, the unconditional understanding they have for the way they are. we still have our "raphs a big hot head" "mikeys annoying" jokes, but they feel like genuine good natured sibling ribbing because they know each other on that level.

and to go back to the fact that this show is set in 2003, there's something so specific about the way mikey constantly makes references to liking women's clothing, to being fine with feminine language, and to being open about being the pretty turtle who "has that effect on minds of men" speaks to me as a queer person. this could easily be intended as homophobic jokes and probably is, because again.... its the mid 2000s, thats very much what media was like, thats what the jokes were. especially with the girly screams mikey does being one of the first jokes of this nature.

but theres something that happens in season 4, where an alien is attacking mikey, and donnie rushes in and says "hey, thats my sibling" that sticks out. and it happens again in fast forward. when talking to the dark turtles leo says "you and your brothers" "me and my siblings"

because of the way this family unit just understands each other without ever having a conversation about things, it feels like its not a joke. theres some kind of affirmation happening here. even if it seems like i could be reading into it too much, its specific! and it keeps happening!

and by the end of the show, when mikey says he wants to be maid of honour, even if that line in the media itself was intended to be a joke, no one in their family treats it like one. of course mikey is the maid of honour, he asked to be one! the only real offence taken is when april says bride's maid, to which he is offended because hes so much more important than that!

so from a story standpoint, this show doesnt have the intricate complexities and butting heads of latter iterations, there isnt much relationship growth to be had (in fact once we get to around season 5 the flanderization of the characters kind of begins and it loses some of the more complexities) but thats because its just not the focus of the story! the story is more about what they go through together, and thats fine! thats what our shows kind of were at the time. not saying there isnt any relationship growth, but its very much not the focus because these turtles? they already understand each other in a healthy way.

so to me, these guys are kind of the most wholesome family unit

#tmnt #tmnt 03 #tmnt 2k3 #tmnt 2003 #2003 tmnt #can you tell im in my late 20s #lmao #this is why i did the silly st thing #cuz its relatable #thoughts

[unoriginal-and-dumb]

INTRO POST.

Hi, im UNO

I have a lot of names you can call me any version of my username. I’m an adult artist, I’ve been drawing seriously for (checks my awesome lightning McQueen watch) 5 years and animating for about 3! I’m primarily self taught, but am currently taking some college classes. I really like cartoons, games, and anything to do with space or cosmic horror

Please don’t tag my posts as ship art unless I specify it as such

I made that infected design!! Came all the way from my head to My math homework paper. Anywhere else you see a similar design is likely inspired from mine (which is fine, it’s only kinda weird when people start crediting someone else errr…. Don’t like that)

You don’t have to read all this, it’s just some stuff about me ⬇️

I do a lot of things other than regretevator, but since it’s my current hyperfixation it kinda just takes over everything

I have special interests in dead space, alien, the thing, nine inch nails, and pizza tower. I always fall back on those with the same love as usual so don’t be surprised seeing anything like/relating/or just of those

I am diagnosed ADHD, autism too I’m very very very INCREDIBLY INSANELY quiet and awkward with 1 on 1 conversations when I don’t know the person personally, sorry guys I may as well be a brick wall though. I am also generally a very private person

I don’t normally give two fucks about sharing sexuality but I feel it does explain things. I am VERY aromantic and UNBELIEVABLY asexual. Extremely sex repulsed, and I wouldn’t say romance *repulsed* but I am maybe just one step below it. It can get pretty bad and sometimes just ruins my day unfortunately. That’s why I ask people to please never tag my posts as ship art unless I do so!!

^ I am very nitpicky with it, but I do like certain ships to a degree! I enjoy Split and Bive, The Noise and Noisette, and a few others.

My page is welcoming to everyone, except for typical Dni criteria, no proshippers no hate none of that. I just wanna post my art and idk be annoying online 😄

I have never once in my god damn life made an intro post and I have never once wanted to either. HOWEVER, a lot of people have been mixing me up with like 2 other people and I don’t like that and neither do they believe it or not.

I’m hoping that introducing myself at all will help perhaps end that!

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I played D&D yesterday at a board game store and I am still a bit shook from it. This isn't a D&D horror story but there's a few things I need to vent about.

- the DM who we did not know handed us character sheets. Apparently this had been agreed with the guy from my group who was arranging everything but he forgot to tell everyone?

- I never related more to a drag queen who gets the role on a ruchallenge they hate. I was forced to play a low charisma wizard whose whole thing was being religious. I did rly good and moved the plot along despite this horrible character, I killed it.

- Anyway straight men are animals they immediately go "IM ROGUE" "IM BARBARIAN". They don't even read the character description or backstory. Or ask me and the other girl in the group if we wanted to read the roles first??

- nobody was doing character voice 🫠 "he says x" "he asks why"-- I interrupted the other players to speak like the characters and they were just stuborn. Especially the straight men they barely used dialogue they only wanted to fight?

- one of the things I HATED the most was that I got a crystal (important plot device) and one of the straights says a) he wants to break it. I start *discussing* with the group that I don't think that's a good choice. B) suddenly the guy says "I take the crystal from her and save it on my things."

????

- me and the group and still discussing what to do with the crystal but the guy decides he takes it and doesn't need to roll or interact/ask me. He then triggers a boss to appear who wants the crystal.

- Before we can discuss as a group why we should give him the crystal the same guy throws the crustal at the guy??

- The DM who had obviously put some effort into describing the boss and voice for the boss just goes ok. I guess he leaves with the crystal then.

- the same guy says he wants to fight the boss. Not for the crystal. Just because he wants ti fight.

- I see the horror flash on the DMs eyes. This is obviously a very high level boss to fight later in the campaign. He even goes "are you sure..?" I save it by saying no obviously not. We already lost the crystal let's not get killed too. Dm says "good choice".

- playing in a boardgame store is horrible. There's so much noise. I have adhd and oh my god. Also dm said something rly serious to my character and I couldn't understand him and didn't wanna ask him to repeat himself bc he did character voice and it was a tense moment.

- straight men's characters kept trying to "go investigate on their own". Boy we just started the campaign??? Maybe idk we should stick together. One of them kept "I go way ahead of them" or "I go way in the back". Which triggered events without us being there yet. At some point the DM ignored the guy and just spoke like he was there with us too.

- I was the only one (aside from dm) actually roleplaying and doing voices.

- one of the guys was mad the dm didn't let him use his own figure on the map even though it was three times the size of the figures the dm had for us.

- I am 100% sure the men were angry I was the hero of the battle we had. (It was bush like creatures and I used burning hands... They were all upset at the dm when the attacks they used barely did anything. And I mean actually arguing.

Anyway I just to take this out of my chest. They also kept asking for feedback/compliments on WhatsApp and I was nice and said I rly liked meeting with them and the dm was way better than I had imaged. And the guy that stole my crystal without asking and almost ruined the game an off comment about me being "uncomfortable" because I didn't join them for dinner after (worded like an accusation)? 🫠 And didn't even say anything about me carrying the game and helping him with his fuck ups. But ok.

#txt #DnD #had to get it out. #i want to play with queer people sigh