#mike crippleposts

[puppyvenom]

i’m thinking about sick4sick friendships i’m thinking about keeping spare meds in my bag to share with my buddies. my partner offering me their cane when i can’t smuggle my own out the house.

im thinking about sick4sick with strangers. sharing advice. the grin when you have the same canes. complimenting cool mobility aids.

i’m thinking about hand me down knee braces and joint straps my dad gives to me. passing them on like heirlooms.

im thinking about the solidarity in pain and how beautiful it can be

edit: hello everyone enjoying this post i made a longer version on my blog if u wanna check it out :o)

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[puppyvenom]

i really hate when we r like can we please stop the trend of disabled characters magically being Cured as this like amazing plot point or ending n people are like “SO YOU WANT THEM TO STAY SUFFERING?” no i just want some accurate representation without it feeling like my disability is being rubbed in my face because a cure doesn’t fucking exist irl. “it’s fantasy” it’s inspiration porn u fuckin weirdos.

why do u hate disabled people being disabled why do you feel like we all need curing?? you know we can be happy right? we can live full, joyous lives! disabled characters don’t need to me cured to be fulfilled!!!!!

some of u need to just admit that seeing disabled characters Be Disabled scares u. like u need to see us cured and able bodied miraculously because u don’t like the actual truth about being disabled because u know u can become One of Us at any moment.

stop trying to make us palatable for your own comfort u weirdos !!! i fucking hate The Disabled Character is cured and it’s a miracle!!!

it is literally just..inspiration porn idk how people can’t see that. it’s so fucking blatant

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[puppyvenom]

it really fucks me off that disabled toilets never have a fucking bag hook. do they not think we carry things? why should i have to put my purse on the fucking grimy floor?? just smack a few hooks on the wall or the back of the door at varying heights, it really cannot be that hard. you can put a hook on 10+ doors no problem, but putting a few in one of your 3 disabled toilets? apparently too much effort.

after all, we all know disabled people don’t carry bags and never go anywhere alone!

here’s where i had to balance my bag in the disabled toilets of one of my city’s biggest music venues x

jesus christ.

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[puppyvenom]

the crutchie morris in my head is an ASSHOLE and i love him so dearly. go be a dick my beloved u do not have to be all kiss ass innocent in here . never again buddy u are freed from the infantilising disabled dude trope. go smack someone with ur crutch and be a jackass. i love u.

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[puppyvenom]

crutchie - akb vs matthew duckett !!!!

alternatively titled - cast disabled people jesus christ

listen i am having so many thoughts and feelings about crutchie and at the risk of annoying the fuck out of my partner i am putting them on here instead!

prefacing this by saying:

i do not speak for all cripples

matthew’s duckett was my first real introduction to crutch and yes i am probably biased because of it (because matthew was an absolute sweetie when i met him)

i do not actually hate AKB as much as i dislike his crutchie

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i think the main problem i have with his crutchie (and i understand that it is not entirely his fault at all!!!!) is that it’s so sanitised in so many ways. it is so of its time and not really in a good way, it came about in a period where representation wasn’t a big focus and i very much understand that, but i also hate it.

it’s so easy for disabled characters to fall into this weird ,sanitised, almost infantilising position, where their struggles are shown (abuse from the delanceys that was directly because of his disability, the fact he’s more likely to be put in the refuge because he’s seen as ‘weak’), but they’re bound by this kind of happy-go-lucky persona where they don’t show any real anger or upset. it’s fuelled by the abled need to see disabled characters as some sort of inspiration porn. “he’s crippled but look how happy he is despite that!!!!!! if he can do it i can too!!” he has this air of innocence and can-do-no-wrong that kinda falls a little flat compared to all his friends of the same age, and whilst this wouldn’t be a problem in itself, it fits a repeating pattern of the innocent, docile physically disabled person that is shown so much.

i loved matthew’s crutchie so much because he was so much more than that. he was happy, he was kind and an big laugh, but he didn’t shy away from being truly angry or scared (in the finale when he is brought back and cuffs snyder) and he was still a bit of a dick, he felt a lot more like he truly belonged. one of my favourite examples is at the start of the show the first time we see katherine, he helps one of the boys (i can’t remember which one) steal something from darcy and keeps it on him through the rest of the show. he’s as playful and annoying as the rest of them, shooting paper balls at them with his slingshot (especially during the finale, i love him so much for that). he has an attitude. he has the energy of a boy who was raised on the streets and knows what the fuck is what.

and thats what i think changes him the most for me. it’s all the same script (?) but it’s all so different when you think about how smart crutch actually is. i think the biggest change is my idea of him specifically when he’s being so nice to weasel at the beginning, when all the boys are being annoying and dicks, crutchie is so sweet. i don’t believe he’s doing that because he’s just such a nice guy who can look past weisel and the delancey’s being assholes to them, i think he realised quickly how to play the game. he’s gonna get sympathy, he knows that, and he knows if he acts all innocent and is overly kind, that they’ll somewhat pity him and he can use that to his advantage.

i hate being pitied by most people, i hate being looked at differently, like i’m almost helpless. but i also know how to use it to help myself, i know when i can play the poor little cripple card to my advantage. and i fully believe crutch does the same.

edited to add because i forgot to add this entire section in sorry!!

when i say sanitised i also mean literally. as in they made him cleaner. specifically in the finale again when he’s brought back from the refuge, broadway crutch looks way too clean. he’s a little bashed up but he’s not dirty. he doesn’t look like he’s been battered and then subjected to awful conditions. it takes away the impact of his time at the refuge. when he got back in the uk production they actively were disgusted by how much he smelled, because he’d just got out of a place where he couldn’t look after himself for a multitude of reasons. he suffered in there, mentally and physically, and in more ways than one. he was not given nice clean clothes and a pat on the back, he was taken out and put right back into the mess without much time to check himself over, without any time to process or heal.

i just think it has a much bigger impact when you can see, from his actual appearance and the other guys’ reactions, how much he actually struggled in there. they were glad to have him back of course, but it really drove home the point of how badly it affected him.

and once again in that scene, you could see the fear on his face and the anger when he faced snyder and when he made a move at him. he was fucking scared of the man that had subjected him to all of that. even when he was being a little goofy and put on the hat to handcuff him, there was still that fear, and there was evidence to why.

(end of edit)

but like i said, i don’t think it is entirely akb’s fault or his intention, he almost definitely wasn’t aware of the way it came off and how it perpetuates stereotypes. but it’s just another reason why giving disabled roles to disabled people is so important. plus we know how to use mobility aids properly

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shoutout to my beloved partner who proof reads my shit and also is the reason i am into newsies . thank u babie @fizzloves-blog <3

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[puppyvenom]

i hate when i see my old friends from school and they see me with a cane and go “omg what happened to you?” as if i didn’t miss chunks of school because i was sick and had to drop PE because i physically couldn’t do it. and they always say it like it’s such a sad thing that i use a cane and not one of the best things to happen to my health. they only see mobility aids as sad and something to get away from, rather than actual tools of independence that better lives.

#sludge speaks #mike crippleposts #chronic health #chronically ill #cane user #disabled #physically disabled #cripple #cripplepunk #cpunk

[puppyvenom]

heyo!!!

if u have been around here / or me in the last few years i may know i run a blog!!! it is a painful labour of love where i talk openly about my illness and living as a disabled person. posts are few and far between (my last post before today was october 2022) but i really do put a lot of love into it. it’s my baby.

anyway, i dropped a new post today!!! i am yet to proofread because it’s late and i’m sleepy, but here she is :o) it’s an adaption of my sick4sick post from here from a few weeks back, just a little longer.

any feedback is appreciated, u should be able to leave anonymous comments on there if u want!! and check out my other posts if u have a moment!!

todays post!!

an important post from last year about the daily mail

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[puppyvenom]

a piece about being disabled and trans and how it makes you want to claw off your skin sometimes :)

#art #artist #digital art #trans male #transman #trans #transgender #trans artist #disabled #disability #chronic illness #chronic pain #disabled artist #crip punk #mike crippleposts

[puppyvenom]

blog spring winter cleaning all my disability posts that’s me actually talking have moved to #mike crippleposts just so all my other rbs for resources/other peoples posts are all on #disability just so i can find my own posts easier cause i plan on being quite disability heavy in the coming weeks🧜🏻‍♂️🧜🏻‍♂️

#sludge speaks #mike crippleposts #disability #<- those two!! #thank u and goodnight

[puppyvenom]

being told “but it cant be that bad! you’re working again!” as if she didn’t force me to get a job n threatened to institutionalise me when i told her it would put me in extreme pain.

guess who’s in extreme pain from working again

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[puppyvenom]

★ intro :3 ☆

hi!!!! i am kittie/mike/finley :3

pronouns : he/him

i’m 20+ and whilst this blog int nsfw heavy be warned there may be 18+ posts but i will always tag them as #nsfw so block that tag/unfollow if ur not comfortable !!

i refer to myself as a fag/faggot so if ur not comfortable with that uhhh dni x

i’m an angry cripple and will openly be bitter and pissed off and i do not sanitise my experiences ever. ur either here for gross cripple shit or ur not here at all

i have a blog ! and i’m in the process of writing a zine for ftm cripples, feel free to message on @cbrothersinarms if u have any questions/want to be involved :3

my posts tend to be assorted, my two main are the used (#usedposting) and newsies (#newsies), but i’m p reblog heavy some days with literally whatever i’m thinking about that day :o)

★ tags ☆

all my art is under #sludge art so pls check it out !!!!!

any speaking (not just disability related) is #sludge speaks

disability posts (not mine) #disability

my own disability posts #mike crippleposts

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[puppyvenom]

#disabled #disability #chronic illness #chronic health #chronic pain #pain #disabled problems #physically disabled #physical disability #chronically ill #mike crippleposts

[puppyvenom]

my disability is not up for debate.

you are not entitled to my diagnosis.

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[puppyvenom]

hey, you know what?

since my diagnosis i’ve had only ablebodied people tell me i can’t be disabled because what i have isn’t a disability.

yet, all my disabled friends have made sure i was doing okay and reminded me that even though it’s not classed as a disability, the way it affects me makes me disabled.

that was such a wild statement to me. i’ve had people telling me no, you can’t be disabled, you played football for 7 years! and yes. that’s right. but now i can barely walk down my street without wobbling and nearly collapsing.

“i know someone who has that! it just means they’re flexible” well it means my joints nearly dislocate with the slightest movements becky, it doesn’t affect everyone in the same way!

looking back it kinda hurts that because of these people telling me, you can’t be disabled because what you have isn’t a disability made me downplay everything and completely shut down about how i’m actually doing.

because it’s rude to correct people right? i must be exaggerating. i’m just a 16 year old girl, what do i know?

i know how i feel. i know the pain im in. i know i should be able to do something so simple as getting out of bed without it taking 5 minutes. i should be able to walk for more than half an hour without collapsing. but i can’t.

it’s taken me years to accept that i can’t keep pushing my body to the point where i’m forced to be bedridden again. it’s only recently that i’ve stopped beating myself up for using the disabled toilets because i didn’t think i qualified as disabled.

so yes. i played football for 7 years. but what have i done in the last two? stayed in bed. i quit everything. i stopped seeing my friends. i went to school for about 2 hours a week in the most vital years of my education. i was unable to look after my mom after she had a major operation because i either wasn’t conscious or i simply could not get out of bed.

i lost my teenage years because my heath was so crippling. my mental and physical heath declined so rapidly that i lost control of everything. i lost everything that made me feel good.

so next time you tell someone “you can’t be disabled because your condition isn’t a disability!” or the good old “i know someone who has that and it barely affects them!” just think for a moment, how will my words affect them?

take a minute to listen to them. let them tell you about what they go through. and fucking listen.

people shouldn’t suffer because of your ignorance.

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