#please my life is so empty

[tatertords]

I NEED FRIENDS PPLZPSPSPSPSLSPSLSOSLPLS I NEED 2 YAP 2 OTHER PEOPLE PLEAS

MY DISCORD IS IN MY BIO THINGY

YOU DINT NEED MY PERMISIIN BTW

#multifandom #life of boris #life of anatoli #looking for mutuals #i need moots #please my life is so empty #and one #creepypasta

[gncrezan]

thoroughly enjoying @infamous-if so here's sketchdump of my post-read doodles before i run through it once again!!!!!!!!!

#p2 seven and aki are singing simple season h/ippo campus :) #slash is only in there so i dont clog the main band tag up !! i love them dearly i listened to lp3 drawing these #esp bc boys. is such a song for him . #infamous #infamous if #akihiro yasumi #seven lawless #there are more people here but i am not strong enough to tag everyone. sorry #also please don't be fooled by what looks like me leaning towards seven. aki is about to pipebomb all his relationships #mostly by flirting w anything that moves and being the most sagittarius man of ALL TIME!!!!! #also im enjoying his stage name w regards to his backstory #akihiro wanting to keep his private life as private as possible bc he believes there is like #a persona that he has to project as a singer. and it should be his love for the craft that his fans see #also akihiro: and i will make my stage name quite literally mean empty house in japanese #'somebody FOLLOW ME i'm DISTRAUGHT' sort of energy #my art #edit: adjusted the picture just slightly cause i realised exported it odd...

[pineapple-frenzy]

More 96z catboys cause they're the catboy line of all time

#seventeen #svt #96z #jun #hoshi #wonwoo #woozi #kpop #my art #putting them in situations cause they live in a slice of life comedy manga to me <333 #hopefully it's not too confusing which drawings and panels go together #please enjoy looking through these cause i had fun drawing them #still didn't get to draw everything i wanted so we're saving those ideas up for another canvas akdjkakxlsk #no thoughts head empty #just the catboy line doing catboy things

[rithmeres]

genuinely these panels are going to make me ugly cry

#i'm not back for real yet i think i want to stay away longer. i'm just here to put more things in the queue and answer messages #i really enjoyed trimax vol 4 idk something about it was less miserable than 1-3 #might have been the first volume that i wasn't grimacing the entire time i read it. or maybe i'm just desensitized now. #unironically this prayer is soooo beautiful to me. give us this day our daily bread. not bread for the week not bread for a year #just enough for today. #lately when i've been praying it just looks like #please for the love of god please please please please please PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPL #things are not looking good for the community house.. lots bureaucracy with the city. and the church that funded us is falling apart #i don't know what i'm going to do if we get shut down it's the one thing in my life that's worth anything #all those kids... where are they going to go. who is going to help them. where is the neighborhood going to get their food. #in two days it will be the anniversary of [REDACTED] and i am so so so scared #just sat in my room today and fruitlessly scrolled thru jobs im not qualified for & tried not to think about thinking about killing myself #i don't WANT to kill myself i don't want to think about it i hate thinking about killing myself i will never ever kill myself or even try #but there is a demon or perhaps a ghost or evil wizard that tells me there's an easy way everything can go away. and it's A STUPID. BITCH. #please do not reply to this post i know you all mean well but i just don't think i can handle it. #talking about it i mean. and hearing people say nice but empty things. #i just wish i had someone to sit next to me. #personal #i don't want to go to church tomorrow :( it all feels so fake and i do not ever feel fed.

[soldier-poet-king]

I have too many emotions in too quick a succession with periods of severe emptiness in between I just. I don't have time to PROCESS any of them. It's like I've been incurring an emotional 'debt' for 27 years.

#this is insane ik as the hyperemotional 24/7 guy but also like #all the work stuff. the move stuff. #r&g last night. time change giving me mood swings. PATHFINDER TONIGHT WAS INSANE #soooo good and such fun rp #but also OUCH MY EMOTIONS. i wouldn't trade it for the world but i sure am experiencing SMTHN #given the whole manipulative mentor people pleasing sense of self woth thing #PLUS A COOL GF??? I WANT A COOL GF #and then just this last bit of an astarion fic that made me cry #in terms of just. emptiness. gentleness. how do you move on. how do you build a life #when you didn't expect there to be an after? #how do you free yourself when everything you are was shaped by that person #how do i free myself when everything i am was shaped by my parents #and its just constantly this bitter ache and anger #the upcoming move its like. im in the same city how can i get a clean break #i feel guilty for wanting it but also. fuck i need it #how can i build a life for myself. yknow? #anyway. im uhhh. a lil fragile. a lot stressed abt work stuff. joints been hurting a lot lately too. #i am so hungry. ever hungry. for the unnamed thing. #the duality of fran #anyway. shits wild and that is both good and bad and also neither??? maybe??? #i am trying to find meaning and purpose in it all. or to create it. #i am a skittish stray but i am also kissing you all gently on the forehead. idk. i can be both things at once maybe

[hyacinths-in-a-storm]

Genuinely what was going through Iroh’s mind as he said that fighting the Firelord was the ‘Avatar’s battle’. Yeah I understand that history will see it as a power grab, but I think we have bigger problems than that. Like, I don’t know, THE FACT THAT SOZIN’S COMET IS IN A FEW HOURS AND THE AVATAR IS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND.

#Bro was like I’m going to let this thirteen year old with a year of training fight my brother #who was been training longer then has been conscious for #Instead of me #someone who has dedicated his whole life to the art of bending #Not surprising coming from the guy who let his 17 year old nephew rule a war-torn nation #Just go fight your brother dude please #Iroh is a 100x funnier when you realize he’s literally the epitome of “head empty” #he just gets possessed by the spirit of idioms past every now and then #He’s literally doing what Zuko did in Ba Sing Se (saying everything was great and fine when it was clearly not) #except for a much longer period of time #he is so used to having his way that he just lives in his own world of ‘everything will work out in the end’ #this makes me think Iroh and Zuko are foils honestly #Azula and Iroh on the other hand are cinematic parallels #that’s why they hate each other #to some extent they know how destructive their mindset is but will never admit it #so instead they utterly despise each other #Would this technically make Ozai and Zuko cinematic parallels as well???? #because oh boy that would be ironic and messy #I don’t know why this turned into a character study of Iroh and the fire nation royal family but oh well #iroh #ozai #aang #zuko #azula #atla #avatar the last airbender

[rosielav]

Desperately need to find another currently ongoing podcast to listen to. I have nothing in my feed that releases new episodes except for MBMBAM and that's not nearly as exciting as I'd like it to be haha

PLEASE REC ME YOUR FAVORITE PODCASTS, PREFERABLY ONES STILL ONGOING OR WITH LOTS OF EPISODES!!!

Blease 😭😭😭😭

#Podcasts #podcast recommendation #Blease I keep getting recommended stuff that ended five years ago #Or only has like half a dozen episodes #Like I refuse at this point in my life to watch anime that is 12 episodes or less #Bc you just don't get enough substance #I'm very sure all these short podcasts are fun lil tidbits of comedy and horror and stuff #But I need something I can really sink my teeth into if you get me #Like my perfect ideal podcast is as follows #Ongoing with a full catalogue of previous episodes plus supplementary episodes or side stories that offer context #I need something to look forward to but also something to listen to right now #Camp here and there has been interesting but it's only 34 episodes and I'm literally about to finish the entire series #I don't feel satisfied when I finish something I feel empty which I'm sure could be psychoanalyzed to mean lots of bad stuff #So yes anyways lol I struggle to finish things that are short or have been finished for years #I can't bring myself to finish wolf 359 or the am Archives #For two drastically different reasons but still #The Amelia Project I was excited to csthc up on and now I'm excited for next season #Same with Victoriocity and the white Vault #But every other podcast I've listened to is completely finished and for one podcast I'm just not interested in the sequel #So yea... Please. Rec me something long and ongoing.... Blease.

[teh-inggris]

is this........ is this... javier (and lloyd)'s official voice.......

#the brief lloyd voice..... im normal im so normal #he sounds like a little shit i need more pleaseeee give me more crumbs sir please i will build you a temple in the blink of an eye #for one line of lloyds dialogue........ #I literally had to type out all that text manually im taking korean lessons srsly because of that man #you guys dont understand he affects my life decisions #empty chattering

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

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How to explain that going to church makes me hurt and angry, but not going to church makes me sad and depressed.

#I need to go to Mass. I need to get over the anxiety mental block and just go. #blue chatter #it’s just. I’ve only gone a couple times this semester and every time has left me feeling more empty and hurt than when I walked in #and I know Mass is more than just how you feel. and that it matters that I am there where God calls me to be #I know. #I wish nobody there knew me so they wouldn’t be so worried and ask questions about where I’ve been #it’s like. I cannot possibly explain to my church friends why I haven’t been showing up. #it’s not even scrupulosity anymore it’s just. I can’t be here. I don’t belong here. #and the new priest is trying *so hard*. I’ve been honest with him about how I’m struggling. #but it’s just. there’s something missing. he wants to include the congregation but fundamentally doesn’t understand what that means. #‘everyone is welcome. No I will not make an effort to include marginalized people. they’re welcome bc they can Walk In The Door.’ #and I know it’s not that the church has changed #if anything I’d be having the same issues with the old priest. I’m the one who’s changed. #but instead of spending my Sundays with God I’m just. melting into a puddle of Sad. and that’s not good for my faith life. #I need to do *something*. I just. any time I think of trying a new church i feel exhausted. #God please help me. #I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t want to be alone and miserable and losing touch with my faith

[stalactites]

think i'm gonna see saw x for my birthday <- why is saying see saw so embarrassing.... literally they call it saw because once you see it you saw it

#so far no one's bought tickets for the time i wanna go so everybody cross your fingers i get to see it alone #ain't that the saddest thing you've ever heard in your life #me going to see a movie in an empty theater by myself on my birthday #i'm lying that sounds perfect to me i really need the theater to be empty by the time i get out of my night class PLEASE #if not i'll go get a drink by myself before heading home i guess

[running-in-the-dark]

sooooo

I'm 32 now

when can I expect to finally grow out of getting obsessed with men people stuff? I'm waiting....

#I doooo not want it #it's embarrassing #can it stop please #BUT also can I not feel depressed and like an empty shell when it's not happening #I mean I can handle it when it's things. hobbies. shows. whatever #sure it usually ends up being expensive as fuck but #at least I don't go around humiliating myself by talking about nothing but a random guy for months on end #how embarrassing! I think a man is hot! I must jump off a cliff immediately #but whyyyy can't I be normal about it at least #other people get obsessed with normal things! like. idk. anything else #soo anyway the opening narration for the texas chainsaw massacre is great isn't it? he did such a good job :) what a nice voice :) I am not #going to be weird about this man any longer :) no I won't! I'm normal about him! I don't want to bite him or chew on his face or anything #like that. just normal things. uh. sex? that's what people usually want. yeah fine that. I mean I do. want. oh I think I'm doing it again #haha no it's fine I just think he's neat (he's the only person on earth no one else exists anymore he's so beautiful oh my god have you seen #his little face he looks like a cute little potato I've never seen anything prettier in my life haha I need to run my hands through his hair #and have you seen how tall he is and he's so cute and I need to. be taken outside and shot. god. #I keep. shrieking. every time I see him. at such a high frequency that it hurts my own fucking ears. because. I can't believe that he exists #I'm. so. stupid!!!! #annnd repeat this every time this happens blah blah blah i should jsut delete this blog right now oh my GOD.

[blujayonthewing]

reflecting on how all of my other DMs have gone above and beyond to lovingly weave my and my friends' backstory elements into the larger worldbuilding of the campaign by contrast to all of the ways Elyss' DM has gone out of his way to suppress or excise any influences her family may have ever had on anything and I'm genuinely near tears over it

#'I'm so surprised that Elyss wasn't more interested in going to her mom's hometown now that you're in her homelands!' #YOU! CHANGED Nami's backstory so that she never traveled anywhere before having Elyss #and YOU decided that she never tells Elyss literally anything even when directly asked #because you're so desperate to make sure your players never know literally anything about whatever might happen to them ever #YOU made it feel not only unrewarding but as if it was actively unwelcome for you if I even talked to my mother!! #'we're making this very dangerous journey (that you've been retconned not to have made yourself so you can't spoil it)-- #--assuming we survive can you please tell us anything at all about what to expect the other country to be like?' #'well. it is different than here. it may not be what you expect.' #'oooh why didn't you go to hometown' SUCK MY DICK I ASSUMED YOU'D BE ANNOYED IF I WENT THERE HOPING TO FIND ANYTHING #of course ELYSS wants to try to touch any part of her own heritage she can!! #do you think she doesn't wonder whether she has family there? do you think maybe it's weird that she doesn't already know?? #when *I* built Elyss' mother I made her a traveler from a far-off land so neither of us had to worry about it #YOU decided to send us to THAT far-off land specifically and then REFUSE to let Nami actually TELL me anything about it!! #feels very much like you don't want me to engage with that! feels very much like you ACTIVELY don't want me to explore that connection! #and if it felt like *Nami* was being secretive about it then Elyss would be even more keen to investigate herself-- #but it's just part of a well-established pattern of NPCs going 'it's a secret teehee' for very obviously no other reason than that-- #the DM just doesn't ever want us to have information even if NPCs have that information and have no reason not to share it #anyway. tl;dr grief over elyss yearning her whole life for somewhere to belong #but not going to her mother's birthplace because she has no reason to believe there's anything there for her. #for purely stupid empty meta reasons. #'I'm surprised you didn't go there 👀' so maybe he had something! #but my mother-- through you-- was so cagey about whether her parents even exist that I kind of just figured you didn't! so!! #about me #my OCs #elyss

[this-should-do]

Freeman has neither the time nor the patience to deal with cowards who wont do their job, especially when they stop him from doing his

#gordon freeman #half life #blood tw #idoindeeddraw #oh m y fucking gooood finally its fucking finished #is it my best work? no! do i give a crap? no! done is better than not and this was a good idea so i wanted to finish it #anyways love doing comic based on in game events #like me having a bad day and losing my patience when i couldnt get a guard to do his job so i pushed him down stairs and then #slapped him when he continued not doing his job becuz vr controls are weird and vr lets u have empty hands #anyways inifnitely fond of the face gordon makes right before he slaps this poor guard lol #like please dont make it at me but do it again its a good look #also loving the concept where if this follows the black mesa series of events this guard gets beat to shit by aalien grunt after gordon #goes thru the door to get chased down by a goliath lol #anywyas please enjoy my desperate effort to finish a project thats been sittin gopen in krita for almost 2 months now lol #going insane with relief #but ye as much fun as makin gordon feel sad and alone and pathetic #it is equally as fun to make him have sum moments of not being a perfect victim son #hes ruthless and sumtimes u gotta be a lil forceful to get to ur goal so u gotta be a lil bad #cant be perfect all da time its just not fun #and its also simply unrealistic for everyone of these cops to be willing to follow everytime cuz like (gestures to real life in frustration) #but yeah angry gordon very good concept #peace out im gonna go eat the freeze dried bananas i promised myself as a reward for finishing this comic lol

[mazojo]

#stooooppppppPP that one speech game be Eliot from ph flashbacks #your life matters’!!!! 💀💀💀💀 deseased gotta be my favorite trope #please tell me he is alive and well pleASE #hey uH I started trigun and I am on ep 6 and woah I see the hyperfixation coming fellas😀😀😀 they make me 😀😀😀😀😀 #so many thots head so very empti rn #trigun stampede #Nicholas #vash #the animation is so pretty too!! #I just KNOW he is gonna die he is giving me Eliot vibes and I know how this ends please hell me i a wrong

[larrysballetslippers]

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#it's been a while that I put something in the tags but Im very lost atm for reasons i don't know #i don't know if Im nervous to see my friendgroup from uni again because my ex crush is going to be there and I have to pretend everything is #fine while also not getting frustrated by that toxic friend that I can't stand anymore #or if it's because im feeling so damn empty from getting on a dating app after being rejected by said ex crush #i don't know know why Im on there my friend said it was an good idea but Im already regretting but I can't just delete it or whatever #because I actually have some people I have been talking to but why do I feel so empty then?? #why does it feel like my life has been sucked out of me today? it can't just me the amount of interaction im sure that's not it. #i thought ... i thought this would make me happy to try bew things to get more attention from people get more confident #but why can't I shake this depression like feeling off #because I know this feeling well but I hope it doesn't stay please don't stay #how will I get better like this? am I still healing? i know I am but I was fine just yesterday just yesterday I didn't think of him #so why can't I shake this? #i have no answers I have nothing and I can't talk to anyone about it either because I don't even know what's going on #please just let me understand so I can heal this fix this #please just make me okay again #i can't start the year like this #please

[babblingbranches]

Huh, I was a little surprised that a lot of people were upset by the Collector leaving. Like, if I was cosmically powerful being stuck in a mirror for multiple centuries, I’d probably want to go see what the stars had to offer. Besides, it’s not like he doesn’t go back to the Boiling Isles. The series even ended with them giving a light show when they happened to be in the area.

#The Owl House #The Owl House Spoilers #Maybe it’s just my stray cat tendencies where I just come and go as I please #So I didn’t really see any issues with this #Even more so when the being in question has the power of the cosmos at their fingertips #It’s like the frog in the well except instead it was a bird in the well not knowing of what the world has to offer #Also I just realized #Other people might’ve been working with the assumption that space would be largely empty #but I was working with the assumption that the space of this universe had a bunch of different life on different planets