#questioning npd

[zachywackyman]

God thought my personality was lacking so he gave it a ✨disorder✨

#mental ilness #bpd stuff #npd safe #questioning npd #personality disorder #borderline pd

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Bpd (+ possible npd?) culture is always feeling like the attention is on you but its always either "everyone loves me/has a crush on me" or "everyone knows everything bad I did and hates me and trash talks me"

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#cluster b culture is #anonymous #cluster b #mod orange #bpd #npd #bpd culture is #npd culture is #bpd + npd #bpd + npd culture is #possible npd #possible npd culture is #bpd + possible npd #bpd + possible npd culture is #questioning npd #questioning npd culture is #bpd + questioning npd #bpd + questioning npd culture is #actually borderline #actually bpd

[pain-is-my-game]

If I don't get any attention from anyone in the next 30 seconds I will spontaneously combust into flames.

#i will never care if you reblog #idek what to tag this #npd #npd safe #questioning npd #bpd mood #bpd #thoughts to throw into the void

[eternalplutoniangoddess]

realizing that i don't actually "love" someone, but i see myself in them and that 's how I get attached to them is very mind-blowing

it's like damn, i was just in love with the parts of myself that i hate/my true personality in general

#no wonder all my relationships end up shitty #questioning npd #npd #self love #aromantic #aro #arospec #aroace #ramblings

[system-splintered]

This might be a surprise but I often don't see most people as equal to me. Not that they aren't people, more that I and the person/people I value are something greater, as the definition of something is defined by the majority of what that thing is, so the majority of people being basically, well, moronic animals, it's a feature of humanity. A select few, my partner, sometimes a few others irl, and some people I know from here and discord, I see as more than that, but most people are just... An obstacle, or a tool, to me. I try not to let that affect how I treat people but that's often difficult for me. I'm nice, even charming on occasion, to most people I meet, particularly when certain parts are in front, or I see the person I'm meeting as potentially useful as an ally, but it's not because I feel like they deserve the kind of respect I maintain for people I truly care about from me. It's because people are nicer to you if you're nice first. Even if it's "fake" nice, as long as you don't tell anyone (that's two-faced, also a crime in the eyes of egotypicals) they genuinely don't seem to notice that it's all an act.

I think most people deserve the maintenance of this veneer of respect, as not doing so is typically offensive, but genuine respect is vulnerability, and I only show my belly to those I both see as my equal, and whom I trust not to bite and tear at my softness.

Sometimes someone will be in this group of equals in my eyes, and they say or do something I resent, and a switch flips in my brain, and I just don't give a fuck about them anymore.

It worries me that one day, my partner is gonna be one of them. So far, she's my longest lasting exception to the rule of generally not liking or respecting or showing vulnerability to anyone.

She's also the only one genuinely in the position of having earned my complete respect and admiration. For everyone else, it's been temporary and negotiable, able to be lost and at its root, incomplete. For her it's been nearly eight years, and a lot of mistakes, and it still hasn't gone away, but every time my symptoms flare and the group of people I see as even worth giving the time of day shrinks, my concern grows that the only person I've ever truly loved unconditionally, will turn out to have some conditions after all.

She's the only one I care about the opinion of. And she knows how I feel about most of humanity and agrees with me.

I think we both may have ASPD.

#Questioning ASPD #Questioning NPD #Any advice from people who do have either of those conditions is appreciated at this time #About whether loved ones who one's PD works differently for stay that way or are temporary #About how to get out of a flare too would be cool... I'm getting kind of annoyed at how angry and bored and frustrated I am lately #Finding out about these kind of thoughts about people not being the norm was a fucking ride tbh.

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd + suspected npd cultite culture is talking and enjoying your time with your fp and as SOON as they stop talking to you you immediately start splitting on them. like why did you stop talking to me? its better hanging out with me than whatever the fuck youre doing right now, i dont give a fuck if youre busy or something just hang out with me!!! im literally better than anyone you talk to or anything that youre doing, youre literally just wasting ur fucking time !! ughhhhrr

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[lulladae]

fun fact! if you use the term "narcissistic abuser" or use "narcissist" in a bad way at all around me, you instantly die.

#narc isn't derived from narcissist but if you use it in a way in which it seems like it could be you also die #by my hands? who knows #the cops sure don't #this doesn't apply to narcissists who are venting about their disorder #just to be clear. #internalized ableism does exist though so be careful #npd safe #npd #actually narcissistic #questioning npd #questioning narcissist

[impure-as-a-lamb]

i will boop every pwnpd !!! i love you!!!!!!

#npd #npd safe #npd traits #questioning npd #cluster b #cluster b safe #boops for everyone

[the-save-star-anomaly]

TO MY FELLOW PwNPD!!!! I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLL!!!! SHOUTING FROM THE ROOFTOPS!!!!!! KICK ASS!!!!! PUNCH HATERS!!!!!! YALL HAVE THE SWAG!!!! DONT LISTEN TO THE STUPID!!!!!!!!!! HEART EMOJI HEART EMOJI HEART EMOJI HEART EMOJI

#[MO]: magnumOopsies #actually npd #npd positivity #questioning npd #npd safe #npd #cluster b #actually cluster b #actually narcissistic

[gaykneecaps]

i love my (internet) sister so much i told her that we probably have NPD and she literally just responded with this emoji: 🤩

im so done with her /pos

#actually npd #npd safe #npd #npd positivity #questioning npd #actually narcissistic #cluster b #actually cluster b

[deceiver-of-god]

Probably I'm faking having NPD... *spends half an hour adoring his own reflection like fucking Narcissus*.

#actually narcissistic #actually npd #narcissistic personality disorder #narcissistic #npd positivity #npd safe #cluster b #actually cluster b #questioning npd

[pain-is-my-game]

Sometimes I sit and think about how nobody will ever show me affection in the same way I show it to others and I wonder why I'm even going out of my way to do this all in the first place.

#why don't you compliment me excessively like i do for you #im always there for you #why isn't anyone there for me #why do i have to be like this #i will never care if you reblog #questioning npd #questioning bpd #npd feels #npd safe #bpd feels #bpd safe #npd #thoughts to throw into the void

[sideblogforbeingquestionable]

chat is it okay if I want people to pay attention to me 24/7 and want to explode myself and everyone in the gc if someone dares ignore my text

#questioning npd

[narcissistic-radio-host]

I forgot about the possibility of having both. Now I'm confused. How the hell do you know if you have both? I have traits of NPD that I think are not present in BPD, and I relate to all of the NPD symptoms. Also, the more I research and listen to pwNPD and their experiences, the more I think I have it, yet I definitely know I have BPD (for new people, the BPD is prof. dx). The doctor didn't give me a reason as to why she was not convinced of NPD, the only thing she said is that it is more prevalent in males (I hate the sex statistics. I don't really believe in that). What the hell? I am so confused aaaa- I think I need someone with NPD or something explain it, idrk atp

#i am confusion #bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually bpd #actually borderline #actually cluster b #cluster b #bpd safe #npd safe #cluster b safe #questioning npd #npd #bpd + npd

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd + suspected npd culture is why the fuck am i obsessed with you and not you with me? it should be the other way around. everyone else should feel how i feel toward you, toward me. that's the right way. it's humiliating, being at someone's mercy like this. and yet so in love that you'd willingly let them humiliate you, stomp all over you, hurt you and it'll all feel good

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#mood #bpd + npd? cuture is #bpd + npd? culture #bpd + npd? #borderline personality disorder #bpd #bpd culture is #borderline culture is #bpd culture #bpd safe #actually borderline #actually bpd #questioning npd #npd #narcissistic personality disorder

[kaijugender]

Syscourse of the day: ooh how dare you use protector and persecutor and caretaker if you're not a system in the exact way we are

Me, a traumatised egotistical ~symptom holder~ in a mostly endo system giggling and kicking my legs: oh you noticed me? Does seeing me use language for its intended purpose of conveying shared experiences bother you, monarch? Are you gonna throw a fit if I don't immediately grovel and scrape to your personal interpretation of words? Tell me more~

#syscourse #fictive #endo safe #endos please interact #fakeclaimers fuck off with your entire shtick. you're not special #you are the 'ptsd only comes from being in a literal war' of syscourse and i'm tired #you want everything to yourself and you don't realise suffering is not zero sum! #npd safe #questioning npd