#scrubs: 3x04

[aflawedfashion]

Jordan & Dr. Cox | Scrubs 3x04

#scrubs #scrubsedit #perry cox #jordan sullivan #christa miller #john c. mcginley #tvedit #cinemapix #cinematv #tvcentric #otpsource #sitcomedit #filmtv #userstream #jordan and dr. cox #jordan x dr. cox #aflawedfashiongif #affscrubs #scrubs: season 3 #scrubs: 3x04 #i love them

[djdangerlove]

To Love You Through Color

Summary: Carlos can tell he doesn’t feel good, worn out from the earlier tests and overwhelmed by it all. He leans forward, gripping the blanket between his fingers and holding it up just enough to peek at TK curled up underneath. He smiles at him in hopes that it still brings him comfort the way it used to, the little one he receives in return leaves hope tattooed on his ribcage and expanding with each breath. “I’ll do my best, okay?”

Or: A Tarlos Recovery fic ahead of 3x04

8K+ , Fluff, Hurt/ Comfort, 3x03 Recovery 

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TK wakes up on a Saturday, afternoon light scattering dust particles like pixie dust in the golden glow of sunset breaking through the blinds and painting the moment in warm relief and magic-tinted happiness.

“TK?”

The prettiest shade of green blinks back at him, the kind that people spend their entire life savings to see in the leaves of tropical places or the grass of rolling hills, and Carlos aches with the memory of bargaining with God to take everything he has left except for the world’s most beautiful shade of green right here in Texas.

“Hey,” his voice breaks with the way he stumbles out of the chair to hover near the bed. Trembling fingers latch onto the handrail, too afraid to hold onto unstable things. “You with me?”

The question nicks at this throat, sharp implications beyond the physical leaving his mouth dry at the reminder that TK hasn’t been with him long before they met here at the ledge of any future they have left.

TK’s head bobs against the pillow tugging the ventilator tube across his chest as he does so, which he must feel before the intrusiveness of the tube itself because he raises a hand to bat at the drag across his sternum, unsteady fingers following the trail of it up to all the things holding it firm in his mouth. His eyes widen, the green of them diluted with panic as he finds Carlos hovering up above him.

“Hey, hey, hey,” Carlos’ hands wrap around TK’s wrists before he thinks better of it, the flinch he feels underneath his fingers becomes another chunk of their future falling out from beneath their feet. He holds on tighter, not enough to hurt, not ever, but enough to keep them on the crumbling edge just a little bit longer. “It’s okay,” he says, and maybe for the first time in a while it feels like it could be true. “It’s alright, Ty. The nurses are coming. Just relax, you’re okay.”

A few seconds later, he’s pushed from the room by a nurse he’s come to know rather well over the past couple of weeks. She’s kind, voice quiet in the cacophony of the ICU and hands gentle around all the medical instruments that leave Carlos’ stomach tied up in knots. Her fingers are cold against his forearm as she guides him to the door and he tells her as such when she leaves him in the threshold. “Please, he’s…he’s dealt with enough of the cold,” as if the chill of her skin will be the thing that breaks TK completely. The absurdity of it doesn’t quite reach his ears, his worry too loud as it flutters around his ribcage to notice. “Your hands are too cold.”

She smiles at him, the sadness of it evident in the fluorescent lighting, and rubs her palms back and forth across the thighs of her scrubs as quick as the flurry of movement of the other nurses and doctors behind her. She takes two steps to cross back over to where he’s still hovering in the doorway and presses newly warmed skin against his hands as she gives them a reassuring squeeze. “He’s in good hands,” she says before letting go and walking back across the room.

Carlos spends the next thirty minutes wondering if she meant his hands or hers.

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#tarlos #carlos reyes #tk strand #911 lone star #tarlos fic #911lsfic

[doublel27]

Knight in Shining Armor - T - 3K (part 2)

TK Strand/Carlos Reyes - Hospitalizations - 3x04 CODA/Deleted Scene - bad nurses

Read on AO3 Part 1 TK POV Something grazes the back of his hand and Carlos shoots up instantly. For a horrible moment, he isn’t sure where or when he is beyond the hospital chair and TK could be anywhere between life and death. But when he settles and focuses, TK's green eyes are staring at him through heavy lids, and there’s just a nasal cannula instead of the vent. Carlos squeezes the hand in his as the last twenty-four hours come back.

“Hey babe,” Carlos says, shifting closer to the bed. “Thought you might sleep a little longer. You were just out for the MRI an hour ago.”

Since TK came back yesterday, and there’s no other way Carlos can explain it, there have been waves of people, coming in and occasionally taking TK out with them. There’s also been the drifting of friends in and out in the brief periods where TK is somewhat alert. Currently, it’s just them, and that’s more than enough.

TK looks off somewhere and shifts back to Carlos. “Not dreaming?”

“What, dreaming about me?” Carlos asks, offering a smile. Then the thought comes that in some other universe this was the dream and…Carlos shudders rather than invite that into reality. This reality is hard enough. “No, this is horrifyingly real, TK. I would appreciate it if we could start going at least an entire year between hospital stays.”

“Doghouse,” TK murmurs, his mouth lifting into a ghost of a smirk.

“You’re on—” Carlos stops himself from finishing the familiar phrase. His voice cracks like the words he was about to say. Thin ice is what brought them here and Carlos would prefer to never be on it again.

“Probation,” he says finally, swallowing heavily. “We’ll see how this period goes.”

TK flutters his eyes closed. “Yes, officer.”

Carlos feels the tears start to well up again but he laughs right over them, filled with joy. Having TK back is a miracle. Having the TK who flirts with him again, well, Carlos has been waiting on him longer than two days. Everyone has tried to coax him into going home, changing, showering, sleeping in a bed. He doesn’t want it. He doesn’t want to go home to his mostly empty house. He’s been waiting for TK all this time and, now that he has him, Carlos isn’t going anywhere.

“So,” he says, continuing to talk even though TK’s eyes remain closed. TK seems to listen and drift in and out of these moments. “Paul might be getting released today. They’re checking on his core temperature. How the two guys from the cold cities ended up…I’ll never know. It’s probably y’alls bravado.” TK is Icarus, always flying a little close to the sun and singeing his wings. “He’ll be back by later.”

Carlos runs a hand over TK’s hair, just because he can. It seems to smooth out the furrow that was developing between his brows. “Marjan and Nancy insisted on breakfast. Honestly, I think my mom talked them into getting breakfast so she could pick up lunch. You’re still on a liquid diet though, TK. Sorry about that. They might move you off of clear liquids soon. I know how you feel about Jell-O. I’ve ordered them to pick up your tea, minus boba, minus the taro root. It won’t really be your usual order.”

Carlos keeps talking about something Nancy said about game night and wonders in his head if they’ll have the next one in the loft, and segues into the fight his parents had about his mom coming to sit by TK’s bedside through the snow after his dad had insisted she stay home. “You should have heard her, ‘If you think some snow was going to keep me from my boys when they needed me.’ She really loves you.”

There’s a disturbance behind him and Carlos glances toward the door. Two women in scrubs have come in and one is updating the board. The name Janine goes up and Carlos is suddenly dragged back to waiting in the doorway yesterday morning with these two women exiting. He’s out of his seat in a second.

“No,” he says, his throat dry as sandpaper. It could have been a whisper or a shout. All he knows is they cannot come in.

In the distance he thinks he hears TK murmur “baby” but the blood is rushing in his ears and the urge to yell and hit something is welling up. Instead, Carlos grinds his teeth and glares at the two women who have entered TK’s room.

“Get out.”

Not-Janine says, “Sir—we said we were sorry about—”

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#911 lone star spoilers #911 ls fic #tarlos #tarlos fic #carlos reyes #tk strand #hurt tk strand #protective carlos reyes #cw: hospital #cw: medical #userjillian #actuallysara #userkimmy #reyesstrand

[crockettmarcel]

the distraction hour continues...

your top 3 outfits of sarah and ava??? i left crockett out cause i dont think we've gotten to see a lot of him out of scrubs

this is CRUEL how am I supposed to choose when they both look so good in everything

anyway for sarah I’d have to go with her outfit in 3x04, the cute brown cord jacket from 1x18 and 4x01, and her barista outfit in 2x01. she is THEE cutest and I love her so much

for ava, it’s her outfit at the end of 2x23, The Dress from the hybrid OR gala (4x10), and of course the cute pirate costume from Nat and Will’s bachelor/ette party in 4x06

also I know u didn’t include crockett but he’s the loml so for him it’s just. any outfit that includes the sexy blue coat, the brown bomber jacket + curly hair combo, and of course shirtless crockett. that’s probably my favourite tbh

#ask #chicago med #sarah reese #ava bekker #crockett marcel

[dr-lizortecho]

All of this so I can write one on Jim and Kyle, so bear with me y’all

Throughout the show the writers use Jesse Manes as Kyle’s antithesis. Depicting how far gone Jesse is as a person through Kyle’s character and elevating Kyle through the opposition of Jesse. Essentially Jesse and Kyle are depicted as exact opposites of each other while serving a similar purpose within the first part of season one (which was Project Shepherd and their supposed legacy of fighting aliens).

The writers use their physicality to depict this in their first interaction with each other. From their actual features to their uniforms. Kyle is in his scrubs and lab coat while Jesse wears his Air Force uniform. Depicting their different approaches to interactions with others. Jesse living by the air force motto “Aim High… Fly-Fight-Win” while Kyle lives by the doctors oath “-warmth, sympathy, and understanding may outweigh the surgeons knife… I must tread with care matters of life and death-“

Furthermore, they use the visual images of their actual coloring to depict the differences as well. This is a story telling technique most often used in cartoons and overly dramatized media. But it has a place in all forms of storytelling. Think Luke Skywalker and Darth Vader. Jesse Manes is the only member of his family with blonde hair and blue eyes, which is a direct contrast to Kyle’s dark hair and eyes. Even the way they carry themselves is a stark difference. Jesse is always depicted more rigid, ready to be in the presence of a superior (barring the scene at the drive in with the kid). While Kyle has more fluid motions, an more approachable demeanor.

The writers depict their backgrounds and privileges as being opposite. Making sure to first establish that they share the same legacy in Roswell before delving into how they got there. (1x03 My parents struggled for years in poverty so that they could enter this country legally, because they believed in America. In freedom, in patriotism, in the law - My ancestors sacrificed everything to come here, so I could live the American dream.) The Valenti’s were immigrants who fought hard to earn the ‘privilege’ Kyle now has. (3x04 Guys like you ain't the problem. You're a doctor. You're not the one sucking the system dry like...) His family working for generations as public servants to provide for and make Roswell a better place. Where areas Jesse comes from a military family that is shown to have lots of political power. Michelle mentioning he nearly swayed the vote for sheriff with one endorsement. Not to mention the obvious treatment difference they would face racially.

Jesse Manes is shown to not have grown as a person, being stuck in the past. The writers depict this in a few ways: his comment about not liking phones, his constant recall to the past, and his homophobic actions. While Kyle is shown in contrast as having grown out of his old ways. He is continually shown as having developed past the same road blocks that hold Jesse back.(1x06 Kyle isn't all that bad, and I see... I see good in him, honestly. It's just, he got... football captain and homecoming king. His ego just... blah …uneasy lies the head that wears the crown, I guess.) Essentially Kyle grows throughout the narrative while Jesse is a stagnant character stuck in his old patterns.

(1x03 But my family also believes in the justice system. Innocent until proven guilty. Although you should know there's one fatal flaw in our system. Innocent until proven guilty means that justice can only be served after disaster has struck) The writers show early in that Jesse has an ends justifies the means mentality, while Kyle has a growth mindset. Jesse believes that no matter how bad something he does is as long as his outcome is achieved his actions are justified. Where areas Kyle is depicted as viewing bad actions as just that. He believes and is the embodiment of accepting your bad decisions and finding forgiveness and self improving. Jesse Manes believes that actions can be justified in contrast to Kyle always checking that every action he performs is morally sound.(1x03 My father taught me principles. The Valenti code)

Finally, Jesse contrasts Kyle throughout their familial and none familial relationships. Whether it be the cruel treatment of his children or his broken marriage. The Manes represent what appears to be a stable household, where abuse and hatred permeate. Jim cheated on Michelle which could have ended in their divorce, but instead they stayed together and raised Kyle. A stark contrast to the split between Mindy and Jesse which fractured the Manes family. Jesse becoming abusive and controlling.

Jesse Manes views family as something to control and use. His relationships with his sons shown as controlling and abusive. While Kyle is shown to view family as something to nurture and protect. (2x04 You are intelligent and tenacious, and so you want a reason. But this time there isn't one. It was an act of God. 3x05 tell Rosa I love her. 3x13 like, what if I ruin this life, too? I read on a mural somewhere that... cracks are where the light gets in) This same concept dwindles down to friendships. Jesse Manes exacting control and abuse in all his relationships with other people. (1x03 I thought Master Sergeant Manes and dad were friends. Jesse Manes doesn't have friends, Kyle. He has soldiers. 3x01 If I thought there was an answer, I'd personally drive Liz back here - I can't tell you what choice to make. But I can tell you that alone is a lonely place to be)

#roswell new mexico #rnm #roswell nm #kyle valenti #jesse manes #long post #this is unedited #x

[redjaybathood]

Titans 3x04 spoilers

1) You can say what you want (and I did say a lot) about the first three episodes, but they were never boring. I didn't check the credits for this episode, and it's not like I am sure writers are different, but it is somewhat worse than the start of the season. Or maybe not boring per se but weak?

That's my overall impression.

2) Look, Crane is saying the truth for the wrong reasons (basically, his big bad plan is for Bats and Birds and Titans to gtfo Gotham, so "the water will lever itself"), and Dick is lying to himself to do a kinda right thing (because if a villain wants you gone, the last thing you probably should do is to leave).

But the crook of it, Bruce is a psychopath - or maybe not a psychopath, I am not a medical professional, but he is a deeply disturbed individual who fucked up two kids, and I suppose there's more to come - or will it be Dick who fucks Tim up? There's a chance that Tim won't be fucked up, like, Dick is the hero of the show, we can expect him to succeed where others failed, so he could end up a better batman than Bruce, and Tim would be the best Robin but this feels shitty to me: like, as though the problem was with Bruce's methods and not with the idea as a whole?

3) Look, did they think that Dick killing a wolf was a cool badass moment? That was fucking creepy. You remember how the fandom theorises that the kid running through the woods is Crane, actually? I wish it was him, but nope, it's Dick.

And he is thankful for the opportunity, apparently. Conquering fear, turning it in a strength.

If I didn't write dark!Batfam before, this is what would have put me onto that path.

4) Does Dick realize he should get arrested now? Like, big time? At this point, I hope they do that and threw away the key.

Because breaking Scarecrow out as a bait for Jason is n u t s. He could have warned Babs that the attack on the convoy is going to happen while Crane in transit, he could have brought other Titans with him. But no.

5) Red Hood, it seems like, intentionally misses so many shots you would think he is a stormtrooper. Or doesn't want to kill Dick. Which he does! But he doesn't. Yeah, yeah, he is either incompetent or conflicted.

He feels very two-dimensional, Red Hood. What boys are made of? Daddy issues, jealousy, inferiority and superiority complexes. Oh, and drugs. Maybe some brainwashing.

6) Backfire? Fucking finally. (I hope to God that the bullshit with Red Hood will get resolved next week and we will focus on her and Kory)

She looks... Look. They're seriously underplaying her. She doesn't feel like someone who killed their parents, she ruined last thanksgiving max. I hope they make a flashback episode, like they did for Hank and Dawn, Rose, Jericho... But this time it's Tamaran and only them.

Komand'r is such a great character. And the actress is great too. But the way they write her feels lacking.

7) Gar vs Kon was ok; Gar and Kory too. But the team is not the team, again, they just fuck off doing their own thing, despite having lived through various experiences that suggest it's not a good idea.

I like Gar this season tho. And fuck off, only tiger? Only? The dude is like a werewolf but at any day of the month, and with tigers. We all wish we could be him - or wished, at some point in our childhood.

8) Please don't let Kon and Tim meet just after Kon and Gar had a fight so Tim could become his new bff and that's his in as Robin on Titans. I mean, that's very likely imo? But also would suck.

9) Did they have a funeral for Hank? I mean, Dawn gets on the plane the next day, right? I would have thought it would take longer to scrub him off the walls but, who knows.

#titans spoilers

[daddy-dotcom]

3x04 highlights

(its a long one)

-why tf is everyone obsessed with this game it’s so ~nerdy~

-“DANCING WITH MYSELF” IS AN 80S SONG BITCH

-we been knew but Alice looks so good oof

-I never understood the trope of taking a pregnancy test at school

-umm I thought Hermoine was a “mean girl” but I guess riverdale still doesn’t understand the concept of continuity

-wow Lili is so good at playing Alice

-“classic fp Jones” “FP JONES?!”

-the acting is rlly overdone but Mads is good at playing Penelope too wow

-FIGHT YES

-FREDSYTHE AWW

-also I thought Fred also played football?? Again with this continuity problem

-AWW THE LIL TITLE SEQUENCE

-WOW FALICE IS SO HOT

-“True” by Spandeu Ballet UGH MY 80S HEART

-“Tommy” awwwww Baby Tom Keller

-Hiram is a scrub lololol

-aww Hermoine’s mom cleans the 5 seasons :(

-lol the irony Sierra doesn’t wanna be mayor

-poor FP :(

-ew the Blossom thing is so creepy

-ANOTHER FIGHT YES

-cue the Take on Me vine

-ah the old switcheroo

-like chaotic mother like hellraising daughter

-ugh Fermoine was cute for those 0.5 seconds

-Fralice wtf

-“Modern love” ugh have I mentioned I love 80s

80s music

-soo Fredmoine>Heram

-Wtf is fizzle rocks it’s just Jingle Jangle’s stupid older brother

-ew it’s that bitch ass musty gargoyle king

-aww not Grandpa Artie rip

-EW OMFG HIS BODY IS IN THE SCHOOL

-“everybody wants to rule the world” yesss

-lol here’s where Fred’s flannel obsession started

-aww baby Tom is a ROTC and yay they’re finally together in present day

-aaaaanddd we still haven’t heard Jason/Clifford’s voice

-young Hal umm mixed feelings

-NOO MY BABY SP BETTER NOT BE PLAYING

-ugh next week looks ridiculous I’ll be there at 8

#riverdale #south side serpents #sweet pea #jordan connor #drew ray tanner #fangs fogarty #jughead jones #cole sprouse #toni topaz #vanessa morgan #lili reinhart #betty cooper #camila mendes #veronica lodge #kj apa #archie andrews #madelaine petsch #cheryl bombshell #falice #fp jones #alice cooper #madchën amick #skeet ulrich #alex’s riverdale highlights

[sanoiro]

Lucifer 3x24 - S3 Finale -  Meta: An Ending in Three Acts

*This was written after 3x24 and it prepares the path I’ll walk on for the S4 meta this week.” 

Each post will have a *Keep Reading* feature to protect you from S4 spoilers. 

As a short intro, I would like to say that I’m exhausted so I really hope the following meta makes sense. 3x24 was a very packed episode and no doubt I’ll probably come back one day once more to add something to my impression over certain scenes. But for today that’s what I have and it’s quite a lot. 

Mistakes have been made but this time I’ll not apologise for them. As you all know we are in a constant state of shock since the Cancellation. Many of us feel drained but refuse to give up and we will not give up. Still, that does not alter the fact that some of us, myself included, pushed themselves further than they are comfortable or willing in order to get out out the battlefield and fight. We will be back there on Monday to support the standalones and the #SaveLucifer campaign! 

Now do know this. The campaign caused some deep wounds that will leave some magnificent scars behind. We still bleed occasionally but we do not give up and so we begin...

Act 1: Dan And The Full Circle

This is not the last meta as we have two more episodes coming but it is a meta where the plot progress is concerned. 

So was this a good season overall? I believe so yes, although we had many plot holes which although I’ll not list I suppose they could have been handled a bit more masterfully for my taste. 

There are many different places to begin this post but I would like to start with Dan. 

Dan had an interesting character growth since S1. The problem though is that as I have said before, in S3 everyone came to terms with their identity and Dan was one of them. When Marcus’ hitman was caught and the team tries to extract his boss’ whereabouts, we see that Dan has come to a conclusion similar to the one Lucifer has. 

Marcus in 3x02 said that Lucifer was impulsive and an idiot. To a point he was correct. When Marcus met Dan, as the man himself laments. Marcus called him a corrupt cop. It takes one to see one I guess. In that scene, we realise that Dan will probably never go to Hell. Dan carries no guilt over the Palmetto case and certainly none over letting the Russian Mob find and kill Chloe’s father murderer… 

At that moment we see Dan accepting his faults but also we get a glimpse of his future and that he will probably see Charlotte one day. That’s good news I guess but the final flip of the coin as we saw at the end of the episode and S3 finale is as to where the coin will land not where it is currently positioned on the air. Why? Because even at the last moment there is a possibility of ending up either in Heaven or Hell is still not set in stone.

DB said that 3x24 brings us into a full cycle and he was correct. 

First, see the parallel between the end of S2 and S3 where Linda and Maze are concerned or the fact that Charlotte is free like Mum is free… Lucifer becomes the believer while Ella doubts her faith in him while she does make a leap of faith… Everyone's world is changing and they do realise that their identities are very fluid and they do need to come to terms with that. 

Finally, we can also see is that Lucifer is wearing a similar clothing arrangement with the second episode of S1 not to mention the “I don’t want to die” being uttered from Chloe at the end of the episode (See the Pilot). 

Act 2: Chloe and The Truth

In this episode, we don’t have the time to process fully whatever it was said in 3x23 but Eglisson makes an amazing job with the close-ups in 3x24. It’s almost the same way they were used in the Pilot.  At the alley, we have one of the most important scenes of the episode. 

As you remember in 2x18, Chloe said to Lucifer that although he tells the truth he doesn’t say the whole truth which for S2 standards is correct mainly because Lucifer was avoiding to reveal her everything concerning Mum, her miracle status and why he was avoiding her romantically. Now in S3 Chloe makes a different statement. No more metaphors. 

Metaphors are not just something that is not literal. Metaphors in Greek means “to be moved”. Meaning they are transferable in a way. At that alley, Chloe tells Lucifer that she does realise that the metaphors are real for him and the blame falls also to her as she encouraged him to carry on with them for so long. Again Chloe has unknowingly noticed what Lucifer has gone through in the entire S3. Lucifer’s conviction about his wings, the bad and evil in the world, his Devil face and finally his very identity. 

His Devil face during his discussion with Marcus is revealed to be a metaphor - A transference- of his emotional state to his body. Perhaps the writers decided here to play with the psychosomatic effect of an emotional state. 

In my fanfiction story Alis Grave Nil that’s how it is played out. -Shameless of me I know...- 

“Why do you like hide and seek so much?” She castigated puckering her lips in displeasure. 

Putting her whole weight on his belt, Lucifer had no choice but to scout at her level if he wanted to retain whatever was left of his dignity.

Mourning the loss of Chloe’s touch, he was startled when two hands touched his mottled and streaked scalp. The child’s was demanding in her attempt to scrub away his millennia-old appearance.

The Devil Face in that story is a self-inflicted punishment that Lucifer forced unknowingly on himself as he felt guilty after his Fall due the loss of his best friend. It is later discussed how Lucifer is playing games with his Devil face and that putting a facade to hide the fear, agony and pain is not a solution and so it washes away under Trixie’s touch. But back to the episode! 

The close-ups in the Alley scene are also important. We rarely had any of those in S3 and Egilsson is not usually playing with them. Egilsson has directed the episodes:

1x08 - At Tu Doctor? 2x06 - Monster  3x04 - What Would Lucifer Do? 3x16 - Infernal Guinea Pig 3x24 - A Devil of My Word

I believe you now have a better idea of his work. 

No the close-ups in 3x23, they highlight the identity under the words and what we try to be. They give out Chloe’s honesty and Lucifer’s acceptance before the ending robs him of the peace he had found through Chloe’s trust and acceptance. 

Now cue back at 2x01. Do you remember the “I need the Eggs” joke at the end of the S2 first episode? I had written a beautiful - yes, I’m really proud about that meta piece-  meta which you can find in my blog and at the Alley we also see a hint of that joke coming back but with a twist. 

Chloe is no longer concerned about the eggs but is now more worried about the fact that the man is acting like a chicken. The eggs in that interpretation is the love and she is willing to jeopardise that in order to save the man she loves.  Perhaps she feels guilty as she says that she encouraged him with his Devil talk in order to get his partnership and be around him. At that point, she is willing to sacrifice a lot but she tries to find the answers by helping him. 

She does love him as he is but for Chloe Lucifer being honest with her is important so she tries to penetrate what she believes to be a false identity because she can no longer entertain the absurd thought of everything being actually real. 

It’s that 1% she wants to get rid from the back of her head and so she wants the man… Problem is that when all is revealed she has to deal with the 1% occupying more of Lucifer than she ever thought possible. 

The next scene is, of course, the one occurring in the circular room. We all have recognized the phrase “I don’t want to die” from the Pilot. It was delivered in the same way but this time Chloe is protecting Lucifer. Her next lines are cutting deeper than we think possible but most have brushed them away for the favour of the big finale. 

“I can’t. Not without stopping you.” 

This line was delivered not because Marcus was Sinnerman or because he had murdered Charlotte but because he had made clear that killing Lucifer was what he intended to do. So Chloe shields Lucifer. 

In 1x12 Chloe believed that Lucifer was a killer and still she hesitated. She fidgets and cries out when the newbie cop fires. Lucifer was correct. Chloe never loved Marcus, never cared enough in order to hesitate shooting him. 

In 3x23 Chloe was prepared to die for Lucifer. In my speculation, I had said that Chloe dying at the finale even for a little while, was vital in order for us to see how far she could go for Lucifer. Now we have seen it. Also in a way, we all believed she had been hit and was dying or was dead. That is the nature of supernatural series though that we know our leads will never die… At least not for a long-long time! 

I’ll dedicate more time into what happened next at that scene in the 3rd Act of this meta so let’s skip everything and go to the roof. 

The way Lucifer and Chloe are shown gets us back to the Pilot. The way that the camera is focusing on Chloe and then she wakes up and her vision unblurs on Lucifer looking at her in the hospital while he welcomes her back, gets us back to the very first episode of the series. Once again he has saved her and once again she was faced with the truth but does not remember it or in the case of 3x24 has not actually witnessed it. 

The most encouraging thing though is that Chloe does not run. Even with the possibility of the truth being well… The Truth! She goes back to a place rimmed with bullets in order to find Lucifer. Perhaps it shows how deep her emotions run about him to the point that she will risk everything to go back and protect Lucifer once again. 

The Devil or not Chloe did go back to save him because his life worths more than the realization who she was partnered with or that she loves the Devil. That instinct to see if the person she loved is well, personally fills me with hope. Sooner or later Chloe would have come into terms and fought beside Lucifer for L.A., The World and their rather unique relationship…

Yet… Does she step backwards? Yes, she does. 

Remember her reaction in 2x01 when Amenadiel shot himself and Chloe was almost faced with the possibility of Lucifer being the actual Devil? 

Yeah… She had stepped backwards then as well. But what we do know is that no matter what, Chloe even if she runs away physically or emotionally from Lucifer after 3x24, according to Henderson and Ildy she continued to work with him and tried at the same time to deal with two things. Working once again with Lucifer while knowing the truth and second that she was in love with a man who didn’t claim but was the actual Devil. 

Fingers Crossed we will see that in S4 that I have faith will be coming our way in 2019. 

Act 3: Lucifer - The Scars Run Deep & Still Hurt.

In this episode, we see a different Lucifer and Ellis plays the character on so many different levels.

First comes the murder’s crime scene to which Lucifer says that he will never see Charlotte again. It is a parallel with how Amenadiel will never see Mum again but it also gets us on two places where we weren’t expecting Lucifer to be in 3x24. They are not out of place but they are very important to the character development.

First of all, for the first time, Lucifer mourns the fact that he will never be at the Silver City again. This is a foreshadowing of the very finale. Lucifer still does not believe he is worthy although during the episode he does shift towards his more angelic qualities for once in the whole series. The problem here is not that he misses home but he fully acknowledges that immortality does make him lose people forever as for some weird reason he befriends the ones who end up in Heaven. Show me your friends and I’ll tell you who you are and the Devil is apparently a good guy...

The second level here is Chloe. Lucifer is fully aware that Chloe will leave him one day but he does not run away from the possible pain her mortality will eventually cause him. But Lucifer has come somewhat to terms with that. Remember his comment in 3x06, “Detective you just focus on getting older” before the elevator’s doors close and he goes with Ella to Vegas?

The above is one of the contrast we see with Marcus. Marcus believes he will go to Heaven and even then he chickens out. He claims to love Chloe but avoids her eventually in order to get his immortality back along with trying to kill Amenadiel. Lucifer is fully aware that Hell is waiting for him and that now he can be trapped behind a Door for all eternity and still endangers himself.

What I loved most at the Griffith Park scene was Chloe’s reassurance that she is there for him only for Lucifer to make almost a vow that he will also have her back as well. It is no accident that Lucifer asks how Dan is right afterwards. He has experienced the possibility of losing Chloe and has a very good idea what his favourite Douche is going through. Therefore yes, I truly enjoyed the 2x13 and 2x14 Easter Egg undertones of how the roles have been reversed.

Now what made me laugh was how the Easter Bunny became oh so real for Chloe to the point she hissed at Lucifer “I almost married him! Why didn’t you say anything!?”

Next comes Lucifer’s admission that Marcus wanting or actually attempting to kill Amenadiel infuriates him. We do know that Lucifer loves his brother very much but also that if Amenadiel had been shot and died as a mortal he would most probably have been back home although Amendiel always had some guilt issues so then again it was a gamble. A toss of a coin...

During his discussion with Marcus, Lucifer opens up more about the rebellion and the aftermath than he has ever done before. It’s actually of the four key moments for Lucifer in this episode. This is the second.

Lucifer says that everyone hated him, himself included. He felt like a monster but as we know that was not because of the rebellion. In 3x11 he does admit that he tried to be redeemed in a way by peacefully staying in Hell for very long periods of time when he didn’t get to Earth and shagged women and men alike that is.

Lucifer felt like a monster because he could not see any worth in himself. He was not a victor and had also Fallen out of grace. He had no one to tell him he worth something and through time he externalized his self-hate as himself admitted. 

Going a step further we can assume that the Devil-face was Lucifer’s own personal Hell-loop. One he came to live with and eventually accept and love in a very morbid way. His guilt and pain manifested in his reflection and as we saw at the end it never ended for him because he always returned to square one. Hence the loop. In S3 he had opened the door and then closed it again. In S3 we saw Lucifer have his eyes gleaming red 2 times. When he threatened Ella’s brother and then in 3x20. The answer is rather simple now I guess. 

You cannot escape what you have done and no action will ever justify your past or future actions. So it’s up to you to open your door and Lucifer in 3x24 just trapped himself once again behind one. His Devil face. 

What interests me more though is how does Lucifer believe he became a monster… Was it only his lack of self-worth? Perhaps it was because he was different and he could feel that so he also became something different as well. 

Lucifer was always an emotionally raw being and so his image mimicked him. His pain was externalized and so was his solitude and ostracism from his family…

At the end of the day Lucifer was like the odd one out so he psychosomatically self-harmed himself like he literally did in 3x11. 

If I had to talk more about his reoccurring lapses I would say that Lucifer is but an immortal with suicidal or self-harming tendencies who knows that the cannot die. He feels too much and cannot buffer that otherwise. Perhaps that is one of the reasons he stays with Chloe as well. 

Marcus story hits a bit too close to home. An immortal who cannot die but cannot enjoy internal life either but then he falls in love so he values life and wants to keep living. Yet for Lucifer, he knows that in the far future only Hell awaits him especially after Chloe is gone.

Right now Lucifer has a purpose and a home in L.A. and it is not structured around who he will sleep with or what drugs and alcohol he will consume. It’s experiencing mortality - if you remember 1x05 his talk with the then Lieutenant?- and is willing to risk his life outside Hell because for once he values something more than himself.

Still, this does not mean that Lucifer is emotionally stable or does not go over the top when he is with Chloe which makes him a bit like a mental health sufferer who wants or is forced emotionally and physically -chemically- to experience an adrenaline rush so he goes often into a state of mania.

When Lucifer talks about selflessness we can also see how this has worked for him in the past two seasons but do remember that he was also selfless with Delilah but that was not how he got vulnerable. So is Chloe’s miracle status still an important factor in this game? I would say yes. I still believe it was Chloe’s feelings that make him vulnerable but I’ll not take any more space to talk about that in this post.

Back on Marcus and when Lucifer taunts him that Chloe never loved his sorry behind… Obviously, Marcus does not like that explanation so he brushes it off. In the end, though we see that Chloe is ready to kill Marcus if that means that Lucifer will be safe. She actually aims and shoots him. So Marcus has his answer. She never loved him. She believed him but Lucifer came first, Marcus had failed to get rid of the cat.

What is also important to mention at this point is that Lucifer realises finally the gravity of our actions but also our beliefs. His talk with Ella is meaningful but for the first time perhaps he also feels free from his Dad. He has free will but is that really true? Never forget that some things are not as they appear and Lucifer still had/has a 4th season to explore.

Another groundbreaking realization is that at the alley Lucifer confesses that he no longer sees himself as the Devil that much as of late. He does know it’s because of Chloe. That gives way to an emotional growth sprout. 

Long gone are the episodes 3x04 and 3x08. He knows he is responsible for his actions and the gravity his own thoughts have on himself but also has a new point of reference. For the common public, God is supposed to be something pure and salvaging. For Lucifer that's Chloe. Perhaps that is also why the camera also plays with closed captions in that episode.

And so we get to the scene where Lucifer and Chloe confront Marcus. The shit does hit the fan and we do have a scene very much alike with 1x01 with one big difference. Lucifer is fully aware he is not invulnerable close to her. He has no idea if his wings will protect her but driven by instinct he takes them out and covers them both.

You may ask why did he stay for so long? Shock, panic the fact that bullets were still flying so he couldn’t take the chance to unfold his wings and fly away with Chloe. I’ll always believe that while he is in distress he calls out something between Dad and God but you can make your own assumption there.

On the roof, Lucifer finally understands what the false Sinnerman was saying to him. It has to be you. 

Marcus was ready to kill Chloe just in order to kill off Lucifer as well but for Lucifer, the resolution came when Chloe told him they had to find Pierce. Lucifer knows that the only way to keep her safe is to go back and get Marcus. Problem is that he has fallen once again in his Mania state, like he was in the episodes 3x09 and 3x10 with Sinnerman. The 101 Angel rule is forgotten when Maze’s dagger appears and Lucifer gives Marcus a sly smile.

You see no matter Marcus’ experience in combat Lucifer still possesses supernatural strength which makes Marcus’ fisted fingers crack and drives Maze’s dagger into Marcus’ heart. And right there starts our stroll of finding the meaning between the spoken lines. 

Marcus’ first words when he knows he is fatally wounded is to ask if Chloe is okay. That makes Lucifer flatter and look a bit dazed as if he has a waking moment before he falls asleep once more. Marcus was always a manipulator so yeah he cares about Chloe in a very odd way but he also aims to drag Lucifer down with him. 

Although Marcus insists that he will go to Heaven, Lucifer contradicts him and for the first time, Lucifer does something he has never done before. He tilts the scale of a soul’s judgement. Lucifer makes sure that Marcus is dying with a seed of doubt that before he takes his last breath will have bloomed into guilt. And guilt, as you all know, gets you to Hell.

As Marcus is laughing about going to Heaven, Lucifer knowing fully well what Hell does to you, he encourages the final moments of a human to look at the mirror and add some heavy stones of guilt. 

By doing that Lucifer makes sure for the first time in his existence to lure a soul into eternal damnation in Hell. In 3x07 he had tried to console Reese that perhaps he was not dying, that perhaps Hell was not the waiting for him but Reese was already too far gone. Marcus was not. Unfortunately, just for that, the change started.

The following words are actually spoken from Lucifer’s awareness of what he is doing but directs them to Marcus. A bit like what happened with Amenadiel in 3x04. Marcus, of course, sees Lucifer’s face burning and gleefully dies before telling Lucifer that neither of them can escape what they are.

You chose to kill her.

Oh Deep down, you know you're a monster.

And that you belong in Hell, where you will torture yourself with that truth for eternity.

'Cause no matter what you tell yourself, you can't outrun what you've done. What you truly are.

Therefore, Lucifer and Marcus did the exact same thing. In the end, Lucifer made sure that Marcus had enough guilt to go to Hell but Marcus made sure to ask about Chloe and also ruin Lucifer’s newfound breakthrough by dragging Lucifer back to a mental Hell which made his face resurface. Indeed a Sinnerman to the very end...

Both characters made sure that the other would go to their personal Hell.

Lucifer does try to get the knife perhaps in a moment of realisation of how his words apply to both of them but Marcus stops him and delivers his last grand manipulation. 

The bad news is that Lucifer is back into his own Hell loop meaning his Devil face but at the same time we do know that you can break the loop like it happened with Charlotte and that second chances do matter. 

 In a possible S4 we would explore the knowledge of who you are with the consequences of that as well as what kind of a future you can have when you deal with something as heavy as having committed the Angel 101 no-no. Additionally never forget that Lucifer will always feel guilty about Uriel.

And finally, the moment when Chloe sees his face and Ellis delivers one of the most magnificent “Detective?” I have ever heard him say.

That scene was like as if you have a child delivering that line.

Imagine a boy of around five years old who has no idea what he has done. You get into the room and you see the little boy cradling a knife whilst covered in blood and he calls you mommy and it's innocent, there is no evilness but true innocence and bewilderment. That’s Lucifer at the end of S3 which shows that despite his growth, in many ways he is still a very misguided child. 

So where does that leave us? Probably with a lot of fanfiction and if we are lucky enough a S4.

Until next time loves! And if you were wondering, this was a 4.498-word meta. I’m impressed you made it to the very end.

And remember

We Are Here! We Are A Legion! We Are LUCIFANS! 🔥😈🔥 #SaveLucifer 

#lucifer meta #lucifer 3x24 #A Devil of My Word #Sanoiro just being crazy as usual

[bakerj86]

I just watched Scrubs 3x04 "My Lucky Night"

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[djblackmagicworld]

I just watched Scrubs 3x04 "My Lucky Night"

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[itselyserebecca]

Scrubs 3x04 “My Lucky Night”

★★★★★★★★☆☆

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[aflawedfashion]

Jordan & Dr. Cox & JD | Scrubs 1x06 / 3x04

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[sobreviviraserunafriki]

Pink. Una obra naïve pero crítica, curiosa donde las haya. Sobre el amor, el capitalismo, el hedonismo y cómo sobrevivir a ello. Hablamos más de ella en el último podcast de Fan Grrrl, por si os interesa. El link del podcast está en la bio, y es el 3x04 en el que lo tratamos. Muchas gracias a @elektracomic , as usual, por él. 😘😘 Últimamente nos está costando grabar y no creo que por ahora vaya a mejorar la cosa, pero estamos Rose y yo liadas y hacemos lo que podemos. Aún así, hoy grabamos:) Con poco plan, la verdad. Pero bueno, como siempre, haremos lo que podamos. Y que sea lo que la Diosa quiera. Gracias a quienes nos aguantáis y apoyáis :) ¡Tened un buen finde! . . . #manga #instabook #instamanga #comic #instacomic #instacool #pink #glasses #body #scrub #coffee #photography #pic #picoftheday #potd #photos #photo #pics #love #fangrrrl

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[bakerj86]

I'm watching Scrubs 3x04 "My Lucky Night"

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