#midterm ramblings

[tawaifeddiediaz]

something about the diaz home as a symbol of everything sacred to eddie.

something about the diaz home representing eddie's privacy and his life and by extension, christopher's, and that it's a constant, recurring motif of a life that he's built with his son. and it's always interesting to see that his home is always warm (in terms of lighting, color combos, etc etc) and welcoming, which feels so vastly different to the other two homes we've seen for him in eddie begins

something about the way he has to physically open the door to let people in to his life, and how many shots of that we've had of just him opening the damned door since. something about the way he physically lets shannon in in 2x07, or the way he braces himself with chris' encouragement before opening the door to ana in 4x08, or the way he happily lets carla in in 4x13 or the way he softens and smiles when he opens the door to buck in 6x12. it's in the way the only people we've really seen in eddie's home as "not guests" are the ones that he chooses to let in.

in that same vein, we can always tell when there's someone in there that doesn't quite belong. 5x11 is a prime example of this, and not just because of the episode title, "outside looking in." it's evidently obvious that the only reason taylor's in his house is for buck's sake, and maybe that's why we never see eddie actually letting them in. 5x03 is similar to that, in the sense that ana stays for three days with chris at the diaz home, but when eddie comes back, it's a metaphorical and physical mess that he's left standing in the middle of, alone.

and it's very, very interesting that we've never seen his parents in his house. ever. and yes, it could just be the fact that they rarely come to los angeles period, but i just think it's interesting in terms of eddie's journey with them, that the closest we've gotten to them physically being there is that facetime call with his dad, and that phone call with his mom - both of which happen after he goes back to texas in 5x17 where he point-blank tells his dad he's trying to be better for himself, and his dad meets him halfway. it only happens after his relationship with his dad starts improving.

i just constantly think of the diaz home front door, and now that i've thought of it, there's so many other moments that scream at me:

buck unlocking eddie's door in 4x14 and swinging it open to the party, and then later standing in the open doorway almost like he's protecting eddie and the life he's built in this one way because he couldn't protect him in the other way

buck unlocking eddie's door with his own key in 5x13, then bursting through yet another door to get to eddie, just to step in and sit with him in his grief - and how much that scene symbolizes that eddie may have built this life but it was after burying demons that later just crawled up through the cracks of his new home.

buck standing inside the diaz home after eddie gets home from therapy in 5x14 like this is a regular occurrence.

the way eddie's discomfort is visible in that split second scene we get of the police officers storming his home in 2x15

eddie asking shannon to leave through the back door because he may have let her into his life but he's not ready to let her into chris' and thus, he doesn't truly let her into his life - and actually, even the shot of eddie, chris and shannon at the end of that episode takes place outside the diaz home. which is...telling methinks.

eddie opening his door post-date in 4x07 to buck meeting him at it (always meeting him halfway), and just. the domesticity of it, set off by the warm lights, the discussion they have, and the looks on their faces the whole like

eddie opening his door to buck in 6x12, looking apprehensive for a second before he realizes who it is and his smile grows and eyes turn into heart-eyes and buck just pushes past him without waiting for eddie to step aside, only to go and swing his feet up on the coffee table like the diaz home is his, too.

there's so many examples but @sevensoulmates and i put this whole meta together because the symbolism in this tv show is off the charts

#zee rambles #meta #911 abc #911 on abc #eddie diaz #is some of this a reach? probably #do i care? no #because fr it's so bold of a motif to use the diaz home as a symbol for eddie and it's not just house is a home #it's also my home is my heart and you are my home and here's my heart #idk #it's a lot of things at once #there's a complete separate meta about the buddie implications of this all #and from a visual standpoint there's something about the fact that eddie clearly prefers lamp and warm lighting (as he should) #we rarely see overhead lighting used and that's just...that #long post #i should be writing my midterm rn but alas

[gimmeyourlovepls]

you finding out that earth 1610! miles is spiderman :)

so you and miles have been dating for a while

and lately he's been missing a lot of your dates

so you thought maybe he'd been doing something secret behind your back

you know he wasnt the kind to cheat

but he was for sure hiding something

because whenever you asked him he made up an excuse

the excuse of the day was "i'm helping my mom"

so you decided to walk to their place

and after speaking to his mom, you find out he was not, and hasnt been helping him

so now you were even more confused, and decided to wait in his room for him to come back and to confront him

and he was taking a long time so you laid on his bed and started scrolling on your phone

when suddenly you heard a thump on the window before it slid open

thinking it was a robber you moved to hide on his bed, grabbing a heavy lamp from his bedside table

and as you saw a shadow moving closer, you held it over your head and were about to throw it at the intruder

when u saw a familiar suit

"spider-man?" you gasped softly as he looked at you

what was he doing here?

you put down the lamp slowly and walked up to him as he stuttered, before forcing a deeper voice to talk to you

"u-um, citizen that i dont know, what are you doing here?"

you explained how you came to visit your boyfriend, and then asked him if he'd seen him, describing how he looks

"coily black hair, about your height, same figure, brown cute eyes..."

"you think my eyes are cute?"

you paused, glancing at him

you were not talking about him

you slowly walked up to him and held the edge of his mask as he started to stutter a bit

you pulled it off gently, and gasped softly

"miles?"

you looked at him in awe, before hitting his arm and starting to rant at him for not telling you and how much danger he was in

"what if you got hurt, stupid? you should have told me!"

he held up his hands in front of him, trying to explain himself before you hugged him gently

"'m glad you're ok."

he hugged you back

"course i am, gotta come back to you after all"

#miles morales x reader #miles x reader #across the spiderverse #earth 1610 miles morales #earth 1610 miles morales x reader #miles morales #bo rambles #sorry i have not been cooking lately 😔 #had midterms and junk #im starting to write again tho #but this did not eat anything #pretty pls leave requests

[ceebit]

do me a favor and don’t think about vernon waking up to wander into your kitchen and hug you from behind, cold nose burrowing into your shoulder, and pressing kisses to the skin that peeks out of his (stolen) shirt as you make pancakes for breakfast…

don’t think about the way he clings to you in his semi sleepy state, hair a mess but uncaring as his fingers curl around the hem. do not think about the mindless way he searches for your warmth every time your body moves without him, light frown shifting back into content when he’s able to wrap his arms around you once more.

definitely don’t think bout how he opens his mouth at your gentle prodding to taste the first pancake, chewing slowly and thoughtfully before humming him approval and breaking out in a happy grin. or about the way he steals the sliced strawberries off the wooden cutting board when he thinks you’re not looking. (you definitely are, but you let him have it.)

and don’t you even dare think about vernon mumbling something about marrying you because you make the best pancakes he’s ever had after his mom’s. your heart trips and stumbles at the admission, eyes widening, and he blinks and asks you what’s got you staring at him weirdly, unaware that he’d basically uttered something akin to a proposal at ten am on saturday morning.

did you pass? :)

#shua’s archive #ramble thoughts #it’s midterm season so something short as i prepare another cupid’s a+ chapter #i love him so. i do #seventeen #seventeen x reader #seventeen x y/n #seventeen x you #svt x reader #svt x y/n #svt x you #seventeen fluff #svt fluff #vernon x reader #vernon x y/n #vernon x you #svt scenarios #seventeen scenarios #vernon fluff #vernon imagines #svt imagines #seventeen imagines

[send-me-a-puffalope]

MIDTERMS ARE FINALLY OVER (for the week)

#i’ve never been so sure i failed a test before in my life JFJSJFJSJ #i guessed on about 40% of that physics midterm 💀💀💀💀💀💀 #shhhhhh look whatever gets me through the year #c was sitting there all pretty on that scantron #nat’s rambles

[in-a-galaxy-far-far-a-gay]

Listening to Little Miss Why So and these lyrics are hitting me like a fucking truck

It’s such a beautiful song and you can feel the love the two have for each other

“And me wearing your clothes // Just to surprise you when you come home all tired // Of those wankers that you serve all night I love you don't say anything just 'thank you missy for being in my life, why are you sad?'”

“I'll make a hundred paper planes // To decorate our tiny room // I've even learned to cook //Just stop staring at the moon”

He keeps reaching out and he just can’t connect the way they used to and he doesn’t understand why and ughhh

“I don't know how to reach you when you get like this // I've been waiting for you to come home”

“What's that hold that the big dark king of nothing has got on you, my girl? // Why do you go down // Those stairs to that green dark cave? // Where there's only faces of the unfamous dead”

And you can hear her get more and more frustrated trying to explain

“You don't see daylight anymore // Something's sucking out your core and it's so boring // It's so boring it's so boring it's boring it's so boring it's so boring it's so boring it's so boring it's, so boring, et cetera // To see you tired all the time”

And then toward the end the two of them singing at the same time! He’s blaming himself for them growing apart and she’s still not able to explain and frustrated and neither of them can reach the other in a way that they’ll understand

Madeline: “Why so why so sad? // Stop asking why I'm sad, just know it's enough to know I'm sad”

Joey: “If I am good will you come back? // If I'm good will you come back?”

God and then the end. The song captures these enormous emotions and then narrows in on such a tiny moment that somehow just makes it so real and tangible

“Yeah, but why? Yeah, but why? Why? Why? // He says // Said. // Wish I'd said // 'Cause if I'd said then maybe you'd still be snuggled here in my bed. Watching Netflix. And now I can't // 'Cause you changed the password // When you left”

#ignore me if this is incoherent it’s the middle of midterms and I haven’t slept in 20 hours #2am ramblings #the amazing devil #little miss why so #joey batey #madeleine hyland #tad

[petrichorvoices]

going to university to learn about yaoi

#this isn’t a joke we are literally genuinely taking notes on yaoi right now for our midterm tomorrow #rambling #university tag #the prof put a gif of catboys in the powerpoint and it startled us. a very nice change of pace from the #checks watch. five hours of studying we’ve been doing

[mj-thrush-gxn]

H. Geometry exam grade just came in

maybe i should spend more time with school and less on dndads fanart-

#dndads #thrush rambles #thrush talks #midterms

[castallurspells]

i am normal about ryosuke 👍

#initial d #ryosuke takahashi #cas rambles #I have a chem midterm tomorrow and I'm reading iniD instead of studying. OH WELL #channeling the power of the med student guy so I can be good at chem

[bythelightswitch]

yogtober week 2; nnnnot very polished this week oops. Sometimes Its Like That. runs into the woods

#no time for day 14 im afraid i have to go see fucking family!!!!! #midterms next week i will let you guys know if i bomb it or not ✌️ #okie enough rambling lookat guys #yogtober 2023 #my art #firealpaca #i love queue ✉️

[ajaxpilled]

as much as i will die on the Hill of Zhongchi and also ship childe with neuvillette/scara/kaeya/lumine,, i think wriothesley's humanity and security in himself is what makes wriochi so special

because here's this middle aged guy who's been to hell and back and has now made a life for himself; a life where he feels no guilt or shame and firmly believes he deserves to be where he is. he's secure in his relationships with others, he remains sweet and rational despite the injustice he's been served, and he has no shame in taking little breaks from work when he feels like he needs one. in fact i feel like he's one of the few characters who doesn't view themselves as a commodity or has a need for martyrdom/a greater purpose, despite having one of the more violent and damaging backstories.

and then childe shows up, the youngest harbinger in history; who, like wriothesley, had his childhood stolen from him and was forced to grow up far sooner than he deserved. who thinks of himself as nothing more than a human weapon and loyal servant to the tsaritsa, who thirsts for blood and begs him for a fight, just one, and who is so far gone that, despite his cheery persona, his dead eyes only display bloodthirst or daring. who, for whatever reason - whatever happened in the abyss that he won't speak of, whatever granted him his vision - is dead set on conquering the entirety of teyvat. who would rather push his body to its breaking point with foul legacy and transform himself into a monster than succumb to the limits of fragile human mortality.

and though any other character may see this, zhongli and neuvillette are, after all, ancient dragons/archons who aren't entirely knowledgable on human emotions or mortality. while kaeya is human and scaramouche certainly possesses humanlike qualities, both are stuck in a sea of uncertainty where they grapple with their own fates and histories. lumine isn't only another species but an alien entirely, and doesn't seem to care all that much for his wellbeing given the events of fontaine.

and then there's wriothesley

who looks at childe after all that the harbinger has lived through. all that he has struggled for and against, all he continues to fight for and fight against, and who is the first to understand this seemingly never ending war the harbinger wages inside himself - a war childe may not even be aware of. who sees an untamed and neglected version of himself from long ago in childe. he not only sees through to tartaglia, but is the first to see ajax, no matter how deeply he's buried, how well he's hidden. wriothesley who's the first to think this kid needs a fucking break. who ignores all his pleas for a duel, and actually listens and cares when childe finally opens up about the confusing feelings of sadness plaguing him in fontaine - spikes of humanity piercing through the battle machine he has made himself into. who asks about his family and about his childhood before the abyss while they have tea together. who is more interested in the expertise of ice fishing and why childe wanted to be an adventurer when he grew up and if all of his many siblings have such shockingly red hair. he asks how he got into banking, rather than how he got through the abyss. he asks if he prefers liyue or fontaine instead of his delusion or vision. it takes childe a long time and many conversations steered away from violence to realise that wriothesley isn't interested in asking about how he got each scar, why he joined the fatui or became a harbinger, what's the most gruelling battle he's been in or weapon he has mastered more skilfully.

wriothesley who asks about ajax instead of tartaglia. wriothesley who treats him like a human with needs. a human with a history and a life and aches and pains, figuratively as well as physically. childe isn't just a savage fatui to him. he isn't a living weapon, despite the harbinger having long convinced himself otherwise. he's more than the people he has killed and the missions he's sent on, and wriothesley reaches deeper and deeper into the darkness inside of him, pulling ajax a little further back out of the grave that is his own body with each seemingly harmless question about traditional snezhnayan food, or what's the meaning behind the krsnik noc festival, and why do his homeland’s buildings look like cloves of garlic?

childe who doesn't understand why he feels so comfortable yet uncomfortable around him - who feels more raw and confused than he has since he was a teenager grappling to accept what had happened in the abyss, yet as though wriothesley has known him all his life. it sets him on edge in a way he can't explain or blame anybody for; ajax is only another mask, now. a mask he puts on around his family so they don't see who and what he has become. the real ajax is long gone, dead and buried even before he changed his name and dedicated his life to the tsaritsa.

yet when he's with wriothesley, no matter how mundane or boring the conversation is, he always leaves feeling as though he's been exposed. his delusion is still intact, his vision with the traveller, his red mask still secure; but even had he not checked he would know it was neither of these. because while he feels exposed, he doesn't necessarily feel stripped of anything; more so that there is something building up, deep within him, something unknown and threatening. it's not the kind of nakedness where his weak spots are an open target, but rather the kind where the bandages have already been wrapped around, stained crimson, then removed to reveal healed skin or a closed wound. it's the kind of lightness not where his weapon has been disarmed, but his winter coat has been shed for a cozy fireplace indoors. the kind of vulnerability he feels not when facing creatures of the abyss but akin to that he felt when he first joined the ranks of the fatui, when the path before him seemed full of endless possibilities.

just

wriochi <3333333 :3

#rambles #sorry for forcing my messy thoughts on anyone #i had midterm assignments the past two weeks and im finally done so obviously i am spending my precious time thinking about #the dynamics of all my fav homoerotic subtext anime boys #and just chxlde in general im so in Love #this probably makes no sense #i just agdjhsjdkdhhdhd <333 #gen

[zucchichat]

When you keep kinda wanna stream but you dont have time, dont know how to entertain, dont know how streaming works, dont have a mascot and PROBABLY dont have any viewer that'll stay and interact with me✨

#yeni talk #rambles #lollll after midterm i'll STUDY TO DO IT

[cloudofsalt]

SEPTIC EGOS / ALTRVERSE NATION HOW WE DOING

#cotton rambles #FRONTHS AT THE MOUF /POS /POS #POINTS AT THESE TWO #YOUR HONOR LOOKIT THEM THRIVING OH MYOD #ITS BEEN YEARSSSSSSSSSSS SINCE 2016 #oh hell yeAH IM DRAWING THEM AGAIN OH MY GOD LOOKIT EHM #SOBBING RJDDBDJDBSKS #I AM ON HIATUS DUE TO MIDTERMS EXAMS SO THE REACTIONS DELAYED BUT AAAAAAA #MIDTERMS BOUTTA CATCH THESE HANDS I WANNA DRAW THEMA GAIN- #abdoawdaohiwdhoiahioad #septic egos #jacksepticeye #altrverse

[supernovaa-remnant]

gonna turn in early.. hmm tbh don't know how active I'm gonna be during the next couple of days.. like, I could be as active as normal or I might be incredibly inactive it depends on how I feel when I wake up, I think

anyway I love you all <33

#oh I'll still be checking my dms probably #so like #I can still talk to ppl lol #but yeah I have a busy day tomorrow (including a midterm boo) sooooo #goodnight <33 #stella rambles

[fluffypotatey]

hiiiiiii thinking abt how mei was super uncomfortable with the idea of mk visiting her house and all of the "normal kid stuff" she wasn't allowed to do and how she and mk share a lot of traits but only the ones that mei's parents wouldn't have approved of. mks literally like. the parts of her she doesnt want to bring home

HEYO! forgive me, i was asleep then had to get to class. also, i wanted to give myself time to actually talk about this because yeah

*pulls you down* listen, listen to me, until 1x03, MK had never even been inside Mei's house. he even states how he "always wanted to see inside Mei's Secret Dragon House," and Mei housesitting the place is the perfect opportunity for him to see what lies inside. AND! if you notice!!!

SHE IS SHOWN TO BE VERY UNCOMFY AT MK JUST SPECULATING WHAT "SECRETS" ARE HIDING IN THERE. INVITING MK WOULD BE THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF WHAT HER PARENTS ASKED HER TO DO!

but MK is so curious and he's her best friend and he might also just sneak in without her knowing.....so maybe she'll indulge him. housesitting is a lot better with friends than on your own.

anyway, if we go further into the episode, we see a Mei that is very different to our chaotic and confident gal. she's closed-in, cautious, nervous. unlike before, Mei is the one warning others not to touch things, to be careful, and to stay put. in previous episodes, we see her goofing off and being a little gremlin with MK while Pigsy blows a fuse over their antics.

not here though. this is her home. her clan's home. her clan's home full of ancestral heirlooms that she's been told all her lie to keep away from and not touch. respect your family and family tree is very important in Chinese culture (and many other Asian cultures but we're focusing just on one). even the language has different forms of formalities with addressing people (whether in the business environment, home, or school). but this is a very general observation, and i'm sure there are others who can talk about this a lot better.

however, Mei's family is very important to her character, so i will be discussing how it relates to her and her own decisions. on her own, Mei is very free-spirited and is more of a "punch first ask questions later" kind of person. when it comes to her family though, Mei is a lot more toned down and thinks first before acting. she is very aware of the priceless artifacts kept in her home (which is one factor on why she is nervous about inviting MK), and watching how she went about her home was like she was walking on eggshells. she doesn't want to upset and disappoint her parents.

additionally, Mei comes from a very well-off family. she is a part of the Western Sea Dragon clan. her ancestor is Ao Lie, the dragon-horse of the JTTW companions. why am i telling you things you already know? because it shows that Mei's family comes with a lot of history and recognition ("ancient noble dragons," as Mei had said). and with that, comes with the clan wanting to appear respectable in front of others. with such a high status, it is best to look the part, no?

however, Mei isn't really someone who fits into that noble lady box, right? she's outspoken, she's rowdy, she's impulsive. Mei even admit that as a kid she wished to do "normal girl stuff," stuff that wouldn't work out when your house is more of a museum than a home. i'm sure she did try to fit into that box for the good of her parents, but at some point, you come to the realization that that box will never fit you. Mei will never be perfectly noble or have the noble decorum that comes with her upbringing. she will never fit that ideal her parents raised her on (this is an assumption but also, it feels like a given?)

MK is the exact opposite of what Mei was taught to be proper. he is rowdy, likes to have fun, play video games, "roughs and tumble," and be impulsive. he is someone Mei definitely saw as the part of her she could never show her parents. how could they ever accept the side of her that does not care for strict decorum and keeping a house as a museum.

read this excerpt from her mom:

"We may not always see eye to eye, and your friends are...em, unique than we expected. But you are a part of this family, and it is part of you."

ignoring the incredibly sweet ending T^T the mother admits that Mei and her parents do have issues agreeing on what's best for Mei. there is love very clearly shown for between Mei and her parents, but there is still that distance between them. Mei is not the daughter they expected, and they don't always approve of her choices (her friends for example). so, we can figure that Mei is absolutely nervous about how her parents will feel about MK and whether that means they would stop loving her if she ever let down her walls in front of them completely.

#rewatched this episode just for you <3 #where is this energy for my midterm essay T^T #i am once again only capitalizing names and proper nouns bc i am lazy and it's more fun #me at the beginning: this will be a short couple of comments. i will not ramble into a long meta commentary #me as i screenshot 2 scenes from the desired episode: this will still STAY a short response. i will not succumb to the meta gremlins #me at the end: .....fuck #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk mei #lmk long xiaojiao #lmk analysis #lmk meta #asks

[send-me-a-puffalope]

what if i drew fanart and its just vanessa taking a nap. officially shipping vanessa and getting a good nights sleep. shipping vanessa and good mental health. shipping vanessa and therapy minus all the dead therapists. who's gonna stop me.

#midterms #midterms are gonna stop me #nat's rambles

[symbiotic-slime]

this is so random but I saved this meme:

off of here a while ago and I’m trying to find the original post it was in (I’m trying to cite it in an essay lol). if anyone knows where it came from plz let me know!!

#I’m trying to cite it in my sociology of personal life final where I’m yapping about clothing as a projection of identity lol #I love torturing my professor in that class #my midterm paper was about my venom action figures lmaooo #ramblings