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Fluent Freshman - Part 23

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There were a few reasons that Andrew and Neil could not get past reception to go see FF or get updates on his current condition.

The first reason was that visiting hours were long over by the time they had arrived a little after midnight.

The second reason was that hospitals, in general, don’t just give out information on their patients to any random person that walks in and asks for an update on their condition. They are ESPECIALLY hesitant to give out updates on patients when the people who are asking can’t give you anything other than a first name, general description, and the reason that the patient is in the hospital.

Somehow “Completely average looking guy with the last name Smith who was stabbed in the stomach” is not enough for the receptionist to go off of.

“There are multiple people here that fit that description. I would need at least a first and last name before I could even begin to start seeing if you were someone who we even could give updates to. No, I will not continue to play your fun little game of guess the first name.” She says when Andrew opens his mouth to start listing off names alphabetically again.

So now Andrew and Neil found themselves under the watchful eye of a security guard as they sat in the back corner of the front reception area.

“I can’t believe we still don’t know what Smith’s first name is.” Neil says his face is buried in his hands as he and Andrew sit in the uncomfortable chairs trying to figure out where to go from here.

“I think she knows exactly who we want to see.” Andrew scowls towards the receptionist who, long used to the ire of the public, pays him no mind. Andrew just refused to believe that there were that many brown haired, brown eyed, average height and weight guys who had suffered a stab wound to the stomach that would have been admitted in the last two hours.

“I just hope they actually are looking after him and that no one went and forgot about him in an hallway somewhere.” Neil says hands sliding up into his hair to grip.

“That wouldn’t happen.” Andrew dismisses despite knowing that Wymack had ABSOLUTELY forgotten FF at a stadium once during the period where FF had been low presence to keep his family from bothering him.

The U-turn he had pulled had definitely been illegal when FF called and asked where the bus was when they had been on the road for five minutes. Wymack had felt terrible about it but FF had just seemed relieved that the bus had come back for him.

Wymack.

Andrew pulls out his phone and dials a familiar number. Wymack, reliable as always, picks up on the fourth ring with the sound of cursing as he got the phone up to his ear. “What.” He asks and Andrew can hear the sounds of driving and Kevin’s infamously train-like snoring in the background.

“What’s Smith first name. You know it.” Andrew demands.

“Classified.” Wymack clips back immediately.

“I need to know it so that we can get updates.” Andrew hisses.

“He isn’t interested in people knowing it and you wouldn’t be able to get updates anyways.” Wymack dismisses.

“We want to be able to head back to see him.” Neil tries.

“Visiting hours are long over Josten. You know that I’m not settling that bet that you little fuckers have floating around about this.” Wymack responds back.

Andrew grits his teeth and then forces himself to relax his jaw, “It’s not about the bet.” Andrew shuts his eyes in irritation.

That stupid bet.

The betting culture within the Palmetto State Foxes Exy team that Reynold’s had cultivated held strong even after her graduation with the remaining Foxes. The Bet had started when one of the other freshmen had mentioned that it was funny that FF went around like Cher or Madonna. The realization that none of them knew FF’s first name was one that had them placing bets on a multitude of things. Things like: “Do you wanna bet it’s a super normal boring name?”, “Do you wanna bet that it’s a weird foreign name?”, and “Is FF intentionally not giving it out to people or since he goes by his last name normally he has no idea that anything is amiss?” Had lower pools since you were betting on a spectrum. The bet with the highest pool is: “What is FF’s first name”.

Wymack had categorically refused to answer it and all other attempts to discover FF’s first name had been met with frustration. There was a solemn agreement that no one could just go and outright ask him since that would ruin all of the fun. Andrew had agreed to not ask when the team had collectively filled his freezer with ice cream cake and he was a man of his word.

The general belief (after the revelation of his major and the number of languages FF spoke) was that FF’s name was just not easy to pronounce for English speakers.

Andrew hadn’t participated but he know that the Foxes do have a running list of names they know it’s not. (Greg, Will, Smith (again), Matt, Kevin, Neil, Andrew, Aaron, Nathaniel, Jack, Beyonce (Sheena’s drunken guess), Nicholas, John, Fred, Garfield, Frank, Alfred, Augustus, Adam, etc. (Andrew had been trying to guess with the receptionist for a while))

“You’re coming here aren’t you? We can get updates when you get them.” Neil says.

“He’s in emergency surgery right now and will remain there for the next few hours most likely. There’s not going to be any updates hopefully.” Wymack says with a sigh loud enough that they can hear it over Kevin’s snoring.

“Surgery? He needs surgery?” Neil asks sounding surprised s if FF hadn’t been stabbed to the hilt into his stomach with one of Andrew’s knives. He’s about to give Neil some shit for the question before remembering that if there was any person who would think that a stab wound to the stomach wouldn’t necessitate surgery it would be Neil “I’m Fine” Josten.

“Yes Josten, he needs surgery. They have to stitch up his stomach and the surgeons are also going to be dealing with some of the ulcers that were ruptured by the knife.” Wymack explains likely coming to the same conclusion that Andrew had on Neil’s stupid question. “They were a bit worried about him bleeding out but he stabilized before the surgery.” Wymack sighs.

“I’m going the hospital since I’m Smith’s medical proxy. If anything goes wrong with the surgery I want to be there so I can make an informed decision on his care.” Wymack says and… Andrew figured there’d be surgery but to hear it and the possibility that something could go wrong, that the last thing FF had said to him had been something non-sensical about “Gracie Hart wouldn’t have gotten stabbed. I’m Cheryl at best.”as he’d started succumbing to all the blood loss. “If you could stick around long enough for me to drop Kevin off with you I would appreciate it.” Wymack says.

“What if he needs a blood transfusion?” Andrew says.

“Smith is AB-, it’s the second easiest blood type to transfuse into. Go home Andrew.” Wymack repeats.

Andrew works his jaw irritated that there didn’t seem to be a path to getting his way.

“We’ll stay here until you get here.” Andrew agrees, “But you’ll get an update before we leave.” He adds.

Wymack sighs, “Fair enough.” He says before hanging up.

It’s 45 minutes of waiting and tossing a few more name possibilities at the receptionist who seems more amused than anything at their continued attempts to guess their friend’s first name (Neil goes through the entire list of names that he’s gone by and none of them get the thumbs up).

Wymack comes through the doors with a half awake Kevin Day following his steps. “I have another favor to ask you.” Wymack says instead of any form of greeting.

“I’m not going to leave Kevin in the car overnight again. It was just that one time.” Andrew says with a roll of his eyes and honestly he’d been punished enough listening to Kevin bitch, moan, and sneeze for the following week while talking about all the supplements he was taking.

“Not that,” Wymack pauses, “I have two favors to ask you. First don’t do that. Second, would you be able to pick up Smith’s grandma from the airport tomorrow?” He asks.

Andrew blinks.

“She’s coming here?” He asks.

“I updated her on my way here. She booked a flight and will be arriving around noon tomorrow.” Wymack says and Andrew doesn’t know why he’s confused by this. FF’s grandma got him two still warm pies to cheer him up on Thanksgiving.

He’d stabbed that woman’s grandson.

“I’ll pick her up.” He agrees.

Shorter one today

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#Fluent Freshman AU #Might be taking a bit of a break after this post #I wanna figure out the overarching joke of the next part #So FF is under the knife getting stitched up so he doesn't make an in person appearance this chapter #Kevin is coming along with Wymack because he wants to figure out the recovery time and PT FF will need #They were planning on having him be the starting Dealer next season #Honestly he can't BELIEVE that Romero would fuck up his line-up like this #Yes Kevin is aware that he is not the Captain #FF never lets anyone forget who the Captain is #It's Captain Neil #Neil and Andrew try to become close to the receptionist so she will release FF's first name #But god they are both super bad at small talk #Andrew and Neil: So...busy day? #Receptionist: Actually considering the fact its Black Friday it wasn't that bad #Neil: Is it...is it that dangerous? (Thinking about FF this morning) #Receptionist: I've seen body builders get their thigh bones snapped in half by exhausted stay at home moms for a blender you tell me #Neil: Anyone from the (location) Target? #Receptionist: Oh that was a bloodbath didn't you see the news? #The misconception that FF is a cool badass guy continues to grow throughout the Foxes #AFTG #AFTG AU #AFTG OC #AFTG Fic #FF - Pt 23

[omaano]

…. It was a mistake to put Din next there for size comparison 😭 also I’ll very badly need some help with writing the dialogue whenever I get there, or it will be a “This is the Way” interaction back and forth and I’m only half joking XD

#I wanted to crop that part out for a reason orz #Wip #my art #paz vizsla #let no one tell you that spite is not a good source of motivation #as far as I’m concerned Paz only needs some recovery time he is perfectly fine and will soon give Din hell for his parenting style #can’t believe this is the reason why I’m finally sitting down to draw Paz for the first time #I’ll take no criticism on the minigun I refuse to stare at it any more #dinpaz #hades AU #a commission and my shoulder is giving me hell so some lining was what I needed obviously lol #it’s armor armor like…. lol I just need s good nights sleep please

[divinekangaroo]

a home painted bright with blood and thorns - pettiot - Peaky Blinders (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

Ch 1 | Ch 2 | Ch 3 | Ch 4 | Ch 5 | (COMPLETE)

After the S4-S6 election/marriage, pre-S5. Some months into Tommy and Lizzie's marriage.

This frequently absent father and husband considers that he often does his best work in extreme circumstances: time pressure, resource constraints, situational uncertainty, high stakes, and gross emotional wounding. He knows what to do, doesn't he?

No matter what sort of internal spiralling disaster cascade he's busily ignoring inside. No matter what badly considered spur of the moment decisions he makes to get through the moment that he might pay for later. No matter what—

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Tommy Shelby/Lizzie Stark, Charles Shelby, Ruby Shelby, Arthur Shelby, Frances, Various Shelby Household Maids, Charles Strong, Cyril the Dog, | Domesticity, Intimacy, Menstruation, Bodily Fluids, Bodily Solids, Bodily Functions, Babies, Lactation, Mental Health Issues, Repression, Abusive Families (Past), Attempts at Communicating, Trying Hard, Family Trauma, Family Feels, Nail-Biting, Household Dynamics, Absent Father, Avoidance, Deflection, Trying Sooooooooooo Hard, Distress, Comfort Sex, Dysfunctional Family, Contraception, Spiralling, Intrusive Thoughs, Mild Paranoia, Grief, The Lasting Legacy of Catholicism, Fear of Mental Illness

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#peaky blinders #my writing #peaky blinders fanfic #tommy x lizzie #charles shelby #ruby shelby #arthur shelby #Guest Starring the Ghosts Of (Mrs Shelby)(Alfie Solomons)(Grace Shelby)(all them other hauntings on the January) #the many times i weave sabini's assault into things; of all the horrible matters inflicted on tommy it's *that* one which burns me #i think it's because S2 is where the things done to him and that he is forced to do collapse the possibility of his recovery #so it's almost as if childhood was being forced to line up for war; wwi was being forced to climb the cliff; #s2 is where he's kicked off the cliff despite him clinging on all season; then it's all hitting the rocks on the way down from then #this was a fascinating writing experience because i handwrote it all first in one week late Feb then did a type-up and detailed edit #still contemplating what this experience has taught me about writing mediums/forms #certainly i could not do it with longer chapters but i *could* do it with a longer story #seems 2500 words makes a decent scene/chapter size of managable editability on a progressive basis #i know lots of fellow writers do the 'why do you talk so much about wordcount just write' but when time is limited the size/format- #-significantly impacts my ability to be productive. like the difference between doing a full scale wall mural versus a handsketch i need to #-match the form to the available window to produce the form #(remembering that one time i did a full wall mural: duration measured by all 6 seasons of X-Files running in the background whilst doing it

[merverelli]

👼🗡️ toddiel, the golden sword of the inconquerable dawn. 👼🗡️

#brennan lee mulligan #fallen for you #just like art #love this boy #yes this is fanart of a 7 year old video #but in my defence: im currently recovering from surgery so i can do no wrong rn #also: i got surgery to hopefully help my chronic pain!! it was a minor surgery too thankfully so im all good rn #the hospital i went to had VERY good homemade mini margarita pizzas and that was basically all i ate there #fucking ruled actually #and the worst part of recovery should be over (excluding physio etc) so thats cool too! fuck crutches all my homies hate crutches #been using recovery as an excuse to get into traditional art again bc its easier to do than digital art after my surgery #turns out im bad at traditional art #i fucked up lining the first try of this and had to redo the whole thing. i then fucked up lining the second try near the end. #i then decided to try to save it. #you need to ignore the white out stains because there was no way i was gonna be able to attempt lining this a third time. #i then found out i have neither a peach tone coloured marker or pencil. #this fanart damn near broke me. #fuck traditional art. my heart goes out to every traditional artist. #so theres my life update!! v busy (i have fused to the couch) #hope youre doing good champ ily thanks for reading i love our lil chats

[g36a2]

not the worst of lapham's crimes but tommy's short hair being a symbol of recovery was evil.

#this with tommy's ''saving the world'' line is so. #it should have been longer at the wedding. #g36a20p027 #like he doesn't get to keep any of the personality we saw him have prior to his recovery! #''a healthy happy man would not think badly of his brother's military service!'' all that really was the drugs + riley sr speaking #what about loving your brother despite believing the path your father's abuse has set him on is the wrong one... same as you? #what about reckoning with the fact that some of the things your abusive shithead father said were right? #tommy and riley sr shit on simon's service because they wanted to hurt simon. so it would have been the perfect plot twist #had tommy retained those views once recovered and in a better place. impactful even #but of course not. riley sr said those things BECAUSE he is an abusive shithead. and tommy because he was in a dark place #and it's so much more compelling to jumpcut to the most cartoonishly happy family of all time being fridged #like man simon changes the trajectory of tommy's life by loving him and staying with him through the worst of it #meanwhile tommy changes simon's life by fucking dying. and it's tragic but for me the emotional impact of this tragedy is tainted #because out of cowardice the writers kill tommy riley twice #first by discrediting what he stood for while an addict and only then by actually killing him off #you can even still kill him off. simon and tommy have a row about his being in the military and then boom dead family #keep everything about tommy as seen in the comics except have him be a counterweight to simon ''i kill killers not arabs'' riley #extra angst extra unfinished business AND tommy's character is not assassinated #FUCK! the comics could have been GOOD! #this is the exact same reluctance to depict anything even remotely anti-war that led mw3r's dogshittification #which is bizarre since my anti-war tommy conspiracy could still be vindicated through pro-boot eyes #since his role is to die his character coulda had a saving pvt. ryan-esque ''the naive are destroyed by the peace they advocate'' type deal #like them not having tommy believe the things he did post recovery reveal a genuine contempt for anti-war thinking #it's like the writers genuinely thought they wrote tommy overcoming multiple character flaws. nightmarish! #so i guess tommy's short hair is one of lapham's worst crimes as it reveals a disturbingly sincere veneration for the status quo during #twenty-fucking-ten of all times!!!

[constantvariations]

So either Wilt turned into a giant phillips head screwdriver offscreen, they’re trying to imply that Beacon wasn’t the first time Adam stabbed Blake, or the writers forgot their character’s canonical injuries. Again

#rwde #a good portion of my current essay is dedicated to talking abt the abuse the show tried to push so currently rewatching/researching #granted ive never experienced anything like this so im merely speculating w the info ive gathered thus far #but #i find it so hard to believe that adam prior to the separation was abusive bc blake doesnt show any signs of it while at beacon #if adam was violent enough to stab her before then shouldnt she be terrified for her life even while safe inside beacons walls? #shouldnt she be jumping at every sound or constantly having a death grip on gambol shroud like she does in v4? #the contrast between the two is genuinely startling #blake after the trailer is reclusive and aloof but shes got zero problems getting in peoples faces when needed #shes full of life and confidence which is a total contrast to her post beacon where shes paranoid and confused #and not once does she ever talk abt adams treatment of her. every issue she talks abt in 4 is abt her participating in the wfs violence #i cant tell if the writers didnt know how to write an abuse recovery arc or if they forgot #actually its probs along the lines of they cant write multiple things at once #thats why every time they talk blake is all 'peace not war' and adams like 'this is my yandere phase' #their dialogue doesnt match its hilarious and infuriating

[just-rogi]

Some Fatphobia activists see someone having a conversation about restrictive ED’s and somehow make about themselves. ED survivors have a hard enough time coming out and talking about it publicly- Without having people shout that they are fatphobic for talking about it (as If plus sized people can’t also have restrictive Ed’s ???)

#I’ve been seeing a lot of hate to Taylor’s music video #where she brings up how she had an Ed #that almost Fucking killed her #like it’s literally in the lyrics of multiple songs where she opens up about it publicly #when I first heard those lines I literally cried because FUCK someone’s talking about it #there is a time and a place to talk about fatphobia- maybe it’s NOT the time when someone is having a discussion about ED publicly #I’m literally so angry about the public reaction to this #because holy shit a really famous person in the public eye talks about not only HAVING a restrictive ED #but how recovery doesnt = cured because you don’t ever fully recover you just get better sometimes #you don’t un-memorize how many calories are in an apple #you don’t just stop feeling your stomach drop when you see calories on menues #you relapse sometimes and it’s ugly and messy and gross and not owo cute aesthetic #and even after you’ve healed and done all the work to recover because you WANT that #you still sometimes can’t look at yourself in the mirrior because years later it still HURTS even though it was killing you- you miss it #and we have an A list celebrity talking about that and your response is to intentionally misinterpret it ?? and say she’s fatphobic??? #I’m literally so angry not even joking #tw Ed #tw eating disorder mention #tw food mention

[bastardcherub]

man. I genuinely wish all of You nothing but happiness. doesn’t even have to be joy, just peace and contentment

just. so much kindness. You all deserve so much better.

#(lots of personal stuff in the tags) #its been I think nearly 8 years now since I was in a psychiatry for the first time #and like. I don’t remember much from that time #but I do remember how hopeless everything felt #it felt like such a fucking waste of time. like my doom was inevitable #and here I am now #my life is nothing like I thought it would be #it sure as fuck isn’t perfect. I struggle daily #but I can genuinely say I am at a point in life where I have found peace with how things are #and can find joy in small things every day #and that’s closer to paradise than I ever thought I could get #and I know it’ll only get better from here #to add to this: it was NOT a straight line of recovery #I was in a clinic again over new years #but I am here. I have hope. I am genuinely #like #good? #not in the GOOD!!! way but. again. in a sorta. hey this is how it is and I am still worthy and will still find happiness #sorta way #I’m happier than I’ve ever been. GENUINE happiness. #and joy. genuine joy. #and yes my thoughts still try to disagree #but I don’t listen to them anymore. I tell them it’s okay to be scared of the unknown but that we can do it together #anyways this is. way more personal than I ever expected something on this blog to be #just. know there is hope. please. #angel rambles

[theygender]

*checking the tracking information for my package from under a pile of overpriced teas and vitamins* this next herbal supplement will fix me

#g o d what is up with my brain thats been making everything so hard recently #like. im in a job that im MUCH happier with now and loving it. im no longer living a waking trauma nightmare as a call center sup #...why is my brain acting like im forcing it on a trek through fucking mordor just trying to get through a normal day at work #im on break from school. why am i not able to do any of the things that i wanted to do during the semester but was too busy for #why am i not able to do anything that i want to do and if i DO manage to do it why am i not able to enjoy it #why am i living like every moment of my life in fear that im wasting my time or doing something wrong or not good enough #and like i KNOW the answers are adhd and depression and anxiety #but my buddy. my pal. @ the wrinkly fleshy thing in my skull #im on 6 different psychiatric medications with a total of up to 11 individual pills per day. im actively in therapy and have been for years #and my life is currently much better than it maybe has ever been! WHY am i still struggling so hard 😭 #like i know recovery isnt a straight line and etc etc but like. it just feels like im doing everything im 'supposed' to do so what gives #so. gonna start drinking more plants i guess and see if that helps. im already on some that seem to help but i think i need more now #bc im having a bad time in my brain prison tbh :( #im not even like upset typing all this out either im just like. bewildered. incredulous. exhausted #lets hope this new overpriced tea fixes me i guess #rambling

[heavensickness]

Bloomic guys as The Sims 4 traits

Quest: good, active, neat

nightowl: outgoing, jealous, art lover

toasty: geek, genius, insider

xyx: noncommittal, adventurous, romantic, gloomy

onion: overachiever, perfectionist, family oriented, mean

#the lined ones can change over time #with enough recovery #blooming panic #bloomic #quest #xyx #nightowl #onionthief

[welcometomybrainagain]

Hi. I’m an addict. And this shit is about to get real. I’ve lived on subs (suboxone) for 5 years, almost 6. It was supposed to be only for a year or until I felt stable enough. This is for my fellow addicts and those of you who love an addict. I want to be normal. We. Want. To. Be. Normal. We want to wake up without questioning how we will ever live without dependin on something. I want silence. I want peace more than anything. I want to be happy. The oceans I have cried from wishing I could just turn back time. Wishing I had never tasted something so peaceful. I wish to be entertained by something I don’t have to take. I wish to find entertainment or stimulation in anything without having to take something to not feel numb. Don’t get me wrong, I only relapsed once in my first few months of being on subs. I’ve done good. But what they don’t tell you is how long you might stay on them. How long will this go on for? I’ve had so many jobs since being on them and I can’t focus. I feel stupid because I begin to think too complex about simple things. I wonder when I will ever be able to function like any other adult. When will I be able to rely on me and know that I am in fact reliable? I’ve been asked what my goals are for the year,but I can never say my real answer. Because they are too easy for most. But for an addict it feels impossible. To be clean for a week means to feel like dying. Am I strong enough for that? Subs have made me feel normal. And don’t get me wrong, fuck whoever says being on subs isn’t being clean. But for me personally. Relying on anything doesn’t feel clean to me. And the shifty part is knowing how if only these few problems in life were not there it would be far much easier. I am overwhelmed. It doesn’t take much to overwhelm a person who is carrying the weight of years of trauma and in my case physical and emotional abuse on their back. No one will ever understand how shitty it feels to watch year after year after year pass and feel like you’re in the same place. Not just the success but all of it. If you’ve gotten this far. Thanks. Thank you for giving a shit. And to the ones who enjoy my poems and such. Sorry this wasn’t supposed to be poetic. But, there’s a little girl in my life. Who is my life. I wanna give her everything. So tomorrow will be the start of forever. And if you wanna follow my journey that would be cool. I’ll be writing everyday about how each day feels like. Short or long. Thanks for looking into my brain again. And to all my addicts. One day at a time. We will do this. We will learn to live again. And we will use what has been broken for good. Keep fighting.

#sad thoughts #addiction #adiction #recovery #recovering addict #cvtting addict #heroine #crack #feeling alone #poetry #sad poem #poems and poetry #heart been broke so many times #life #original poem #life quotes #poems and quotes #dog food #coke lines

[aphroditestummyrolls]

Since 4 am this morning, I’ve had a banana and two coffees. I’ve finished work, and now here I am in the only coffee shop where I’m 99% likely to be productive. If I didn’t eat, I would pass out, so:

Red berry tea and toasted tea cake. I even put butter on it! It’s 2024– I put butter on things now.

#I’m already feeling ashamed I deleted that line about 5 times before I finally just fucking posted it #the real recovery tag #tw food mention #foodpics #tw eating disorder #tw anorexia

[gailynovelry]

Sometimes, living under late-stage capitalism is just like. I'm tired of being asked to spin straw into gold in exchange for a plate of stale, soggy bread crust.

#i genuinely like my day job #but (rant ahead) every month i am being asked to do more and more with less and less #i am being scraped thinner and thinner #and the customers are somehow getting a more raw deal over time too! #i'm honestly watching for my company to accidentally cross that lovely invisible line where people get fed up with the service #and finally abandon it all at once #like with the warner thing #management thinks that if they boil the frog slowly enough it will never notice #i think eventually the frog says to itself “this sauna is too hot wtf” and jumps out #girl i just want to clean and do maintenance and count money and do a few customer's laundry for them . . . and ideally have days off #my days off. got halved since feb. i had four days off in march. TWO OF THEM WERE FOR SURGERY AND RECOVERY. #i am doing 90% of certain kinds of work for the store and 100% of other kinds #and i had to work with a potential concussion because i knew no-one could fill in #if they don't give me that week off in may then i am walking out and letting the store i am single-handedly holding up #c r u m b l e

[serickswrites]

Good Times, Bad Times VI

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5

Warnings: referenced noncon, referenced torture, hospital, hurt/comfort, hurt/aftermath, hurt/recovery, caretaker and whumpee

Caretaker sighed as they stood outside Whumpee’s hospital room. As they had every day for the last two weeks. They checked in each day to see how Whumpee’s recovery was going. And each day they got the same response. Whumpee’s body was healing from all the physical torture Whumper One had inflicted. But their mind? The doctors labeled it a trauma response. That Whumper Two’s violation of Whumpee’s body had cause Whumpee to retreat so far back into their mind that it would take them a while to come out. 

Caretaker’s rage began to boil as they thought back to the day they found Whumpee. To seeing someone look so completely empty and desolate that they didn’t even respond to Caretaker’s words. Caretaker hadn’t even been sure Whumpee was alive they were so still. And silent. 

But Whumpee was alive. And they would heal. Caretaker was certain of that. They knocked on the door and announced their presence. At the lack of response from Whumpee they entered and sat in the chair closest to the head of Whumpee’s bed. Whumpee stared blankly at the wall. They didn’t acknowledge Caretaker at all. 

“Hey, Whumpee, how’s it going?” 

Silence. 

Caretaker pulled out the book they had found at Whumpee’s bedside. They had tried to learn as much about the person they had saved. But there wasn’t much. Whumpee lived a very quiet, simple life. And there weren’t many people in their life. It made them the perfect target for Whumper One and Two. And that made Caretaker more angry. They had preyed on Whumpee’s isolation, Whumpee’s lack of connection. They had used it to hurt the sweet and innocent person that Caretaker had come to know through Whumpee’s belongings and stories their coworkers shared. 

“‘This is my favorite book in all the world, though I have never read it.’“ Caretaker began, one eye on the page before them, one eye on Whumpee’s face. And they continued. And continued page after page, hoping that something would change. “‘The year that Buttercup was born, the most beautiful woman in the world was--’“

“’A French scullery maid named Annette,’“ Whumpee whispered, blinking slowly. They looked around the room, eyes growing wide and wild.

“You’re safe, Whumpee,” Caretaker said softly, not daring to move and startle Whumpee. 

“Where?” Whumpee’s voice was barely audible. 

“You’re in a hospital. You’re safe,” Caretaker repeated. 

“You?”

“I’m Caretaker. It’s nice to finally meet you, Whumpee.”

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#serickswrites #whump #whumpblr #whump writing #whump community #tw referenced noncon #tw referenced torture #tw hospital #hurt/comfort #hurt/aftermath #hurt/recovery #caretaker and whumpee #queue #the book caretaker reads is a real one #and it's one of my favorites #and my absolute all time favorite movie #credit to william goldman for best opening line ever #5 points to your house if you know what book this is

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Self-contradictory (Patreon)

#Doodles #Villainsona #Just Desserts #Hypocritical? Close but not quite #Charm is always the one who gets to hold the most interesting ideas lol #Spookage! She just wants to be chill the more intimidated she feels the more she wants to lash out #But she doesn't always want to! She's a villain in recovery! As evidenced by Kaiein trying to tempt her #He's really not very tempting - although he is aggravating which is unfortunately to his favour :/ #He's so encouraging in all the wrong ways #Also I don't think I've mentioned it but his second line? That's a reference to the song I've attached to their relationship #Unfortunately I'm pretty sure the song is meant to be romantic?? Which - yuck lol - but I also just don't really see as That Romantic tbh #It's Villainous Thing by Shayfer James which I'd just recommend in general it's a really nice song :D #But it fits them for probably obvious reasons lol ♪ Villainous Thing but make it paternal(? still yuck lol) #Well he's just yuck so again - expected lol #Some Evil Time with eye shines - more ''encouragement'' probably from early on #Just play along it's probably fine :) #Getting into a ''What if'' spiral is no fun so it's better to just avoid it #And then a three-set - it's not meant to be hypocritical - conflicted yes but stemming from the same source #Feeling Special™ is so dangerous! How far until it's too far? Is there a way to turn back? Is it better to not worry about it and never know #Can't have regrets if everything goes exactly to plan - planning around the most likely situation - it's fiiiine it's fiiiiiiine

[homosexual-fanfiction]

lol the poor little blurb that inspired this timeloop fic

i wrote it in 2019 as the intro to another fic that i ended up cutting it from because i didn't think it fit well enough. then i stumbled across it again in december and reread it and thought huh, this would be an awesome introductory piece to a timeloop fic.

started drafting, and now. approximately four months and ten chapters in. i'm considering cutting it again

#LIKE... idk i like the writing but it just doesn't relaly #fit the rest of the story #which is funny considering it's what inspired/kicked this off #i just don't want to have it there and have it mislead people into thinking they're going to read something different or confuse readers #because there's lines in there that are like oooh i wonder what this means and then nothing comes from them #im going to try to edit it again (for like the third time since stumbling across it lol) to make it fit the story better #buuuuuuuuuuuuut i might end up just scrapping it once more #i am sorry little blurb...... you have served me well... but i dont know if i can make you fit #not an update #also lol yeah i'm ten chapters into outlining we'll see how many more we have to go #i'm trying to wrap things up but it'll probably be a few more before i can manage that #it'll probably be 12 to 14 chapters? ish? that is my current estimate #although i havent been thinking too much about the post-plot recovery stuff.... hm #i dunno i'll stick to that guess