#so she sabotages herself

[shalaaex]

Is there a she-ra fandom on tumblr somewhere?

#she ra #shera #she ra fanart #she ra and the princesses of power #catradora #catra #adorable #adora #I didn’t mean tk add adorable LNFAO #uhhhh Idek if the fandom alive but seeing all my fav ROTTMNT artists making stuff for other fandoms.. I thought I’d revisit some of my #fav shows #I missed this show I started rewatching it #they mean the world to me #I’m starting to see a pattern on my fav characters #first Leo from rise whos cocky and an asshole but feels like he’s not good enough. he’s just a face man. he’s nothing without his team. #Catra is cocky confident and an asshole #but feels left behind #feels like she can’t compare to adora #so she sabotages herself #I kin them!!!

[bigfatbreak]

Birds of a Feather previous / next

#my art #feralnette au #birds of a feather #long tags #sorry I went apeshit in the tags #LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW #I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO #its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical #and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread #as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational #in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away #and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do #shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again #legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it #but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings #alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird #she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her #knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself #between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot #and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo #essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that #busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way #to show her she's self sabotaging #cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD

[demonlike-judge-of-fire]

thinking abt how sleep deprivation stunts growth and han sooyoung is so short because

#leon likes talking #(points. points. points) #so many sleepless nights writing.... wah #she was sabotaging herself fr! #han sooyoung #orv

[sohemotional]

The original script for the Brittana S4 breakup is so romantic 💔😭

#this is so much better than what we ended up with #the interesting thing about Santana is she’s her own worse enemy sometimes #she sabotages herself because of her fears #she also can’t handle it if she can’t have all of Brittany #she’s all or nothing #brittana

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

I was rewatching The Stone Forest and I really like to think that Hilda had to pass by the Bell Keeper’s outpost on her way out of the city limits. I like to think that idiot looked at what was happening, shrugged, and said ‘eh, she’s the scariest thing out there’

#“‘the scariest thing out there’?”the girl sends him a look that isn't quite a glare for once; it still conveys her opinion just as clearly #Edmund shrugs. Hilda is still within sight of his binoculars. he watches her run and can’t be sure whether she’s running *towards* or *from #*.He doesn’t think she knows either. #'I mean. it’s not like trolls can harm her at this time of the day. #Don’t tell me you believe in fairies kid.' #And there it is at last: the glare. Meiri looks up from her art project - her new therapist had reccomended it as a way to express herself #and since he'd been helping so much so far she'd decided to grudgingly give it a shot - #“*No*” she states pointedly; to anyone who knew her it was an affirmation. And Edmund knew her better than she cared for #'What I believe in is wolves and recluse spiders and ticks and nettle. And I believe that someone with the spine #to sabotage the Patrol wouldn't have the self control to not lick a pretty mushroom' #“Hey!” Edmund protested putting down his binoculars. “I sabotaged the Patrol! For *you* I might add!” #Meiri's smile turned mean; it was a regular expression for her yet it never conveyed any malice. Just the thrill of a game that never tired #her. “And would you?” she lifted one thick eyebrow; signaling to her dad that it was his move now #The dad in question was unfortunately thinking back to a time in his young teenage years when he figured he could eat anything animals bit #and gave himself a poisoning that had him taken to the ER. But she didn't need to know that. *ever* in fact. #“Obviously I would. Like I'd let a mushroom ruin my perfect sandwich diet” #Meiri groaned loudly. Some games were worth playing. But some wars she'd already accepted she'd never win #“Anyway” he turned back to staring at the outside of the wall as if it was of any interest to him (it wasn't) #“kid'll be fine is my point. And even if she isn't ya know what's the best think about this situation?” #They looked at each other with matching smirks. “none of our flipping business” he said at the same time as she echoed #“None of our fucking business” #He gasped immediatelly. “*Meiri!*” #The chastening was useless. She just shrugged innocently. #He'd really have to limit her library visits #the bell keeper hilda #meirdom #hilda the series #hilda netflix

[juriyuna]

One of my favorite bits of CR trivia is that the Bat knew about both Janomiya and the identity of Torayamachi's "Horse", and chose not to tell Juri about either of these things.

The big fight between Torayamachi and Ryuugasaki in Part 1 would've gone very differently if Juri had known that there was a secret faction plotting to assassinate her and Yuna, and if she and her girls knew to keep an eye out for Hikaru. At the very least, Juri wouldn't have gotten sucker-punched by Ao's axe and rendered out of commission for a few days.

But no. Rather than share any of this vital information with her leader and potentially give their gang the upper hand, the Bat was like "fuck this little bitch I hope she dies"

#it's not even a joke; the bat really did want juri dead #she tried to convince ao to hand over janomiya so they could go kill juri together #so i'm not surprised that she's actively trying to sabotage juri's power by keeping this stuff to herself #magia record #bat of monzenbashi #the most info juri gets is ranka telling her ''apparently torayamachi lost their horse'' #(i assume the bat shared that with ranka since nobody else but yuna knew who the horse was) #but that's like. bare minimum secondhand information. no details. #honestly kind of useless #also i love the potential implication that ranka has to play messenger because the bat hates juri too much to speak to her directly #i mean... she does outright call juri a dumb bitch so they're probably not on great terms with each other

[enbysiriusblack]

mean girls! emmeline, lily, and marlene

#i don't think mary is really mean at all tbh. like she’s one of the most popular in her year (which is usually a mean girl) #but she just. isn't. loves hearing other people's drama but hates being in it herself #she just wants to wear/make pretty clothes and go to discos #WHEREAS HER BESTFRIENDS !! #meanest ever!! #emmeline is so stubborn and hotheaded and looking for drama/a fight. she will read you to fifth and be so honest in the meanest way #lily just does not particularly care about your feelings <\3 like if a first year comes up she is SO nice and helpful. #then someone around her own age approaches her and she is instantly telling them to fuck off. #marlene KNOWS she's being mean but pretends she doesn't. but in her defence she is just being honest. in her opinion. #they will ALL sabotage other people/make them cry without a second thought #i am just realising. #emmeline is gretchen. marlene is karen. and lily is regina. #marauders era #marauders #marlene mckinnon #lily evans #emmeline vance

[fortune-maiden]

85. "I’m not going to be sympathetic until you go to a doctor.”

tgcf, pm or swd to ling wen

Thank you <33

....I think this should have been a more hurt/comfort prompt, but with only 100 words it just became hurt, I'm sorry ;w;

Pei Ming is back again today with new grumbles and demands. So much to be done, all at once, only by her. These days, Ling Wen can barely lift her head. She can barely hear her retort. “And?” There’s a rare edge in his voice. “I’m not going to be sympathetic until you go to a doctor.” Pei Ming knows how to fight. To take away the firewood she needs to stay warm. Day by day he’ll wear her down, getting more outrageous until she finally caves, willingly or forcefully. Ling Wen knows this. Really. But she hates to lose.

I love lw but i also do think she has trapped herself in a vicious cycle of self sabotage

#tgcf #pei ming #ling wen #fortune's drabbles #the vibe i was going for here is lw is sick and refuses to take care of herself #so pm is going to bully her into it because being nice wasn't working (he tried) #(probably swd will come in to be the sun to pm's north wind later) #i have a lot of thoughts about lw and her role in the heavenly bureaucracy xD #from the moment we meet her we clearly can see she's one of THE most important people in heaven #and the whole thing would fall apart without her #and the whole thing DOES fall apart without her later #and I think this is actually a very genuine shock to her (and only her) #i think LW genuinely doesn't know how invaluable she is because she only ever hears complaints #and i think she does live in the fear that if she shows any cracks someone will quickly rush to fill them in and she won't be needed anymor #(so maybe like jw she has some incentive to maintain a very specific atmosphere in the civil court) #(i like my lw with a dash of both complacency and self sabotage)

[howlljenkins]

Alicent really used the "the throne should have been yours by blood and temperament" argument to try and convince Rhaenys to join her in *checks notes* stealing the throne from yet another woman meant for it by blood and temperament?

like girl. i dont think you thought this one all the way through

#sorry for all the hotd shitposts #it's just A Lot(tm) #alicent hightower #rhaenys targaryen #house of the dragon #hotd #hotd spoilers #if alicent would just admit to herself what she really wants so much of this could be avoided #but she can't stand the introspection so it's full steam ahead on the terrible decision train #she's going to sabotage any chance she could've had at happiness #and worse #take everyone else down with her

[someonesomewheredown]

tell me about your fox OCs, is they friends with their own ghost?

Unfortunately, no.

Fireweed (the fox OC this ask refers to) is the second version of herself. The ghost was the original; after dying she ended up going back in time to when she was born. She interpreted this as meaning that she was supposed to make sure that the new her didn't die so that she could go back to being alive. But, since she's a bratty teenager who doesn't even really know how to go about any of this, that mostly involves micro-managing every single aspect of the new Fireweed's life in the hopes that she'll get it right this time. The living Fireweed obviously doesn't like this at all, but she's too scared of dying to really disobey beyond complaining about the situation.

Also when I said the living Fireweed was the second one I was lying. The ghost has been trying to brute force her way to the "correct path" for 100+ attempts now.

#it's funny because ghost!fireweed has learned so much about so many people and places just through trial and error #but at the end of the day her as a person hasn't really changed. she's stuck as an angry teen #she doesn't understand how to go about things in a kinder way because the option was never presented to her when she was alive #and now the living fireweeds are suffering as a result #she's inadvertently put herself in a cycle of self-sabotage #ocs #oc: fireweed #i think that's the tag i used? it's been a while

[starfoam]

//I cannot stress enough how much Lo needs to learn the lesson delivered by Diane Nguyen in Bojack Horseman's "Good Damage".

I also cannot stress enough how much it's gonna hurt her when she finally does.

#She's so powered by this idea that her suffering makes her good... #that wanting and needing is selfish and awful and bad (when it's her) and so her emptiness must be atonement #that she needs to make up for being herself and so her suffering must contribute to that #but it doesn't. Being noble and willing to give things up can be a virtue #but choosing pain almost exclusively isn't nobility. It's not sacrifice. It's just self-destruction. #And I think that lesson will hurt and terrify her because she is /so afraid/ of wanting at this point #that her self-sabotage has become a shield to protect herself from vulnerability and disappointment #I just... AUGH'

[ccheriebomb]

After reading some brain-rotting content, I would like to sincerely say these last words and fuck off from this case forever.

Don’t lie if you don’t want to be sued for defamation.

Don’t lie and don’t instigate violence and abusive behaviour, employ manipulation tactics and literally admit it on tape if you don’t want the world to discredit your claims of abuse and call you an abuser instead.

It’s that fucking simple. If you want people to believe you, don’t fucking lie. If you don’t want people to accuse you of being an abuser, don’t act like one. I know! Sounds stupid, and I can’t believe I even have to say this. But apparently a lot of people don’t understand it.

#she would’ve been completely fine if she didn’t overexaggerate EVERYTHING and lie time and time again about so many things #and of course if she wasn’t an abuser in the first place as shown in the audio tapes #with her photos and his text messages alone she would definitely be believed and supported and sympathised with #but no she had to LIE. even the law is on her side and Rottenborn is not a bad trial lawyer. but SHE sabotaged herself. #justice for johnny depp #anti amber heard #abuse tw #radfems do not interact #terfs do not interact

[distopea]

For Zeffy, any information collected about the Cleaners can be a lethal weapon... against her. 

She doesn't know their methods well, she has fled away before someone among the Cleaners killed her, but being a survivor of that purge means that she can't truly investigate anymore. Yet, Zeffy is potentially the one who could gather the best and most accurate information regarding them. 

During her undercover years, she collected a lot of intel and contacts that are still used by the Cleaners today. She could definitely give a few calls, but she had also learnt to fear someone like Astra. She had never seen him coming when he was a nobody for the Lenio Family, and she had discovered his ruthlessness in the span of only a few months when everyone had been massacred, her teammate as well. She is aware that he will be very careful of names he has tried to kill in the past, her own among them. 

Zeffy fears the cleaners enough to purposely close her eyes whenever she feels that illegal activities could be linked to them. 

#⌇headcanon ( 𝙕𝙚𝙛𝙛𝙮 ) #⌇character study ( 𝙕𝙚𝙛𝙛𝙮 ) #; a fierce lady yes but she knows her limits #; she prefers to survive rather than sacrifice herself #; so we can say she might sabotage Gabriele's work as well...

[hxneylavendxr]

grabs you. what do you mean masuki himeno

the day they announced the collab i spent most of my time zoned tf out fantasizing about bandori chainsaw man roles

masuki as himeno came to mind because she can be mature, tough, and cool in how she presents herself but she actually cares so so so much and can get impulsive about it

hagumi is beam. very obvious after seeing them each hold 1 (one) conversation

kanon or lock seemed perfect for reze's innocent appearance but rokka could literally never have an edge to her, kanon definitely could under reze's circumstances but then i realized i was being stupid because chisato is riiiight there and it is not hypothetical she would she would

and at this point tomoe makes the perfect quanxi

chu2 and rei as akane and samurai sword feels like it can be perfect too...

MOCA HIROFUMIIIII[anvil falls on my head]

aalso rinko is princi

#i was in a big lots thinking about how nanami being a devil with big wings and a halo would fully sabotage her early efforts to be loved #instead of feared & hated so she would effectively be the nihilistic and quiet version of herself we see between middle and high school #making her come in with the steel chair as the best fit to fill the angel devil role #nyx in my ask box #i am normal about the pixels on my screen

[perenlop]

last magireco bitching post for tonight i promise but i think all those people who complain that sayaka and homura are abusive and horrible and unreasonable for the crime of being manipulated and traumatized 14 year olds in awful situations and arent perfect little victims about it should go watch magireco and have their brains implode bc i think yachiyo is like. so much worse

#like yachiyo is actually an adult first of all they say shes in college and has been working for seven years #and i wont deny shes been through shit. shes felt guilty for her wish and watched her friends die #shes still a sympathetic character where u get why shes cold. but GOD the way she treats mifuyu makes me uncomfortable #like she regrets the worst of it when her doppel shows up but the narrative and mifuyu still go #''oh no yachiyo you ARE right to say that tee hee'' #yachiyo gives me the vibe of someone who's like ''well IM suffering because of my choices. so should YOU'' #also how she gets pissed at mifuyu for getting taken into a cult when shes at her lowest #and again keeps calling her weak like. good lord leave her alone #like. at least sayaka has a clear reason for acting the way she does and we see that in the show #shes guilty and traumatized from mami's death and is selfless to a fault #she blames homura for mami's death because of her own prejudices that have been instilled in her by then #she basically self sabotages and hurts herself because she thinks shes worthless compared to mami #she lost her childhood friend who. tbh really WASNT treating her well like obv he doesnt owe her a romance #but hes her childhood friend and he basically constantly brushes her off in the show #and we see more of that in rebellion where he does the same to hitomi #like. sayaka fucks up she gets cruel but you GET why she does it and it feels earned and good for the plot #yachiyo though. part of this is just character bloat and the weird pacing but her nastiness doesnt feel earned #yes season 2 shows that she wants to distance herself from others because her friends died. thats fair #that explains why she was cold in season 1. sure. thats fine that works as an arc and i usually love arcs like this #but then she's cruel to the lower grunts who were absolutely manipulated into the magias #and constantly implies theyre weak #and berates mifuyu (her best friend apparently) for breaking down after learning the truth #because ''oh well we DID accept this. we were idiots after all. lmao get over it and fight again'' #and mifuyu is evil incarnate that must repent forever for. getting dragged into a cult at her lowest moment #after her friend was a dick to her fresh off her trauma. and of course leaving her which gave her Abandonment Issues #god sorry maybe the rest of the show will save it for me maybe itll call out this behavior from her #also it bugs me how even her cold behavior isnt really mentioned and shes just fawned over by the rest of the cast #like. sayaka and homura's behavior was called out as unhealthy and bad for them and the others! #echoed voice

[mushroom-for-art]

Me writing the most self indulgent shit ever known to mankind lmao, also known as putting May through the pain suffering just because but this time it's Digimon, featuring our favourite horrid REDACTED belonging to @oogaboogaspookyman, he's here to be a cunt really, this is pretty dialogue heavy as lmao its basically just him bullying the shit out of her at her weakest point and rambling about things that would've happened previously in the time line and discussing May's troubled relationship post digimon time lmao, again self indulgent I just had these really specific scenes and gotta get them out lmao

Corruption

Digital energy crackled and pixelated from the unusual vortex in front of them, the crowd hushed and murmured in terror as something from within the blackness pushed forwards through into their world. May put herself at the front of the group shielding her siblings from view the best she could as Lopmon stood by her feet, ears spread to look more intimidating. Dripping dark energy pushed from the portal as sparks of red lightning cracked and whipped around shorting nearby electrical appliances as an unfortunately, familiar grinning maws greeted them, it didn't even try to look humanoid as a mouth closed and opened into a black eye with a frantic white pupil. The pupil bounced around scanning over the horrified faces of the people as its many mouths pulled into delighted grins with teeth large and sharp, a deep echoing laugh coming from each mouth and even the visible eye as it surveyed the terror gladly eating it up before its eye fell upon the three siblings narrowing to a pinpoint before blowing wide in entertainment and excitement.

"How, small and pitiful you all look, my even tinier than you were before."

It's voice mocked from its eyeball, still laughing from its mouths, the eye blinked into a mouth as other mouths closed and opened into eyes scanning around in an erratic manner, though more so to make them uncomfortable, this beast didn't know fear.

"I bet I could splatter you like insects right now, decorate your disease ridden world with your bright gorgeous blood."

"Then why don't you, you Prick." May's voice was cold and sharp as she glared taking a challenging step forward, "oh yea I know why, because you can't interact with this world, your data is too much and you can't fully come through so you just sit there and taunt trying to make us scared, trying to terrify people while you plot a way into this world. It didn't work last time though did it? And I'm not going to fucking let you try again." An eye fell upon her watching her as its other mouths twisted and contorted out of shape.

"Then why don't you come and stop me?"

It asked simply as it started to pull backwards into the portal, the pavement splitting from the ground beginning to float as the portal moved awkwardly into the sky, the slabs of pavement swirling around it as the creature grinned at them.

"Well, digidestine? Can you stop me this time? Or have you already lost too much?"

As its form disappeared, May could only grit her teeth as Lopmon looked up at her for guidance.

"We can't go through that portal May, times synced now in the digital world, we'll lose real time here. Let some other people deal with it, we can't be the digidestine anymore." Her sister spoke behind her and May looked at in confusion and disbelief at what she was hearing, even Salmon looked uncomfortable at the idea they weren't going to do something nuzzling into her sisters leg, May opened her mouth to argue that there was no one else they'd met no other younger digidestine.

"No." Matts voice snapped, "look you might have gotten out of that ordeal fine 10 years ago, but some of us did lose too fucking much!" His voice was a snarl as he moved to touch where his lower arm had been removed from his body, Labramon whimpered against Matt as he crouched on the floor, guilt and shame washing through May making her heart hurt. "You might not be so lucky next time, I wasn't." His words stabbed into her as she looked at him, her sister nodded a bit awkwardly adding.

"We got really banged up last time, I mean, you've seen the scars I got, you've seen what happened to Matt, you got off easy but you're not indestructible." May's hands clenched into fists, their words becoming poisoned jabs, snide hateful remarks for years and years, snipping snapping biting into her over and over as her eyes became wet with frustration.

"Fine. I wasn't even going to fucking ask you to come. I'll fucking deal with this myself." She turned walking away from them quickly, "let the weakest link smash that cunts face in!" Her voice a frustrated yell as she leapt onto a floating pave slab with Lopmon leaping up behind her following.

"May don't be fucking stupid for once in your life!" Her sisters words fell on deaf ears as she leapt and flipped up the platforms with acrobatic precision, ignoring her sister cussing her out insulting her, as she got closer to the portal the air felt static like as Lopmon flew up besides her, digital energy engulfed them both as they disappeared through the dark of the portal.

The local advertising screens came to life displaying the digital island they'd found themselves upon years ago as Dianamon landed gracefully but with force. She walked with a dangerous tremor in her step, "Where are you?! Come out you coward. Let's end this!" May and Lopmons voice overlapped creating an almost new voice as they scowled around looking for the black ink beast. She heard him laughing before she saw him, barely dodging a large black spike that ripped through the ground and would have went right through her.

"My my, all on your own? No siblings to back you up? No lover? Oh yes I forgot, he replaced you didn't he?"

She slashed at him with her moon sickle slicing through the black inky body as the ink fell to the ground with a splat before crawling away to a larger mass of blackness as the creature took form again, still inhuman with eyes and teeth grinning at her. She lunged at him again swinging and striking with her weapon, retreating to draw back her bow and shoot arrows through his inky substance splatting it off and watching it disintegrate. She wasn't going to amuse his games. Despite her attacking he seemed pleased simply reforming lost mass to sustain himself as he dodged or allowed her to slash his form just to pull himself up somewhere else.

"I suppose it does make sense. I mean, you always held them together, you were the link in their chain that strengthened them and how do they respond to that?"

He laughed a wicked laugh as a morphed pale form of her sister pulled through the black slime walking towards her with hollow black eyes. When it spoke it used her voice, it sounded distant like a recording rather than the vocal mimicry it did for its usual voice.

"Why do you always ruin things for me?! You're so fucking selfish you know why are you even in this fucking contest?! You just want to show me up! And are you happy?! I only came second because you fucked with my brain! Why the fuck would you go 'best of luck sis', don't you have any idea how much fucking pressure that puts on me to perform well when I know you're just going to do better?! You're such a shitty person sometimes May, I wish you'd fucking disappear sometimes!!"

Her sisters voice screamed at her even if it felt distant, May leapt back as the fake hollow version of her sister collapsed into black sludge as his voice laughed mockingly before tutting.

"Aw, now that really wasn't very kind."

It doubled over on itself laughing as its mouths snapped with teeth and its eyes rolled around.

"I mean, she was right, you were always better at the gymnast stuff. That must put an awful lot of pressure on her, funny though, you never ever won, not even third."

It straightened to look at her twisting it's head as it leant forward, it's body turned to sludge by another swing of the moon blade but that didn't stop it talking.

"Kind of stupid of her not to notice, why did you never tell her huh? Why did you ruin your own performances with rookie mistakes on purpose to receive worse points when she hated you for even being there? For daring exist?"

She gripped her weapon tightly, not giving it the satisfaction of an answer as it cackled dark ink encircling her and grabbing at her ankles before she slashed it away and flew up to avoid his mocking grabs.

"Oh that's right, because you loved her or something. When was the last time she was kind to you May? When was the last time you felt loved by your sister and not just shame and hatred?"

Dianamon shook her head to rid his voice from her ears, she couldn't afford to think of individual components right now, she was Dianamon now, she can be May later, she couldn't risk dedigivolving and losing her advantage. It seemed to sense her struggling shooting up black tendrils that slammed her back into the ground with a sickening crunch of something and a horrid gasp of pain from the celestial Digimon as she forced herself to her feet before the ink tried to consume her.

"You really struggle and fight so much for people that seem to loathe you, most of the world doesn't know you exist and yet here you are fighting to try to save it, but when has the world ever done anything for you? I know none of you received acknowledgement for what happened ten years ago, doesn't that make your blood boil in rage? That you risked life and well, your brothers limb and all you got was the terror and fear screaming, crying for help as you cradled your unconscious brother as his arm bled new blood."

Its mouth quirked into a wicked smile as her expression darkened knowing it had touched a nerve. She slashed and attacked with everything she had yelling in anger and pain trying to destroy him as his corrupted data mass remained consistent allowing flecks to crumble away to make a form to be slashed to keep her eye to exhaust her as it laughed at her torment. From the ink a pale Matt formed looking at her with bleeding black eyes as it too approached her.

"Look you might have gotten out of that ordeal fine 10 years ago, but some of us did lose too fucking much!"

His voice was distant like a recording once more as it parroted back things that had been said. More and more words came from its blackened mouth phrases that she'd heard throughout the years since coming back, passive aggressive 'good for you's, snarly snapping remarks, and things she hadn't heard, spiteful bitter whispers of 'why me', a cold harsh 'it should have been her,' that made her throat go dry and heart almost clench as though grabbed and crushed, Dianamon couldn't afford to cry and yet her eyes watered and her grip on her weapon trembled.

Once more the pale clone copy collapsed back into the blackness as it taunted and laughed.

"What a cruel thing to say! He said it often as well, oh how he wished you had suffered instead of him, he thinks it's unfair, unjust, that he didn't deserve it, how funny he believes that you in turn did deserve it. Its quite funny actually! I suppose it's because you never told him the full truth did you? I mean, you wouldn't have dared he lost his arm. Who are you to tell him it was going to be worse? And that you stopped it being worse like some savior when he was going through such a horrible affair, you would've looked like quite the dick, I can understand why you kept it to yourself."

Dianamons made more empty slashes at her tormentor, snarling "JUST SHUT UP AND DIE! I'LL DESTROY US BOTH IF IT STOPS YOU FUCKING TALKING!!" But it only cackled at her swirling and forming eyes and taunting mouths as it without her knowledge began to destroy the data around them, disintegrating trees and rocks leveling the area slowly.

"How fittingly self-destructive. You always did value others more than yourself."

Another hollow pale form, this time herself, or well the form of May, Dianamon struggled to maintain its own identity as the voice of May parroted from the past spoke.

"Please god don't hurt him! He's my baby brother, please you can take anything from me, humans, we have all kinds of interesting organs! Yea yea, I'll trade you, you could have my kidney! And you give him back yes? Please, I am begging you please take from me don't hurt him my skin, my hair, my eyes, my lungs Fuck you could take my heart kill me right now just just please, please let him go, please, he means too much to me I will do anything just don't please don't take him from me please"

Dianamons eyes watered uncomfortably at sickening memories from the past, her brother unconscious as an Archnemon regards him for experimentation for devouring planning to hack him apart and then dissolve his flesh. The hollow stared forward and through her before screaming horribly as it was cut open by nothing, Dianamon tearing her eyes away cringing and exhaling a shaky breath through her nose at they remembered the sensation of large hands plunging into her guts and pulling out what it wanted, the carving of her organs and the teeth, the horrid teeth that sank into her wound ripping her flesh away from her body and the sickening enjoyment the Archnemon had taken from the experience, helplessly caught in the creature web, and then the guilt and horror as it took a cleavor and-

Dark tendrils slammed her chest sending her flying backwards hitting the ground and bouncing slightly as she cried out her weapon flying from her hands and disintegrating before it hit the ground as she weakly hauled herself into a kneel.

"That was a dirty move." She snapped, but her component's were struggling, tears ran out of one eye at the guilt of not being able to stop the twisted digimon from taking her brothers arm. It only laughed at her in enjoyment feeling her terror, guilt and pain with great satisfaction. She pulled herself to stand but her body was struggling, the phantom pains still ripping away at her body as she shuddered, she'd never told anyone about what happened, not the truth at least. Dianamon shook her head, May had never told anyone but she was not May right now.

Black ink shot out in the form of a large hand grabbing her body and began to squeeze before she could even move, her armor crushing uncomfortably into her body as the entity pulled itself up out the ink and took on a painfully familiar form, it copied the face and body of, someone May once cared deeply for, another crush from the hand engulfing her body and Dianamon faded. Lopmon fell to the ground with a weak groan as May remained crushed in the grip.

"Lopmon run!" May attempted to struggle as the tired rookie pushed itself to stand stumbling before the ink wrapped around its body dragging the bunny-like digimon by its ankles to the twisted form of May's old crush. They tried to attack, opening their mouth weakly to summon energy before the pale humanoid grabbed its mouth shut harshly with a snarl.

"Behave little one, would be a shame to destroy something that could be of use to me. Besides, i'll kill your human if you're a brat."

Lopmon whimpered but couldn't fight, too injured and tired from being Dianamon, and May was weakening too. It looked over at her and slowly the large hand pulled down into the earth releasing and leaving her standing though with difficulty she swayed and gave a weak glare as it scoffed at her before it was right in front of her with astonishing speeds it's pale hands grabbing her face, Lopmon tossed aside, as it arched over her threateningly, grinning with too many teeth at the wonderful fear from her.

"You've always intrigued me, such fight such love and for what?"

It's grip tightened threateningly on her face as she tried to pull away and shake her head sinking in claws to draw blood making her still as Lopmon was restrained in dark inky tendrils, the surroundings barren now save for his corrupting black ink.

"Don't make me pop out your eyeballs~"

It's tone faked sweetness as his thumbs pressed under her eyes threateningly.

"It's a shame he gave you up the way he did, choosing another woman while you were kept apart by distance, it's like everything you went through meant nothing to him, like he didn't care about the bantering you shared, the stories the company, do you think he thought of you as much as you him? It must hurt knowing you don't matter so much to someone, that they can replace you just like that."

A finger snapped for emphasis on another arm before it disappeared, his tone was quieter than usual it was almost sympathetic comforting as her eyes began to water against her control, tears rolling down her cheeks as she struggled to breathe, all the repressed feelings all the times she made herself be strong crashing down on her so now she was weak, bubbling pathetically under her worst enemies watching gaze as she cried against her control. She was unloved and despised, she wasn't enough for the people she cared deeply about and she couldn't stop him she couldn't protect them she couldn't save the world from his plans to destroy it and now he was going to kill her, and the worst part was she was alone. The people she loved weren't coming to save her. Her breathing choked as her knees felt weak. She wanted to rip his hands from her face to just collapse and cry to pull her eyes away but he held her firm and her eyes were locked to his.

"Sweet little thing, all alone and unloved. You tried so hard to be the best you could be and to be good enough, you sacrificed so much of yourself, didn't you?"

She choked a breath, her head nodding against her control as her knees gave out and desperately grabbing at his arms fearing that she would fall and he would simply pull and rip her head from her body, but the tug never came, his hands didn't move as she gripped to him weakly her body slightly limp as his thumbs wiped against her cheeks in a way that was almost soothing if she wasn't so terrified for why he was acting this way, she was so so tired, every moment her energy seemed to be sapped. Was this his plan? Cradle her till she expired, taking her life energy? Maybe he was going to take her body upon her last breath turning her into a puppet to get to the real world. She could only fear more at every passing second.

She could feel the ink starting to crawl up her body, oh god he was going to turn her into a flesh puppet for his data. She didn't even have the energy to struggle.

"You're so tired aren't you? So tired of not being enough for some people, tired of hurting in silence, tired of thinking, tired of existing, tired of hurting because of other people. You just want to stop thinking don't you? Stop worrying, stop hurting. I can make all that go away, empty your mind of all that aching all that anguish, I wouldn't hurt you like he would. "

As she stared up at him his face began to slowly slide off and melt almost before his face fell and splattered black flesh and liquid right onto her face, she gasped in horror choking on the foul ink as it slid down her throat and up her nose and crawled into her eyes, she tries to struggle but her body couldn't move wanting to cough up the black corruption but only choking further as he threw his body backwards to howl in laughter removing his hands from her face as she collapsed from choking and the blackness already wrapped around her legs. He watched her spluttering on the floor on her back, black liquid bubbling up out her mouth as she choked and her eyes turned black, the corruption engulfed her pulling her down into itself with only a few bubbles as the last of her breath was taken. The creature grinned as its form became twisted once more, despising the humanoid guise it needed to use.

He hadn't been lying, he had always been intrigued by that one, she was just so corruptible, pushed to the edge of darkness by those around her every day, they really did all the hard work for him. Once he was through with her well he could have his fun before disposing of the last of the filth known as humanity, but until then he now held a very powerful ace, a Kelpymon and a digidestine corrupt to his whim. It glanced over to a patch of pixelated space, knowing the human world could see him and could only grin as the fear, they were right to be afraid of him. He slashed his claw through it ending the connection, laughing to himself, he shouldn't have been surprised by the lack of help really, May was the link that strengthened the chain, with her gone well all that was left was the coward and the clown, as for his human guise well he had his own better life now, why would he risk it. What a blight on this world. Selfish creatures. Horrid creatures. Oh well. They'll all get what they deserve.

#My writing #Self indulgent digimon au #Oc May #@oogaboogaspookyman REDACTED #Tw eyeballs #Tw corruption #Tw self destructive behaviour #Me holding my self indulgent crap lmao #Context uh its been 10 years in the time line Mays obviously been saddled with guilt over Matts arm despite the horrors she went through #Her sister hating her for being better at her at gymnastic acrobatic stuff and misplacing blame on her for her own fuck ups #Even as may sabotaged her own success in something she enjoyed making herself miserable and further hated by her sister #And she hasn't seen monochrome as like they live in different areas but did manage to stay in touch #Unfortunately..he moved on in that time and ya know naturally found someone in his area so kinda a horrible discovery for May #Cause they come to visit to celebrate 10 years since saving a thing in monochrome home town and seeing him moved on well..it hurt..a lot #She'd imagined she'd come see him he'd grab her in his arms spin her around and then hold her and kiss her and kiss her #And all she can do is swallow dryly and say its nice to meet the girl he's now with #I'm sorry I'm not immune to heart break angst #And REDACTED rocks up and goes 👀 and wiggles his eyebrows at the camera because opportunityyyy #Hence him just mercilessly ripping into her #He knew shed chase after him and fall for the bait so he could get her alone but oh the deliciousness of her siblings pushing her away more #Also dianamon is a biomerge digivolution alt mega form as a treat I like to give my characters a bio and normal mega lmao. #Dianamon is like a fusion in a sense and like can be broken if one part becomes unstable they gotta be in sync #REDACTED really just *gentle persuasion* on May drowning her in his corruption smothering her sweetly #He probably is sapping her energy as she just weakens into moldable putty for him to play with and mold into a controllable puppet #Idk was feeling some kinda way about it he's mock kind mock sweet a bitter candy poisoned sugar telling her empty sweet nothings #It's only because he knows she's so weak that she's at an absolute breaking point peak vulnerablity. He'll probably tear her apart later #When he doesn't need her anymore just tears her limbs off spills her guts ect #I won't lie briefly a corrupting kiss passed into my mind but I always wanted his face to melt off onto her cause he is the horror lmao #Cause there's nothing more unsettling than someone's face just splatting onto urs. Plus her choking on his corruption #Plus to some degree he knows monochrome can see this probably so he's being mock sweet to jab at him like I'm stealing ur exgf BITCH