#only in my deranged mind

[governmentmandatedryujinstan420]

FINALLY. THIRD ACT. IT'S BEEN 3000 YEARS, I'VE FINALLY ESCAPED THE BUILDUP DUNGEONS INTO THREE SECONDS OF DIALOGUE THAT IS ACTUAL PLOT EVENTS, PRAISE BE TO THE WRITING GODS!

#hand jumper #DIALOGUE #LIKE THE LAND YOU FIND AFTER MONTHS OF SEA #ryujin mention of the day ig but lord knows how many days i missed they probably though i was dead and i technically was #The Horrors™ persisted but through pure hubris so did i #they say the first work is the worst work and brother i am serving that right #the cops are gonna find my rotting corpse #and they will only find the delusional folders of side character brain rot in the remains of my freshly burnt living quarters #born with a curse and the curse was fixating on two people's 5 minutes and 32 seconds of screentime respectively and obsessing over it #when i finally finish this i can finally force the peoples to listen to the queerplatonic situationship that juni and ishaan have going on #only in my deranged mind #only thing that kept me alive this month was this and that game i've waiting for really #BUT THE HORIZON IS UPON US LADS #terrible writing dumpster fire /hj coming soon near you #if i can proofread in time since i forgot contemporary literature actually condemns huge paragraphs

[evans4490]

Hhhhhng TWST has me in a chokehold.

Also sorry if the quality is bad its my first time making these lmao.

#disney twst #twisted wonderland #malleus draconia #twst malleus #lilia vanrouge #twst lilia #twst yuu #twst book 7 spoilers #twst book 7 #Dont mind the Mallyuu thing I just found that picture and it is literally my Yuu and Malleus to a T #Albeit after the whole S.T.Y.X situation my Yuu starts becoming deranged as well #slowly but surely #Also I have three different Yuus so ill just refer to them as follows #Deranged Rapunzel Yuu (This one- also my only male Yuu) #Chainsmoking Mother Personality At The Age Of 17 Yuu #And finally Scary Cute Yuu #Rapunzel Yuu is my main one so expect to see a lot of him #twst meme #twst shitpost #malleus x yuu

[itoshi-s]

I think you know enough hq characters at this point so, who do you think in haikyuu would fuck their step-sis and why is it tsukishima (also ushijima but hes more lowkey)?? - 💔

🥲 if u were to crack my silly little head open and take a look inside. this would be the only thing u see. just pure hell pure chaos nothin else. NONNIE.. do u really want me dead :(

cw stepcest, dubcon, timeskip tsukki n ushi

sob sniffle sister fucker tsukishima. i am literally going to lose my mind thinking about him. he’s so mean, shrugs all your tears and whining off whenever the sibling banter pushes a few too many buttons. it’s just how he is and you’ve grown used to it — his snarky comments and how he could spark all sorts of deepest insecurities w just a few teasing, light hearted comments. but kei nii doesn’t rly mean that, and you know it. it’s just how he is, with the kindest heart buried somewhere deep under the cocky demeanor — that’s what you think, until you come home from uni for holiday break and go out one night.

you take a few shots too many, those airhead friends of yours that kei never really liked busying themselves w some random guys, and you end up calling him to pick you up. there’s some creep at the club that just doesn’t let up, you’re a little scared, and your phone is almost dead. he’s the only person you really know that’d actually pick up at this late hour and come get you — he’s your brother after all. and yet, you regret ever calling him in the first place as soon as you get in the car, listen to him calling you even dumber than he’d thought of you, jaw slack and eyes firm yet tired behind his glasses as he drives. you hold back tears on the way home, and for the very first time in your life, you feel like kei nii might actually hate you :( and that he meant every single jab he’s gave you throughout all these years. he tugs you inside the house, unaware of your silence, and grumbles something about u being lucky that mums not home to see you this fucked up. you sit at the edge of your bed, shaky fingers struggling to undo the straps of your heels, and kei lets out an exasperated sigh as he crouches down in front of you. he slaps your hands away, works on unclasping the straps and tells you you’re hopeless. you’re just so annoying with how reckless you’re being, he’s got practice tomorrow morning and yet its 3 am and he has to deal with you — careless as always. he sets your shoes aside and is about to get up and leave when he hears the choked little sound. a tear or two falls on his hand and he looks up — breath hitching in his throat upon his step sister crying. he’s seen it so many times before, being the very cause for your tears more often than not, and yet this time, he’s confused. you wipe at your eyes, a poor attempt to hide the heartbreak, and swallow back little muffled cries. you tell him you’re sorry, that you never wanted him to hate you. you’re sorry that you’re annoying, sorry that you’re being a bother as always. kei watches in sheer astonishment as your bottom lip wobbles, still glimmering with your gloss. just don’t hate me, nii chan. he almost feels bad, for the first time in forever, as you sit there in your tiny black dress, with those pretty long falsies on, and cry your heart out — for him. its the exhaustion, he thinks, it has to be as he reaches a hand up and rests it on the back of your neck. he calls you silly, wipes a thumb below your eyes and furrows his brows a bit — he could never hate you, why’d you even think that? you really are a dumb thing. he’s just tired and not thinking straight, kei’s sure, as he leans up to press his lips to yours and taste you. your tongue is heavy with intoxication and shock, and he makes out the faint vanilla of your lip gloss and remnants of liquor as he kisses you, languid and sloppy, something to slow down the haywire in your mind. he could never hate you, he repeats, easing you down on the bed and hiking your dress over your hips — groaning when you give him the prettiest wide eyes, glossy with tears still but oh, so hopeful. kei nii is a good brother, despite his sharp tongue and teasing nature — and makes sure you never, ever doubt his love for you again :(

ushijima though,, he’s a whole another story you’re so right. i’m p sure he doesn’t even give you any remotely dirty thought — anything that would be immoral considering your relation. you’re his little step sister, and there’s nothing more to it. sure, he’s never been too close with you — always solely focused on his career — but he does appreciate you. you’re nice, sweet and caring with the way you always pick him up from the airport or fly over to some of his games. (you always cheer for him the loudest, and grin wide as you tell the couple sittin next to you that the ushiwaka is your older brother.) you always welcome him with the warmest hug, standing on your tiptoes to wrap your arms around his neck, and laugh as he squeezes you — welcome back, nii chan, i missed you lots. he’s no fool and sees how you’ve grown into a beautiful young woman, too. he’s aware of all the looks you get when you two walk down the street and how it’s hard to keep count of all the boyfriends you’ve mentioned before. for some reason, none of them lasted, though, and yet you’d always brush it off and give him a small smile when he asked if you were okay. wakatoshi doesn’t know a lot about girls in the first place, but you’re a whole another enigma. like i said, i think he wouldn’t even dare think of you in any other way than purely platonic — and so, you render his entire giant frame putty when you first crawl into his lap with that pretty little glint in your eyes. barely a minute earlier you were just scrolling down your phone, w your legs in his lap as he goes through his calendar — next thing he knows, his little step sister is grinding down on him, breath minty on his lips as you moan. large palms rest on your hips and it takes all your willpower to stand your ground, considering he wouldn’t even have to put any work into pushing you off. he fixes you a confused look, eyebrows knit together and voice low when he asks what are you doing, why are you— you cup his handsome face in your hands, a manicured thumb pressing to his lips and it shuts him up ridiculously quick n effectively. s’alright, nii chan, it’s nothin’. you need him bad, you tell him, and prove your point by the sinful roll of your hips against his hardening cock. you see he wishes he could deny you, that he could tell you that it’s wrong and fucked up and that you can’t be doing this — cause you’re siblings, blood bound or not — but his silence gives him away. always so blunt and straightforward, your nii san now sits completely quiet, and you know that the cogs in his mind must be struggling, but if he had any second thoughts abt all of this — he would’ve already told you. but he doesn’t tell you anything, doesn’t speak at all before he exhales and pulls you flush against him, lips finding yours with way too much ease. toshi nii doesn’t have to speak at all — his actions do it for him, as he has you all spread out n making the prettiest noises for hours on end that day </3

#✧.* ✉ zari’s mail: 💔 anon #nghhhh THIS HAS ME SLOWLY GOIN INSANE SHSJJSXHXJSI #kei especially </3 he’s got me all choked up i love love looooove him he’s so mean #ushi bein all ffed up in this head of his he’s so cute. i wanna bite him #but in all honestly some of the others i’d think would ABSOLUTELY dick down their stepsis are #kags.. 10000% you cant tell me otherwise #AND last but def not least the one and only oikawa tooru. NGHHHHDHDHDH #everyone always bein head over heels for him but they don’t know he only has eyes for his lil sis </3 najdhakshsksksjsj STOOOOP #he’s so deranged . this clicked in my mind sooooooo quick u get me ??? she’s always there to give him all the praise he needs #there’s no one else that matters for her. only tooru nii #always </3 and he goes completely n utterly dumb on the ego trip #thx for comin to my ted talk. if anyone wants to elaborate feel free #now brb gonna go sob abt this #haikyuu smut #hq smut #tsukishima smut #ushijima smut #haikyuu x reader #ushijima x reader #tsukishima x reader #tsukishima kei x reader #ushijima wakatoshi x reader #★ ‧ ₊ after hours

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Japanese Grand Prix - Sebastian Vettel

#im so glad theres no one here to witness my reaction to seb wins because my god #i dont think words exist in the english language for the screeching noises i make HAHAHAHAHA #i just love him too much and it is a very late hour so i feel so deranged abt him and its very unwell behavior #i am kissing the tv director was for this podium directly on the mouth because SO MANY GOOD SHOTS !!!!!!!!! #my main gripe(and youll see this often in my tags) is that they never have enough direct shots and also cut away at bad moments #this podium? absolutely fucking beautiful. i want to kiss the camera operators because their focusing and tracking is a thing of beauty #hes so cute this race!!!!!! i have way too much content so shall be 3 posts methinks. hope ya dont mind!! #ive seen a clip of him and tommi chest bumping but i didnt know it was this race so when it suddenly cut to them im like OH!!!! #seb at japan gp....truly magnificent every single season(we dont talk about 2007) #i usually put 'ft. [ther drivers] but clearly both the cameramen and i only had eyes for seb hahaha #i guess this time tommi and rocky are the features!! #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2009 japanese gp #2009 japanese grand prix #sv5

[onejellyfishplease]

I love caves. They’re just so cool and echoey and I can sing in them and my brain goes brrrrr nicely.

I want to live in a cave and hear the drip drip of the stalactites as I sleep on a bed of flow formations.

They’re just so shaped and nice and sometimes they’re big and overwhelming and other times they’re beautifully cramped and comforting.

I just.. mmmmm

I need

Anyway I visited a cave today. It was neat

#I’m only slightly deranged I promise #also I can’t write rn #because my grandparents are over #and they brought friends #and now we’re all playing card games #and my writing time has been hijacked #but I don’t mind #cause I’m winning :)

[atopvisenyashill]

sorry i’m still annoyed but like we really think if ned would have seen robert hit lyanna with his own two eyes he wouldn’t have done anything. that’s what we’re saying. that’s really what we’re all saying that’s really-

#idk why people are incapable of talking about nedcat’s faults without going to the most deranged option possible #i think if lyanna was 16 and pregnant with Robert’s baby & wrote him a daella esque ‘pls come im scared’ #ned would go see what was UP. he’d Probably assume she misses their mother and would bring like. nan or someone to storm’s end #but come on. he abandons storm’s end to a starving & distraught stannis bc he thought she was still alive. #and people will be like ‘he’s an asshole to cersei’ u r ignoring the part where she fucked her brother & he thinks she murdered jon arryn. #THATS why he’s an asshole it’s very clear that the spousal abuse set off insane alarm bells in this man’s mind. #yeah it’s not enough to say stop a marriage between margaery and robert. #but if u think it’s not enough to go now what the fuck do you think you’re doing here robert if robert left a bruise on lya’s face #unserious. go reread the book. once again i’m accusing too many of you of being only children. #getting on my soap box #this post may self destruct if i feel bad enough about it later

[silvermahogany]

Theyre talking mad shit rn via the worms in their skulls. UNSPEAKABLE vicious mockery

#deranged abt my bg3 tav and Astarion rn dont mind me #youre tellinb me my oc x canon is LITERALLY canon to me????? #dont mind if i DO #a high elf and a tiamat worshipper can you IMAGINE the shit theyd talk #you walk away from them with insecurities previously unthought of by man #i lov them #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #no spoilers pls #still only just reached the city 😭 #astarion #astarion x tav #astarolys

[dayurno]

#i will warn you only once: tsc spoilers #literally just finished it as i am drafting this its 5am where i live #so you may be subjected to some nonsense #that all being said i have thoughts.and feelings #the kevin was lovely and tasted delicious! jean defending him at every turn even when he swears to hell and back he'll kick his ass #the kevjean was surprising i was only half expecting that #the dog metaphors i have to say i need this one cashed in. nora run me my check #im joking of course dont quote me on it #jean taking kevins promise to the end and living on it is seriously so. well. #'be careful with him' 'take kevin's name out of your ignorant mouth' 'you promised me' #also kevin getting called the court's queen had me tender and on my back oml #jean's relationship with the trojans is sweet and he is very interesting and complicated #a character with many moving parts im sure #there were a few things i did not care for #namely jeremy and the trojans felt remarkably flat to me bar lucas (by far the most interesting) and catalina on occasion #i didnt quite enjoy jeremy's pov and felt like he spent perhaps way too much time worrying over jean? if that makes sense #i wish he had some more complexity to him or really anything to catch a hook on #all we know is hes attractive and smiley and gets along terribly with his family #so much of his character is sucked out by jean he didnt feel like much more than a plot device to me #which i wouldnt mind if jeremy wasnt the literal main character alongside jean #i was living for everything jean thought but had to drag myself through jeremy's pov if im honest #uuuuh what else. neil! funny. deranged. i have to love him #andrew couldnt give less of a fuck about jean which is funny as all fuck #two bugs placed in the same habitat ignoring each other #the thing with elodie i thought was complicated. i wish we knew some more about her or that shed been mentioned a little earlier #but im assuming thats a topic to be revisited #uuuuuuuh yeah so thats most of it. i think my first thought and the one that sticked out the most to me is that the book felt remarkably #pedestrian #not necessarily in a bad way #it lacked to me one of the main appeals of aftg which were the numerous interesting side characters

[pochapal]

tomorrow i will have been reading umineko for one whole year

#:) #still can't believe i ended up reading at a 1 chapter a month pace #i never even intended to liveblog umineko in the first place lmao #which you can tell because the first few posts are just like 'i'm gonna start umineko' #'hey maria is a really good character and is correct about everything btw' #'battler jessica and maria are the only bitches on rokkenjima i trust and care about' #'i'm going insane what do you mean there are chapters just dedicated to failsibling drama arguments' #and then i started note taking and then after the rose garden scene i fully lost my mind #funny skimming over the 1-6 thoughtdump and seeing less than 2000 words of bullet points lmao #i love how the first couple posts of my liveblog so perfectly capture the exact moments of my descent into derangement #iirc someone sent an ask like 'you should definitely try keeping notes when reading umineko and share some theories every now and then' #not knowing that i'd already started my ridiculously meticulous note document and that this pushed me to go all in on my thoughts #although i'm gonna be honest i think *the* moment my brain broke with umineko was that 1-7 scene with kanon #literally all of this is because i Paid Attention to the fucked up servant dynamics and had the most unhinged brainblast known to man #funny to look back and reminisce on all this now lmao

[everythingsinred]

this doesnt matter to anyone but me but yes i WILL be making a post abt this using canonical evidence bc this is IMPORTANT RESEARCH

poor @thesightofworms tho she puts up w so much

#as i said to zoe yesterday #i only got a degree in english bc i couldnt major in gakuen alice. #just so anyone new to my blog knows how absolutely deranged i am... #always on my mind always #gakuen alice #ga #little anya things #hyuuga natsume #dont feel too sorry for zoe tho she also encourages me and is crazy too

[musashi]

Lol

literally not my fault!!!!!!

What is it with people who abandon me and acting like it's my fault they're bitter insecure losers

#wordy wendy #I've never been in a situation so clearly ''bro i am just standing here'' befote #i was literally just. standing there. minding my own business. #and this dude kicked down my door w no preamble and started reciting fanfiction he wrote about me at me #and im sitting here still like how the fuck are you not embarrassed at what you are doing #only to find out hes surrounded in deranged enablers who literally convinced him im abusing him #and he is STILL POSTING ABOUT IT with this affectation like i did something to him #wjen all that happened is he dmd me kn my traumaversary #said some insane touch grass now shit #and then hardblocked me when i said i needed time and space to process #fu kkng insane

[monards]

mourning the loss of insane furina again dear lord

#GODDDD I WNATED HER TO BE SO DERANGED. #I don’t mind her character…. we just don’t have any good indane women in this game #ei I don’t even wanna talk about because she makes me have a headache #arlecchino is my only hope…. #but furina just had SUCH a good attitude… #ughhhHAUGHHHHHH #furina

[katierosefun]

me, seeing a controlling freak of a man but he’s a fictional character: there’s something insanely wrong with you but i’m going to study you. i am going to psychoanalyze you and shake you around like a soda can just to watch you explode. i love you because to an extent, i do understand your rage and your grief and your ghosts. i will also be the first one in line to tell you that your suffering does not make you worthy and your manipulation does not make you some genius mastermind, it just makes you sad and hollow. but i will take the time to understand you because don’t we all want to be seen

me, seeing a controlling freak of a man but he’s a real person: don’t fucking look at me don’t fucking talk to me don’t even fucking breathe in my direction

#caroline talks #this is me screeching to my friend about. masters of sex btw #michael sheen only got nominated for an emmy for this show i think #which blows my mind bc he should be getting all the awards for this show like WHAT the hell #jumping straight from nate ford of leverage to bill masters of masters of sex . . . #deranged unhinged men who just manipulate their team and also have daddy issues and also manipulate the ever loving grief out of their #work partner is so. like. man what the hell!!! #and YET…and yet there is some form of love there…there is genuine compassion there and there is a genuine want to do good #in the only way that makes sense to either of them #only. i think Nate ford is easier to love. bill masters is………frustrating but when he’s human it’s. so much. #i want them to beat each other up so bad too—nate ford who can break fingers without blinking #vs bill masters who learned how to box so he could fend himself from his asshole dad #they are also both sooo pathetic all they do is shove people away from themselves #and then come crawling back to their partners and BEG them to come back #and they’re so. fascinating to me for that. #but also i know for a fact if any man or frankly any person #was that much of an asshole i’d probably kick their teeth in

[dykedvonte]

Fallout New Crashes

#this is a post of rage hurt and betrayal that is not quantifiable #Bethany Estha Oobleck are developers that love toying with my emotions like I’m a wind up Easter toy #twisting my key until it’s a struggle even for them but they don’t stop #not until they can’t turn anymore but they do not set me down when they let go #they hold me just above it so close my little plastic feet just barely scrap the floor #incessant the sound is scrapping as all the wound up energy is exerted #as I run in the water swim in the air all meaning I go no where #and just then I dropped and I teeter but I do not fall I run as far as I can with whatever is left #but there isn’t much progress there never is #an inch or so is made as my key stops and my legs do as well not tired but unable to move until wound again #and they do and the cycle repeats and by the time I run #a plastic wobble all the way there I can only ask if it was worth it #if letting them play with me like I was the game was worth seeing the screen of my pip boy again #helping Boone settle his loathing and Arcade come to terms #Cass look to the future and Veronica to make her own #Raul find new purpose and Lily to make up her mind or keep it #to save Rex and Ede to improve the Mojave #and I say yes it is #and then I am picked up and carried back for it will begin again #if you can’t tell my game keeps crashing for some reason today and I can’t figure out why with every mod and guide known to man #and it’s making me deranged cause it’s all I wanted to do toady and night #fallout #fallout new vegas

[mingos]

its them

#‘ 003. ’ (shitposts) #losing my mind over someone selling them all together like this #not only is it a pretty good deal but like... it's a Family Set #just a little boy; his dad; and his deranged uncle that wants to murder both of them

[orbdotexe]

might go a little insane and talk about the concept of gods and the pronouns used for them for the sake of our understandings.. maybe

#orb rambles #LISTEN. i am dying over exile i promise #and i KNOW i still havent gotten to the asks i said i would #but look #its not my fault :( #i am just. deranged about a few Too Many Things rn to make any single post about only One of them #(see: the DA/Captain of WKM/ISWM. Savathun. the Sapphire Star in MHW. the topic of this post) #(see also: Luna's Little Traveler AU. my sorely neglected HASO worldbuilding i havent finished a post about. TFE's timeline.) #(see also also: Head Engineer (ISWM) and Saint-14 and their bootstrap/grandfather(?) paradoxes. the vultures outside???) #my brain is having a 10x bass-boosted rave. help #also ended up with the semi-conclusion of: god is agender? agender ppl are gods? unclear. #i am actively loosing my mind and its only getting worse. #i make no promises but. send an ask about any of them? maybe? it might help?? #i have a draft about TFE Crow and the whole 'Hero of the Story' problem. maybe someone give me a lil shove to talk about that??? #(i am so sorry content box. ive failed to keep up with the group chat again. but i will BURST if i get anymore brainrot hhhhhhh)